#gay by association lmao

[camestela]

anyone else in their late 20s still trying to accept the fact that you might be gay and not bisexual

#letting go of my straight fantasy is the hardest thing i've done in my life it seems #i want a big house and kids and my brain cannot seem to associate that with being gay #also the fact that men pursue me a lot and girls just dont really care about me irl lmao

[divkazkdovikde]

the absolute emotional chaos when you’re bawling your eyes out because sirius just came out to effie and monty and then immediately went into panic attack because of walburga flashback but she keeps me up by nickelback is playing and you have to stop in the middle of the scene to belt out the chorus still with the tears in your eyes and then you go back to bawling your eyes out over the bloody scene while the song is still playing on the background

#if this sounds weirdly specific i have no idea why would that be actually #yeah #that’s what i get for playing a playlist on a shuffle #running up that hill started to play after the scene #like why the fuck #i have this huge marauders playlist with all kinds of songs i associate with them #so it’s like a russian roulette #but like #with songs #you never know if the song will fit the scene #lmao anyway #marauders #wolfstar #dead gay wizards #sirius black #marauders era #fleamont potter #euphemia potter #walburga's a+ parenting #fic stuff #marauders fic #q

[karinyosa]

cleaning out my following list and am being reminded of the phase i had where i was trying to make myself feel about being wlw the way i felt about being mlm (which is not what i called it at the time and also i was bisexual at this time) and i did this by. following every random carol fan blog i could find jshdsjhshjdsdcjhsdjchsbjdcgshdcjsdghcjh

#to be fair this phase introduced me to some banger media #but i literally was like so disturbed by how i felt about mlm media that i tried to compensate by placing myself in as much proximity to wl #media/aesthetics as possible shjhsjdhsjhcjshkcjhs??????? #i was trying to train myself to be sapphic/a better sapphic????? and also present as such. Online #which. like i feel like sapphic is a different thing from being wlw/gay (for women) but thats another conversation #but yeah LMAO i was like i need to be reading/watching more WOMAN media. man PURGE #bizarre form of not quite conversion therapy i dont even know what to say lmaooooooo #karinyo.txt #but yeah no like the way i dressed was to an extent how i imagined a specific type of bisexual/sapphic woman might dress #and i was trying to seek out wlw media that was like. the wlw equivalent of the mlm media i liked. like i thought the issue was the type #of media i'd seen. this is how i got into within the wires #which is a BANGER podcast to be fair wtw season 2 SLAPS. love those insane old women <3 #but no yeah i was like. it's hashtag carol christmas smiling emoji smiling emoji #literally hello fellow sapphics #this is why part of me is still like maybe the only reason i dont like girls is becuse i associate that with being a woman HJDHFJSHJ #like maybe when he gets on testosterone he'll be slightly more bisexual #may also have had something to do with the fact that most of my friends strongly preferred women and/or ided as wlw-adjacent at the time? #like i also just partially wanted to be seen by them as having good taste shdskdsjdkj #hence. man purge

[coolicywind]

Some WIP sketches of Amazomb/Zombiemask shitty gay 1940s Film Noir Idea I had in my mind and decided to draw it on my phone today lol. I will probably end up drawing more of it and posting it on Twitter (?) But I'm not too sure about that yet.

It was originally going to take place in the 20's but I changed my mind because I felt the 40's was a better fit, especially with the detective Noir aesthetic.

#amai mask #zombieman #sweet mask #zombiemask #amazomb #one punch man #i don't know anything about detectives or film noir so sorry it its inaccurate lmao 😭 #This is more of their webcomic personalities than their manga ones #Pretty angsty #This was just an excuse to draw Zombieman in a fedora and Amai Mask with slicked back hair #Slowburn but still prettty gay lol #Need my forbidden romance angst 🙈 #The Hero Association is the detective agency

[kazuwhora]

psa but if u feel the need to argue whenever someone says a character is gay/did something because of gay thoughts just know I want nothing to do with ur weird homophobic opinions and you can kindly unfollow and block me now ty <3 gay isn't inherently sexual and gay kids exist

#I dont get it #if someone headcanons something #and it has to do with gayness #who are you to argue #stop bringing your weird homophobia into people's spaces its weird #and really uncomfortable in terms of the erasure of gay people from media #there's straight explanations for everything so there can be gay explanations for everything too #if you're automatically associating gayness with fetishization and sexualization then maybe you're the problem LMAO

[cardboard-queen]

seeing more posts abt girlsmell this, boysmell that…. listen, i don’t think smell is erotic to me.

you’re next to someone. you feel a wave of comfort. you’re so close to them you can recognize them without a word, eyes closed. do you understand?

#girl smell #boy smell #soph rambles #friend sent me a meme and got me thinking abt the like #prevalence of the girlsmell / boysmell memes #maybe prevalence is an exaggeration #but way more that there was ~5 years ago #and as someone who dated a guy who was really turned on by smells #I think I can safely say I’m not lmao #idk I think it’s interesting #because I understand how ppl have rlly strong emotional reactions to ‘em #I just think mine is a lot more of a like #‘oh I’m comfortable and safe now’ feeling #maybe i’m just gay and associate the smell of ppl I rlly like with positive emotions… #anyway let’s not go crazy psychoanalzying myself #im overworked and sleep deprived and full of weird emotions #and I’m gonna make it everyone’s problem >:) #anyway thnx for reading #take care of yourselves out there

[dedtoot]

Edit:

Actually remade it in gacha club for maximum authenticity lmao

#space channel 5 #fuse space channel 5 #the gay high school meme associates with channel 5 to me so lmao #my doodle

[patronsaintofgirls]

ok you’re all convincing me to listen to hesitant alien again. i genuinely probably haven’t listened to it since it came out so here we go i guess. very much afraid

#i don’t know why i haven’t tbh?? #just never got around to it i guess. idk #OH ALSO i have a very specific memory associated with it #my first gay relationship i stole her hesitant alien shirt and kept it for like a year and a half after we broke up 😭 #i just wanted to overshare a bit LMAO

[ex-vespidae]

you can make all sports gay if you try hard enough

#sage speaks #like there are some which are just kinda inherently gay like wrestling #others can take a bit of work but i bet there has been at least some gay rivalry in like golf or somethin #gay golf.... lmaoooo #technically golf is something that is associated with the higher class #so you technically make it an exploration of being gay in a presumably homophobic place (because you know rich ppl #or at least its just an idea #it can get weirder if you chnage sport into e-sports as well #so its like #lmao im getting too far into this

[gumshoegoat]

not sure if I'll draw something for it yet, but this song is so high school era sam and max to me

#id probably make it sam pov if i do #i think he has a harder time coming to terms w being queer than max #and thats the vibe i get from this song #idk ive loved this song and the artist for years and now i gotta associate it w my fav ip lmao #a lot of sam vance law's songs are applicable tbh #i love gay artists so much

[artsybun]

WAS WORRIED I WOULDN’T FINISH THESE IN TIME BUT I DID!!

Last day of pride month I present to you, the absolutely insanity these characters bring me.

Listen, I’m well aware more than half these characters never interact, but with all the discourse due to Yona’s appearance in TOTK I simply think it would be neat if they all kissed, just a bit,,, I’ve existed in multi-shipping fandoms too long for my brain to think anything else lmao. You can have whatever opinions you like regarding your ships, I just think these bitches are cute and wanted to draw them being cute together <3

HAPPY PRIDE!!

//Edited order of art bc I realized I 100% should’ve put the pics going in order of LGBT+, so I did lmao.

Flag/color associations in order:

Lesbian flag, Gay (mlm) flag, Bi flag, trans flag, Pan flag, Ace flag, polyamory flag.

#my art #totk fanart #sidlink #zelink #yonlink #sidyona #sidyonzelink #im making it a thing #sidzelink #totk sidon #totk yona #totk zelda #totk link #totk pride art #polyamory #ot4 #happy pride 🌈 #zelyona #sidzelda #listen idk what their ship names would be

[fairycrowbar]

I’m not a huge stranger things ‘fan’ necessarily but I have seen all the seasons. And going into the tags I’m like not even sure I’m watching the same show as any of these people

#why do you all hate eleven so much #is it because she gets in the way of your gay ship? is that it? #I do not want to be associated with y’all lmao

[aceyanaheim]

The ammount of times Mike’s superiors have said “what did you just say to me” 

#acey watches! #suits #Boi Why Are You So Cheeky Who Raised You kdkjfjasndjf #freshie ass associate really said 'i dont respect my elders im gay and stronger than them'/hj #( which i mean Mood lmao)

[genderkoolaid]

I'm sorry but you people have demeaned the word lesbian so badly... the LITERAL definition of a lesbian is a NON-MAN who likes NON-MEN. How is that so fucking hard to understand? Not you specifically, but people like you have made it into something it's not; the whole "bi lesbian" and "straight lesbian" shit, saying trans men can date lesbians (which is literally just transphobic), straight up just saying lesbians can date men???? MEN???? DO YOU NOT HEAR YOURSELVES?

And now the whole butch discourse lmao. Sure, maybe in days long past it was a broader term, but today when someone hears the word butch, I can guarantee their minds will jump to a butch lesbian. If y'all want it to be the GBT community so bad then just say so

Also I can guarantee that you were one of the mfs laughing at lesbians who used he/him or he/they pronouns back in 2020 lmao performative ass bitch

Definitions of words do not descend from Heaven straight from the lips of God. We make them up! So I simply disagree with your definition of lesbian, as do many others. Personally, I enjoy the definition of "queer love/desire for women." For one, it centers lesbianism around women, instead of centering it around the exclusion of men. And two, "non-men loving non-men" is a definition which utterly erases nonbinary people. If an agender person is dating a neutrois person, they are not lesbians- or gay men- simply because y'all cannot get your head out of your binary asses for five seconds. "Non-men loving non-men" is a definition that attempts to be nonbinary-inclusive but only succeeds in making nonbinary & genderqueer identities palatable for radical feminism and political lesbianism. Honestly, I would prefer someone who defines lesbian as "woman loving woman" but understands that many people have complex relationships with womanhood while still feeling attached to the label of lesbian, than someone who uses this "NB-inclusive" definition and goes absolutely feral over genderqueers who are Doing It Wrong.

Anyways, speaking of radical feminism: acknowledging male lesbians and mspec lesbians is not "making lesbianism something its not." It is just recognizing the beautiful complexity that has always existed within lesbianism.

The lesbian community- which I'm using to refer to all kinds of communities organized around queer relationships to women & womanhood- has always been a haven for a lot more people than cis women exclusively into other cis women. The idea of sexuality-as-identity is very recent, and the idea of drawing a hard line between people who only like people of the same gender and people who like the same gender and more is also extremely recent. Beyond that, trans men and nonbinary people have always taken shelter under lesbianism. "Butch" in the context of lesbianism has always been a trans* identity, a way for people with a queer gender to find community and safety.

The reason why we have this idea of lesbianism as a strict category with hard borders is..... you guessed it..... radical feminism! And specifically "political lesbianism," which essentially placed woman-only relationships as the only true feminist relationship you could have. "Lesbian" became a political identity because of its focus on woman-woman relationships. But that meant that, for political lesbianism to be acceptable to radical feminism, it needed to conform to radical feminist beliefs about what makes a good feminist. Which meant:

No trans women or fems (because they are too male and probably predators)

No trans men or mascs (because they are too male and also traitors)

No bisexuals (because they are too male by association and are also traitors)

No penetrative sex, or at least no strap ons (because it imitates men)

No kinky sex (see above but with bonus "kink is evil" flavoring)

No butch/femme roles (because they imitate heterosexuality; everyone has to be neutrally androgynous).

I believe that much of modern lesbian discourse comes from trying to marry lingering radfem beliefs with modern attempts at trans-inclusivity. So you adapt the blatant transphobia: now, trans women are allowed in (as long as they are palatable to cis women), because they're women! And nonbinary people can also be allowed in- at first they were woman-aligned, and then later as long as they weren't man-aligned. Being butch/femme is Back In Style, but we have to soothe the gender anxiety that butches cause by assuring everyone that only True Lesbians can be butch, and butches are always women, even if they kind of aren't, but regardless they're definitely not men, because butch has always been a lesbian term (except it hasn't.) The discourse is haunted by the ideas that lesbianism is constantly under attack, more than anyone else, and that lesbian culture is unique and special and must be guarded from (male/-aligned) invaders who are probably also sexual predators.

To say that this is all just "days long pasts" ignores both that, in physical queer spaces there very much still are male lesbians and bi lesbians who are accepted parts of their local communities, and that you only see those days as "long past" because of the impact of radical feminism on lesbianism. The only reason you see these changes as a good thing is because you've swallowed radical feminist ideas without realizing it.

Also, "if you say butch most people will think of butch lesbians" is an extremely silly argument. Literally who fucking cares. If you say "man" there are still a lot of people who will immediately think of exclusively cis men (see: every feminist who says shit like "if men could get pregnant). Does that mean that trans men should just give up their identities because other people don't understand them? You dork?

Anyways. The funniest part of this ask is how damn confident you are that I was apparently hating on he/him lesbians three years ago. Idk how to tell you this but I'm a boygirl gaylesbianbisexual and have identified this way for years. I have been personally terrorized by shitty lesbian identity politics, the same ones you are repeating now, which told me that if I was even 1% male then identifying as a lesbian made me a disgusting predator. Which caused me years of suffering because no matter how hard I tried, I could not ignore my multigenderedness and how that affected my sexuality. Sowwy but you look silly as hell and your argument is bad and you should feel bad </3

#this made me laugh out loud tho thanks for that ! #m. #ask box

[whetstonefires]

So like, I'm pretty darn sure Mo Xuanyu did not actually make a pass at Jin Guangyao.

For several reasons, like for one thing hitting on your own actual brother who is also your boss is genuinely insane behavior, in a way nothing else we know about the guy actually matches, other than his reputation for being crazy which mostly seems to originate from the same point as the sexual harassment allegations. which tracks because even with rampant societal homophobia, that's such a crazy thing to do people would question it if it didn't come paired with the information that he's insane.

Then there's the fact that if that had actually happened, there's basically no way master spin artist jgy would have let it get out, because actually experiencing that would trigger his sense-of-uncleanliness issues so hard.

But what we see is that somehow Everyone Knows that it happened, but also that Jin Guangyao totally didn't tell anyone, because he's too merciful and kind and respectable. It just mysteriously leaked somehow that this private scandal happened.

(Also, to step up a meta level, the gay goth kid who was never quite accepted into his own family and wound up self-destructing was in fact guilty of the homophobic allegations spread by the powerful man who manipulates reputation for personal advantage? This is not the kind of story where that would be true. The thematic dissonance is too much.)

The only way it's believable that mxy made a move on jgy is if jgy spent a long time maneuvering him into it, hinting and deniably flirting and just generally being maximum skeeze, just a huge elaborate incestuous honeypot, just to bait a 'ruined reputation' trap. Which makes no sense at all.

I don't think jgy is necessarily above that kind of creepy grooming behavior but I do think he would hate it, and definitely wouldn't resort to it when sowing rumors would work just as well. and expose him to less risk.

So Mo Xuanyu didn't do it.

So what we've got is that Jin Guangyao systematically obliterated this kid's credibility.

No one would listen to anything he said after being expelled in that sort of context, especially anything against Jin Guangyao, whom he now has obvious motive to smear. This was a preemptive strike against some kind of leak.

It's exactly the kind of thing jgy would do--it targets individual vulnerability, leverages the weak points in Mo Xuanyu's reputation into gaping chasms, in a way that associates jgy with scandal but makes him personally look better. also shows signs of jgy projecting his own issues onto others. The MO fits.

And his motive is easy to construct: Mo Xuanyu had had access to his secrets, such as Wei Wuxian's manuscripts and probably a lot of the other ugly shit. And Jin Guangyao needed him silenced, due to some thing or other, but as with SiSi didn't want to have to kill him.

(A fascinating thing about jgy as a villain is the moments where he yields to sentiment pretty consistently contribute to his destruction.)

But then we come around to: so why didn't Mo Xuanyu sic Wei Wuxian on Jin Guangyao, then?

In cql wwx does have a curse cut for jgy, to keep him in the plot and create an additional open storyline to resolve, since viewers are gonna be denied romantic catharsis, but in cql the homophobia plotline isn't there because all the gay is censored, and mxy allegedly hit on qin su instead. which is less utterly unhinged to do though still big wtf.

In the book, mxy summoned the Yiling Patriarch just to kill the Mos. (Which he didn't even do lmao.)

So I've always been sort of poking at that, like if you're destroying your own soul to get revenge, why spare the person who deliberately ruined your life?

Even if he had done the thing, it was weird! Maybe even weirder; if you're in a headspace where making sexual advances anyone should be able to predict are unwelcome seems like a good idea in the first place, there's a pretty good chance getting punished for them isn't going to make you think you were in the wrong. Otoh there is a zone where he could have done it, gotten the backlash, cleared his head a bit, realized it was fucked up to do, and therefore not held a grudge in that particular direction, but it's still weird. (And also he definitely didn't do the thing.)

But if he was so angry, why was he not angry at Jin Guangyao? Who definitely kicked him out of the Sect, all else aside?

And then I looked at the passage in Jin sect where we swap to Jin Ling's pov and he tells us one of the few first-hand things we hear about Mo Xuanyu: He thought Jin Guangyao was the most amazing person in the whole world. He adored him.

And being betrayed and rejected by him didn't turn that into resentment. Even though he resented the other side of his family enough to want them gratuitously murdered.

So you know what I think happened?

I think Mo Xuanyu thinks it was an honest misunderstanding. That Jin Guangyao, his idol, falsely concluded that his gay little brother was creeping on him based on a misinterpretation of his admiring behavior, and was appropriately revolted. And that Mo Xuanyu doesn't blame him for it. He blames himself.

He went back to his mother's family to rot genuinely feeling like the ruination of his life was his own fault for being creepy. And died like that.

Because of that, to a considerable extent. How can you bend any of your will to saving yourself, to getting out of an abusive situation and seeking a better one, when you don't think you deserve to be saved?

Fucks me up.

#hoc est meum #mdzs #mo xuanyu #meta #internalized homophobia #homophobia #suicide #abuse #gaslighting #the untamed #cql

[apollosgiftofprophecy]

I live for all these ships with Apollo like Apollo and Thanatos, Cupid, and even the most dumpsterfire ship of all time Copollo (I go feral over these two)

But one ship that stood out to me was Boreas and Apollo, and apparently the Boreads describe Apollo as "Beloved of our sire" And the fact that Koios is basically Boreas' boss makes this so much more better

So basically I'm asking for Boreas and Apollo headcanons 👀

(And if you take fic reqs, I wouldn't mind a fic with these two)

Apollo is SOOOOOO Shippable lmao XD He has such a variety of lovers and that really allows us to be able to explore a variety of relationship!

Healthy or toxic, lmao XD Copollo is Top Tier imo

and on the topic of Boreas, I have one extra thing to add there because I personally headcanon that Lelantos, titan of air & moving unseen (and apollo's uncle), used to be the head of the wind gods but was stripped of his title by Zeus post-titan war because he sided with Kronos.

So therefore, both of Boreas's bosses are relatives of Apollo's lmao XD

HEADCANONS, EH?

ahem

Imo, Hyperborea was some sort of courting gift or something Boreas gave Apollo. Because here's the thing with Hyperborea:

It's the One Place Boreas does not blow his winds, hence its title of Eternal Spring.

Boreas's palace resides at the southern border of Hyperborea, with gryphons who live in BOTH places.

Three of Boreas's son are PRIESTS of Hyperborea, and serve Apollo when he's there.

Three of Boreas's daughters joined Artemis's hunt (Oupis features in my fic Shattered Minds, btw!)

Hyperborea is literally "over the north wind" in Greek.

I think we can all agree winter is the time Apollo and Boreas hook up lmao XD

Boreas ALSO, in some versions, is a suitor of Hyacinthus, but he clearly doesn't hold any ill-will about Hya & Apollo because let's be real, he would have picked Apollo too XD

So imagine this. Hyacinthus & Apollo making out. Then Apollo & Boreas making out. HECK HYACINTHUS & BOREAS MAKING OUT.

THIS MEME IS THEM

ALSO I RAISE YOU-

Zephyrus has a crush on Apollo :3 (It makes sense. also Apollo is widely associated with spring and Zephyrus is the SPRING wind, and likes pretty guys and Apollo is the prettiest so-)

I blabbered about that in the Discord with @xxzephyrbreezexx and our fellow Discord user whom I don't know if they have a blog here 😭 KNOW I AM POINTING VIOLENTLY IN YOUR DIRECTION

You are Zephyrus. You have a crush on Apollo. You also get a crush on his boyfriend.

AND THEN YOUR BROTHER FUCKS BOTH OF THEM

The Hyacinthus Debacle, as I have dubbed it, also created a bit of a rift between Boreas and Zephyrus, which is Sad because they are usually associated with each other in literature, art, ect :(

Family dinners are Awkward. Even more so when Boreas brings Apollo along to the dinners hosted at his place.

They became Especially Awkward when Helios and Selene were still around because then Boreas would have to deal with Helios's Dad Instincts kicking in and staring him down.

(Helios is Boreas's uncle btw!)

(I have a Boreas thing planned in my Helios fic eheheheh. It's funny, don't panic)

And whenever Apollo pops in the visit Eos about light-related things or Astraeus (Eos & Astraeus are the winds' parents) it Still Is Awkward because Zephyrus just. BOLTS out of the room.

He is simultaneously Gay For and Terrified of Apollo.

Also if Asteria tags along with Apollo (because she is shooting stars/night prophecy and Astraeus is dusk/stars) she gives Zephyrus The Death Stare.

He is equally terrified of her, minus the horny.

Cupid/Eros, eh?

...are you in the Discord by chance? Because the fellows I mentioned previously and I have also discussed this👀

We get Boreas in my next fic, btw! :D No ApolloXBoreas, sadly, but I do have plans on incorporating them into a fic!

Perhaps my revolution fic, because I am getting Ideas concerning Boreas, Apollo, and Koios... >:3

#the oracle speaks #my memes #ramblings of an oracle #apollo x boreas #toa headcanon #apollo #boreas #the trials of apollo #zephyrus #hyacinthus #hyapollo #pjo apollo #pjo zephyrus #pjo boreas #pjo hyacinthus