#god is dead and so is my will to draw

[decayanddesign]

The absolute joy of having been a bullying victim for several years in a row during your developmental years, is that one small mean comment about your art from another student can make you cry and possibly have a full-blown anxiety attack, then have recurring nightmares, and also have a sudden feeling of dread the moment you’re about to draw the part you were made fun of for while making other drawings... all while you’re pushing your mid-20s!

#actuallybullied #actually bullied #former bullying victim #Decay's dumb ramblings #god is dead and so is my will to draw #but I have to for my uni course #jesus fucking christ why is my brain like this #why can't I just react Normally to people being dicks #why is this hurting so much #vent

[lieu-rey]

first meeting

#rdr2 #red dead redemption #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #issac morgan #man sees baby for the first time ever and is surprised that theyre tiny little creatures #arthur being the man he is mustve had SO many emotions holding issac for the first time. and this is all he manages to say in the moment #im lowkey projecting bc when i met my niece i absolutely REFUSED to hold her until i saw her the second time and i was like. #oh my fucking god shes so fucking tiny #anyway. i hope nothing bad happens to them ever<3 #btw arthurs clothes come from an edit of a young version of him that i saw #and i also saw a video of someone managing to find a repurposed model of eliza in rdr2s data and shes got dark hair! #so i gave issac dark hair (and arthurs blue eyes<3) #arthurs definitrly into people with dark hair #pspspspsp arthur i have dark hair pspspspspspspsp #AHEM anyway- #sorry i cant draw babies even tho i see one all the time now LMFAO #my art

[flowerygarrland]

Hot devils (that you know) in your area

#would you believe me if i told you i was just about to start working when a vision from the gods compelled me to draw this very image #anywaYS AHEM #baldur's gate 3 #my art #bg3 raphael #the anatomy ref had a phone and i was too tired to figure out what i could use as a replacement so bam hell phone idfk KUGSDKF #bg3 #suggestive #well he's trying to be anyway #girl failure my beloved #made this specifically for my one friend #[STARES YOU DEAD IN YOUR EYES - YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE]

[cangrellesteponme]

wife

#yeah i'm not dead woo let's celebrate #my art #kuroshitsuji #kuroshitsuji fanart #black butler #black butler fanart #grelle sutcliff #grell sutcliff #anyway i didn't draw SHIT for a good while and when i got back to it i suddenly hated using the flat marker brush??? #it's part of what makes my signature distinctive so i used it for that but yeah i switched brushes #oddly enough i'm not hating the more textured look? it gets very pixelated at times but it's not awful #back to the signature- it felt weirdly nice to sign things again #i haven't in a while #if you're one of the very few people who also follow me on instagram you'll know i don't use it on there #and the only art i've been doing these days has been original work so yeah nothing on tumblr #and thus the words 'brain exhaustion god stan' have not been written by this comically large hand in a hot minute #enough rambling this is just grelle art because i love her and i know y'all love her too so i thought it would be a nice comeback piece

[paxcallow]

desire to draw raz's hair unhatted and uncombed spiraled into imagining an extended gag about some emergency situation forcing all of the psychonauts out of the motherlobe into the quarry in their jammies at like 2 am and judging each other's clothing choices instead of getting actual work done.

#psychonauts #razputin aquato #lili zanotto #sam boole #sasha nein #milla vodello #hollis forsythe #truman zanotto #otto mentallis #gisu nariman #lizzie natividad #EVERYONE IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #yeah only the first five of those characters are getting tagged so i dont know why i bothered. #fanart #my art #i was gonnna draw morry in a bunny kigurumi but it was too hard. #i dont think you guys understand how dead my artistic muse was before the P2 art book arrived in the mail. #it was Pretty God Damn Dead. Really Really REALLY Dead. this is partly why psychonauts is the ONLY thing i can draw. #also i KNOW they dont all literally live at HQ just pretend it was like a LOCK IN or something okay

[evgar]

uncensored version under the cut for anyone interested..

#i just wanted to draw shirtless sadie #can anyone blame me #i... love women so much god bless #sadie adler #abigail roberts #abigail marston #red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 fanart #rdr2 fanart #sadigail #evgarart #my art #wlw art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The most evil celebratory kiss

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #wen chao #wang lingjiao #I wrote a haiku that I almost used as the caption. Here it is: #“Up on the house top-Heterosexual kiss-Your mother is dead” #...I am not very good at poetry. #There was something so funny to me about the evil couple heterosexual sloppy kiss sandwiched between all this angst. #I get it - this is to make us really loathe these two and make the later revenge much sweeter but...honestly they were so funny for this. #I still do not really know how to draw people kissing so I will do what I do best and make it funny. #There are several points in which MDZS is a dark comedy and this is one of them. #Despite how tragic this episode is...My god did it also make me laugh the hardest. #I will have comics about the other moments. Stay tuned! #edit: forgor what day of the week it was. Happy Makeout Monday!

[puppyeared]

axolotl

#covers my face. this is dumb theyre dumb idk what was going thru my mind making this.h #i like this brush tho i think ill keep using it #i had this thought awhile ago that axolotls kind of remind me of macs ears. and i had a nice thought that if wukong ever saw one #he'd say the same thing. and thats why im sitting here with my head in my hands #macaque doesnt know if hes embarassed amused or straight up smitten. its all 3 #i have such a hard time drawing necks and shoulders.. mac is supposed to kind of hunch up his shoulders #the way some ppl do when they bow their neck down kind oflike. defensive-tucking in position when theyre making themselves small #i cant really get it to look right so it kinda looks like his head is sunken too close to his shoulders. so i guess ill keep practising #maybe if i brought his head closer to the collarbone it will look better. but i struggle with foreshortening so theres a chance itll #just look like his neck starts at the collar. ughhh #god have mercy if i ever draw hugs. i hate positioning the shoulder i hate hate hate it. 10 dead 17 injured #i have new design note ideas for em but ill post another time #myart #doodles #lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #shadowpeach #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk macaque #lmk six eared macaque #lmk liu er mihou

[ewwww-what]

Do you think it’s possible that my god is Kristen?

#I probably won’t finish this just fair warning #figeroth faeth is actually the bane of my existence when I’m drawing #specifically because I designed her then immediately changed my mind on how I want to draw her 15 million times #now she has an undercut and neck fur and a nose stripe and god wants me dead #anyone who’s been here before knows how I feel about them #they ars so special and best friends and :(( #(putting them in the blender together) #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fanart #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fh #dimension 20 fantasy high #dimension 20 fanart #fantasy high fanart #figeroth faeth #fig faeth #fig fantasy high #kristen applebees #kristen chilis applebees #kristen fantasy high #undescribed #not described #my art

[bacchuschucklefuck]

okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #not art #fhjy spoilers #its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical #like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real #like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this #yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out #meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring! #theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it #its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started #the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show #which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them #and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear #that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others #thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and #a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he #wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude #its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others #and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT #Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere #Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually #Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!

[hyperfixated-homo]

Even if he died alone... at least he got to spend his last day with his children.

#also known as ANSKDJNWDIAHSODIAJWD ???????????????????? OH MY GOD??????? HES FINALLY DEAD???????? AHEASD #i am. losnig my mind. just a little bit #qsmp #qsmp bbh #qsmp badboyhalo #badboyhalo #bbh #shadow draws #art #i am actually so ill over this stream i don't even. have the words #BBH THE MAN THAT YOU ARE

[holy-watercolors]

Why is bro trying to come out?!!??!?!!11 Get outta here man!!

more Kinito pet fanart!! I love this game so so much :333

#ohh my god i THINK this might be the last drawing for today #probably not #this guy is too silly #i gotta draw him #ive actually drawn so much that my arm is starting to hurt OW #kinito my beloved #kinito fanart #kinitopet fanart #kinito pet #kinitopet #kinito the axolotl #i would give him my credit card information #digital drawing #drawing #artwork #sorry i've been dead i was having really bad artblock #again #but now im back and this is all your gonna get for a week and a half #silly

[orbitsab]

just two little guys!!!

#im obsessed with them but thats not new #I need to draw more magnus. im always inspired to start drawing by alex and then I always add maggie #but like I need to do a magnus focused piece soon!! #anyway I might turn these into stickers at some point hehehe so keep an eye out for that. #my art #rick riordan #magnus chase #alex fierro #magnus chase and the hammer of thor #magnus chase and the sword of summer #magnus chase and the ship of the dead #magnus chase and the gods of asgard #pjo fandom #riordan verse #fanart #fierrochase

[cute-brainz]

in honor of the Sam BA 🫡📣 idk what to do with myself

#rising from the dead for sam collins? you bet! #what the fuck. what the fuck . w #oh my god #do you feel me? oh my god #it deserves more than doodles. can i draw stuff from the ba like legally idk #okau ill drink waterand stop tagging this so much #redacted audio #redacted asmr #brainz oc tag #digital art #fanart #art #artists on tumblr #digital artist #redacted darlin #redacted sam #im rlly sick rn it just felt too important not to post something to commemorate i love sam so much

[billo-wingwaves]

hiiai week day 1: cuddling <3

#ensemble stars #enstars #hiiro amagi #aira shiratori #hiiai #my art #oh my god hello yes this blog isnt dead #fun fact i almost forgot to even draw my piece because i was so distracted by the new april fools event #another fun fact the heart boxers are a reference to a set of hell dorm doodles i did www

[gaydexvocaloid]

so there’s this game…… .. …

#dead plate #wip #dead plate vincent #dead plate rody #i binged the whole game last night and i am in love .. #here’s a ?secret? i’m a sucker for indie horror games #they’re my bread and butter #this one has got toxic yaoi and i am all for it #i don’t usually draw stuff like this so uh #idk i’m still embarrassed when i draw creepy or quote on quote edgy art for some reason #first non vocaloid related piece in so long my god #dw alotta vocaloid is on the way #tw uncomfortable #tw cannibalism #SORRY IF THESE ARENT CORRECT TAGS PLS TELL ME IF I SHOULD ADD OTHERS