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actualsunflower · 3 years

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I have a huge life update to share rn--- My top surgery consultation is scheduled for July 5th!!!! I’M SO EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!! I’ve also been vaccinated!! :D ANNNDDD MY LEGAL NAME AND SEX HAVE BEEN CHANGEDD!!!!! :DDDD kind of a lot has happened since I’ve been actually active around here But now I guess is the much harder part, my official surgery date will be set at the consultation, but there’s a required $1,000 fee to set the official date for my surgery. The $1,000 covers a portion of the surgery as well, and the base price for the surgery is $8,500. I’ll get the exact price on July 5th, but that’s their base rate. I need to earn or raise at least $1,000 of the total cost before July 5th to secure my surgery date!! I’m going to take commissions when I can, I have 1 almost entirely complete right now and then I can take on more! I’m gonna have a more detailed explanation of everything under the cut so this isnt super super long so pls read under there if you want all the deets Pls consider commissioning me or donating so I can get top surgery!! read more for more info and me being sappy abt my emotions--

I’ve waited so long for this and I’m fricken excited, it’s the last step in transitioning for me! It really means everything for me, I feel like I’ve been waiting forever and I can’t believe it’s finally happening !?!!! I am forever in everyones debt here and everywhere because I never wouldve even been able to start hrt if it wasn’t for the help here. I’m just so. Overwhelmed with emotion and gratitude I cant even tell how many times Ive cried and just felt like... actual gender euphoria since starting t..

So abt the appointment, I’m getting surgery with Dr. Javad Sajan, and I’m getting button hole double incision. Im serious his before and after pictures make me so emotional I am so happy and emotional for those people and I cannot wait to feel that kind of happiness and relief. But a big problem about this for me, is that he is in Seattle, and I live in southern Oregon. I can’t drive, so I have to rely on someone else, or take the train from a nearby city (Eugene). My consultation is over skype (which is amazing and a huge relief), but my pre-op appointment is in person, and of course so is the actual surgery. We’re planning on taking the train from Eugene because it seems to be the most reliable way to get there and back each time. Aside from my surgery, I’ve got to cover the price of the trip there and back (twice, once there and back for pre-op, once there and back post op,) and the price of a place to stay during the pre-op appointment. Right now my goal cost wise, is just the booking and base appointment price ($8,500, that’s including the $1,000 appointment setting deposit, which is just a part of the surgery cost and the base covers everything, surgery, the stay at the hospital, nips, anesthesia, everything). The full price is due at the pre-op appointment, and that’s the final bill. My insurance doesn’t cover anything because it’s out of state and county, and because its informed consent model. (which Im choosing because Id have to battle insurance for 2 years minimum if I was getting the surgery in Oregon, but I am very set on my surgeon after considering everything and calling many offices and looking through many subreddits and talking to ppl who’ve gotten it here and there) A lot of this information is on their site as well. As soon as I have my consultation, I will be right here to update everything and set the exact price, which I’ll also be including the price of transportation and staying there. As for paying, I’ve been applying to so many jobs, and even when I get interviews I never hear back from them. People keep telling me to stop admitting I’m disabled but I just can’t do that. Lying about being disabled doesnt make me abled and they don’t get that. I’m still trying though, and I am not going to stop trying until I get a job. But until then commissions and donations are my only source of income. I’ve been struggling getting help psychologically, because I have schizophrenia, and because I was diagnosed with adhd as a child, but I think I’m actually autistic rather than having adhd, and it’s been really hard trying to get diagnosed because I keep getting pushed off or told I cant have autism because I have paranoid schizophrenia or because its “just adhd”, but the medications are just making everything worse, and Ive tried more than one already. My medications for schizophrenia have started not working right, and when my schizophrenia meds get under control, it makes my adhd (?) significantly worse. Genuinely, I really dont know what’s happening. I really dont know whats going on with me right now and it’s hard and confusing and I keep swinging back and forth and it’s making everything deteriorate so fast I cant keep up with it. It seriously effects my ability to do anything at all, even art, and its been like this for the last 6 months. I am trying though, still trying to work, still trying to get a job, still trying to get a real diagnosis and help and Im not going to stop any of that. But I think getting top surgery as soon as possible is going to help me too, because dysphoria has just gotten so much worse focusing on my chest since t has started helping me pass and look so much more masculine. It’s like all my attention went from everything DIRECTLY to my chest and its almost unbearable. Even now since my sex has been legally changed I keep having the horrible thoughts of ‘why, why I am a man Im not supposed to be this way’ and shit idk. I’m getting too serious right now I have an appointment with the dmv to get a new updated driver’s permit with my name and fixed legal sex, and when I do that I can set up a bank account (I cant yet bcs I dont have a valid id/ id at all because I actually lost the other one and have been carrying around that paper one you’re supposed to destroy that is literally from 2016) and when I do, I’m going to set up a proper gofundme for my surgery and the travel expenses, but for now all I have is my paypal and online banking savings account. I’ll get that up asap once I have my id, though (Ive already been to the bank with my notarized judge passed papers and they wont take those yeah I know it’s stupid its like the same thing) But uhhh yeah! Thank you for reading this far if you did lol and considering helping me bcs my god, it literally means everything to me. pls share hehe

#commission info #donation post #i know it seems like all i do is cry about needing money #but my god. bitches really do be needing money #its me im bitches #top surgery fund #help yer local transmasc flower #pls

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slightly-gay-pogohammer · 5 years

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If I may ask, why do you think Steven Universe isn't good? I'm genuinely curious about your criticisms of the show.

oof ok

consider that this is a criticism from someone who didn’t watch much of it, and got most of the show p much spoiled from tumblr. i know where we are literally just because of ppl i follow and mutuals :°)and let me also premise that yes, i’m gonna beat a dead horse with my criticism and that i am, in fact, really damn happy it’s so open when it comes to lgbt characters

also consider this comes mostly as a criticism for the show from someone who studied art for a good total of 8 years and storytelling from 3, not towards the fandom itself because that would mean open a completely different can of worms and i have way harsher opinion on it or whoever watches the show, especially children . if you like it, that’s great and i’m glad you are seeing something i clearly don’t

i wanna start with something regarding the visuals bc. off. everyone and their dogs talked about the lack of consistency between art styles, and again - i grew up with comics in which many artists worked on it, i’m aight with change of art styles and even proportions whenever a new artist is drawing the scenes.but when literal character heighs and proportions change between frames, that’s. bad.and so is the coloring choices, lapis in particular is so bright it hurts to watchplus let’s be honest i’m not the biggest fan of the current Everything Is Round style any show is following.i really like the backgrounds tho. theyre pretty.

following the same art style situation, for a show that’s mostly about fighting and dancing i always found it very stiff when it comes to animations. the characters ironically enough rarely go off model, most dance or fighting moves seems terribly forced or way too slow, and it doesn’t feel like they’re actually hitting eachother most of the time. i saw a proper punch being thrown literally only when jasper was on screen, and that’sbad.and honestly, when it comes to anything regarding this, i’ll make it short and say ‘go watch robobuddies video about it’, because she talks in details about what i really don’t like when it comes to animation in the show

i. really can’t bring myself to like a lot of characters. on a side, i like seeing actually complex characters - when i saw what they were going with for pearl, lapis and amethyst especially i was impressed, but most of them seems to either have to re-learn the same lesson over and over or have the lesson they learn completely messed up at the end of the day

this goes especially for characters such as the three beforementioned and uh. lars i think? the space pirate guy.pearl ended up being into her owner, throwing her ‘i’m more than a pearl someone owns’ lesson out of the window, and got over rose by falling for someone who looks a lot like her, amethyst’s problems were pretty much shoved out of the way, lars had a good character development after re-learning not to be prick over and over but had to literally die for it and. pretty much happened off screenand oof. oof lapis. oof.

their take on very heavy issues is. flawed. very flawed. again, especially regarding lapis. they wanted her to come out as a victim of an abusive relationship, just to make her not only admit she was the one who used jasper, but also made her veeeeery toxic towards peridotwhich, by the way, is one of the few characters i actually genuinely 100% love and i’d die for peridot she deserves better

do i have to talk about the human zoo? do i???? i’d rather not bc oof

yes i’m gonna say that there’s always way too many filler episodes, everyone talked about it, moving on

i don’t wanna open the bismuth’ can, i guess that pretty much everyone can see what’s wrong with that episode, but this leads to another big issue.a show that is about actually overcoming a dicatorship can’t end in “but we don’t have to use violence”.

‘violence is not the solution and talking to make people understand their mistakes’ it’s a VERY important lesson for kids to understand. i mean it. as simple as it could be, pulling an undertale would’ve been very, very good for kids - when the antagonists are someone like the french fry head guy, lars and that one dude who flirted with stevonnie, and honestly also jasper, blinded by her loyalty, and that one racist guy uncle i dont fucking know. making people grow up, understand why theyre in the wrong and find a good start from there is very improtant for children - and from what i saw from the fandom, it’s also a lesson some adults should learnthe problem is that the main villains of this show own slaves, took over entire planets, addempted to kill you and your family several times and actually committed genocide. this is by far the biggest criticism i have towards the show, especially bc when i first saw the diamonds i.i really liked them. they were fuckin good villains. the peridot redemption arc is one of the few parts of the show i managed to follow properly and yellow diamond at the end was terrifying! blue diamond having no problems killing two girls because they dared to fusion was terrifying!! pink diamond/rose could’ve been an AMAZING villain protagonist!! bitch white diamond is one of the few things that got me interested again to see where the show was actually going with her because OOF let me tell ya she was by far one of the best designs for a villain, and i love myself some soft spoken mother gothel wannabe as a final boss.

and they fuckin

they just.

yall

i’m sorry but “oh he’s our sister so now we’re good’ was an awful outcome for them.

i’m sorry but steven going “hey dw i forgive you” means nothing when one of his moms was about to die just because she existed

this show has potential, but for every single step foreward it does it makes 5 back whenever they decide to follow their “nobody needs to get hurt and nobody is really evil” route. the way they handled the main plot of the show even more flawed than how they wrote rose as

and that’s the issue. the show had a GREAT premise and then shot itself in the foot. and i’m glad that more shows try to work on rapresentation bc so far it’s the only thing that keeps the show going for many as far as i know

also didnt they like steal the whole gem thing from houseki no kuni or somet-

#should i tag it as su critical?#i have my fair amount of issues with the criticals too so idk :^)#gio replies #Anonymous

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phanbliss · 5 years

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i'm asking out of a place of wanting to understand, so please don't assume i am accusing you or attacking you, but regarding a post you reblogged recently, it was an ask where templeofshame claimed that if dnp weren't together it would be kind of like "baiting" us but i really don't think that's fair? they haven't EVER said or pretended to be in a closeted relationship, only been friends that joke a bit about their occasionally romantic tendencies, i have friends who think me pt.1

this ask is long due to there being several messages, so i’m putting it under a cut. the post in question: x

me and my best friend are together when we’re really not. we’ve said so, but eventually just stopped denying the claim while occasionally joking about it. i think its unfair of us to act like they owe us something? they don’t owe us a “coming out” (i agree with op tho that coming out has issues of it own, but its the most relevant term) neither do they have to tell us if they aren’t together.

however we perceive their relationship is our business, and as long as we aren’t toxic about it pt. 2 then really we shouldn’t care about ppl calling us “silly shippers” cause shipping them isn’t weird or rude, i, myself, truly believe they are together, but i don’t think that they owe us anything. they are real people with their own complex lives that we may not understand, heck, that THEY may not understand and they are just living their truth. for whatever reason, they may feel that they don’t want to tell people that they’re in a relationship (if they are in one) pt. 3but neither do they feel the need to (and in my opinion, shouldn’t feel the need to) explain and clarify their status to us.

it isn’t in any way baiting or manipulation. if we decide to invest our lives and our time into writing fanfics and making art then that is our choice! they are obviously fine with it so long as it isn’t shoved in their faces, but they don’t owe us clarification, maybe i’m misunderstanding something, i just don’t think it’s fair to say that they are being manipulative pt.4simply by being themselves?

they are their own people with their own reasons for keeping private or not telling us. they have never pretended like phan is real, have even denied it in the past, never made merch or something that has catered to shippers specifically. they have simply let us be (even if dan was quite rude about it before, but i believe he has improved a lot over the years) and made some quips about it. they choose to share parts of their lives with us and however pt5 the phandom reacts to that is our “issue”.

in summary, i believe that it is unfair to say that if they aren’t together it means we have been baited and manipulated and “wasted our time” because i really don’t think that’s fair to the good times we have had while shipping them. they are real people that owe us nothing about their private lives and can hide or reveal as much or as little as they want. i do believe that some people DO “queerbait” irl, especially ytbrs, but dnp have never pt.6acted fake or overly romantic to seem like they’re in love, their bond, in my opinion is genuine, and whatever we read into that is valid, but it doesn’t mean that they owe us an explanation.

i think i should end this now, but before i go, know that i do NOT intend this to be a dig at anyone, just wanted to share my perspective and ask your opinion about what i’ve just shared. i just see ppl acting like dnp could qb us and it kind of makes me think. have a nice day, take care, peace out! end

ooof anon, i appreciate that you sent this to me, but i’m really not the right person for it! i’m not one of the smart people in this fandom, nor one of the cool ones, so discussing things with me over anon is not as fun and rewarding as sending an ask to one of the popular people haha. but i’ll reply with my thoughts anyway!

we’ve had discussions about this on IDB before and my opinion hasn’t changed since the last time i said anything on this subject.

TO BEGIN WITH: i in no way believe they are consciously encouraging the shipping to make money. they are two people in a long term relationship that navigate a difficult world of being queer, being popular and trying to stay private.

1) “me and my friend” - while i definitely appreciate and understand that, we have to try to not compare dnp to ourselves if we want to make a proper point. i could say that me and my friend x haven’t talked in 2 years but i still consider them a friend, which doesn’t mean that it’s the norm for everyone - same goes for the “me and my friend” arguments concerning dnp. i don’t mean you necessarily, i mean things i’ve seen over the years. “me and my friend always say i love you! we live together! we spend all our time together! we’re platonic!” - that’s awesome but it doesn’t mean anything about dnp

2) i don’t think @templeofshame acted like dnp owe us anything. i took it more as like at this point, dnp admitting to having been platonic this whole time (lol i’m laughing while typing this) would have been a form of queerbaiting. templeofshame never said they owe us a “coming out” or anything like that

3) you have to remember that their audience is largely queer. to a lot of the younger fans, they are some sort of role models and maybe even eye-openers when it comes to their [fans’] own sexuality. they are most likely aware of this and definitely accept it.

4) the biggest thing i guess i should explain is why i believe that them having been platonic this whole time would have been some form of queerbaiting and… and there is no way to put it while still being nice? so forgive me, this is my opinion and i’m not trying to start drama.

they DEFINITELY benefit off phan. they have since the start (or at least dan). back in their younger days, people didn’t really ship them as much as assume they were a couple, that’s how they behaved and most people would jump to that conclusion. when shit hit the fan (vday + general life stress) and dan started lashing out, shipping got real hard. and dnp could have left it there, could have left shipping as that elephant in the room that we’re not allowed to mention, but no

slowly, gradually, they went back to accepting shipping. they haven’t denied anything in years and in many ways they encourage it. and really, no one will make me believe that they - as in the joint brand of dan and phil - would be as popular as they are without the shipping. lots of people watch them for their chemistry and hear of them through phan. they themselves no longer shy away from it - see tatinof fanfic scenes, their fanfics in tabinof, all sorts of things i’m too tired to mention - lots of recent things from this year.

so yeah, i believe they are very aware of phan and accept it, and if they accepted it while being two bros in ~other relationships~ or ~perpetually single~ then yeah, i would feel it’s wrong. not because they said something outright but because 9+ years of certain behaviors are as good as admitting to it.

they are basically out at this point, both as not being straight and being a couple, and i’m happy they got there on their own terms.

bottomline - i firmly believe they’re together and all that is missing is an actual confirmation - which we don’t ‘need’ - but if they weren’t together, we’d be right to be upset by this point.

idk if this answered your ask but i’m really tired and as i said, i’m dumb so you’re better off asking someone cooler than me hah :)

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unproduciblesmackdown · 5 years

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3 am’s a crazy time for it but it occurs to me i may as well give a heads up that i am like, for real at the present assuming that i’m gonna like, sometime in the very near future here be going offline again, in that sort of my ~plan~ (my one-step plan) is seeing if i can get myself on a bus (hopefully) and see if that can get me to the west coast. and from there i’ll just be like, well here i am in a place i’ve never been before, being unhoused for the second time but this time not living in my car, which is a bit different than living right out in the open, which i’ve never done. this, for example, is why i was looking up how to do makeshift stp devices. way easier to be able to pee wherever you are than have to find a place you can drop your whole pants, or an actual bathroom. apparently cutting the end off one of those plastic liquid medicine measuring things with the sorta spoon at its mouth works. anyways

i suppose it hasn’t necessarily showed but for a few weeks now i’ve def been feeling The Impending Pressure and it was getting down to the wire there not knowing if the Last Day Online would spring itself on me suddenly. but i can at least say i think i’ll have a days warning now and be able to say something with at least a matter of hours forewarning and not like, a matter of minutes. its been sorta wild though like, sorta assuming its like a Two Days Remain situation and in the midst of the unpredictability of depression, trying to just enjoy things as they’re happening, the simple stuff like chatting with people and being able to put my bullshit thoughts online...cranking out a fic chapter because it’s at least a better place to leave it hanging than it wouldve been otherwise.....just consuming this content that’s enjoyable and chill af.......i tell ya what—both in terms of being Fun and Anxiety-Reducing and Good Distractions and also, a great opportunity just to be talking to people on the daily which has been and continues to be absolutely fantastic—having been On that deh/etc will roland train for the past couple months has been a total gift. it was some great luck stumbling into that, seriously

anyways it’s weird! it’s weird thinking just like, i’ll suddenly do this thing and be on the other coast and just step out and be somewhere i don’t know and with no particular destination and maybe the lgbt center i looked up will at least tell me whats the best area to be in, sometimes they’re in the know abt that re: where’s a better spot to be homeless in than others. and from there, y’know, all i’ve been doing for years and all i can continue to do is absolutely wing it. and it’s funny that this all seems slightly less intimidating to me than it wouldve like, a year or two ago (even tho two yrs ago i was technically homeless lol but living in my car so like i said its different from living Right on the street) but honestly, obviously, it’s still very intimidating because how could it not be. i’m maybe not AS anxious but i’m still anxious and even though i know i could do it, i’d be stressed tf out and anxious as hell and shit while i was doing it. i mean, a crosscountry bus ride alone—i’ve never done that!! what if i mess up switching over to a different connecting ride between stations. bus and train bathrooms unnerve me, god forbid i have to get past someone to get to the aisle to GO to the bathroom. and, yknow, just a really long bus ride—how do you manage to sleep, how do i manage not to fall asleep at the wrong time cuz i doubt there’s an attendant telling you to get off at the right stop. though god knows it’s somewhat arbitrary where i’m deciding to go, i have no especial connection in one particular place over another, i think i have an uncle and cousin in CA but i don’t have the first idea where and i don’t know them at all

ugh. like there’s no actual way to feel good about it but if i’m gonna go somewhere it might as well be in a completely different place and i could try the west coast and i’m not one for making careful plans or thinking that making careful plans about your life works unless you’ve already got a lot of control about your situation, which i don’t. and it’s always been p inevitable that i wind up “properly” homeless, and it happens, and i don’t pretend it doesn’t scare me, but what are you gonna do? c’est ca que c’est / la vie. this way there’s a chance that A Big Change might lead the way for something better, and like hey if i die or some shit i die, which has always been a possibility anyways for the past like 6-7 years especially, what with how shitty i’ve felt lol. but i have no attachment where i’m at now and just. it’s hard to explain i guess if you’re not in the kind of place where i’m at but there’s not a lot of choices in the first place so, if i can choose the location, if it can be somewhere new where i MIGHT like to be for once, that’s better than not. and somehow so far i’ve managed to go with the flow surrounding big changes and sometimes wild situations, even if i’ve felt like crap and been super worried sometimes too. i don’t know for how many years now i’ve been Not assuming i’d be alive by the next year, but here i am having gotten this far, at least. it’s fairly impressive even if i don’t have any amazing achievements. believe it or not i’m pretty satisfied with my Achievements as just like, dumbass blog posts and fic/art and occasionally contributing something someone enjoys and getting to talk to people sometimes. it’s how i’ve been able to enjoy myself in the midst of some really awful times for the past like 6 yrs and i’ve appreciated it every day i’ve gotten to surf the net

like i guess it’s like haha, nerd, that half of what i’m worried about is being offline. but it’s a big deal being able to connect w the world beyond your immediate reach and distract yourself and say things and maybe even Enjoy yourself and also actually get to talk to people. but hey sometimes even people who live on the street manage to snag wifi connections somehow. i’d have to ask them how, lol. but, yknow, like i said, for a couple weeks especially it’s been like , Not Assuming I’ll NOT Lose Internet Connection and thus really trying to bear down on appreciating it. not like being offline for 5 months or so didn’t also make me appreciate it extra already. i was gonna say i survived it but i did get wildly depressed throughout like, august? september? probably both lol. anyways. what i’m trying to say i guess is that i’m not actually assuming i’ll be okay, but that only means so much because like, not to sound dramatic but i’ve pretty much never been okay on account of ive been just a half step away from living on the streets ever since leaving my parents house where i’d previously lived my whole life, which was an abusive situation. and also the depression and the years of really wanting to die which, at least 2018 didn’t have TOO much of that, in terms of feeling like it might be impending. now i can’t really be bothered, i’m just floating along and if i die i die, right. what i’m trying to say is, there’s not really any Good Proper option to choose where i’m definitely okay, so it’s basically about choosing between bad options, and with this choice i might at least like the location a little better, change of scenery, not as cold as here, i dunno. there’s not a way to just choose my way into being okay. it’s all a roll of the dice anyhow

also it’s weird but one thing about being on my own is it takes the pressure off me in certain ways and it’s a bit easier for me to Do things. if there’s anyone else to answer to in any way, i tend to just not ever decide anything and definitely don’t pursue anything. i’m one of those ppl who either has to live alone or with ppl they’re really really really comfortable with, and since i don’t have the latter around and nobody especially me can afford the former, it’s like, well, how is not everybody homeless anyway, right? and people do it. because yknow, you have to do it, it’s suddenly just your situation and somehow people get through every day. idk. learn as you go. what can ya do. it’s choosing between various bad options, i could also just wander into the mountains and die, but i’d rather not, and offing myself is Way a hassle, and also would be difficult, same as dying of exposure/dehydration in this middle of nowhere patch of mtns. i might as well try my luck at being in a place where you COULD maybe survive or something, and where i could at least feel like, if i do manage to have any good things happen, i would even possibly want to be in that area and be more comfortable living there. i have no roots anywhere and only have a No Zone (near my parents house) and so its sorta like, pick a random place to be!! lol. ahhhh

what can i say. it also sucks having to think “boy, in addition to not dying, hope i don’t get physically/sexually assaulted—also, how do people get water??” but......such is the way that it is. i don’t know. i don’t think anybody looks at impending homelessness and goes “i’m okay about this and not at all afraid.” and it’s strange to talk about how this is sort of ~by choice~ but it’s not exactly, in that i didn’t choose to only have abusive family and how even though i was working while living in my car it would never have been enough for rent probably even if i had someone to split it with and i also didn’t choose to not be rich in the first place and *the economy...... .png*

sigh. i dunno, it’s hard because i can’t talk about it a right way or long enough and get to a point i don’t feel intimidated or upset that once i Go Offline i’ll for real just be on my own unless and until i manage to get online for a moment again, in which case i’ll still be on my own, but i’ll feel a bit less alone, ha ha

anyways. speaking of trying to appreciate the simple pleasures of talking about whatever weird shit i wanna talk about and pushing myself to draw/write as it feels like it gets even more down to the wire—time to do that! 4 am and time to draw this weird meme & hopefully crank out the rest of this oneshot & maybe even draw again, and maybe again—it’s cool cuz i slept weird the other night and then got again weirdly tired in the afternoon and took a long depression nap w sorta fun, sorta bizarre dreams. augh. so at least i figure i’m just cruisin now, Not Sleeping-wise

i might have to ask a favor eventually in that there’s something really super simple i ought to look up, but i’d have a ton of trouble making myself do so because of anxiety, yknow how it is. but i’ll ask that if and when i ask it

#ugh.....#i feel like it was right before or after xmas when i watched that vid about Will R talking about his film role playing a homeless guy #and he got like seven words into it and like as soon as i processed it i burst into tears lol....RIP #it’s 4 am what’s upppp...more like WHO’S up

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lesbiancarat · 3 years

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Book anon here and that is correct, I sent my ask prior to learning about the news. I found out a few minutes later from other svt blogs I followed so I want to apologize for my ask! I feel bad sending in the ask and I wasn't sure if I should send in another ask to apologize of my timing?

Its ok for taking a while to respond, please things have been, rocky shall I say? Within the fandom so take all the time you need! You could have also ignored my ask gjskdnak I would have understood! Things have been messy from day one and it seems to have calmed down? I cannot confirm this as I haven't looked up translations on twitter from fan accounts (we saw what happened with that) and am waiting on an official pledis statement which we can for once applaud them for doing their job. They put gose on hold and are communicating for the most part while getting proper info on this. Thus we are in an awkward period with the fandom, its weird to not see svt so much and it makes me realize how MUCH content we got from the boys and I miss them :c like even if they had no promo stuff we got weverse, twitter, and other stuff sprinkled in. Of course I'm not saying tbe mingyu situation isn't serious or anything like that, that is important as well but I hope you know what I mean?

Now back to topic, agreed with everything you said! I want to say I wish reposters could STOP doing stuff like this but well, they won't. Its sadly the internet and many people view things as once its online, its not yours mind set ya know what I mean? I feel bad for content creators that they go to great lengths to protect their work but sometimes it slips through the cracks all because buttsock people dont know common sense

Ssp is iconic and that is facts. Even if I got frustrated with it, if was a fun game and I liked it. I do thank the bts version for getting me into the other games of superstar because they are fun so its a shame to see it be gone so quick. I read that as well and as someone that is playing rhythm hive, the game is buggy but has improved but I can see svt and nuest on there. Since the game is sort in a beta/alpha phase, I'm guessing they are using the "official release" as a big update that can maybe include pledis artists. (Apparently the current state of the game is like a beta? Lol) Of course I'm not sure since we have no official statements or early leaks like when people found out bigbit bought out the video game company that is doing rhythm hive. We shall see, I would like to see a svt game of some sorts still!

ahh it's not your fault at all! you couldn't have known there's nothing to apologize for ^^

and yes, things have calmed down a lot, it feels like all the information that the OPs have to share is out there, now it's just a matter of Pledis clearing up the last little bit. and i agree, Pledis has handled this well!

and yeah i know what you mean. i mean it's looking like the issue is getting cleared up since mg and OP1 resolved their issues and the other claims either have been or look like they will be proven false. but i think it makes sense to miss them, even if mg had been guilty of all of the claims, or at least to miss SVT/mg as we know them. like, even if it came out that all of SVT were serial killers or something like that where it's obviously unforgivable, i still think it would make sense for Carats to miss the SVT we thought we knew, who brought us joy. now that a lot of the claims are starting to get cleared up i think a lot of ppl are more comfortable saying they miss SVT. but i guess my point is when everything was first happening and a lot of ppl thought mg was being accused of way worse stuff i still think it's natural for ppl to miss SVT, and shouldn't feel guilty. it doesn't mean u condone the action in question. i just say this bc i feel like i see a lot of posts of ppl saying they miss SVT but it sounds like they feel guilty about it

yeah it really is impossible to completely protect something once you put it online which sucks!! like ppl could argue if creators didn't want their work stolen they shouldn't put it online, but creators should be allowed to share things without worrying about that. plus for people who do some kind of art for a living, the internet is probably the best way to advertise these days

yeah i wouldn't be surprised if it takes a little while to announce SVT/nuest being added to rhythm hive even if that is the plan. since ssp just ended there might be contract/legal stuff to work out before the songs can be added to another rhythm game. but yeah even though I'm pissed if it really is true that bh ended ssp for their own rhythm game i guess having something is better than nothing. but I'm mostly worried that they won't add after school, pristin, etc. to the new game bc it seems unlikely they will :(

#melia.ask #📖 anon #long post

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radio-charlie · 6 years

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92 truths tag

RULES: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. at the end choose 25 people to be tagged.

Tagged by @starstation but in my least favorite way, because I never like admitting that I want to do these things lol

LAST:

drink: an overpriced ginger lemonade

phone call: some random number from Malaysia idk, I didn’t pick up

text message: work colleague

song you listened to: The Room, Tarzana by The Radio Dept. I’ve been listening to them for three days running because after their concert my life felt like a Radio Dept tinted dream and I didn’t want that to go away

time you cried: 30 Jan, because I was an idiot at that concert and the lead singer Johan got mad at me haha

HAVE YOU EVER:

dated someone twice: yep, dumb idea

been cheated on: defo been cheated on emotionally, you can bet I made them pay for it lol

lost someone special: no one I love has died yet. I’m making sure this doesn’t make me complacent

been depressed: yeah lots of times

been drunk and thrown up: yes also lots of times lol

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

made a new friend: yeah loads tbh. shoutout to my Tumblr mutuals and the afternoon gang life would’ve been a lot grimmer without y’all

fallen out of love: nope

laughed until you cried: yeah, sometimes because of ridiculous shit on Tumblr and sometimes because of fun times with friends online

met someone who changed you: yeah absolutely. Not monumental changes but still

found out who your true friends are: kind of. More that I found out who my untrue friends are lol I have really high standards though

found out someone was talking about you : yeah, thankfully it was good shit

GENERAL:

how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: 5, pretty glad they never come on here anymore because I don’t want any ppl who knew me from school reading my stupid personal posts lol

do you have any pets?: nope, can’t because my safety is under threat and I don’t want to put a defenseless animal in danger

do you want to change your name?: yeah I want to officially be Charlie because my real name is some lame-ass shit sorry grandpa

what time did you wake up this morning: 10.30 am

what were you doing last night: eating very good all-you-can-eat beef shabu shabu, passing out for two hours and then forcing myself awake to do work

name something you cannot wait for: the day I move away from Malaysia, hopefully to somewhere in North America

have you ever talked to a person named tom?: yeah he worked in the same bag shop as me in 2014 and didn’t do a fucking ounce of work but got paid the same I wanted to clobber his nuts off the entire time

what’s getting on your nerves right now: nothing tbh, just chillin

blood type: uh forgot, B I think

nickname: Char, Charchar, Tan Jelly, Jials, 28349 others all thought of by @parles

relationship status: single

zodiac sign: pisces, the weenie sign

pronouns: they/them

favorite show: right now it’s The Office, I’m only at season two though dunno if it drops the ball later on

college: Carleton College, little liberal arts college in Minnesota virtually nobody seems to know about. I had a terrific time there, probably the best years of my life. It’s weird going back there these days and not knowing a single person there. I guess we all like to think our memories make a place belong to us somehow

hair color: silver. not to toot my own small and grumpy horn but I look fuckin dope in this color I think I’m gonna keep it for awhile

do you have a crush on someone: er just a silly one on Steve Rogers lol it’s very dweeby I know, but I don’t think I have it in me to have a proper crush on a real person right now

what do you like about yourself: my hair. Seriously it looks really good nowadays lol

FIRSTS:

first surgery: no surgeries so far luckily...

first piercing: a labret, but I had to take it out for a job at Starbucks

first sport you joined: wushu, it’s a Chinese form of martial arts, the warm ups took an hour lol and I remember once when my instructor was helping me stretch my thighs he got a super horny look on his face

first vacation: ‘straya

first pair of sneakers: some really shitty brand

RIGHT NOW:

eating: nothing... but just now I was eating those Mexican candies that have salt and chili in the middle... I could’ve eaten the whole bag in one go but gotta watch my sugar levels coz I’m old now...

drinking: water

i’m about to: finish this long-ass meme and watch more of The Office, maybe talk to friends a little

listening to: Every Time by.......The Radio Dept lol

want kids: yeah, but I can’t because they might get hurt for the same reason I mentioned for pets

get married: yeah I think I’m getting ready to settle down with someone, but lots of things to think about tbh, and I don’t want to drag someone into a life where they might get hurt

career: editor

WHICH IS BETTER:

lips or eyes: eyes, the more steadfast true and kind the better

hugs or kisses: hugs... kisses are slobbery

shorter or taller: taller. Just makes me feel safer

older or younger: generally I much prefer older. The youngest I’m willing to go is 2 years younger than me, and that’s for girls. I don’t date men younger than me lol

romantic or spontaneous: romantic but not like, schmaltzy please, just low-key and sweet

sensitive or loud: sensitive. Loud people really irritate me lol

hookup or relationship : relationship, never really been one for hookups tbh

troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant. I’m already enough of a troublemaker (not the kind that hurts ppl) when I get really comfortable with u, probably not a good idea to have more of the same in the equation

HAVE YOU EVER:

kissed a stranger: yeah I was p bad at it because it was my first time making out and I didn’t fucking know what to do so I just forcefully shoved my tongue into his mouth and then just let it sag there

drank hard liquor: yup

lost contacts/glasses: yeah once I blinked and my contacts fuckin bungee jumped out of my eyes and I couldn’t find them after that

sex on first date: nah

broken someone’s heart: yeah, I used to be a real dickhead so I used to treat it like some kind of trophy, absolutely not that kind of person anymore and never will be again

been arrested: nah, I don’t make that much trouble

turned someone down: yup

fallen for a friend: weird answer, but I’m not sure

DO YOU BELIEVE:

in yourself: no lol I don’t think I’m anything particularly special or capable

miracles: like incredible, good things put in place by a divine force? Not really

love at first sight: naw

I’m too lazy to tag 25 individual people if you’re my mutual consider yourself tagged my friend

#me

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straw-bana-blog · 7 years

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Ruby Sun

Friday

(5:13 p.m.) Hey Ruby what are we supposed to bring??? Blake said u said nothing but like (5:13 p.m.) We can’t bring NOTHING, y’know? (5:26 p.m.) Ruby. Pls (5:27 p.m.) we have to leave right now!!! Help me out here!! (5:30 p.m.) we’re leaving I’m bringing a literal dildo

(5:31 p.m.) nO (5:32 p.m.) pls dont sun im begging u

(10:58 p.m.) ur lucky I’m a good friend

(10:58 p.m.) i seriously would have died (10:58 p.m.) thank u for not ruining my innocent soul

(11:03 p.m.) I wouldn’t have done it you know. I don’t even have a dildo. Where do ppl get them?? Do they just magically appear under ur bed?

(11:04 p.m.) :)

Sunday

(8:47 a.m.) hey r u busy??

(8:48 a.m.) I mean it’s summer holidays and it’s before 9 in the morning on a sunday, but nah I’m free

(8:52 a.m.) gr8. meet me @ my place in 10

(8:53 a.m.) ????? where are ur manners young lady

(8:58 a.m.) pls? :)

(8:59 a.m) I’ll be there in 15 (1:43 p.m.) u make it back ok?

(1:45 p.m.) ye (1:46 p.m.) just got back now y?

(1:52 p.m.) just making sure you’re ok (1:56 p.m.) sorry we ended up being out so late… my bad

(1:57 p.m.) don’t worry about it, like I said, it was my fault too. I just needed to talk to someone, thanks for listening.

(1:57 p.m.) hey I’m just glad you came to me first (1:58 p.m.) also I think this is the first time u actually used proper grammar wow

(1:59 p.m.) i can use proper grammar whenevr i want 2 ty vry much (1:59 p.m.) and actually I messaged Blake first :^)

(2:01 p.m.) ur evil

(2:02 p.m.) u kno u love it (2:02 p.m.) + what did u expect ur sis is HOT

(2:03 p.m.) somebody, please kill me.

(8:53 p.m.) hey sun what r u doing tomorrow?

(8:55 p.m.) ruby i love u but I CAN’T go for another 5 hour walk tomorrow (8:55 p.m.) I will literally die (8:56 p.m.) I can already feel my legs turning to lead. please. have mercy.

(8:58 p.m.) nono, Yang wants to know if u and blake wanna come over tomorrow and do a movie marathon (8:58 p.m.) we’re inviting weiss too, if that helps blake :p (8:59 p.m.) but trust me i think my legs r about to fall off 2. so much regret…(8:59 p.m.) i think it’s a sign i should start working out again.

(9:00 p.m.) you used to work out?? When? (9:00 p.m.) as a kid??

(9:01 p.m.) o yea, u weren’t here yet back then… (9:02 p.m.) ok u have to promise not to laugh here.

(9:04 p.m.) why would I laugh at you?? have u seen my abs??? being strong is cool

(9:05 p.m.) yeah when it’s for cool reasons. (9:06 p.m.) I…. used to fence…..

(9:07 p.m.) …...as in put fences up?

(9:07 p.m.) sGVajhKhBkdu I’m leaving

(9:08 p.m.) no! no I’m just kidding ruby don’t go! I’m sorry it’s just a little funny (9:10 p.m.) you’re just not the type of person I imagine fencing I guess…? (9:23 p.m.) ruby pls…. (9:48 p.m.) Blake said she can come if that helps…… (9:52 p.m.) which means I can come too? (9:57 p.m.) why do u do this.

Tuesday

(1:30 a.m.) hey u still awake??

(1:32 a.m.) yeah, got Blake on me tho. Trapped. (1:33 a.m.) she’s heavier than u would think

(1:34 a.m.) ye, yang and weiss r actually cuddling rn it’s kinda cute

(1:35 a.m.) better not tell Blake in the morning

(1:35 a.m.) i’m not stupid enough to, i dont wanna die so young

(1:36 a.m.) so what are you still doing up??

(1:36 a.m.) i could ask u the same thing

(1:36 a.m.) dodge the question much? Don’t make me come over there and tickle it out of u. u know i will

(1:37 a.m.) it really isn’t anything serious actually. I just couldn’t sleep I guess?? I’ve been having more and more trouble lately. And it’s even harder with everyone else sleeping in the same room. (1:37 a.m.) like I love Yang but her snoring…. I’m surprised weiss hasn’t woken up or kicked her or something already

(1:38 a.m.) oh i’m sorry. and we were all being pretty loud too when you decided to try and get some sleep earlier… did you even get any?

(1:39 a.m.) nah, but don’t worry :) I don’t normally sleep that much anyway.

(1:40 a.m.) jeez i’m sorry ruby. I’ll remember for next time. Do you want me to let you try and get some sleep?

(1:40 a.m.) no don’t worry about it sun, honestly. I’ll get a couple hours at least. It’ll just take me a while to actually get to sleep

(1:41 a.m.) do u want me to wake up Blake and we can leave?? That might help. We could just wake everyone up and all go home… (1:41 a.m.) I know you still live with Yang, but I can’t help that. You just gotta live with it.

(1:42 a.m.) don’t worry, I’m not that worried about Yang :p (1:42 a.m.) really though, don’t worry. It’s not something that can be helped (1:43 a.m.) I think even if I was in a dark and silent room, I’d still have trouble sleeping you know? (1:44 a.m.) It’s not really something I’ve talked about with anyone else but… I’ve been having nightmares ever since Yang lost her arm. (1:45 a.m.) before you say anything, I know it was an accident, but it still scares me, you know? I’m not a stranger to death, but seeing my sister come that close…

(1:45 a.m.) Hey, Ruby don’t worry about explaining yourself to me. You know I’ll support you no matter what right? (1:46 a.m.) Look. I know we’re not really the best of friends, but I care about you. A lot. Probably more than you think. I think you’re strong and cool, and looking back I probably should have known you would have done fencing or SOMETHING, with your love of weapons. (1:47 a.m.) I just want you to know I care about you. So if you ever need to talk, like yesterday.. I’m here for you. That includes talking about your nightmares, and everything that happened with Yang.

(1:49 a.m.) thanks sun. I’m sorry for bothering you again. I promise, there’s nothing majorly wrong with me, it’s just some nightmares. Really. I’ll come to you if I ever think it’s starting to become more. And I won’t even pretend to message Blake first :p

(1:50 a.m.) No problem, Rubes. I’m glad you trust me enough to share this sorta stuff with.

(1:50 a.m.) :) (1:54 a.m.) Hey (1:54 a.m.) do u wanna know why I quit fencing? It’s actually a funny story.

(1:55 a.m.) shoot.

(1:56 a.m.) well actually, the funny story is why I STARTED fencing, but it’s all the same story anyway. (1:57 a.m.) so actually the reason I started is because I wanted to swing a sword around (what a shocker :p) and I thought fencing would be cool. I thought I’d get to stab some people and learn how to swing a sword (1:58 a.m.) what I didn’t know was that you don’t get a sword. And you don’t even really get to swing your sword around a lot. You just sorta… poke ppl. (1:59 a.m.) anyway, I was actually pretty good for a while… I got into the national championship. Everyone was super proud of me. Yang and dad came to every game. My uncle Qrow even made it to the finals. (2:00 a.m.) Then I lost. (2:00 a.m.) The funny thing was, I didn’t even really care. Everyone else seemed to be way more disappointed than I was. I was just… glad it was over and I didn’t have to go to another, harder match. (2:01 a.m.) so I quit. I’d kept going because I was making everyone proud, I kept going because I was good. But once I had nothing left to do it for, I just… Couldn’t bring myself to even try. (2:02 a.m.) anyway dad was… let’s just say really upset. It was super dramatic. But Yang… She understood why, I think. (2:03 a.m.) she just gave me a slap on the back and said ‘Competition too easy for you eh? I know what that’s like.’ (2:04 a.m.) I always appreciated that she just understood me and let it go, you know? And now sometimes I go to martial arts practise with her and just watch. She’s pretty good at hand-to-hand. (2:05 a.m.) sometimes I think about just following her footsteps. But I think I need to find something that I’m good at all on my own.

(2:07 a.m.) You just keep on surprising me Ruby. (2:07 a.m.) No but really, that’s actually mature of you. I think it’s pretty cool you want to find something for yourself.

(2:08 a.m.) I’ve always been the type to try and walk my own path, I guess.

(2:09 a.m.) That doesn’t surprise me at all.

(2:11 a.m.) hey im gonna go to bed now, but thanks for listening sun. i feel a lot better :)

(2:12 a.m.) no problem

Wednesday

(1:25 p.m.) hELP (1:26 p.m.) yang is chasing me. i think shes going 2 kill me (1:26 p.m.) she MAY be covered in grape soda…. from a can… that i may have shook up… a lot (1:28 p.m.) sun pls help???

(1:31 p.m.) I think I’m good, rubes. shes ur sister

(1:32 p.m.) D: (1:35 p.m.) you’re lucky im a fast runner. otherwise i think i would be ded (1:37 p.m.) im not even joking. yang MIGHT have been wearing her new white shirt….. and it may or may not be stained right now… hehe (1:38 p.m.) u should have seen the look on her face when she realised it was me. hilarious

(1:38 p.m.) what r we going to do with u…. honestly (1:39 p.m.) u NEVER stick around to watch the crime. they can’t blame u if they can’t see u ;)

(1:42 p.m.) I think you might be a bad influence on me….

(1:43 p.m.) D: (1:44 p.m.) excuse u which one of us is the junior detective huh? That’s right. me

(1:45 p.m.) i think ur forgetting which one of us stowed away on a ship to get here

(1:46 p.m.) u got me there, princess

(1:46 p.m.) ;) (2:03 p.m.) hey what are u doing right now anyway???

(2:05 p.m.) on the clock actually. a junior detective’s work is never done!

(2:06 p.m.) ha-ha (2:06 p.m.) no but really.

(2:08 p.m.) no really, I am actually on the clock right now, why?

(2:09 p.m.) oh (2:11 p.m.) no reason I was just curious. Blake said u weren’t at home (2:12 p.m.) i though maybe u had gone and got urself a girlfriend or something ;

(2:15 p.m.) Nah. I know I flirt a lot with other girls.. but I don’t really want to date anyone right now

(2:23 p.m.) oh ok. (2:25 p.m.) i was just joking u know. i know ur not really that kinda guy (2:26 p.m.) You’re too nice

(2:29 p.m.) u calling me a nice guy??? (2:33 p.m.) you’re gonna ruin my bad boy cred :^(

(2:35 p.m.) haha don’t worry. i’ll keep ur secret :^)

(2:40 p.m.) knew i could trust u red

(2:43 p.m.) ugh. regretting it already

(2:45 p.m.) what? don’t like it?

(2:46 p.m.) doesn’t it sound creepy 2 u????

(2:49 p.m.) should i just stick to princess? ;)

(2:52 p.m.) pls…. although it is better than red……

(2:55 p.m.) I’m taking that as a yes, princess!

(2:59 p.m.) why r we even friends…..

(3:01 p.m.) u know u love it

Friday

(11:48 p.m.) hey, you wanna go for a midnight walk

(11:52 p.m.) but… it’s cold

(11:53 p.m.) It’s summer! (11:54 p.m.) :(

(11:55 p.m.) how about u come over here? u can join me in my blanket nest ^^

(11:56 p.m.) that is so… (11:56 p.m.) adorable. (11:57 p.m.) alright I’m in. be over in 10?

(11:59 p.m.) :D

Saturday

(4:32 a.m.) hey u make it back ok? i feel bad u had to walk back in the dark alone…

(4:33 a.m.) don’t worry, I’m a big strong man <3 (4:34 a.m.) which means if I got stabbed, I could yell SO loud. (4:34 a.m.) im sure you’d come save me

(4:35 a.m.) ….but it’s so cold outside….

(4:35 a.m.) RUBY! (4:36 a.m.) D’:

(4:39 a.m.) im sorry… you’ll be remembered sun

(4:42 a.m.) i wouldn’t need to be remembered if u would come outside and save me!!!

(4:43 a.m.) sun was such a great guy, everybody loved him and his loud, girly screams….

(4:45 a.m.) i guess I’ll just save myself then :^( (4:47 a.m.) i’ll be my own knight in shining armour

(4:50 a.m.) good for u!!! u don’t need no man

(4:52 a.m.) i might if i was getting STABBED, ruby

(4:53 a.m.) nah, girl power sun!

(4:54 a.m.) I think that only counts if you’re actually a girl.

(4:56 a.m.) girl power is good for everybody!

(4:57 a.m.) except when ur getting STABBED. did i mention???

(4:59 a.m.) you big baby (4:59 a.m.) fine… I guess I would force myself to leave the sweet, warm embrace of my blanket nest for u…. If u were getting stabbed.

(5:01 a.m.) :) (3:06 p.m.) hey, do u wanna go to the movies with me tonight? (3:09 p.m.) just you and me

(3:09 p.m.) oh sorry, i already asked yang, is that ok?? It can just be the three of us if u want?

(3:12 p.m.) yea thats fine. (3:13 p.m.) but I get to pick the movie this time!

(3:15 p.m.) noo you always pick those buddy cop movies!! They’re all the saaame! People shoot each other and the cops always win

(3:18 p.m.) hey, Try Hard 3: Try harderest is a classic and you can’t deny it! You know you loved watching it (3:23 p.m.) besides, last time u picked we watched a stupid movie about a dying dog

(3:25 p.m.) hey, how was I supposed to know the dog was going to die??? it traumatized me just as much (3:27 p.m.) and if it was so stupid, then why were u crying 10 minutes in????

(3:32 p.m.) hey little bobby finding out Bud had cancer was an emotional, tender moment where ANYONE would have cried. (3:32 p.m.) Anyone who didn’t is a monster.

(3:34 p.m.) hmm… (3:36 p.m.) anyway, Yang said she wants to go see Injustice 5 (3:37 p.m.) it’s still an action movie, so you should be happy right?

(3:40 p.m.) well… (3:41 p.m.) it’s no Try Hard 3, but it’s better than whatever you might suggest.

(3:42 p.m.) hey! (3:43 p.m.) I can pick out good movies, just you watch. Next time we go let me pick. I’ll prove u wrong

(3:45 p.m.) deal. (3:45 p.m.) but next time no inviting Yang. just the two of us.

(3:47 p.m.) you’re weird (3:49 p.m.) but deal. I’m gonna pick a movie so great u will bow before me! (3:52 p.m.) and then you’ll have to pay for the next movie

(3:53 p.m.) yeah yeah, but I’m only paying for you! (3:54 p.m.) and if i win u have to buy me dinner :p

(3:56 p.m.) as if I would ever lose!

(3:59 p.m.) yeah well i think no matter what happens, i’m not losing either ;)

(3:59 p.m.) again. ur weird

(4:01 p.m.) ;* <3

Thursday

(2:31 a.m.) I’m boreed.

(2:32 a.m.) and I’m sleepy (2:32 a.m.) what’s up??

(2:33 a.m.) idk. just cant sleep i guess

(2:34 a.m.) is there something i can do?

(2:35 a.m.) not sure. talk to me

(2:36 a.m.) about what?

(2:37 a.m.) i dont know, puppies? unicorns and rainbows??? whatevers on your mind

(2:38 a.m.) ok puppies ARE always on my mind, but unicorns and rainbows sun? Really??

(2:38 a.m.) hey im not the innocent one of the group ok (2:39 a.m.) what do u think about then?

(2:41 a.m.) idk… regular stuff??? my friends, my family… people i care about. also puppies

(2:42 a.m.) yea i got that part. (2:42 a.m.) and i guess i just thought maybe (2:43 a.m.) idk (2:43 a.m.) that you thought about crushes or something (2:44 a.m.) that’s what most ppl think about

(2:46 a.m.) yeah i guess. sometimes i do. idk i don’t really have any crushes right now (2:47 a.m.) unless you count my undying love for cookies. (2:47 a.m.) and Blake’s thighs ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

(2:48 a.m.) ur so weird ruby (2:49 a.m.) you’re supposed to be the innocent one

(2:50 a.m.) oh you know im only kidding. (2:51 a.m.) blakes too in love with weiss anyway

(2:51 a.m.) if she wasn’t, would you like her??

(2:52 a.m.) what do you mean?

(2:53 a.m.) i was just asking. since we were already on the topic of crushes anyway

(2:54 a.m.) I guess (2:55 a.m.) nah but really. i liked blake once but… it was just a stupid crush (2:56 a.m.) and anyway that was before u got here.

(2:57 a.m.) what does that mean??

(2:58 a.m.) what? Nothing??? I just meant it was a while ago

(2:59 a.m.) oh ok

(3:01 a.m.) you’ve been weirdly interested in crushes lately

(3:02 a.m.) not really. i’ve been asking everyone. guess im just curious

(3:04 a.m.) u want to talk about something?

(3:08 a.m.) not really (3:09 a.m.) anyways thanks 4 curing my boredom (3:09 a.m.) I’m gonna go to bed now

(3:10 a.m.) hey don’t leave!! now i cant sleep :(

(3:11 a.m.) goodnight ;*

(3:12 a.m.) Sun Wukong u get ur butt back here (3:15 a.m.) sun pls (3:22 a.m.) ugh goodnight

Friday

(5:47 p.m.) hey yang and i are gonna be a little late (5:47 p.m.) we kinda crashed

(5:48 p.m.) what???! On her bike???? Were you guys wearing helmets? Are you okay?????

(5:50 p.m.) yeah, yeah we’re fine. It’s nothing major, we just have to exchange insurance details with the guy who ran into us. (5:51 p.m.) yang’s got a big cut on her leg but she said she’ll just bandage it when we get over there.

(5:52 p.m.) you guys aren’t even going to the hospital?? Go to the hospital!!!

(5:53 p.m.) calm down, monkey boy. We’re fine, really. it isn’t a big deal. Yang’s bike even still works

(5:54 p.m.) leave it there, im coming to get u guys (5:57 p.m.) where r u

(5:59 p.m.) you don’t need to sun we’re like, 5 minutes away.

(5:59 p.m.) already in the car bout 2 drive (6:00 p.m.) call me 2 tell me where u r

(6:01 p.m.) u really don’t need to…. But ok

(11:59 p.m.) hey where did u go?

Saturday

(12:00 a.m.) I just went for a walk. I needed to clear my head

(12:01 a.m.) hey if this is about earlier im sorry

(12:02 a.m.) nono, i just needed some fresh air dw (12:02 a.m.) it was just a bit crowded in there

(12:03 a.m.) rubes, it was just the gang. (12:04 a.m.) what’s really going on

(12:05 a.m.) it’s nothing (12: 06 a.m.) i guess im just thinking about what you said earlier

(12:07 a.m.) that? i said don’t worry about that. its not your problem.

(12:10 a.m.) no that’s not what i meant (12:11 a.m.) forget about it

(12:12 a.m.) what does that mean??? (12:12 a.m.) what did i say? (12:15 a.m.) ruby??? (1:03 a.m.) hey at least come back, ok? i promise i won’t make u talk about it (1:16 a.m.) just come back ok?

(1:29 a.m.) im already home, don’t worry. u guys stay there (1:32 a.m.) I think I just need a little sleep (1:34 a.m.) im not really feeling well

(1:35 a.m.) well it’s no wonder when you were out in the cold for 2 hours (1:36 a.m.) im coming over

(1:38 a.m.) no just stay over there ok? You guys have fun

(1:39 a.m.) ruby. Clearly im not going to have fun if you’re not here.

(1:42 a.m.) sure you will. Everything’s fun if you’re there

(1:43 a.m.) ok I’m really coming over there now.

(1:44 a.m.) and i’m going to bed (1:45 a.m.) have fun with your party, monkey boy

(1:45 a.m.) hey I’m the only one giving out nicknames here (1:47 a.m.) sleep well x

Sunday

(11:30 a.m.) hey are you feeling any better? Yang told me you’ve been throwing up

(11:34 a.m.) how nice of her. (11:35 a.m.) I’m ok. I think I really did get sick being out in the cold for hours…

(11:36 a.m.) told u (11:38 a.m.) do you want me to come over and make you soup?

(11:45 a.m.) yes please (11:46 a.m.) you’re the best

(11:49 a.m.) I know right? ;) (11:49 a.m.) anyways I’ll be over in 10 ok? In the meantime pls don’t die on me

(11:53 a.m.) yes because that’s exactly my plan

(11:54 a.m.) it’s a very good plan, princess.

(11:57 a.m.) don’t patronize me, Wukong (→_→)

(11:59 a.m.) please you love it

(12:01 a.m.) … (12:02 a.m.) <3

(12:02 a.m.) :D

#strawbana #red sun #sun x ruby #ruby x sun #ruby rose #sun wukong #rwby #writing #mine #feel free to reblog here #but go read it on ao3 pls #the note at the beginning explains things a bit #anyways heres quite a long fic about my babies #i love them so #Belladonna Siblings AU

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baz-you-numpty · 7 years

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Tag thingy

I was tagged on both my blogs (by @rabid-faery and @lekawaiiiunicorn) so I’ll just copy and paste my answers on each. Will try and tag different peeps tho :)

1ST RULE: Tag 9 users you would like to know better (in no particular order): @mairithepotato @somewhere-l-o-s-t @snowbazzled @snowkatze @qeiem @jeansbaz @soweflew @basiltonn @basilbazzy @sunlightschadow (is that 9? I think I did 10, oops. You don’t have to do it if you don’t want to)

2ND RULE: Bold the statements that are true (I also put the ones that are kinda true in italics, but that’s just me...)

Additionally, I just kinda tagged ppl I think seem cool. If you don’t wanna do this or want me to stop tagging you in things like this, that’s totally fine. Just shoot me a message.

Big love <3

APPEARANCE: · I am 5'7" or taller (I legit don’t know my height or how tall that is... I’m taller than almost all my female friends but I’m not Tol™) · I wear glasses (I bought rly weak reading glasses bc I’m starting to go short-sighted but they’re not prescription so not rly) (also I know that’s the wrong prescription, it’s a complicated system I have going here) · I have at least one tattoo · I have at least one piercing · I have blonde hair · I have brown eyes · I have short hair · My abs are at least somewhat defined · I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: · I love meeting new people · People tell me that I’m funny · Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me · I enjoy physical challenges · I enjoy mental challenges · I’m playfully rude with people I know well · I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it · There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: · I can sing well · I can play an instrument (I’m learning but level is still v low) · I can do over 30 pushups without stopping · I’m a fast runner • I can draw well · I have a good memory · I’m good at doing math in my head · I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute · I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling · I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch · I know how to throw a proper punch (in theory, but never done it in practice)

HOBBIES: · I enjoy playing sports · I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else · I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else · I have learned a new song in the past week · I work out at least once a week · I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months · I have drawn something in the past month · I enjoy writing · FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION (I guess?? But I wouldn’t really have said that.) · I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES: · I have had my first kiss · I have had alcohol · I have scored the winning goal in a sports game · I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting · I have been at an overnight event · I have been in a taxi · I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year (not for myself tho) · I have beaten a video game in one day · I have visited another country · I have been to one of my favourite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS: · I’m in a relationship · I have a crush on a celebrity · I have a crush on someone I know (this is a grey area) · I have been in at least 3 relationships · I have never been in a relationship · I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them · I get crushes easily · I have had a crush on someone for over a year · I have been in a relationship for at least a year · I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE: · I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” · I live close to my school · My parents are still together · I have at least one sibling · I live in the United States · There is snow right now where I live · I have hung out with a friend in the past month · I have a smartphone · I have at least 15 CDs · I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT: · I have breakdanced · I know a person named Jamie · I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce · I have dyed my hair · I’m listening to one song on repeat right now · I have punched someone in the past week · I know someone who has gone to jail · I have broken a bone · I have eaten a waffle today · I know what I want to do with my life · I speak at least 2 languages (I only speak English fluently but am learning four others) · I have made at least a new friend in the past year

#welcome to me #tag thing #no pressure if you don't feel like it that's fine :D #not snowbaz #not carry on #personal

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solskinnsana · 7 years

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Tag thinggg

I was tagged on both my blogs so I’ll just copy and paste my answers on each. Will try and tag different peeps tho :)

1ST RULE: Tag 9 users you would like to know better (in no particular order): @three-petals @emmaisauburn @devona-dil @billsydoestuff @starry-eyed-yet-sleep-deprived @waitwhatwho @stranger-skam @artsyeven @maybedisaster

2ND RULE: Bold the statements that are true (I also put the ones that are kinda true in italics, but that’s just me...)

Additionally, I just kinda tagged ppl I think seem cool. If you don’t wanna do this or want me to stop tagging you in things like this, that’s totally fine. Just shoot me a message.

Big love <3

#so there you go this is me now I'm going to bury myself #tag thing #get to know you meme #bazyounumpty

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incendavery · 7 years

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gosh, thank you! that is so sweet??? I hope you (and any other of my followers who celebrate!) have/had a very happy Eid!💖 💕

on another note, I’ve finally gotten around to cleaning out my askbox! under the cut is almost every ask I’ve gotten that i haven’t answered in the past.... I’m not sure. it’s been a WHILE though.

as a warning, there’s all sorts of stuff, and it’s all untagged! also also, if you sent one of these asks and want me to remove it, just let me know!

yes!! @fuckaspunk IS super sweet and talented and i AM very lucky to have them! and I’ve heard from reliable sources that the feeling is mutual~~💕

i’m glad my comics make you feel less alone; that’s a rough situation you’re in. i really hope you find yourself in a better environment soon!

thank you!!!💕

thank you for understanding! and yes, aidan is a huge help to me??? even when they’re not answering asks, they’re always supporting me in some way, whether that’s making sure I’ve eaten enough, or talking me through my anxiety, or all the other ways they’re there for me every single day💕💕

ok, my tips are!!:

draw as much as possible! even if it’s just lines and shapes with no meaning, you’re still developing your hand/eye skills

BUT: dont draw if you’re not feeling it! if you’re feeling fried, it’s better to take a break. go on a walk to somewhere scenic, read your favorite book, listen to some new music, hang out with friends, or just take a nap! rest up and find some inspiration! you can come back to your sketchbook when you feel energized again

draw stuff that you like! you’ll improve way faster if you’re passionate about what you’re doing

look at art you like with a critical eye. try to examine the different components and figure out what you think works or doesn’t work. try incorporation those components into your own work

read a lot of tutorials and other resources, but take what they say with a grain of salt

ultimately, remember that the only real rule to drawing is that doing it should make you happy

good luck!! i do my best not to pick, but it’s a real struggle; i have lots of scars from it too. ;v; im cheering for you!!!

ALWAYS!!!! if you do, please show me!! my notifications get real busy, but anyone is welcome to IM me any time!

thank you! i actually get very worried about my style; i tend to admire artists with complex linework and delicate shading, so i often feel my style is far to simple! so thank you!!

that is really high praise????? gosh??!?!?!? best of luck with the next three years; i hope you grow to be someone you like even better than me!

thank you!!

peanut time is the best!! i haven’t gotten to do a proper one in a while though ;-; i’ve mostly been feeding the crows on my way back home from night shifts, when i give them the reject eggs from the continental breakfast.

wow, neat!! chickens are so wonderful; i cont wait until i can have some of my own :>

dont be nervous! i know i can be hard to get ahold of over the internet (bc i get overwhelmed easily) and hard to talk with irl (bc i get so nervous and interacting w ppl doesn’t come naturally to me AT ALL) but honestly i?? love making new friends??!

thank you!!? im thankful every day that someone as radient as aidan is in my life for the long haul

thank you!!!!!!!💕

i completely feel that? its ok to hit rough patches! just do your best!!

i dont remember what i felt bad about but THANK YOU💕💕

honestly its done me worlds of good to share my art?? hearing people talk about how they go through all the same shit i do makes me feel so much less alone, especially on the toughest days! so i guess thank you, and thank you?

youre welcome!!!! :>

huh!! i dont know much about shoegaze (other than thinking abt that post abt the guy who pronounced it like fugazi I THINK ABT THAT EVERY TIME) but thats real neat!! im glad youve found something that works for you!!

hey, neat middle name! and youre very welcome; i hope things have been looking up for you since you sent this?💕

i dont remember when this was from but im currently doing really well with my meds!! i switched to a combination of lexapro in the morning and benadryl in the evening, and its been working super well!✨

thank you??!! ;o; i would love to see all your favorite birds!!

hey, right back atcha!!!

ty!!!

hey. thank YOU

you’re absolutely not bothering me! thank you so much!!

!!!!!!!!!!

hey, nice! im glad you like both me and my music!

gosh thanks?!?!

she is the most beautiful and handsome!!!!!!!!!!!! i love her! thank you from both of us!!!!

aw, gosh! im sure i like you too!!

this was from.... A WHILE AGO.... but youre welcome?? i just wish i could have done more

hey, thank you so much!!!!!

thank YOU and a very very belated merry christmas!!!

that does make sense!! reconciling friendships and crushes is tricky business. the best i can say to you is to be as honest and open with each other as you can

i dont personally get those, but ive heard of people experiencing them as a sideeffect when coming off or switching meds

i think these two are part of the same message? but oh man yeah that sucks when ppl are misgendering you AND hitting on you at the same time. on a different note, ive never heard of using a corset to stim before! neat!

i mean, 1. depression doesn’t care if you have a “””good””” reason and 2. ive literally never met anyone w depression (including myself) who thinks that they do have a “””good””” reason for having it. thats the insidious part of depression, is that it makes you think that theres nothing wrong and that its all just you not measuring up in some way

so i guess that would make you.... someone with depression?

real BAD

💕 💖 💞 💓 💗

not yet haha THANK YOU

hey, im glad you like it!! since this blog has gotten so big, its kinda my happy place to be? (for anyone wondering, my reblog blog/personal is @spinels!

that IS a fun fact!! thank you!

it’s absolutely ok! i get a little bitter when people take my work WAY out of context (for example, straight people removing the caption that says “im just really gay” before tagging their bf/gf) but i am 100% ok and happy with people relating to my work in a different way than i intended (ex: a comic i made about being ashamed of my derma getting reblogged by someone struggling to be ok w their visible burn scars)

hoo gosh, thank you!!

glad to have you here!! im glad people can relate to some of the weirdly specific shit i write about tbh???

i’m sorry its taken so long for me to get back to you; that a terrible situation

if you have a teacher you trust, i would absolutely bring it up to them. that is 100% not an ok thing for those kids to be doing. at all.

im glad you at least have your friends that support you!

:0 WAIT is this someone i know through ucsc?? :0 :0 :0

aaaa thank you! that is high praise ;v;

i have no words; this is such a touching message. thank you so much ;v;

this is belated but!! the main creative community i can recommend is kzsc, the radio station! i had a real cool time there, and its a great way to make friends and connect with ppl of all sorts! :0

yeah, its totally normal! ive had roommates ive been super tight with, and roommates who i barely ever hung around with. its natural! i doubt you’ll finish college w/o finding a roomie that you get ~The Roomie Experience~ with though, even if its like a housemate or s/t!! ;0

i’ve never been told that, actually! neat!! (and wow?? i cant believe i inspire ppl.... wow......... what a concept tbh??)

oh yikes... i do hope youre feeling better :( im glad my comics can help a little bit at least!

💕 💖 💞 💓 💗!!!

HUGS

i dont remember what this was in reference to, but good to know?

also good to know!?

i think the crows and jays do! i dunno about the squirrels and other birds. and thank you!!

the youth gang..... i love it..... how good???!

i wrote about getting yuri right here! he’s a southern alligator lizard and i love him to bits.

heres a pic of the Long Boy doin his thing:

hey neat! i’m glad youve chosen a lame you can be proud of!!💖

ive never heard of that!! wow

what play is this?? :0 :0 :0 im so curious now!!

oh SHUCKS...,,,,,,,,,, ;v;

hahahaha omg thank u

i dont actually have any more of them interacting, unfortunately! the owl isnt one specific person, like a lot of my characters are meant to represent. the owl more represents as a whole all the people i run into in my life that i am very very gay for.

thank you!!!

youre very welcome! im glad you feel better!!!!

aaa gosh thank you!!!

hhhhfgh ive gotten less of it recently BUT YEAH that was bad times™️

thanks for the info!!! :0

no problem! a lot of the credit honestly goes to @fuckaspunk, who is always keeping me updated on that sort of stuff.

i didn’t know that! a lot of the symbolism seems to come from multiple sources sometimes, from what ive seen?

aaaa gosh omg thank you ;v;

aw thank you???!!

nice!!! oct 24 bdays go!!!

thank you!! it really does mean a lot actually!!!!!!!

of course?? antisemitism cant be ignored in this fight

aw, thats so cute! id love to hear what headcanons you have tbh???

hey thanks?! this is really cool to hear, tbh. i try to be positive most of the time, but im not going to like,,, kid myself when im not feeling it and im glad that other people can appreciate that too, ya know?

wow!!

(this one!) thank you i love that one too???!

hey, im glad you found your way here!! thank you so much!!!

aaaa ty!

hmmm i have two leopard geckos, and they made very good beginning lizards for me and aidan! but i would maybe ask someone a bit more experienced than me, like @kaijutegu or @wheremyscalesslither!!

thank you!!

one day at a time! (but seriously, thank you!!)

yummy yummy sauce...... ty!!!

awww, gosh! thank you!?

AAAA TY BOTH I GET SO SELF-CONSCIOUS ABT MY VOICE,,,,, ;o;

:0 i havent watched that, but it sounds rly cool!!

i like that fun fact a lot! ty!!

pae stands for paerlin, which is what @fuckaspunk‘s internet handle used to be! i used it to refer to them on my blog in secret back when they still didnt know i had a crush on them.... ;//v//;

aaaaa thank you!!! ;o;

nice nice nice ty!!

>:0 get back down here!! (jk that’s rly neat! highfive!!)

those are all good words that i like!! thank you!!!!

i dont know anything about him, but i looked him up and i guess i can see it?!

@fishcrow is really cool! ive never really interacted with them, but im p sure were mutuals...? anyway yeah their comics are rly cute and cool!

that is me! thank you; i hope things go well for you as well!

hello to you too!

aaaa ty!!! tbh the number of nice anons i get way way way outnumbers the mean ones <3

thank you! thank YOU for existing!

:0 chocolate croissant, here i come!!!

thank you!!!!!!💕

its literally my pleasure!!!

aaa ty!!! 💕💕

hehe im glad!

sldf;j;sfjdklfdslfjs thank you so much?????? what a compliment omg gosh

yeah!! i have a hard time on settling what class id be, but i feel like id be a heart player!

ohh um! im not sure which pens youre referring to, but if you mean the ones I use for my comics, i color them with Winsor & Newton ProMarkers, and I do the lines with a purple fine-point Sakura Gelly Roll Classic pen! i also use micron pens of all different sizes and colors in some of my non-diary comic art!

aww thank you so much!!

:0 :) :0 !!!!!!

ty!!! ive grown to love him very much as well!!

thank you! i hope you are doing well also!!

i love them very much?!! id put a picture but i dont have one with all four of them so instead imagine me lying on the floor crying abt how much i love them bc thats me basically every day

you dont mean......

?!?!?!?!?!?!

awwww ty!!!

HEY WOW

aaa gosh thank you!💕

DOUBLE FOLLOW

gay dragons combine the best of both very good things: gay and dragons. im glad you appreciate them w me tysm ;v;

aaa what a lovely message! ty💕

3rd-shift-working, depression-having, corvid-loving solidarity fistbumnp!!!!

huh! ive never heard of that; ill check it out maybe!!

ah im really glad? tysm!!💕

my understanding is that it helps people who have text-to-speech readers? but im honestly not as well informed on that as i should be!

hell yeah!!!!

gosh!!!!!

hnmngnhng youve probably already made a decision but i just gotta say.........shadow rulez

delicious!!

i havent!! i really want to though!

oh man ALL THE TIME. i usually try to either reality check with someone i trust, or to do an activity thats easy and i know i can do, or both!

i love andre and karl!!! its actually a huge influence on me and my art tbh???

i had a good (and safe) trip! ty!!!

hey, thank you!!!

oh jeez thats bad :( i think this was in response to when i needed to wait between med refills?

i cant give a precise reason, tbh! when it comes to whats lucky, i just sort of.... go with my gut, ya know?

thank you!! 👍

that sure sounds like insomnia! its almost hard for me to say tbh, bc ive had trouble sleeping for as long as i can remember, so NOT having trouble sleeping is bizarre and unrealistic to me haha... but i think the bottom line is, if its interrupting your daily routine and making it hard for you to have enough energy, then its something you should look into remedies for!

:0 :0 :0

ohhh how nice! ill give it a try! :>

omg,,,, nope, just me!

thank you!!!!!!

honestly? thats such a good way to look at it i love the idea of my blog as a big zine

always!!!!! go for it!!!

hey, thank you so much!!!!!

omg, thats so great! thank you!

im so glad; thank you!!!

thank you so much!💖 (and mexico, neat! i love hearing where people are following from??)

aaaaaaaaaaaa ;//v//; thank you??? i get so happy whenever ppl tell me they like my singing aaaaaaa

aw, hey, no worries! money is all well and good, but in some ways, messages like this mean just as much!

its cool that comic gave you plural feels! im def not a system though :>

its tricky, isnt it? i still feel like im no good at it lmao

LISTEN,,, there is a 99.9999% chance i wont notice, and a 100% chance i wont judge. reblog away!

THANK YOU ARENT THEY THE BEST I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

thank you!! i hope you have a good day as well!

aaa ty!!💖

aa ty! (what a cool name!!! im kind jealous ngl!)

awww thank you💖

i do my best! i just worry when im not active, bc i tend to connect my self-worth to my output (;^; )

aaaaa ty!! 💖

!!!!!!!!!!!! omg wow i love being called a pretty boy???? ty???????

hey, neat! crow high-five!

aw, thank you!!! 💖

im doing my best! thank you so much, messages like this really help when im in a place like that tbh ;v;

gosh this is so sweet? thank you so muhc !!?

thank you all!! im sorry that saying thank you over and over sounds so repetitive, but i truely do mean it for every one of you!!!

i am..... one of those things!

well thank you!!

ohoho~✨

thank you! and honestly im sure it does??

hey, cool! good for you!!!!!!! and ty!!

aw gosh thank you!💖

hey, wow! thats super cool; thank you so much!

(i dont follow the first person i followed on tumblr anymore.... they became a hockey blog rip haha)

aaaah, thank you so much!!

almost???

i do!! drunken lullabies is an absolute banger!!!!!!!!!!

i am!!!! thank you!!

aw, ty!!! 💖

hee hee, thank you!

my biggest tip honestly?? have someone who can be by your side to help you with... basically everything... during your recovery. bc trust me, i was n o t a v a i l a b l e. i spent a lot of my recovery playing 2048 at the same time as watching tv, bc doing both at once distracted me from how much the bandages itched.

thank you!! (i think this was in reference to getting top surgery!)

how shitty??????? yikes. i hope your supervisor has your back??? bc wow????

hey!!! thank you!!! i draw all my comics traditionally on paper! im not sure what you mean by the writing though? if you mean the word bubbles, i do those by hand on paper too!

I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND THAT FEELING,,,, im so happy ppl talk to me, but i get really nervous about saying the wrong thing.

when i’m down, i usually crave validation. i like being reminded about things ive done right! i also like gentle reality checks, like, ‘hey: this is the situation, this is what we can do about it. ok? ok’

i unfortunately dont have any!! i had a couple at one point, but they’ve since been lost to the depths of my old laptop. and hey, thank you so much!!

now thats a nifty trick!! im terrible at telling all my white tablets from each other lmao

!!!!!!! ITS ME!!!!!!!!

maybe you just need some space? i know i sometimes temporarily block people i know, if i need some private space or if i dont trust myself to keep cool and solve problems constructively. do what you need to do to feel at ease, and go from there, ya know?

thank you!!!

its,,,, up somewhere above in this monster post lmao i,m so sorry,,,,

thank you so much!!!

WOW NO WORRIES??,,,,,,,,, INCREDIBLE 10/10???????

all four of these came right after i gave myself a hair cut and THANK YOU SO MUCH??? i live for validation and it feels so good to have my actions affirmed ;o;

#WOW THAT TOOK LIKE THREE HOURS HAHA #hopefully next time it wont be as long!!#daveanswersstuff #long post

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simaethae · 7 years

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catching up on replies?

the-heart-of-my-mystery replied to your post “do you have any thoughts about possible interactions between...”

thanks :) it feels a bit like a missed opportunity--maybe not as much as túrin and tuor, but still.

right, tho I feel like Tuor and Turin is very intentionally a missed opportunity, it's lampshaded in the text? I can't tell if Turin failing to meet his kinsman is because of the curse or if Tuor failing to make contact is what spares him from getting entangled and dragged down. (AU where Tuor and Voronwe take Turin to Gondolin with them... wow, that sounds like a disaster. A worse disaster... a different disaster, anyway.)

whereas, getting vaguely back on point, Tolkien couldn't make up his mind what to do with Celebrimbor's backstory and iirc the external reason for his minimal role in events is that he wasn't originally involved at all and Christopher more or less had to retcon him into the Silm text? but in-universe I feel like it makes a lot of sense for him to be staying out of things :/

vardasvapors replied to your post “thelioninmybed replied to your post: do you have...”

Also ia that Celebrimbor + the door thing would be in the context of a long period of "but not like THOSE feanorians" and maybe like...a mark of his optimism that things are going well and Healing and the future is so promising that ppl can move on...? idk though...

yep! altho... I feel like "moving on" isn't exactly the right way to put it? more like, a refusal to accept that the past/the world is irrevocably marred, an insistence on hanging on to the good parts of it... idk, my Celebrimbor characterisation often lands not so much on "optimist" as "too stubborn for his own good"... :)

vardasvapors replied to your post “thelioninmybed replied to your post: do you have...”

YOUR TAGS AHHHH :///// i.......may or may not have thought about this....to the tune of a lot of unresolved words....

IT'S SUCH A GOOD SCENARIO... do it do it is there any way I can help facilitate?? <3

vardasvapors

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“for male characters, androgynous or masculine, if you had to choose?”

re: your tags YUUUPPP. distinctiveness is my favorite thing! ;)

thelioninmybed replied to your post “for male characters, androgynous or masculine, if you had to choose?”

It's my favourite thing when artists take characters we have at best a line of description of but you can just see the art and be all 'haha YUP that's Mablung alright!', there's so much good art in this fandom

Yeah, I love how often you can look at the art and go YES THAT'S THEM even when the character isn’t described at all? Also how much art in the fandom has expanded my ideas about how different characters might look... so cool :D

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“please, someone, stop me from committing more Elwing Discourse”

how can u say that when M&M were clearly the better parents. would elwing have taught them which organs were good for eating? no. of course not.

so if we're speculating about ritual cannibalism, do you think that Maedhros and Maglor would have felt bad about depriving the twins of the opportunity to have a proper funeral for their mother, since as far as they know she jumped off a cliff and is presumably dead? Like, Feanor would definitely have frowned at them.

...maybe the Sindar ate their enemies instead. there's a lot of protein on an orc! Elwing would definitely know which poisonous bits to remove! :/

vardasvapors replied to your post “please, someone, stop me from committing more Elwing Discourse”

feeeeeeellll iiiittt

vardasvapors replied to your post “please, someone, stop me from committing more Elwing Discourse”

feel the strength draining from your body....

gurguliare replied to your post “please, someone, stop me from committing more Elwing Discourse”

be weak

yavieriel replied to your post “please, someone, stop me from committing more Elwing Discourse”

BLESS YOU for saying this and also I'm totally going to encourage you to commit Elwing Discourse, because I 100% agree with your tags

thelioninmybed replied to your post “please, someone, stop me from committing more Elwing Discourse”

be strong

I'm sorry guys you can all blame lion for encouraging me to vent in private rather than hissing at old posts by people who seem to have blocked me anyway, but next time there's a flare-up - point me, I guess, apparently this is the hill I have chosen to die on?

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I think that thing was my first time seeing any of this in the wild and honestly I could feel my retinas detaching

it’s... amazing how dreadful posts supposedly defending the Feanorians make them look... like is this supposed to be fridge horror about Maglor brainwashing them? no? are you sure? :|

(also, the idea that “forcing Elwing to abandon them” is the only possible reason the twins could have mixed feelings about the Feanorians - are we supposed to believe the twins were completely isolated and had no contact with anyone around Sirion except their mother?? the Feanorians killed a lot of people, guys!!)

#the-heart-of-my-mystery #vardasvapors #thelioninmybed #bamboocounting #erotetica #gurguliare #yavieriel #cannibalism cw

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meffthetravelfox · 7 years

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Week 1 AKA feeling like a first year again

This right here is Ķemeri bog and its the literal Dead Marshes from LotR and this is where I want to be buried.

The world is super small and all the trams and trolleys in Rīga are made in Czech republic. Coincidence? I don’t think so.

First days of school were real fun. Until Sunday evening we didn’t really have the timetables, bcs link they gave us in the materials led to a page that hadn’t been updated since spring. Google disappointed us. Someone must’ve bribed some university officials and in the end we got to the page. I thought that was the biggest problem to overcome.

Every single class began with a new wave of panic when the teachers started speaking Latvian. Don’t worry, your Korean teacher will talk to you in Korean only. I can’t speak Korean. Even the hardcore k-pop fans and dorama lovers can say only a couple of words or sentences. The teacher hands our books. They are in Latvian. But don’t worry, Erasmus, you’re not gonna use them, it’s just a present, bcs the professor is so happy to have it printed finally. The book has been lying on my table since then, constant reminder of language barrier. I don’t know if it motivates me more to learn Latvian so that I can study Korean through it, or if it’s the other way around.

But having Korean textbook is one thing, but Latvian textbook in Latvian is a whole new level. There’s nothing to save you, no rope to hold onto. It’s not a nightmare I had, it’s reality. Our textbook is all in Latvian.

Japanese lessons are cancelled, the teacher is not in Latvia yet, my classmates tell me. Does it mean we don’t have a teacher? How does this university work?

Haijima-sensei is a Latvian lady that teaches Japanese art history. She agrees to do it in English. Victory. I soon find out that she doesn’t really teach, she just plays documentaries on different topics and translates them. It’s still better than the big nothing on Japanese art that we have in Olomouc.

On the opposite side of the street from Faculty of Humanities is a Yolo Cafe and it’s the best joke ever.

I explore the library that is in the building and fall in love instantly. It’s small and cozy and there’s shitton of books on Japan. I also found Czech books. This is all of them. Half of them is Kundera. There’s Latvian translation of Švejk, Seifert and Viewegh. I am tempted to ask the librarians if anyone actually reads them and if it would make them happy if I brought them some books from home after Christmas.

This picture right here might look like a scene from S.T.A.L.K.E.R., but it’s actually the view from our dormitory kitchen. There’s also trains with writings in Russian passing behind this abandoned building now and then and it adds to the atmosphere. I love it.

About the kitchens. They are the meeting place. This is where you start relationships, bcs it’s so easy to start talking when the opening lines are so easy and obvious - Whatcha cookin’? If you are lucky, you get free food samples. I play a game when I’m trying to guess from where people are by the looks of the food they’re cooking.

I found my people. Unicon Cafe is a geek bar not far from the center of Rīga and they have about everything your heart might desire. Small TARDIS for the tips, big one in the corner for proper time-travel selfies, posters, flags, board games and Bill Cypher in the window. And also several-pages-long list of drinks named after everything, starting with the Hogwarts houses, through legendary Pokémons, all the way to houses from Game of thrones. And those were very popular my first night there, since it was a Game of Thrones party.

People who own the bar also do summer and winter cons and shitton of various events over the rest of the year. Kudos for active community ♥

As the week proceeded to it’s end, it was gaining on intensity. Friday seemed to have not 24, but at least 48 hours. It started with being almost killed by a Latvian wasp. Then the universe balanced itself when another teacher of Korean(bcs they can’t have just one at the uni) told me that she wants to talk to the class in Latvian and that I can go home. Since it was 8.30am I was more than happy to oblige. M. and A. + P., her new Hungarian roommate, were planning to go to Ķemeri (it’s pronounced Ťemeri, ok, Latvian has to be special and I’m crying in phonetic transcription) bog trail not long after I made it to the dorms. My forearm was swelled af, but the weather was nice(and that’s something you start to really appreciate when you are in Latvia) and coincidences don’t exist, so I took Zodac and decided to pack a lunch and go with them.

I was not disappointed.

We have the opportunity to taste what travelling with Latvian railways is like. It’s bumpy, but else, pretty ok. Ķemeri used to be pretty popular spa town, or something like that, but now it’s basically just the train station that brings ppl that go to the national park that’s close to the city. When we were waiting for our train back, we found one small shop that was probably the only one in the whole town, by the number of people that came there in the time we were enjoying ice cream outside.

The way to the bog is supposed to take 20 minutes, but it’s almost an hour and we have to cross a highway at one point. I’m not complaining though, bcs at least half of the way leads next to an old cemetery that is part of the forest. The others are getting skeptical, but I have Pokémon GO on and if there’s a pokéstop in the distance, it has to mean there’s something resembling civilization nearby.

We find a field that is a giant parking lot and there’s even a man selling parking tickets. There are two or three cars parked. Either it’s the best job ever, sitting in the middle of field in a forest and doing nothing for the most of the day, or the tourist season is over. Further into the forest we pass a blue caravan. There’s a lady selling coffee, beer, chips and ice cream. It’s very surreal.

The bog is pure magic. It’s quiet, more quiet than should be possible. There a pair of ravens flying over it and the sounds they make carries into the distance. I think about the Dead Marshes in Lords of the Rings. (Later I found out that the Ķemeri bog was indeed a dead bog and that there should be several thousand soldiers’ bodies decaying somewhere around that area)

On one of the tables with info about the bog there was a part about safety etc. It said that swimming in the small lakes in the national park is not recommended. Not forbidden, just not recommended. So if you wanna go and die a poetic death in the bog, feel free to do that, you’re not gonna be breaking any laws *wink wink*

When we were on top of an observation platform in the middle of the trail it hit us just how flat this country is.

Politbyro took all the mountains.

But that was not the end, in the evening I found my own Rīga’s Plán B(R.I.P.) called DEPO, made some new friends and listened to some pretty cool music.

And learned an important lesson.

Even though Rīga is the capital and even though there’s shitton of public transport during the day, there’s only one single tram going from the city center in the direction of our dorms at 0.40am and if you miss that, it’s either party till the morning, or a taxi. The fun thing is that finding the tram that you’re supposed to take is sort of a Russian roulette here. See, the night trams don’t have numbers here, even though Google maps say they do. There’s just the name of the depo to which they are going on the front window of the tram. It’s not something pleasant to find out in the middle of the night.

But I managed to survive.

Meme of the week:

Politbyro tried to kill me and they almost succeeded

#meff in latvia #p3 #erasmus #latvia #riga #baltics #student life

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a-memoir-of-me-blog · 7 years

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more system things lol. fuck. matrix is real

my first true love: boys will be boys and good thing I'm not in that convo cause I know I'm ok with no abortions and cause I'm so against that or funding for that

-Me: but like at least have condoms and birth control easy access. Because then the kids being born to underage parents and/or parents who cannot afford good care for them, they'll grow up in harsh environments because the parents simply cannot get out of the system. All their hard work goes straight to just caring for what they have now. And if they're in school, it's even harder. If they're at work. It's even harder. This has a huge toll on a child's behavior. And that's why inner city schools need to be better. They need to rlly be there and feel like a community for the kid and prepare them for their success because that's what they're lacking at home. And very important for counseling for them. Teaching them about interpersonal and personal skills and negotiating for not just their gain, but their counterpart. We should donate to these kids who can't afford much because of the situation their parents are in. Or else there's a rlly high risk for them to act out in criminal ways. Like selling sex, selling drugs, robberies, gang activity all just to provide for themselves and their family. And they're just going to be jailed. And who suffers? Tax payers. Their families. That's why we need to PREVENT this. But private funded prisons will want to keep it because they want to profit off of the people who simply are not aware. And again. School. Community. Etc. and that creates less STD’s and unwanted pregnancies etc. and that would help hone down those issues. The services wouldn't be used as much because of the programs installed to help prevent that. And yes...all those services, are tax payers! And yes! We are giving them the profits! So instead! Let's do stuff to PREVENT this!

-Him: condoms and birth control and education should be enforced and made easy access because then it prevents unwanted pregnancies and spread of diseases. And most of the time they do grow up in tough situations but education (resources) only do so much and guide, but it's up to the individual to take it and own it and their own responsibilities when it comes to taking the smart way and benefit from that or disregard all of that and go the “alternative” way that media flaunts. Both males and females gotta start being aware of themselves and how they affect things around them and also to stop fucking everything and be smarter about their shit.

-Me: so we should help the inner city/low income kids have better ways to resolve issues. create more businesses within those area for them to get money in a civil way and at least help stay afloat with their family and not have to resort in uncivil ways to get money, in means of getting things to survive. this can also help keep gang activity down too. help keep pimping and prostitution down (STD’s and pregnancy down). drug dealers down. drug use down. honestly it all starts from 1) birth 2) growing up with proper education and good behaviors enforced and community connection

like they need to realize they're in a bad situation and we're born into this but it's not their fault. BUT it's THEY. it is YOU who can provide something better for yourself and your future and your community and the uprising generations. they should realize and be empowered that they can get out of the position they were born into.

that's also where discrimination comes in (being stuck in one area and letting power go to one), and learn to make ppl like them instead of reacting bad when bad happens to them. they need to let ppl see that all they want is a better life for themselves and those around them and not let their hopes and dreams go down because they're the minority and/or the targeted ones and the low income ones. the low educated ones. etc. they need to not act out when they're not being heard and/or given chances. the first chance is the first and last. so always try to make it good. if we installed a rlly strong emphasis on how important education is, self control and proper behavior to not hurt another and not one another, and come together as a community to be taken seriously and be seen as ppl who are rlly just trying to get things to be better for themselves and the community and the future. doing illegal shit will just make a lot of people want to them against them because they doesn't help them nor anyone else around them. but they also don't wanna fix it because they wanna lock those ppl up. and that's private prisons. and obv then the remainder need to go to public prisons and that's so much tax money, which could've went to education to prevent that stuff from happening.

-him: nine of that will stop tho. the system has made it this way and to try to stabilize low income communities with businesses and store fronts 1) no one wants to open a store in a high risk area 2) no one wants to fund a company in that location that's bound to be vandalized

-me: that's where social media and pop culture and selfishness comes into play. priorities are fucked up. they all wanna seem cool and above one another. like yo. you're in section 8. but u wanna stack on j’s? that won't mean shit when you're older? no one will care when you're older about what you had. you're gonna waste on drugs and kill your body slowly? you wanna “flex” and feel better than each other? tryna be like fake ass rappers who give off a fake make believe reality? and you're brainwashed into it? like….stop being brainwashed into thinking that's cool

And yeah, but that's where I think education needs to reform. I am all for education bruh. All for communities coming together to realize their internal issues and going to the root. All for changing their priorities. All for coming together for a better come up for all these shit areas. But yo. Education!!!!!! Like really man. Education. Being aware of the system so it doesn't chew them up and shit them out even worse But. I think if we open businesses there and let them realize. This is for the betterment of the WHOLE community. This isn't just for a profit. This is to offer u more jobs. Offer u a responsibility and a sense of importance. Because let's be honest. All these ppl just want to feel like they're doing something to get attention. And why would they wanna vandalize their own shit that's gonna help them? U know? Like. I think they should learn some ways to build more businesses. Businesses not just for themselves. But for their whole community and for their brothers and sisters all struggling. Like. They also need to stop being selfish and killing other ppl out of like idk. Jealousy? Wanting more money? But they're the ones making it hard for everyone in their community struggle. Ppl who are drug dealers or gang bangers always end up staying in their shit beginnings because as a WHOLE, they're making it harder for themselves. I guess u can say those ppl are the bad 1% of the low incomers lol. They create holes. Make other holes even bigger And how can this be avoided??? Education!!!!!!! Like. It sucks to say. But rn, there's like separate economies (high, middle, low). And they're all equally corrupt and that's why they all can't work well together rn and we're all like burdens to one another lol. But u know what helps ALL of them? Education and better Also. We should have more programs for kids. Let them socialize with kids their age. Have people to look up to as a good role model. Help them with any personal issues. Therefore they won't act out because they know there's help for them. Also it can be good because we can let their parents work while we watch their kids and help them with hw, do arts and crafts, socialize with friends, maybe play instruments, just dance. Be themselves. Let loose. :) "Hendren, along with Harvard economists Katz and Raj Chetty, now at Stanford University, looked at the lasting effects of moving children to better neighborhoods as part of Moving to Opportunity, a short-lived federal housing program from the '90s. Their analysis, published in May, found that the longer children are exposed to better environments, the better they do economically in the future. Whichever city or state children grow up in also radically affects whether they'll move out of poverty, he said"* And what did I say? Trying to improve inner city / low income neighborhoods? Like. They can improve it by themselves if they wanted to. If they're wise enough and more woke. "It's definitely been a strategy" to justify starving government of resources, which in turn weakens it and makes it less attractive as a tool to accomplish big things, said Skocpol. "In an everybody-for-themselves situation, it is the better-educated and the wealthy who can protect themselves."* And that's why we can't rely on the government. We must make the changes ourselves. We must educate ourselves. Educate our communities. Help the children. "I think it is naïve of most individuals to think that for everything there is something that government can legislate and regulate and impose that makes life better for everybody," she said. "That's just not the case."* While it's clear that investing in children and their education pays lifelong dividends for them, those gains take 20 years to be realized, said Katz. That's why it's critical that their parents get help and live in less vulnerable situations.* Of course industry needs to run its businesses productively and profitably, but it can do so without harming "the commons," Rivkin said. "Business has been very effective at pursuing its narrow self-interest in looking for special tax breaks. I think that kind of behavior just needs to stop." Drawing on an idea from Harvard Business School finance Professor Mihir Desai, Rivkin suggests that businesses treat their tax responsibilities as a compliance function rather than as a profit center. That money could then go back into investment in "the commons," where "lots of common ground" exists among business, labor, policymakers, educators and others.* "The businesses should be working with the local community college to train the workers whom they would love to hire; the university should be getting together with policymakers to figure out how to get innovations out of the research lab into startups faster; business should work with educators to reinvent the school system," said Rivkin.* Putnam suggests more widespread mentoring of low-income children who lack the social safety net that upper- and middle-class children enjoy, a topic he explored in "Our Kids."* Adam Smith, perhaps the first true economist, gave some answers in “An Inquiry Into the Nature and Causes of the Wealth of Nations.” That treatise is sometimes thought of as a capitalist bible. It is at least partly about the achieving of greatness through the pursuit of wealth in free markets. But Smith didn’t believe that money alone assured national stature. He also wrote disapprovingly of the single-minded impulse to secure wealth, saying it was “the most universal cause of the corruption of our moral sentiments.” Instead, he emphasized that decent people should seek real achievement — “not only praise, but praiseworthiness.”** Strikingly, national greatness was a central issue in a previous presidential election campaign: Lyndon B. Johnson, in 1964, called for the creation of a Great Society, not merely a rich society or a powerful society. Instead, he spoke of achieving equal opportunity and fulfillment. “The Great Society is a place where every child can find knowledge to enrich his mind and to enlarge his talents,” he said. “It is a place where leisure is a welcome chance to build and reflect, not a feared cause of boredom and restlessness.”** All of which is to say that government intervention to enhance greatness will not be a simple matter. There is a risk that well-meaning change may make matters worse. Protectionist policies and penalties for exporters of jobs may not increase long-term opportunities for Americans who have been left behind. Large-scale reduction of environmental or social regulations or in health care benefits, or in America’s involvement in the wider world may increase our consumption, yet leave all of us with a sense of deeper loss. Greatness reflects not only prosperity, but it is also linked with an atmosphere, a social environment that makes life meaningful. In President Johnson’s words, greatness requires meeting not just “the needs of the body and the demands of commerce but the desire for beauty and the hunger for community.”** The solution to this puzzle is to realize that economic inequality is not just one thing. It consists of some things that are very bad, like kids with no chance of reaching their potential, and others that are good, like Larry Page and Sergey Brin starting the company you use to find things online.*** And while some of the growth in economic inequality we've seen since then has been due to bad behavior of various kinds, there has simultaneously been a huge increase in individuals' ability to create wealth*** (refer back to my English essay about the bad 1% of the 1%. The stealers. The manipulators. Compared to the other .99% of the 1% who actually create stuff, and therefore create wealth in return for their creation) There are lots of things wrong with the US that have economic inequality as a symptom. We should fix those things. In the process we may decrease economic inequality. But we can't start from the symptom and hope to fix the underlying causes. [7]*** Closely related to poverty is lack of social mobility. I've seen this myself: you don't have to grow up rich or even upper middle class to get rich as a startup founder, but few successful founders grew up desperately poor. But again, the problem here is not simply economic inequality. There is an enormous difference in wealth between the household Larry Page grew up in and that of a successful startup founder, but that didn't prevent him from joining their ranks. It's not economic inequality per se that's blocking social mobility, but some specific combination of things that go wrong when kids grow up sufficiently poor.*** One of the most important principles in Silicon Valley is that "you make what you measure." It means that if you pick some number to focus on, it will tend to improve, but that you have to choose the right number, because only the one you choose will improve; another that seems conceptually adjacent might not. For example, if you're a university president and you decide to focus on graduation rates, then you'll improve graduation rates. But only graduation rates, not how much students learn. Students could learn less, if to improve graduation rates you made classes easier. Economic inequality is sufficiently far from identical with the various problems that have it as a symptom that we'll probably only hit whichever of the two we aim at. If we aim at economic inequality, we won't fix these problems. So I say let's aim at the problems.*** If we want to fix the world behind the statistics, we have to understand it, and focus our efforts where they'll do the most good.*** Rather, the focus should be on disrupting the cycle of poverty in which social decay in one generation inhibits the development of the next, individuals ill-prepared for life and work face limited opportunity, and their ensuing struggles cause further social decay.**** Better-educated parents place far more emphasis on encouragement and on the value of self-reliance, while less educated ones more frequently deliver discouragement and emphasize obedience.**** Children in the lower class face stresses and traumas that impair learning and the development of concentration, self-discipline, and problem-solving.**** Putnam explains that children in the lower class face stresses and traumas foreign to the upper class. They are up to five times more likely to face abuse and violence, addiction, and the death or imprisonment of a parent. Those experiences, along with ineffective and unstable caregiving, impair learning and the development of “executive functions” such as concentration, self-discipline, and problem-solving. All these consequences occur independently of public schooling and, largely, before public schooling has even begun**** These problems in turn perpetuate the cycle by diminishing opportunity and career prospects. Between 1960 and 2010, Murray reports, the percentage of upper-class households with a full-time worker declined from 90 percent to 87 percent, while the lower-class decline was from 81 percent to 53 percent. And so, as the next generation starts its own families in its own communities, one can only hope the lower class will manage to hold the eroding ground on which their parents stood. The trends, unfortunately, suggest they have little chance even of that; as the cycle spirals downward and decay engenders yet more decay.**** But elements in Edwards’s upbringing that might have mitigated his economic hardship — a two-parent family instilling strong values, a community filled with hard-working role models committed to the betterment of their children — are exactly what have now gone missing in lower-class America. Social inequality is insidious because it transmits itself across generations by interfering with opportunity.**** Can we conclude that social conditions in the lower class unfairly impair opportunity? If we do, it should affect what outcomes we consider just and what level of government intervention we demand. But the situation is not only a fundamental challenge to some conservative assumptions; it also reinforces conservatives’ emphasis on family and community and traditional values as social bedrocks that a government program or check can never replace. Conservatives are uniquely capable of understanding the problem and should lead the way toward solutions.**** For better and worse, you can’t legislate social change. Social programs — especially if delivered through local organizations — can provide real help to individuals. But programs alone cannot counter the momentum of a free society barreling in the opposite direction. Instead, broader public policy must seek to alter the basic incentives and conditions fueling the negative trends.**** *https://www.google.com/amp/www.usnews.com/news/the-report/articles/2016-02-09/the-costs-of-inequality-the-rich-and-the-rest%3Fcontext%3Damp* **https://mobile.nytimes.com/2017/01/12/upshot/make-america-great-again-isnt-just-about-money-and-power.html?rref=collection%2Ftimestopic%2FIncome%20Inequality&action=click&contentCollection=timestopics&region=stream&module=stream_unit&version=latest&contentPlacement=8&pgtype=collection&_r=0&referer= ***http://paulgraham.com/ineq.html ****https://www.google.com/amp/s/bc.marfeel.com/amp/www.nationalreview.com/article/425746/social-inequality-matters-much-or-more-economic-inequality-oren-cass?client=safari https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=RIghbrn5yfI http://www.scilearn.com/blog/ten-facts-about-how-poverty-impacts-education https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/answer-sheet/wp/2013/10/17/public-educations-biggest-problem-keeps-getting-worse/?utm_term=.d4f232debd33 https://www.google.com/amp/www.vox.com/platform/amp/2016/7/22/12254046/myths-higher-education-crisis-debt-loans-free-tuition This ties into my weed ideas!!!!!

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