#genuinely very worried abt this one

[chimerahyperfix]

CW: Graphic depictions of violence, lots of Death and Gore, Psychological horror for like 3 lines, mentions of drowning. Please read the tags and take caution. This one's more than a little visceral.

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The King is here.

You walk through crowded halls of rushing Housemaidens getting into defensive positioning. It's like fighting a wave in the ocean, hard to push through the crowd. You make do anyways, curling through paths you normally wouldn't take.

It's a big deal to everyone but you, at this point. This is the big event, the big fight; to you it's simply where time loops back. Just another day, y'know? You've done it over and over, and you'll probably keep doing it anyways.

It's odd, pushing through the crowd. Everyone is going one way and you are going another. Rushing versus strolling. Your hands are in the pockets of your lab coat. You're practically whistling, for crab's sake!

You simply cannot be bothered this loop. It's a failure from the start: you crabbed up making the bomb, which means you're crabbed from the very beginning. You climbed up the Favor Tree and wedged yourself between the braches for a few hours to pass the time, because looping back would be too much of an inconvenience, and you could just wait until the tears started spawning in the house to go back. The birds had a good time at least, one starting to craft a nest next to you.

You ghosted throughout the day, and now its go time. Everyone else is prepared and ready to fight for time itself, and here you are just. Walking. Realistically you're searching for a tear to stop it all before it starts, but luck isn't on your side this loop.

You can hear it, hear it-- the horrors. All the screams of those unfortunate enough to cross the King's path and fight back. It would be easier, for them, to just bow back and let themselves be frozen-- but no one wants to be frozen, because that's having choice itself stolen from you, a cage of ice to lock yourself in forever. It's just as bad as being dead. Stagnant and eternally screaming.

So they march to their deaths.

The King does not take kindly to the Housemaidens fighting back. Some loops, the House isn't prepared for his attack. Those loops are the nice ones, the less gorey ones. Less dead and more frozen bodies, because no one was prepared to brawl with the monster. He can just... swoop on through and take the House without more than a handful of casualties. This loop is one of the bad ones, because your fellow housemaidens were all prepared. You always think your prepared, too, to see the outcome, but you never truly are.

You turn into the main hall, and freeze still.

No matter how many loops you go through, the carnage always gets to you. There's a nasty, overpowering smell of iron in the air and big dark stains painting the walls, the floors and the roof. Bits and pieces of mashed guts and viscera. There were people in this hallway, once.

Not anymore.

It makes you sick to your stomach like every other time. Just the thought of it. There were people here and now there's only parts of them left. Just ten minutes ago or so, there were people here.

There were people here.

The gore goes in a trail down the hall. Paints practically everything-- including frozen people, if you look down the hall. All frozen with shock and absolute horror on their faces. You recognize some of them.

You try not to think about it.

You push on. Try to ignore the way the blood seeps into your shoes very fabric so they become damp. Try to ignore the fact you're trailing someone's very life behind you now with bloody shoe prints.

There are still no tears.

Plan B, then. The King himself.

You hate going against the King. It always ends terribly with you in agony. But that's the only option left right now, so you chase him down on his little path carved from the blood of the innocent. You find him quickly, too- just down the hall.

He stops before you can get too close. The smell in the air is overpowering, the sharp tang of blood and the burning sensation of the sugar.

"Burning one." He says to you. You're not sure where he pulled that one from: the nickname was something different at some point, but you've long forgotten what it was. Maybe it's the smell of burnt, rotting sugar or maybe it's the potions that burnt your throat. You're not sure anymore.

He just... stands there. Turns around and looks at you. You can feel the dead expression you're pulling as you stare back. Blood glints on his armor, shining and the worst sight in the world and all the same kinda beautiful in its own way? Like the lightless gore is the night sky itself, sparkling with little dots. Makes you feel sick just thinking that.

"How have you done it?" He asks. He asks it every time the two of you face off, the same five words. How. A inquiry. Something you have done, you shouldn't have, and he knows it.

You... think you've gotten it, now. Your hypothesis: How you wished. It's not something you were supposed to do. You did something different something WRONG, and it did something to time itself, tearing a hole in the fabric of space. It's wrong. It's wrong, and you know it and so does the King.

He stares in your direction. You think? Despite his hands, blood-stained as they are, not being infront of his face, the mop of hair is still in the way. You can feel the glare still. Enraged. Daggers in your side.

"I don't know." It's the truth.

"You don't know?"

"I don't remember."

The King goes silent. It's odd, having an actual conversation with him. Even if it was a tiny exchange, it still throws you off. He's willing to talk, even if just a question. He's never really talked to you-- or anyone, to your knowledge-- before.

"Ouuuuhhhh... of course you don't." He wails. It sounds like nails on a chalkboard to you. "You shouldn't have been able too, oohhh... not at all..."

He raises a fist up. It sparkles like the night sky, dark dripping from between his fingers. There's still someone's remains painted on them. Preemptively you brace and throw your arms up in an attempt to block.

It's a different thing that hits you. A new attack. A giant open palm slams into your chest, and you go flying backwards into the wall. The world turns to slow motion as something in you SNAPS. Crunches. Your bones shatter and explode with the force and speed, shooting little shards of agony everywhere.

It hurts. It HURTS. Pain rips through your entire body, and you realise you've started to scream when your chest begins to hurt. Blood splatters onto your glasses, blotting out your vision.

You look up at the King. How'd you get on the floor? How are you breathing, with no lungs? You can see fragments of bone stuck between the metal of his armor.

"Let this be a lesson to you, Burning one."

Metal clinks, and your vision swims-- dots in the corners, figures blur. Blood drips down into your left eye and paints half of your vision a dark shade. Nothing but pain.

Make it stop. Make it stop, make it stop make it stop-- it hurts, it hurts it hurts it hurts.

You

Simply stop thinking. Just for a moment.

So your brain can catch up! Yeah, sure. That's a good enough excuse.

Just. Pain. You are pain incarnate, and that's all you will be until you die slowly and loop back.

You

Blink,, and

The King. Is gone. You can hear him leaving, loud stomping footsteps dissapearing down a bloodstained trail, and you just stare.

How lucky, HOW LUCKY of you to be left alive this time. Like this isn't a fate worse than death. You gasp for air, and realise all you have left is blood filling your lungs.

It hurts. You want it to end, now. It's hard to see, over the blood and spots dancing across your eyes, but you see them; tears, floating around you. A quick out. You reach out, and the pain in you flares alive, ripping and tearing you apart. You feel like your flesh is going to peel off.

Your fingers brush into one of the tears, and you sob as the ice rolls down your arm and consumes you. It feels a hundred times better than what you were feeling before.

You freeze in time-- and luckily theres no nightmare you have to endure, you just wake back up at your desk. You spend a good chunk of the morning curled up in the bathroom getting sick, because, wow! That's the worst one yet! It's curled into your very being, the feeling of breaking your bones like rock candy, the feeling of drowning in blood.

You just... have to do it better this time, or... something. Hope is fading away into background static. You can't... do this anymore. It hurts too much. You want it to stop. Please make it stop.

#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #claude looping au #isat claude #in craft and cages #cw death #cw gore #cw mentions of drowning #cw graphic violence #--- #ok. wow. this ones really hard to read. #like ok genuinely im worried this might trigger someone so i slammed every tag i could think of on #now im a horror artist. this is my wheelhouse. i do the gore n shit right #please PLEAAAASE be careful. if this one sounds upsetting to u PLEASE sit it out #genuinely very worried abt this one #but also proud as fuck because this is Pretty Good to me and also prib over 1000 words lol #just. dont push y'alls selves for funny au content plz #im very anxious abt making ppl upset haha #i get isat does horror and stuff but this is pretty graphic #please let me know if i need to tag anything else. very antsy here

[puppyeared]

fake ep idea + doodles

#i was thinking abt how funny it would be if there was a shiftythrifting blog equivalent in lmk. and half the stuff on there is #submitted by wukong. so i thought a yard sale ep would be funny lol #basically the hoard becomes problem one way or another and wukong figures the best way to get rid of his junk is thru ebay #somehow ends up selling world ending artifacts to random megapolis citizens so mk mei and redson have to scramble to find em #purposely meant to mirror the weekly shenanigans s1-2 style eps that are really goofy (dumpling ep noodles ep etc) #but it gets darker and darker because MK is not fucking ok after that whole thing with the scroll and some unchecked identity crisis #for me id want him to kind of. freak tf out because they have to find MULTIPLE chaos inducing items that could end the world while trying t #be sillygoofy and funny about it. so hes trying to mask his panic with “ohhh guys its just like the good ol days ^_^ remember that ^_^” #ESPECIALLY after that whole thing with the ink scroll. also mei doesnt buy any of it and is worried for him the whole time #as for the B plot it could be monkey king also trying to be very relaxed abt selling 4000 years worth of stuff and tang getting all huffy #like “these are priceless artifacts that could help us learn so much about the past!! wtf man!!!” #and maybe it reveals smth like wukong not wanting to hold on anymore bc his past weighs him down. and theyre all reminders #i think azure mentioned that wukong is sentimental (idk if that was genuine or lying to mk) so that could be touched on to #so basically. the theme would be some sort of conversation abt nostalgia. i think. im not a writer so its very fuzzy in my head #if anyone wants to add on or include their own spin on it feel free. also included undercut redson as a treat somewhere in there #myart #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #lmk red son #lmk mei #lmk MK #lmk xiaotian #lmk xiaojiao #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #doodles #lmk tang #lmk pigsy #lmk traffic light trio #yard sale ep

[hiort]

pajama party with besties!!

#they love you very much dont worry #genuinely #like fr #no one is getting eaten or kworded im not abt allthat!! #demon forms brain rots #belphie is fading away… someone catch himb.. #beels a bug. DUH #like a mantis and cicada? don’t know #obey me #obey me nightbringer #my art #obey me fanart #obey me shall we date #omnb #omswd #obey me demon forms #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor

[ribbononline]

& every time it's you

#hardenshipping #magma leader maxie #aqua leader archie #gay people in every universe. do you get it #anyways this is very self indulgent LMAO this is just all my aus where they looked visiblly different enough in the portrait area #big fan of dropping beauty n the beast au into here without ever introducing it also #'why is maxie a furry in one' dont worry about it. he likes it actually! its fine #okay in order now #beauty and the beast au #not an existing tag thats fine #pmd au #splatoon au #also not an existing tag i think i never shared more abt that one other then the initial post here #admin au #2x! #ponyo au #and then just main verse :] meant to be the post oras designs but you cant really see it #also it remains so funny drawing OR admin au max because its like. that ones too happy thats not maxie #when you never went through your angry lonely sad mad development arc and you r actually capable of just showing you like things and #smiling genuinely without embarassment etc etc etc #max is meant to b taking a picture of them on his ipad on that one btw wwww

[solargeist]

can u explain the hands in ur most recent grian and xelqua comic perchance

the gloved hand is kingdom of valor, the hesitant one in the middle is YHS, and the last was another au of mine bc I couldn’t think of another tragic grian 😭⭐️

doesn’t make perfect sense, but I liked the idea of reference instead of random implications ? @_@ if that makes sense

#Ask #after finding out what KOV was it’s been haunting me for months I feel so bad I have to save him RETCHES #it’s a very stupid series don’t worry abt it it’s genuinely very boring and badly edited #the only context you need is grian gets graphically assaulted twice and vows to kill everybody after #burning down villages and killing innocent people bc he’s angry and horribly traumatized and no one cares abt him #but the other two actors treat the assaults as complete jokes and it’s honestly rly disgusting to hear so ! Now u don’t need to see it. #I get very obsessed with things so I’ve just occasionally felt sad abt this #AUGH man it’s so upsetting why did they even film it as a joke 😭⁉️ only grian took it seriously I feel so sick abt it #it’s like when people misunderstand Berserk 🔪

[lotus-pear]

actually tearing my hair out bc i sat down to review my fic today since i’m getting close to the publication date (i think i should mention that i write in first person for the initial draft because it goes smoother during the writing process since i’m literally just projecting what’s in my head onto the screen and then go back to change it to third person later) BUT AS I WAS GOING THROUGH THE CHAPTERS IT SOUNDED SO GOOD IN FIRST PEROSN POV :((((((((( but reading fp is kinda cringe imo so i tend to avoid it for the final draft but like AUGH IDK i’m in a dilemma I NEED HELP DECIDING

#writers come forward i need pov tips. like reader preferences and when you should use 1st or 3rd😔💔 #your girl doesn’t know SHIT abt writing fics since i was cast headlong into this without a clue of how to write narrative stories #on the other note! my friend is doing very well w the drawings she’s finished abt ten characters :) #i made her do the easy ones first like dazai and akutagawa so she didn’t have to worry abt details #taught her abt subsurface scattering yesterday and she’s doing pretty good i must say. i was genuinely surprised #anywya i think it’s unfair that i help her w anatomy or wtv but she just leaves me to drown here. toxic relationship but wtv ig

[vampkomori]

wondering if childe being designed with red hair was researched and has a deeper meaning bc theres a bunch of stuff that makes a weird amount of sense. for him to have red hair specifically.

red hair is basically a mutation (mc1r gene) and it affects a bunch of different stuff, not just hair color, but also vitamin production and pain receptors

redheads in particular produce their own vitamin D so historically people with that hair color moved more towards colder climates bc they could retain heat better and thus could withstand the cold more. bc of their vitamin D production they also had stronger bones than people who didnt have red hair so its theorized that in colder climates redheads were having more children than non-redheads bc the latter just had brittler bones and had a rough time in the cold (the video i watched abt it also made a joke abt how redheads would thrive "underground" more than in the sun and well. funny that). also apparently some redheads need 20% more anesthesia than non-redheads bc they can have a higher pain tolerance

so its interesting that childe, known redhead, lives in a cold climate (snezhnaya) has a lot of siblings, and survived the abyss (makes his own vitamin D, has Stronger Bones, possibly high pain tolerance) its kind of hilarious? are u telling me him having red hair is deep. i love that

#childe tartaglia #gi #i watched cari can read's video abt it specifically and its a fun watch. i didnt know most of these things ! #near the end she also says that redheads have white hair instead of grey hair when they grow older which is #another funny thing in relation to childe bc he has a little white strand in his hair #the video in general is very educational i just have to make it abt childe. sorry. as if its my fault #k.txt #anyway Lots of funny coincidences. if they are that. i genuinely wouldnt put it past hyv to have designed him with red hair on purpose #also so nobody takes this the wrong way. redheads arent Superhuman or anything and in genshin particularly no one should generalize them #theyre not All Like Childe he also has redhaired siblings who are normal n probably have as much of a chance in the abyss than nonredheads #(which is next to none) #so worry not. he is still a little freak of nature

[dutybcrne]

The only person who has actually seen Kaeya's right eye after the immediate treatment post-Confrontation is Adelinde. He adamantly refuses to let anyone else see under it, especially those like Jean or Diluc who knew him best. The thought absolutely makes his gut churn. He would do anything to make sure no one catches sight of his eye if he can help it. Anything.

#hc; kaeya #//Adelinde is the only one; because he's the only one he can truly never say no too #//If she wants to check up on how his eye is; he'll only ask they move to a room where they can be alone to do so #//Jean's tried to convince him to let her see it after she got her Vision and realized its healing properties #//He adamantly refused #//Let the healers see it only ONCE; & their reactions made him genuinely consider if he should let them get away with the knowledge of it #//Spun up some tale why his eyes were mismatched & the burns as awful as they were to stave them off #//But from that point on; would NOT let them see it. If anyone was treating his eye; it would be HIM and HIM alone #//Is probably why it didn't heal up as well as it could have under their care. Can still sort of see; but nowhere near as clear as the othe #//Most of the folks who treated him and saw his eye left with Varka. He has lingering paranoia of what they could say abt him to Varka #//He's even snapped at Klee for trying to see; having been playfully trying to steer her away from taking the patch off #//Then just Panicked when he felt the string loosen. he felt so awful afterward; esp with how she'd burst into tears #//Anyone trying to or being perceived as trying to take off the patch WILL get a nasty strike of frostbite #//Which is why it takes a MASSIVE amount of trust to touch even that side of his face #//He esp doesn't want it seen immediately after using Abyssal energy; its influence is VERY noticeable there in particular #//Diluc is the one he'd loathe to see it the most; but not over a grudge; he's worried that in the (High Unlikely) case of him still caring #//That Diluc might blame himself for how the injury resulted. And/or try to 'help' with/talk abt it. And Kae doesn't want that at ALL #//There's also a lingering fear that Luc might in fact say the opposite and allude that Kae DESERVED the scars/affliction #//Which Kae wouldn't contest (nor does he think Luc is cruel enough to); but it Devastate him to hear it nonetheless #//Kae'd rather live in a permanent limbo wondering how Luc would react than actually find out; thanks #//Not even other Khaenri'ahns like Dainsleif are exempt; bc he doesn't want to say his usual cover story for the burns #//Wouldn't be as believable to the likes of them compared to the other Mondstadters

[istherewifiinhell]

Okay okay. last one..... for now .... 😈 trans robot also trans in a human way. remember?

[VD:  A clip of transformers: Earthspark of Nightshade Malto, a young terran transformer, speaking with a human on a roof top at night. Now with their owl alt mode, dark green plating, lighter coloured limbs, very large green eyes, swooping pointed shapes on their shoulders and helm.

Full transcribe below

Full moon in the sky, owl hooting. Nightshade bursts into frame with a screech, holding the human in their talons.

They fly down to a roof top, the human making noises and saying "OH! Put me down, put me down!". Nightshade transforms into bot mode, parts of their helm folded inwards, and covering their lower face with a mask like plating. They lean into the light and unfurl their plating.

The human has a bob with bangs and a blue streak, and wears glasses, and is hiding behind a held up bag, afraid. The bag has rainbow handles, and several ennamel pins, including one that says "She/they". 

Nightshade tilts their head: Oooh! I like your pins! [The human looks confused, Nightshade smiles] I am Nightshade, my pronouns are they/them!

She smiles cautiously and lowers their bag: Thanks, I'm Sam. [They approach Nightshade] I'm... She/they... but you already know that. [Laughs awkwardly]

She walks to the edge rooftop, looking over the city. Nightshade leaps ontop of the water tower. Eyes big with awe, camera rotating around them as they take in sight: Wow, what an amazing city.

They leap down the half wall Sam stands infront of, balacing and walking across it. Sam watches this: I'm sorry for how I reacted, its just. [They lean again the wall, looking down to the city] Sometimes the world can be... a scary place. It's hard to know who's dangerous or not.

Nightshade sits, legs dangling of the roof, humms: That's true, though disapointing. [Looks down sadly]

Sam, encouragingly: Hey... its okay! I know I'm safe when I'm with my friends... or other non binary people [She gestures to Nightshade]

Nightshade, looking interest: Non binary?

Sam: People who aren't female or male. [Nightshade looks away. Sam off screen] Awww I'm sorry... I shouldn't have assumed.

Nightshade smiles, joy in their voice: I always knew my pronouns felt right but. [Flicks eyes ups, looks down. Cut to wide] What a wonderful word, for a wonderful experience.

END

#some shit #its not called cisformers #GENUINELY. i understand not all nonbinary ppl consider themselfs trans. so if nightshade would FINE BY ME. #but u know. GETTING MY GRUBBY LILLTE HANDS IN THERE #anyway. #SERIOUSLY. ppl see this kid like. Oh i NEED to bond with them about our shared experiences #(NIGHTSHADE NOT UNIQUE IN THIS TODAY WAS JUST ABT THEM dfhgjhdf) #if cause u wondering. they did NOT kidnap that human for shiny bag reasons. they were being mugged. her bag is just a bonus. #cant get thru this one without start tearing up. FOR REAL.FOR REAL FOR REAL. KIDS GET TO SEE THIS? #A WONDERFUL WORD FOR A WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE???? #here nightshade isss?? maybe a couple weeks old?? #DONT WORRY. about the rest of this ep. or the very next scene. its all FINE. their siblings are FINE O_O #trans bird saga

[guinevereslancelot]

please please please let me get the job that is 11 minutes away from me on quiet roads and not have to take the one with city traffic three traffic circles and a scary turn amen 🙏

#genuinely the job im interviewing for i would turn out of my driveway on a quiet rd turn onto the road my house is on the corner of #which is also pretty quiet #then go straight for ten minutes #the other one i have to choose between a scary turn or doing three rotaries 😬 #only one of the rotaries is bad but still #also!! my friend and mentor works at this other place and the ratio of kids to teachers is way better #pay would be about the same to start but im hoping they'll eventually be able to pay more #bc it seems like s pretty fancy school tbh #anywayyy #im really anxious abt the job i accepted so i hope i can switch to this other one #but even if they dont hire me i still have a job so its not the end of the world #im just such a terrible oblivious and nervous driver lol #and im lowkey worried ibcant handle the kods at the first job #some of them are very difficult and one of them has serious behavioral issues she should probably have an aide assigned to just her but ala #but the ratio of teachers to kids is 8 kids to 1 teacher which is really hard at that age #and i've never worked with such a large class before #i applaied for the baby/toddler teacher but they asked me to do prek instead which has more behavioral issues imo #but the other job w my friend is toddler #which is a fun age to work with #so hopefully i can do that #also im not totally sure but i think that I would literally be co teaching with my friend #which would be awesome bc she already thinks im the best lol and we work well together :) #and my co teacher at the other job seems kind of mean :(

[asiancatboy]

life can be so easy sometimes. woag

#i ordered a pair of prescription transition glasses online at a great price & i love them sooo much but forgot they'd need adjusting #i just told my manager hey do you mind if i leave a little early today & she was just like yeah no worries #so i walked over to the local opticians & the woman there was so sweet. did the adjustment & was also like #'hey do you want a smaller nose pad? i think it would be more comfortable for you' so she went ahead & did that #whilst explaining to me how the process works bc i've always been genuinely curious how they adjust them. i learned they use a heat machine #to be able to adjust the temples :) also different glasses have different max heat points so you always have to be careful #then she showed me all the tools to switch out the pads which looked very fun. like tiny lego kind of fun #also she asked me abt my accent & i just told her 'no exciting story unfortunately. i'm autistic so i tend to pick up accents #but next time i'll make one up for you' to which she replied with the funniest story abt how her husband who was born without #anything past his right elbow loooooves to do that. make up stories abt how it got frozen off on a trip to the north that went bad or #bitten off by a shark or donated to someone else or to science. & she says all this with so much fond exasperation it was v funny & v sweet #7

[vamptastic]

i think my constant seething rage is honestly very reasonable. i literally live in florida.

#got in argument with a guy the other day abt idk. trans athletes #was basically him trying to explain what the issue is to me (i know. that's kinda step one to having an opinion on it.) #and then going yeah huh i guess you're actually right (i was) #and i was like okay great cool we're done here let me go to class and he starts talking about like #how he still loves trump for this and that reason kinda unprompted (sorry you lost an argument dude go introspect somewhere else im LATE) #and i was like yeah idk abt that. on account of all the corruption. and the foreign policy youre saying is like manly macho man strong is #mostly just wildly stupid posturing that's going to achieve nothing at best and world war at worst #and he goes no don't worry i think DESANTIS would be better for 2024 actually #and i. UNDERSTANDBLY. was like oh okay i cannot speak to you (because i am visibly shaking with rage) #and he goes well i think you are misattributing my intentions (cunt.) #and i said no no i don't think you're malicious i just think you're stupid and wildly misinformed #and then left bc i was about to either hit him or start crying (bc that guy has been like very tangibly ruining my life for months #and i genuinely cannot fathom what fucking tax issue or whatever one would value over like. my right to idk. Exist atp. #and also this coming from someone who just tried to be like no i know so many trans people i love trans ppl im not like those conservatives #like try to dig deep down into whatever rotted husk of a brain is left in your skull and fathom why i might have a strong reaction to your #support for DESANTIS and the SPACE LASERS WOMAN #you fucking idiot.) #and was that civil. No. and now i have to apologize to him bc i feel bad about it even though i fully meant it #idk its what i get for trying to change peoples minds with stupid things like #' statistics ' and ' a utilitarian perspective ' and ' existing legal basis for my argument ' #guys so wrapped up in their right wing bubble they just dont wanna hear it #n they always assume i mustve not heard their talking points and its like look at where we fucking live #and look at the state of the world. NOBODY in any form of mainstream news shares my politics lmao #you think i havent heard every conceivable argument abt trans people??? also you think im dumb enough to form an opinion without looking at #the other side? yeah man i know about the three trans women who have ever won a sports competition ever. do you? #do you even know their fucking names or sports or trial outcomes. #GOD just fucking. pseudo intellectual facist horseshit like pragru and infowars masquerading as legítimate sources #are making so many dumbass illiterate (i truly don't think they have the reading comprehension to decifer a study or even long article) #guys think they're gods gift to politics bc they listened to someone else tell them what a source says through ten layers of propaganda #just. uh. everyone should die forever and also learn to read.

[verdantmeadows]

Whenever I see a mutual post dislike or hate for a kin of mine/a relationship (ship) between my kin and my kin's partner I have to try so hard to stay normal like I don't think people always know how serious otherkin is like that's me you're insulting that's my relationship you're insulting

#book of kells #alterhuman tag #i am genuinely dizzy #sometimes i do block people over this but i try not to #especially if theyre also mutuals with my partner #this isnt about any close friends or people i regularly talk with for anyone worried abt that #it's also tough bc i come across hate for one of my biggest kintypes a lot #and it's. hard. like im a better person than i was in canon. #thats not the real me. thats a misrepresentation. #and my partners in that life loved me very much #we get along and we're best friends and they would never hate me #(positive affirmations)

[ronanlynchbf]

diversity loss! those ppl correctly gendering u assumed you're straight..

#well 'correctly gendering' they genuinely just saw me as Some Guy i think so automatically referred to me as he #anyway there are a group of usually four to five ppl at the train station nearest to me who stop u and talk to you about sj stuff and/or as #you to donate. so stuff like immigrant rights lgbtq+ rights the environment et cetera & they were eyeing me when i was approaching (to #potentially be stopped & talked to etc. i get stopped like. 80% of the time around there) but then turned back towards each other and said #something along the lines of 'oh this is so scary this is so hard he's so scary' and then didn't stop me to talk and literally as i walked #away (i was JUST past them some ppl rlly do not wait for someone to be out of earsight to tall abt them) one of them said 'his face looked #good (as in approachable & a potential Person To Converse With) but the rest of him....straight man. look at that blouse.' #the previous sentence loosely quoted but it was smth like that...........WTF DO U MEAN STRAIGHT MAN??? TAKE THAT BACK PLEASE I BEG 😭🙏 #<<<<<< also they meant cis straight man specifically i'm pretty sure...which is the absolute worst part of that whole assumption. #ALSO what's wrong with my blouse......... #thanks 4 the gender euphoria though. much obliged 👍 #double also i don't think i'm using this meme setup thingie in the way it is supposed to be used but it makes sense either way. to me. #TRIPLE ALSO we're just assuming that if someone is a straight man they immediately don't gaf about social justice stuff?? okay..... #i mean i get it but also big generalization. but also i get it. but also big generalization. anyway. in other news i found out my grandma #used to write my grandpa actual poems. like ACTUAL actual poems of the professional sort that she made up and wrote down herself to give #to him <3333 #& more news though this one is not very surprising and in fact very predictable I AM SO SLEEPY TIRED. ZONK TOWN I'M COMING DON'T U WORRY❗❗ #just need to read the newspaper (the mutuals' posts of 2day) and then i am going to bed IMMEDIATELY u best believe.

[latetaektalk]

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#very very confused abt the amount of ppl seemingly excited abt the next part of love to hate you #absolutely didnt expect that #im grateful to say the least!! #but idk i genuinely thought id post again and it would be a much smaller audience so now im like a fish out of water because #ppl are genuinely excited and i did not expect that #hell i thought it was the only one that still remembered those two stupid idiots!! #also was worried bc in the story its DECEMBER but we only have september/october right now #so its like #months and months too early haha #idk im really grateful and just had to get it off my chest 🥹🥹🥹 #fic: love to hate you #linh.txt

[munamania]

ok had another ‘deep’ convo or whatever with this girl (until 4 in the morning amazing since i had to be up early today) and she really is a lovely person. and i still like her so much. but i feel like i had this sinking feeling of oh jesus christ i don’t know if i can ever say something to you about this

#i mean. we talked about a Lot clearly and i feel like. idk if she is really truly just straight and im an idiot #or if she’s maybe. bi and not willing or needing to like worry about it. yk #and i’m genuinely so happy after everything we’ve talked about that she’s in like a good place and i really #do adore just. this strange dynamic we’ve built. but how much did i overestimate how much it meant to her? #ok well hang on. how much did i possibly mistake tension for… well idk. her just being someone that likes attention and us both enjoying #just talking about whatever. lol #because she is very kind and even if i am mistaking the feelings she’s still very thoughtful toward me and i appreciate that #like she’s a good friend. that unfortunately i’ve had the thought of. oh no if we keep talking am i gonna fall in like one sided love here #hopefully i can keep that under control if i can keep the expectations managed lol #i don’t know what to think whatever!!!!!!!!!!!! #film girl saga #like it feels like we’re building this foundation of trust and comfort and we’ve talked explicitly about sexuality and perception and #idk a bunch of shit. idek how many times now. and i just don’t. sigh #i don’t think she would stop being friends with me but it’s the classic well great now i don’t want it to be weird #and maybe we have a strange enough dynamic that it could easily pass lol idk. #she unfortunately knows how overthinky i am now and i know a little more abt how her thought process works #and it’s like we’re circling these conversations and i’m petrified to know if she ever. has Perceived the feelings. and either #gotten caught up in that and confused or still just enjoyed the conversation enough to look past it. or whatever another altnerative could b