#for now. i rly need to go to bed lmaooo

[orcelito]

I'm gonna show up to work with nearly the exact same phone case and no one's gonna be able to tell the difference hfkshfkdb

#speculation nation #which is a-ok with me #not having the shortcuts to the symbols is still fucking with me tho. im getting used to stuff in general but This? #i have to type a whole extra button anytime i wanna use anything besides a comma or period #which SUCKS i miss my keyboard shortcuts. oh well. #maybe i can look into whether it'd be possible to download that keyboard #samsung phones r so very customizable #so much so that it took me 2 hours just to get thru all the settings lmaooo #im glad i did comb thru tho. fixed some things up that im very happy with #ive got all the most essential things downloaded and set up. and im gonna work on transferring things over. in time. #for now. i rly need to go to bed lmaooo

[soleilnomoon]

heya bestie, guess who's back 💅✨

I love your writing and also I just love your blog, you're a delight 🥰💖💕 the last request was delicious!! I didn't expect a modern au, but it was so good!!! now to sending you 20 requests!! 1/20

I was wondering if I could get a cute milk chocolate pain au chocolat and dulce de leche roll with marshmallow whipped cream? for our husband Trafalgar Law, please?

hiiii angel 🥰️ty, ty! i didn't expect to write a modern au either lmaooo it just happened out of nowhere. but yes, i have finally done the first request and i promise law is mostly nice <3

1.1k words, gn reader (no pronouns), sfw, 18+, mdni; fluff and maybe a sliver of angst (im sry, im sry) but not rly. it's relatively tame if i'm honest! but as you know, i love law and i love putting him in difficult situations

amidst the dark sleepy waters, tucked far enough away to avoid detection from large sea creatures, the polar tang coasts quietly, cruising uninterrupted while en route to another island. it’s out of habit that you’re up late, reading by a dwindling light, fatigue prancing along your eyelids, making them unbearably heavy. a hand on your shoulder jolts you awake, back ramrod straight as you blink your sleepiness away. a yawn timidly drifts out of your mouth — soft and airy — cute, even, law wants to say, but pulls his hand back instead, hoping to shake off the impulse.

“you should sleep properly in a bed, y/n.” while his voice is low enough to not wake your crew mates, it’s still loud enough to jumpstart your heart — the beats heavy, relentless, nauseating — you shift on the desk chair in his office, looking over your shoulder at him, a sleepy smile climbing onto your lips.

“hello to you too, captain,” you give him a two-fingered salute and laugh — the sound surprisingly hypnotic, making him grab a nearby chair to sit on. maybe at this angle, he won’t be so captivated by you; it’s a stretch, but he’s willing to give anything a try.

“don’t deflect,” he chastises, leaning back in the chair as he watches you curiously, leg casually bumping against yours. “just go to sleep. you don’t have to stay up.” he’s not sure when you started, but for months you’ve been getting less sleep — and you refuse every remedy he’s given you. not wanting to intrude, but also finding it stifling to keep his inquisitive mind quiet whenever he sees you, he runs a hand through his hair and sighs at you.

“who will stay up with you, then?” you massage the back of your neck with your hand, lashes fluttering as another yawn floats away from you. frowning at your answer, he tilts his head, trying to figure out if there’s a deeper meaning to your words. you notice that he has that look on his face, the one where he’s lost in thought and piecing together obscure mysteries. this time, however, the mystery in question is you.

his curiosity, he reasons, must be the force driving him to stare at you for as long as he has. it must also be the fault of his curiosity for committing the shape of your lips and the angle of your jaw to memory. there’s no other justification, none that make sense to him right now; he closes his eyes and inhales deeply, when he opens his eyes again, you’re looking at him like he has all the answers in the world.

“i, uh…” he clears his throat and the top of his ears flush; he needs to get it together. “don’t need anyone to keep me company, really.” he’s a solitary creature by nature, but that’s not exactly why you insist on staying up with him.

“someone needs to make sure you don’t burn yourself out,” you say carefully, stretching your arms over your head a series of soft pops echoing around you. he’s right, you should consider sleeping in a bed; your back can only take so many hours in that position. “besides, everyone else is too afraid to volunteer because you’re grumpy when you’re tired.” the words pour out of you unfiltered, a consequence of your fatigue, you suppose, not bothering to recant even as he stares at you incredulously.

mumbling under his breath, words mostly incoherent, save for the several times he said cowards, law sighs again and runs a hand down his face.

your laughter at his distress only serves to fluster him even more. “oh, goodness, it’s really not a big deal, law.” you grin cheekily at him, thoroughly enjoying the way law tries to get a hold of his emotions. you decide to tease him a bit more. “want to play a game? it’s really ease, i promise.” your innocence is a farce and he knows that, but he can’t help but feel obliged to indulge you.

“go on,” he prompts, folding his arms against his chest, his hawkish gaze nearly incapacitating you, “what’s the game?”

rummaging through your bag, you pull out a deck of cards, neatly organized in its box. law narrows his eyes at that, internally debating over whether he should actually play with you or not. a newfound burst of energy seeps into your veins, makes you a bit more alert as you pull out the cards. “let me explain the rules…” you take a moment to give him a rundown of the game, even going so far as to having a trial match in order to make things fair.

although, he fusses and tells you repeatedly that he doesn’t need a demonstration. but, as always, you insist and instead of denying you, he gives in without hesitation. it’s pathetic of him, he knows, he knows, but he can’t help it. not when it comes to you. he tells you, quite seriously, that he has no intention of losing — especially after hearing what the penalty is — and you smiled impishly before shuffling the cards.

a few minutes later, law is still in disbelief. “there’s no way,” he says sharply, almost as if he’s blaming you for his loss, “you cheated.” somehow. he wasn’t sure just yet, but that must be the reason, right? it’s almost eerie how easy it is for you to tease law like this, so you stand firm on your position.

“nope. i won fairly, now time to pay up.”

after several minutes of setting up, music drifts around the room, a soft instrumental melody — one of your favorite songs — you hum along and reach a hand out for him to take it. he’s hesitant but takes your hand regardless, the warmth from your skin melting away his nerves. you like this side of him — the vulnerability that comes with his uncertainty — and even tell him as much when you spin around the room with him. your steps are practiced, somewhat graceful while his are honest but clumsy. so, when he stumbles for the fourth time, you can barely contain your laughter because he’s being impossibly him right now.

annoyance prickles along his skin and he pulls away from you, he’d rather not deal with anymore embarrassment for the night if he can help it. it dawns on you that there’s a possibility that he might think you’re really laughing at him, so you rush after him. “wait, wait,” you huff, colliding with his back but still managing to wrap your arms around him. “i’m not laughing at you, honestly.” your cheek rubs against the soft fabric of his shirt. “just…stop running. for once, please?” you feel him exhale deeply, but he doesn’t pull you off of him.

“okay, fine.” he’ll surely regret this in the morning. “but only one more time, after that you’re going to bed.”

#fic request #ty for being so patient but i finally started ur requests <3 #one piece imagine #one piece fluff #milestone event #500+ followers event #🍭✨🍨sticky & sweet event🧁✨🍭 #one piece x reader #one piece x y/n #trafalgar law #trafalgar law fluff #trafalgar law x reader #trafalgar law x y/n #law x y/n #law x reader #law fluff #law is emotionally constipated 24/7 #ottersdeservelove

[lingy910y]

Tag Game Tuesday

thank you, @mmmichyyy, @thepupperino, & @energievie for tagging me :D

name: ling

whereabouts in the world are you? ny

do you have any pets? nope

what do you do for work? i don't (i'm jobless, this is a cry for help)

favorite fruit? apples

a pet peeve of yours: last time i said ppl who can't mind their own business so now i'll say ppl who make a big deal out of everything

are you a fast walker or a slow walker? either when i need to be

how do you usually wear your hair? in a ponytail

sunny days or rainy days? sunny days when i go outside and rainy days when i stay indoors lmaooo. that being said, sunny

what time do you usually go to bed? after 1 am 😭

what time do you usually wake up? 12 pm 😭

if you were a cartoon character, what would be your everyday outfit? you mean a picrew hehe? a pink t-shirt, beige cargo pants, and sneakers

something you’d like to learn: cooking/baking

and finally, tell me something that made you happy recently: them tumblr mutuals 🥺 i had a rough time with my other "friends", so i went through some days of wondering if ppl actually like me. but seeing things like jade sending a sweet ask and myn using my art as their wallpaper made me rly happy :')

tagging @jademickian, @vintagelacerosette, @deedala, @michellemisfit, @lupeloto, @heymrspatel, @tanktopgallavich & @juliakayyy

[neonstatic]

it's just. every time it's: get high, drink, play. i'm far from the sober-prude type alright but there's barely any space for actual talking? and some part of me is sooo starved for some deeper connection rn and ofc my own needs are my responsibility and i have to consider my difficulty to open up and yadda yadda yes but i've hung out a total amount of three times w these same ppl and omg why are we always playing mario party. i'm so sick of mario party. and it's not even the game's fault, it's just that it's their favourite thing and they never bothered to teach me fairly what the game was, first time we played they threw me in w not even base knowledge of what i'm supposed to do and ofc i was losing and very confused anyway wow this isn't making sense

but ykno what i'm gonna talk shit abt mario party for a second. fuck this game. i won last night's round with 3 stars and there was nothing gratifying abt it. it's largely a game abt luck bc i SUCK at the minigames but every dice roll of mine is blessed by the gods. ykno what's a game that i like and haven't ever gotten the chance to play? scrabble. i'd love to play scrabble. get me crossfaded and start a game of scrabble now THAT will bring me joy.

but also maybe i should just. stop getting crossfaded. i don't think i'm made for that. i can get a lil tipsy and a lil high, but both at once is a 100% guarantee that i'll feel like shit the next day. emotionally, i mean. like rn. i'm not in a good mood and i wanted to stay in bed forever. i'm finishing a pint of ice cream in one sitting and just because it's non-dairy i'm rly unhappy w it. as someone who's prone to depressive moods it just seems glaringly obvious that getting high and drunk isn't, like, the ideal combination for me. OR. or. maybe the issue isn't necessarily the mixed comsumption, but the fact that i'm in this vulnerable state in, um, not to be unkind but... subpar company.

like i have a feeling that if i were crossfaded at home, headphones on listening to my stupid videogame soundtrack playlist, volume cranked up to hell, eating poutine... that'd be good. or watching a thriller w my sister while we're both shitfaced. or i'm tipsy w my sober friends and we're watching a movie of their choice. idk. i think that'd be fun. but these ppl... idkkkk there's smth abt being in their company that makes me moody like I'll be staring in the distance thinking to myself "i wish i was on a walk rn" like a damn dog lmaooo

in conclusion: 1) sometimes my version of fun and someone else's don't match. it's no fault of theirs or mine. i just have to learn to communicate it. 2) i should find out what exactly IS my version of fun and how to make it happen instead of going w the crowd lest i become an unbearably passive aggressive big baby

3) i can drink a lil. i can get high a lil. i probably shouldn't do both.

4) whether i consume or not, i should do it in Good Company always. nothing less than Good, not even Okay. turns out that intoxication doesn't necessarily make things more fun.

5) almond ice cream can't and will never compare to dairy. read the label next time

#ray says

[duawheat]

Tell me about your oc :oooo

She is a protector of bench trio so I already love her

oh how glad am i that you asked

alright first things first little backstory ms girl never had a family alright(i’m going off of the ppl live on the smp that aren’t a part of the lore hc because i like it) she lived her whole life as a kind of floater yk just sorta traveling and shit and never rly making any connections

she always hears about these wars going on in the far off dream smp and is like “hm not my problem they can deal with that shit on their own lmaoooo”

eventually she decides “hm ive been in this place too long gtg lmaooo” and heads off on a journey, she ends up finding a destroyed jungle base(!!!!!), she knows that this place is pretty close to the wars she’s been hearing about but thinks it’s destroyed enough that no one will be coming back to it and decides to stay there for a while until she’s ready to leave again

after a bit of staying there she comes back from some mining to find tubbo standing there rly confused because “why is there signs of life in my abandoned jungle base wtf” (this is like mid pogtopia vs manburg a few weeks before tubbos execution) and then he sees dua(my oc names are hard and she’s basically self insert so that’s her name) and they kinda just “spider-man meme” and then dua sorta hits him on the head with the hilt of her sword as fight or flight and knocks him out lmao

she then panics cause “i just knocked out a child why would i do that holy shit what do i do now” so she kinda just puts him in a bed and then makes tea for when he wakes up cause she is a little bit emotionally stunted

when he wakes up he’s all like “bro wtf you knocked me out in my own base” and she’s like “i’m sorry but also in my defense i’ve been living here for quite a bit and i’ve never seen you in my life”

eventually they both calm down and have tea together have nice long conversations and then dua realizes this kid looks like shit he’s got major bags under his eyes and he’s real jumpy and all in all the bitch needs a nap

so she forces him to take a nap until fully rested and then let’s him return home with a bag of her homemade tea mix.

then a few days later he comes back, they talk for a while again, and then she makes him take a nap and then he goes home. this routine goes on for a few weeks

that is until tubbo comes one day after his execution with a bunch of fuckin scars and bandages and shit from his execution and dua is pissed. she had literally decided this kid was her new little brother and now he’s hurt and she is angry, so she joins pogtopia in the war

in her time with pogtopia she doesn’t have much time to bond with tommy, he’s always with wilbur and dua is too focused on training, and on helping tubbo. she had heard a lot about tommy from tubbo though, and she knew that he was a good kid that she didn’t want to get hurt.

after the sixteenth dua tries to convince tubbo to turn down the roll as president, but he insists that he can handle it.

ok i feel like i’m rambling if you even read this far i can stop here or keep going if you want i have her whole story thought out to like doomsday if you want to hear the whole thing tell me i’ll keep going

#idk how comprehensible this is #i got very excited i don’t get to talk about my shit often #sorry #but if you want to hear more i’ll tell you

[shytiff]

Jan 2021 Wins

ive “journaled” for 6 months now. it started as small ___ wins because when you feel rly empty, even doing the bare minimum feels like a win. written down some of the wins. i think until now i’d like to keep the “win” part. a win against my shadow sometimes. a win in life. some things to be grateful for. a win for remembering it later in the future. i know some days im just basically doing nothing.  there are a lot of wars not won by me. but im still tryna ✨manifest✨

1 - woke up. watched bts’ 2021 seasons greetings. read trap city. afternoon nap. pupuy’s mbah passed away. i got DOMS in my body even though i did the barest of exercise yesterday (frail, i know). shower, matcha latte.

2 - the x banner atikah and i sent for racil post thesis defense has arrived lmaoo. mom made delicious (and sweet) fried banana. did some studying (more than usual, bcs the bar is on the floor)

3 - ate muesli, 3 risols. Kopsus coklat at flavola. Stayed there from 12-ish to 17:30 lmaooo. weekly bahas soal w/ fi. Rapat nemo

4 - first day of collab module. Barely cicil ukmppd. My mood is normal-ish but i hardly have the will to study. Dinner is fried fish with mentai sauce, potato wedges, and saladdd by mom

5 - collab module, qa presentation for rsui reps. finished reviewing tryout 2 solid. did padi pretest (got 66,5). ate chicken porridge, a bit of muesli and vsoy, tan ek tjoan bread, matcha latte, fish and chicken and potato wedges and salad, fried banana. i ate well today lol.

6 - slept during collab webinar, went to clara’s place to study osce and attended padi together. i ate well at clara’s placeee lol. ate nastar, kusuka, white kwetiaw with soup (?), and lele goreng. went back home @ 9 pm. i feel refreshed. even though we’ve half studied half mukbang all day. human interaction rly does heal me. i need human interaction more than i think. at night i dreamed about going to bali, to waterparks, seeing sea creatures, watching a movie displayed on a concert-like stage and screen at the front row. 

7 - woke up at 07:55, finished my part for collab group work. felt a bit tired today. the rest of fam went to DM, and when they were on the way back i HURRIED my way out, not even taking a shower lmaoo. got pistachio matcha latte at starbucks dm. now im more skilled in searching the best spot in a cafe to distance myself from people lmao. the matcha latte is served with some sort of pistachio cream and sprinkled with nuts on top. its like when sbux had taro matcha latte and it had purple cream on top. the pistachio taste is quite strong. reviewed TO 1 padi, sent proposals for nemo sponsorship.

8 - did syndrome try out and padi 2 web try out. studied for osce and padi @ clara’s place. wanted to order pizza since clara bought me food before, but she insisted in ordering lmaoo. so dinner is pizza hut

9 - woke up at 11.00 lmao. havent had breakfast. lunch is muesli with the brand new delishhh chocolate granola and cimory banana milk. did one shot try out, got 71. had a google meet with Prof Agus (that ethics book ghostwriting job from a year ago is not finished until now huaaa) that went from 20.00ish and finished at 22.30,,,,, reviewed syndrome try out along the way. havent made my collab self reflection hhhh. i also need to study for osce. also havent edited article for bukang solid. and there goes my saturday nooo

10 - i swear i keep waking up late lmao. Flavola w atikah, racheel later came with wawa. Kopsus coklat and ukmppd class w dr yudo. After class i just talked at flavola (and ended not studying osce at all for sunday). Went to racheel's to pray and talk some more. Hurriedly went back for booty call with fi, watched konser dies natalis first. Tryout and sum study with fi and clar that went from 20:30 to 00:10. Powered by left over kopsus and 2 snackit pia. Rip my sleeping schedule

11 - woke up at 10:30 ish, the lack of meal and horrible sleep pattern (for my standard) produced stuffy nose during the day and a bit of headache that went away for a bit after i ate. Late bfast is muesli, drank protein, ate tan ek tjoan, plus 2 brownies in the evening. Tht coaching w dr niken. Did self reflection for collab. Had dinner without rice, as usual. Ukmppd class w dr ayu. Finished reflection at 21:30 lmao (deadline is 23:55). Tryna sleep and my nose is still itchy and i sneeze a more often. i hope it goes away 2mrw

12 - DV coaching, scele tryout, took a nap before padi cause my head kind of hurts. Les padi while drinking matcha with vsoy less sugar and no added sugar. I can withstand the horrible sugarless cy matcha taste bcs theres a taste of soy. Didnt do anything else. Havent studied osce on my own until now. Astagfirullah

13 - my head still kind of aches. Its goes away when im eating. im eating so well during the weekdays that i gained 2kgs lmao. lazed around the first half of the day. padi. finally tried saint matcha and damnn its an amazing upgrade from Cy matcha. the green color is super different yall. Cy’s green looks sick and tired compared to saint matcha. the taste? immaculate (although coco deli is more fragrant). caffeine? hits. awake and feel normal? yes. messaged an ao3 author and got replied and turns out she’s making a sequel for my fav fic of hers. yay

14 - osce practice w ara ren ness. bedah and anak osce coaching. had 3 of mom’s cinnamon rolls and matcha latte for the afternoon. cicil osce DV. edited some pld articles. did nothing else basically

15 - wasted my day, didnt have the courage to study osce (i feel like i procrastinate on it bcs it feels overwhelming to me), TO FKUI 2, hurriedly reviewed to 1 before, les padi. i feel like this is the least focused im being in a les. maybe its the too few matcha powder.

16 - woke up at 9 am. breakfast is muesli. reviewed to 2 fkui w apa salahku (finished at 12 pm, there goes half of my saturday). tried fried chicken master. its good and tender but i still prefer moon chicken. 

17 - breakfast is muesli, banana and 2 martabak tahu. snack is keripik pisang aduuu wenak (and picking bits of meat cooked by mom). went to devi’s place w/ racheel silvi. brought RJ to be wrapped. we watched okay madam and its super fun, hilarious and full of twists anddd a bit of cutesy romance. just the right balance to enjoy and let the stress out. late lunch is moon chicken yay!! went home after maghrib, did to padi 6 w/ fi and matcha latte. talked about a senior’s wedding and eating healthier til 22:30

18 - To fkui 3, wasted my afternoon playing my phone, finally mustered some will to study after ashar. My progress is rly slow today. Watched hilarious jessi interview with eric, heechul. Im telling u, i thought tiktok is the funniest internet content but i was wronggg. Seeing heechul flustered is hilarious. Tried to study again at night but only learned 1 disease hiks

19 - had no idea what i did before dzuhur lmao. went to racheel’s to surprise atikah. actually napped at her place lmaoo why do i feel so sleepy. gifted rj to atikah. we ate fried chicken master and pempek on a small green table and talked. its like korean movie lmao. we talked while im simultaneously listening to padi lol.

20 - woke up at 8, chicken porridge + muesli and low sugar vsoy for breakfast. arrived at clara’s @10am. to fkui 4. reviewed it. reviewed general physical exam. finished up to padi 7. tried bombo donut. studied osce. i felt sooo dumb in osce (and clara is already super smart). superrr motivated to learn after going back home (arrived at 7) but i ended up opening youtube and drinking protein lmaooo and its suddenly 9 pm

21 - matcha latte at starbucks dm. Studied osce. Obgyn coaching w the super kind dr ilham. Les padi. Read angel buddy and played with my phone til 12 pm

22 - to fkui. padi as usual. had low motivation, so i did the tryout that day close to the actual course.

23 - left home at 06:30 to study together in capitol. had breakfast in mcd first. thank god i ate rice + chicken and breakfast wrap cuzzzz. studied osce together w ara, ical, kelvyn, dio and kak ilonka til about 2 pm. WALKED to bk bcs my parents are there. apparently simply driving to capitol is too much for them. immediately ate muesli at 4 pm cause i didnt eat anything in capitol. did nothing else after that. did not pray maghrib together lmao somehow mom had mercy on me and let me sleep som more. mom bought sate padang but i didnt eat it. i cried in bed because as yoongi said, “this is the real you and this is the real me”. did not shower/wash my face at night bcs i felt like shit lmao rip my face (its a week before bukang photoshoot)

24 - i feel tired, lazy, and just wanted some sleep. like all that’s in me is drained. ate muesli with strawberry milk. tried fitmee beef. its better than i thought. because the noodle is chewy you spend more time to chew. also ate fried chicken and daun singkong. usually i cant wait to go to flavola but even at 12 pm i just feel like laying down. finally mustered the will to shower and go out. its raining a bit on the way. colddd. 

25 - to fkui 6, osce briefing, covid lecture (that was actually for ppds), padi

26 - spaghetti for brekkie, coaching neuro and ophthalmology, cicil osce

27 - cicil osce, the second to the last padi omg. the fastest padi ever

28 - obgyn osce practice at kak ilonka’s place (that nice kosan at forkabi) with ara, ren ness, kelvyn, dio with mannequins from og dept, tried meokja salemba that serves bulgogi rice. quite good. after arriving at home, studied neuro together with menno til about 20:45 an and i just dont have the energy lmaooo so i gave up and slept

29 - today is bukang photoshoot at bintaro. put base make up on the way. even put glue on my eyebrow. got eyebrow, eyeshadow and blush done by renata. took lots of photos. nebeng om coro afterwards to bxc to meet mom. we ate at genki sushi (renata ara kris mendel oca regan geordie eka). i missss road trips hua. did tryout fkui on the way back home. after shower and prayer proceeded to review TO with apa salahku. Last padi (havent done the questions beforehand so i sprinted it out while on the actual course). Muhasabah osce with kak widia afterwards lmao. Studied osce with clara

30 - studied osce with ara ren ness @ merra. I ate eatlah, moms muffin, kemplang, tango. I ate so welll. Its a productive sesh, neuro and infectious disease. At home i studied osce w clara til abt 22:15 ish. I feel like i miss my me time lmao its been 3 days. I can still go on w clara but i dont wanna get myself sick

31 - simul osce in the morning. Osce study with clara almira. Cicil osce alone. Played my phone at 10 pm even though i still have mental clarity post matcha latte -___-

[mipsyg]

i need to vent a little bit before i go to bed so i dont have nightmares, warning: kinda graphic descriptions of things related to burns and stuff. 

okay so, for convenience’s sake, i wait until 911 and 911 lone star actually air here (dubbed and everything so everyone in the house can watch along if they want) to watch it instead of looking for an illegal stream and ep 2x02 of lone star aired today and since it’s hard to avoid spoilers i actually knew tim died etc but that wasn’t my problem

WHAT THE FUCK was the beginning of that fucking episode, i fucking screamed i literally cannot stop thinking about it

and you know what, it’s my fault for watching a show about fucking fire fighters like what the fuck did i think was gonna happen?? that someone was gonna try to save someone from a pool full of lava by grabbing their arm and end up ripping the skin off their arm???????? NO I DIDNT THINK I WAS GONNA WATCH THAT HAPPEN

i am fucking traumatized jesus christ what the fuck or THE DUDE WHO WAS LITERALLY MELTING figiogjdl I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATED everything in this episode

and the thing is, burning alive is the one thing i fear the most and even when i know it’s not real, if a scene like that comes out of nowhere i start crying and get so anxious i start fucking trembling. AND I, BECAUSE I AM SO FUCKING SMART, decided to watch, not one but two shows about fire fighters lmfao but honestly i don’t remember either show doing something like that in a previous episode which is why i didn’t expect it and now i’m considering dropping it like what the fuck was that. i feel so bitter towards the show right now for doing that to me lmaooo no but i literally couldn’t enjoy it today (tho it was a rly sad episode so that could also be the reason). i guess i’ll wait until next week to see if i feel like watching it but yeah. I DID NOT enjoy that. 

#mipsyg talks #or more like mipsyg vents about her deepest fear and 911 lone star jfkdjfkdf

[felixeslee]

92 q tag

hello this tag is highkey irrelevant now but it’s been in my drafts for ages so !! laskdgjasodigjsaldkgasodigjasdg which is why i wont b tagging anyone bc im so late but !! yeah !! ok !! !!!!!!!!!1111!!! lets !! go !!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

tagged by @hyuunjins @hyunjinh @straykiz and @dae-hwee from my w1 blog (lmaoo hi pindi this is sarah!! AIddgsdfk if youre aware of this blog but hope its ok if i do it here alskdg ) 

rules: once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. 

🌙 LAST

Drink: the water that I drank this morning!! Aka around 12 hrs ago asdgasdgoij pls stay hydrated kids 

Text Message: i texted my brother if he knew where my dad was lol,,,,,,, sldkjgaosidgj 

Phone Call: CALLED MY BROTHER BC HE WASNT RESPONDING MY TEXTS,,,,, he also didn’t pick up ldskgjsoidgjsldkgsjdg

Song you listened to: Goodbye My Love by Aileeeee <3 lovv 

Time you cried: TODAY ,,,, i was getting super anxious bc i didn’t know where my dad was ??? he was supposed to pick me up but he forgot abt me until like an hr later… sldkgjaosidgj 

🌙 HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: no :00 lmao i’ve never dated… ever alskdjgaoijsdf 

Kissed someone and regretted it: i havent had my first kiss yet HEH 

Lost someone special: unfortunately, yes :( 

Been depressed: sdgksjadoiglskdfosdijgalskdfaosdigjaksdgoaisdjf idk 

Been drunk and thrown up: lmao i’ve never drank ,,, at all,,,, the smell of alchohol scares me,,,,, evn my little brother has had a sip once and he’s 5 yrs younger LMAO ,,, but im a noob and don’t wanna try sldkgjosidjgs 

🌙 IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: yay yes yeslgkdgsdf

Fallen out of love: i dont think i’ve ever evn been in love…. Sdlgksjdoigj 

Met someone who changed you: yes,,,,,,,,, 

Found out who your true friends are: uhhhh idk aslkdgjaosidjf i honestly can never tell when someone’s being a fake friend so!!!!!! Idk honestly lmao

Found out someone was talking about you: i did ! but it wasn’t for anything bad or anything……… they just criticized me behind my back?? But i agreed w their criticism so alsdkjgaosidgj  

🌙 GENERAL

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: ummm,,,, like 4?? We r mutuals evn though none of them r actually kpop blogs,,,, so i always feel guilty spamminig their aesthetic feed w my screaming tags and annoying shit LMAO but i lov them <3 

Do you have any pets?: NO :”( I WANT A DOGGO THO …. REALLY BAD…..

Do you want to change your name?: uhhh ik so many sarahs its not evn funny and my last name is hella basic too????? Theres 3 ppl that share my first+last name in my school alone….. So maybe i’d change it to my chinese name (yue) ?? also bc it sounds more sophisticated,, and i lov anything that makes me sound smarter than the reality of my dumb self LOL 

What time did you wake up this morning: LOL so my alarm rings at 6:40 but i get out of bed at 7:10 SLDGKJSODIF … and i need to get out of the house by 7:20 lsdkgsdoig 

What were you doing last night: physics and apush :SLDGJOSIDFJ the 2 most dreaded classes UGH

Something you cannot wait for: DINNER .. i love me some gud dinner

Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: thomas jefferson my mAN 

What’s getting on your nerves right now: when it’s so heckin cold i can’t concentrate + i hate taking notes when it’s cold??? Bc then my hands r like half numb and it HURTS WHEN I TAKE NOTES sldkgsoidjf ALSO WHEN I DRAW ,,,,, STIFF FINGERS R THE WORST WHEN DRAWING

Blood type: i think a????????????

Nickname: my most common ones r swisso + salad (i promise these make sense in context LOL ) 

Relationship status: return NullPointerException; //im a cs person,,, dont judge

Zodiac sign: capricorn!

Pronouns: she + her

Favorite show: i dont watch many shows but i love watching a gud studio ghibli movie when im feelin down

College: this QUESTION LSDKGJSODIGJ ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i wanna go to college but will any accept me ??!?!

Hair colour: its naturally black but it’s currently dyed ombre from black → brown !!!!!!

Do you have a crush on someone: i havent had a legit crush in 3 yrs lmao……. 

What do you like about yourself: the fact that im a deep sleeper. Idk how light sleepers function omg like wouldn’t u wake up to like,,,,, everything??! :((( that makes me sad bc u hav no idea how much i lov a nice long undisturbed slumber

   🌙 FIRSTS

First surgery: okAY so like i've had 2 procedures done on my eyes lmaooo like (1) when i was a smol beb of like 1 yr old i rolled off my bed aaaannnnddd the corner of my eye hit the edge of the sharp corner of the bedside table!!! and then y1ke$ things got ugly loll (((yes, i wuz dum + clumsy since the day i popped from the womb))) its all stitched up now and i hav a tinie tinie scar aslkdgs okay and (2) there was something weird abt my tearducts LOL so u know when u get sad nd stuff ur nose gets runny and u sniff a lot??? well like that wasn't the case for me bc the passage way from my eyes to my nose was completely blocked off,,,,, which resulted in me lookin like i was full blown cryin like every 2 seconds... like if i kept my eyes open for too long my eyes would get watery and tears would flow out LMAO ,,,, i looked like i just never stopped crying,,, but it was just my eyes were just ALWAYS WATERING sdlgjsdif damn u have no idea after the procedure i was like 'do ppl live like this??? not having to wipe tears every 0.2 sec??? oh my god,,, i am livin THE LIFE' 

First piercing: i hav no piercings!!! Bc stabbing holes thru myself scares me sdlkjgsoidg but i love the way earrings look tho so :///// 

First sport you joined: dance or gymnastics???? I dont rly remember

First vacation: CHINA prob???? 

First pair of sneakers: i think sketchers LMAO ,,, the big thing  

🌙 RIGHT NOW

Eating: nothing!!!!!

I’m about to: do som sketches for my AP art class 

Listening to: my dad sing som old chinese folk stuff behind me LOL 

Want kids: i already adopted all 9 members of stray kids tho ??? idk if im ready for more atm 

Get married: LOL This question just reminded me of smol story from my childhood: so like i used to b rly close w these 3 other kids,,,, one other girl and 2 guys,,, and our parents were all rly tight too,, and our four families would just go camping together and it was rly :’’D fun and so we all made a pact that I would marry one of the guys and the other girl would marry the other guy and we’d all go camping together forever but then KINDERGARTEN HIT,,,, we moved schools and yeah im still rly close w the girl but i miss the 4 of us dkgjsodigjsdlkgsdf LOL 

Career: waterbottle 🌙 

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: eyes? Eh idk i just never rly considered lips ?? LOL 

Hugs or kisses: hugs? I dont hav experience w kisses so sldkgjsoidgjsd yike syikes yikes 

Shorter or taller: TALLER

Troublemaker or hesitant: uhhhhh neither??? Like i just want someone playful + extroverted bc im quite introverted,,,,,,,,,, so if he was hesitant we’d just b super awkward and quiet,,, and i don’t like getting involved w sketchy troublemaker shit either LOL ,,, 

Older or younger: as long as they r in the same school grade level,,,, and i guess 1-2 yrs older is okaY? But lowkey freaks me out if too old 

Romantic or spontaneous: sldkgjsoidfj both? Like i lov someone who is unpredictable and spontaneous,,,, but on the other hand im lowkey a helpless romantic lasdkgjaoisdjf 

Sensitive or loud: both i guess too??? Its good to have someone understanding and sensitive but also someone who knows how to have fun  :) 

Hookup or relationship: hookups,,,,,,,, just dont make sense to me,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, like i get attached to someone p easily so even if i dont plan on being attached,,,, i’d probably get attached :(  

🌙 HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed a stranger: YIKES no 

Drank hard liquor: nO 

 Lost contacts/glasses: UH I HATE THIS BUT YES….. 

Sex on first date: yikes * (6.02 *10^23) adkgaosidjgaslkdf no thaNK you 

Broken someone’s heart: i dont know,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, like i might’ve but maybe im just not aware ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but on a sidenote i think my old comupter science teacher gets a migrain everytime he sees me LOLLLLLL sdlgjsoidgjsldf 

Been arrested: no,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, :0 

Turned someone down: yeah lmao i kinda feel bad tho bc they were all good ppl,,,,  lskjgosidjf but thankfully im still good friends and pretty tight w all of them ~  

🌙 DO YOU BELIEVE

In yourself: ocassionally i try to :’’D

Miracles: lol yes 

Love at first sight: i used to ? but not anymore,,,, like i believe u can be attracted to someone at first sight ?? but i feel like love cannot be attained thru visual contact only asldgjoasidjalsdg

#sarah: tag #LMAO sry for the random stories here nd there #and i wrote this like 2 weeks ago so yeah .l LMAO #thank u all for tagging me i luh u all <333 #lSDKGJOSDIGJSDG

[danisnotofire]

hey im going to orientation in a few days and im rly nervous abt starting college, i was just wondering if you had any tips or any ~advice~ bc im like, lowkey freaking out ((also i also stage manage and i love musicals and astronomy (sry i was snooping around your about page)))

hey!!! ok i am so so so sorry this took so long lol i actually just went back to school myself to help out with a pre-orientation program and we’ve been having like 17 hour days so i’m Exhausted and haven’t had a lot of time to really give a thoughtful answer (UNTIL NOW). some of this is gonna sound cheesy, but this is Emma Danisnotofire’s Official Real List of Pro-Tips for College, so if it’s on here it’s true. that being said, i go to a medium/small school (4,000 students) in the middle of fucking nowhere, so some of my experiences are gonna be a lil different. most still apply. 

first off, it’s TOTALLY OKAY that you’re nervous. i know when i went i was highkey freaking out even more bc everybody else seemed to be just excited and i felt like i was the only one actually losing my mind from how scared i was. i didn’t sleep at all the night before i moved in. being scared is fine. you’ll probably be scared for awhile after you get there, too, and that’s absolutely okay. i remember it took me a solid few weeks for me to stop feeling nauseous from nerves whenever i woke up. i promise i promise this will go away. you will settle in and you’ll make friends and you’ll figure out where everything is and how things work, i PROMISE. 

second, once you get there, don’t be afraid to talk to people!! i know that sounds super cheesy and unhelpful, but seriously. talk to your orientation leaders!! they’re usually upperclassmen and 99% of the time they had to APPLY to get that position, and it’s because they’re so so excited to meet you!! i’m a mentor for this pre-o program (it’s arts-focused), and we all had to apply, and every single other mentor is super passionate not only about the arts but about making sure the incoming freshman feel comfortable and happy and at home right off the bat. we want to like you!! talk to us!!! talk to each other!! at my school, (bucknell), orientation is actually pretty fucking legendary (it’s 5 straight days of just. nonstop activities), so getting to know your group is always nice. good conversation starters include: compliment something they’re wearing/have done, mention pets, ask about what classes they’re taking. that’s usually where i start when i’m talking to my kids!! 

okay, now for some Actual Tangible Advice. most of this is actually taken from when i gave my friend natalie some advice about college, but it’s still applicable to you!! i’m putting it under a readmore bc It’s So Very Long, I’m Sorry, I Really Hope This Helps/Makes Up For Me Not Answering For So Long

-if you can, get a microwave. if you can’t, it’s nbd because there’s probably one in your dorm somewhere. but it’s really nice not to have to put on shoes/socks to go make ramen at 3am

-INVEST IN GOOD SOCKS!!!! srsly omg you’re never gonna wanna go anywhere barefoot, and dorm heating/cooling can be tricky. i treated myself to a 5-pair box where they’re all different classic art pieces. they’re GORGEOUS and super nice for when i can’t find my flip-flops.

-also, if you have birks. bring them. they are also good for sliding on when u really have to pee in the middle of the night and can’t for the life of u find anything else. also everyone i know wears birks casually (i have a 20 dollar pair of fake ones from american eagle lol)

-OLD NAVY HAS FLIP FLOPS 2 FOR 5 DOLLARS. they make the BEST shower shoes and also they come in so many lit colors they’re the bomb digs. these are also good if you don’t have a pair of birks

-if your dorm doesn’t have it already (most dorms don’t) BUY A SCREEN FOR YOUR WINDOW!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY if u hate bugs you do NOT want them coming in when all u want is some fresh air. my roommate last year brought one to school bc i didn’t even think about it and it was a LIFESAVER.

-if you can, get one of those febreeze scent things you plug in. if you aren’t allowed, there’s this thing called a scentsy that basically melts wax and it makes your room smell SO. GOOD. idk how much they cost but honestly you will be thankful you have it if you can get it (candles work too but most dorms don’t allow candles)  

-you don’t need a huge plastic shower caddy!! you can get a softer one and then hang it on a hook outside the shower or loop it around the shower knob. they’re probs better than a big hard one bc they won’t fill up with water and you can stash it easier. (i went with a big plastic one and it’s a hassle lol). however, if you already got a big plastic one, that’s cool too bc sometimes they come with a removable second smaller caddy, and that’s good for putting your phone in outside of the shower to play music.

-lofting your bed is super nice bc it gives you a little more privacy from your roommate (and privacy is so so so rare in college, esp in a dorm). it’s also nice bc if you’re up there and a friend walks into your room (which is bound to happen with dorm living, which is where i’m assuming ur living as a first-year) they won’t immediately see you, which gives you a few seconds to get ur shit together before they see you.

-HOWEVER!! there are a few downsides to lofting ur bed. the major one is that it’s a pain in the ass to not only get up there, but also to lug your laptop/charger/snacks/etc up there, and once you’re up u probably aren’t gonna wanna come down. also, i don’t know if you drink, (which btw totally cool if you don’t!!), but there was definitely one time where i was too drunk to climb into my bed (i know, i know, several bad choices were made that night and i regret all of them), but thankfully my roommate last year was a fucking goddess though (a definite Mom Friend) and pulled all my sleeping stuff down to the floor lol. it’s rare that something like that happens, but it’s definitely something u wanna take into consideration.

-college is infinitely emotionally taxing. face masks and shower bath-bombs (you put them on the floor of your shower and they slowly dissolve and release whatever scent they are) do LOADS to make u feel better. face masks are also good bonding with friends!! 

-some other self-care college tips: cafes will usually have either hot apple cider in the fall, or you can get steamed milk with vanilla in it and it’s very soothing and gentle and calming. i got it a lot when i was sick just bc it was warm and not difficult to stomach. 

-also baking. if you get a few friends and bake something, it is 1) bound to be hilarious and 2) everyone who walks by will love you. we once made cinnamon buns, except instead of individual ones we made one big disgusting MegaBon, and we still talk about it to this day. it’s the name of our group chat lmaooo

-you can literally never have too much storage. plastic bins, crates, etc. never too much.

-you will leave college with so much more stuff than what you came with. holy shit. you will also get so many t-shirts??? see above. you’ll need storage.

-college is also the definition of ‘Everything is Happening All The Time’, and ur probably gonna make friends who try and do Everything. it took me super long to internalize the fact that it’s okay to like, say no to doing something and take a nap instead. not all the time, sometimes its good to force urself out of your room, but you can stay in on a saturday every once in a while! it doesn’t matter. 

-that being said, do try and go out of your comfort zone a little!! i was definitely not the type to do this in high school, but these days i’ll sometimes go to frat parties!! they’re actually really fun when you go with friends (and always go with friends!!!). it doesn’t even necessarily need to be parties either. audition for a capella. stage manage a show. do a club sport. there’s so much you can do!! (i actually didn’t follow my own advice here last year, i was too terrified to do a lot of things. i did theatre though, which ended up taking up most of my time anyway, but i still wish i had done more, hence why i’m doing this program right now! don’t be like first-year me. be better!)

-HOWEVER here are some (frat) party tips: girls can usually get into parties much easier than guys can, but either way don’t try to go out until around october/late september. the first few weeks back are for upperclassmen catching up with friends . go with a group, and STAY with your group. please. no girl left behind. they usually only serve shitty beer, and ofc you should keep your eyes on it the whole time. if you put it down, just go get another one instead of picking that one up again. also, invest in a shitty coat/gross pair of shoes specifically to wear to the frats. the floors are gross, and you’re probs gonna end up storing your jacket behind a trash can in the winter bc it’s too fucking hot inside the room to keep it on. (is this coat thing just a bucknell thing?? this might just be a bucknell thing). 

-more drinking/etc/stuff: know your rights. RAs are not allowed to look through drawers/open closets when doing room searches, so if you have wine or anything, make sure it’s hidden in somewhere they’re not allowed to touch.

-THIS IS SUPER IMPORTANT: if someone has drank too much, BACKPACK THEM. get them into bed while wearing a filled up backpack. it prevents people from rolling over and choking on their vomit. i cannot emphasize how important it is for you to backpack someone. if you can, stay with them to make sure they’re okay. also, don’t be afraid to let them throw up before they go to bed. it helps. they’ll usually feel better. 

-if you can, get a job that lets you sit down. receptionist, librarian, etc. these are the best, bc sometimes you’ll get the  chance to study or get paid for doing nothing. also? receptionist looks SUPER good on a resume. also? money is nice.

-LOCK YOUR DOOR!!!!! I LEARNED THIS THE HARD WAY WHEN SOME WEIRD SENIOR BOY WALKED INTO MY ROOM DRUNK AT 3AM AND WOULDN’T LEAVE. also, you’ll make friends in the first week that you won’t necessarily want to be friends with later on, but they won’t get that message lol. again, lock your door (learned that the hard way, too)

-for future semesters, if you can’t get into a class right away it REALLY helps to email the professor!!! seriously, 9 times out of 10 they are more than happy to let an extra person in, because there are always students who drop the class within the first week or two. that’s how i got into astronomy my first semester, and i’m now a teacher’s assistant for it. so. really, it helps.

-the best way to be better friends with people is to just, get meals with them. honestly. make a group chat with some people and whenever ur getting dinner or lunch or whatever just throw out a ‘hey anyone wanna get food with me??’ text. 90% of the time someone will come with you.

-speaking of meals tho, ik this is the number 1 thing people tend to say, but it’s tRUE. nobody cares if you eat alone. it too me SO LONG to internalize this, but it’s totally fine to do!! it’s actually really nice sometimes, you can bring homework or your laptop and get some work done. it’s not even with meals, either! you can study alone! you can walk places alone! you can go to the gym alone! i was always terrified of being seen alone bc i thought people were gonna think i didn’t have friends or w/e dumb thing my anxiety had me feeling, (i still struggle with that lmao) but in reality you just look independent and cool!!! also, it helps to be content in the fact that you have friends and it doesn’t matter if people THINK you don’t.

-get a reusable water bottle. i got a plastic one for like 12 bucks, and i use it DAILY. if ur walking a lot, it helps keep you hydrated. also, it gives you something to do in class. also, you can personalize it with stickers and stuff (you can do the same with a laptop case). i p much take mine with me EVERYWHERE.

-this was also hard for me to internalize, but u gotta remember the fact that it’s okay not to be who u were in high school. like, i gave up some of the things i was into in high school in favor of some other things, and it took me awhile to figure out that i wasn’t like, betraying anyone, if that makes sense?? like, i started going to frat parties and actually having FUN at them??? (something i NEVER would have been into in high school, but here we are).

-also, grades are very different in college. i freaked out when i wasn’t getting a 4.0, because that’s who i was in high school, but then i kinda put it in perspective. i ended with a 3.67, which is still dean’s list. you’re not going to be perfect, bc chances are you ended up at a school with people on kinda equal intelligence levels as you. don’t freak out. 

okay that’s pretty much it!!! i can def come up with more stuff tailored to certain things/etc if you want me to talk more about this stuff!!! i love giving college advice and talking and helping people feel better about this whole thing bc i know it’s hard and scary

#college advice #college #university #advice #pro tips #Anonymous #im so sorry if ur on mobile and the readmore doesn't work #hopefully this makes up for me disappearing for a few days #alright now back to the void #goodniiiight

[kazualbrekkuparchive]

rules: answer all the questions and tag 20 other blogs [ tagged at the end of the post ]

tagged by: @eizawrites

last:

1. drink: tea 2. phone call: my mommm 3. text message: my best friend 4. song you listened to: thunder - imagine dragons 5. time you cried: like last night cos i had terrible cramps lmao 6. dated someone twice: nopee 7. kissed someone and regretted it: i mean my ex lol  8. been cheated on: yeahh 9. lost someone special: yaa 10. been depressed: ANYWAY, ya lol  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: NOPE i can hold my liquor 

3 favorite colors

12. pink 13. turquoise 14. white

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yep! 16. fallen out of love: nahh not in the last year 17. laughed until you cried: like this afternoon tbh 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeppp 19. met someone who changed you: not rly 20. found out who your friends are: i mean i found out 2 years back i legit have 2 friends and i’ll still w them lol 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nopee

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i dont use fb a lot tbh and at this point i mainly just use it to talk to @stereotypicalcancerwrites and @sleepygirl-writes and i dont rlly have any personal stuff on it so i guess i dont know a lot of my fb friends in rl? because i lit dont add them lmaooo iM  onLY KEEPING FB FOR SUZIE AND DEAN 23. do you have any pets: A cat and a dog! aka frodo and jon snow!  24. do you want to change your name: i liiike faaya tbh and matty said he liked it too SO 25. what did you do for your last birthday: omg i think i went out w my twin brother and cousins and we stayed out the whole night it was actually rlly nice 26. what time did you wake up: liiike 8:30 and i went to bed at 5 3  27. what were you doing at midnight last night: i was w my best friend i think 28. name something you can’t wait for: im getting cheesecake in half an hour!! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: i havent seen her in two months omg 31. what are you listening to right now: like i would - zayn 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I ONCE MET TOM FELTON IT WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE 33. something that is getting on your nerves: i left my tea for too long and now its cold ANYWAY 34. most visited website: youtube and this hellsite 35. hair color: black 36. long or short hair: i LOVE long hair, i have like shoulder length but omg i love long hair 37. do you have a crush on someone: nahh not rlly except if kaz brekker counts cos always 38. what do you like about yourself: im supa friendly tbh and ive been reading a lot lately and i really like that!! 39. piercings: ears and bellybutton piercing lol 40. blood type: o positive i think 41. nickname: i mean my mom calls me faye 42. relationship status: i have a boyfrienddd 43. zodiac: sagitttarius

44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: himym tbh i rlly need to watch b99 tho 46. tattoos: i have 2 and theyre both the 1975 related lmao  47. right or left handed: im ambidexterouss  48. surgery: yahhhh  50. sport: i was captain of schools basketball team and i swim and dance 51. vacation: i rlly wanna go to brazil 52. pair of trainers: twooo

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: i just had cereal  54. drinking: waterr rn  55. I’m about to: finish cleaning my rooom 56. waiting for: my boyfriend to fucking tex me back 57. want: these really cute pair of shoes i saw today?? RIP 58. get married: yayyyy 59. career: lISTEN no idea. probs something to do w art

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: hugss tbh 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: taller def 63. older or younger: older or same age yeah 64. nice arms or nice stomach: im a hoe for abs i’ll be real  65. hookup or relationship: relationship tbh sign me tf up 66. troublemaker or hesitant: lmao bit of both i guess

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: …at a royal blood concert LOL 68. drank hard liquor: pls 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: glasses ALL THE TIME 70. turned someone down: yepp 71. sex on the first date: nahh  72. broken someone’s heart: i dont think so?? 73. had your heart broken: LOL 74. been arrested: nahhhh 75. cried when someone died: yeh 76. fallen for a friend: yeppp 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: rarely tbh 78. miracles: kinda 79. love at first sight: not rlly but… kinda 80. santa claus: nopee 81. kiss on the first date: lol sure 82. angels: ..ya tbh 

OTHER:

84. eye color: brown 85. favorite movie:um idk idk 

tagging: anyway idk if these are 20 people but if you wanna do it go for it! ANYWAY

( @stereotypicalcancerwrites / @sleepygirl-writes / @oceanhunters / @vexahliawrites / @nygmawrites / @kazdarling / @blackthornswrite / @whit-rps / @scamandesr / @wildhaart / @pocmuzings / @mattyhlys ) 

#me #tag game

[alwaysinmyheartnct]

prince!chenle au!!!

a v amazing anon requested this and i got so excited to wrtie. thank you so much for the request darling xox also sorry it was really long :((( i kinda got carried away  - admin amy

- aight so chenle’s prolly a real playful prince who doesnt give a fuck about his duties

- like his father (the One and Only King) got chenle a tutor to teach him about current affairs and specifically told him what tiem to be at the royal library

- chenle never showed up LMAO

- he was found playing in a dandelion field with knight!renjun

- when his father heard his son’s mischief he was just like /sigh/ its ok we still have hope his older brother isnt a total doofus

- so they just give up on forcibly teaching chenle

- but not to worry!!! chenle is actually smart and knows 5 languages

- acts as his father’s emergency translator sometimes

- but messes up translations on purpose and gets forced to clean horse poop for a week

- anyways here’s where you come in

- so you’ve never really known what to do wiht your life but you knew you wanted to get an education

- but education is super expensive and ur parents were hesitant to send you to an educational institute

- so when you heard the royal castle was providing FREE education to all of its maids and servants with free accommodation you signed up immediately

- ur parents were like,,,, wtf bro but they let you go anyway since thye kenw you wanted it bad

- i mean you only needed to serve for 6-8 hours a day and they didnt need to be worried about you getting kidnapped or anything

- they wanted you to send money back home tho so you were like ok lmaooo

- however when you arrived at the royal castle a week later to do your duties

- you didnt know you were assigned to be prince!chenle’s personal maid

- and when you did oh boy you were in for a treat

- the head maid took you aside from all the others and u wer elike ???

- “you’ve been specially chosen to serve prince chenle how eXciting!!!!!! ok here’s a list of your duties and you shall accompany chenle at all times for the 6-8 hours”

- “huh im sorry could you repeat”

- “no time for that the prince is coming soon aND THere he Is BIG SMILES EVERYONE BIG SMILES”

- you hadn’t seen prince chenle before bc he doesnt rly attend royal events so you were like,,,,, who is he??

- but you were blown away by a blonde cutie coming your way

- you were sh00kt but you tried not to show it lol

- you didnt kno it but chenle was sh00kt too

- ‘SHE SO BEAUTIFUL WTF DO I DO’

- so he just screams

- and an awkward silence follows

- the head maid then introduces you to him as his new personal maid

- bc the king wants to have some type of control over chenle’s life the kid is all over the place

- so y’all walk

- so he starts walking to his room and you trail behind him somewhat awkwardly

- however once y’all get inside the room

- ‘y/n help me build a pillow fort itS URGENT’

- &&& you’re like,,, well ok

- so y’all build a pillow fort in his room

- where tf do all these pillows and blankets come from

- & you just stand there awkwardly as he crawls in

- he notices u aren’t following him in so he backs out a little & he realises u’re probe super awks

- bc you two legit don’t know each other, you met like 15 minutes ago && he screamed in ur face

- so he’s like hIII I’m chenle!!!!! sorry about earlier hehe

- ur like bih i know but you’re like yes your majesty

- &&& he’s like do away with the formalities, whats your name

- ur kinda taken aback bc he’s pretty laid-back for a royal but you intro yourself anyways

- he holds out his hand and he’s like i look forward to working with you y/n and flashes hIS KILLER SMILE HAVE U SEEN THIS BOI

- anyway

- he’s like cmon join mE & motions for you to follow him

- you move to follow him into this massive pillow fort how can the castle have all these pillows tf

- but then your phone buzzes as the head maid reminds you to bring chenle to archery practice and to ready his uniform and stuff & ur like :-))) ok

- so ur like ‘your majes- chenle i have to ready your uniform, you have archery practice in 15 minutes @ two’

- he wants to refuse but since ur so cute he’s like ok :((((((( pouty face x10000 only if u follow me tho

- so you iron his uniform and give it to him and he actually goes to practice

- the instructor is surprised that chenle is punctual && he’s like wow chenle you actually came to practice on time 4 once & you brought a friend

- & he tries to shush the instructor bc you’re there and he doesn’t want to make a bad impression of himself in front of you

- ur kinda laffin inside bc this bOI

- so you sit on the sidelines and watch chenille practice archery

- & wow he looks so mature so serious so handsome

- you don’t wanna admit it but he really does look handsome when he’s concentrating on something

- unbeknownst to you, he’s actually trying really hard for once to impress you for unknown reasons of course

- his archery instructor is thoroughly impressed and reports to the king v excitedly

- he’s like ‘yOUR HIGHNESS CHENLE IS MAKING MASSIVE PROGESS AT ARCHEYR DUDE’

-&&& the king is like ‘wow really’ bc his son has never really put effort into anything

- so the king is like must be the new maid wow she really tamed him

- so you’re officially Chenle’s Maid

- although you do help chenle you also go to school and you meet other maids and butlers & you make loads of friends

- when chenle is out riding his horse w/ his bro he can’t help but notice the school for servants on the other side of the field & he glances over @ you laughing with your newfound friends and he subconsciously smiles to himself

- his bro is like dude u ok & he follows chenle’s line of sight and he sees u

- ‘hey isn’t that ur new maid y r u staring at her ;))))’

- chenle the blushes a deep red && he’s like sHUt UP

- his bro is like ‘mom & dad r gonna be so pissed when they find out’

- chenle’s like ‘ill treat u to pizza for a week’

- ‘deal’

- the following week you and chenle spend a lot of time together

- recreating the pillow fort & watching anime together bc chenle cant watch anime alone :(

- going for walks around the royal garden together

- chenle’s behaviour also significantly improves && he attends to his duties now

- his parents are very pleased

- they give you a raise & ur parents r jumping wth joy

- && you get to know that chenle’s a really thoughtful guy when he’s out of his wild mode

- you also find out he’s really funny && you both joke around now and poke fun at each other

- when no one’s looking y’all play tag in the castle

- its really fun

- before you know it, you’ve fallen in love with chenle

- & ur like shit bro he’s royalty tho so you keep it to yourself

- ignoring all the times your hands brush

- the slight blush on chenle’s cheeks when he holds your hand to hurriedly bring you around corners when you guys are playing so y’all dont get caught by the superiors

- the way your gazes linger on each other more than necessary

- one day you were tasked to pick up chenle from his night class on current affairs and to also hand him his pajamas

- so when he cam out of the royal library he just looked absolutely rekt

- so ur like chenle u ok

- he just smiles at you slightly, his eyes half lidded

- && ur like chenle let me carry your books

- so you bring a tired chenle back to his room and help him wash up

- you think he looks absolutely adorable, sleepy tired chenle is wow

- a muted normal chenle tbh

- so when you tuck him into bed he’s like

- y/n don’t leave pls

- && ur like ok,,, what do you want me to do

- he’s like could you please cuddle with me? if you’re ok with it if not its ok you can go back to your living quarters

- ur heart highkey accelerates almost too fast bc 1) u can’t say no to chenle and 2) ur GONNA CUDDLE WITH UR CRUSH WHAT IF SOMEONE NOTICES AND COMES IN OR SMTH

- he senses ur apprehension && he’s like don’t worry no one will come in and if you don’t come back to the living quarters i can just tell mom and dad u were helping me bc i was sick

- so you slowly slide into bed with him, keeping a safe distance but

- chenle pulls u closer to him and hugs you tightly

- you wanna squirm out but he lets out little soft breaths and you know the hoe is asleep so u like dang it but also really short bc ur in such close proximity

- you eventually fall asleep

- you’re the first to wake up in the morn and when you do, you notice you’ve shifted positions and you’re now facing him

- you admire his features, the way the sunlight dyes his skin a honey yellow, the way his hair glistens an amber hue

- he wake sup tho and you shut ur eyes immediately buT HE CAUGHT YOU STARIN OHHHHH

- he chuckles lightly & he’s like i know u stared at me u creep AHAHAHA

- ur like shit what if- he don’t like me

- ur a stoopid ass

- he’s like ‘its ok i like u too don’t worry, but we have to keep it under wraps from my parents’

- yOU WANNA JUMP IN JOY but decide not to bc u know ur shy af

- following months you guys try to keep it hidden

- kissing secretly in corners of the castle

- holding ur hands a tad bit longer when y’all have to part

- tbh his parents start to notice when chenle can’t pay attention during dinner time and keeps staring at his phone &&& they’re like chenle we need to talk, chenle’s bro pls leave the room

- he’s like gg wp bro I’m in deep shit

- so he just starts shouting at his parents like

- I REALLY LOVE Y/N AND YOU CANT TAKE THEM AWAY FROM ME

- he’s like bro chill we already knew we just wanted to freak you out a little its chill we aight with you and y/n

- just as longs it does not affect ur performance

- he’s rly happy but he also wants to play a prank on you

- so he gets knight!renjun to bring u in && tell you that the king and queen has summoned you

- he also gets his parents in on it

- so when u enter, chenle’s looking down and his parents looked displeased

- they’re like ‘we heard about u & our son’

- you start bawling cause u think y’all r over

- but then they r like ‘OMG OMG DONT CRY ITS OK WE R OK OMG CHENLE WANTED TO PLAY A PRANK ON YOU THATS ALL’

- ur so relieved u start crying even more

- channels like shit I’m sorry baobei r u ok & goes to hug you

- you’re like /sniff/ its ok I’m just really happy thank you your highnesses

- they’re like call us mom & dad

- years later u think back upon it as your laying in bed with your now husband chenle

- && ur like I’m glad it worked out baobei

- he looks down at you & he’s like I’m glad it did too

#chenle #zhong chenle #chenle scenarios #nct scenarios #nct imagines #nct fanfic #nct #nct dream #renjun #y/n #admin amy #alwaysinmyheartnctwrites

[uniformbravo]

since it seems to be steadily taking over my whole brain now im just gonna let myself ramble about yugioh for a bit

idk i just keep thinkin abt how it was my favorite show when i was a kid... like not just i liked it a lot, but u know how when ur a kid u pick ur Favorite things & it’s a big deal, like i had Declared this as my Favorite Show

i honestly don’t rly even remember my experience with it in terms of my Feelings like i dont remember having a favorite character or anything like that, i just have a lot of Evidence of me liking it lmao like. u know those school folders they sell at like walmart that are themed after different shows n stuff, i had a yugioh one & it was cool af (i still have it actually, i’d get it to take a pic but it’s in my brother’s room & its almost 1:30 am). i remember my best friend at the time (like. 3rd grade) said she hated yugioh so she would always scoff at my folder lmaooo but like i knew she was wrong so

o shit i found a pic of it online tho here it is

gangs all here...... dam when they droppin their latest single tho lol

i also got this yugioh play set for christmas once, it was like. a plastic dueling arena that u would set little monster figurines on and each player had a bunch of little orange plastic balls that they would take turns shooting at each other’s monsters until urs were the last standing, or something like that? all i have left of it are the little orange balls and a couple of the hologram projectors that went in each of the 4 corners of the arena. i wish i knew what happened to the monsters tho, bc they were actually pretty cool. there was like. a blue guy. and a gold one. i think one of them might have been the summoned skull? i think they were mostly monsters that became plot important later in the show & i’ll definitely recognize them when they show up but i haven’t gotten there yet.... im pretty sure they were basically exodia’s pals tho, like reputable monsters. the Big Boys

hwhgosFHOFJ I FOUND A PIC OF THIS ONE TOO

HELL YEA BOY THATS FUCKIN IT BRO AAAAAAAAAAAA

every bone in my body just liquefied and became nostalgia from looking at this image GHRGHGH I WANT IT SO BAD

ofc i also have a deck of actual cards w/ such iconic features as the dark magician (which is Shiny), summoned skull, change of heart, and this one rly beat up guy i found half buried in the sand on the playground at school one day named griggle, my prized possession

(imagine this but more fucked up looking)

oh and how could i forget, i fuckin. made my own deck of cards, it’s like a bunch of cut out pieces of scrap paper that are all different sizes & i made up a bunch of monsters and drew them & my favorite part (i looked thru it the other day) is there’s a couple cards in there with just numbers on them which i assume was either meant to be added to the monsters’ attack or ur own life points, but one of them is 500 and the other is 50,000,000,000 which is absurd i literally just wrote as many zeroes as i could fit on the paper & it shows, imagine drawing that fucking card my god. i imagine that in my mind it was like, meant to be really rare & hard to get but like. the whole deck is only like 30 cards? so i guess @ whoever faces me u better fuckinnn say ur prayers

that’s all the physical evidence i can think of, but i do have some memories..... fuck i remember watching all the new eps air on saturday mornings aaaa oh man there are a few Classique moments of the show im excited to get to, not by virtue of being particularly Good but because despite having been such a big fan of the show i like barely remember anything from it at all, so these little bits and pieces that i do have r like. exciting. im arranging them into a bullet point list

first of all, and i may be wrong, but i stg at one point pegasus drops someone thru a trap door in his castle or smth??? or someone gets thrown out a window or Something idk why this moment stands out so much but if it doesn’t happen then i will be Very disappointed (i think it was bandit keith. get fucked)

this one’s already happened a few times but for some reason a memory that stood out to me from this show is yami yugi being like “pegasus!” in his Deep Man Voice all like >:o so i was v happy to hear that. also while im here this is pretty obvious but the way he says “previously on yugioh” at the beginning of eps is great, love it, having a blast w/ that one

one saturday there was a big two-part hour long special called “joey’s betrayal” where like idk joey has to duel yugi for Evil Reasons or something and i was SO HYPE for that special bc i was like O Shit joey’s Evil now and like. this was around the time that my sister kinda stopped wanting to get up early for saturday morning cartoons lol so she was sleeping but i was So excited for the ep & i didnt want her to miss it so i left her a note on the desk in our room for her to see that had all the info abt the episode like the title & the time it would be on so u know she could like, wake up & See it & come out n watch it, but the whole thing went by & she never woke up so i had 2 go back in there & take the note down & throw it away looooooooool. but yea so im REALLY excited to get to that episode due to its Impact

eventually i kinda lost interest in yugioh & stopped keeping up with it but obvs the show kept going on w/o me & one day i turned on the tv & it was on & it was like, tristan was trapped in the body of a teddy bear or something? & i was like wow thats weird glad i stopped watching & i never looked back but now I Am Looking & i can’t wait to get to that episode, however-old-i-was me was a Fool

this one doesn’t count but i remember thinking the theme song was SO COOL (and i was right that shit slaps so hard )& being disappointed there were no lyrics i could sing along to..... except for when it was time to d-d-d-duel ofc

FUC I JUST REMEMBERED ANOTHER THING I OWNED HOW COULD I FORGET oh my godddd it was a yugioh poster that i had on my wall for so long & i am EXTREMELY sad that i don’t have it anymore, idk why i thought i could just Throw It Out like a CLOWN, but it was like. it had yugi and friends on it (tho i think one of them might have been missing, it was either tristan or tea, also i just learned how tea’s name is spelled fuckin HUH), & yugi is like, he’s little yugi & he’s got his hands & maybe part of his face? pressed up against the “glass” (the barrier separating his world from ours, keeping him Contained), i remember this detail clearly bc i looked at it a lot and learned how to draw that effect from that specific poster... anyway the best part of the whole thing is that it came from like a scholastic book fair or something so it said in big letters “it’s time to READ!” it was SO good & im DEVASTATED i don’t have it anymore........ to gaze upon its brilliance one last time....................

anyway i think thats all my yu-gi-oh related childhood memories woah why did i type out the whole ass title like that this time damn what the fuck lmaooo 

rly sad abt the poster actually the more i think abt it the cuter it sounds tbh i wanna see that art again..... how could this happen.... i tried looking it up like the other stuff but i couldn’t find anything at all u_u

ok it’s late af now i need to go to bed before i pass ou

#retag later #ygo blogging #that playset is on ebay for like 30 bucks what if i had money #and room in my house #i just want the little monster figures again #i miss them

[shytiff]

 August 2021

1 - morning walk with ness mendel to palm hills. my dumb ass decided to do a bit of run. my heart was screaming by the time we hiked lol. continued with some youtube dance work out at mess. had kanayam as always. the fish and chicken somehow tasted even better than usual. afternoon nap. had muesli and simba again. 

2 - a hectic BP slash usila slash mtbs day with dr arief. Tried sop bebek h syafei and sate bandeng. Worked out w renata to a 20 mins pilates vid and 2 madfit songs and one 5 min stretch. Dinner was tofu soun seaweed and egg soup courtesy of renata. And baked banana with ovomaltine lolll im so grateful friends give me food.

3 - in usila today but turns out theres still one more day of vaccine in kantor kecamatan, so nessa and i went. We screened together w dr arief. Finished at about 2 pm. Can finaly eat at like 3ish after getting to the mess. Felt a bit of headache and my nose starts to go runny. So i slept. But my nose was so blocked. So i asked renata for her boiled noodle. Felt a bit better. Cleared my nose. Slept.

4 - it did feel better, finally. The soreness i felt in my abs yesterday gets worse today lmao. BP w nessa. orientation w dr harnis. talked ngalor ngidul about love life et cetera at our room lol

5 - fasted today. sahur was rice, crispy mushroom and abon since i felt sick of eating egg. it seems that love life talk continued today    at BP w dr anggi. printed stuff at kubang wates. bought kepak bandeng at RM tajuk and some snacks in indomaret. turns out Prof gave me one more ppt to do, for PIT. and the manuscript deadline is on the 8th :) immediately started doing something about it since now i know ppt and word making rly takes time

6 - muesli and pizza from alfia for bfast. vaccine today w dr lutfi. talked with kang ade and turns out he lived in kalideres before lol. bought don’s burger for dinner and ate it with fried egg. 

7 - MTBS today. got a lot of free food. read stranger than friends. went to transmart w nessa to buy stuff. did the word for Prof’s PIT topic acompanied with lofi study on the tv accompanied with nescafe latte. taste kinda.. weird. 

8 - ran a bit today, alone. bought nasi uduk for 5000 and i added scrambled egg. continued the word and finished it at like 11 am. sent it. relaxed for a bit. read black mirror. lunch was from labbaik but things went shit and i ended up paying 72k lol. printed document stuff w nessa and went to palm hills in the golden hour. ate together w the gals. played scrabble and talked a bit with fianti until almost 11 pm.

9 - had left over chicken and pizza for bfast. usila today and the patients came back to back. bought kanayam while waiting for 2 pm. slept. did (so little) work of ECMOCARD SAP. im so research dumb. 

10 - had steak and rice and renata’s veggie soup for bfast. vaccine today at vivo near intermedia with teh dian. waited for a mother with 9cm dilatation in ugd with nessa, but it took so long so i went back first. met up with atikah at o seven lmao. she arrived at like 12 and waited at palm wates. tried carbonara sphagetti (yum! but not fulfilling enough) and fried tofu. slept early and i probably passed out at like 930 pm. atikah was talking w ratnaa and we’re talking about the day’s randomness of atikah’s customer that somehow lives in cilegon

11 - woke up late. drove motorbike around palmhills to sightsee a bit. bfast at nasi uduk place around the corner. did some ngambi-together in green wates, accompanied by atikah’s 2 songs, repeated many times. went to mess. ate seafood in merak (a place near billiard cafe). got fish and shrimp. went to pulau kecil with pak asep’s help. walked around the tiny island. saw a monkey. the waters surprisingly clear. and then after maghrib Prof asked me about the ppt lol. so i hurriedly made it and emailed it, with zoom sesh 2mrw

12 - muesli for bfast. a hectic day today at bp x usila with dr lutfi (she went up for a bit for promkes). leftover kangkung and fish for lunch. hurriedly added some stuff to Prof’s ppt before the zoom sesh at 3. did 1 pamela reif vid and “attempted” her 10 min ab workout. dinner was soun and egg and renata’s veggie. 

13 - vaccine day for ODGJ and special needs children ft. dr Arief. finished at like 10:15. bought discounted wingstop (86k for 20 piece). was about to send Prof’s ppt but turns out there’s a ppt from the sponsor. in english. so i had to mold the 2 ppt and do some translation. finally sent it, and the literature. the sponsor used a lot of old literature lol. 

14 - wingstop and rice for bfast. mtbs today. no patient lmao. bu ningrum gave me cimol again! and a snack called selondok. waited out 2 pm with nessa. there’s a mom that came with upper abdominal pain. it did not improve after ranitidine, so she was referred. mom dad etc came to cilegon. i vacuumed. bujing lia had itches within like 15 mins of entering my room :(( lol. since the bed was put out, renata and i slept in yoga mat lol. nessa went to damkar. but i dreamed of something that night.

15 - mom’s spaghetti for bfast. off to pulau besar at 7 am. walked around the island a bit. swam in pulau kecil. ate at saung bonang (<50k per person!). tidied up the hydrovacuumed bed. a 20 ish minute ab and glutes workout with renata. love life talk. accidentally turned on live video in cld lmao. talked with aisyah due to said live vid. gave some brownies and spaghetti to mendel lol. dinner was mom’s chicken, kentang balado and capcay. 

16 - usila today. lots of patients with dizziness. ate mom’s chicken and spicy potato for lunch. 

17 - free day today. picked up my towel from sodaqo laundry. nasi uduk for breakfast. lazed. washed my undies. lunch was meat soup made by renata. watched run bts while eating indomie. watched extreme job (quite hilarious). filled my logbook. slept at like 12 am

18 - spaghetti for bfast. no patient at kia. promkes about hypertension. some patients at igd today. my mistake today was not realizing the pneumonia on a 8months patient with severely dehydrated diarrhea :( there’s also a 4 yo child whose fever did not improve after like 3 hrs and pct and compress. i have to be better :(. lunch was kanayam. bought chatime together with ness tri. tried lychee milk tea and the taste did not combine well at all. imagined better productivity with nessa even though its less likely to happen lmaooo

19 - fasted and had nongshim carbonara dry ramen for sahur. BP today. Almost bought martabak but its just keBMan on my part.

20 - vaccine day today. Filled logbook. went to mess and went back again to cibeber through the rain when i was called by the teteh. Helped the delivery (the mcroberts, to be exact), and got some hecting. The midwives were rly kind :) ness ren were sleeping so i got some silence for myself. It was nice. Tidied some stuff and slept

21 - mtbs. Whatsapp class for pregnant woman abt c19 vaccine. Bought martabak hokky medium (50k,green tea, chocolate, ceres and cheese). Turns out alfia also bought martabak assen. Fried mom's chicken and ate it with renata's porridge. Movie night, watched under the gods 1 along with popcorn

22 - woke up kinda late if i wanted to run, but the weather was cloudy and nice, so i went out at 7:15ish. ran a bit towards KS complex behind mess. walked through a jogging track, empty houses, krakatau bike park. played badminton with tri. washed undies. ate mom’s food for bfast slash lunch. napped a bit. off to o seven, bringing mom’s brownies. ordered green tea latte (25k), it tasted sweet and i had to remind myself that its not matcha lol. did some logbook and literature search for prof’s ppt. ate renata’s broccoli. folded clothes. tried nessa’s scarlett scrub. put on some lotion. mask. turned on fianti’s candle (smells rly nice and calming!). vcall with fi, scrabble and some talks. and suddenly its 11pm

23 - usila today. quite a lot of patients, so much that i was thirsty. dr yanti called since she needs some preskas docx. lol so sudden. bought mizone and dimsum kuy (10.5k with gofood pickup promo). the dimsum was good and fulfilling. didnt do anything else much in the mess. read a painter behind the curtain. it was rly rly good. all the characters made sense and had great insight. some are assholes (im looking at u, Raymond). ate the keripik mom bought from sidimpuan. first time actually trying it. its actually not that spicy lmao i used to think its the spiciest thing in the world. banana, brownies and protein shake for din din.

24 - empty KIA today. no promkes. or UGD patients. some mentoring on preeclampsia by dr Arif. went to BNI but turns out our card havent been activated yet.  cooked mom’s sphagetti sauce (thats not enough amount) along with egg and cheese. yum. had banana brownies and protein for dinner. started trial to blinkist

25 - BP today. reasonable amount of patients, accompanied by blinkist. tried ngikan by gofood pickup (17.5k). i still prefer kanayam’s fish and nasi liwet. a pregnant woman came to UGD. so i went back at like 7 pm, but turns out the mom went back home lmao. mas apit said i shouldve contacted him. point taken. so a nicely lit cafe along the way to pkm called Serada, so i tried it. It has industrial vibes. Got latte (25k). did some logbook. Read some blinks in bed

26 - vaccine today. Both screening and getting moderna lol. My arm hurts. So far no fever. bought roti O croissant and the usual coffee bread for 12k using gofood. Watched weathering with you. Turned on the candle. Read blinks

27 - arm hurts. but thankfully its mtbs. slept while waiting until 2. kanayam sambal matah for lunchie. finally took PCT that solved my headache and incoming fever and arm pain bcs i dont want to stumble while on the motorbike. watched harry potter #1. washed clothes and filled some logbook, powered by left over serada latte. need to sleep so i wont wake up late 2mrw

28 - mass vaccination in SMP RJ with mendel kak esa. 800ish patients. Lots of food and snacks and coffee. Picked up by mom and dad. Slept on the way. And like magic, when i open my eyes im at the airport. Basking in the silence of my room

29 - relaxed. Moms nasgor for bfast. Met up with atikah puy in kopi sedjenak. Tried their croffle with nutella. Went to racheels since its her online grad day. There were also sil and dev. Lotsss of food was eaten that day. Doughnuts, moms brownies, fruits, phd bigbox. Atikah and puy also came along to racils. Had lots of fun talk.

30 - sahur. Off to cilegon. A bit of road fixture was going on. Stopped in the rest area since i wanted to pee. KIA/ugd today. There was a patient who had an accident with a truck. Her nails were falling off. I panicked when Prof asked for his ppt so i hurriedly finished it. Had moms chicken for iftar. Fell asleep after maghrib

31 - usila. Renata fried bakwan and tofu and fish and chicken. Lotsss of fries yum. We played with makeup and ness set up her ling light. I imitated jks tattoo using eyeliner lol. Did the word for Prof. Jk went live for his bday!! I listened until i fell asleep (lol hes still going)

[shytiff]

May Small Wins

1 - lazed, went to racheel’s place and put my motorbike there, went to slipi jaya with silvi devi reza to watch seobok (it was fun!!), had iftar at the yumz green sedayu. It was raining when we get back. prayed maghrib and isya in some random mosque. went back and arrived at like 8 past sumn. showered, slept like a babyy

2 - lazed, slept and woke up at like 11, went to nila’s house, practiced doing eyeliner by borrowing nila's (focallure brand), iftar at green sedayu foodcourt (originally intended to go to the yumz but it enforces actual distancing) with angkot ppl minus tik will. Arrived home at about 9-ish.

3 - magang as usual. Went to rm. Took mrt to lebak bulus. My inaco salary finally came. My head kinda hurts after tarawih. Ended up skimming over bj alex lmaooo. Did not shower today lol,,,,

4 - added dr dafsah's revision to the excel database otw to rsf. Pak nardi took a while to arrive. Left rsf early to go to the bank. I (((finally))) activated m-banking lmaooo wow the features are neat wow im not jahiliah anymore. Found this method of just let it sweat anyway during tarawih lmaoo. Preferably with long sleeves bcs somehow you feel less of the sweaty feel compared to tshirt.

5 - sampling - data entry - RM as usual. Theres no new RM. Read a goood dramione fic by bex chan even if its not complete, its okay. Im okay :"))). Iftar was soup, salad, chicken katsu and french fries. Its been 2 days that i practiced sleeping-to-rain-sound. The first night was spent as a dreamless quick sleep (its over before you knew it), but tonight i dreamed abt almira's wedding lmaoo.

6 - no sampling today!! Still went to rsf tooo go to the mall w regen lmao. Did some data entry. Went to PP by mrt. Went back by going to halte gbk and thankfully the kalideres one arrived after only waiting for 5 mins. Its surprisingly quick, compared to lebak bulus - pesakih trip. Took abt 20 mins to jelambar.

7 - no sampling today too. Dr vera gave us lebaran cookies! Did gcp for bu suryati a5. Went to rm, finally finished the available rm. Went home early. Can finally relax since its the weekend.

8 - literally laid in bed til my body hurts. Rly want to read sumn but dunno what. Finally decided to read momoiro heaven. And rere hello. And after iftar i read lack of love. And just like tht, my saturday was gone. Cant bring myself to do things

9 - its another day of lazying (or self sabotaging, cant tell). Read spy family and its effin hilarious. Wasted my sunday. Cant bring myself to even move and i just laid in bed all day.

10 - last day of work in the weeekend lmao. Felt better than being in AR, but still not that much productivity. Went to RM. Phone call w fianti along the way to plan food in almira's bridal shower. Went back at 12-ish. Picked up my dress from risma busana. Walked to and fro halte kebon jeruk. Prayed zuhur close to ashar in kfc's mushola. Felt better after ~8k steps. Had homelab's green tea mixed with vsoy. It honestly made me feel better. Matcha, or caffeine, sure is amazing. At least i had a sense of normalcy before losing all the will to self-care

11 - consumed internet entertainment u til i was sick and tired of it. Watched a lot of cut videos. Granny came and stayed over. So i slept upstairs

12 - same as 11 but upstairs. More relatives came near iftar time so i excused myself to shower. Slept in mom n dads room at like 12-ish. Watched hp goblet of fire since keisha and karins newest obsession was draco. We squealed together over liking enemies to lovers trope haha,,,,

13 - Somehow all of dad's jakarta relatives came for lebaran. the last time i checked, there were some bridges being burned. prayed eid at home. watched perempuan tanah jahanam (which was surprisingly not scary). ate. napped. talked about personal things w keisha and karin. i cant believe the time has finally come where we talk about this kinda stuff. watched you’re next (it barely has any plot, just gore). they went back at about 8 pm and i just sleptttt yall lmao i didnt shower today. disgusting, i know

14 - cam barely get out of bed. Managed to shower at zuhur time. Watched dalbang and laughed like crazy bcs its just that funny. Read fanfics. Tiktok. Ate once and had greenfield yogurt at the evening. Fell asleep. Woke up at 1 and snacked on 1 pack of oat krunch

15 - run bts. Originally planned to go to flavola but it was still closed, so i went to dm's dunkin. Ordered orange juice and oeanut choco donut but somehow the price wasnt package price hhh. Turns out my clires account was somehow banned. So i contacted the admin. Instead of doing dr dafsah's excel i ended up taking off the makara sticker from my laptop. Bought some stuff for almira's bridal shower. Bought arirang at hari2 (its funny bcs yesterday i was seeing online marketplace, planning to buy it, but turns out hari2 the magical place had buy 2 get +1 deal for arirang.

16 - run bts. Managed to move my body a bit. Did 20 squats (ill elaborate on this later). That improved my mood. Tidied up some of my stuff. Saw the paper bag of random memorabilias by friends.

17 - went to rsf by tj. left kalideres 06:45 and arrived at RSF 8:15. sampling. went to RM (still no new ones). picked up by mom. went to salemba for almira’s bridal shower. originally planned to get padang at citra minang behind BK but it was closed. so we drove around looking for open ones. ended up buying it in a small (but crowded) padang place near a big padang restaurant lmao. was the first one to arrive at acacia. checked in, pulled the bed near the wall. showered. its hilarious sometimes with a bit more serious discussion anjayy. went home w febby who drove and clara

18 - went to mcd to get lunch (since everyone’s fasting) and tried to muster the will to do something. i didnt manage to do anything except shopping online (brought dusty pink hijab at hijup). got spicy chicken and iced coffee. (spoiler alert: tomorrow i got mencret2 lmaooo). read my suha and beyond the skidipapap its actually rly good

19 - went to RSF (with mom as usual. quickly snapped RM pictures while mom was waiting. went with her to mami’s house bcs she and uwak will fly to banjar. finally got to meet haekal, he’s such a smiley babyy its basically free therapy. planned outing with nisa lmao. from soekarno hatta we went to vintage vibes lmao since we’re already out. vintage vibes is more crowded now. and there’s less good findings now. went back emptyhanded. ate chicken arirang since there’s no food. fell asleep at like 06:30 until early morning lmaooo

20 - woke up at 2-ish am, played my phone, fell asleep at like 9?, woke up again at 11 lmaooo. went to sbux. had matcha latte. did some inaco work. todays the most productive ive been this week.

21 - went to gi with febby to also meet up with fi, bought falsies and glue (later proved to be of a horrible quality), siraman and pengajian almira (first time seeing an actual siraman), went to blok m w nes ren ara gen. Tried naruto takoyaki at little tokyo, went to daitokyo (i didnt eat anything), and got matcha cake, sakura and mango raspberry gelato at kebun ide. Picked up by mom. Renata gifted me bts 2021 winter package photocard 🥺🥺

22 - iluni internship webinar by dr naldo. Grabbed fried chicken master. Stupid time management etcetc made my start makeup at 12 (febby went out at 13:30). My falsies and hijabdo was done by herrr thank god for the help. Went to swissbel. Didnt take a pic w almira bcs time. Almiras wedding at damai indah golf pik. My skin was TERRIBLE at the wedding. The make up didnt stick prolly bcs of vitacid. Thank god for masks,,, went back home w febbyy. Made tiktok lmao

23 - lazed. Went to flavola. Its finally daytime caffeine again w kopsuscok. Did dr triya's translation work and finished it at home. She transferred the fee at like 11pm

24 - off to RSF with mom. no new medical records. wrote fuad’s name on the medrec borrowing form. continued to nisa’s place w mom. lazed, played w haekal, put some patient’s phone number on the inaco excel. Off to GBK with nisa and sarah. parked at abc field (shouldve parked near GBK’s H gate). saw moja museum 2.0, took lots of pics. mo paint (moral lesson: draw the background first!! not the foreground). finished at 16:30. ashar at masjid al-bina. nisa dropped me off at gbk tj station. prayed maghrib on the bus since the traffic was so ughh. met atikah in lippo puri. decided to eat seirockya so we walked to puri. talked about a certain someone along the way. we rly talked about it while walking until we arrived at seirockya. atikah treated me uyeyy since she and racheel will stay in depok for 2 weeks starting tomorrow. got the shoyu ramen and gyoza. took the taxi to atikah’s place. mom’s waiting there lmaoo i was like “noo dont wait at jco, just wait at atikah’s”. still felt energized that night in my bed. no sleepy2. like 100% awake. 

25 - woke up at like 9:30. i basically did nothing today. didnt even shower lmao (i showered last night). read the good teacher in one go. zoom meeting w dr eva. i rly need some structure in life, goshhh

26 - showered and went to mcd. got nasi uduk, breakfast wrap and milo for 26k (thanks mcd app promo and mcd duta garden’s menu machine, i dont have to interact with another human). planning to do dr dafsah’s excel after all the data is complete, and still no new inaco data, so i ended up.... online shopping at bobobobo....... (bought outer and white culotte). tidied up the writings on my stickies (plenty of words has accumulated). ordered onejai for emir juan (expensive!!! 79k no promo lolll but free delivery. i was baited by gojek’s 1k 2 week subscription and felt like hmmm i should get something since we live in the middle of nowhere and free deliveries felt significant at that particular time when im holding my phone lmao). fell asleep after drinking vsoy + matcha lol its soft caffeine no longer works i guess

27 - woke up late as usual, went to sbux at 1 pm. tried white peach matcha frapp. the peach overpowers and u can barely taste the matcha. tried to read something useful (in medicine) but skimmed 2 ppt and then i saw solid’s bitly for isip. finished reading banana fish. couldnt bawl my eyes out because im outside.

28 - checked out rsf. Still no new ones. Immediately went back. Lazed and wasted my time

29 - iluni webinar. Here comes the impending life crisis. Ate nasi uduk and mie goreng telor today. Tried vsoy golden grain with matcha. It has almond aftertaste. Line call with kris for almost 4 hrs until 11 past sumn pm.

30 - more iluni webinar. Dr Eric, SpPD, PhD was rly cool. Tried daily box (butter soy chicken). Quite tasty. Mkg w regen. Videocalled in the mall w silvi racil bcs its ale and nadaa's wedding today. Bought gooma 500ml matcha w gofood pickup discount. Ate sushi go (the shoyu has mirin btw). 50k+ you get 6 piece of sushi (2 salmon) and matcha cake and ocha. Quite a nice deal. Talked abt cryptocurrency lmao. Went back and forth w TJ. All hail tj

31 - planned to do at least some productive stuff at home. turns out nila is outside and had some time to spare. so we went out. i met her in citra 6. we went to pik’s white beach. its scorching hot since its 2 pm. spent like 15 mins there. we had wanted to stop by monsieur spoon but THERES A QUEUEEE even if its a hot afternoon. so we ate tom sushi at green sedayu. talked a bit afterwards in nila’s place and then i was picked up by emir. tried gooma’s matcha. its not sweet like sbux. approved by mom (who doesnt like sweets). but its more expensive than sbux’s 2L 100k promo lol. (45k after gopay pickup promo for 500 ml). reread bj alex lmaooooo found new tidbits

[shytiff]

Feb 2021 Wins

1 - osce study with clara almira, tryout 9 fkui, tryout review with clar, study sesh with clara that finished at about 10 pm. watched some youtube vids together til 11:15 pm. no longer sleepy, so i made my cv and finished it at about 3 in the morning lmao, bcs i saw this interning opportunity and i was like “damn i should make my cv”

2 - woke up at 7 am, didnt shower lmao, off to kiara for vaccination. Waited for a bit and i finally got it. ate mamdaging pesto rice with beef at kamkan w/ ren ness ara akisyah. talked at studied osce a bit. waited for mom to pick me up. until when do i need someone else to pick me up. i feel helpless and i hate that i cant just ride my motorbike because its too tiring. went back and dad got mad at me bcs i didnt greet him when leaving and entering the house. I truly didnt see him when i entered even though i heard sumn lmao. He said sumn along the lines of "you can always leave if u dont like me" (which is lowkey appealing). I cried bcs i felt sad and annoyed with our terrible emotional parent-daughter relationship. Hold the tears for a bit to study with clara. Darkened the room and slept still in my going-out clothes. I did not shower today lmao,,,,

3 - woke up at 10 am. Tryout and review w clara. Psych coaching. Psych practice with irun. Called lau and dajen bcs hes leving to medan. Randomly checked my email and my intern submission, which i emailed yesterday, that turns out the doctor replied at 8pm yesterday asking for interview today 11 am. And i saw it @ 6 pm. Aka super late. The stupidest thing ive ever done in FKUI. No cap. :( i panicked and it gave me a reason to talk with dad (asking how to reply) so i guess its a form of effort to banish the awkwardness between us. Studied w clara. I hope the doctor can forgive me. Its one loose end after the other lately.

4 - went to starbucks with atikah. got treated matcha latte yayy. cicil osce. called clara to learn imunisasi. went to kaleyo w atikah clara, ate bebek muda cabe ijo yumm. talked abt a lot of things in a span of 1-2 hours. we’re all pragmatist lmaoo. 

5 - osce briefing, DV osce practice w irun, watched run bts again lmaoo since knowing my osce schedule is thursday. read buku osce biru. 

6 - slept and lazed around til 1 pm. went to flavola since the construction was so noisy. osce simulation with UKMPPD Wibu. turns out flavola’s siomay is very fulfilling.

7 - todays construction noise escape is jco. Bought jcool double with almonds and chocolate crunchy. A bit of psych practice w aisyah. After maghrib practiced neuro w irun

8 - had no mood to study in the morning. Went to flavola, kopsusss coklat as usual. Reviewed osce materials (theres some tea about what might come out). Reviewed again at home (even tho i procrastinated from 6-9pm). Asked my bro for some ovo bcs i bought a mini keyboard in tokped lmaoooooo so random

9 - went to merra (ara and nessa’s place) but mom drove dad to the airport first. stome osce study, group consolidation for osce, tried mad bagel (the garlic cream cheese and tuna salad). the bagel was quite dense and fulfilling. the garlic cream cheese is quite heavy. arrived at home by 9 pm, went straight to sleep

10 - omg dr eva contacted me again :”) and i got the chance to be ecmocard research assistant. osce study. line call with ara. matcha latte. studied in juan’s room bcs it was so noisy. the keyboard i ordered arrived lolll cant wait to try. i dont know if its the anxiety or fear but i cant sleep and forced myself to sleep 11pm-ish

11 - osce. Went early to learn sumn more w ara tri. Osce (i forgot opv for the 5 mo old baby in peds station 😭 there was dr yogi omg) prayed zuhur and ashar in merra while waiting for pick up (i rly wish i could just bring my own vehicle but motorbike is rly tiring). Finally tried the mini keyboard, with earphones on. Practiced the song aku bukan untukmu by rossa lmao bu sihar taught us that in 33. I felt rly excited and not sleepy afterwards (that "normal" feeling with nothing looming). Its been a while since i tried something new, voluntarily. I guess its kind of what i felt when i tried the korean duolingo. That lasted for a couple months. Lets see how this keyboard thingy goes

12 - finally finished reviewing to oneshot (took ages lmao). Lazed around

13 - inten ukmppd w ness ren ara @ merraaa always. Went through 5 pdfs. Tried fastfit chicken burger and sweet potato fries. Quite fulfilling. Went back home and straight to bed (didnt eat anymore)

14 - started my day late as usual on weekdays lmaoo. flavola kopsus coklat as usual at my usual seat facing the window. did padi final tryout, score: 69. booty call with fianti, did mindset tryout, got 76,5.

15 - lazed tilll i start my day as usual @ 11-ish. Reviewed to padi final answers. Wow it sure took some damn time. My attention span is rly horrible when im alone in my room

16 - second dose of vaccine today. the rain was POURING. mom and emir waited in mcd. read half of aipki citation. 

17 - finished aipki citation, read CBT 2020 batch I and 2019 batch III questions. read a fantastic slow burn dramione fic. reviewed the last to solid.

18 - accompanied clara for swab antigen near airport train station (we came with motorbike since clara’s car was used). got called over by the police bcs we were in the car-only road lmaooo. went over optima tryout 2021. 

19 - cicil ukmppd at flavola with the usual menu, read some more afterwards

20 - ended up going to tamel bcs the flood in tb simatupang toll. Stayed w nessa and henny. Ate garlic carbonara spaghetti by bittersweet najla. Quite good for the price. Went over mediko questions with nessa and first session citation. Atikah sent some krispy kreme donuts 🥺🥺

21 - woke up at 4 bcs henny and nessa already did. Ate cold kanayam for bfast. Did ukmppd. I flagged quite a lot of questions huaa. I hope i can pass, aamiin. Went to tamel to get stuff (nebeng oca uye), climbed jembor to get to akis et al. Went to aeon (super crowded tffff), followed by ikea (parked at decathlon). Ate at both places (shared portion w kris lmaoo we get full quick). Aeon sushi and ikea meatball. So fulll. Went out of ikea to be briefed by dr Debby (ecmocard) and put my stuff to mom's car. Went in ikea again. And finally we went back. such a good sleep yall

22 - relaxed and i mean RELAXXXED. woke up and slept again. showered to prepare to go to harkit for intern briefing. i was late (thanks daan mogot road) and had to grabbike from untar. put on some sheet mask (natrep rose) bcs im realizing i need to fix my face and look decent for this new environment lmaoo.

23 - left home at 7 am, went through highway (i aint repeating daan mogot tragedy again). walked a bit backwards bcs the hightway exit was infront of dharmais. super slow progress on entering medical datas. took half a day to get one. and another half for the other. ate marugame udon, somay, chicken katsu and otak otak. we finished after maghrib and im writing this while waiting for mom

24 -  tried salted egg dori rice from salt inc. its quite salty and eneg inducing (a bit more than eatlah), but for the price (19k after cashback) i wont complain. Went back home before maghrib but there was still some medical record stuff i did in my room.

25 - magang as usual. Tried chicken egg salad from salad hut. Bought ice french hazelnut coffee from lawson coz i just cant take it anymore (the slump and sleepyness). I feel like the moment that sugary beverage enters my system i rise like a freshly watered plant. First meeting with dr eva and the others

26 - felt so tired even in the morning. Its 9 am and im already ordering janjiw coffee (with hazelnut and milo, quite sweet. Like a mix of kopiko and milo). Slow progress today i dunno why. Lunch is nayam rica2 and egg for 21k. Went back home by tj and mom picked me at gajah 2

27 - i hate to say this but bcs for 5 days now ive been fighting sleeping instincts, i snap out of sleepiness easier in the morning. Nasi uduk for brekkie. Moved some stuff up bcs the noise, played keyboard. Learned the (difficult) chords to tyler's see you again and im feeling satisfied. Went to racheel's place. Got fed chicken noodle. And then off to silvi's with devi also. Got fed chicken rice and dimsum. Thanks to friends im eating superwell today🥺

28 - relaxed at home. Skipped breakfast bcs i fell asleep and ate heartily in the afternoon. Evening run w racheel at citra 6