#he talked a lot more on the 4th it felt like but today the songs were so perfect it went by so fast so i don’t even know

[12thgirl]

sept 4 & 5 in toronto

#just for me for the record <3 #the skeleton and the face paint was crazy but then for him to come out today in ears whiskers and a TAIL #what am i supposed to say about that #anyway save yourself summertime prison deathwish cemetery drive vampires AND vampire money #this is how you disappear PLUS HOUSE OF WOLVES yesterday #hang ‘em high yesterday and HEADFIRST FOR HALOS. OUR LADY OF SORROWS. AND TODAY VAMPIRESSSSS WILL NEVER HURT YOU ???? #surrender the night ….. boy division … #famous last words and nanana twice :’) #helena twice .. #the kids from yesterday on the 4th fffff ghost of you and sleep and thank you for the venom #what do i do with that. what do i do tomorrow…… #anyway mikey way my best friend mikey way he came so close at both shows .. cry the silver bass .. cry i did my nails to match it lowkey #ray is mesmerizing fr #gerard is funny and so amazing to see perform #he talked a lot more on the 4th it felt like but today the songs were so perfect it went by so fast so i don’t even know #anyway these are my pictures I’m so happy with where i was it was insane being barrier on the 4th #i also took my digital camera I’ll see if any of those turned out #mcr

[putschki1969]

Something Summer Themed 【Origami】

Hello, this is Hikaru. Thank you for watching! This time, I tried to come up with something having the end of summer and the holiday season in mind since this will be my last video update in August☀️ What did you all do during the summer holidays💭 It's been a long time since I did origami but It was a lot of fun ☺️ I cannot wait to receive your comments as well as suggestions for future videos!

Hikaru at Today's Music Champ Event: “3rd anniversary”

26 Hours Music Champ Vol.3 “Let’s connect - Future” Homepage: music-champ.com/26h-program Date: 8/26 Sat 20:00 - 8/27 Sun 22:00 Hikaru appearance: August 27 16:00〜17:00 「Hikaruとゆるっと」 17:00〜21:00 「Music Champ Present’s “SPECIAL DREAM LIVE 2023 Summer"」 The first part will be "talk” heavy, the second part is a dedicated live corner in which Hikaru will also have an appearance.(Source)

Tweet 1 & Tweet 2 % Tweet 3 by Hikaru | Instagram post by Hikaru | Music Champ Tweet | Music Champ Tweet | Music Champ Tweet

I wasn't able to watch but it seems like Hikaru sang Flow and Awe, possibly one other (collab) song too.

Awe Digital Release

Also, Hikaru announced that AWE will be released digitally TODAY at midnight (JST) so please look forward to it!

Awe ℗ 2023 Hikaru Released on: 2023-08-28 Composer: HaKA/Command S; Lyricist: Hikaru

Following her 1st, 2nd and 3rd digital single release as freelance artist, Hikaru is now releasing her 4th digital single titled “Awe”.

You can purchase and stream Hikaru’s 4th digital release as freelancer on various sites (mora, OTOTOY, iTunes etc) and streaming platforms (Spotify, YouTube, Apple Music, etc).

Please be sure to ❗SUPPORT HIKARU❗ in any way you can!

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BUY it on mora(TUTORIAL here)

BUY it on OTOTOY

BUY it in your local iTunes

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Ohhhh, she is using the same cathedral background as the one on the Kalafina Winter Acoustic album cover!(Oh, no, I got a little too excited there for a moment and didn't double-check before writing this, it's not the same image after all. Still, it looks like she was at least heavily inspired by that Kalafina cover). At any rate, it seems particularly fitting when you consider SPICE's Takeshi Kato mentioning that he felt like “Awe” was very reminiscent of her old Kalafina style. I'll admit, I initially wouldn't have made that connection but the longer I listen to the song, the more sense it makes. And it would definitely explain why I am so smitten with it. Damn, I'm obsessed. And I mean, he is not wrong, the song is certainly on a Kalafina-level of dark and dramatic. That bridge with the strings and choir is pretty epic too. I can say with confidence now that is my absolute favourite freelancer solo track so far. And I am glad her singing in the studio version is a bit more polished. She still sounds raw but it suits the atmosphere of the song.

#kalafina #hikaru #video #hikaru ch. #music champ #Youtube #Awe #freelancer hikaru #god this is so embarrassing #I hate to publicly make a fool of myself #sorry to everyone who read the stuff about the cover image #feeling particularly insecure about stupid mistakes like this

[invincible-selfxmade-punk]

I have stopped screaming and crying and now I am just numb. I guess that is a bit of a breakthrough because normally I don't scream and cry at all until much later.

I think it's the autism I have always had a severely delayed reaction to things but this time it was so bad it just took me over.

I opened up Facebook to find that yet another friend of mine took his own life.

I am almost to the point that either I am losing count of the friends and relatives who have died by Suicide or I am just breaking down and blocking them all out.

That was my friend Ben. By the time I met him he was already in a relationship and so was I but we hung out a lot. We would send each other songs that we liked and I was really attracted to him. That is not a very good picture he was so much more handsome on his better days.

It's like meeting the man of my dreams and then meeting his beautiful wife

The girl on my other side is his girlfriend Laura and they were together for years. Then I'm not sure what happened but suddenly they were not posting together on Facebook anymore and Ben was posting more and more rather scary sounding statuses.

He had told me that he had tried to kill himself several times. And I guess we bonded over that.

That was when we worked together. We were all friends his girlfriend, myself, and the music and art teacher who were married. One time they even made a band together and played gigs around town. It was because of them I found out about this awesome band called Murder Monroe. Those were truly the best times. Before covid happened and before the venue which was a coffee shop and music venue didn't survive the covid shutdown and went out of business.

Later on after he & Laura moved away he would put cryptic status on Facebook and I would message him and ask him if he wanted to talk and send him my favorite songs to try to comfort him.

He would always send me the same song back when he was in that mood. And it was kind of a song about how maybe if we had met in a different time things would be different.

Other times he would send me awesome videos of him playing guitar.

I drew this picture 5 years ago when I got a call telling me that one of my former students ---whom I was very close to --killed herself at the age of 13.

I still think it sums up exactly how I feel every time this happens.

I am so heartsick and just at a loss. We had not communicated since Christmas and he had only posted on Facebook of very few times with anything personal. The few times he did post it would be him saying how depressed he was and how he had no friends. And I would always message him and let him know he wasn't alone and ask if I could help and after a while he just didn't respond.

I'm glad he is no longer in pain but oh my God I just wish he could have hung in there.

I can't imagine what his ex-girlfriend is going through having been with him for nearly 10 years. She said in

her post that a few weeks ago he blocked her and then of course we find this out today.

Ben Benavides was a special ed teacher, a 4th/5th grade teacher. He was an introvert who was clinically depressed. He was a guitarist, he was a music fan, he was a great listener, he gave the best hugs, he felt things far more deeply than anyone else did.

He gave his all to his students to the point that he would nearly have nervous breakdowns over the stress of not being able to help them enough. He was a goth, he was a metalhead.

I didn't know him as long as most and yet he touched my life profoundly.

My dear Ben,

I am better for having known you and I am so pissed off that you left me and left this world.

Goodbye Ruby Tuesday who could hang a name on you when you change with every new day still I'm going to miss you.

#988lifeline #need help call 988 #tribute #another life gone #grief #loss #teaching #Youtube #Spotify

[xian-1502]

2/2

And i felt bad about that. To me, what i thought was my blunder made my brother feel like being open was a possible minefield, which is something i also needed get real about since it’s so painfully evident that what happened there was NOT my fault and i somehow made it that way in my head. But that among other spots of shaming or shunning from family and poor friends made me wrongly assume how the world was and what i should be as a person. Woe was me 🤯. But i’m out of the woods now at least, or understand a facet about myself that i left unquestioned better, and i hope that’s a certain forecast of progress.

For reference everything prior was stuff that’s been drafted and noted throughout January. Not chronological or anything just complied into a sort of megapost. What follows is solely related to last night, february 3rd-4th

I’m feeling a lot of things. Im glad i don’t have work today, because i feel like going there in the mood i’m would only make me more upset considering how customers and management have been getting on my nerves lately. but that’s irrelevant, what i’m saying last night wasn’t the greatest. It wasn’t extreme, nobody is damaged or harmed, and everybody made it home so nothing active or ongoing concern. But as a whole just going through the time wasn’t fun to me. Firstly it was an opening party at a club an hour away that i knew next to nothing about the details surrounding other than the fact that the invite was from a afrobeats dj who’s a regionally known family friend. I was originally just hoping there would be good music but on the way after we picked up everyone who was riding in the car, i was told some family friends in the kenyan circle who were my age would be there (they were not, i was one of 3 people under 25 from what i could see if not, highly unfortunate for some people). We got there and the venue was filled with crowd that was notably older than me, but the music was alright. So i figured it would be tolerable at least. I spent my time at the bar drinking lemonades when this dude came up to me and asked me if he met me before and how long i’ve been in the country(since the majority of the club goers that day were immigrants among the last 20-40 years and shared the moving experience). i answered and then the talk ended shortly after when someone else he knew came to say hi and talk to him. I will spare the fluff on this accord but this story ends with me getting grope/humped on the dance floor by this dude when i got up to dance to a song i liked. it dawned on me later that he was definitely eyeing me after the initial interaction cause i did see him looking at me when i would walk around or when i was waiting in line at the bathroom but i just thought it was like the look of knowing more so than sizing me up to act since i didn’t clock that he was reading me as a girl. (i was standing in the wrong spot at this point which is likely what contributed to my fate since if i was in the right like that dude probably would’ve stepped off immediately) That ruined my mood a great deal and i really wanted to just go home at that point but i didn’t know where the people i came with were and i knew they were inebriated so i had to ask my younger aunt who was sober (since she was driving herself and her boyfriend) to help me find everyone and get ready to leave. I will not that or less significance in my mind, some drunk lady i swear i don’t know but somehow knows my name tapped my shoulder and was like “heyyy christian i didn’t know you’d be here!!” and went for a hug so i just opted cause that’s the normal reaction but then she went to do the french double cheek kiss thing and didn’t move far enough on the second swing leading to almost straight on my nose. So i twisted my head and tried to step away as a little whiskey scented spot was planted on my cheek. This being before airport casanova set up his game plan to cop a feel. But those two events contributed to making that experience unfun and i’m even more upset with myself that i let myself end up in that situation. im happy that nothing really bad happened and that i could go home fine unhurt and all, but it’s what’s stoking my frustration at myself is that i let myself get convinced into going, knowing i would rather stay home. I really wish i could go back and unfold under the pressure but that gets me nowhere as i already know yet im still bitter at myself over it. I at least know for certain i’m never gonna allow myself to end up in that situation again so that’s good, but as it stands now, i am just not in a great mood over it. I’ll get over it though for certain though so it can culminate to be whatever at the end of it all.

[sentavoarts]

Laufey album thoughts.

so today laufey posted a LOAD ton of new songs and i'm here to say what i've felt from these songs!! (caution this will have a lot of ramblings and some mentions of some irl stuff of mine so excuse me)

1st- Dreamer

so dreamer is the first on the album and honestly i LOVE it. It gen HITS like how the acapella hits at the start then the instrumental comes in gently is so MMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

This song feels like recovering from a heartbreak and finally gaining hope again and the ability to continue dreaming. Overall its amazing and it may have climbed it's way onto my favorite songs.

2nd- Second best

now this is where the irl stuff may come in. Generally the song has a gentle start and somewhere halfway some more instruments start playing. And the way that the strings kick in give it such a chill giving factor that i love in her songs.

This song reminds me of when i had this really big crush that i was so delulu about because i thought he was giving me so many signs (spoiler he didn't like me at all he liked my friend instead). Anyways this song feels like the haze after crying your heart out and the strings part is the climax of it all when another sudden wave of tears and sadness hit you and leave you so so tired. Overall the song is another BANGER.

3rd- Haunted

i find this song pretty interesting because the chord progression sounds similar to Bewitched but in a lower tone (idk i think im just crazy) and i find that so... brillant? if it actually is similar i find it gen so great considering how the songs are almost polar opposites.

and so i think that Haunted and Bewitched is like two sides of a relationship. Bewitched being the high of it and Haunted being the lows of it. "I know he don't love me quite like I love him" Is a lyric that i gen think that. This song feels like the doubts you can have in a relationships. I also perhaps think that he could refer to the other party or the doubts. Overall i really like it it has a jazzy kind of feel to it.

4th- Must be love

this song is another hit for me. I love the almost vintage vibe it gives off and how gentle it is at the start then slowly getting more confident at the end. the backing vocals and the pizzicato is so GOOD.

This song is actually amazing. At the start the gentleness is as if they really are asking "Must be love?" and the end getting louder in a way is as if they've solidified their decision as if saying "Must be love." completely sure that it is,indeed love. Overall amazing again.

5th- While You Were Sleeping

THIS IS SO FUCKING GOOD. It has a warm tone to it with again gentleness and a bit of bashfulness? It genuinely is so good like the structure and how all the instruments come and deliver the same message.

This song is genuinely so me. This reminds me of the time i somewhat realized i fell in love. I remember that night after talking to them for so long i laid in bed and LITERALLY THOUGHT OF THEM. I thought of how it would be like to be with them and realized that i indeed love them. This song gives off that vibe of daydreaming of them going on a date with you during fall while in the afternoon's softer sun. Overall amazing it made me remember all the indescribable feelings i felt that night.

6th- Lovesick

This song IS SO... SO SO SO... AMAZING. gen started crying tears. everything is so PERFECT in this. It really describes how it feels to be so hopelessly in love with someone and constantly on the high from them talking to you.

This song feels like running around in a field of flowers and grass while holding hands. Then resting against a large rock and having a picnic as you watch the golden rays of the sun illuminate their eyes as they turn to you with those precious eyes so full with joy and love for you as they hand you a sandwich they made for you. UGH IM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS!!! i would name my fiRST BORN CHILD AFTER THIS.

7th- California and Me

Laufey is so genuinely evil for putting this after lovesick because LET ME TELL YOU HOW IT HURTS. This song is so gentle and hurtful. it feels so raw and i love that.

This song's gentleness feels like giving up after trying so hard to keep everything together and even after trying so hard to be perfect for them you feel the hurt and the sting of still not being chosen. (it reminds me of A glass wife/ that Vyn ff on tiktok during the early stages of the reader) It's like sitting in a dark room against a window as it softly rains outside. Overall i love it but whoever hurt Laufey like this WILL PAY I SWEAR.

8th- Nocturne (interlude)

i found it. The song i want to walk down the aisle too. Its as it says an interlude. Its a wonderful mix of California and Me, Bewitched and i think promise too? Even though it doesn't have lyrics it's still so full of emotion.

This song fills me with so many emotions i can't even explain. It's so good. Idk if ya'll will find it weird but i think songs without lyrics can hit harder because sometimes there's never the right words to explain how you feel and music like this is feels like the key to understanding. Stories can be told without uttering a word at all and sometimes leaving things unspoken is a path to understanding.

9th- Promise

oh boy. I LOVE THIS SONG. the build up, the start, the vocals she delivered, EVERYTHING. It genuinely feels like hopelessness and hope at the same time and it does it so well. THIS HITS DEEP IN THE FEELERS.

this song really does a good job at delivering what it's supposed to. It really makes me feel the isolation and how you want to distance yourself but not being able to stop the urges that keep pulling you back. Overall AMAZING AGAIN.

10th- From The Start

i LOVE this song. Its really jazzy?? in a way and really light despite how it talks about desperateness and unrequited love. It's really good like every time i hear it i want to start doing a little dance.

This song is really catchy and is so real tbh. It really feels like your in love with someone with the lightness of it but your not trying to make a big deal or a show about the unrequited side. Like your trying to convince yourself it's fine. Overall i love it (i love it so much i technically have a ff in the makes named after it).

11th- Misty

It sounds so serene. Like it doesn't take place on this world. It feels so cold and somewhat warm in a confusing but comforting way. Its so jazzy and i LOVE that. The way she delivers everything in such a silky smooth way is PERFECT. the " I i in love"part SCRATCHES MY BRAIN

This song makes me feel unexplainable things. Like it feels like a blanket wrapped around you during the cold times while drinking hot cocoa while snuggled up on the couch watching a movie or reading a book. Overall im IN LOVE with the whole thing and her tone.

12th- Serendipity

this song hits. My thoughts when i first listened made me think that it would be so heartbreaking in a sad way but it isn't. It's heartbreaking in such a fluffy way. Like the gentleness and the love in her tone is making me cry.

This song sounds like my midnight talks with them and how the midnight talks are so comforting and soft. Like a soft hug on a chilly morning. It feels like the early hours of the morning when both of you are laying in bed staring at the ceiling while softly talking to each other about anything at all. Talking about that time you tripped and hurt you knee or that time you accidentally got mistaken for someone. It just feels so warm, like its home.

13th- Letter to My 13 Year Old Self

my exact thoughts when first listening to this was as followed: "im scared ooohh? this sounds interesting aw oh oh. oh this hurts OH. THIS HURTS."

This song is so so so comforting. It's like she's a parent reassuring her child expect she's actually caring for herself in the past. I love how its all completely calm and stays like that until the end. I love how everything in this song complements each other.

This song makes me remember when our teacher made us write letters for our future selves to come back and read. When i get mine back i wish to write a letter responding to everything my past self has worried about and asked to let them and myself know that it's okay. That we've grown so much and that the worries will all be okay for us. Overall it's so heartbreaking in a comforting way.

14th- Bewitched

LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVEEEE THIS SONG. its my everything. it's all so full of love. i want to propose using this song and have my wedding dance with this song. Everything delivers so well to convey the pure emotion in the whole song. The pure love and admiration being expressed.

This song makes me cry every time i hear it because of how sweet it is. This song feels like being content with your life and slow dancing with your lover at night as you both stare into each other's eyes and smile like idiots. But again as i said in the Haunted part of this, this song feels like the good side of a relationship. This song is like it portrays the relationship that people crave and fantasize about. Overall I. Love. This. Song.

-Overall on the album

Overall i really like this album and how it feels like a rollercoaster of emotions. It feels like falling in love then going through heartbreak and recovering. my overall rating of this album is def 10/10 i loved it and every song was a BANGER.

anyways that's all from my yapping session today!!! byyeeee

#sen's random posting #live laugh love laufey #laufey lin #review #album review #yapping #album thoughts

[xaaxaa-translations]

Interview with ザアザア - Love Letter

Diary with drawings - An-chan

100th month - 30 days

Weather: hot

Group: ザアザア

Name: An

It's An-chan.

There was a recording today.

Everyone was talking a lot.

Today was a good day too.

Thank you.

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How ザアザア hold chopsticks.

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A game of telepathy (understanding each other without words).

This will test the level of synchronisation of the band members.

This time it will test the telepathic abilities of the vocalist and the receiving abilities of the band members.

Let's begin!

The vocalist will wish for the thing he wants to get now.

Answers:

Reiya drew "a door leading anywhere" (Anime Doraemon).

Looking at the amazing creature in An's drawing, Kazuki said "I thought it was something from Dragonball". But it was an eel, that's what Kazuki has been eating a lot lately.

Kazuki drew a gift card and Haruga answered correctly!

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Come up with snowboard designs for winter 2018.

(snowboarding inscription)

An: Too early for snowboarding, let's start with the sleigh.

Haruga: Careful. The path can be slippery, so be careful.

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Kendama championship - a test of physical ability

Now we are going to test the physical abilities of the musicians.

This time using the game of kendama.

It's an ancient Japanese game.

Whoever handles the ball best will score the most points.

An: 0 points

Reiya, Haruga, Kazuki: 15 points

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Interview about the lyrics of Love Letter

New single Love Letter released on 5 December.

Hear the soulful story of 4 people expressed in this album with the theme of letters.

Int: This year is the 4th anniversary of ザアザア and the single "Love Letter" is released on December 5. In the age of smartphones and social media, "love letters" seems rather old-fashioned.

Kazuki: It is. Truth be told, that song was written in the image of a character from a game. I've been playing Monster Strike a lot lately, and I really like Shurinkara's character design. It's what inspired me. I thought "I want to create a song like that". Plus, the costumes are based on Shurinkar's design too.

Reiya: A monster, it is a monster (laughs).

Kazuki: A monster that symbolises love.

Really, because its design is based on heart shapes. After you got the idea, how did Love Leter become complete?

Kazuki: Yeah, like always. First, we came up with the album title and cover, and then we created the melody.

Haruga: We started with the guitar. With the riffs that were in my head.

Int: And really, the guitar riffs in the intro are really catchy.

Haruga: I thought I wanted to play what was going on in my head, but even though I tried, it didn't come out the right way. As it happens sometimes, the more you think about it, the more things you don't understand.The riffs of that tune were played intuitively and I just wrote it down the way it was.

An: This tune is quite subtle. We thought about making the guitar part live and it came out very natural.

Reiya: When we all recorded it together in the studio, everything slowly fell into place.

Haruga: That's true. I was recording without any thoughts in my head and when I woke up, it already took that form. (laughs)

Int: Before that, ザアザア always stuck to a session style in music, but now so many bands make music by discussing every little thing, and the fact that this song was made by exchanging sketches really means a lot.

Kazuki: It does. We don't discuss everything in detail when we make music. That's the norm for us.

Reiya: We were asking ourselves if it would be interesting if we tried that "slippery, unpleasant, sticky" sound? Something like that.

Int: Ahh, that slippery unpleasant feeling… It's really felt in the words and the melody. Even though you originally got the inspiration from the game's character, the song itself feels like a separate story. Is it a story about an idol girl fan?

Kazuki: Although the love letter theme came from the image of Shurinkara, the lyric itself is something I've wanted to write about for a long time. This character is an idol fan, and at the same time he tends to secretly think "isn't she, the idol, interested in me?" As for me, I've studied this fragile fan psychology and wrote this song from a "if I were them" perspective.

Int: In other words, Kazuki himself didn't have any experience of "fanhood" in the past?

Kazuki: That's right. I haven't had that kind of experience. Because even though I was someone's fan, I had no desire to be associated with or drawn to someone. How shall I put it… I understand what it means to be a person who lives in that world. Although it may sound strange, but even if I had a chance to get my favourite artiste's number, I wouldn't call her.

Int: Why is that?

Kazuki: I'm not interested. I don't have any thoughts of getting close.

Int: Is that so?! (smiling). Love Letter-hero is different in that way.

An: He has a very strong desire to get closer, and at some point it gets to the point of madness. (laugh).

Reiya: Even so, I think I'm a little bit familiar with that feeling. Once upon a time, I used to like idols. (laughs).

Haruga: I may have felt that people who can understand this song are suddenly closer than I thought.

Int: Also, the single Love Letter includes the songs "どこかのあなたへ" and "人間界からの手紙", and they too are linked by the theme of writing. It's an incredible way to look at the world!

Kazuki: "どこかのあなたへ" is a song written by Haruga's intention, who wanted to make a song using acoustic guitar.

Int: What about the lyrics?

Kazuki: It was originally a letter addressed to the parents who left the world. Before, because of the awkwardness, there was no opportunity to talk to each other face to face. That's what it's about.

Int: By writing this lyric, did Kazuki put some of his soul in order?

Kazuki: Yes, I think so. I'm glad I was finally able to write about it.

Int: Next, "人間界からの手紙". I was thinking that the sound here is also chaotic and the meaning of the lyrics is quite "heavy" too.

Kazuki: "Running away "* has become a big problem lately. I had an idea that it would be good if this song would make you think. So I wrote the lyrics. The trick was to add a slightly half-joking angelic look, but unlike the result, in fact we used that space to convey fear.

(* About the "running away" thing, it was more likely to mean suicide. Although, from the text, I think more meaning is invested in the fact that "out of this world go the innocent")

Int: Speaking of which, on December 25th Shibuya WWW you will hold a oneman called "The Day It Rains" to commemorate the 4th anniversary. How do you imagine it to be?

Reiya: Although it's the biggest ever live show for us (by number of people), we want to do it the usual way.

Kazuki: I think it'll be an important first step for growth.

An episode related to fan letters.

Int: Have you had such experiences?

An: I have. I wrote once. About 10 years ago I was an otaku (laughs). At that period, I sent a fanwriting to a seiyu who sang songs.

Int: What was the content of that letter?

An: Uh, the content…? You mean what I wrote? Just some kind of impression of the CD. "I like it so much I listen to it every day!" - Something like that. (laughs). "I've been listening to this most of my life" - I wrote about two letters like that. Also, after I joined ザアザア, I got a better chance of getting heartfelt letters from the fans. I once said that I loved watermelon, and along with fan letters I started getting gift cards that could be exchanged for fruit. It actually made more sense than sending a watermelon, and I was like, "Wow, there's a system like that!" In every sense, I'm glad I joined ザアザア. (laughs)

Reiya: If you look from the receiving side of a fan letter, it usually says things you don't know or don't remember. For example there is a careful description of what was in the Live: "It was like this" or "It was like this. It was really cool. I loved it." When I see how carefully it's recorded, it makes me really happy. "It feels like a happy accident" I often think of it that way. Thank you.

Haruga: Recently, I got a message on a card that makes a sound when you open it. For a moment I was amazed. It was in the dressing room and everyone around me was turning around in amazement, so I closed it instantly, and read what it said when I got home.

Kazuki: Particularly impressive are the letters, from start to finish, full of remarks. Detailed, like "That song didn't sound good at the last show". These remarks are pouring out like a stream, and at the end it says something like, "Kazuki-san, I love you." (laughs) Immediately it's clear that it's written from the heart, to make me a little better.

#xaaxaa #xaa xaa #ザアザア #xaaxaa translation #kazuki #reiya #haruga #an #visual kei #visual kei translation

[real-artemis-hexley]

The Vaulties Day 2

Today I have more music to talk about and today I’m going to talk about this playlist which is for the stories of my fourth and fifth years at Hogwarts:

The Forbidden Forest

Killer Queen - in my 4th year I met Patricia Rakepick. She’s not a queen but she is a killer, so this song is about her.

Sweet Dreams - lots of the songs on this playlist are about dreams because of the sleepwalking curse that was around this year. This one is also about Rakepick because she travelled the world and the seven seas looking for curses and she is a person who wants to use and abuse you.

You Make My Dreams Come True - I did say that there were lots of dream songs. Al said this is another good training montage song, because this was when I properly learnt to fly on a broomstick.

Dancing in the Moonlight - in my 4th year I went to my first ever school dance, which was fun. It was on a full moon, so chiara couldn’t go. That probably was a clue but I didn’t pick up on that.

Werewolves of London - we learnt lots about werewolves in fourth year but none of it was very nice about them. Tonks took matters into her own hands, maybe she listened to this song, I dunno. It’s a good song about werewolves just going about their business and eating Chinese food because who doesn’t like Chinese?

The Portrait of the Vault

I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For - I still hadn’t found what I was looking for at the start of my fifth year.

I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles) - this is the song that Charlie listened to his Walkman when we went to the beach in the summer. We also went 500 miles in the car bar to the Burrow for Christmas which Charlie thought was funny. It was funny. Bill didn’t think it was funny, but what does he know? This song has lots of Scottish words in and I don’t understand all of them, but it’s still good.

Lady Madonna - this is a song about a lady with lots and lots of children and it reminds me of Molly Weasley, who also has lots of children.

Tusk - this song has a marching band and Al said it is good for sports. It’s just a good song generally actually. I joined a sports team in my fifth year, and we won the quidditch cup.

Wild World - this song is about leaving people to fend for themselves and telling them to be careful because it’s a wild world. This is probably how Bill felt when he left Hogwarts and I had to fend for myself. I don’t think it’s how Jacob felt because he is a rubbish brother compared to Bill.

#artemis hexley #behind the scenes #the Vaulties #Artemis’s magical musical mystery tour #Spotify

[beautifulcinephile]

10 Songs To Know Me Better

I've made this tag myself in the past, but I decided to update it because I don't listen to some of the songs included in there. The rules are: List 10 songs and how you got into them. 1. Orinoco Flow - Enya: When I was a kid, I used to have ballet classes and my ballet teacher had an Enya CD with this song. I was always hypnotized by this song, then one day I asked my teacher what was its name and who sang it. She told me it was Enya, but didn't tell me the name of the song. One day, when I was at my dad's house, my sister found it, and we both listened to it together. I smiled gleefully and to this day, I cherish this song a lot.

2. Stop Crying Your Heart Out - Another one from my childhood. Back then, my sister had a VHS tape with music videos she recorded from MTV and this was one of them. As a kid, I loved the music video, even though I was too young to understand it and when I understood it, years later, my heart felt crushed because I realized the protagonist died. But if I see someone striking a match, or even myself striking a match, I will automatically get reminded of the music video.

3. Whenever, Wherever - Shakira: OH, GOSH, THIS ONE! I think it's time for me to finally reveal the reason why I like this song. When I was a kid, for some reason, I started having recurring dreams that I was watching the music video, right at the beginning when Shakira comes out of the water and kneels on that rock. I downloaded the music video (It took days because, keep in mind, it was 2006, the Internet was slower back then and a download of a music video took days and not seconds as it is today), watched it, thought it was awesome at the time, now I know that it has aged kinda badly. I still love it, though.

Then, I started doing AI arts of Timothée Chalamet reenacting the music video because I thought: "Why not? He's in the desert, shirtless, barefoot, I need this. There are no barefoot pictures of him at the moment, so why not make ones?" And the song ended up helping me during one of the most stressful moments of 2022. I even have some memories of the real Timmy (to differentiate him from the AI-generated version of him) with this song involved, which are when I watched him at LFF and the "Bones and All" premiere in Milan.

4. The Safety Dance - Men Without Hats: I think I've never talked about this song before, it's one of my favorites. Well, I listened to this song in 2015, and my crush on Mark Hamill came back in full force because of "Star Wars: The Force Awakens" and there was a video of him in which this song played. It comforted me during a dark time in my life, which was ending. Listening to this song makes me feel like a 17 year-old which was coming out of a dark place to one of happiness again.

5. Like a Rolling Stone - Bob Dylan: Compared to the others, this song is quite recent and I feel it represents my early 20s quite well. I started listening to it in late 2020, but it was in 2021 that this song came into my life. I was going through another dark moment in my life, luckily this one only lasted for a month as far as I remember. Bob Dylan's songs helped me through this moment, and "Like a Rolling Stone" was the song of his that I was really hooked into.

I remember one day that I was searching for an apartment because I was still in the process of moving, and this was the song that I was listening to the most during that day. Despite its dark lyrics, this song for some reason gives me a feeling of comfort, the same goes for "Positively 4th Street".

6. Shape of My Heart - Backstreet Boys: If I told you that I used to hate this song, would you believe it? Yes, I used to hate this song in my childhood, but somehow I kinda liked the music video. It was only when I was 15 years old that I took a liking to this song and the music video, I remember listening to this song on road trips.

But I only started loving this song after I had a dream that Timothée Chalamet and I were recreating the music video, more precisely, at the 2:43 mark of the song. I was wearing a gray shirt and blue denim, Timmy wore a black tank top and black pants, and he was barefoot, and during this part, I stroked his hair while the camera panned down on his bare feet (A dream in which I would never like to wake up from. A barefoot Timothée Chalamet with a blue tint, clad in black? IT WAS MY AWESOMEST DREAM EVER!) and everytime I listen to this song, I remember the dream and there's even fanfiction inspired by it (Thank you, @timottea!)

7. Safari Song - Greta Van Fleet: February 2019 marked when I listened to this song for the first time. This is the song that made me a Greta Van Fleet fan. I remember the countless times when I walked through college listening to that song while going to my classroom, or just hanging out during break time, or when I was ready to go home after classes. Nowadays I don't listen to Greta Van Fleet that much like I used to, but this song will always have a special place in my heart.

8. Paul's Dream - Hans Zimmer: I don't remember when I listened to this song for the first time, but I do remember lots of good moments with it, such as listening to it on my dad's car, so I could feel the bass kicking in and I closed my eyes in utter joy while listening to this song. And when my dad and I went to watch "Dune" in the theaters, we sang this song because we were completely in awe with the movie. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS SONG.

9. Commuter Love - The Divine Comedy: I’ve only heard about this band because Neil Hannon will compose the songs for "Wonka" and I wanted to have a glimpse of what the soundtrack would sound like. When I listened to this song, I was immediately transported to a black-and-white music video set on a subway which is all about that person we see on the subway, have a slight crush on, and then we never see this person again (I had this experience, so I know how it is) and I consider this song to be one of the best of theirs.

10. Visions of Gideon - Sufjan Stevens: Well, I really love this song. It obviously reminds me of "Call Me By Your Name" and I remember that I was listening to it during a stormy night (Not rainy night. Stormy night. There were lightning bolts everywhere.) Initially I was scared, but I was listening to that song and thinking about Timmy, so I comforted myself and went home safely.

Tagging: @softhecreator @cocoamoonmalfoy @whole-other-layer

[trulyinspiringmovies]

Chicken Little

“Chicken Little” is nostalgic to me, but even I have to admit how tone-deaf it can be at times.

Chicken Little rings the town bell and sends everyone into a panic. When the town confronts him about the mass hysteria he just caused, he says it’s because the sky is falling. While he’s explaining, an acorn falls on his head and the town thinks he misinterpreted the situation. He becomes an outcast and is determined to win everyone back, especially his own father.

Back in elementary school, this was one of my favorite movies to watch during indoor recess. I thought the characters were hilarious, the story was endearing, and the sci-fi visuals were fun. After rewatching it as an adult, I have mixed feelings. While it was fun to go down a nostalgia trip, this movie is more flawed than I realized. For starters, the characters are not that great. Abby thinks she’s the voice of reason, but regurgitates things she read in magazines. She keeps telling Chicken Little to have an open discussion with his father, but doesn’t ever explain what they should talk about. She doesn’t suggest what the underlying problem might be and how to tackle it. Runt has this weird obsession with speaking only in lines from songs and if you don’t know these songs, it just feels jarring. Fish weirdly turns the trio into a group of four, but doesn’t add much to the group dynamic. He’s inserted for comedy, but only for the smallest of children. You could’ve seriously taken the entire character out and the movie would’ve still worked. I think the worst character had to be Buck, Chicken Little’s father. When I was a kid, I felt bad for him because he was under a lot of stress and he had lost his wife. As an adult, I see him as the horrible parent that he truly is. His love is shown time and time again to be conditional. If Chicken Little is winning baseball games, he’s giving him all the affection in the world. When Chicken Little is warning the town about an alien invasion, he doesn’t take his own son’s side. He doesn’t stand up for his own son. He doesn’t try to get the town to empathize. He doesn’t check to see if his son’s doing okay mentally. He tries to distance himself from his own son to save his own tail. I honestly felt bad for Chicken Little. He’s constantly suffering from the town’s gaslighting and bullying and his father is just moping around feeling sorry for ever having a son like him. The story suffers because the characters have the wrong goals and are earnestly pushing the wrong messages. Also, I felt like the entire second act abruptly ended to just start the third act. When they find Kirby, the baby alien, I thought there would be a few scenes of the gang trying to learn about it, where it came from, what it wants, and how to get what it wants. Instead, they kind of just figure it out with a few lines of dialogue during the start of the invasion. Finally, the visuals. They do not hold up. Plain and simple. There are a ton of reused assets and character models. The fur looks uncanny. There were a ton of animation mistakes all over the place. The movie just looks gross today. Oh, and I thought I’d mention this, but the abundance of licensed music didn’t really bother me. Paired with the dated look of the film, it truly feels like a time capsule of the early 2000′s. Still, there were laughs to be had with this film and it’s something that was special to me as a child. There’s a lot of great voice talent and it’s not grating to watch. I don’t really recommend it in this day and age, but it’s definitely worth a rewatch to see how much you and the world have changed.

★★★

Rewatched on November 4th, 2022

#Chicken Little #October #2005 #Comedy #Children's #Science Fiction #Adventure #Animation #G #Mark Dindal #November 2022 #3 stars

[skzingitup]

ALBUM REVIEW TIME 👹

Today we are reviewing one of my fave kpop group’s new album MAXIDENT by Stray Kids with the title track Case 143

I just wanna say how I’m so proud of these dudes, they write and produce their own music and their skills get stronger with every release 🫶🏻 anyway on to the review

Case 143 - 7/10 - it’s definitely interesting. I was worried i wasn’t gonna like it all that much based on the snippet on tik tok but it’s much better within the context of the whole song. This song does what they set up in the previous release Maniac and improves upon it. Although the first section of the chorus is jarring, its a huge ear worm and im addicted to it. If Stray Kids were going to do a love song this is exactly how i expected them to do it 😭 (also give the music video a watch you won’t regret it, it’s quite funny, felix gets slapped by a cooked chicken 😀)

Chill - 8/10 - a song written and composed by our Hannie!! His songs are always so nice!! This is a cool jazzy style r&b song. It takes some similarities from lofi music too and some classic hip hop beats and overall its so good. Han’s solo written and composed songs have only improved since debut and i love it so much!!

Give me your TMI - 9/10 - This one is for all my living tombstone fans and fnaf fans!! The crunchy instrumental is everything and the drop into the chorus is so interesting. Also when Changbin starts the song with a strong rap that seems like complete nonsense, you know the songs gonna hit!! But yeah keeping up with hip hop sounds, the incorporate crunchy edm and alternative rock style sounds too and it just makes this song so funky I love it!!

SUPER BOARD - 6/10 - where do i start with this song… the intro itches my brain so hard. The “nada da shooom super board” gets stuck in your head so badly 😭 the song leans into a more rock style but instead of an electric guitar riff, you get these synth sounds and it adds that retro flare to the song. Although the repetition of nada da shoom super board can get a bit annoying and lessens the replay-ability of the song for me

3RACHA (Bangchan, Changbin, Han) - 5/10 - this is well and truly a Drill song. Like this is something straight out of the streets of south london. The raps of our producing unit are satisfying to my ears however this style of music just isn’t my personal taste and i don’t think i would listen to it often. Not a bad song tho ✨also ik chan is australian but im claiming changbin and han as honorary brits for this song

TASTE (Hyunjin, Felix, Lee Know) - 8.5/10 - when Hyunjin described this song as a cold version of red lights he wasn’t wrong. They need to keep this man in the studio his brain is amazing. 4th member of 3racha?? Perhaps. Whenever you put Danceracha (this unit) in the studio expect a hoe anthem honestly. I’m very proud of how Hyunjin and Felix’s vocals have improved. Lee Know really gets to use his more powerful vocals and that makes me so happy!! Also the drop in this song is insane. Listening to it isn’t enough i need it shot into my veins 😭

Can’t Stop (Seungmin, I.N) - 7/10 - my vocalracha 🫶🏻 this is a pop rock style song. They worked with one of day6’s producers for this track which you can tell!! But it suits them so much!! Seungmin and innie’s voices are so lovely the drums and guitars are so strong. You will absolutely catch me dancing about to this song 😭 however i will say that the mixing between the vocals and the instrumental feels a bit off. Idk how to explain it. Also they cut off Seungmin’s high note, gonna sob.

Circus (Korean version) - 8/10 - This was the title track for their lastest Japanese mini album so i’ve heard if before. Its a bop. But I will say i think the korean version flows a lot better between the english lines and the korean ones. Where as the Japanese version felt a little too sharp?? But yeah Circus would slay is every language if we’re honest

Anyways, Maxident Album of the year. Also is you ever wanna talk to me about Stray Kids pls send me an ask, I love these dudes so much 😭🫶🏻

#emi reviews albums #kpop #stray kids #maxident

[acaplaya-musings]

Voiceplay-adjacent Visuals: Far Over The Misty Mountains Cold and I See Fire

Yep, you're getting a two-in-one today! Think of it as an Easter treat!

I wasn't sure if I would have much to say about Misty Mountains, but I did want to talk about I See Fire, and felt like I couldn't talk about one without the other, so I'm combining them into one post!

Geoff's cover of Far Over The Misty Mountains Cold was uploaded on July 4th, 2021, and it's currently the most popular video on his channel, with over 20 million views! The song features in the movie "The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey", and was also in the original book by JRR Tolkien (though note I haven't read any of the books or seen any of the films, so my expertise in that regard is limited). Let's go!

(Love a good title intro)

This was filmed at Pattycake Productions Studios, and though I can't confirm it, I would not be surprised if this set has been used in a Voiceplay video at some point as well

Also let's take a closer look at those outfits; they look familiar, don't ya think?

Same shirt/top thing! With the silver rings in a diamond pattern!

(Btw massive shoutout to Rick Underwood (again) for hair and makeup, I can still barely believe that all 4 people in this video are Geoff tbh (and shoutout to Geoff himself for both editing and acting, because both those things help as well!))

The grey fur thing reminds me of what Geoff was wearing in My Mother Told Me, but I don't think it's the same

Oh and here's the other half of Layne's outfit from My Mother Told Me! See the fur and the patterned sleeve cuff thing? It's the same!

Not the best picture, as I just went through my screencaps from previous posts, but yes the chestplate thing that Lead Geoff is wearing in Misty Mountains was also worn by Cesar a couple of years later in Valhalla Calling!

Group shot!

Also love how second-from-the-right Geoff (idk what character he's meant to be, don't @ me) is fiddling with his little knife/sword/dagger for practically the whole video

The smug look of "the note I'm about to hit will shake your speakers and vibrate your internal organs!" 😝

And that's Far Over The Misty Mountains Cold! Told you I didn't have a lot to say about it, but it provides a good foundation for the second video I'll be talking about in this post!

Geoff's cover of I See Fire was released on the 10th of June, 2023, almost 2 years after his cover of Misty Mountains. (What is it with Geoff/Voiceplay doing follow-up "sister" videos two years later? 😅) "I See Fire" was actually originally performed by Ed Sheeran (Geoff takes it in a fairly different direction vocal-wise of course (though not completely without high parts!)), and plays at the end of the second Hobbit film, The Desolation of Smaug. Again, not familiar, but I recommend watching this video if you want a bit more insight into the characters that Geoff portrays!

Guess who got credited with lighting automation for this one? Go on, guess! It's the one and only Eli Jacobson again!

(Oh and also apparently that's a "carpet" of real pine needles on the floor? Goddamn the dedication)

These two are from the Misty Mountains video! (The one on the right here is apparently Thorin Oakenshield)

Although Lead Geoff is playing a different character here to the one he played in Misty Mountains, he's wearing the same chestplate (the one Cesar wore in Valhalla Calling). (Also love the continuation of Lead Geoff being the one with little to no facial hair 👌)

(Also you can see his white-grey streak in this one!)

I mean the lighting choices really make this one. Well done Eli!

Like goddamn look at this!

(Oh and for the record, I'm still in partial denial about everyone except Lead Geoff actually even being Geoff here 😂)

Okay, well didn't have a ton to say about that one either, but with two videos in one post, it makes a decent length, so hope you enjoyed this Hobbit double-feature!

Some people are wondering if Geoff will at some point make a cover from the third Hobbit movie, The Battle Of The Five Armies, to round out the trilogy, so to speak. Bets are on The Last Goodbye, which I'm listening to right now out of curiosity, and oh Geoff could do gorgeous things with it, make no doubt about it. But we'll just have to wait and see (hopefully not wait too long though!) Next post will probably be a longer one, but also lots of fun! Stay tuned!

#geoff castellucci #far over the misty mountains cold #misty mountains #misty mountains cold #I see fire #acaplaya analysis #voiceplay-adjacent visuals

[blue-eyed-bloodstains]

Is there a person you talk to everyday with?: my fiance and my mom

Does one of your parents ever complain to you about the other parent?: used to

If you have a webcam, do you take more pictures or make more videos with it?: I haven’t in a long time, but sometimes I’ll record myself...always when I was buzzing and after it all hit hard to black out drunk...needless to say they were only for my eyes...

When was the last time you felt lonely?: ummm when DON’T I?

Who was the last person you wished a “Happy Birthday” to?: my friend Bobbie on the 4th

What was the last food/drink that dyed your tongue a different color?: whenever I last had an ICEE, it’s been awhile

Is there any upcoming festivals happening in the place you live?: probably but I never go

When was the last time you threw a party?: I’ve never thrown a party

Last person you kissed, are they into any type of sports? Which ones?: my fiance loves racing, not Nascar but Formula 1 type racing

Does your best friend have a job?: yeah

Do you ever visit people at work?: no and I currently can’t anyway, he’s gone most of the time so no way to reach him

Is there any electronic device you need to charge right now?: nope just charged my phone this morning and I’m plugged in on my laptop right now I always stay plugged in on it

Have you ever sat in your room in the dark?: not complete dark no, I’m terrified of the dark so tv is usually on for some source of light or I leave a light on in another room that reaches just enough into the room

What is one thing you want to do before the school year ends?: I’m not in school

When you move out your house(or if you already have moved out) do you plan on still visiting your parents house?: I visit when I can but it’s very spaced out due to distance, transportation, etc. 

Do you usually take home leftovers if you eat out in a restaurant?: oh yeah I get full very quick and easy so I always leave with a to-go box

Have you ever ghost ride the whip (put your car on auto and dance next to it as it’s moving)? Do you want to?: hell no and never will!

What is one thing you hope never changes about you?: my sense of humor

Do most of the songs you listen to have curse words in it?: considering I’m a die hard Eminem fan as just one example? a good portion of my fave songs/artists, yeah lol 

Is there someone you wanna date? no I’m happily engaged

Why did you stop liking the last person you liked? the timing just never worked out

Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken? BROKEN. PERIOD.

What are you listening to? our usual randoms on Youtube through Roku

Name a quote from the thing you are listening to? “Welcome back to today’s episode of Hermitcraft!” 

What does your last text say? it was automated from CVS saying one of my meds is ready for pickup

Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? yep...been for over a year now...

Last missed call? from my mom last night

Last person you talked on the phone with? Mom

What was the first thing you did when you woke up today? smoked a cig

Do you have a best friend? a few

Do you like vitamin water? yeah it’s really good, love all the flavors

Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them? I wouldn’t say hate but definitely butted heads and argued a lot first lol still did throughout but it calmed down eventually

What do you think of people who have sex before marriage? I don’t really care, I’m not religious and I did so regardless I really can’t talk heh

Do you get along with your parents? it’s complicated...lot of history...

Are you more independent or dependent? I used to think I was independent and I mean I think I do have certain times where I am, but I’m definitely dependent to the extreme

Do you believe that what comes around goes around? for the most part yeah but it doesn’t always work out that way...

Who was the last person you were mad at? Mom

What are your plans for tonight? none, hanging home and DoorDash for dinner as always

Does anyone love you? yeah 

Do you love anybody? yeah

Ever felt like you hit rock bottom? I constantly reach and create new layers to rock bottom, I may as well have fuckin invented the damn thing...

What’s the one thing that’s getting you through the week? my fiance being home before he has to go back until May on Friday...

Do you miss anyone? all the time

Do you give out second chances too easily? yep and usually pay for it

What did you do yesterday? ran to Wawa for smokes, dozed several times throughout the day and night, smoked cigs, watched TV and Roku, DoorDash for dinner, aka the usual and all with my fiance

Where is one place you want to visit? ugggh hard to pick just one there’s so many! definitely Italy, for sure to see my heritage and roots...well a majority of it anyway

What’s your favorite thing to have for breakfast? I never eat breakfast :P

Ever felt that no one relates to you? ohhhh yeah most of the time actually

Why did you break your last promise? cause I couldn’t deal anymore...

What do you think of long-term relationships? hardest fuckin thing man...

Do you believe God always saves you from bad situations? I believe in him but honestly from my track record and experience...? not always, no. rarely if at all

What’s the worst curse word or saying that you know of? I hate the C word honestly...

Do you wish on 11:11? on rare occasions but never works 

Are you pissed off about anything? yeah I’m jonesing bad for a strong ass drink and I can’t!

#survey #bored #random #about me

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

There’s a 10 video per post limit found out now. Posting ths bcz I saw an ad with quest love ❤️ 142 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday

{updating 15 November 2022 Tuesday 5:06 am pdt @ bottom }

I heard ths song many years ago & didn’t learn the lyrics until recently?

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it’s hard 2 say no even when you want 2? Work on it, promise yourself for only yourself, 4 a stronger happiness, (-a more promising connection with some1, who you really like 2b with in the future, that today, we must reject bcz we don’t yet feel it -) to say NO! 147 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday.

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If you dress up more it creates a stronger barrier probably 2 enable you 2 say “no”? Or keep things long distance, a long distance relationship, 2 make it stronger b4 saying yes? Have conditions/ standards. Unconditional love with a man can kill a woman. Unconditional love w/ a man means putting up w/ all sorts of abuse. Do your best. Make him check mark ✅ those boxes 📦. Or rather, find one who will do it willingly w/o being asked. 208 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday. I had 2 tried 2 find happiness w/ myself by myself for years when I started again 2 try 2 b celibate since July ≈4th, 2010. Still celibate 2 MY knowledge. Incubus says differently 😑only broke the news 📰 2 me this summer.😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤 after each failed attempt, try & try again. Read self help books 📚, & I guess if you can not hold yourself accountable find someone who can or will?? 216 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday. 😖😭incubus 217 am pdt left calve leg 🦵 pain! 😖😖😖 218 am pdt word play: calve—> calf love=puppy love —>> other word play on Calvin Klein; besides Calvinism. 220 am pdt

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sorry to Nancy Pelosi & husband, kinda heard what happened, awful 😣. This next song has nothing to do with them. I’ve hit my head on hard surfaces, ie stainless steel - I have experienced some a lot of pain besides getting punched. (325 am pdt edited)

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Slam your body down & wind it all around I thought of break dancing = b-boys.

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ps 330 am pdt a relative of mine closely related 2 my father, is a red head. Makes me wonder if black hair genes are made with one of each allele hiding potential for many hair colors. Need 2 dive deeper n2 biology. 332 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday.

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incubus spiritual husband who claimed he is Adam Noah Levine, has made it clear he’s going 2 kill me & thinks I am too old & unattractive. Incubus husband also had a friend who speaks 2 me too & has his back.

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gets sprung. He intentionally destroyed my ass since 2017 he has been stabbing it, cutting it, & pulled apart the bones several times then clashed them 2gether last year while I was trying 2 sleep 🛌 346 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday.

pps I naturally have curly eyelashes. Distal joints of fingers slightly bend back. Big long finger nail beds. Pale white skin w/o sun exposure, & when I was in high school a classmate wrote me a love letter 💌 telling me I had beautiful brown skin. I used 2 have dimples & those disappeared 👻. Random guys have said I was “hot” in front of me up until ≈2020 (even though I was in a lot of pain(359 am pdt)). I used to have very muscular calves from working out for years that I didn’t have to flex 💪 & people could see it bulge. A guy felt my legs 🦵 & said I had “legs like a stallion.” So you know, you’re not the only one. I’m talking to someone in particular who might see this. 14 November 2022 355 am pdt. & I am petite, about/around same height as Sierra LaMar. 356 am pdt. (Add: 503 am pdt: when I was 18/19? Years old I was told I looked 12 years old by a random guy. & then prob 21/22 ? I was told I looked 16 years old.)

407 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday

b4 2020 election 🗳? I remember seeing/listening 2 a video online of a guy who is supposedly psychic? & I think it was him who said to a woman she was going to marry Jesus? & she died not long after that guy said that, so it seems that getting married to Jesus is a deceptive way to say you’re going to die? By the devil? In 2017/2018 incubus husband was giving me signs that he’s Jesus & has been throwing around in front of me signs 🪧 he’s going to marry me since then, “what lovers do” song: do you love me or not? Like Jesus asked Peter. Reminds me of the mentally dating Adam Levine tshirts.

If you read the word marriage = marr i age. Then we can probably assume since he has demonic power that he wanted me to see that video, about the marrying Jesus & dying -demon lord does not want me typing this he literally deleted part of this - incubus is the devil 😈- & he decided this before I was born to treat me this way. I’ve had it rough for a looooooong time, even when I was a kid he hurt me. He’s showing me through auto correct that he “decided devil” probably trying to make me feel bad for typing this. So when he says marriage to me, he means he is killing me. 428 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday.

432 am pdt do incubus only get turned on by lust? Not love ❤️? Only want 2 make babies 👶 with who though & why? Looking for specific traits? Or is it only lust? 434 am pdt. 14 November 2022 Monday.

445 am pdt I wonder if Adam Noah Levine means anything he says. Like I thought I read he told Maryka/mvrykv_ (I’m guessing this is a self given alias, not her real name) that he had 2 children 👶 & he’s done, he’s tired of it? & he thinks he can get away? I guess he is looking for escape from being a dad/father. & wants to only mess around & “fuck”/have sex. When a man phrases it like that & says all those things together, & he has continually said publicly for years things that sounds the opposite of that, it probably means he doesn’t want ❤️ love? He wants raunchy horny wild sex probably? With the youngest women he can find; not 1,2, 3, or 4, but 5 or more??? 453 am pdt. & it looks like he wants women who will hide it! He says you know I should not be talking to you right? Bcz he’s aware & he is fishing around for a way to say keep this a secret 🤫 secret 🤐 . This is what I think 🤔 & it has taken me a while to realize that.457 am pdt. 14 November 2022 Monday.

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thinking if incubus spiritual husbands are actually rapists & murderers, & they like their friends to talk down to me & torture me too, then that guy w/o condom is probably friends of incubus/incubi, too, birds of a feather flock 2gether- maybe even sometimes nicolatian, too? (but w/o offspring?only sample)(hypothesis) bcz his friend who gives me signs 🪧 & talks 2 me, too, reminds me of that guy. ♐️ another hypothesis: incubus look for specific traits, & they kill off the wives bcz they don’t want anyone else having offspring with the same traits? For years I had body shame (wore jackets & sweaters & pants & 3/4 to full sleeves & socks 🧦 to hide my arms, butt, legs, feet 🦶, & a lot of fears. Maybe it was a form of control to keep me from meeting other men? If he has power to transfer fertilized eggs 🥚, probably has power to make miscarriages happen or prevent pregnancy 🤰 , whenever I did meet some one. But each person I got involved with seemed to be a sign 🪧 / a clue, showing me my planned fate, or maybe a clue to what already transpired?? (definition inferred through previous readings). 617 am pdt 14 November 2022 Monday. There are overlapping? themes. Before I watched serendipity & after. Cassiopeia. I see Casio, cassi- x2 to 4. ... 14 November 2022 625 am pdt. Hungry.

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Bcz incubus/incubi? Are probably demons & can control people, they probably will do whatever they can to confuse you- including concussions 🤕/head trauma/ injuries & also headaches & other things in your head to make you retarded & forgetful. So if you are hardworking he would probably exploit it, & if you are smart it would probably take a long time for you to know it. My dad & his father are studious & like to work with their hands 🙌. My mom & her mother had a good work ethic. I wonder 💭 if these kinds of traits are genetically transferable ? 652 am pdt. 14 November 2022 Monday.

update 15 November 2022 Tuesday 5:06 am pdt : remembering now that a few people have complimented me on my smile & teeth 🦷 (probably bcz of its shapes- kinda bigger I guess) that & I endured @ least 3 years of painful orthodontia. 513 am pdt

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Benjamin Elias Pens New Album ‘Prana’ Hoping to Inspire a Powerful Spiritual Awakening in Listeners

Tel-Aviv- based hip-hop artist, Benjamin Elias will release his highly-anticipated concept album, Prana on August 12, 2022. The album, mostly written during a one week creative binge, tells the story of what it feels like to truly live in the now. Prana will feature artists, TraVoYn, Tony Millions, Guyku, and Soul Special (who is credited as a producer on all seven of the album’s songs), and will be supported with short, lyrical breakdown visuals (Genius style). Elias will also release some videos explaining how falling in love with yoga inspired him to discover to explore new subject matter in his music and will include a Yoga teacher demonstrating and explaining some positions: exposing the listener to the yogic concept of “Prana”. For local listeners, this concept will be furthered by an innovative release concert in celebration of the album that combines a yoga class at sunset with an outdoor hip-hop show. “Prana was written during a time in my life when I felt a very powerful spiritual awakening. Life had slowed down during COVID and I had the time to think a lot more about who I am and who I want to be. I hope that by listening to this album people will feel inspired to be themselves and live life a lot more freely.” – Benjamin Elias On the opening track “Dali Lama” Elias sets the album’s tone with a soothing intro that sounds like a guided mediation (from a female voice) saying: “Today, I want you to focus on your breath more than anything…you might feel awake, you might feel tired but most importantly, you should feel alive,” immediately allowing the listener to engage in the spiritual practice before being immersed with Elias’ stacked and poetic lyrics, which continues through all 7 tracks. As Prana navigates through the mindset of embracing the now, listeners will be in for many surprises. One such moment is the beat switch on the fifth track “Time / Nuweiba”, which shifts mid-track from a story about “working around the clock” to one about the feeling of relaxing on the beach. This moment demonstrates the album’s arc perfectly: descriptive but with plenty of room for breathing, and organic composition of thought. Benjamin Elias has a unique story of being born and partially raised in Denver but then moving to Tel Aviv when he was 13. Living in two such starkly different cultures gave him a unique perspective that he feels translates to his music. Prana (recorded in Israel at KWA Studios), shows an interesting contrast between introspective lyrics, and bouncy musical production inspired by artists such as Drake, Jack Harlow, and Travis Scott. Elias shares, “I’ve always been passionate about storytelling (my parents say I could talk long before I could walk) — and my original dream was actually to write books. Once I discovered hip-hop I felt an immediate rush of energy and I knew that this was what I was born to do.” Elias is an artist in control of his path, cultivating a sound with a mainstream appeal that doesn’t need to compromise originality and honesty to be catchy and fun. The first single from the album, “Lyfted (featuring Tony Millions and Soul Special)” was released on June 24th and can be found here. Elias will unveil 3 singles before the full release of Prana: “Buzz” (July 2oth); “Time/Nuweiba (featuring Guyku)” (July 28th); and “Ivory” (August 4th). The album will also be supported by a two-part music video for the songs “Before Cali” and “Dali Lama.” About Benjamin Elias: Benjamin Elias is a hip-hop artist currently based in Israel. He was born in Denver, Colorado and he moved to Israel at the age of 13. This was a formative experience for him that influenced his personality and music greatly. Benjamin has always been passionate about writing and his initial dream was to be a fiction writer – but after becoming disillusioned with the difficulty of getting people to engage with a novel he wrote in high school, he decided to pursue hip-hop instead. He views hip hop as “the most accessible way to tell a story in the 21 century” and “incredible art-from that allows you to express yourself in a very interesting and honest way”. In his music, he creates an eclectic sound that mixes catchy hooks and bouncy beats with introspective lyrics that tell personal stories and dive into Benjamin’s “live for the moment” worldview. Read the full article

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I can have . A little of journaling . Just for a treat

I KNOW it’s too late to be doing this but I GOTTA. I went to the lake for Sydney’s birthday and the 4th of July. I don’t think we have time to unpack all of it but we’ll do our best.

When I got there it was awkward and everyone was tired and the vibe did not improve. I felt weird and anxious and then Hunter got there and I felt extremely weird and extremely anxious. Sydney Kyle Rachel Cynthia Hunter Day Clarissa(?) Marianna and Christian were all there (Ruth and Rogel came the next day.) we sat out on the boat and it was awkward and we went swimming and it was less awkward. Nenny took us out to swim in the deep water and watch the fireworks and that was nice. We went back and had a fire and played For The Girls. I got draw whatever I wanted on Hunter’s face so I just wrote “hi mom =)” across his cheek because I couldn’t think of anything better. He took a picture of it and sent it to his actual mom and later made it his profile picture on Instagram. He looks cute in it. Everyone went inside but I went out on the dock and laid down to look at the stars (which I do every time I’m there.) Hunter came and laid down next to me and it didn’t feel as weird anymore. We talked about the stars and then went inside. More on that later. Eventually Day and her friends went home and the vibe improved immediately (no offense to them it just didn’t work out.) we went to bed and I had trouble sleeping all night but I got to sleep in Sydney’s parents bed and I felt so comfortable and safe and I got to sleep until almost noon which was perfect. Kyle had to rush out to go to work and then it was just Sydney Rachel Cynthia Hunter and I. We ate waffles, sat and talked inside, and the girls went to the dispensary. When they got back, we tanned in the boat, Hunter and I made out in the living room for a very long time, and then we eventually drove over and got ice cream and picked up our gas station pizza. We listened to Pizza Party and the Shia Labouf song on the way back. We ate pizza and then hung out until Hunter had to leave. We kissed goodbye and I went inside. Ruth and Rogel got there and we went on a walk down into the cul de sac and back while they smoked and then Nenny took us out swimming again. We played Never Have I Ever in the lake and swam around and then took a boat ride and listened to music. I felt truly blissful. Nothing mattered at all. My favorite people were with me, I was outside, I was safe and calm, and I got butterflies every time I thought of the afternoon. We went inside and played We’re Not Really Strangers (a little) and Sydney told Ruth and Rogel about Poland. We cleaned up a little and then Rachel and I drove home together and talked the whole way and played “she’s a 10 but -“ and then I came home and unpacked and showered and ate watermelon with my dad.

I literally don’t think today could’ve been better. I had pizza and ice cream, I got to eat healthy foods too, I woke up rested before noon, I got to walk and swim and spend time in nature, I got to be in a familiar place with happy memories, I got to feel like I was in a coming of age movie, I watched the stars and talked and kissed a really cute boy, I spent time with my best friends, I road tripped, I spent a little time alone and a little time having a snack and watching tiktoks with my dad. God, thank you so much for this day. It might not be as frequent as I’d like, but there are really, really good days. I hope I did right by myself and right by you. What I did today doesn’t go against my moral code but I feel like I’m betraying the church before I even start working there. I feel a little ashamed and a little nervous and I have a lot on my mind but mostly I’m happy today happened. Thank you so, so much for everything. I don’t know how this happened but I feel so loved and blessed by you. I’m sorry my mom doesn’t feel that way. I’m sorry for everything. Thank you for everything. Thank you that I get to go to sleep to this thunderstorm. Please keep my family and I alive, healthy, and safe and help us get really good rest and have a really good day tomorrow and have good dreams in between. Thank you for your goodness and your faithfulness and for showing up today and showing up in lots of little ways all the time. I love you.

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‼️T/W Su*cide‼️ I ranted a lot here so... Yeah.

Today is 18th of December 2021. It's a hard day for SHAWOLS and Blingers all around the world. 4 years ago we lost an incredible singer, lyricist, producer but most importantly a poet and an artist, Kim Jonghyun. He had a beautiful soul. He always spoke about issues that are "taboo" in Korea, despite receiving backlash, he openly stood up for what he believed in. He wrote songs about depression and how hard it is to handle it. He refused to say "I love you" because it's such a "poignant phrase" but always expressed it with his actions. He never hid his struggles with mental health, he said that he wanted to talk about this topic more but his manager always stopped him, that's why he wrote songs about his feelings and desires. All he wanted for himself was peace and happiness. He always thought of other people first instead of himself. And 4 years ago he finally did something for himself. And that's not selfish at all. I wish we could go back in time and change the outcome but we obviously can't. Instead of feeling sad, I want everyone that knew him (whether you found out about him before or after his death, it doesn't matter) to celebrate his life.

The first time I found out about kpop was in 2008. I was 6, I just liked the music and I never knew what "stanning" meant or anything. But in 2013 was when I REALLY got into it. I knew SHINee but I never bothered to check them out because I wasn't interested in boy groups. In 2017 (around January I think) I was getting bored of just listening continuesly the same artist everyday. So I listened to "Tell me what to do" by SHINee. I was always more into groups that are strong vocally so I was fairly impressed by them. As time went by, I found myself getting more connected with Jonghyun. Then I started listening to his albums. They were magnificent. They way he portrayed his feelings and thoughts just got to me. Time goes by, he announced his 4th solo concert. I was happy for the fancams that are about to be filmed since I'm not Korean nor could I ever afford the tickets. Then December 18th hit. I woke up to commotion on Twitter saying that Jonghyun passed. Something felt really wrong. I had a feeling that it was he's own doing but I wasn't sure. Then about a few hours later, they said that it was suicide. I felt really... I don't know how to explain it. I didn't really feel anything if I'm being honest. I thought a lot about everything. His lyrics, his way of words, even his last Instagram live that he did when a fan asked him about his plans for the end of December and he said that he was going to rest. I never thought about it much at the time but... After everything, I realized he already made his decision a long time ago. He planned everything. He celebrated his members' birthdays, he went to support them for their solo activities that year, had his solo concert 8 days before his death, he even recorded his album and filmed his music video. And again, he thought of others first before himself.

Thank you Jonghyun, for existing. I'm sorry and I love you.

💎You did well💎

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