#hopefully that won't also be tomorrow's thing

[a-b-riddle]

Part Five

Can't stop thinking about the attempt of reconciliation and reader ain't having it. Our girl is going to be wilddddd y'all. Also goodnight. See y'all tomorrow (maybe)

You call Meredith when you get home.

You. Are. Fuming. She's not sure she can ever remember a time you using so many swear words at one time.

How fucking dare them? Immature? You're the immature one? You were the one trying your best to salvage four failing relationship meanwhile none of those assholes could be bothered to try and keep one. They had one person to manage: you.

"I wanna go out this weekend." "Wear something tight and borderline risk indecent exposure."

"You know what I always say," Meredith begins. "The best way to get over someone-"

"is to get under someone else." You finish. You weren't exactly keen on the idea of bringing someone to your bed just yet, but a little attention would do you some good. "I don't want to fuck someone just yet." You admitted. "I'm more on the getting drunk and making out."

"I didn't know we resorted back secondary school heavy petting?" She teased.

"University, Dear." You corrected. "I didn't peak until after I graduated."

"No." She argued. "You didn't put your books down long enough to realize that boys actually wanted to fuck you." You were glad she couldn't see you roll your eyes. "Saturday work for you? I have a late night Friday and won't be up for it."

"That works."

"Sorry." She apologized. "I plan on getting you absolutely smashed so I need to be ready to play the nanny. I know how you love to get drunk and run off."

It was true. You had always found it hilarious when you were drunk to just run. Quite literally run away. It got to a point during university where Meredith would handcuff you to her so you didn't stray.

"I won't run." Your sober mind promised.

"Uh huh." Meredith's tone told you that she knew that was a load of shit. "I'll text Tabs. Let her know the plan."

The next day at the shop was pretty uneventful. No more unexpected visitors. You still had them all blocked. Not caring if now they decided to offer up some bullshit apology.

Months. This had been a steady decline for six months. A text or a simply sorry won't fix this. You weren't sure anything could.

But it didn't matter. You were done and they obviously were too.

You had picked up enough take out to feed a family, but you didn't plan on making your lunch before work or cooking when you got home. The rest of the week you planned on just going through the motions until you could go out Saturday and hopefully get everything out.

You weren't paying attention as you walked down the hallway to your flat. Fishing in your purse for keys. You were at almost at your door when you saw him.

Sitting next to your door was a familiar face. A face you felt you haven't seen in forever.

“What are you doing here, Kyle?" Your voice was flat as you continued to blindly try and find your keys with one hand. Fuck. You really need to clean out your purse...

“My key wouldn’t work.” He explained. "So I’m out here.”

"I'm aware why you're not in my apartment since I changed the locks," you said, trying to keep your irritation at bay. "What I am asking is why did you come here?"

"You won't return any of our messages."

"You're all blocked, so technically I didn't really get any messages." "Besides, you don't get to complain to me about not responding to texts, Kyle Garrick." Your fingers finally wraps around them. God bless. "If you're here for your things, it'll have to wait. I have to sort through everyone's shit and I don't know whose is whose."

"We need to talk." He explains as you put the key into the lock, opening the door.

"Nah," you say scrunching your nose in that way he used to adore. "I'm good. But you can swing by tomorrow and pick up your things if you'd like." You say before trying to shut the door on him. You were stupid in thinking you could be faster than him.

Dammit.

"I know things haven't been good and I've definitely could have been better,'' he admits. "But can you at least try and let us apologize? Let us try and work it out."

"No." You answered, trying to close the door. Not caring if you had to resort to kicking his shins to get him out.

"Why not?" He countered.

“Maybe because I've already tried, Kyle?” You gave up on trying to shut him out. You were strong, but he didn't have any issues in besting you. “Because I actually tried with you. With all of you. You didn’t need to come here giving me excuses about your life being hectic because I’ve made the excuses for you.” You didn't miss how he practically flinched. He had always blamed his busy life. Family. Work. You stopped caring about whatever excuse he gave you and realized it was just that. An excuse. “I’ve been telling myself for months that everything you guys didn’t do for me wasn’t because you didn’t care about me. It was because of the stress of your deployments is the reason none of you tell me when you get back from until it’s time to fuck. I tell myself it’s because of the fucked up situation of me being with all of you that makes it awkward to meet your families. Families you all have that I now know I’m not worthy of meeting.” He wanted to correct you. You were. You were worthy. He was an idiot. “It’s not that I need your excuses to make me feel like what you did was justified. No matter what it was, it was apparently to you because you did it.”

He took a step back, processing everything you had said. He had been selfish. You were the reliable constant in his life. Someone he believed he never disappointed. Someone he couldn't disappoint no matter how many times he fucked up.

You took the opportunity to slam the door. Quickly turning the lock before he had a chance to open it back up.

God...

That felt good.

You had spent that evening collecting their thing in case Kyle did show back up tomorrow. You wouldn't make their lives easier by sorting all their shit and organizing it. Everything. One box. Let them figure it out. You almost had a mind to add a shirt that you knew didn't belong to any of them just to have them argue over it. Or least make them think there was someone else...

You were almost tempted if not for the premise that you wanted them to realize this was their fault. Their fuck up. But now that you were officially all broken up, you were free game.

#captain john price #kyle gaz garrick #simon ghost riley #call of duty #john soap mactavish #angst with a happy ending #angst #grovel #jealousy

[missmako-chan]

Day 5: Change of Clothes! Jeramie tries on a certain other spider character's dress. Gira approves.

#kingohger #ohsama sentai kingohger #king ohger #giramie #Giramie Week #day 5 once again a whole day late #but also i'm really proud of this one :) #gonna do days 6 and 7 tomorrow as the same thing cause i won't have time to do two separate things for them lmao #but it's gonna be a fic and hopefully a long one #mako draws

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

Real quick PSA for the followers, just to make sure my positions are clear on some issues and to make sure I am not causing any unintentional harm (that devolved into a minor hiatus):

-If I'm intending to talk about something specific, I'll mention it, I promise.

-I do be forgetting that you all recognize me on both my A03 and my tumblr. It is surprising to me every time. I tend to be vERY flippant on here, especially in my tags. I think we have reached a point where I should be more careful lol. I am not used to having an actual effect, so if I have an effect you don't appreciate, or I say something hurtful, please please bring it up to me! Dms, anon, replies; idc, I'm always down for a conversation.

-I am not in the business of apologies I do not mean, and I certainly do not back down from my opinions, I think that's been fairly clear. So, if I apologize it's because I mean it, and that won't change.

-I make a lot of posts that are critical of fandom culture in a lot of different fandoms, and culture around specific characters as well. I want it to be very clear that unless I am directly interacting with another user, then the criticism should never surround anyone specific. I never want to direct hate ever, unless I'm tagging.

-If there are questions about the appropriateness of my headcanon posts in response to asks, that can be changed. I would really hate to be making my very small community uncomfortable. I had thought I was fairly clear on the blogs boundaries and what I think is appropriate, but perhaps I haven't been careful enough. Please feel free to address issues with me, or to block me. That is always an option of course.

Uh, that being said, I might take a couple days. I have used this blog for fun and friends since 2015, it's not my first time fucking up nor will it be the last. But, it's upsetting to me that my blog might be harmful to some (who I hadn't intended it to be harmful to, it's always been an active warzone for irredeemable character excusers lol, since 2015). The queue will go on as usual but no new posts for a bit while I figure out if things need to change. I'll respond to DMs tho, probably, bc I'm obsessed with my mutuals.

#rip to the finish the asks today mission I was on #i'll probably feel less bummed tomorrow hopefully #but i have disturbingly strict morals for some reason and it makes me upsetty spaghetti when i feel like i wasn't living up to them #but again; this is not aT anyone please god i'm simply wordvomitting #what i said got me here and that is my fault of course and thats fine that's a non issue #i just am now worried that i was being harmful before that #my therapist also named melissa is gonna love this #i have a list going of things i think we need to discuss and before today it was “i should be diagnosed with something” #“is it bad to keep peer pressuring my mom to get a new dog” #and “what does it mean that when my mom folds my clothes i have to refold them like marie kondo” #now we finally have a real topic lollll #that kid at work better not say everything is my fault when i make him wash his hands again i might loose it #that was a joke for claritys sake #gimmie a day or two to put back on the armor back on lol #i am moral and always have a clear well written and opinionated answer that i feel strongly about #and won't ever change my position on and everything i do is for the good of the oppressed #that armor #hubris is the ultimate enemy of self doubt #that is another joke #melissa og #melissa bullshit

[lesbianlotties]

my biggest problem right now is that i have dozens of wips, my real life is a mess, the last time i did this it took me a year...... but i still want to write a choose your own adventure fic for yellowjackets

#i SHOULDN'T #but here's the thing... i actually had SO much fun writing the the stranger things one???? #and i can just perfectly picture it!!! (at least some of it) #someone please be a terrible influence and enable me #also it's midnight i'm falling asleep i won't reply tonight and hopefully tomorrow i'll wake up sane and not thinking about doing this hgsj

[pierswife]

You ever have an hour nap accidentally turn into 3?

#lmao hi <3 #this HOPEFULLY won't happen tomorrow too #I wanna do things but also I should theoretically just stay in bed and rest ghwhjduw #data log: personal

[evntualities]

is getting down to 25 drafts a win? i think 25 drafts is a win. i'm going to go before i get anything back

#if i don't see you tomorrow. have a good week! #tbd #personal #the goal was to get some more done this weekend. #but i had to be up early to take my sister to work this morning #which means that i had to wake up at 4 anyway. even though it's the weekend :/ #so i haven't really had time to recover from the usual lack of sleep from the week #with her schedule tomorrow i get to sleep in until 5:30 #and the fact that waking up at 5:30 is sleeping in for me is so sad. but it will be nice #also. monday is a partial planning day. so i hopefully won't be too out of it to keep chipping away at things #and anyway! 7 days until thanksgiving break/live sports :) #maybe we'll make it after all

[kimuramasaya]

just submitted a payment to pay off all of my student loans I feel sick

#i have been denying myself so many things for the last like 8 years so i could save up enough to pay off my loans #and the interest pause for covid really helped me get there #so like on the one hand it's a relief to not have to stress about that anymore #but also i've just guaranteed that i won't be able to buy a home for at least another 5 years while i save up for a down payment again #so that's kinda devastating #hopefully i'll feel better about this tomorrow after my payment is processed #tomorrow is also payday so that helps a bit too #r.txt

[jedi-bird]

Got all my peel and stick wallpaper today, plus a cheap installation kit; debating whether to just start putting it up on the one door now or wait until they're all installed. Sorted through more stuff downstairs and organized a bit. Moved the things we're giving to friends closer to the door to get them out of the way. Shredded more papers and tossed out some dead plants from the patio. I should do more but I don't want to. Everything else can wait until tomorrow.

#birdy tries to be a good adult #tomorrow I'm planning to move the rest of the boxes that need to be unpacked to the back of the room #that way i can hopefully clear enough space to order my damn bookshelves and start unloading books #i know i have a lot that i probably need to get rid of but i won't know until i can put them away #tomorrow I'm going to try and see if i can fit all of the christmas stuff in the space under the stairs #and move the suitcases somewhere else #then i can start unpacking all the star wars stuff my grandma and collected together into one of the display cases #which will also free up a lot of space #I'm making a list of all the things i need to get and it's sadly a lot #i just want to be done and settled

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#i am freaking the fuck ouuuutttt!!! I have a job interview tomorrow #(firt one of my life) and i'm so anxiouuuussss #dfkjghdfkgfg #my friend knows the people that are interviewing me and says they're nice and i believe her but also i'm so scared lol #i had a phonecall today with people from this job and i didn't panic and talked like a normal person #my mom says i did very well (which is a lot since i had a panic attack last time this was a posibility) #but tomorrow is a zoom call and they're gonna see my face (and hopefully be ok with a clearly trans person pre everything) #and i will have to sell myself and my skills and i hate doing that #god i hate this but also need the job kdjfhgkdfg #like i'm trying to think about how scared i was to start uni and how i met the most awesome people ever when i was there #and how much i panicked on my first final exam trying to defend it in front of my teacher and how easy it ended up being #like i'm thinking about the interview as a uni final #but also i'm scared they will ask things i don't know the answer to #or that my already planned answers will have follow up questions kdjhkdg #i'm so scaaaared #i probably won't be able to sleep at all tonight #thinking how horrible it will be not to get the job but also how much will my life change if i do get it #it all makes me anxious lol #uuuuuugggghhh wish me luck fkdkdfg #angel talks #personal

[kingspuppet]

Also I had meant to say this yesterday, but thank you to those who read my 6 am extremely personal ramble post from the other day (or I guess it was yesterday but still). I honestly wasn't really expecting anyone to do that or interact with it in any way, and to be honest I was more than fine with that because I just wanted to clear my head before I tried to sleep. But the fact that ya'll did that even though you really didn't have to actually meant a lot to me. Just the silent support of the likes alone felt really encouraging and supportive, and I honestly can't thank you guys enough for that. Especially since cutting off a parent is never easy and probably one of the hardest things I'll ever do. I was already proud of myself for setting my boundaries, but it really did feel like solidifying that I did the right thing to protect my peace and that others were supportive of my decision. So seriously, thank you. 💙

#; OOC || Bri ♟️ #//All that being said though I'm still really drained from all of that happening. #//And I wanted to just relax yesterday and that didn't happen because things were hectic on top of it all. #//So I'm gonna try to spend the rest of today/this evening attempting to do just that. #//I'd like to get some reading and writing (RP/fic wise) done. Maybe also try to nap for a bit since my sleep has been terrible. #//I probably won't get to DM's and OOC stuff until later tonight or tomorrow as my energy is running pretty low right now. #//So apologies for that but I promise I will get to you soon!! #//Either way I'll se what I can accomplish alongside just taking care of myself and hopefully tomorrow I'll have more energy! #//But I hope everyone else has a wonderful rest of your day/night. 💙

[cursedthing]

finished reading the mp100 manga yesterday midnight and now i have even stronger opinions about Shigeo(???%)

#this is a good thing but also a bad thing because now we will have to avoid even MORE character analyses about him because most of the time #they treat him like he's not actually sentient(not sure if that's the right word) #and we are just sitting here like girlie(gender neutral) please this lil boy literally had his own motivations and thoughts. girlie please. #we are soooooooooo close to writign an entire essay about him and mob however we won't because spoons are low and we are saving them for #tomorrow's HOPEFULLY not a disaster visit #anyway Shigeo(both Mob and ???%) our beloved we WILL DRAW YOU AT SOME POITN #WE SWEAR #ines screams into the void

[stargazerdaisy]

The smoke is so thick today, the AQI is over 200.  I have a headache.  I’m absolutely exhausted.  I’m anxious and feeling like I’m an absolutely failure at my job, without having a clear plan for how to fix it (at least not one beyond ‘stop being a piece of shit and get things done’).  I had such a good day yesterday and today I feel so bad.  This freaking sucks.  

#personal #it will get better as the day goes on I hope #the smoke will hopefully start clearing out tomorrow when it rains #and i know the smoke/AQI is causing a lot of this to be very exacerbated #but i still *feel* horribly bad #emotionally and physically #time to eat some food and take my meds #i don't deserve to feel bad #and it won't help be do the things that will also help me feel better

[ridiculously-over-obsessed]

Sometimes it’s the little things that make all the stressful shit I’m dealing with lately a little less shitty, like the student union using the right pronouns when sending emails on my behalf. Like it shouldn’t be a big deal, but it really is 🥺

#gs rambling again #i hate feeling like a charity case but being referred to as 'they/them' takes some of the sting out of it i won't lie #all i want is to not have to move back to mums #like that's literally it #it's such a bad environment for me to be in and i am absolutely petrified of retreating back to the Bad Place in my head #i have come so far and gained so much since moving out and finally becoming my own person #like i'm nowhere near where i want to be but i actually feel like myself for the first time in my life #yes i still get super dysphoric about the way i look but i also feel comfortable enough to dress and things like i have always wanted to #and i still feel super uncomfortable doing that around mum and the rest of my family (who i can never come out to) #idk there's so much complex shit all rolled up in the horror of moving home that just makes all of this that much more stressful #anyway i start therapy tomorrow so hopefully that'll stop me rambling in the tags on tumblr and actually deal with my loud brain dkflgjldkfg

[al-coded]

if there's one thing about me is that im a pro procrastinator

#that's actually my first user sorta #i for one was planning to go home with the morning train (7am) #had not packed a single thing and just figured out that sim card is expired #tried to reactivate it online but it takes time apparently so can't use it in the morning #that was an hour ago #now it's 1 am and i still haven't packed a thing sim card expired gotta deal with noon train tomorrow (hopefully it won't rain or be so hot) #and most definitely sleep deprived #also i technically have no cash money #i have back up cash but yeah #im always sleep deprived when i go home probably bc i procrastinate on packing #dspd #sleep deprived #college student #college life #college #proscrastination #procrastinate #adhd

[no-one-hears-me]

I need to be euthanized

#idk if I wanna provide context for this #men again 😔 but not in a good or bad way really #just in a way #gotta do schoolwork I feel like I'm getting behind #I have a few things to do before monday which I don't like #I like things being done early so. doing things a day or two before is not ideal #so that's why I'm gonna do more tn then do most tomorrow hopefully #I'm gonna be busy with other things tomorrow soooo. also gotta finish sunday ig #not ideal. and I'm gonna be busy sunday too 😭 #too many plans #whatever realistically it's not that much. #just a chem assignment that won't take long #finishing 2 bio assignments. finishing a psych assignment and taking an exam #then another chem thing to finish #not that bad #but maybe perhaps I should do them instead of blogging #and then go to bed #and then I'm feeling hopeful about the morning run #I ate some carbs and also just ate more than usual. and the temperature should be pleasant #hopefully I can get some good distance in without feeling bad #okay bye for now #Sera

[violetsareblue-selfships]

good morning!! <3

#i didn't get either kazu or alhaitham last night but I had <30 wishes so I understand lol #honestly i wasn't expecting much hehe #i managed to write last night though which is cool ^^ #as for tonight... hopefully i can write something else? #also my morning post may be delayed tomorrow - I have an appointment early so I likely won't hop on here until after #as for today... i wanna post more #maybe i'll start up like a daily gush thing like I tried to start in November lol #who knows if i will though ehe #morning rambles