#getting out of my confort zone again!!

[wolfgirl-valentine]

He only wanted a cute selfie for his phone wallpaper but his boyfriend has stars for eyes u_u

A little idea I wanted to do for a time but finally tried to draw, I really liked how it turned out! I originally wanted to make the last image more detailed but I can't get the expressions right, so…

#Dreamling #dream of the endless #hob gadling #hob x dream #the sandman netflix #my art #getting out of my confort zone again!! #dream x hob #I swear this was funny in my head #Hobs phone based on my own phone because I'm too tired to search for other references

[dvrtrblhr]

What is your Twitter? 😭❤️

Hello! I'm very bad at being social so I... don't have a twitter 😥 I have been meaning to create one for very long, but then that guy bought the thing and my interest waned.

I wonder... do you people still think it's worth it to be there? Would you prefer/ find easier to find my art there than here on tumblr? I'm just VERY unfamiliar with twitter's environment so I find it... unnerving.

But it's something I have considered, so maybe I should take the plunge? IDK...

On another note, I do have an instagram account (I'm babittia there) and AO3 (dvrtrblhr - fic only).

#ask me stuff #i'm an old artefact from ye olde internet #a natural born lurker who loves to create fanworks so i end up getting out of my confort zone to share my stuff with the world #but then I immediately disappear into the background again #also i stopped drawing at some point so all my accounts died of starvation #getting braver as i get older

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I'm reading a paranormal mlm book, neither of which are my usual genre, and it's good but idk if I like the writing style, actually I don't think i like it at all, and I just miss my lesbian books

#this year it was my gowl to read more books. specifically more queer books. and get out of my confort zone a little bit #but i dont think i can finish this book. its dragging. and these characters just dont feel right #in the middle of reading i just thought 'i miss the miseducation of cameron post' #because thats honestly a masterpiece #i miss my lesbians. i miss my literary masterpiece. if i could read any book again it would be that one #i think im just gonna dnf this current book and go find a nice lesbian book #i dread reading it. so im gonna try something else #if you know of any good lesbian books. preferably no fantasy. lmk

[cle-levanter]

I-

I think I’m going to Music Bank in Antwerp, Belgium next April? 😭

#istfg it still feels unreal #basically I knew a girl in uni and we both liked kpop so we lowkey bonded over that but not that much #then she switched uni so we lost contact bc we weren’t close like that but we were still mutuals on insta #and earlier this year I sent her a message bc I saw she was going to soooo many concerts of artists/kpop groups I like #so I was like ‘fuck it I’m messaging her for the plot and we’ll see if we can become concert buddies’ #and she was happy about it and all so all is good #when I wanted to go see B.I (he’s fantastic please go see him if you can) she wasn’t that into his music so I went alone and it’s ok #bc I made new concert buddies during that B.I concert lmaoooo so win win bc I went out of my confort zone and made a pal lol #and earlier this week when they announced music bank in Belgium I was frantic and I texted her to ask if she was going #and she was!!!! well wanted to #and today was the ticket sale and I wasn’t home when they dropped so I wired her my money and she would do the buying #AND SHE DID GET TICKETS OMFG #we got cat 1 tickets 😭 #it still feels unreal like omfg #I’m really going to see my man Soobin and TXT and ONEUS and ZB1 again and goejfizjd #i don’t think my brain is computing that info just yet #it’ll need time #I’ll give it until April lol #I’M SO FUCKING EXCITED OMGGGGGG #i almost cried when I saw her text telling me she got the tickets 😭 #i can’t wait #lia.txt #irl stufff #music bank #music bank Antwerp

[myluvrrhea]

Moonlight on a river 2/2

Pairings - Damian priest x Fem!Reader

Word count - 0.7k

Warning - Hurt/Confort, Fluff/ Angst

NOT PROOFREAD. Part 1

Damians POV

I walked into The Judgment Day’s locker room, getting ready for my match. But I noticed the atmosphere felt different. Dom and Finn were mostly quiet. They were never this way before?

“Guys tell me whats up why are you two so quiet?” I asked.

Dominik scratched his head as Finn opened his mouth to answer me.

“Look man we’ll talk after the promo,” Finn and Dominik both walked past me as I stared at them in shock.

After the promo , me , Finn , and Dominik walked back stage. Back to our locker room. I tried not to let my confusion get into the way of the promo, but I ofter found myself zoning out whole thinking about it. They had never acted this way towards me , so what made their feelings change? 

I sat down on the locker room bench as I waited for Finn and Dominik to talk.

“Look we know about the Y/N situation..,” Dominik spoke first.

“And we dont think what you did was valid man , I mean did you know what happened to her mom that day, and the fact you put the weight of a breakup on her is just cruel..” Finn chimed in.

I felt confused. 

“What happened with her mom?” I asked.

Dominik sighed as he began to speak.

“She got into a car crash — A drunk driver is what she said.” 

“Look the only reason we know this is because Rhea told us about. After she texted Rhea about the breakup, and she repeated what you said— she just broke down man,” Dominik had a sour look on his face , meanwhile Finn turned away from them both.

Then the realization hit me. Thats why her eyes were so red. She had been carrying a hard weight in her shoulder. And when I broke up with her , that was just the cherry in top. A heavy weight of guild filled my mind as Finn and Damian told me what had happened. By the end , I knew I had to talk to her. Make things right. That was the least I could do, I thought to myself.

Your POV

I layed in bed , curled up as a thick blanket covered my body, when I heard a key unlock the front door. My face morphed into confusion as I sat up from my curled up position in the bed. Soon enough I heard the door to now my own bedroom creak open. I felt my stomach drop as I saw a worried face. His face.

End of your Pov

He didn’t understand how you felt until he saw it. When Damian had walked into the bedroom , he first saw your worried and confused expression. Your eyes were bloodshot red and had darker spots under your eyes. 

“W-why are you here?” You asked. Your voice was shakey. Fragile. Like you could break any minute.

As you looked down, Damian came closer to your sitting figure. His hands found its place on both sides of your head. Making you look up at him. 

“I came to apologize. I didn’t know it was this bad — and I really messed up. I just want you to know it was a mistake. Ive been a mess these few days and I thought about coming back.. I did and when Dom and Finn told me what happened I knew I had to come back”.

“I know i messed up, just please ill do better this time. Im so sorry.” He finally completed his rambling as a tear rolled down onto your cheek.

“I don’t know if I could trust you so easily, b-but ill try. I just need you to regain my trust. Day by day.” You replied as  Damian blinked away the tears that threatened to drop from his eyes.

“I wanna make it up to you even if its little.” He said.

He opened his mouth to speak again. “Cmon let’s go eat dinner , and we could take a bth if you would like to?” 

I nodded as a sign of okay , and he went downstairs to get the food for us ready. A small smile found its way to my face as I finally felt joy enter my body. I was happy to finally have Damian back. You felt better already.

A/N 💬 - Im sorry this is kinda short!! But im trying to get requests done im sorry for how late its going just know im trying 💕

#damian priest x reader #damian priest imagine #damian priest #damian priest x y/n

[crazytea5]

I have a request to make if you are willing. Platonic yandere lamia Mitsuri x snake loving reader.

please and thank you.

OF COURSE I CAN!Im actually a snake lover myself so this is easyish. But I’m adding another character to make this better. If you want a part 2 just ask

One day you were working at your snake cafe. Your parents owned it and wanted you to inherit it when you grow up! You were excited for the day you’d own the restaurant but currently you were only 12 so you had to wait. “Reader Reader! I found a new book!” Miss Mitsuri said. “Oooo what is it?” You replied “It’s a Yandere story. The main protagonist starts to love the Yandere due to them being the only person they ever see. It’s kinda scary…” Mitsuri says “I’ll ask my mom and dad to get me a copy after work!” You say in response “Me and Jeremy will need to come early to work tomorrow.” You say saddened. “Oh? Why?” Mitsuri asked. “And why does your snake Jeremy work with you?” “Jeremy works with me because he’s my confort animal and I have to go to work early because my mom can’t take her shift and dad is busy all morning.” You said. “Won’t that mean I can’t see you?” Mitsuri said. “Yes I’m sorry…” you replied. Little did you know that you should cherish today with your parents like it’s your last day alive

That night

you were sad that you couldn’t see Mitsuri tomorrow but you still had your snakes. There were crisp Jeremy Krista Tin-Tin and more snakes that it could go on forever. You heard screaming come from your parents room and you instantly hid in one of the snake inclosure’s. What were you ment to do? Hide under your futon? Like that would work. Mitsuri suddenly walked into your room with…?! “Are you sure we should do this just for them? Like they are going to hate us if they find out what we did…” Obanai says “Yes it’s absolutely necessary for us to do this if we want the perfect child.” Mitsuri says ‘WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK DID THEY JUST SAY!?’ You think “Well let’s lure them out.” Mitsuri said “How do we do that?” Obanai Asks “simple get your snake to lure them.” Mitsuri answered. He listened and brought his snake to lure you but failed. Though unfortunately you failed to hide from it and it told Obanai and Mitsuri where you were. You got kidnapped….

“hello mini snake!” Mitsuri said. “W-where am I?” You manage to stutter out “In our home mini snake.” Obanai Responds.

you never left that place ever again….

Hope you enjoyed this sorry it was short it’s 21:18 at night in my time zone so it’s pretty late. If you want you can ask for a part 2 I don’t mind! Also thank you bongo020405! I haven’t had a request in a while and I love getting them!

#yandere demon slayer #platonic yandere #yandere mitsuri kanroji #yandere obanai iguro #SNAKEY BABYS #yandere x reader #snake lover #SNAKE LOVER READER

[pikopuri]

Like 7 years ago I dated this guy who I was really really into and he cheated on me & was generally an asshole and I let him get away with it bc I was so into him and now I look back at it and realize that he was a massive fucking loser and I cant believe I was so cruel to myself. Anyway I know this is projecting my own situation onto your life which I dont know anything about but I think that guy sounds like a massive fucking loser & its not worth it to put yourself thru emotional pain for somebody like that. Why cant we be nice to pikopuri? Isnt it time for that?

Yeah ur right I know he’s a loser but it’s really hard for me to let him go bc 1. It’s my first relationship 2. I’m really scared of suffering 3. It’s hard for me to say goodbye to things and people in general 4. I’m so used to being treated like shit by him that I don’t even really care anymore 5. I don’t have enough self respect and I kinda think that I deserve all of this 6. He’s still important to me 7. I’m alone and I was really depressed before meeting him and I don’t wanna feel that again and I know that all of this is normal and that I have to suffer and get out of my confort zone to grow but I kinda don’t want to… also I don’t have a therapist rn

[aboutdifferentthings]

Paxton's journey around Devi.

This is long!  I wrote this in reddit as an answer to a question… I thought I could add some pics and do a nice post from it (I don’t do gifs 🙈) I hope you like it.

 

Paxton is a teenager. He is very confortable on his junior year. He is popular, has a future in swimming, he cares a lot a bout his family and has an easy life, when something bothers him or makes him feel awkward he just brushes it off and keeps going (like with all the girls he had sex).

But here he is in his junior year. And he meets Devi and she is supposed to be another of her ‘sex without commitment girls’ but… it doesn’t happen… what happens is that he starts knowing her and he likes her, so he doesn’t want to have sex with her anymore because he does not want to loose her… not because of her or his status… from episode 2 he is already involve and empathetic with Devi and this boy will start orbiting around her even when he does not want to.  

When he gets mad because she was saying they had sex it is not because of his status either, it is because he though they had something else, something different and when he realizes that for her it means nothing, he is upset about it (I would be too) but he still supports her lie because he cares about her, although he can not completely process what he is feeling because she is pushing him out of his comfort zone.  

But he will still be there and when he helps her at he swimming pool party he comprehends that there is really something more.They kiss and he cares about the kiss but when he goes to see her the day after her mom calls him basically an idiot and he has doubts again because (as we said) he is getting out of his comfort zone, but here he is again waiting for her, apologizing.

A lot of people criticizes he needs his sister to realize, but I don’t understand why. I think it is great to have such a good relationship with your siblings: it helps you grow and it shows he listens and really wants to learn.

So… after the disaster in the date with friends with Trent vomiting (my god Pax, that was really a disaster of a date 😆😆) he gets hurt when he chooses Ben to collect garbage…. and he decides to openly tell her he wants something with her and he puts everything in it because he really likes her (I would say more than like, here, this boy is in love although he has maybe not realize yet). 

And when does he realize? I think he does realize just the second he learns she is cheating and what he says just before the car hitting him speaks loud “ As if you could hurt me” of course she can, and she did, and he is so mad he tries to convince himself they do not make any sense but they do make sense… so again he is orbiting around her,  because he is in love: he loves how genuine she is and how he feels when she is around, he loves her in her ups and downs but that doesn’t stop him from telling her his opinion (always respectfully).

So when they get together and he says no to the dance is because he is in love and scared and doesn’t even know how to explain himself (much less his friends) that he is with the girl that cheated on him and that hurt him that much… the thing is that if he doesn’t step forward he is going to loose her, so he does… and tells Trent that he really trusts her this time and this is so beautiful… 

At the same time, he is spending more time with people out of his circle and getting to know them and he also cares about them. 

And you know what comes next… he breaks up because he has to let her go, because he knows she is spiraling and their relationship is not good for her. He loves her… and cares about her every second since first season episode 2…

After breaking up he still cares about her but not only her also about the people he has bonded with (like Fabiola o Eleanor). And some people says around 3x05 he is again at the beginning but he is not… although he is trying… he is trying to go back to when everything was simple and he could brush things off but he can’t and by the end of this episode he embraces who he really is, he says he will be helping more because he enjoys it an he cares abut people. We learn later it did not work with her new girlfriend because that is not the kind of relationship he wants anymore.

He has a great arc and he and Devi  make each other better, but Devi needs time to finish growing, to gain confidence and to finally realize who she truly is and what she really wants and he is giving her the space and hopefully when she goes through this process she will return to him to have the relationship they both deserve.  

Sorry for the long run! It got longer than expected! :)

#paxton hall yoshida #team paxton #paxton x devi #devi x paxton #daxton

[chaiandsage]

Heyo!

I just wanna say i finally finshed your trust life fic after, admittedly, a long time (I struggle with long fics and typically hate reading them) it was really great I actually had a lot of fun reading it! Im really glad your fic could be the first lobg fic ive read in a really long time and encouraging me to step outta my confort zone for that kinda stuff :} anyways I did actually have a question belive it or not, I was wondering if you had any tips on writting in character for them (them being the traffic games characters) and for writting longer fics?

Hi! Thank you!!

I’m not surprised it took you a while. When I went back to read it all myself, it took me literal weeks to finish, lol. But thank you for giving this one a try anyway. It’s great to know that you still enjoyed it even though it was out of the norm for you

For your question, I think a small, but effective way to achieve that would be to make sure a character’s dialogue includes phrases or words that they usually use often. Same goes for their tone too. So like, I know that people like Joel and Bdubs are usually loud talkers whereas Etho and Lizzie are more on the quiet end. So maybe just try to reflect that and keep things consistent unless the situation calls for something else? I’ll also just try to read things over in that character’s voice and if it feels wrong coming out of their mouth, then I change it according to what feels more accurate

Aside from dialogue tho, you could also try seeing how others seem to write them most often and work off of that? Sorry for the vagueness. I’m not sure I’m the best person to give advice on that subject 😅

Longer fics however… If you’re asking how to stretch a fic out, I think one way to kind of cheat at that would be to have the story take place from more than one perspective. That way there’s twice or more the amount of potential thoughts, problems, backstory, and development to cover (learned this the hard way)

—But if you’re asking how to write a GOOD long fic… I mean, I’d say it’s very important to have the gist of what you expect to happen be already established front and center in an outline. That way you’re not unprepared for anything and have already gotten one of the most difficult parts of writing it done (imo). That’s not to say that straying from your outline is a bad thing. If anything, depending on your story, it could kind of function as a safety net for that sort of thing. So no matter how much you decide to change, you at least know what direction you’re meant to be going in (I really hope I’m making sense here…)

ALSO—keep around a journal, or a notepad, or a log on your phone, or whatever so you can jot down any random ideas that you think would be cool to put in your story that might come to you whenever. Don’t trust yourself to remember to add them in once you start writing, because you won’t/lhj

If your fic has a lot of characters in it, then also make sure to write down and keep track of their relationship or current standing with other characters. For example, it wouldn’t make sense for two people who had beef three chapters ago to suddenly be cool or indifferent around each other the next time they meet up without there having been some kind of resolution (internal or otherwise) in the middle of all that. If someone gets into an argument with another person and then doesn’t see them again for a few chapters, their immediate thought upon seeing them for the first time again, in my opinion, shouldn’t be a cheery or neutral one. Maybe they cooled down a little between those chapters, but I don’t think the problem should have just fixed itself with time alone. That goes for a lot of other situations too

So, yeah, that’s pretty much what came to mind for me. I don’t consider myself an expert on any of this so please feel free to take it with a grain of salt. Regardless, I do hope you’re able to write out what you had in mind :)

#asks

[meliponeon]

New Year Resolution!

[LONG POST AHEAD] First of all, Happy new year! Now then, I know I haven't been active this past few months, sadly the more I tried to avoid burn out, the faster it got to me. Aside from some health issues, I reached a point in which I got tired of drawing the same thing over and over again. Don't get me wrong! I love danmei and specially WangXian, but I got to a point where I questioned myself "Do I want to keep doing this?" -"What if I want to draw other things?""Will they get the same encouragement?" Thankfully I've gotten so much support from you, and seeing that my art keeps getting love even though I haven't posted recently is what has giving me the reassurance that I must keep going. So now I got to the conclusion that I can do both without giving up the other! WangXian is what brought me back to art, and will be the thing that will keep inspiring me so I won't stop making content of them. I still have to continue AND FINISH my two ongoing WangXian comics (I won't drop them) and maybe redraw some old ones, aside from more content. On the other hand, I want to start posting about other BL ships so it feels refreshing both for you and me. I want to get out of my confort zone, improve and challenge myself and start drawing other characters so I can grow even more as an artist. On another note, this year I will focus on my career so I will take some more time to finish my art, it will be challenging for me but I don't care, I love making and sharing my art,so that won't stop me. I want to thank you once again for your support, I hope you have an amazing year! Sorry for the ramble, I needed to get it out of my chest so I can continue with this new stage, I hope to bring you more content soon!

[wolfgirl-valentine]

Untitled

Pastel oils and ink pen over cardstock.

Had this idea in my head for a time now, found the oil pastels I bought years ago, and decided to try with them again, it come out better than I expected to be honest (the left eye was a error even before the colors).

This is my second time using oil pastels and was fun and frustrating in equal measurements, and very messy jsjsjsjj

Special thanks to @rainy-days-and-nights for her kind words that helped me to be less harsh to myself and keep practicing with thing out of my confort zone 💚, and to @hotcocoabuns for keeping me company in my insomnia fuelled drawing nights 🫂

EDIT : aahh I forgot to put the masterpost of my fanarts

No colors version under the cut

#Dreamling #dream of the endless #hob gadling #the sandman netflix #My art #Getting out of my confort zone again

[patriciavetinari]

Long personal post about sex, please scroll accordingly if not interested.

I believe I just realized a part of why I'm so frustrated about romance, including sexual relationships. Not just that I've always been interested, and I think part of the reason might be limited attention in my childhood? Me believeing I should be loved and supported and taken care of more than I did? Busy single mother, combined with absolute assholes for classmates who were treating me horribly, teachers ignoring the situation, no help from anyone? Family not being the safe haven I was always told it is?.. Being disappointed with family love, having never experienced comraderie and friends' love it seems like all of it accumulated into strong desire for romantic love and partnership built on romantic connection. I'm just speculating though, no time for a therapist.

But then as a marginalized person you grow up without proper socialization (I've never had a birthday party in my life), and romantic socialization and flirting being part of that, so you become an adult completely lacking social skill. Add on to it general unpleasantness fat people and fat women experience.

And it's not for a lack of trying that I'm single. I've done years and years of research, I've watched and read about being charming and making friends and finding partners, from reasonable coaches to absolutely insane stuff, and I've been dutiful and trying those methods – I have found none that have worked. I've been on dating apps, I've been forcing myself out of comfort zone, going out every day off, I've been dressing like a hoe, like a en elegant lady, like a big titty goth gf – none of this has worked. The only thing I haven't tried is speed dating, but I have a few of those bookmarked.

And yes, I've made the first step, multiple times, I've asked people out myself rather than expect them to approach. I've been told no or been stood up, I've literally had 0% success rate and revived my confidence from the pits of despair every time.

And at the same time, still, the person I want to be is the one that turns heads and has a string of competing lovers and people having duels over my attention and affections. Last one I'm willing to live without, but to have people find me desirable in a romantic way is still a strong desire of my own and even though I don't have that and I have to be able to go on alone... Idk, I still yearn. Badly. At the very least I want to try and reach that lifestyle and then figure out on my own that it's not for me. I think it goes back to feeling invisible and overshadowed and forgotten and unwanted, so now I really wish to experience the opposite. And yeah, if I can rake in some material benefits – even better. If I could be having sugar daddies and mommies, or have an onlyfans, I would do it.

I mean... When I say if I could – I can, probably, but that's the thing, the technical part is easy. Start an account, point a camera at yourself, click, but the next step is where I get stuck. Like, what do I do? How do I act sexy? What is the type of sexyness that fits me, that I can confortably perform, that doesn't feel like the most generic porn parody? What is it about me that turns people on? How should I act to maximise that?

And I once again come back to having no experience of feeling sexy, desired, beautiful to another person. I... Don't think it's exactly seeking validation. Because I'm generally fine with myself and I go out without makeup no problem, I value my comfort etc, and I know in my skull that I'm pretty. But I do want to be beautiful to other people. I do want the experience of being wanted and I've never had that. Not in a way that is acceptable, so a dudebro posting an eggplant emoji under my selfie is not what I'm looking for. I'm probably seeking attention but that is also respectful I guess? I'm aware my standards are high, but low standards brought me terrible experiences in the past.

Doesn't help that the 2 very poor sex experiences that I've had happened when I was anorexic, so much thinner, and both of those people were very bad at sex, not bothering with foreplay or making me feel desired, even though they clearly wanted to fuck. Like, as wild as it sounds, I felt like one of them is not really interested in my, and the other wanted to fuck me but did't fee the need for me to feel good. Both of them were really not nice to me. I'm not even talking about orgasms. One of them blatantly told me that me not orgasming or not much enjoying the shitty sex meant that I'm not 'built' to enjoy sex which fucking had me fuming for obvious reasons. I've been fascinated by sex since very early age and still am and that's the reason I don't think I'm ace (?). I've entertained a thought, but at the moment I genuinely don't know if it's me not experiencing sexual desire towards people or just not letting myself entertain the idea that a real person could want me because that has literally never happened (in my current body size, I honestly view my brief period of thinness almost as another person, I have nothing in common with her). So I don't let myself fantasize or desire someone or even have a crush because it's always painful and just seems unrealistic.

I think I had a crush at my old job, and mustered the courage to ask the person out twice and that's how I got stoop up and then found out they started dating someone else, and I literally cried, feeling like a high schooler (derogatory). So I don't let myself have crushes because what's the point. I try to find enjoyment if friendly hanging out nowadays.

And coming back to sex, without having experienced any genuine interaction, any expression of desire towards me as a person or even to my current body – again, in a way that is more human than eggplant emoji or like 'i wana fuck your bobs' – without any of it I don't know what is it that people find sexy about me, IF they find me desirable, which aspects of my look or attitude turn people on, what should I be highligting. I want to learn, I want to play into my strengths, but I don't know what they are. Yeah I do want to hear that someone is crazy about me, loves talking to me and wants to pleasure me and loves my mind as well as my body just the way it is. You know, the Gomez Addams approach.

My main problem is that my empirical evidence of being alive as a human shows me that I either don't provoke any desire or I provoke primitive disrespectful fetishization. That the only people willing to show their attraction to me or act up on it are very unpleasant predatory types. And all of them online too, no real life person has shown any interest or effort in trying to spend time with me for anythibg long term or even just get into my bed which I would be totally ok with.

Of cource it's disheartening and discourageing and concerning.

I'm always trying to find out what is people do that makes them have a partner after partner, or a string of fun sex encounters, or just adventurous personal life (of course I don't realky care what thin people have to say on the topic, they literally live in the world of their own especially when it comes to relationships). I want that. I want to learn, I'm willing to try stuff and muster courage, I wouldn't mind having an onlyfans, but I think my own research is not helping me enough in learning about my own sexuality, find the right ways to be sexy because I've bever made feel like I am sexy to anyone, I've never been told that (again, in human ways not in scum ways). I feel silly most of the time when attemting to flirt, and the old protective mechanism of being the clown, compensating fatness with being funny to ve accepted still looms its ugly head.

I don't know what to do. I want to have people ask for my phone number all the time, and compete for my attention, having 4849385 invites to do something after work or on the weekend, having my pick of people to spend time and have sex with as much as my heart desires. And yeah, being pampered and taken care of and showered with words and gifts and gestures as well. Years of loneliness have made me gluttonous for all that, and the sick irony of desiring all that while in a fat body in a world that hates fat people and makes sure we know we absolutely should 't be expecting any of that.

I don't know if I'll ever grow out of that. Or if I'll ever be touched by another human being. Seems quite hopeless at the moment.

#long post #personal

[uninformedartist]

About that Velvet post usually when people say "black features" they usually mean lips and hair yeah but sometimes body type I don't know if you mean that as well but let black ladies be petite cuz people make them thick all the time and let them have thin lips represent those poor made fun of thin tall thin lips black girls I remember in high school a black chick who was tall and lanky with slightly thin lips would always be upset with 2 others blacks always making fun of her so I don't mind Velvet

Also we don't get to see everyone's skin color cuz all them bitches got fur or leather colored skin 😂 idk not an attack btw in case you see it that way I know a lot of people take things offensively on the internet due to lack of tone

Hey, thank you for the ask this is my first ask and I'm not really good at this sort of thing but. What I ment by post by black features is that Velvette as a character especially that designed by Viv has the same facial features as her white characters like Charlie or Cherri, one could recolour her skin as milk white as Charlie and you would think she's a white character, not to mention her hair texture, like I said Viv had the opportunity to delve more into creating black hair texture for her. Her skin tone is also not an acurate depiction of a back character (setting aside she's a demon) the colour itself is reminiscent of black/darker skin tone sensorship in media (one sees it mostly in anime or recently genshin impact) and it is so degrading to any black person or dark skinned person to see media to see their rich skin tone reduced to an ashey tone, my friend said is reminiscent of skin bleaching which she herself had it done on her as a child, its reaching maybe but the connotations are there especially since it was pointed out by my black friend. To the body type I'm skinny myself, and I'm not dictating how a character's body type should be, you get skinny black girls I know that and cool but I ment this in the general scheme of Hazbin Hotel, there is not one plus size main character (Not including Mimzy as she is a background character or won't be in the show anymore). Viv has over the years not broken from her comfort zone of making skinny stick or slim thick character's, thats basically the 2 body types she draws and both are skinny essentially (slim thick is quite difficult to get naturally, its achievable but is considered being thin by black woman/ other women of colour. This I have consulted with many of my black friends and sister as many do naturally development a fatter tummy with having bigger breast and bottom, I can mostly justify this as this is my sister's body shape so she's my first hand knowledge. She is also currently trying to get "thinner" by loosing her mid section so there is that).

Also I'm from Africa so the black features I'm used to seeing can vary quite drastically to African American black people's features so sorry I can't really speak on African American black people since I'm not there lol, I'm not African American and I'm actually a coloured South Africa thats white presenting. That post was mostly stirred up by my sister and black friends who were discussing Hazbin hotel and its representation. I basically just vented my frustration but its stemmed heavily from theirs too. Sigh, in all of this I do want to end on saying that Viv is without a doubt from all evidence comfortable drawing mostly eurocentric characters featuring eurocentric features but just slaps on a "dark/ black" skin tone. Her art will never straytoo far from its confort zone. Most people want more from her because she can give more especially since Hazbin hotel could've had other designer input but no its her show and vision so its only limited to her limited design characteristics that she likes to draw and see.

Sorry if its a ramble I'm not again good at this sort of thing but I took no offence to your question thank you for asking again, my tone can come off harsh in my postings haha.

Also I need to say this not to you but because I got in hot water before, I'm very comfortable referring to black people as black people, that is who they are and I live in a multi racial and cultural country so I got no shame in saying things how it is, and just talking the way I talk, English isn't my 1st language so sorry if anything sounds off.

#hazbin hotel velvet #hazbin hotel critique #hazbin hotel critical

[audreygianelliart]

This year I just want to find the fun again in drawing and create. This is why I am trying my first « draw this in your style » challenge and indeed I had a lot of fun getting out my confort zone.

Thanks to @poopikatt for this beautiful drawing, inspiration and challenge. Can’t wait to try again.😜

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I made this with watercolor, @copic.france liner, white acrylic for the whitch,

For the background : special watercolor effect from @thesouthernbrush , @dalerrowney1783 acrylic ink (pearlescent) and @winsorandnewton and @pebeo acrylic for the stars and sparkles.

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#drawthisinyourstyle #drawthisinyourstylechallenge #poopidtiys2023 #watercolor #artwork #witch #magic #acrylic #artist #aquarelle #audreygianelli

#draw this in your style #draw this in your style challenge #witches #magic #watercolor #artwork #aquarelle #acrylic #acrylic ink #art #artist #drawing #dessin #artiste #liner #copic #poopidtiys2023

[waru-chan8]

There’s a part missing that it’s them asking for people to record them doing challenge and put on social media tagging them.

Roberto: (Jorge is ready), and the dancing crew too. Let’s go for it, and the challenge starts now

Jorge: COME ON! COME ON!

The guy hugging Jorge: the best, the best

Jorge Blimey!

Jorge: Very good! So good!

People: cheers!

Roberto: Damn champion! A big round of applauses to Jorge Lorenzo and for the crew of dancers, guys and girls. Thanks to alls of you. Noe. Jorge Lorenzo.

Jorge: Let me take a breath for a bit

Roberto: what’s happening in here?

Jorge: That I have my heart

Roberto: oh God. A dancer has born, or not?

People shouting: yes

Roberto: all done. Come with me

Boris: a star

Roberto: oh you forget (the trophy), not that is his do you wanna.. here.Take it that is heavy, take it that’s heavy How?

Jorge: I have the heart that.. That Malaysia comes to win my first championship at 190 (that sentence was difficult as Jorge is been over dramatic and confusing as hell)

Roberto: a bestiality. I love it

Pilar: so

Boris: Lovely

Pilar: you are putting things very dark because we have hear Noe, the choreographer saying ‘well we did took him out of his confort zone’. She said it in a diplomatic way 

Roberto: yes

Pilar: in away that they weren’t trusting you.

Jorge: I swear

Pilar: I was impressed. Moreover, you mixed different styles inside 1 choreography and I’m amazed with you, truthfully.

Jorge: no, no, without a doubt Pilar

Boris: (he)) impresses. With all the freshness

Jorge: it was. It was the the toughest challenge. Noe deserve a pay raise because I did x5/x6

Roberto: and all her team

Jorge: in hours compared with the other challenges. At first it looked impossible, that I couldn’t do it. It’s 2 minutes with a lot of sections and so but slowly I was picking from here and there

Pilar: How is it the moonwalk? Because you managed to do the moon walk. Can you do it again?

Jorge: well

Pilar: well, well. You won me

Roberto: he already got you

Jorge: no in here slides and

Juan: well

Jorge: and gets grip

Roberto: from one dancer to another, Juan del Val

Juan: no is true that this show tries to do that, take you out of your comfort context and see unbelievable things  and is see Jorge Lorenzo dancing. , the moment of confession has come, I wasn’t betting on you and you surprised me a lot. It was a big show, so congratulations. I don’t know which one is going to be your score but the truth is that you worked really hard

Jorge: Thanks

Roberto: Santiago

Santiago: the truth is, hat the key in here is take people out of their comfort zone. If I’m going to be taken out of my confort one, I prefer what Jorge did rather than Rosa’s (she was in a plastic bx filling with water and she had to stop the flow putting plugs into the pipes. But there was 3 types of plus, and she didn’t know which one was each. Also the more she closed, the greater the pressure on the other points) *mumbles something*

Roberto: we are taking notes

Santiago: having sad that, I was reminded, and I don’t know why, of the hooligans and Malaluf a bit for the theme, but it was amazing. I saw him pretty focussed. We were joking before saying, Jorge is so like that, taht for sure he will do the robot, and out of the blue he did it. So *everybody laughs*

Jorge: 5 seconds though

Santiago: it was our prediction, very well

Roberto: Mateo

Mateo (Dani Mateo, he is the guest judge. He is a comedia, TV and radio host for other channels from the same company as Antena3.): Guy.. Ah.. It had a lot of merit because we are talking about, we are not talking about a celebrity/star, we are talking about a legend. This gentlemen that is in here is a legend in his (sport), and that he had the sense of humour to come in here and dance with that... with that sense... with that farce (in the sense of wanting to fool around, party and be fun), with those looks at the camera, Jorge. Er.. *I think he says something related to one of his parodies, but I can’t understand him*

Jorge: It was difficult

Mateo: you had it well hidden

Jorge: I enjoyed it a lot

Mateo: Spectacular. Look I going to say that Jorge was the first impact I had. The one looking like a biker  today, was me. You know?

Jorge: it’s true

Mateo: they put me as a rider. I went out of the dressing room and I went out me, as a rider and I saw Jorge Lorenzo *Jorge says something like Batista? but I’m not completely sure* bailando una coreografia. This show is done by... *I can’t really understand as people is laughing and thei’s noise over Mateo’s voice*

Roberto: what’s happening in here? *laughing*

Mateo: what the hell is going on?

Roberto: one last appreciation. Eh we saw Valentino Rossi ...

Boris: the Rossi moment

Roberto: that moment was epic

Someone: marvellous

Roberto: we are sending him a ‘hello’ to Valentino Rossi as he will be watching us. You had a good relationship?

Mateo: he doesn’t miss one

Jorge: he is a joker, a joker

Roberto: you are buddies now, now?

Jorge: yes. When we where competing in the same class we where arch-enemies ands there was... was

Roberto: yes there was *hand gesture indicating contact*

Jorge: but now, he invited me to his ranch, we did the race of champion together and there’s a good feeling now

Flo: when he invites you to his ranch again, you bring us

Roberto: a kiss to Valentino Rossi. We invite him to ‘El desafío.

Flo: to a BBQ, with some ribs

Roberto: Jorge Lorenzo, congrats, well done. You can take a sit with your mates

I did no record it, but Jorge got euphoric and hugged by the other contestants. We was also proud of his show

#El Desafío #Antena3 #Jorge Lorenzo #Roberto Leal #Pilar Rubio #Juan del Val #Santiago Segura #Dani Mateo #Flo #Florentino Fernández

[vizabel]

hello! i've finally got an ideal art set up, with a tablet i can draw in bed with and still with the brushes i like. so, i think i'm ready to start posting art again, but on account of a few things - an acknowledgement that i like to draw simple pictures, design work, and kind of really hate coloring at the moment, so a lot of what i post won't be super exciting i think, in fact it's pretty boring and now i really want to get out of my confort zone LOL. i will only post the art i like, at the pace that i want to, with no schedule after the backlog queue. and, finally, to avoid stressing myself out i will not perma-reblog my art to my main blog and may delete posts if i wish to not look at them again. this will not be a portfolio, but rather, me letting myself be seen on here again. i draw for myself, and i don't need attention for it so i'm not here to entertain anyone with anything. but, i do miss sharing it outside of my friends. tl;dr - i'm still a rabid perfectionist, but i'm going to take it easy so everyone can win, here

i should have an updated commission sheet ready soon, and thank you to everyone who's stuck by this blog despite inactivity!

#talk #HEY WAIT. THIS IS THE ANNIVERSARY OF THAT LAST POST I MADE #also this blog is purple now maybe