#gonna post that song in bit make everyone listen to it on my blog. I'm dj crazy times

[vimbry]

back home guys it was sooo good omg,

#EATEN BY THE MONSTER OF LOVE 3RD SONG #that's one of my favs I didn't expect it I've not been following any prev set lists #gonna post that song in bit make everyone listen to it on my blog. I'm dj crazy times

[milomilesmib]

Figured I should just make a post about my blog so I'm not just,,, this unknown entity. This is gonna be a bit of a mess but stick with me.

Also- if I reblogged your post and added the caption "yoink" it basically means "I'm keeping this on my blog because I like it/it's useful"

I should also mention that I call everyone bestie unless it's a more formal conversation because I like to keep things nice and friendly so if I call you bestie in my rb even though we have never interacted before that is why.

First of all- introduction. My name is Milo or Miles or Mib and my pronouns are he/him/it/they but mainly he/him. I'm an ISFP-T, I kin Nico di Angelo, the Collector, Hunter Noceda/Deamonne/Clawthorne/etc, Patroclus, and Charlie Spring, and my star sign is Leo. I'm panromantic achillean demiromantic cupioromantic aceflux (questioning) queerplatonic polyamorous transmasculine genderqueer (I know it's a mouthful), but you can also just call me queer and trans. I am diagnosed with ADHD and (extreme) anxiety. Fun! I'm also iron deficient and often dehydrated from forgetting to drink water lmao.

I'm happy to talk about my sexuality/gender. I am happy to talk about light personal topics. I don't really like talking about my health unless I'm helping someone else figure out theirs.

This blog is a safe space for:

The 2SLGBTQIA+ community

Anyone with any mental, neurological, or physical disabilities or other struggles of that sort

The BIPOC community

Anyone who has been abused or assaulted in any way or has any sort of trauma

People who are suffering from or recovering from any kind of addictions, whether that's drugs or self harm or alcohol or sex anything else

Everyone of every gender, sexuality, religion, ability, race, sex, etc. who wants to hang out and talk about their interests or hobbies or anything!

This blog is NOT a space for:

Homophobia, queerphobia, transphobia, aphobia, ableism, sexism, racism, fatphobia or any kind of discrimination whatsoever!

Bigotry and hate!

Overly political topics (some are okay but over all I'm trying to avoid anything too political on this blog)

This is supposed to be a fun and safe space and I intend on it being so. If you have any concerns, drop me an ask, anonymous or not, and I'll answer to the best of my ability.

Now for ✨the fun stuff✨

In this blog, I mainly talk about whatever little subject is eating at my brain. Usually this is:

The Owl House

Hazbin Hotel

Helluva Boss

Percy Jackson

Queer shit

But I have other interests!

MBTI

Art

My OCs ❤️✨

Hades (Supergiant)

The Song of Achilles/anything Patrochilles

Greek mythology

Good Omens

Magnus Chase

Music

Frogs!

Creatures and critters!!!

Candles and cute decor things

Sewing (I'm just like Hunter fr)

Stims!

Some WEBTOONs

Whatever silly little games I'm playing on my phone currently (Secret Cat Forest and Kinder World rn)

Probably more that I'm forgetting!

If you have an interest you wanna talk about, leave an ask or send me a message, and I'll happily listen to you talk about it (as long as it's not on the above list of things that aren't for this blog and if you're not sure if it is, ask politely and I'll tell you whether or not I'm comfortable talking about it) and please, be respectful! I don't want to be grilled on the details of your obscure fanfic :)

If you ever wanna listen to me ramble about any of the above interests you will be my best friend forever and I will always love you because my infodumping ass likes being listened to or even just heard.

I ship:

Huntlow

Huskerdust

Fizzmodeus

Solangelo

Valdangelo

Valgrace

Patrochilles

Lumity

My OCs ✨ (I'm not elaborating)

Fierrochase

Blitzstone

Aziracrow

Ineffable bureaucracy

I'm obsessed with the following characters (platonically/aesthetically/familially/sometimes romantically);

HUNTER NOCEDA DAEMONNE WITTEBANE CLAWTHORNE WHISPERS BLIGHT PARK

Leo Valdez (who isn't obsessed with him tbh)

Nico di Angelo 🥺

Stolas 🥺

Alastor (my current babygirl)

Angel dust <3 (he just like me fr)

NIFFTY ❤️💞💝💓💕💖💘💗❤️💝

Lityerses (I too break down in tears when shown basic human kindness)

The Collector ✨

The entire Noceda family lmao

Darius Daemonne (more like dadrius)

MY OCS ✨❤️

Aziraphale 🥺

Beelzebub <3

So that's basically me! Sorry a lot of this was just "NO BEING MEAN" but I just wanted to get it out there that I don't tolerate that shit ❤️

Hope y'all have fun here, and thank you to everyone for being so amazing and kind ❤️

I'll probably edit this over time but this is a good start. Thank you to anyone who read the whole thing or even just some of this, it means a lot. Welcome to my TOH/PJO/Good Omens/ queer/shitpost blog ❤️

Last edited: 4:10 p.m. Pacific Time, Saturday April 6th, 2024 (Hellenism update)

#about myself #about my blog #introduction #im not gonna add a lot of tags since this is mostly just for people who look at my blog but aNYWAYS-

[n0wav]

Pinkerton appreciation

HELLO CHATTERS!!!

Today i did what i do on almost a weekly basis, which is to listen to pinkerton. i was in a good mood listening to this very awesome album... UNTIL! i noticed something that somewhat upset me not really but its really interesting.

you see back in the 90s pinkerton wasn't loved as much as blue album because it's messy dark and emo and not silly fun power pop like blue. it wasn't till many years later that pinkerton the the love and appreciation it deserved. Although it isn't nearly as popular as blue, green, or even make believe (really only because of Beverly hills), it is still very loved by weezer fans now.

Today while looking through the deluxe version i realized that "I just through out the love of my dreams" is more popular than any of the songs on the normal non deluxe album. Now don't get me wrong its a really good song (although this cover of the song is kinda better imo :3) and i do really enjoy it, i do feel like its a repeat in history.

now if you don't know what i mean by this repeat in history, i will shift the attention for a short moment to another band, PAVEMENT!!!

one side note i think is funny is that back when weezer started, people called them cheesy pavement rip-offs... just something i remembered!

pavement is an awesome band and they will get another post out of me at some point of me writing on this tumblr blog, but in the mean time... Pavement has always been relatively popular in indie rock circles, but nothing exceeds the popularity they got when harness your hopes blew up like crazy on tiktok, making it their most popular song on streaming services by a very large margin. AND Just like i just threw out the love of my dreams, harness your hopes is also a B-side that randomly got popular from social media.

Don't get me wrong I'm not upset at all, to be honest i don't care that much like it really isn't that deep, i just think its interesting how common this is, where a song from an older band gets big thanks to social media, more specifically tiktok.

The only thing i do wish is that people listened to more of the bands music rather than just listen to the one song they know, but then again i just realized not everyone is as obsessed with music as i am lol.

Back to pinkerton

i LOVE pinkerton, i def like it more than blue album, which isn't much of a hot take since the weezer fandom has been split on which album is better for prolly 2 decades at this point. For me the album is just more up with the kinda music i listen to, while being very different at the same time. the way the album starts with the synth, and you automatically hear the raw and underproduced sound this album has.

aside from the sound, i just personally kinda relate to some of the songs, maybe not the weird parts... but def many of the bit more normal ones.

With tired of sex, I have definitely grown tired of having relationships with people where there's no actual relationship or connection at all. for a long time i really didn't know who i am (weezer reference).

getchoo is hard for me to analyze or related it to anything so i will skip that one (good song tho)

no other one hit pretty hard home for me. i've been in pretty shitty relationships with people who treat me like shit, hence the shittiness, and for some reason i didn't leave because i didn't think i could do any better and that nobody knows me like her, that we're all we got and we don't wanna be alone (weezer reference).

why bother? is me when I'm scared to make relationships and friendships with basically anyone because of my fear that whoever i talk to will eventually not like me and abandon me, to where in my head i will think "why bother? its gonna hurt me. it's gonna kill when they desert me. It's already happened to me twice before. it wont happen to me anymore." (weezer reference)

i only semi relate to across the sea because i've e-dated as a young child on discord.... next song (still a good song)

the good life is me too because i used to be really cool and leave my house a lot and play shows and have lots of friends and just do things that aren't me sitting at home doing nothing being a pig and a dog (weezer reference). it is def time i got back to the good life (weezer reference) But to be fair i don't really want to go back to that time i just wanna be a normal person again.

i don't really relate to el scorcho much but its still an awesome song.

pink triangle is me because I've dated girls who turned out to be a lesbian but trust me i didn't turn them, they were already lesbian before we started dating i don't know why they started dating me maybe because I'm not very masculine so they thought it would be fine. (note that i didn't know they were lesbian till after we would break up)

i put falling for you in a mixtape i made my ex. whenever i would hear that song i would think of her because its how i felt about her. i was afraid of falling for her, but in the end i just wanted to settle down with her (weezer reference)

I don't relate to butterfly either but it is a really really good song

as you can see i really like pinkerton and relate to it very much. it is prolly one of my favorite albums of all time no doubt

this is the end of the post

we love pinkerton

pinkerton is our everything

here's a song rec from the album pinkerton by weezer

thanks for reading my weezer rant! idk what i will post about next but we will see!

Goodbye!!!! :3

#weezer #power pop #noise pop #pavement #say it aint so #blue album #pinkerton #i just threw out the love of my dreams #tired of sex #nerdcore #losercore #Spotify #rivers cuomo

[erporo]

hi erporo !! we don't interact but ur art is super sick and i love the random stuff u put on my page 🩷 i had a question abt ur music !! u put a lot of Pink Floyd on my page and i see some NIN too; i don't listen to much of either,, do u have any specific song recommendations ? i LOVE Echoes, If, and Summer '68 but those r abt the only ones i know. and as far as NIN goes im essentially clueless . thank u if u respond and thanks regardless for ur fun blog !

hi hi hi buggy,

tnx for the kind words!! <33

SO. song recs, huh.. i've already answered another que about pf (mostly) album (bcs ithink it's really better to listen to pf in albums, not some specific songs) recs like a week ago,

on a second thought tho, here are a few more that are worth listening to that i didn't add for god knows what reason:

Relics (contains the band's first singles like See Emily Play, Arnold Layne & cool songs like Julia Dream for example),

Ummagumma,

and Animals (Dogs is up there with Echoes and SOYCD to me). It's a hella political album (bcs of Rog & his opinions) tho

there's some more ofc like The Early Years, The Later Years & stuff, but they're there if u've listened to the main catalog & u want more, yk?

there's also this post i agree with for the most part.

i can get a bit more specific if u want tho, just lmk. keep in mind it's (obviously) gonna get real lengthy real quick tho-

as for nin... WELL

here's some, again, mostly album recs because, just like with pf- i think it's really better to listen to dis band in albums, in context, not some specific songs:

the entirety of Pretty Hate Machine, nin's debut album. ive listened to it like, yesterday for the 5th time or something- it's so gud

if u like some metal stuff, Broken EP is awesome,

Fixed (an entire album of remixes of Broken's songs) also has some goodies, like the remix of Happiness in Slavery (this song's been SUCH A MOOD for at least 3 yrs by now) & Fist Fuck <3

the entirety of The Downward Spiral of COURSE,

The Fragile's also hella good- one of my fav albums of theirs actually,

but u ain't gonna lose much if u don't listen to. all of em- like u can leave out the songs like Please, No, You Don't & u will be gud

If u wanna listen to some p cool outtakes (like, there's one that legit sounds like smth out of Shadow the Hedgehog LMAO) and instrumentals of the album then feel free to check out The Fragile: Deviations

the entirety of With Teeth, ithink??

see, im not sure about the entirety part bcs i always omit Getting Smaller & im. cool

Year Zero's also got some goodies: Survivalism; The Good Soldier; Me, I'm Not; Capital G; God Given; The Great Destroyer...

Hesitation Marks is. i think my second fav of theirs. can't recommend it enough.

like the first 10 songs of the albums r just. the best of the best: Came Back Haunted, Copy of A, All Time Low, Everything, Satellite, stuff like that.

In Two & While I'm Still Here r also p good afair

Honorable mentions:

She's Gone Away : a song that was featured in one of the eps of Twin Peaks (!!), & yep- its hella gud,

At The Heart of It All,

The Beauty of Being Numb,

Underneath the Skin : just a cool remix, v train-like if that makes sense LMAO,

This Isn't The Place : a song by Trent, dedicated to a huge influential figure of his back in the 90s - David Bowie. (for VERY obvious reasons too, as u can see),

Needless to say, their cover of Hurt makes me cry buckets every time i swear,

The Perfect Drug,

Trent's amazing cover of Queen's song Get Down Make Love,

God Break Down The Door,

MAGNIFICENT covers of various artists' songs (Joy Division, Iggy Pop, The Normal) & each other's songs (like Sanity Assassin, Head Like a Hole, Reptile, Bela Lugosi's Dead, etc) by Trent and Bauhaus' Peter Murphy from 2006,

NIN at Woodstock '94 <- Powerful shit.

& dat's it. hope u enjoy em!!

wouldn't be surprised if u didn't tho- pf's music's def not for everyone & Trent's music is mostly for. goths yk

#que #song & album recs

[downbytheriversside]

something you think that's underrated (show, music, ship, habit, animal, absolutely anything. can be multiple/a list. go wild)

Oh get ready to be here a while here we fuckin go...

Wind. It reminds me what it's like to be alive

Matt Maltese. Sad boy music that's so so good and makes me feel so much pain and catharsis. Also a lot of his songs are byler/Mike coded. You deserve an Oscar, shoe, everyone adores you, outrun the bear (byler will pov), as the world caves in, strange time (its second or third line is literally "and we'll both gladly lose our minds LIKE!!). Also paper thin hotel is tom wambsgan's song, and tom wambsgan's alone.

Lucas GODDAMN Sinclair. Need I say more? Doesn't matter cus I'm gonna- I genuinely believe he's the best written and performed character in the whole show, he's my sweet child ray of sunshine I love him dlfkgkfdn and he would NOT be the same without what Caleb brings to the table in his performance. And since day ONE he fucking ATE I keep putting EMPHASIS on so many WORDS but I digress. I do understand the problems with some of his writing which sucks but he is still incredible and you can tell that Caleb cares so much about him which I always love to see

The oh hellos album dear wormwood. Omg. Omfg. It's fucking TRANSCENDENT. ANYONE READING THIS WHO HAS GONE THROUGH/IS GOING THROUGH A TOXIC OR ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP OF ANY KIND LISTEN TO THIS IT IS SO HEALING. Not only is it cathartic asf but it depicts the anger and regret and pain and resignation and fucking every emotion under the sun that you experience in those kinds of relationships. And just how connected all of the songs are. The album itself is a loop, seriously. The last part of Thus Always to Tyrants (the final song on the album) leads right into the beginning of Prelude. And while we're on the subject of thus always to tyrants can we talk about how fucking impactful it is to end the album on that note? On a bittersweet toast to the people who hurt us because there is no getting rid of what they did, only making yourself stronger from it and healing?!!? About the notion that what they did was terrible but that is something you'll never forget because you can't but you're moving on to better things, wondering if they will change/have changed from who you knew them as?!??! ARE YOU FUCKNG KIDDING ME!!!!! AND just how connected the lyrics and melodies are in all of the songs. I've listened to the whole album easily over a hundred times and I still notice new lines that relate to each other or when bg melodies in one song are the main motif (?) of another. You can tell how much care and thought and love and emotion was put into its creation and I love it so so so much. Also if you dear reader do not want to spend 40 min listening to the album please please please just listen to Pale White Horse and Where is Your Rider. Oh. My. Fucking. God. Jesus fuck these songs. I'm just typing about them and I got chills like. I'm not joking at all when I say these songs actually changed my life. And the interconnectedness of them (sorta like a horse and its rider?) is just so special. They're whole fucking experiences to listen to and I will never get tired of it. Aaaaaaaahhh I wanna keep talking about this album but we'd be here for a long long long time but I might make a post about it if anyone was actually interested on my music blog @lyricsdumblikethelinoleumfloor at some point so. Stick around for that ?

Forehead kisses. We need more of those pls

Sincerity. For the love of the night sky. BE EARNEST! BE SINCERE!! BE GENUINE I WILL FUCKING STAB YOU-

Little thumb rubs while holding hands

My mutuals all of you deserve love and appreciation and tenderness every one of you fuckers I love you all <33333

Cucumbers. Shit fucks

LIBRARIES! Please if you can visit your local library, it'll be so lovely I prommy

Humans committing to silly bits together. And just like building off of each other's energy. One of the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed and that I'm so grateful to have experienced

Introspection. For the love of fuck pleaaaase more people need this. Everyone needs to practice introspection idc just do it it's not some shameful act it just helps you grow

Peach flavoured things. They're yummy 😋

My ever growing gnome figurine collection pretty underrated imo kinda flying under the radar imho

Burger King foot lettuce

Laying on the floor and doing nothing. 10/10 activity honestly. Especially when you're in a sun spot shit fucks

And that's m'list! Glad you made it to the end, sorry for the long post

#nonnie you shouldn't have told me to go wild look what youve done #AND you made me be sappy. reveal yourself i need to know who did this #askings

[dotster001]

hello! congratulations for 1.5k followers! 🎉🎈❤️ it's amazing to see how far you've come, this is a huge milestone! you're a really wonderful writer and i thank you for all content you've wrote!! i hope the best for you and your blog, congrats once again! if it's alright though, may i ask for a type one, romantic matchup for Ensemble Stars? you're free though to ignore this if you want, no pressure whatsoever!

my pronouns are she/her and my sexuality is straight. (although i am currently questioning if i'm demisexual) also, my mbti is infj and zodiac sign is cancer. personality wise, i'm quite reserved and shy. i struggle with social situations, so i tend to mostly be quiet. but when i do interact with people, i'm usually polite and helpful. however, i'm really private, so it takes a while for me to open up. but once i do, i'm more playful, bubbly, snarky. i'll dote on my friends, but i'll also tease them when i'm in the mood.

my strengths are empathy, kindness, and diligence. my friends and family say it's easier for me to absorb emotions, which i use to give comfort and advice to others. they also say i'm hardworking, since i push myself to do my best in my work. but my weaknesses are overthinking, perfectionism, and a bit of a pushover. i have a bad habit of overanalyzing things, along with being a huge perfectionist. i also i find it hard to stand up for myself as i don't like conflict, so it sometimes ends up with me martyring.

my hobbies are reading, playing games, listening to music, and writing. and for my interests, it's musicals, visual novels, books, fandoms, and a little bit of psychology.

i'm really sorry if this was really long, please excuse me. but thank you and congratulations once again! take care and stay safe <3

Event Closed

(okay, since the event was so long ago, what I'm gonna do when I post a matchup is wait twenty four hours before I post anything else (including asks and theories) so that esp the anons see them hopefully. Again, thank you all for your patience, you have no idea how grateful I am 💙)

I match you with Adonis Otogari.

First off, I feel like your shyness would go well with his less communicative nature. In other words, he's not going to push you to open up with himself and others until you are really ready. He wants you to feel safe and secure. That's his highest priority! That said, when you do get comfortable, he really enjoys watching your bubbly, playful, expressive self.

Speaking of protecting you, he's big on making sure you don't become a pushover, especially in situations where he knows you won't be happy. He's always ready to protect others, but with you the drive is so much stronger!!! He'll speak up for you when you won't, and will also push you to take care of yourself! One time you forgot to eat, and he handed you a plate full of barbeque chicken.

You two have such a soft romance, cause he's a soft guy. Quietly sitting next to eachother doing your own things, but holding each other's hands, him resting standing behind you and resting his head on top of yours, making eachother lunches, and leaving each other notes in said lunches. Ah! So sweet!

You like musicals? He likes to perform for those he loves! He'll serenade you for hours with your favorite theatre love songs. All you have to do is ask, and his dulcit tones are all yours. He's nicknamed you his "angel of music"…swoon!

Adonis had been rehearsing for hours with the other members of Undead. Because of Rei's late night schedules, he was pretty sure everyone was asleep except for Undead. But he was getting thirsty and had run out of his water hours ago.

The door opened to the practice room, the white light of the hallway flooding into the room, and you entered, holding a water bottle.

"Hey love," you said, "I figured you'd be out of water by now. Also, I brought you a bagged dinner!"

You handed both of them to him, and he couldn't help the warm smile on his face. He gave you a soft, warm hug.

"You should be asleep, angel," he said.

"Couldn't sleep without you," you said with a pout.

"Well, if you promise to go to bed right after, you can stay."

You vigorously nodded, seating yourself in a corner.

It was another two hours before he finished, and when he looked over at you, you had fallen asleep. The other members of Undead grinned when he scooped you up and carried you off to bed.

He tucked you in, pressed a kiss to your temple, and snuggled in next to you. You were so good for him, angel. Then again, you were so good for eachother.

#matchups #1.5k followers #ensemble stars #adonis otogari #adonis otogari x reader #ensemble stars x reader

[1nm8translations]

1Nm8 Tweets and ParaTora Consolation Match Posts Translation

Translation of 1Nm8 members Tweets and Paradox Tribe posts from their official accounts about the Consolation Match, from November 18th 2022 (announcement date) to February 15th 2023 (end of voting). 

All dates are according to JST! Posts without links haven't been shared to Twitter and are available only in the ParaTora app.

I decided to repost my earlier translation that went up to February 10th to include latter messages, and because I missed several posts from Paradox Tribe that haven't been linked on Twitter. I'm sorry for the trouble!

Note: these translations prioritize conveying the writing style and meaning of the members' messages, so they aren’t word-for-word.

Also note that this is a thematic compilation about the Consolation match, so I omitted some fluff messages (mostly from Rokuta) and posts about Kei and Itsuki's birthdays, which you can already find on this blog.

Kei, Nov 18th, ‘22

Our words will surely reach you.

Rokuta, Nov 23rd, ‘22

Somehow, I feel like listening to Kei-chan’s songs! Gonna pop into his room later!

Kei, Dec 4rd, ‘22 

A good sound has descended upon me. Let’s follow it a bit further.

Itsuki, Dec 14th, ‘22

Together, we have gone over the song demo produced by Kei. It appears it can still be polished further. He is a man of bottomless talent.

Rokuta, Dec 17, ‘22

I’ll do my best to write lyrics just as good as Kei-chan’s track!

Kei, Dec 21th, ‘22

The song is finished.

Kei, Dec 25th, '22 (Paradox Tribe)

16:06

The song filled with 1Nm8's thoughts and resolve has been completed. We will bet everything on this.

17:53

You've kept Rokuta company in conversation. Thank you.

18:02

Thank you, everyone, for listening to our new song a lot. This time, we've expressed the theme of destruction and regeneration even more vividly. Just like a blue sky reflects in a cracked mirror, or like a withered flower leaves behind it's seeds to create the future, even in harsh conditions, the world goes through change and rebirth. Creating the new world is the role and mission of 1Nm8.

I made the track with the image of taking the status quo that is slowly spiraling downward to rapidly break, purify it and restore it to normal.

In order to write a new chapter, spin a new story for this world, we cannot lose.

Both Rokuta and Itsuki are working even harder than usual. I hope our feelings reach you.

Rokuta, Dec 28th, ‘22

I came up with even better lyrics than before! Let’s take them for a spin and see how they work!

Kei, Dec 28th, ‘22

Rokuta is doing his best too, isn’t he?

Rokuta, Dec 29th, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

In this battle, what I want everyone to pay attention too is the song Kei-chan made, after all! Of course, me and Itsuki-nii did our best, too! I want everyone to listen to it soon! Look forward to it!

Itsuki, Jan 1st, '23

This year will surely be a glorious one for 1Nm8. I ask for your continued support.

Itsuki, Jan 1st, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

Thank you for the numerous messages of support. Let us meet again.

Kei, Jan 4th, ‘23

All is for the sake of our ideals.

Kei, Jan 12th, ‘23

With this power, I shall bring salvation to all. We mustn't allow any more people to experience the pain we did. We will make sure the cycle of suffering breaks with us.

Itsuki, Jan 12th, ‘23

We have a goal we must fulfill. Until we accomplish that, we cannot break. 

Kei, Jan 31st, ‘23 (Paradox Tribe)

13:02

It was nice to log in here after a while. Thank you for all the congratulatory and supportive messages. That there are so many people who share our vision and thoughts about the world gives us a lot of strength. Tomorrow, lets open the first page of the new world.

22:03

Unless we take action, the chain of misfortune caused by phantometal will never be broken. So that the tragic history doesn’t repeat, and so that we may lead peaceful ordinary lives, 1Nm8 intends to seize victory. If Rokuta, Itsuki and myself come together, we can see it through. I would be happy if you all, too, would consider what is right.

Rokuta, Jan 25th, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

16:30

It's so cold today~ Everyone, how are you holding up?

17:20

Talking to you all made me feel so warm! I'm going to take a little nap, too! Thank you for hanging out with me, everyone!

17:20

Oh, and thank you for listening to our song a lot! We'll win for sure!

Rokuta, Jan 31st, ‘23 (Paradox Tribe)

12:16

Everyone, hello! Today is Kei-chan's birthday, and tomorrow is the battle! Please support us!

13:00

Thank you for your support, everyone! Also, thank you for celebrating Kei-chan's birthday a lot! Tomorrow, we'll do our best together! Bye bye!

21:50

I’ll be the one to protect our “everyday”  with Kei-chan and Itsuki-nii! I’d be happy if you gave us a lot of support! Let’s meet up on the stage! 

Itsuki, Jan 31st, ‘23 (Pradox Tribe)

There’s no other path for us than to win this battle.

Kei, Feb 1st, ‘23 (Paradox Tribe)

With these hands, I will grant salvation to all.

Kei, Feb 1st, ‘23

We will create the ideal world, with our own hands.

Rokuta, Feb 1st, ‘23

This is us during the rehearsal!

Itsuki, Feb 1st, ‘23

Winning here will lead us to the future. We cannot fail here.

Kei, Feb 2nd, '23

I would be happy if 1Nm8's thoughts were conveyed through yesterday's performance. We will fight until the end, so please support us.

Rokuta, Feb 3rd, ‘23

Thank you for supporting us a lot! We’ll work even harder, so come with us, everyone!

Rokuta, Feb 7th, ‘23

Everyone, thank you for your support! I’ll keep doing my best so I can become Kei-chan and Itsuki-nii’s strength and support them both!

Itsuki, Feb 8th, ‘23 (Paradox Tribe)

The turning point is still ahead. The current result is within the range we can pull it back from.

Itsuki, Feb 9th, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

21:05

Itsuki here. Thank you for coming to the live on February 1st. I am late, but that is what I want to say.

21:49

Excuse me, I need to prepare for tomorrow. Once again, let me express my gratitude. These days, I feel reassured to have the support of so many Heads. At the same time, your support allows me to reconfirm that our way of thinking is not mistaken, and I am able to continue the battle. For the sake of Rokuta, Kei, and for the sake of the world of tomorrow, we plan to keep fighting. No matter what we have to sacrifice.

Kei, Feb 10th, ‘23 (Paradox Tribe)

We’ve accepted everyone’s feelings. If we lose, the chains of misfortune will stay unbroken. We will win no matter what. I ask for your support until the end.

Rokuta, Feb 12th, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

I won't give up yet! If it all ends here, we will... I don't want that! We have to work harder and harder.

Itsuki, Feb 12th, '23 (Paradox Tribe, reply to Rokuta)

Even with all this support, the wall we're facing is still so high? Yet, I haven't completely lost hope. It's worth it risking everything for this.

Kei, Feb 12th. '23 (Paradox Tribe, reply to Rokuta)

I feel everyone's voices becoming one. Just a bit more... Just a little more.

Rokuta, Feb 13th, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

It's just a bit more! Thanks to everyone's support, I feel so warm. I will do my best until the end, too!

Itsuki, Feb 14th, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

We cannot give up. We want to give shape to the support we've received from many Heads who sympathize with 1Nm8's ideals.

Rokuta, Feb 15th, '23

15:09

Everyone, thank you for supporting us! There's still a little time left, so make sure you haven't forgotten to vote～～!

Kei, Feb 15th, '23 (Paradox Tribe)

Thank you for your support. This should become a big step towards furthering our ideals. I would like to to win this battle and open a new page of our story.

Itsuki, Feb 15th, '23

I'm grateful for your support. It's an undeniable fact that many Heads have endorsed us. Now, we can only wait for the results.

#paradox live #paralive #pararai #1nm8 #kei miyama #miyama kei #rokuta #itsuki #paradox tribe #1nm8's tweets

[vamp-tsp]

hello, uh ik i hardly ever post but schools been hectic and kicking my ass so yeah... i've been feeling this... sense of creativity and i wanna try out something different, so im just gonna try writing out a story in a way which whatever comes to mind. part two will be posted maybe now or later, i dont rlly want critique rn so if u have any, i'd love to hear it in another day, thanks! -radio

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the wall and the flower.

Chapter 1 - Unfortunate Encounter

Summer. People my age love this season, the season of sunscreen and beach towels, skate parks and holiday break... but me, Sidney (Sid) Wright hate it. And it just so happens on the summer I bump into Spencer Fisher.

I spend most of my summers at home. As one does, though usually reading. Reading whatever I brought with me to my parents beach house during the summer, usually something by Alice Oseman. Alice is my favorite author, she portrays teenagers in a way that is so accurate yet still so whimsically.

I decided to go out for some iced coffee at my usual cafe and I can read some more there. So, I go over to my wardrobe and throw on my usual outfit. A simple white t-shirt, a light blue short sleeved button up, and beige cargo shorts. I slip on my vans checkered slip-ons, grab my phone, headphones, and wallet from my bed side table then make my way downstairs and out the house.

Luckily the cafe is only a short walk away from my house so I sigh in relief and I can save some time bearing the hot breeze of summer as I walk. Then, a familiar voice calls.

"Oy!! Sidney!!"

God, I hate when people call me that. My parents are hippie activists who believe in names having no assigned gender, I don't really care that they are but why did they have to name their kid Sidney? It doesn't suit me one bit. So I tell people to call me Sid.

"Erm... hello??"

I responded, feathery and softly. In which he responded, inching closer to me by the minute in a familiar animated and crisp tone.

"Sidney!! mate, I haven't seen you all summer! where have you been?!"

And there he was. The guy I dreaded to see all summer, Spencer Fisher. With his fluffy black tuffs, teal or was it blue? heavily braced teeth, and droopy but yet still obviously cheerful hazel eyes. Spencer is not at all a bad person, he's actually quite well-liked at school and studious. But, he's just too overly energetic and peppy. He's nothing like me, people describe me as this quiet and mediocre guy that you might see in the hallways of school probably listening to some underground band from the 70's or whatever. But Spencer Fisher IS the Heather of Conan Gray's song Heather. He is everything I'm not. So I don't really get why he always tries to talk to me at school... and at this moment. I sigh heavily,

"Uh... at home..? where else would you expect me to be?"

"Ah I see! I don't know, at the library??" he chuckles to himself, "so where you headed, Siddy?"

Siddy. Siddy? God, can this guy get anymore annoying? I don't understand why he hangs out with me but I just have to endure it, I don't wanna seem rude.

"Oh... um... Coffee Roasterie."

His face light up, smiling widely and he cheers,

"No way... really!? I am too!! can I come along?"

Great. Just fantastic. You have got to be joking me, I just wanted to get my latte and finish this chapter of Radio Silence by Alice Oseman and I can enjoy the rest of my afternoon.

"Okay, not like I have a choice do I?"

He snickers, "Nope! so, what you up to these days mate?"

He's one of those lads at school where he calls everyone mate, plays some type of sport, and all the girls and guys are obsessed with him.

"I... uh..."

I don't know what to answer. What if he calls me some sort of loser for just being at home all summer? I mean he never has but you'll never know from someone like Spencer. He waits patiently as I finally answer,

"You know... just some reading... a bit of blogging... and stuff... and... yeah."

There was a pause. It lasted a bit too long for my liking but the silence was quickly filled when he adds,

"Ah! I see, gosh I'm jealous! you have it so laid-back. Though, we all have our own private hobbies don't we? Personally for me, I've been having training. Swimming! I mean..."

Swimming? I have never heard of him being interested in swimming but before I could ask, we arrived at the cafe. We walked in and went over to the line as he continues,

"Yeah I swim back stroke, I usually have land training when I'm not in the water on the weekends, week days after school is usually swim practice. I'll admit, it gives the worse body aches and chlorine scented hair but pretty fun to be honest."

He talks a lot. Spencer Fisher is known for his chatterbox, he's also known for his lisp. He tends to bite his tongue when he pronounces the letter s because of his braces. I've heard him talk about how he hated his braces and to be honest, I wasn't sure whether to agree with him or not but nonetheless he's always smiling.

"Oh I see, that's pretty cool actually, wouldn't expect that from you."

"You're a man of few words huh, sid? gives me the urge to tell you a secret but I'm not sure whether I should or not."

Is he saying I don't have any friends to tell them too or is he implying I'm too quiet or timid to tell anyone? because either way, I don't like it.

"Well... it's on you, I don't... really have anyone to tell it to."

"Seriously?! well here goes!"

He leans in close to my ear, his hot breath hitting the tip of my ear and he puts his hand over to my ear to direct his voice to my ear as he says,

"Actually, I'm really into-"

But before he could get a word in that actually made context, the cashier clears her throat implying for us to order. Interrupting us, thank god. But part of me wonders... what is he into? He flinches and darts his eyes towards her direction as he puts his hand down and says,

"Oh! sorry, I'll have an iced caramel macchiato! and you, sid?"

"Just an Iced chai latte please."

The cashier nods, saying

"Okay, that will be 9.99 please."

Spencer nods and he grabs his wallet from his pockets as I do too, but before I could pay for mine he already handed it to the cashier as he says clearly,

"Sid. We'll get going now, thanks."

Which catches me by surprise since he used my name for both of our drinks. But, before I could get a word in He shoots a look at me saying,

"Come on, let's not hold up the line! let's go find a table!"

And just like that, I found myself hanging out with Spencer Fisher at my usual cafe on a saturday summer afternoon. I thought to myself, what could possibly go wrong?

- TBC -

[goldenwitherphoenix13]

I posted 86 times in 2022

27 posts created (31%)

59 posts reblogged (69%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@circesays

@embraceyourdestiny

@cydanite

@galaxygermdraws

@our-happygirl500-fan

I tagged 85 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#reblog - 54 posts

#jimmy solidarity - 18 posts

#empires smp - 18 posts

#empires jimmy - 17 posts

#goodtimeswithscar - 13 posts

#hermitcraft - 9 posts

#cursed toy au - 9 posts

#kingdom hearts - 8 posts

#empires smp season 2 - 7 posts

#grian - 7 posts

Longest Tag: 110 characters

#im just imagining the townsfolk are able to feel jimmys sorrow even though they cant see or hear him right now

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Cursed Toy AU Pov: You are Pixlriffs about to be saved.

THE BARD IS THE PROTAGONIST PEOPLE! EVERYONE DUCK AND COVER! lol

Finally. A cursed toy au drawing that isn't me dumping the angst on Jimmy. Then again the AU seems intent on doing that. Whatever Joel is gonna do, I'm scared but I have a mallet on hand just incase.

So yeah. Oli saves Pix through the power of music... as cliché as it is I love the power of music so SING JOEL INTO OBLIVION OLI! MAKE ME PROUD! Guess I now have a justified reason to have the song of healing from legend of Zelda majora's mask on my cursed toy inspired playlist. But this was fun to draw, using lighter tones to overlay instead of harsh bright colours or dark edges is always a treat. Note to self, lutes aren't that hard to draw, just annoying to get proportions right on.

Honestly I'm excited on where thus AU goes next. I'm guessing Oli is about to find Jimmy in the next part. That's gonna be fun. If Joel turns up, I have a mallet.

... bonus, thing I made on youcut after the previous part came out. I think it's still accurate, but @circesays can be the judge of that.

60 notes - Posted November 9, 2022

#4

I just realised something...

That's a Rat from little nightmares 1

See the full post

65 notes - Posted March 29, 2022

#3

Saw @aquaquadrant posted the new bit of the hels to pay AU and @lunarcrown did some little doodles of Bravo and Timmy.

I couldn't resist it, I had to draw Timmy. I have found a new son and no one can do anything about it. Take this quickly cobbled together drawing and go.

It's a bit rushed, sure, but I just needed to do this. He's too sweet and huggable and I don't care, he's a pathetic lil guy (affectionate) and I will fight for him and die for him.

Um... hope you like it.

77 notes - Posted November 27, 2022

#2

... New au found. Swamp duo au is now on the radar.

@cydanite I said I'd draw it, you said godspeed, I think my hand just speed ran a drawing.

BEST FRIENDS COVERED IN MUD! Now Shelby has help for when the witch police come for her. Hope you like it Cydanite!

Ps:

Do not tag as a ship it is not a ship that is not a poppy its just a generic flower to give the hat some variety. There are other kinds of flowers on the hat.

106 notes - Posted September 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Guys. Guys. Listen! Yesterday I learnt a fact and I don't know why I didn't know before!

A group of rats is called a mischief! Rats smp, in its self, is a mischief!

That is, with no competition, the best thing I've learnt in the past 10 years!

107 notes - Posted October 18, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

[jiminxoxo]

hopefully the boys get well soon and the tour resumes :(

well, I DID WANT YOU TO GO ON A RAMBLE ABOUT IT 😌😌

sheeshhh a rlly old k-pop stan 😮

TIME OUT BWHAHA 💀😭

idk about the kim garam situation or just le sserafirm in general, what do you think about that & them?!!! i wanna know from someone(you) who likes them but also is like sorta unbiased abt things?! if i make sense?! 😅

i strongly believe you'd be that type of a person 😌💕

i was just gonna ask WHAT ARE YOU? 50? hahahahaha

we've all been through the emo/obsessed over an artist/band phase lifee!! lessssgoooooo 😭😭💀 ( P. S we haven't rlly gotten over that phase yet 🤡😇)

BOY THE FLEX 🦾😌😌 that's rlly cuteeee 🥺💕 I'm v proud of them too,they all deserve it <3 & I'm glad you find sm comfort in them (jimin XD) 🥺 AND PLS PLS SHOW ME YOUR CATTTT ☹️☹️💕💕💕

I'm sure you'd have a good idea of a lot of groups in kpop :0

i haven't rlly been into kpop for a long time I've followed BP since 2020 but i properly got into kpop from oct 2021 smth !! do you wanna hear the backstory lmao?!

i don't rlly have any semi-ults?! except bts, pentagon, tbz(i haven't had much time to consume sm tbz& pentagon content 😭 and making them two of my ults XD which might happen soon tho 👀) & bp(they've been away for so long :( i feel like I've sorta lost smth w them bruh)

so, my ult beloveds are got7, svt, exo, monsta x, atz, skz, shinee, mamamoo, DKZ (formerly dongkiz & their former leader when he comes back :[ obv ), wonho & a bunch of solo artists!! & in no order lmaoo

EGGFCUKNSACTLY ‼️😣 bruh like I'm not in any pov of glimpse of us yet it makes all 😣💔 when i listen to it each & every.damn.time !!! usss 🫂 single all life gang 😎🤧

omg we are so similar pls 😭✋🏻 i honestly enjoy being single a lil way too muchhh ( also ahem ahem, how feel single when we have blogs like yours 😌💘 )

bruh there was a glitch in the anon ask so i could add songs and i did, but i tapped on the ask anonymous by mistake so now when i go back to being anonymous it's all gone urghhh ://

i don't listen much to joji either but i will suggest you a few of my favs ofc <3

DANCING IN THE DARK

SANCTUARY

DAYLIGHT

TEST DRIVE

lmk how you like these ‼️

AN INTRO POST YAYAY LESSGOO

well not everyone can address you 자기야 so 😌😌✋🏻

(🍯)

this is my girl mochi! she’s the sweetest girl ever :)

that’s awesome!! we love being a multistan in this household 😌🫶 and omg we LOVE an exo stan wtf!!! there aren’t many exols these days and it’s really sad but i’m glad the fandom got a cleanse 💀 it was starting to get really toxic.

i mainly just casually listen to le sserafims music (sour grapes is that bitch), the situation with g*ram seems pretty plain and simple to me. always believe the victim until proven otherwise. in her case, there’s proof of what she’s done and her receiving a level 5 punishment from her school says enough for me. i don’t like to consume myself with this sort of stuff and outwardly send hate (i don’t hate her because i don’t personally know her. think of it as a deep despise lmao) because there’s other things i could be doing, but i feel a lot of sympathy towards the other lovely girls because they’ve been through enough (it’s super hard to make it in the industry as is and that kind of negative spotlight on them at such an early stage is sooo harmful for their career) yunjin is my gal tho i love her to bits 🫶

ohhh i’ll definitely take a look at those songs and give you a little review next time! thanks for the suggestions <3 !!!

#🍯 anon!

[lale-txt]

Um, hi Lale👋 just recently found your blog and have been loving your writing! I'm sorry if you've cleared this up before(probably just me misunderstanding), in your guidelines it says requests are always welcome, just check to see if they're open or closed, which confuses me a bit😅. I'm not sure if that means it's ok to send request/ideas and they're backlogged/up to your discretion if requests are closed, or not? If it's the latter I'm very sorry and please ignore the following!

I was daydreaming(as one does) and a rivals to lovers idea popped into my head with Sabo and the dialogue "Wow, 'bit full of yourself aren't you" and "You could be full of me too"

And earlier I was listening to Gold by Sister Sparrow and all I could think of was Thatch lol

So, hello - have some of my brain rot? If you'd like? Mid-twenties and still suck at introductions 😅

Anyways, thank you for your time and wonderful writing so far🖤 hope you're having a good day/night! (Also, sorry this is so long, I was trying to keep it short😶)

-🥃♠️🎙

hi sweet anon, thank you so much for your sweet words! 🖤

my requests are still closed. you can see the request status in my pinned post and my description! i get that the part in my guidelines was a bit misleading, sorry for that. i phrased it a bit different now to make it more clear for everyone.

at the moment i’m only writing things for people close to me and for myself. i’ve felt a bit burnt out after my event (should have limited the slots but that’s a learning) and also had to deal with some demanding and rude anons. (｡T ω T｡) the last thing i want is to loose my joy in writing again which is why i decided to clear out my inbox and temporarily close my requests. i hope you still enjoy what i put out here! in general i love working on requests which is why i will open them soon again. i just have to be a bit more selective probably since i’m a slow writer after all and can’t please everyone (that’s also something no one should strive for, people pleasing sucks but that’s a whole different topic)

for your ideas: i have some spicy stuff with Sabo in my drafts already, so watch out for that, hehe. that’s some very good dialogue too, might use it in the future. also love me some Thatch, i have something for him planned to, so don’t worry. not a song fic but i promise it’s gonna be good.

again, thank you for taking your time to reach out, your message was very sweet and i’m always up for some shared brain rot, hehe!

#lale.ask #anon ask #sorry for rambling #it felt important for me to say though

[pineapple-bitch-band]

So uh, quick question here: How did this whole thing start and can we get a summary of how we got to this point, please?

Okok (also I'm assuming you sent the last ask too, which I swear I'll answer but we decided to draw something of everyone for it so it's gonna take a bit)

So! Contrary to popular belief, this story takes place not in Alternia, but in Returnia, which is basically Alternia but slightly different. The current Heiress, Azizda Sezyat, whose last name definetly does not belong to a Hiveswap troll and we accidentally stole it, is different from the pregious Heiressess. That's because she couldn't care less about the hemospectrum, aka the planet's social system.

Azizda has a passion for the heavy metal she makes. Only the ones she makes though. Specficially, they're about pineapples, and she wants feedback on it. How to get feedback when ypu have no friends? Easy! Invade the lowblood carts on a train and make innocent bystanders listen to it.

Enter Bollek Goletti. Unfortunatly for the entire universe (but not really 'cause the music gets good), he likes her song. and then they become best friends.

They start a band of two after a bit, and later on Fenust, Garrls and Aureli join. We haven't fleshed that out quite yet. Every other troll on the blog has been a guest member in the band at some point.

Sadly, because we don't have askers except for you and occasionally the guy I force to ask, we don't really have a storyline. So we just post random funny stuff + drawings of them in situations that are unespecified, except for ys because we know all. We could have one, tho, but my obsessed ass would probably make drawings for every single ask. We'd make it tie in with the "official" lore an etc

Well, I don't know if this is what you meant by a resume, and it's getting pretty big so I'm gonna leave it like this.

Relynn please add on if you wanna

#mod acidic #I hope I didn't mess this up xnnwnd #if there's anything specific you want clarification in; please ask!

[fydream]

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✰ how to be a heartbreaker

↳ so what happens when park jisung, the school’s infamous fuckboy runs into the new girl at school? out of boredom he decides it’ll be fun to have someone new to play with, but little does he know, she’s learning how to be a heartbreaker.

a/n: hi! an authors note before this chapter begins! 1. yes i know the formatting is different but that’s only because this chapter is 5.9k words long!! (yes you heard me!! 5.9k!! that’s the most ive written for anything published on this blog!!) so there will be a cut bc i know it’s annoying to scroll past long posts haha. 2. i know i didn’t mention it in this chapter but i just wanted to say that if you did want to listen to music while reading this, during y/n and jisung’s scene you should definitely listen to euphoria by bts and that jeno and donghyuck’s song is i.l.y. by the rose. i hope u guys enjoy!

An hour or so later you're running out your front door to meet Jisung, who already regrets saying he'll wait.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry-" You apologize. "I didn't mean to take that long you must've been bored out of your mind!"

"It's okay." Jisung reassures. "We won't be there that long, we might be a little late to hoco if that's okay with you."

"That's fine!! Just let me text Donghyuck that I'm with you then."

"Okay."

The ride to where Jisung is taking you is quiet, nothing but his various hums to the music he plays as as he drives. It's nice, it reminds you of the first time he gave you a ride home. Quiet, but comfortable.

Instead of looking at your phone you look out the window, then take a second to look at Jisung before looking back out the window again.

You so weren't slick about it either because he notices how you quick you look away and how eager you are to sneak another glance.

"What?" He asks. "Why'd you look at me like that?"

"It's nothing.." You mumble, trying best to hide the smile that's slowly creeping up on your face.

"C'mon." He insists. "Tell me!!" He tries to make it sound like he doesn't care about the topic that much, but his vocal chords work against him as it comes out as a whine.

"Nothing.. It's just.. You look like that, and I look like this.."

"What, you mean beautiful like always?"

Jisung makes note of how quickly your cheeks turn pink at the comment he made.

"You can't just say that!" You argue.

"Yes I can, you're my date tonight after all. What kind of person would I be to not compliment their date?"

You open your mouth, about to speak before he cuts you off from your thought. "And don't worry y/n. I'll take that look as a compliment itself." He snickers.

"Hey!" You shout, earning another laugh from him.

"Hey Jisung?" You ask once the giggles die down.

"Hm?"

"Don't tell anyone I've said this but um.." You start, trailing off at the last part. "Donghyuck has uh, told me things.. about you." You notice how he looks at you, how the expression on his face quickly changes from happy and carefree, to concerned and worried. "I know you probably know what I'm talking about.. I uh- I can kinda.. tell.."

"Yeah." He whispers, trying to block out what you just told him.

"But y'know. I think he's got you all wrong."

"You do?" He asks, a bit too eagerly.

"I do." You say. "From the past how many weeks? Of knowing you, we've gotten close. And I don't think you're anything like that, at least, not anymore.. I've seen the difference between how you act in class and when you're with Jeno and Jaemin, than how you are when we're together and I'd like to hope it isn't just an act. I'm not stupid, y'know."

"I never said you were, I never thought you were either."

"I know. You're not too hard to read, y'know."

For once, Jisung is left speechless. This is the first time anyone has really brought this up on him and he has no idea how to respond. Questions begin to flood his thoughts as he begins to wonder what do you know. Do you know the real reason why he asked you out? How long have you known? What if you never want to talk to him again?

"I-" He tries to speak, but nothing comes out.

"It's okay. I don't know everything about you." You scoff, watching as the boy next to you lets out an exhale. "I don't know that much, but I know enough."

"Enough?" He asks.

"Enough to know that if you are going to break my heart, you should do it right now. Because this is the part where I'm about to tell you how much I like you, and I don't want you getting that satisfaction."

Once you're done talking, you give him a smile. It's a small, innocent, bittersweet smile. It's one of the smiles you would give out to other girls who were ever mean to you, it's subtle, but it gets the point across.

"So what'll be? Park Jisung." You ask, awaiting a response.

Jisung has many things to think about right now, the most important one being driving. He still has yet to process everything you just told him, let alone figure out what to say.

"I.. don't know what to tell you, y/n." He sighs. "I don't want to hurt you.. Can you give me a few minutes?"

"You can have all the time in the world, sweetheart."

When Jisung finally decides to talk to you once you've reached your destination. If you're going to be honest, it was the most awkward car ride you've been in.

"Okay." He starts, closing his car door. "I know that was way more than a few minutes but I just wanted to tell you this here."

The spot that he had taken you to was a little hill area, on the other side of town. From the top of it you could see the sun set as it's golden rays covered the place you called home. You weren't going to lie, it was beautiful indeed but you didn't care for it at the moment. What you wanted to know was what he was going to say.

"I was.. gonna tell you this here no matter what happened so uh.. Here goes nothing?" There's hesitation, and you can already tell that whatever he was going to tell you was something big. "I'm not here to break your heart, y/n. I know, that's what you thought and probably what everyone else thought too but.. you're different. I know this."

Your brain wants you to call bullshit on that statement but your heart prevents you from doing so. The logical part of you believes that it's probably all a lie, an act just to get you to fall for him. You know this. You know the stories, you've seen the receipts of what he's done to people before you, and you can only assume the things he'll do just to make you fall for him. But if you knew this, then why does it still work?

"Am I really different?" You ask, looking up at him with shaky eyes.

He chuckles.

"Well, yeah. For starters, you're the first girl to ever call me out on my bullshit like that so.." He jokes. "I know.. you're scared. But you shouldn't be." He whispers. "You really are different. I promise."

"Listen, Jisung." You start. "I really want to believe you. It's just hard, because you haven't really given me a reason on why I should."

"That's okay. I understand." He says softly. "I didn't expect you to."

For a second, your heart breaks. It would've continued if he didn't continue talking right then and there.

"But what if I told you all the reasons why you should?" He asks, giving you a shy smile.

"What are they?"

"Well first of all. You're smart. You're smarter than I'll ever be. You've figured me out in what? The span of three months? You don't give yourself enough credit than you deserve. Second of all, you're really passionate about a lot of things. Like that time we argued in the library over the best Stranger Things season? Even though you were wrong, you kept arguing against me."

"Hey!" You exclaim, while Jisung gives you a smile in response.

"Third of all, you're really cute. Don't think I don't notice how your nose scrunches whenever I make a comment you don't like, or how easily you get excited over the simplest things. Remember when we walked to the cafe across the street from school? You got excited because the place had good boba, out of all things. Do you know how ridiculous you sounded?"

"Well- yeah! That's because it was a cafe! And not a boba shop!" You defend.

"I'm kidding." He chuckles. "Also, did you know that whenever you get embarrassed over something not only your cheeks turn pink, but your nose does too."

"You can stop now.. y'know.." You mumble.

"These are just a few things that I like about you, y/n. Do I need to tell you all of them for you to believe me?" He asks, looking at you innocently, as if he didn't just give you the biggest ego boost of all time.

"I believe you." You giggle as he pulls you in for a tight hug.

"Thanks, love." He whispers, placing a light kiss on the top of your head. "Now it's your turn. What were you going to tell me in the car?"

The next hour or so is spent with you two talking about each other, both of you giving out compliments as if there were no tomorrow. If it weren't for the sun being completely gone then you two probably wouldn't have noticed how long you've been alone together.

"Oh my god." Jisung exclaims. "What time is it?"

"Uhm.. Seven fifteen?" You respond, quite confused on why he was suddenly freaking out.

"We have to go, now. They're going to close the doors in like ten minutes."

"Oh. Okay!" You smile, eagerly skipping back to Jisung's car with his hand intertwined with yours. "We better get going then, huh?"

"Y/n said that she might be late because she's with Jisung already." Donghyuck tells Renjun and Chenle once pull up in front of his house.

Renjun had driven both of them together due to them only being a block away from each other. Donghyuck on the other hand was going to drive you, but when you texted him that you were already with Jisung he decided to ask Renjun for a ride. "Sorry for the inconvenience.. by the way." He mumbles, buckling his seat belt.

"It's alright. Where do you think they went?" Renjun asks.

"Hell if I know. This is the most I've seen Jisung do for anyone." Donghyuck retorts, clearly bitter about being ditched by his best friend.

"Should we be worried?" Chenle asks.

"I don't think so." Donghyuck responds. "Y/n is her own person and she can handle herself, plus what the fuck is Jisung even gonna do? They probably went to take pictures or something."

Chenle shrugs. "I guess so. How are you doing then?"

"What do you mean?"

Chenle shrugs again. "You know what I mean. During the time you two fought you barely said anything to each other, it was just her hanging out with Jisung. Then, even after you made up she ditched us to hang out with him and even now they're probably on a date before the dance or something. How are you dealing with it?"

Once Chenle is done talking, Renjun shoots him a glare before hitting him lightly on the back of his head.

"Ouchie.. That hurt!" Chenle whines. "Aren't you supposed to be driving Junnie.~~" He teases.

"Yeah but I'm also trying to make sure no one fucking cries tonight." He hisses. "Why would you even ask that?"

"I dunno. Was curious I guess?"

"Haven't you heard the phrase curiosity killed the cat?"

"It's been alright." Donghyuck says to prevent Renjun from harming Chenle any more. "I haven't really thought about it I guess? I mean.. I was the one who assigned her to Jisung after all so.."

"Do you think she y'know? Likes him?" He asks.

"Chenle!"

"Whaaaat?? I'm just asking."

"Zhong Chenle you will drop this topic before I stop this car and make you walk to homecoming alone."

"You wouldn't do that. You love me too much."

"Don't try me." Renjun threatens, turning on his blinker.

"Okay okay.. god.."

"Are you two done arguing now?" Donghyuck asks, rolling his eyes. "And no, Chenle. I don't think she does. If she did she would've told me by now."

"Alright Hyuck.. Whatever you say."

Sooner than later the three arrive at school where Renjun drops off Chenle and Donghyuck to hop in the line already forming before leaving to park his car.

"Ask any more questions Lele, and you're walking home." Renjun threatens before Chenle slams the car door on him.

"I mean it this time!" Renjun yells as he watches the two boys walk away from him.

"So." Chenle starts as Renjun drives off. "What's your answer?"

Donghyuck gives him a confused look. "Answer?"

"To y'know.. the question."

"I already told you."

"No silly, I meant your real answer."

Donghyuck is silent for a second before he decides to answer.

"How did you know?" He asks, and Chenle giggles.

"You just told me." He laughs. "I didn't think you'd walk into that one, Hyuck."

"Oh shut up." Donghyuck teases. "It's not like it would matter or anything."

"I supposed you're right." Chenle hums. "But if it did.. Then what?"

"Then I'd tell her to get out of there." Donghyuck whispers to himself.

"Hm?"

"Oh- uh, nothing. I dunno." Donghyuck responds. He knows he has no chance in fooling Chenle but even after that response you'd know not to bother him about the topic anymore.

Once Renjun is done parking he meets up with the two boys and they discuss about how their night will go. While the line slowly moves Renjun argues with Chenle that they should take photos first. Chenle argues back saying that he wants snacks and that all the good ones will be gone if they wait too long. While this goes on Donghyuck has been sending you frequent texts.

[hyuck: hey! we're in line now! see you in a bit?]

[hyuck: are you on your way soon?]

[hyuck: pls hurry.. renle fighting.. dk what to do..]

Needless to say, you haven't responded to any one of them, leaving Donghyuck wonder what you were even doing.

After successfully waiting in line and making it through their schools quick security check, Chenle, Renjun, and Donghyuck had finally made it inside the gymnasium where the dance was being held.

Once inside they move to an quieter place, where they could talk without having to yell over the already loud music that's being played.

"What about you Hyuck?" Renjun asks. "What do you want to do first?"

"Hmm? What? Sorry." Donghyuck responds, checking his phone once more before pocketing it. "What's happening?"

Renjun frowns. "You weren't listening, huh?"

"No, sorry." He apologizes. "Y/n hasn't texted me back yet and I don't want to do anything until she gets here y'know?"

"Don't worry Hyuck, it's possible they're still outside or something. They just opened the doors y'know."

"Yeah I know.. I'm just.. yeah."

Ten minutes later, you still haven't responded and the music is loud, but it's not loud enough to drown out Donghyuck's heartbeat as he frantically awaits your arrival. As each second passes by he begins to regret letting you go with Jisung, because you're never late, but the second that he lets Jisung control how your night starts you're ten minutes late and they're be closing the doors to the dance soon.

Renjun begins to notice that you aren't here either and decides walk over to Donghyuck to ask if he knew where you were.

"Hyuck, is Y/n here yet?" He asks, tapping his shoulder lightly.

Donghyuck gives no verbal response, instead he shakes his head while he fiddles with his phone checking back if you happened to text him. "I don't know where she is Junnie.."

"Hey, it's okay." He reassures. "It's not like she's in danger or anything, I know you don't trust Jisung that much but I doubt he'd do anything to hurt her. She'll be here soon, okay? I promise."

"Junnie~~" Chenle whines, popping up from behind them. "I'm boredddd. Can't we just do something already?"

"Lele, not now." Renjun shoos. "We're talking here."

"It's okay." Donghyuck says. "You guys can go do something, it's fine. I don't want to keep you from having fun tonight."

"Are you sure?" Renjun asks, he knows not to believe Donghyuck but he's getting quite annoyed at the fact that Chenle keeps pulling at his arm.

"Yeah. It's fine, if anything happens I'll text one of you."

"You heard him!! Let's go!!" Chenle exclaims before grabbing Renjun by the arm to drag him to god knows where.

"Chenle!" Renjun yelps. "I-I'll text you Hyuck! We won't be gone for long. I swear!" He yells back at him.

And then the two were gone. Leaving Donghyuck alone, by himself.

One of the worst feelings in the world is feeling alone, in a place full of people.

He doesn't know why he let them go off without him, maybe it's because he wanted to be alone, or maybe it's because he didn't know any better. But standing alone on the sides of a school dance, with no one to talk to really shows how lonely you are. He knows none of you meant to do it to him on purpose, it's just him overthinking things after all. But if he was okay with them leaving, then why did it hurt?

Deciding it was awkward enough to just stand there and people watch, Donghyuck decides to go back on his phone. He checks your text messages only to see no response. "Great." He thinks to himself. "You said you would be here, but you're not. I guess you did spend a lot of time with them after all."

Donghyuck feels himself about to cry when someone taps his shoulder. He closes his eyes trying to fight back the few tears that threaten to spill before having to talk to whoever was with him. He didn't want to answer any questions on why he was crying, only knowing that if someone asked him if he was okay he wouldn't be able to control them.

When Donghyuck looks up from his phone, the last person he expected to see is standing in front of him.

"Hi." Jeno greets. It's short, and airy. But it's just enough to get his heart racing. Is it from fear? Worry? Or is it from the fact that his ex, just so happened to catch him at the wrong place and wrong time.

"Hi." Donghyuck responds. It doesn't mean much because he didn't put any emotion into it, instead he decides to focus his attention elsewhere. He looks past Jeno towards the entrance of the gymnasium in hopes of seeing you walk in, spoiler alert, you didn't. "Chenle and Renjun picked the worst time to leave.." He thinks to himself. "I can't blame them though, after all I did tell them it was okay."

"You um- You look beautiful." Jeno compliments, giving Donghyuck a half-hearted smile. "So I've been told.." Donghyuck murmurs before attempting to push past the boy standing in front of him. "Listen. I don't have any time for this right now. Y/n said she would be here and she's not so-"

"Hyuck- Donghyuck, wait." Jeno starts, grabbing Donghyuck's wrist to prevent him from going any further.

"What the fuck? Let go of me!" He yells. It's loud enough to get the attention of a few people around him, but the music the DJ is playing is way to loud for them to have heard what he said.

"Hyuckie, I- Will you please let me explain?" Jeno practically begs, this is the first time that he and Donghyuck have interacted in person since the break up and he can already tell that he's blowing it.

"Don't- Don't call me that." Donghyuck states, hesitant to answer. "You've already explained yourself enough."

"Hyuckie.. Please. We haven't talked in months, you haven't let me say anything."

Of course, Jeno had to find Donghyuck in one of these moments, where one of their songs was being played by the DJ. It was one of the songs that Jeno had showed him, meaning it left such a big impact on his heart. He doesn't know what to do, does he accept Jeno's offer and let him explain? Or does he continue the rest of his high school career pretending that Jeno doesn't exist, leaving many questions unanswered.

Panic starts to fill Donghyuck as he looks around to see if anyone had noticed him and Jeno together. It would cause a bunch of talk, considering that fact that they were both pretty popular and that teenagers loved to start rumors.

He notices Jaemin as he spots Jeno from across the room, by the way Jaemin is walking towards them he can tell that he was looking for Jeno himself, clearly unhappy and very confused where he found him. He glances back at the entrance for a split second before looking towards the direction that his two friends had gone off in, only to see them walking back towards him, just as confused as Jaemin is. He can see the concern rise in Renjun once he sees who Donghyuck is with, as he grabs Chenle's arm to drag him across the makeshift dance floor that their school has created, where Chenle had decided to stop to talk to a few friends.

He looks back towards the entrance and to his luck he sees you and Jisung walk in. Thankful, he lets out a sigh of relief because he sees that you're here and that you're safe. He notices the smile that you have on your face and though he was a bit far away he can tell it's a genuine smile, like one of the one's you would show him when it was just you two hanging out. "I guess I worried for nothing." He thinks to himself, as he watches you two skip in, hands intertwined.

And amongst all this commotion happening at once, his ex, out of all people had to come up to him and ask him a question he knew he wouldn't be able to answer. So what does he do? He panics, of course.

"Oh my fucking god.." Donghyuck mumbles to no one in particular. Jeno seems to hear it but he doesn't process it because he's too busy being dragged by Donghyuck who was attempting to blend in with the big group of people who happened to pass by.

When Renjun, Chenle, and Jaemin end up where Donghyuck and Jeno were previously standing they're left more confused on where the two went. Though it's loud, Donghyuck manages to pick out Renjun's voice yell "What the fuck?" over a crowd of teenagers.

Donghyuck smiles to himself, knowing that he successfully got away. He didn't think it'd work, he'd only seen it in movies before and you know what people say, it's just movie magic after all.

"Where are we going?" Jeno asks innocently.

"Outside." Donghyuck responds, leading their way towards the "exit" sign on the other side of the gymnasium.

"Why?" Jeno asks once more, and Donghyuck turns around just to shoot him a glare.

"So no one. fucking. sees us." He grits through his teeth.

Needless to say, Jeno doesn't ask any more questions after that.

"Where is everyone?" You ask Jisung through the fit of giggles you let out.

"I dunno. Jeno isn't answering his phone so I'll call Jaemin, yeah?" He responds, just as giddy as you are.

"Oh, I was talking about Renjun, Chenle, and Hyuck."

"You can hang with us for a bit!" Jisung insists.

"I know but I haven't seen them all day." You pout. "I'll hang out with you after!! Besides, they're my best friends after all. How would you feel if I took you away from Jeno and Jaemin?"

"My dear you're allowed to do that any day of the week. I like you better than them anyways." He teases.

"Oh shut up. You know what I meant." You snort. "Can we just go find them please?"

"Yeah, hold on- Hi Jaemin!" Jisung says through his phone. "What? Sorry.. I can't really hear you. Is that Renjun? Why is he yelling at you?"

Your ears perk up hearing the name of your friend leave Jisung's mouth. "Renjun?" You ask, looking at him curious. "Are they okay?"

Jisung nods at you while trying to hear what Jaemin has to say, it's hard considering the fact that there's not only loud music coming from his phone speakers but the voice of an angry boy as well, and to add onto that, the same music being played just a couple feet away from you.

Pouting, you look at him. Jisung can tell you're worried about your friends by the way that your pupils shake as he pulls you into another tight hug, hoping to ease a bit of the worry.

From then you can kind of make out the conversation on the phone, it's something about Jeno and Donghyuck being together then suddenly disappearing out of thin air, like a magic trick.

"Where are you?" Jisung asks.

"We're in one of the back corners." Jaemin yells through his phone. "The uhh.. One on the right, your left."

"Okay. We're on our way." Jisung says before hanging up.

"I guess our night of fun had to end somewhere." He tells you before you two head further into the gymnasium to meet up with your friends.

Once you meet up with the three boys you're greeted with a hug from Chenle while you watch as Renjun and Jaemin argue.

"So they were right here?" You ask tapping Renjun's shoulder.

"Yeah. And then all of a sudden they disappeared." He says, quite frantically.

"Y'know worrying isn't going to do anything." Jaemin taunts.

"Yeah! And you making snarky comments doesn't help either!" Renjun shoots back.

"Can you two stop bickering a second?" Chenle snaps, surprising all of you. "We have no idea where the fuck they went and for the past five minutes all you two have done is argue? Why haven't we checked anywhere yet?"

"Because, Lele. They could be anywhere. We're in a room full of teenagers." Renjun states.

"For once, I agree with this one." Jaemin adds on, earning a glare from Renjun and a facepalm from Jisung.

"Okay? And? Have you ever thought about the fact that they could y'know, be outside?" Chenle asks.

"Why would they be outside?" You ask.

"Because it's loud in here, and it looked like they wanted to talk."

"So.." Jeno says, swinging his legs back and forth. He was currently seated on top of one of the picnic tables your school had, while Donghyuck was standing across from him, leaning against the corner of a wall.

"You said you would explain, so explain." Donghyuck states.

Jeno takes a deep breath as he stops swinging his legs, he looks at the ground before looking up towards Donghyuck who was already looking at him, clearly annoyed at the fact that Jeno was stalling.

"It was a dare." He starts, before Donghyuck cuts him off.

"Yes I know. We all know." He spits.

"But theres more." Jeno says once again. "As you know, Jisung dared me to ask you out and me, being the asshole I was back then, I agreed and decided to do so.." He pauses for a second. Trying to think of what to say next.

"Listen are you gonna keep stopping or are you going to tell the story?" Donghyuck comments, it's only been two minutes and he's already fed up with Jeno's bullshit.

"I am. I'm just trying to think about the right words to say."

"Why? So that I can fall back in love with you?"

"No, Hyuckie-"

"I said, don't call me that."

"Why?"

"Because Jeno!" Donghyuck yells, voice cracking as he tries to control the same tears from earlier from falling. "I am still in love with you! Each time I hear you say that stupid nickname my heart does leaps and I can't fucking stop it!"

His voice is loud enough for you to figure out where he is, and while the other students outside look around trying to find out what's going on, both you and Renjun take off running towards the sound of Donghyuck's voice.

Arriving in time to hear Donghyuck finish the last words of his sentence he can't tell if he's hurt or if he's relieved to see you. A sense of relief washes over him once he spots you, Renjun, and Chenle running in his direction. But then he sees Jisung and Jaemin, not that far behind you three, and he feels hurt, betrayed to say the most.

"So this is why you asked me, huh?" He scoffs, looking at Jeno with glossy eyes. "So you and your friends can get a little more enjoyment of my misery."

"Hyuckie- I-" Jeno starts.

"Save it. I don't ever want to hear from you again, Jeno. I can't believe I even believed you would tell me the truth."

Nothing more is said as Donghyuck walks away from all of you, and Jaemin and Jisung run towards Jeno. It's quiet, despite there being the sounds of the muffled music that's only being played from a hallway away, it feels like a horror movie with the unsettling silence between all of you.

Renjun is the first one to talk. His voice not only startles you, but grabs the attention of Jeno, Jisung, and Jaemin who happened to be a few feet in front of you.

"What the fuck happened?" He asks, looking at Jeno in the eye.

"I wanted to tell him that I'm sorry.. and that I missed things the way they were.." Jeno says, voice barely above a whisper.

Both you and Chenle can tell that Renjun is about to start yelling and if someone doesn't stop him now then fists will be thrown. Renjun is about to start talking again when Chenle interupts him.

"Junnie." He says softly, placing a hand on his shoulder. "It's not worth it. Let's just go find Hyuck, okay?" He eases.

Renjun takes a second to sigh and relaxes before deciding to head off with Chenle, he know's it'll only make things worse but he really wants to tell the three boys off and possibly throw a punch or two. "It's okay.." Chenle coos at him.

"Y/n, are you coming?" He asks, looking back at you.

"Uhh.. Yeah. Just give me a second. I'll meet up with you in a bit, okay? Just text me where you are." You say quickly before glancing over at Jeno and his crew.

Chenle looks at you, confused on why you were looking at Jeno. It only takes him a second to realize what you were doing before he walks off with a hesitant nod. "Um.. Okay.. Just uh, don't be long. I know Hyuck wanted to see you."

"Thanks Lele. You're the best." You say, before talking off towards Jeno.

"Lee Jeno." You state, standing where Donghyuck previously was. You earn a few glances from Jisung and Jaemin, ask if they were asking each other why you were here and how long you've been there. It's not because they were doing anything bad or wrong, it's because of the fact that they were caught being nice and genuine to one of their friends, something that barely anyone has seen before.

"Y/n." Jeno sniffs, trying his best to wipe away the tears that had managed to leak out. "What are- What are you doing here?"

"Save it." You say, walking towards him. You push Jaemin away as you take a seat on top of the table next to him. It earns you a glare from Jaemin, but you shrug it off and ignore him once he start's complaining that you stole his spot.

"Just- Just tell me everything." You sigh, awaiting a response from the boy next to you.

Jaemin shoots you another look before Jisung walks away with him, knowing this should be a private conversation. They don't go far though, just out of earshot.

"This is my fault." He starts. "If I just continued letting him hate me, then I wouldn't have hurt him like that.."

"It's not your fault, you just wanted to explain things. Do you want to tell me what you were going to tell him? Or is that too personal?" You ask.

Jeno is hesitant to answer. His first initial thought is no, but as the seconds go by his answer changes to yes.

"Start from the top. What happened?" You ask.

You're gentle, and being patient with him. It's something that he's thankful for. It's also something that reminds him of Donghyuck, because whenever the two of them had disagreements Donghyuck would always wait for Jeno to explain, this was the first time he hadn't.

"Okay well.." Jeno sniffs. "If you didn't already know.. Donghyuck and I used to date. Our relationship started off from a dare but as our months together passed by I began to enjoy his company a little bit more. I don't know what it was, and if you asked me I wouldn't be able to tell you but there was just something about him that I ended up liking. Maybe it's the way that his hair flopped on his face each time he ran up to me, or maybe it's because of how tightly he hugged me and how gentle his kisses were, but it was something." He pauses for a second, reliving through a few memories. "I ended up catching feelings.. and as soon as I figured out that I did, he found out how we got together."

"Oh." You sigh, not looking at him.

"I was going to tell him that I meant everything I told him.. All the 'I love you's' and the 'You look beautiful's' but he just wouldn't let me talk.. And then you guys came and that just- that only made things worse.. and now- god.. now he's gone. He said he never wants to see me again."

"I'm sorry, Jeno. It's my fault." You say softly, taking all the blame. "I'm the one who brought everyone here, if it weren't for me then you probably would be talking to him right now."

"It's okay." He reassures. "It's not your fault.. You just wanted to help your friend. I'm sure it would've gone poorly even if you weren't here."

"I doubt that's true."

"Are you kidding me y/n? He hates me! And he the worst part of it is that he has every right to do so.."

"I didn't know people who hated each other confess to each other about still liking one another." You joke, hoping to earn a laugh from Jeno. "Besides, it's not like you won't see each other again. You still have time to make things better, plus you have me on your side."

"My side?" Jeno asks.

"Well yeah. You still like him don't you?"

Jeno sighs, he's lucky you aren't paying that much attention to him because if you did you would've noticed the way he looked at Jisung and how it hurt him more to let you keep going on like this. Nonetheless he lets it happen and he wonders if he really does deserve your help.

"You're too good, y/n."

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Sorry for bothering you, but I couldn't help but wonder, what do you think of Janus' playlist? After several days of analysing it, I'm so overwhelmed with all the emotions towards the snake boy! The character potential, possible development, ideas for fics are just bashing me on the head and heart! I would love to hear your thoughts on the matter. Lots of love and have a good day! P.S. Expect some requests for songfics for sure!

It's not a bother, thank you for asking! Oh I have many feelings, as I usually do for all the playlists but this one...man. Hope you like long answers XD

First just the overall impression is great. I love the sort of contradicting roaring 1920s nihilistic aesthetic. Makes me think of a tired anti-hero, their cape swirling behind them as they turn away from the chaos, knowing they'll have a mess to clean up later but for right now they would very much enjoy a glass of wine. Its smooth. Its jazzy. It's dark. Its nostalgic in a different way from Patton, where instead of tugging softly at your heartstrings it settles a weight on your shoulders. Not in a bad way, just like someone added an extra five pounds of awareness to what you were already carrying, if that makes sense?

He boils down to an emo with class for me and I love it.

I'm not gonna go song by song but heres a few thoughts.

I absolutely love Black Hole Sun being on it as a vintage cover. Soundgarden is such a good band and this song in particular is one of my favorites, right up there with Tighter and Tighter and Spoonman. It's a dark song that has contrasting themes and means different things to different people, which is perfect for Janus' outlook on life and Thomas. And of course the reference to the snake fits right in.

It Seemed The Better Way is one of my favorites on the list. The style of the song and Leonard Cohen's voice reminds of Mark Lanegan's style and is so soothing.

Talking at the same time just made me think of all the Sides talking through a dilemma but really just arguing and talking over one another, contradicting each other and themselves in the process. It makes me want to bang all their heads together and yell "COMMUNICATION BITCH" which I really hope season 3 addresses the important of good and healthy communication and it takes the last side to do it but I digress. It's a song that points out unfairness and frustrating contradictions and I love that the angsty snake likes this song.

Scarlett Johansens Trust On Me is one I'm posting a fanart of soon, it put such a clear image in my head of Janus smoothly talking to Thomas about listening to him and taking care of himself while below surface level hes desperately trying to hold this vision together of everything being fine while the world crumbles. It's just Tbomas walking along with his sides as they smile as the sunshine while Janus is stumbling behind with an old umbrella, batting away dead branches with his staff while everyone else is oblivious.

Mandy Goes To Med School. Janus canonically listens to the Dredston Dolls and no one else I've ever met listens to them or knows who they are and it fills me with unreasonable happiness that someone on the team got this song on the playlist. Many have interpreted this song as back alley abortions and illegal sex changes, both elective surgeries that have consequences if done improperly. I honestly think the bare bones of this song apply to Janus. Percieved "selfishness over selflessness" and the consequences being up in the air for both. A sort of damned if you do, damned if you dont situation, which definitely paints Janus, at least for me, as a world weary tired ex-optimist who's experiences have shaped his perception of the world in a way that can be hard for others to understand. I think this song fits him to a T.

Evil Night Together makes me think of him, Remus and Virgil just having a ball of a night causing chaos together and laughing all the way through. It fills me with a lot of happiness thinking of the idiocy those three got up to when they were on better terms with each other.

Dont Tell Mama...makes me way too excited fr the last dark side. I get this strong feeling from the song the Janus very much works in the shadows, to the point where hes even a bit secluded from the other 'dark sides' to an extent. Maybe the last one is someone who really tries to run the show and wouldnt be pleased with what Janus is trying to do. Not saying Mystery Orange is evil, none of them are.

I feel like You're A Cad is a comment on him and Virgils relationship. The way that they are now, secretive and closed off, a friendship cant really work between them but they keep coming back no matter how many times they broke eachothers trust. I don't think Janus and Virgil hate each other, I just think they need to communicate better like everyone else does but they kept trying without knowing how and hurting each other in the process.

As Far As I Can See feels like a self deprecating view point that all the "dark sides" have and it makes me want to hug not only him but Remus, Virgil and even Orange until they feel even a little bit better. In this house we love and appreciate our good bad boys.

Change. Okay first: the first line of this song is "theres something in the wind" and in Sally's Song on Virgils playlist the first line is "I sense theres something in the wind." Coincidence maybe and probably but I'm holding out for Remus' for the third. 'Lately, I've been thinkin' it's just someone else's job to care Who am I to sympathize when no one gave a damn?' is such an OOF I just cant. I strongly feel like this is Janus rethinking what his purpose could possibly be if no one is willing to listen. Could apply to Logan too but he has Erase Me already so.....

Come Little Children by Erutan. That's it, Janus also canonically also listens to the Willow Maid and cries the first time he heard no you cant change my mind. He also watches Hocus Pocus every year and loves it. Remus joins him. Virgil did when they were on better terms. You also cant change my mind on this. I think this song is just commenting on how Janus hides the truth for Thomas so he can see the world from a better perspective than what it actually is. Self preservation and lying to ourselves and all that.

Into The Unknown from Over the Garden Wall I think is telling us everything is changing and revealing itself the farther we go with Thomas' dilemmas. They're all stemming from somewhere so where will we end up? Who can say, but in the meantime aren't the lies we're telling ourselves pretty? Janus is observing everything falling apart and hoping he isn't lying when he tells himself everything will work itself out. Only time will tell. It's a sad, longing note to end the playlist on, but it's very fitting.

Overall this playlist cements the fact the the Angst Train really just said "Choo choo mothfucker" and steamrolled on regardless of the fact that were stuck on the tracks. And I love it.

Janus is a sad, angsty boy tired of everyone's bullshit and honestly just wants everyone to get along so he can finally sit back and play his game cube without his gloves on in the common room of the mindscape without being hissed or glared at, and is that really too much to ask? Also, he's crying in the art on spotify, with such a resigned look on his face and I just...my heart.

Sorry this is so long, like I said I have a lot of feelings. Add your own thoughts if you like, you and anyone else who wants to. This is my interpretation of only some of the songs so of course there are more and different things worth mentioning. This is a judgement free blog where all opinions are welcome.

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[floralseokjin]

I'm not tryna start anything but I saw that ask on my dash and just wanted to share what I felt. If anyone (the anon or not) feels offended by what I'm about to say, I apologize but also these are my viewpoints and you don't need to adopt them. I've been listening to BTS and kpop (multi) for quite a while now and I absolutely love this side of the music world. I love the boys and although senior year hasn't been kind enough for me to invest that kind of time into them anymore, I love (1/?)

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them as artists, as musicians and best of all as humble, loving, caring, deserving of all things good, lovely human beings. So being into the kpop scene a lot, I kinda stopped listening to other music cuz again time being a huge factor limited my music largely to kpop. After Boy With Luv was released, I’ll admit I was pretty skeptical about Halsey being legit and the song in itself. The fact that they incorporated Halsey into this didn’t sit well with me for some reason? And tbh I honestly (2/?

thought she was piggybacking on their success train. And this was like right at the beginning when they released the song. A while passes and a Halsey song comes up randomly on shuffle and despite my prior dislike for her, I fell in love with it. I didn’t like the fact that I liked her songs? Anyway, I go on and somehow my dislike for her slowly melts away with every song, mv, short snippet, interview, etc. Now I’ll tell you WHY I took time out of my day at 12 am to reply to this. (3/?)

I replied cuz over the course of the past few months, I fell in love with that woman. Not exclusively for her music but for her morals, beliefs, her desire to pour out her emotions into her music, her “I don’t give a fuck about what they’ll say but I’m gonna say whatever I want” attitude, the way she doesn’t just sing when she performs, she makes Art in it’s rawest form. In her most recent lives of graveyard? She LITERALLY makes art on stage. That’s why I love her. For her it’s not just (4/?)

a performance but performing is like breathing to her. She puts her bare soul on the stage when she performs and its honestly so damn beautiful. Her fan base is huge as is and she loves us to death. She protects us like we’re her children regardless of age, she makes sure EVERYONE has a chance to be a part of her community. To the anon, you said that BTS went through a lot to get where they are and I cannot agree with you more. All of their hard work is paying off because (5/?)

they like her puts they’re heart and soul into performing and loves each and every one of us, their fans like family. But so did she. And what even is this comparison tbh. Both parties make music that transcends language and other barriers for people to listen to and come together as a family. Their music is a lot of different things for a lot of people. To some, it’s the reason they literally live and doesn’t end it all and for others, it’s a coping mechanism. But it all boils down to (6/?).

them doing what they do best, music to help other people and perhaps make the world a better place. Halsey is such a beautiful person inside out and I’m sorry but I cannot stand by and read about some (pardon my language) bullshit about her leeching off of BTS’ success and not do anything. She loves them and they love her and yeah they’re grown enough to know who’s a fake and not so I’d appreciate if you chose your words wisely next time you decide to unnecessarily shade some other (7/?)

hardworking artist/person without solid facts. I love the boys and I love Halsey. I’m not going into comparison, but both of their music helps me through my darkest days and I’ll always love them and their music to bits. And I hope both sides just get a lot of love and support from everywhere and continue to make music and inspire others like me. Good day to you dear anonnie and to you Jordan (Ps I’m a silent spectator of your blog udiue don’t mind me) and I hope you guys have a fantastic week

Aw this is really sweet to read. I think it shows that humans can be quick to judge when we know nothing about a certain person/situation. The original anon actually sent an ask in last night apologising but I thought I’d post this anyway because you deserve a reply after all the effort of expressing your thoughts ~ Thank you! Anyway, have a great week ahead! 

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[0tivez]

Hello!!! Im so sorry for replying so late, I've been feeling odd-is (?). Things irl seemed to pile up out of nowhere and I had a shitton of tasks to finish that appeared out of nowhere lmfao. I also spoil a bit here bc yes so if anyone read this, it has spoilers :p

ANYWAY, Nanami's was so bittersweet imo. It does fit him, it was very peaceful at least (or as peaceful death can be ig), and im glad he healed his inner child by not cursing Yuuji with his death. I like that their deaths have impact ono the story and development of the characters instead of just shock value or just bc people have to die, ya know?? I've been getting so much get/stsg art on my dash and it hurts my feelings :,) The urge to tag you in every stsg post I come across bc it reminds me of you <3 I think your blog kinda introduced me to the ship?? I don't usually ship characters but I think they're really neat still!

I was Nanami biased at first and then I kinda just push away his death and then I remember bc off I do and I also feel bad bc I forget. To be fair, I don't know if I forget as a coping mechanism or if im actually drifting away from my initial obsession lmfao

WHY WOULD U CHECK THE STATUS ON THE WIKI DONT DO THAT TT

Adidas? im dying. I didn't know that but now I do. and Gojo is huge? like every part of his body is apparently humougously big and I can't bc I picture him to be 5'4 or smth. 5'6 max. I live for people finding this kind of facts of the characters. Fills me up with joy, I think its sweet.

YES I TOTALLY GET YOU. I don't like the fact that Eren dies but Levi lives. It hurts to see Eren grow from a 15 (I think he was 15?) year old filled with hope and this goal to save everyone and optimism to his current self...I think it hurts the most bc I grew up with him bc I started watching when I was like 12 I think?? and now im 18 :,) And Levi never being able to find peace is gonna hunt me until the day I die lmfao

It seems like every author likes to torture their most popular character (is Levi the most popular still?? I think so but im not sure).

I LOVE READING "PREQUELS" BEFORE THE ACTUAL THING BC IT HITS DIFFERENT. And now we get season 2 in 2023 and im so excited!!!! I don't know how much of the manga they're gonna be able to animate but I really wanna see Nanami's death for some reason. I just wanna see it in a different medium, even though if its gonna make me cry

ANNOYING MC. all my friends hate Tokyo revengers, specially the animation, I swear. They rage. Still, I don't know much about Tokyorev except that the op is fucking amazing and I love it. I Also like the art style of the manga though I haven't read it; I've seen a few panels tho.

I think with aot openings they keep getting better and better as well. The one that sounds like and European anthem makes me happy and the Shinzo wo sasageyo nostalgia. I ALSO LISTENED TO THE ENVANGELION OP AND ITS AMAZING. I was watching a compilation of different performances by Yuzuru Hanyu on tiktok after the olympics (to heal my heart) and Apparently he skated to that song once and now Its gonna play at my funeral bc its really wow.

I'm so glad you get where I was coming from as well TT I was on a constant state of anxiety a few days ago and I couldn't help but overthink every little thing I did lmfao.

Did Fujimoto actually write a soft melon bread author's note after killing someone?? Lmfao I love that. Reminds me of AO3 author's notes in way. I think im gonna read chainsawman bc of this. I need to fix my schedule to make space for reading it tho. I finished my first manga on Monday I think?? It was a short manga of 5 chapters and it was sweet I think?? The name was kamisama ga uso wo tsuku or God's lie in english! It was very bittersweet as well.

Hope you've been having a good weekend and have a good day/night!

- 🥳 anon

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ahh it's okay! hope you're feeling better now :)

nanami's death ripped my heart. no lie. his death might even be the saddest. the man just wanted to live a peaceful life, y'know? i also got to thinking the other day and i think an underrated/sad death was mimiko and nanako's. they died while trying to revive the person they called their father basically, and one o fthem had to watch her twin die brutally. sukuna's rampage was wild but come on, this was probably one of the top 3 brutal shit he did. killing two teen girls without hesitation

finally my satosugu propaganda is succeeding. i myself am not a shipper, but i have come to terms with my interest in satosugu (and some more). i used to think it was cringy (shipping) but my friend said who's gonna say anything and i was like holy shit yeah!!!! as long as you don't go around harassing people, it's good. tho with stsg, it seems that non shippers harass shippers more lol

gojo is MASSIVE. he's already 6'3. i just want to know geto's and toji's canonic heights, the ones we know are all fanon

i think levi would agree. he cared about eren so much and to watch him die like that, kinda similar to how erwin died, must have traumatized him a lot. to even say "we have to kill eren" is so fucking saddening. same with sasha's death. both hanji and levi looked awful, they were basically parent figures to them. and don't even get me started on hanji.... she's my favorite character always, for eternity. huh. maybe i just really like semi serious/childish entp's.

know what i want to see with nanami? that scene where the luck dude kicks nanami's body and feels like he's kicking a wall 😫 and geto's shower scene 👀

i'm extremely excited for season 2 i can not even tell you. i have been waiting for this for so long..... i will go feral. LMAOO the way one of my biggest motivations to keep going is to see jjk's ending animated 0////0 that's between us

i HATE tokyo revengers' animation. it's so...... inconsistent? i checked its studio and apparently they also animated berserk 2016 so.......

i've heard that the manga is better tho descending in quality. i really like the character designs, especially sanzu's. i should really continue reading it but i want to reread jjk and csm first and then finish demon slayer lol

wait YUZURU SKATED TO A CRUEL ANGEL'S THESIS????? NO FUCKING WAY HOW DO I NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS????????

yeah he did lol he just really likes melon bread. he always talks about it on his twitter. i just think both gege and fujimoto are neat, would love to see them interact sometimes. i think gege congratulated fujimoto for csm getting serialized. ALSO fujimoto's art style is too good, he also drew nobara. it should come up when you write his name and nobara lol

aah you would love fujimoto's one shot look back! it's not too long but the art style is incredible as always and the story is too fucking beautiful. i think it won the harvey award this year?? it was either that or csm (i checked it it was csm) but still, you should check it out! you would love csm too, it's my favorite manga of all time. i'll try to check god's lie too, heard pretty great things about it

also once you feel comfortable for it, you have to tag me on those fanarts or else 🔫

good day/night babe

#🥳-anon #cel.speaks