#he just doesn’t give a shit abt me abs had ignored me my whole life

[nico-di-angelic]

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depressing shit, ignore

i just don’t know where else to rant, i can’t rly talk to anyone abt this so

#anyone else sad this fathers day #idk why this year more than others #im just thinking abt him and how fucked up I am bc of him #he didn’t like Do anything #he just doesn’t give a shit abt me abs had ignored me my whole life #no matter how hard my mom and I tried to get him to put an effort #he cared abt drinking more #so #lately ive been feeling especially shitty #like im missing smth in my life #and going into my mid 20s im starting to think it’s him #a parent #idk im super exhausted today too bc I got literally no sleep and still had to work 9-5 so im emotional too #but I keep seeing all these posts from people celebrating fathers day with their dads #and it just makes me sad I never get that #I don’t have anyone who rly understands either #other than my mom I guess #but she just has sympathy for my dad and her’s #and she thinks I should forgive him and try again to get close to him #but I can’t #when I tbink abt it I get so angry I wanna cry #why are men like this #why does he just get to fuck up my life and go on living his like nothing is wrong #I bet my life would’ve been so much better if he’d been a good person and father #and now I’m crying lol #I think I’m just tired #I’m gonna shut up and go to sleep now bye