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captainx-camino · 6 months

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I got to Experience Los Angeles Comic Con with my best friends in the entire world over my birthday weekend

We hit the road early in the morning on Thursday the 30th to form the Cross Guild (and Luffy) trip of a lifetime.

We picked up our bestie Fate (Mihawk) first and then headed out to Yeti's house to load up Mama Croc's Minivan.

I wore all the hats before loading them into the car, where we finally started the drive to Cali around 7-8am.

At some point we stopped at Eddie World, where my partner and I bought new friends, bat and platypus plushies we respectively named Jeff and Kiki.

On the 30th as a special gift for my birthday weekend, we stopped at Forest Lawn Cemetery to visit Dwight Frye.

This was an extremely emotional experience for me. I got to tell him how much me and my friends all appreciate his work and how much we all still love him and three little grass spiders crawled out onto the grave to say hello.

I also gave him a rose for everyone I know who wanted to pay their respects, which I truly believe made him happy.

I also cried like a bitch, but that's beside the point. It was incredibly special, the man is one of my heroes.

After that absolute emotional break mb, it still wasn't yet time to check into the hotel, so we swung by Little Tokyo for an early dinner (we each paid for dinner one of the four nights we were there, which was so much fun) I could not have asked for better people to spend my con weekend with.

The hotel was TINY. Like, you had to turn sideways to walk around the bed tiny, but we somehow managed to not kill each other despite sharing a room with no privacy or space (which is just a testament to our friendship tbh)

But, we all managed to make it work and we successfully got our room settled and sorted, picked up our badges Friday around noon (LACC did a fantastic job with their ADA stuff, despite a small hiccup with the stickers.)

We got to be Robin and Raven for the short day, did some shopping (I got some great birthday presents from everyone) and then my Rayray did a shoot in the room, which came out AMAZING.

ON THIS, THE DAY OF MY BIRTHDAY

December 2nd finally arrived! It's my birthday, I got to cosplay as my favorite character, my partner was my other favorite character, and my whole crew cosplayed One Piece with me!

My bestie Fate got to attend Thankmas in the morning, and then we all got back together to get a group photo with Jamie Campbell Bower (and I got a special solo one because it was my birthday)

He was so sweet and nice, and he almost killed me when he called me gorgeous. The picture was me freaking out a little, but it's fine. Lol He made my entire life.

The last day of con, I had also gotten the opportunity to get Jamie's signature - to which I decided to get my fanart of Henry and Eddie/Kas signed by him.

Not only did he specifically choose a pen that complimented the art (because he wanted it to look nice - I love him) but he asked if it was him and Joseph Quinn to which I said yes, it's Henry and Eddie, and he told me it was SEXY. He also wished me a happy birthday and told me I don't look a day over 19, which was wonderful since I'm 33. So, ya know...

Jamie Campbell Bower thinks my art is sexy and that I still look young and fresh. That's my accomplishment in life, I guess. Pretty good accomplishment, if you ask me...

And now Jamie also has a copy of this piece, which I hope he loves.

It truly has been the best birthday I've ever had and I couldn't have asked to spend it with better people.

I already miss my Cross Guild and I can't wait for the next event we attend together.

I never hoped to have friends as wonderful as I do in adult life. I love them so much and they love me just as much back. It's been so amazing having them in my life, I can't even begin to express how grateful I am.

#la comic con #los angeles comic con #lacc #jamie campbell bower #birthday #cosplay #buggy the clown #one piece

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laminy · 9 months

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I’m back! I just binge read three more chapters of ITBASM but I wanted to point out something in chapter 14 again when Rami and Joe end up in front of Rami’s old building. I might be super weirdly sensitive or I think way too much about these things 😅 but reading that part with Rami in front of the building literally got to me.

I know you said previously “…so I do sometimes feel like I didn't dive into his feelings as much.”

Even though you think you didn’t, for people like me (the ones who think way too much or can be insightful sometimes), I didn’t even need any inner thoughts from Rami to be able to assume what he was going through in those moments. I could simply imagine the thoughts that might’ve been racing through Rami’s head. Or maybe no thoughts at all.

“There’s so much he wants to say, that he can’t find it in him to open his mouth and say any of it, so he just stands there in Joe’s arms...”

Okay going to be so honest, I misread that part lol and thought it said, “There’s so much he wants to say, that he can’t find the words to say it.”

And my train of thought went in a different direction lol. But I was originally going to say that I can absolutely understand Rami feeling that way, having so much to say that’s bottled up but not knowing when to say it or even how to say it.

I still relate to the actual words where Rami can’t find it in himself to open his mouth and say any of it. Especially in his circumstance, Rami’s inner thoughts are possibly messy and everywhere. I can relate to Rami not being able to find it in himself to say anything he’s possibly thinking.

I can only assume Rami’s emotions are everywhere and sometimes it’s easier to just lean on someone for support during those times. Especially if that someone is most likely to understand that you have something bottled up, but not ready to share/can’t share because you don’t have the energy to do so (that someone for Rami is Joe).

“‘I just wasn’t expecting it,” Rami says. “I…I knew, obviously, I knew where we were, but I wasn’t paying any attention. And it’s just. Here. Like nothing’s changed. How has nothing changed in that long?’”

I am someone who absolutely HATES change and it’s hard to get used to and become adjusted to even the simplest of changes, I shudder thinking about how Rami has to try and adjust to a HUGE change. I can’t imagine being in Rami’s shoes. Just suddenly being stuck in a place that is familiar but also absolutely not familiar is no doubt hard to “recover” from. Just the thought of being forced away from everything you know and love for a year to come back and see all of that gone, everything changed and shifted, it makes me sad for Rami.

Especially since, like you said, Rami was so close with his brother. Just to suddenly be ripped away from a future where he could’ve and should’ve been reunited with his brother and family. Rami seeing that building where he probably made many memories with Sami would definitely bring complicated thoughts and emotions.

The thought that Rami won’t get the opportunity to ever make new memories with Sami would weigh on Rami’s heart and mind. I’m glad Rami has Joe who is very understanding and patient.

I’ve said it already but I’ll say it again, it’s the way you write your fics for me. I love fics that make me feel like I’m observing the actual story and characters. Just feels so much more immersive and I think that’s what I really look forward to with reading fics. The feeling of spectating a story and you’ve absolutely got that covered! (sorry if this is choppy, I wrote this on my way to work lol)

gosh you wrote this on the way to work? lol don't apologize, I'm a mess before work lol do my eyes even open before 8AM???

The thought that Rami won’t get the opportunity to ever make new memories with Sami...

Thank you for breaking my heart lol even though I wrote this and I did this to him, when you put it like that you made it sound so sad!

I am definitely feeling "poor Rami how did I do this to him" right now. I hurt him :(

But I am very glad you are enjoying the way I wrote him and the exploration of his feelings and thoughts, it really means a lot.

#thank you!!!

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giannathetopgunfanwrites · 2 years

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Mine Forever?

Adrien Agreste/Chat Noir x F!Reader

Word Count: HELP MY STUPID SELF JUST REALIZED I NEVER PUT THE WC AND ITS BEEN 6.5 MONTHS

Started: November 2021

Finished: 5-13-22

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Request description: Where Adrien Agreste has a fiancée and they were engaged since they were kids, Y/n is the one who is cold and distant towards him but secretly cares for him. She just doesn’t know how to express her emotions. Everyone doesn’t know that Adrien was already engaged to someone else, by the time the reader accidentally discovered that Chat Noir was Adrien, they both started trusting one another. They always got each other’s backs, Y/n would help Adrien to sneak off just to save Paris. Whenever Adrien was badly hurt, from the fight, Y/n is ready to help him. They care for one another; she would always comfort him when he feels down when he has a tiring day. That’s why Y/n is the hardest to akumatize, even Gabriel tries to, but she trusts Adrien the most.

Edit: This just hit 400 notes today, 10/27/22. I posted this back in May. Honestly I'm shocked. (Dont stop liking it, it just baffles me because it's my hated child😭.)

Edit 2: It's 7/13/23. HOW DOES THIS HAVE 965 NOTES QUICKLY APPROACHING 1000😭 Honestly reading it makes me cringe but whatever floats your boat. Ill be back here for 1000.😂

Edit 3: IM BACCKKKKKKK. WE ARE AT 1,031 NOTES ON 8/2/23!!! FIRST POST OF MINE ALONE TO HIT 1000+

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Genre: Fluff, Fanfiction

Warnings: Arranged marriage(?), lil' bit of angst, brief mentions of blood/wounds, cursing(a bit)

A/N: I am SO SO SO SO SO sorry this took so long! Life just was one big punch in the gut after the other after this request came in, not including school. Also forgive me if this turns out to be garbage, I'm trying.😭

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2 years old

Your mother was taking you to the Agreste mansion today. For what, you didn’t know. However, it would change your life.

Born of a rich Paris family, it wasn’t uncommon for children to have an arranged marriage for when they got older. Your mother and Emilie Agreste have been friends since high school, and your father and Gabriel are business partners, thus at this meeting, they decided you would marry their son, Adrien, when you came of age.

9 years old

Growing up with Adrien was fun but also hard at times. He would spend a lot of time with that Chloe Bourgeois girl, and while you wanted to be like her, it was hard as you had a hard time expressing emotions. Mostly due to the fact that your parents were always busy with their work so you spent most of your time alone in the house or with Adrien. Adrien came home from the Bourgeois residence one day, you were with your mother while she was having a business meeting with Gabriel, so she sent you upstairs with him. He talked about how much fun he had with Chloe and you wanted to say how you wanted to spend more time with him, but, due to lack of emotional expression, you kept silent and gave him a sad smile. But it was worth it to see that look of joy on his face.

14 years old

Today was your first day of high school, and your mother had dropped you off at the Agreste home that morning so you and Adrien could go to school together while she went to work.

“Hello Nathalie,” you said as you entered the house. “Good morning, Miss Y/N, Adrien is in his room.” “Thank you, Nathalie,” you said as you walked past her. You knocked on Adrien’s door, and he opened it a few seconds later, slightly disheveled. You had an amused look on your face and asked, “Did I wake you up?” He responded with a mumble which you took to be a yes. “Adrien it’s 7:30.” (A/N: pretend they start school at 8am like in America lol) He opened his eyes wider, as coming to terms with your statement. “Crap.” He muttered, and quickly let you inside while going to get dressed in the bathroom. You sat at his computer, staring at the image of him and his mother, smiling fondly. You missed her, she was always so kind and inviting. When she disappeared, you comforted Adrien the best you could. Gabriel got stricter on him, making you want to smack him. Little did either of you know what would happen later that day, when Adrien got his miraculous.

15 years old (1/2)

It was Friday evening, you were sitting in his room waiting for him to get home from his Chinese lesson* when an akuma struck the city. You figured Adrien was safe since he had his bodyguard with him wherever his lesson was held. (*Pretend his Chinese lesson takes place outside of the house) After 10 minutes, the akuma was defeated. You had to use the restroom, and when you came back, there was Chat Noir standing in Adrien’s room. But he didn’t see you, and detransformed. Adrien had scratches on his face and a bruise on his arm. He turns around and sees you staring at him in disbelief. “Um- hey Y/N-“ he says awkwardly. "Adrien…how- whatever that doesn’t matter, what matters is you’re injured.” “How did you get this bruise?” “I tripped on the stairs running to transform, but the scratches came from the akuma.” "Okay let's get you patched up."

Needless to say, it was very awkward between you two that afternoon, but you swore you would always protect Adrien’s secret.

15 years old (2/2)

Hawkmoth attempted to akumatize you twice while you and Adrien were 15. Here's what happened:

1st time- Gabriel threatened to remove Adrien from school. You stood up to him but he basically kicked you out of the house so you couldn't see Adrien at home until you straightened up. Of course he was planning to akumatize you. It failed because Adrien called you asking where you were, he wanted to talk to you about a project.

2nd time- You saw Adrien and Marinette laughing and talking together. However illogical, due to the fact that you were secretly engaged to Adrien, you were worried he would fall for her and try to get his father to call off the marriage. You walk into class one day, seeing Mari and Adrien talking and then when they notice you, they immediately go quiet. You run out of the room crying, and slump against the wall somewhere. Adrien went after you, but while he was looking for you, Hawkmoth's akuma landed on your necklace Adrien made for you when you were 6. Upon seeing Adrien running toward you, you renounce the akuma. Adrien pulls you into a tight hug, and confesses that he loves you.

And that he was asking Mari for advice on planning a surprise party for you for your 16th birthday.

17 years old

While you were over at Adrien’s house studying one day, Hawkmoth released an akuma, so Adrien had to transform and leave. Unfortunately, Gabriel was planning this akuma and assigned Nathalie to check on you and Adrien every 10 minutes, to keep Adrien safe. “Y/N I need to go, Ladybug needs help.” “Then go, Adrien.” “But what about Nathalie- she’s going to come in here and find I’m gone.” “Listen I’ll turn the shower on and tell her you’re taking a shower.” It worked, Nathalie never found out, and Adrien got back in time.

18 years old

“It’s over, Hawkmoth!” Chat Noir yelled after landing in the basement.

Hawkmoth chuckled. “Oh? Is it really? There’s something I want you to see.”

Hawkmoth opens the coffin.

And there lies his mother.

You, the current holder of the horse miraculous, Ladybug, and Chat Noir all stare in complete silence.

“I’m doing this to protect her. Your mother…Adrien.”

Adrien looks up at his father, horrified. “H-how…”

“Join me, son. Use your miraculous to take the miraculouses of the Ladybug and the Horse.”

“NEVER. I’LL NEVER JOIN YOU AFTER ALL THE DESTRUCTION YOU’VE CAUSED TO PARIS, AND TO THIS FAMILY.”

The 3 of you then launch into a fierce battle against Hawkmoth for the final time.

22 years old

4 years later, you were getting dressed, putting on the white dress you knew you would one day wear. You and Adrien decided to get married, not because of Gabriel’s arrangement with your parents, but because you had been through so much together, and never wanted to leave the other’s side. Though you had once been worried about Marinette and Adrien falling for one another, you and her grew so close, close enough that she was your maid of honor at the wedding. Gabriel, however, while he was in prison, was allowed to view the wedding through a tablet. You were concerned that Adrien wouldn’t want his father present in any way, but he firmly stated that Gabriel was still his father, and he couldn’t imagine not having him present.

You reached the end of the aisle, walked down it by your father.

As you looked up at Adrien’s emerald eyes, you whispered silently to yourself,

“Mine forever.”

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Again I'm so sorry if this turned out to be garbage.

Please don't steal my work and remember to drink water and that you are loved!

@oyasumimosura thank you for sending this request in, I am so so sorry this took this long. My deepest apologies. And thank you for being my first fanfic requester.

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#adrien agreste x reader #chat noir x reader #cat noir x reader #adrien x reader #miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #gianna writes #fanfiction #miraculous ladybug fanfiction #mlb chat noir

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allaleesha · 4 years

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Wait... its positive.

Well, it was positive.

2 blissful weeks suddenly turned into my world being torn apart.

On Monday 22nd June, 2020. I found out I was pregnant.

On Saturday 4th July, 2020. I miscarried.

Literally, I knew straight away.

That sinking feeling.

Putting together anything I had noticed in the last 24hours... a pain in my chest, a change from feeling unsettled in the stomach to physically sick. The bloating had gone down.

It all started off very pale pink in colour. Discharge mixed with possibly a very small amount of blood.

I yelled out to JV. What a lovely 6.45am alarm clock I was...

He tried to keep me calm.

We phoned our fertility clinic as soon as it opened and I was reassured... "your are 6 weeks along. This is all very normal. Just come in for a blood test so we can confirm everything is okay".

I had a blood test at 8am and was told the results would be back by around 1pm.

I went to the toilet just before we left home and it had turned to red brown discharge.

It was a given. Things weren't looking very positive at all.

About 12.30pm, I started to pass very small clots and had actively started bleeding.

I didn't really need the blood test to confirm. We both knew.

JV dropped to his knees in front of me.

We knew.

2.45pm Saturday 4th July. Our worst fears were confirmed.

My HCG had plummeted. So did my progesterone levels.

I was in the process of miscarrying.

All I can do is blame myself.

I have apologised to JV over and over.

My body has again failed me.

The cramping started. I felt sick. Like an absolute piece of shit.

I was told everything should happen naturally as I was only about 6 weeks along. It was mentioned it should be something like a heavy period and I will pass some clots and possibly some small amounts of tissue.

I'm pretty sure the yolk sack came out fully intact.

I have never been so shocked but yet prepared.

I was so excited to be pregnant.

But.

Miscarriage was always in the back of my mind for some reason.

Again I went through the emotions of being terrified while bleeding.

I phoned our local hospital in the early hours of Sunday morning as I went to the toilet and was literally dripping blood. It wouldn't stop.

I took some pain killers as per their advice and tried to get some rest. I had about 2 hours sleep.

Waking up, JV already had plans to go motorbike riding with his mate. I told him to go. He needed to let off some steam.

The hurt on his face killed me. His eyes usually the brightest blue were almost grey. He tossed and turned through the night.

I am so thankful that when he got home, I went to have a shower. I felt light headed and wanted to make sure someone was around while I was in there.

I passed what I believe is the yolk sac and some tissue.

I was heartbroken.

This was so real yet I felt in a daze. Like there was a fog around me.

I am glad to have such a wonderful supportive partner.

I feel like I have again failed him.

Failed as a female.

A woman who cant even seem to do what she was put on this earth to achieve.

The entire weekend was a range of emotions.

It still is today.

I am numb. Yet feel so broken.

I would like to get myself something and JV something to celebrate this miracle that has unfortunately been lost.

I wish I knew what to do from here.

I wish I had all the answers.

A crystal ball.

If only I knew.

I will speak to my fertility specialist hopefully today and gain some more insight.

I'm not sure what will happen next or where we will go from here.

I have washed the sheets, towels. Our clothes we had worn.

Trying to wash away the negativity and sadness.

I love my husband so much.

I just can't believe this.

Tomorrow I will pick up the pieces and get back to a normal life.

Today though.

I just thought I would share this.

I needed to be real and I needed an outlet.

Keep your head high ♡

#infertility #infertilityjourney #ivf #ivfjourney #ivfsupport #ttcsupport #ttc #infertilitysupport #infertilitysucks #ttcbaby #ttcjourney #infertilitystruggles #endo #endometriosis #miscarriage #pregnancyloss #pregnancy

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