#getting a little sentimental LOL....

[maxpawb]

2 years on testosterone and i couldnt be happier ^_^ i wish all transmascs a very awesome day

#art #furry #getting a little sentimental LOL.... #starting HRT saved my life and diminished my gender dysphoria #im so much happier in my body and identity after i embraced being transmasc and was able to transition!!!!!!!!!

[mrs-gauche]

...and also the only time that Solas of all people, is completely speechless, for once at a loss for words in response to an irrefutable argument.

Throughout the whole game (with a few exceptions in which he actually admits to having misjudged), whenever you get the chance to debate him on something you do not agree on, Solas, Mr “I’m a trillion years old, you know nothing, so listen carefully” will practically verbally jiu-jitsu you for every possible argument you might have, like, he’s an absolute master at playing Ace Attorney refuting any of your points, much like playing mind chess with Iron Bull, there is no chance to win an argument with Solas if he’s determined to have you recognize the flaw in your logic or at least understand his perspective, making you feel like this gif at the end of every debate.

But when Lavellan says “I would have had you trust me”, finally, there is no counter argument, no clever comeback, no objection... He has nothing. Because Lavellan is right and he knows. There’s just silence until he turns around and continues with the rest of the dialogue. And I think it’s interesting how this is kinda the culmination of all the little hints throughout the whole game at his ingrained distrust, leading up to this moment.

“An enemy can attack you, but only an ally can betray you. Betrayal is always worse.”

"The next time you have to mourn, you don't need to be alone." “It’s been so long since I could trust someone.”

“That’s when you should lean on your friends.” “Apologies, Inquisitor. I have learned not to do that.”

“I’ll rely on those I trust.” "You think to share your power, to avoid the temptation to misuse it. A noble sentiment... but, ultimately, a mistake." (...) "Because while one selfless man may walk away from the lure of power's corruption... no group has ever done so."

“You created a powerful organization, and now it suffers the inevitable fate of such. Betrayal and corruption.”

"I trust my friends." "I know that mistake well enough to carve the angles of her face from memory."

“She was betrayed as I was betrayed. As the world was betrayed!” - Flemeth about Mythal

You get the sense that him witnessing Mythal being betrayed and murdered by the Evanuris was probably the catalyst for his immense trust issues, so much so that it still has that big of an impact on him centuries later. And of course it has, when 1) it was this batrayal and power corruption that set everything in motion, it almost lead to the end of the entire world, which in turn lead to the creation of the Veil and finally the loss of his world and his people, 2) he has spent the last 1000 years walking the Fade, having to look at the ever present Black City in its center - their prison - as a constant reminder of what happened. (I know it’s not confirmed yet, but come on! 😂)

And then there is Lavellan (or any high approval Inquisitor for that matter) at the end of all this. Who proved him wrong with every action throughout DAI. Who has shown wisdom in their decisions and that the power they were given mustn’t corrupt them. That there is no reason for him not to trust them. And yet, he simply can’t, because the past still haunts him and centuries of history have taught him otherwise (and like a bunch of other reasons for him to not tell Lavellan the truth in that moment in Crestwood, but that’s beside the point here lol). 

And then at the end of Trespasser, Lavellan finally throws it straight to his face, and while he could pull any of the excuses listed above, he simply can’t refute them anymore. Look at his expression as he just looks at them in response, at first still frowning for a second, as if he’s still about to argue them again, but then suddenly shifting into sorrow, slightly shaking his head in defeat. “I got nothing.” Solas, who easily managed to own you in any debate prior to this, is all out of arguments. It’s the final argument and the Inquisitor won.

(Well, technically, it even happens twice in this final conversation, if we’re counting Solas’ internal debate with himself. lol)

"We aren't even people to you." "Not at first. You showed me that I was wrong."

But going back to his distrust, it surely can’t be a coincidence that this whole issue was also topic in a recent interview with DA4′s Creative Director, talking about what defines a hero.

I’ve talked about this numerous times now, like here, here or here, but what it all comes down to is basically just one more penny for the “Solas needs to learn how to trust again in order to be saved from himself” jar. lol

“We will save our friend from himself… if we can.”

Like. It’s literally his name. Pride. Saving Solas from himself does quite literally mean to strip him off his name and the belief that, to quote John Epler again, “only he has the answers, that he is the only one who can solve this” and to accept the help of others. Which is why he has to get a new name by the end of all this. I’m dying on that hill. 😂

#solas #trespasser #solavellan #that's my read on the whole thing anyway lol #I love this little moment so much #and his facial expression tells you everything #I wonder if we'll get a moment like this in DA4 #''I would treasure the chance to be wrong once again my friend'' #if we finally manage to prove him wrong once and for all #I would love the DA4 protag to be like ''Checkmate'' #and Solas to acknowledge it respectfully #having to swallow his own pride #that's kinda my dream outcome I guess 😂 #audio #language comparison #the biggest problem in all of this is just that.. Solas is quite literally the only one who's able to save his people (for now at least) #it's very much the ''Mordin Solus sentiment'' in ME3 in that he's like ''Has to be me. Someone else might get it wrong.'' #which just so happens to be also written by Patrick Weekes lmao #like Solas IS the one who created the Veil so to him it's also his responsibility now to fix it again #like he's literally the only one with the knowledge AND the power to do this so.. no wonder he's trusting no one but himself lol

[puppyeared]

MAN your art, but especially the latest pieces of Walking Fire Friend and Sparkle Dog really have the vibes of like, sanrio?? I want stickers and half a dozen accessories with them plastered all over so bad

!!! thank u for the kind words!! im playing around with the halftone effect, i like how it makes it look like a newspaper comic ^_^

#i also wanna design stickers so sososo bad.. id love to make some skip to loafer stickers with the main four <3 #i dont reallyknow much abt the process itself though.. and i dont have a paypal or any way to send or receive money in the first place orz #im sure ill do it once i figure it out but i appreciate the sentiment!!! #its been my dream to make my own custom motivational stickers with little dogs.. like the ones i used to get in grade school lol #im not sure if ill keep going in this direction with my art bc its all experimental but its been really fun playing around with it #its bothered me for the longest time that im just ass at rendering or putting detail in my art. but at the end of the day i just dont #care enough to go thru with it and i prefer to keep things simple anyway so that reflects my own tastes ig... #this is probably the closest ill get to a soft render that i like to see so if i could do more for that ill definitely try...!!!! #yapping #ask #answered #doodles #sona #puppysona

[sskk-manifesto]

Atsushi's back in the game!!! ۶( ˆ o ˆ )

#And Kouyou!!!! #Also. I can say Steinbeck is kinda 👀👀👀 #King of the specific category of “I forget I like him until he's on screen” #I'm seriously unlocking memories with this rewatch. Like I haven't thought about it in two years– #but I just know when I was watching the anime for the first time I was being like #“Of COURSE the villains need to spend several minutes each episode explaining in detail how their own superpowers work so that the– #protagonists can get a perfect idea of how to best counter them. Why are villains made so freaking stupid in this show” aljhvwslchvqliyqwb #But. Eh. I guess that's just bsd to you. #Alsoooooo random thought of the day: I don't really favour how Tanizaki's ability was adapted in the anime. #I very well understand they were going for this green Matrix-like illusion effect‚ but every time someone says “... Snow?” #I'm like please explain where do you live that has snow glowing green. #Aamsjgvfaskjhfv sorry this is me being very. Cranky and nitpicky and having terrible audience etiquette in refusing to– #engage in suspension of disbelief. It just bugs me akvakcvqkyb I just feel like... Green is such a non-snow color– #that quite of completely disrupts the Light Snow / Sasame Yuki aesthetic. I would have liked it much better light blue or simply white. #What else. The way the Guild just goes on at stereotypes still troubles me a lot. The “usamericans can't be touched by laws– #because they use money to corrupt anyone” “foreign criminal organization come in our country to corrupt our pure and untouched soil” #Idk. Maybe all of it is true. Can it still be deemed a stereotype when it's objectively something that's happened before– #and will probably keep happening? #I suppose I'm just not a fan of the constant hostility against any foreigner. Idk. #This situation besides is extremely ironical. If you meet me irl it probably won't take long to see me being very outspoken about– #how much I despise usa cultural colonization of all other countries. It's something that really bothers me‚ how rooted and pervasive– #their influence is. So in a lot of ways I can relate to the author's sentiment #I just feel that. If you start treating them as stereotypes and ignore the complexity of a country and the wide spectrum of causes– #that contribute to its attitude in international relations. You end up practicing precisely what you're trying to criticize. #Okay this is the last time I'm getting into the politics of the Guild arc lol #random rambles #This time I took watching the episode slow I feel a little late

[catzgam3rz]

Life delivers me the weirdest gifts at the weirdest times

I’ve thought for almost two years I had lost one of my first pieces of Ranboo merch and just accepted that I’d never see it again

And then???? It just fucking appeared??? In a hamper???????? Out of nowhere?????

The universe sends blockmen in moments of need ig

#rambles #it’s fucking baffling me you don’t understand #i RIPPED this house apart multiple times over the last two years #where the FUCK was it hiding???? how did it get there???? #anyways I never wore it anyways it’s just sentimental to me #because it was the first YouTuber merch I bought for myself and it was from his first ever run of merch #if I remember correctly lol I’m p sure I bought it In September of 2020 #AND I think it was pre DSMP for me idk it has a lot of memories in it #for a shitty little crewneck with comic sans on it lmao #it also has a crush stain from when I spilt a 2 liter on my bed watching twilight #personal I suppose

[merakiui]

Your tags talking about being alone in the woods with jade made me think of this one thought I had bouncing around in my brain for a while. The thought of being alone with jade at night at the campsite you both put together, sitting by the campfire while drinking something he "borrowed" from the lounge stocks and getting buzzed from it. The innocent touches (which were really just him using the opportunity to getting ever so closer to you) slowly turn into him fucking you into the dirt while you're on your hands and knees.

Sorry if my utter depravity for the eel man bothered you. Your tags made me think of it and I had to let it out.

Omg yes... this is the dream. OTL getting drunk in the forest with Jade and then getting railed into the ground. <3

Imagine if the two of you aren't even that close to begin with. You're only staying in the forest to gather materials because you're partners for a project in Professor Crewel's class. But when Jade reveals a bottle of some pretty-looking liquid and tells you it's come right from the lounge's secret stocks, you have trouble denying him. Jade's good at making the worst ideas sound so pleasant, which is exactly how the two of you end up buzzed and whisper-giggling about the silliest of things around a crackling bonfire.

Alcohol always makes strangers seem so much more attractive, and the amber glow from the dancing flames highlights Jade's handsome features so nicely. You realize he's much closer than he was before, his shoulder practically touching yours as he leans in. Under normal circumstances, Jade would never be this intimate with someone he hardly knows, let alone the human Azul's tasked him with gathering information on (it's strictly business, or so he'll lie). But he can blame the alcohol for that come morning when the sun's risen and the fire is but mere ash and still-warm embers.

It's only natural that teasing, experimental touches will snowball into something more deliberate when inebriation guides you closer to lustful attraction. Wandering hands, fleeting smooches, the shedding of pesky clothes... You'll be on your knees before you know it, with your face pressed into your arms to muffle your moans, while Jade's pounding sloppily into you from behind, his hands gripping your hips so roughly his fingertips leave crescent-shaped indents in your skin. You'll spend a good portion of the night fucking in all sorts of positions, and come morning you'll wake in the tent, curled into each other like two perfect puzzle pieces.

There's a heavy silence that thickens in the air when both of you realize your proximity and slowly detach yourselves. You gather your clothes in awkward silence, dressing as quickly as possible alongside Jade. He tells you he's content with never speaking of what occurred if you are, and you agree immediately. What happens in the forest stays in the forest. You make this truce with a mouth full of granola and a mounting sense of embarrassment.

After taking the tent down, packing your supplies, and cleaning your area, you set off for NRC. Jade spies the bruising bite mark on your neck, just slightly higher than the collar of your shirt and completely visible to anyone who might be looking. He can't help the amused smirk that crawls onto his face. That'll be there for the rest of the week.

And so will your image in his mind, apparently.

#meraki thirsts #n/sfw #hi hello i am once again simping for jade leech #i think he would be a cute drunk hehe #maybe he's more expressive when he's drunk #the type to freely admit all of his deep innermost thoughts that he usually keeps sealed behind a polite smile #you get jade drunk and you will hear unfiltered honesty #and probably some breeding kink #he has the filthiest thoughts bouncing around in that brain of his #he sees you tipsy and thinks you look so breedable #it's the eel instincts <3 #conversely i think floyd would become sleepy and maybe even a little reserved or more easily irritated #he gets really energetic but is just as quick to crash and become so tired #azul is far more emotional very clingy cries when you tell him that's enough alcohol #probably shameless as well #the type to give you the dreamiest look while admitting all sorts of truths #no veiled sentiments or backhanded compliments #just real true genuine tako #also breeding kink LOL jade and floyd are dragging him back to his room #and he's throwing a tantrum over how he'll never get to give you any babies #because he's being 'taken away from you forever' (dramatic tako) #azul wants to experience the eager anticipation that is waiting for his babies to come swimming home #to you and him after they hatch T_T he wants a sugary happily ever after under the sea #also the type to ask the next morning 'did i do or say anything strange?' #jade and floyd are like 'lol do you *really* want the receipts from that night?' #knowing the twins they likely have all of it on video #azul is mortified </3 his babygirl-ness really shows through when he's drunk

[jichanxo]

bennybear [from july 2023]

#jichanart #magusverborum #flex and herds #FINALLY a ben post it's taken a while #um hi i like him very much #overly sentimental art because it's based on an actual memory #we're walking to the bus stops near central station together and it's raining #waiting for the pedestrian crossing #i dunno it was a nice moment for me #he's just listening to me talk or something... we were talking about livin la vida loca before this lol #he's not smiling in this artwork because i like how he looks when he's not doing anything in particular #don't get me wrong though his smile is cute too #embarrassing am i right #look at me being sincere on the internet #i'm holding back a little bit but it is kind of nice to talk about my actual feelings behind this artwork #whereas everywhere else i posted this i didn't really feel i had the space to elaborate #tumblr tags my personal diary

[brittlebutch]

The 'Enjoying watch you suffer' line in Broadcast has always been hard to pin down; Tim's leg getting broken is the biggest incident in Entry #35, so it's natural to want to tie the two together, but it seems to fit so indelicately into what we know about the timeline of totheark's internal relationship that it almost causes more problems than it resolves. However, even though it's very blink and miss it, Tim does actually manage to stab Alex in the arm before he gets knocked down -- we hear Alex cry out in pain, can see blood on the blade when Jay picks it up, and then in the recovered corrupted footage from that tape that Jay posts as Entry #36 Alex says "I did what I had to... he'd just stabbed me" -- and that injury being what totheark was trying to call attention to, to me, reads a lot more clear and consistent than anything else does

#N posts stuff #marble hornets #it's so hard to figure out lol bc Tim's leg is The Thing so it feels like they should be linked but like it just doesn't seem to flow #and the timeline of s2 is so mangled by the mix mash and retreading ground of all the tapes #ie; Present!Jay uploading Past!Jay's (and Past!Alex's) tapes and commenting on them while Present!TTA responds to both #that it's hard to figure out if TTA is still working together in that Present!Time or if it's Only in the old tapes and they fell out like #Immediately after Jay got the code for the safe from them - which is Possible? We do know that Tim and Brian separated #like Right after they'd managed to separate Jay and Jess but IDK if that separation would account for the kind of anger implied in #the sentiment 'enjoying watching you suffer' you know? And Jay doesn't get Tim's medical records until s3 - which we KNOW #is the Final Death Knell in TTA's relationship and i don't think Brian would have sat on those for so long so i feel like he hadn't #found them by this point in s2 - that must have come later. so That makes this line feel so out of place in their relationship #BUT if Brian is paying more attention to Alex than Tim at this point then it makes A Lot more sense if it's directed at him #and since the creators Specifically included that corrupted footage that makes Sure to get 'he stabbed me' clear in audio AND #in Jay's subtitles - I wonder if that's an attempt to draw attention to that injury and maybe clarify the TTA upload a little bit? #OR you know maybe I'm reading into it all too much but hey. with this series that's actually a pretty solid living so #mh lb #i'm rewatching bc i'm about to start giving the Bleed More fic another attempt at getting finished and finalized so. keep an eye out :3c

[vriendenboekjes]

waitt i saw ellian @pendraegon mention the 9 end of year selfies... here are some of mine! let's bring this back!!!?!

#basically sone of the only ones i could find LOL #🌬️ #the year i got my glasses..... #also the year of lol im going crazy over this. my dad's sui attempt and stroke. but also the tear of having TWO fun holidays! #and the year of. after 2 years. finally feeling a little more energized the past couple of months #the year pf wisdom tooth removal nr 1. the year of countless doctor's visits. and the year of new and rekindled friendships! #ok im getting sentimental now. i will provably delete this in a day or two #jupes dot jpeg

[incorrectdeceptionquotes]

holy sh¡t a Deception fan in the year of our lord 2023?? how does it feel being in a fandom with 4 people in it bestie

Do not cite the deep magic to me, child... I was there when it was written!

#jokes aside #I remember when the fandom had a somewhat active 200+ fans that made fan content for the show #I was 18 when I started this blog #I'm 23 now and... wow #I made jokes about how it'll be five years and I won't be over this show... apparently I was not wrong lol #though now it's more of a fond nostalgia #I have fics I never finished #though I kinda wanna make little summary posts to just explain how those fics would've ended #in the summer of 2018 I wrote SO MUCH fanfic content because I didn't take summer courses my first year #tbh sometimes I wish I never even heard of the show but then I think of the good things it brought me #like the cool online friends I found #to discovering that I love to write and pulling me out of my first year depression #wow this got kinda sentimental #point is... #I am still kinda a fan #I make incorrect quotes now and then when I find something I think would work #I would love to see some sort of closure to the story #and tbh I still get excited by new fics #especially the Kaymeron ones #but I would love to talk more about it #if people were interested #deception

[rillils]

what side of the bed do steve and bucky sleep on

hallo my dearest nonnie :3 here are some thinky thoughts for you, at least the few I could fit here bc the brain wouldn’t stop producing increasingly ridiculous scenarios lol

before the war

when they push their beds together, which is on most nights, Bucky tends to sleep on Steve’s left side, for practical reasons (as well as the simply, purely self-indulgent concept of getting to fall asleep next to Steve, that is):

one, that’s the side where the window is, and on the colder nights, when chilly draughts will creep in through the crack in the broken frame (that’s been sitting askew since about February ’37), Bucky can curl around Steve’s shivering frame, his chest to the curve of Steve’s back, his arm wrapped carefully around Steve’s waist, and shield him from the cold.

(Steve pretends not to know this. Steve may also pretend he’s asleep when he inevitably snuggles back into Bucky’s warmth, and settles his arm over Bucky’s arm, his hand over Bucky’s hand where it spans Steve’s soft stomach – and if somehow their fingers lace together, filling in each other’s gaps, it’s really nobody’s fault.) (Steve does not pretend he doesn’t love feeling the bow of Bucky’s smile against his neck whenever this happens.)

two, laying on this side gives Bucky access to Steve’s good ear; which is good, because Bucky wants Steve to hear him when he whispers Good morning, always spoken first, always sweetest, and listens for Steve’s sleep-rough Mornin’ in return;

when pre-dawn has barely colored their bedroom in soft blue and periwinkle, and Steve tries to roll away and slip out of bed first, have coffee ready in its pot for when Bucky gets up; and Bucky captures him in his arms, cajoles Steve back into their private cocoon; he wants Steve to know it when he murmurs, Shh, we got time. We can stay a while still. He wants Steve to hear him say it, say we, say us, and he wants Steve to catch the meaning behind it, the holy trinity of You and Me and Home hidden in that one syllable, and feel Steve shiver sweetly at the sound of it;

and on those nights – those nights when Steve’s body opens up for him – when Steve guides him inside and lets Bucky move them together–

when he twists his head back to seek Bucky’s mouth, offering up his cheek, his neck to Bucky’s hungry kisses, Bucky needs him to hear it – the desperate whispers of Please, the breathless praise of Stevie, Steve, Steve, so perfect, drivin’ me insane, doll, the helpless stream of I love you, love you – Bucky won’t let Steve miss a single ounce of it.

now

I think, when Bucky first comes back, being hyper-aware of his surroundings most of the time, the instinct to take the side of the bed that’s farthest from the door is strong, even more so when they’re spending the night away from home for one reason or another;

Steve doesn’t mind. Steve doesn’t even wait for him to ask anymore – he simply claims the door side of the bed for himself, places his broad, strong body between Bucky and the lurking shadows outside and makes a point of tangling their legs together under the blankets. If they want you, he’s said before, his lips sealing the vow against Bucky’s temple, they’ll have to go through me.

this doesn’t guarantee that they won’t, occasionally, wake up on the opposite side than the one they fell asleep on;

mainly in the summer, when Steve starfishes his large mountain-sized self in the middle of the mattress, and then Bucky has to work around him and/or crawl over him (any instances of him elbowing Steve in the guts during this process are totally and entirely accidental) just to go take a piss at 2 AM, and crawling back to his original spot is just too much work (and work means more heat, and more heat means more sweat), so he just plops down in the nearest corner available.

(Things may also get interesting on warmer nights because sleepy, overheated Steve has a tendency to chase after Bucky’s metal arm like it’s the holy grail and he’s stuck in an abridged episode of Monty Python, which is why sometimes – but don’t tell anyone – sometimes Bucky detaches the prosthetic from his shoulder, sticks it in the fridge for a couple of hours, and then leaves Steve to hug it like a teddy bear. Honestly, it’s worth it just to hear Steve’s sigh of relief, and watch his brow smooth into serene sleep. It’s nice while it lasts.)

My point is, no matter which side they’re laying on, as long as they’re together, they’re happy either way 💕💕💕

#anon #stucky #my brain feels kind of like a weird whirlwind of pure dumbassery right now but lol what can you do #i have some more random thoughts but i already rambled enough so #sgdjhdfkjg #i firmly believe that steve still loves to be the little spoon whenever he gets the chance #he also snores with the ethereal grace of a jackhammer #bucky still forgets the bedside lamp on sometimes bc he's a sentimental boi and he likes to fall asleep to the sight of steve next to him #(steve pretends not to notice this either) #they're not above falling asleep sprawled on top of each other like big beefy lumps of love #and i gotta stop sjdhfksdjfkg #sorry everyone #rillers scribbles #ALSO I DID NOT REREAD THIS FJDHGFKD SORRY

[actionsurges]

look, i follow you and not them + i know nothing about dnd, so you know im not really biased here. but you were gratuitously rude. just saying.

you know nothing about dnd

#as it turns out i just have to take every stupid sentiment someone puts on my post. on my blog. a fairly anonymous 20something year old #on the internet. #i have to just take it. and not get annoyed by it. #and not get to have a little bit of fun sometimes #also hey wait what. tinky winky is Gratuitously Rude. #i also consider going onto someone's post where they talk about not liking something going 'lol you don't do this' in a braggadocious way #to be Gratuitously Rude #also the answers they were looking for were on my blog so clearly they were not interested in an actual answer

[kingdom-of-ire]

My brother has a habit of printing out photos of stuff he likes. it's sort of an autism thing I guess.

it's usually stuff like photos of the dog, his favourite food, stock images of chocolate milk, sometimes it's his toys.

but I was rooting around in the hall and I found these

he's in a fandom :,]

he's growing up too fast man. and he chose much better choices than I did when it came to first fandoms.

#ire's little brother #bloggy blog #personal shit lol #im getting a lil sentimental rn. hes 11 and i still think hes 6 every now and again #im gonna make his next birthday card learning block themed now

[the-rockit]

Just rewatched s1 e2 of inanimate insanity and man..i forgot how much this goofy lil thing means to me...like dam frfr!! I'll try to be fully caught up eventually I'm just a little sad I ever let it go in the first place but yknow

#getting sentimental over inanimate insanity lol- #but fr idk it means a lot to me #inanimate insanity #s1 e2 #also i love how much of a little shit balloon is so far lol #hes so mean/pos /silly

[silasbug]

i have no idea what happened or how it happened, but i can finally play bar chords!!!!!

i am so fucking excited. i know it's nothing special but this is a big deal for me because my fingers are short and that shit is painful, but i can actually sound the chords!! and i can switch to them with relative ease, too!

i'm going to be an absolute fucking menace now that half of the songs i want to play are actually playable for me, ha. hahahahahaha. AHAHAHAHAHA.

#and by menace i mean shyly play when nobody else is home because i'll be dead before i sing in front of anybody #with a few notable exceptions (e.g. my drinking buddy. he's already heard me croak like a dying frog so.) #'i have no idea how this happened' bub.. it's probably practice and your fingers getting strong enough to hold that shit down lol #well. i.. didn't practice these chords. ah well. thanks hands. you did me a good turn. #nooo but like. fucking *yay*. i'd given up on bar chords. at least on my behemoth of a guitar that is Sal. #he's almost uncomfortable to hold but that's my baby and i still haven't re-strung him after 10 years... disgraceful #but to be fair those strings have some silly sentimental value. okay. okay. yeah idk i'm going to be weird about this #whenever there was any kind of an F or a B or even a Gm in the chords i would just... hug my ukulele a little tighter and put Sal away #NOW I NO LONGER HAVE TO #i love my ukulele but Sal just sounds nicer. also provides a more comfortable vocal range? that makes no sense #i am only saying this after like. 3 days of being able to play them for some reason. found out just because i was too lazy to switch #when i saw there was an F in the song so i said fuck it we die. #bug.txt

[nonbinarygamzee]

its ok if you dont like the clown much as i find that to be a very sad and dull existence i can understand it. but ive always been so fascinated watching the way that theres not much room in the fandomspace of homestuck to just not care about her. its always been so weird and hostile even to perceived neutrality and on a scale that just almost never transfers over to other characters. the unanimous not just distaste but anger she instills in people, to the point of breaking through the narrative and into the tangible, living up to the intent and function of her classpect far beyond the means of her story.

like it feels like the biggest dupe in the entirety of homestuck, that AH created a scapegoat character to be an inciting force of rage and everybody sure did take that bait without much awareness at all. its almost funny to me except that it created such an air of hostility that i still feel weird just talking on my personal little comic blog. and then its doubly not funny when you look at this character, made with the express purpose of pissing everybody off, and have to see the attributes that hussie has decided to Use for that function, Who he is saying these things about and for why. and the fans who proclaim equality and consciousness are so quick to latch their jaws into that and tear as soon as the most minimal levels of obfuscation make it easy to do so. and i have to stress minimal because what about gamzees coding is even subtle?

and its not even so much that i care about fandom or even that i want to keep rehashing the admittedly embarrassing amount of damage this space did to me personally that made me unable to stop talking about this shit. but i am just so interested in people and the ways we think and especially in how that relates to stupid shit i have stake in. and in a fandom thats been constantly grasping for reasons to be taken The Most seriously, to have The Smartest takes, its just very silly to me that nobody wants to sit back a little further and peer at it all as a whole, because if they did they might just get a little bit more of a look into how a piece of media wants to trick you into agreeing with it, and that a lot of the work to make this character so Bad and Hateable was work that hussie ultimately didnt even have to do because his readerbase was so willing to do it for them. i just think it says some things about biases.

#having a very out of body kind of night but still having thoughts and more than anything trying to ground myself by typing lol. #so no idea if my point reads at all. not my responsibility tho i am just here to post nonsense #i will say ive yet to listen to homestuck made this world bc i have an intense aversion to listening to other peoples hs opinions #but i Do know that one little part where one of the hosts gets into 'gamzee didnt do this. hussie did' and its just nice to see a sentiment #like that thats been a focal point of my reading of this comic for like a decade be like. finally fucking addressed on a scale beyond like #a handful of bloggers #ANYWAYS. hi lifes been too rough to post and will probably stay that way a while but yknow #its clown town #meta