#how will i survive another year?

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Don't Wormy About Me.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #yu ziyuan #Please allow me to make it clear how important I think the hug between YZY and JC is in regards to several aspects of their characters #For one - it is the resolution and reveal that behind all the harsh words and bitterness...She really did love her son. #A hug is a soft gesture that you would never expect from someone like YZY and the fact she shows JC this affection now - #-Tells us how she knows that this upcoming battle is a death sentence for her. #Her giving away Zidan is honestly overkill but another sign of her truly showing him how she loves him and wants him to survive. #The dread of knowing she's walking back to a fight without zidian and trying to keep up brave face one last time...chilling. #Zidian represents legacy and promises. And this is going to both save and destroy Jiang Cheng as he carries this weight alone. #Heartbreaking stuff! Didn't draw it in the comic because I wanted to draw a silly worm on a string! #WWX tried to help JC out of the knot but got stuck in it. #Those worm on a string tricks are harder than they look! #Also; it's been about a year since the last boat joke - but indeed this is the 11th boat of pd-mdzs. No need to do the math.

[journish]

I just realized something, his eyes are white in this scene in the trailer. It may be an animation thing, and I guess I was assuming that this is a flashback because of his hair, but Simon's eyes are only ever white post-magic, so maybe this is something else.

#Is he going to get to see her again?? #Ugh my heart can only ache so long #I can't wait another week to see Betty I don't understand how he's gone 12 years and survived #simon petrikov #petrigrof #betty grof #fionna and cake

[arttsuka]

I couldn't not draw anything with them for Valentines day 💖 Here's a song for them 💝

These two drawings are not supported to be together exactly but I drew them so close that I couldn't take separate photos :/ (they are technically together but not next to each other. Imagine them being in their own offices while receiving these gifts)

Oh well.

#one time i saw a 'how to draw a rose' tutorial and it hasn't left my brain since. it's been 7 years i think #ace attorney #aa #phoenix wright ace attorney #phoenix wright #naruhodo ryuichi #miles edgeworth #Edgeworth #mitsurugi reiji #wrightworth #narumitsu #valentines day #happy valentine's day #fanart #art #traditional art #btw he didn't just give him one rose. Gumshoe just lost the rest while trying to deliver them. only one survived. Phoenix doesn't mind #second post today and I will post another #i'm on fire #i love that song and so should you btw

[ichthyorelationships]

an idea i invite anyone else to write about / run with lol....

the premise that The Change gets all messed up for alberto, say it's something that can happen from stress, &/or happens rarely and you just have to wait for it to resolve itself....used as some parallel to struggling through some emotional turbulence / upheaval / questioning / Realizing Things, etc etc

#luca 2021 #pixar luca #alberto scorfano #another idea i've failed to write for & so invite anyone else to run with: ciao alberto but what if he peaces out by swimming off lol #ends up in a coastal town maybe an hour's swim from genoa. but not Getting In Touch w/anyone for a while b/c plausibly he thinks that #giulia may not be a fan of him now by extension; just being too embarrassed asf to reach out to luca kinda lol....luca off doing his own #thing just fine & alberto not wanting to write him now like b/c i Ruined Everything again ahaha.... #and by ''not in touch w/anyone for a while'' who knows. months; a few years even....might stumble across news of him b/c like. #say more sea folk are coming to land / more humans know abt them & not many places are as [harpoon]ly from the start anyways #portorosso exceptional in that way....maybe where alberto settles down they're like legendary but also considered Good Luck anyways lol. #anyways like some people know of him who might; say; swim down to portorosso. have their own teen who knows a teen who mostly lives on land #most convenient re sparking [wow could they mean Our alberto] if he doesn't go so far as to take up an alias lol. but why would he.... #that difference in that massimo might figure that however alberto was surviving before; he could continue to do so now; but even though tha #is some comfort it's still Not Actually Enough....feeling way more Parentally towards alberto than his biological dad like that; obv #and anyways re: this [The Change gets messed up] idea it's more of an inconvenience lol but one that could still have some significance #like if he first finds out the issue exists via hopping right into the ocean; failing to change forms; never being human form'd in water b4 #thee worst....crash intro course to the experience of drowning. observation of How Humans Swim / being able to grab any part of the boat... #and besides That unpleasantness it's like; hey. where's my nonhuman form at #or; of course; being in sea form even while dry....especially if he's still dealing with Nonsense on land. which is presumed. #&/or if there's an upswing in nonsense b/c of Other ways you're Othered...ofc we can consider like; tfw you're a gay fish & maybe that's no #something that on its own would be like Aah until it's like well a) i kinda wanna do things that would make this Visible and b) i've learne #that humans also Have Issues about this kind of thing.... #appropriately my tablet was also all thrown off. no pressure sensitivity; input sensitivity overall was rough #but i would've had to restart my laptop about it lol like eh i'll just work around it

[miodiodavinci]

head in hands like "maybe i should have realized this about myself sooner" as i am surrounded by neon flashing signs that Very Clearly Indicate the thing i should have realized about myself sooner

#anyway i'm just mulling about the 'tism skdjfhgljhdfg #thinking about how i've been having a hard time on site with my internship because i struggle to make small talk with my superiors #and everything is uncomfortable and terrible all of the time and i feel so so out of my depth #but talking with my university superior about the methodology of our profession #has me feeling like i'm playing just dance on extreme and i'm nailing every single beat w #like quite literally is like one of those rhythm games where when you get a combo it plays a cool sound effect #and i'm playing so well the sound effects are overlapping and the screen is just an explosion of stars w #so yeah i am. very comfortable talking academics and theory and things but. shit in social situations. #when i don't have that to rely on whoops #anyway it's just another thing on the incredibly long list of things i have building in my mind of #'why i should have realized i'm probably on the spectrum sooner' #the thrilling sequel to 'how did i go 20+ years without realizing i have ADHD' w #(speaking of) #(the way my ADHD has been leaping into the spotlight this week) #(biggest highlight was being jumpscared not once) #(not twice!!) #(but THREE times by food i had bought for myself) #(put down briefly) #(and then forgotten about for upwards of 30 minutes to 5 hours) #(like the other day i bought myself a little pastry on the way home as a congrats for surviving another week) #(and i put it on the table when i came inside) #(but i. forgot i did that. and went like 4 hours without even thinking about it) #(until i got up and left my room and saw the bag and went '! ! ! ! ! ! ! OH MY GO D MY PASTRY NOOOOOOO') #(the adhd and the autism . . . . they are attacking my ass . . . . . )

[enhanced-operatives-division]

Improvement :3

#turns out practice does work....who would have thought .. apparently not me... #im very proud I've stayed with it #me??? actually liking ny art??? and seeing myself improve more than i have in a year within a couple months?????????? #what a good hyperfixation/special interest does to you/silly #alas i need to keep branching out to the other ieytd characters because i wanna work on my fabby design #i have a hard time with costume and um she is literally THE fashion girlie so. i gotta work on that #because she DESERVES IT DAMNIT #also still working on a mental image for zor...sigh #im really into the vitti as zor theory and that 'zor' is a role/title that's kinna passed on....idk...i have thoughts..... #but yeah zor is so painfully human to me but also is trying to not be drives me up the WALL #THAT'S ANOTHER POSTS RANT how did i get here #alas #ieytd #[agent moose's art] #THAT'S IT not individually tagging these doodles? drawings? are not good enough for that #i don't have. the urge to draw in full colour rn <- so so so so busy <- leaves secondary education in less than 2 months #alas. I'm surviving. and very excited about next steps. just gotta get through. via ieytd. it's becoming my mantra #i keep saying i should make designs for solaris and redo my fabby so i can have triple threat explaining science to me on my flashcards #im. coping in my own special way

[sepulchritude]

I’m pretty committed to getting this surgery at all costs but the costs are starting to add up

#because it’s a month earlier than planned i have less money and less PTO and less time #so what should have been ‘it’s a bit of a stretch but it’s well within manageable range’ #is now actually ‘pull from long term savings and scramble for extra hours and live on student loans and maybe take leave without pay’ #can anything anything anything please be easy #it’s not the financially wise decision but i don’t want to live like this anymore #and i don’t know how to survive another ‘cancel it and wait another 3 years’ #sepulchritudinous #top surgery

[orchideae]

1) Opens up drafts with my head empty, ready to be flooded, not knowing where I'll go. 2) 30 seconds later: Okay but I will go feral any day of my life over Perilous Trail, and the fierce dichotomy of Xiao and Yelan. While they're far from being 'the same', they both view themselves as soldiers in one way or another (it's a very difficult word to use for Yelan, so I'm using it very liberally and very loosely), they have both suffered losses on the 'battlefield' and carry the burden thereof in their own ways. And yet they stand so firmly in opposition throughout the entirety of that questline up until the very end of the 'the end of the line' conclusion of the quest. Yes, I know that she offers him her gratitude in its aftermath and it is genuine, but she still never agrees with him and the decision that he made moments earlier. It simply 'worked out' because of Zhongli's interference, he's the only reason it worked out. And it's because of that, that she doesn't give him a hell of a hard time (obviously she can't go down there, but imagine the inner frustration of severe extents; when you condemn someone who you can't even see anymore). In the same way that she would do to anyone who would sacrifice themselves for others, but in this case, I think it's 'beautiful' that it's to Xiao; the one who seems most adamant to do so (which honestly, fits into the contract that the Yakshas chose to sign with Morax; 'the ultimate sacrifice' to protect for Liyue; 'for Liyue', and Liyue has always centered itself around its people), the one who everyone reveres (and so does she, as she notes in her voiceline, 'if I ever have the honor to fight alongside') and respects for good reason, she stands against him, because in that moment, regardless of his status, he makes a call that she considers wrong. And he doesn't even... fight her on it very fiercely, and that's what actually hurts me the most, it's as if the following line hit the nail directly on the head?

"Besides, if you were really so determined to end it all, you wouldn't have given us the opportunity to share our opinions."

#[ mini study. ] that which hides inside her… that constant calling; it is the blood of heroes which has been howling for 500 years. #[ and then shortly after 'the point is: it's not time for drastic measures yet.' ] #[ /shakes ven into another dimension. ] #[ i thought the ost at the end of perilous ruined me enough. but tale of the yakshas may actually ruin me more. ] #[ also i love how i typed up the bit of the contract and 'for liyue' and zhongli in my head isn't rattling at bars but-- ] #[ he's sipping his tea (the equivalent). one day ven. i /promise/ you. one day you'll get him from me. ] #[ he'll likely be the 2nd genshin blog to run alongside yelan if/when i get to being able to run two again. ] #[ but until then. can we talk about the dynamic of xiao and yelan until we're blue in the face? i'd like to do that too. ] #[ i type this as if i'm perfectly chill but i'm not. i'm really not. the concept of self sacrifice and sacrifice as a whole. ] #[ BETWEEN THESE TWO. drives me /insane/. and part of me sits here and goes-- ] #[ god. what happened with yelan and her team down there? we know that despite every plan she ever made and prepared-- ] #[ their enemies (WHAT WERE YOU FIGHTING??) were too powerful and more specifically-- too smart. too calculating. ] #[ ... and too strong (okay literally what on earth were you fighting? are we talking the khaenri'ah soldiers? like what? or abyss mages?) ] #[ (but abyss mages don't exactly entirely fit the description in her story. ugh. UGH). ] #[ any way-- it was her and her team. /they/ all died and she didn't. yanfei describes it as... ] #[ 'knowing that your life was saved when others weren't'. surely the millilith didn't intervene or happen to arrive. yelan must've... ] #[ gotten away? or something? but that doesn't feel quite right. but i'm just sitting here left with the idea of... when you lead a team. ] #[ you bear the responsibility of even their lives. and yet despite bearing that responsibility; she's exactly the one who lived. ] #[ the only one who did. that has to be a /stupid/ burden. it's like the captain who has to go down with the ship but is the only one... ] #[ who gets to live. only one who gets to survive. i just. ] #[ i didn't think i'd love a character as much as this one. where did she come from; jesus christ. ]

[jessiesjaded]

Teddy 💜

#Ted will always be like The Dog of my life I think #because he survived the car crash that killed my dad and presumably killed our other dog too #but his spine was broken and he had to get this insane laser surgery that cost 6600 dollars in 2005 so can only imagine how much itd cost #now and he had to stay in a cage for like a month after but he really came back as feisty as ever #and he lived another 14 years after !! #he was so funny and kinda mean but he chilled out with age and its crazy that hes already been gone for 5 years #but im thinking about him today #he was a funny funny dog #truly had his own personality and spirit

[glittermutt]

just you guys wait for when i get on meds and stop being depressed and lose weight and learn to draw and sing and not be awkward and ill finally be worth something just yall wait

#sigh #in the future ill get on hrt #but itll take so long #like five years #granted ill still be quite young #but still #its so stressful #because im not really sure if ill even survive #so im. stressed about it everyday #how can i be sure of my future if i dont know #if ill even make it for another day #yknow #and people mocking my appearance isnt really helping #at all #my groupmates are nice #but guys are just #ruthless lol #rambles

[yourcalamity]

hell yeah baby 2024

#i hope i consume enough substances this year to stump scientists for generations to come #and/or find peace lol #god please i dont want tochave to feel like this for a whole year again #i dont want tochave to survive for another year i want to be able to live and exist like everyone else #ive been struggling so much for so long its exhausting living like this but every time i try to get out of it sometging knocks me down again #im jusy tired i just want any sign of worth i dont feel like i have any lol #im jist around to be useful who i am and how i feel and what i like dont actually matter lol

[rose022]

hey anyone wanna do my homework for me and i will draw or write literally anything you want pretty please im losing my mind

#rose rambles #uhm. hi sorry #itd be social studies and sociology and youre allowed to google the answers #i just literally cannot sit and read through text like it hurts my head #and its so hard to just sit and focus on doing it #which is stupid and idk how ill survive college if i cant even do this but whatever #who knows if ill actually make it another year #wait uh i didnt say thay we chill

[heartsforyou222]

i have school tomorrow... i feel like i'm going crazy

#how do i survive another year omg #teacher crush #teacher crush community #teacher attachment #teacher x student #male teacher crush #male tc #tc blog

[prophecyofgray]

maybe it’s a little on the nose (metaphorically speaking) but man. solovet dying and vikus surviving—fragile and changed, but alive—just really gets me.

#this has been in my drafts for literal years idk why i havent posted it #if i think about vikus and solovet too much i feel crazy #sometimes it's just easier to make jokes about vikus being gay and solovet being a lesbian and the two of them being trapped in a loveless #lavender marriage #but on a more real level godddd. vikus and solovet. peace and war. inextricable from one another. in love and yet always at odds #solovet flying unknowingly and unceremoniously to her death. gone just as quickly as she returned to power #vikus fighting for survival and learning how to live again #after losing so much of others and himself #wagfjwhktmg I FEEL CRAAAAZYYYY #anyway. Lavender Marriage #🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈 #tuc20 #the underland chronicles #tuc

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

Like just single dad space cowboy Lance au, that keeps rotating in my head, absolute bullshit but just know it is inspired by Smokin Joe Rudeboy by Tom Cardy

#It is such a funny au (to me) nothing makes sense #Basically it starts with s2 Shiro survives Zarkon dies but Black Lion is also VERY damaged=> #This leads to the war to be in bit of a standstill for few years=> #Keith still does his whole went with BoM missions thing => #At some point with more years later there is a major fight that breaks up the team => #Lance runs away and gets stuck in what is essentially the Mid Western Cowboy theme part of the universe => #(It is a very big part of the universe btw) => #He lives a few more years as an outlaw travelling from one yeehaw planet to another yeehaw planet => #And then meets this very feral 11 year old who is on a hunt to fight her shitty ass dead beat dad=> #Lance who hasnt seen any of his friends or family in years is like 'is anyone gonna adopt this child?' and didnt wait for an answer => #But yeah this girl is familiar and Hang On!! => #Yeah so her dead beat dad turns out to be Keith. Now she cld be a clone (makes more sense) or result of a one night stand (funnier) => #But point is she really wants to fucking fight him and Lance is like 'ok how about you just tell him to fuck off instead?' => #Also Kuron is there. Lance found him and Kuron was like 'Lance you found me! It has been years dont you remember i am Shiro!!' #And Lance who has been ghosting Shiro for years is like 'no you are not?' clone revealations. Not fun. Anyway the au isnt even about that #It is about Keith's pre teen daughter who wants to kick his ass and Lance who is like please calm down kid and Kuron who is just so confuse #and they are all cowboys #lance mcclain #lance voltron #lance serrano #takashi shirogane #keith kogane #keith voltron #kuron #voltron kuron #voltron #voltron legendary defender #empty thoughts

[tinfoilvalentine]

School is so nice in theory but I’m unfortunately stupid!

#I am being dramatic. I don’t think I am stupid #but I am genuinely bad at writing papers just let me attend lectures forever without generating any of my own material #how am I going to survive another 3 years of this lol