#ever critical of my own work

[hous3jackbuilt]

Some early mid 70s Barry Gibb cos I adore him

#still uncertain about this but hey #ever critical of my own work #barry gibb #watercolour #bee gees #the bee gees #watercolor #art #tarditional art #70s #fanart

[stuckinapril]

i think i officially set my sights on a therapist and i'll be contacting her very soon?? therapy was legitimately not on my 2024 bingo card (or in the cards for me at all) but here we are????

#this blog always had a focus on social science and detangling feelings and experiences. like it's basically been serving as my diary #bc this blog has always been my main outlet for it. i hate talking feelings to anyone irl. it's a bad habit but i hate it #so it was a game changer and helped me grow up sooo much. esp supplemented w other people's experiences. #being raised by a stoic engineer mother who's very much warm but also not very good at feelings at times has caused me to suppress SO much #compounded w being the eldest daughter. like that is a damning sentence in and of itself #tumblr just gave me an outlet for stuff like this. and every social media is essentially a highlight reel of ppl's best moments. #tumblr is the opposite. i've always loved that too whether it was in the form of humor or more earnest posts #could i work through my own issues by myself? yes probably #and my blog will always have that facet even if i get a therapist #but a therapist's input. just a professional's input. will expedite a lot of improvement for me i think #this has been a critical time period for me anyway bc i'm budgeting my whole schedule for once vs being handheld by uni deadlines #and it's just gonna keep getting more and more intense from here bc i'm truly pushing my comfort zone more than ever before #it just feels like the right call even tho i'm lowkey nervous ab it bc i HATE talking feelings in person. #this therapist will not fall for my trying to deflect by asking her about her life. which. usually works on my friends <3 #we will see. a therapy arc is coming very soon basically #p

[irlplasticlamb]

Did you go to art uni? What were the most important things you learned?

i did yes :) i think the most important thing i learned is to experiment and to put at least a little bit of meaning behind every element of your art piece — that’s why i got so into animal motifs and flower language, i think they’re such a lovely way to present stuff! but honestly my course was very lenient, it was mostly about you doing you and tutors giving you advice where necessary!

#vic.txt #vic answers #i LOVED uni because i got to spend time amongst other creatives #it was so amazing to sit in the studio drink your monster ultra and work on your art #i genuinely miss it #i ofc don’t miss the stress but the experience itself was incredible #i wish i found a studio like this — just a bunch of people doing art supporting each other and making silly jokes #but alas. i’m very very socially anxious so it’s hard for me to go places on my own and meet people hahah #but yeah i loved uni i had great coursemates and my tutors were some of the most talented encouraging people ever #there was this one tutor i used to argue with a lot but it was always in a good faith and it build some confidence in me when it came to #explaining my work #it encouraged me to accept criticism but also stand by my own

[genericpuff]

A lil' disclaimer.

Just because it's come up a couple times in the past, I wanna make something perfectly clear - I would never encourage people jump on other comics the way I do LO. The reason why LO is so heavily criticized by so many of us is because it's a multimillion phenomenon that... doesn't act like it is. It's so massively advertised both on the app AND outside of it (to the point it's gotten real life ads in New York) that for many people, it's an entry point into webcomics and yet it's functionally one of the worst webcomics out there, lacking in every major facet from composition to writing to character consistency.

Webcomics are an amazing medium that are loved so much for being accessible. Literally anyone can draw or write a comic. There are no rules, no restrictions, no corporate control. It's a lot of work, and not every person who tries to do it will be good at it or make money off it or become a worldwide phenomenon, but all you need to make one is an internet connection and an idea. You don't have to do it digitally, you don't have to be published through a platform, anyone can make webcomics. It's frankly been astounding to me to see it become an actual industry over the past several years.

Unfortunately, that industry has been led by corporations that do not value their creators, and comics that do not represent the best of what the medium has to offer. I only rip into LO as hard as I do for the same reason people rip into Twilight or Harry Potter or Overwatch 2 - it's a piece of work that's being professionally made with the expectation that people will pay for it and thus is held to a different standard and context than what you would hold a first timer or a hobbyist to.

If my rants do make any of you budding artists out there worry, then I apologize. But rest assured, I do not apply the same scrutiny to creators like you or myself as I do to LO. You're someone who's making this for fun, for free, for learning. You're doing it on your own time for your own personal gain, and very likely little to no monetary gain. LO is a commercially made project with millions of dollars of investments backing it, merchandising deals, a TV deal, and print books, not to mention multiple assistants ensuring that RS hits her deadlines, more assistants than most Originals creators can even afford. LO is barely even in the same playground as other Originals comics on the platform that can only afford 1-2 assistants and have to hope they can even get 2 hours of ad time in the banner reels; let alone compared to the Canvas comics or hobbyist-driven comics being made by someone like you or myself, which it isn't even neighbors with and hasn't been for years now.

I hold LO to a higher standard because I hold the industry to a higher standard - one that should be observed, analyzed, and discussed because of the precedent LO and top-earning comics like it sets in the industry and in the medium. Whether RS likes it or not, that's the reality of being a top creator in an industry, especially one that's still as new and unstable in the west as webcomics/webtoons.

Heavy is the head that wears the crown.

#seriously i would be the biggest asshole on the planet if i relentlessly shit on comics being made by one person on a budget of zero dollars #like i'm literally one of those people #i've been doing this for a decade and have barely anything to show for it lmao #and even then there are people who don't like my work and that's fine #but i'm not a monolith #me being a dickhead over a corporate comic should never dissuade you from making your own #if you really think i'm a dick then go ahead and make your comic unapologetically #put all your spite into it and go further than i ever could <3 #antiloreolympus #lo critical #lore olympus critical #anti lore olympus

[brookheimer]

didn’t expect the anne carson post to get notes but now that it has i myself am the recipient of bad takes. horrible

#also 75% of the people reblogging it atp do not seem to understand my frustration w the comments #like i didn’t post this to be like look how ableist twt users are in denying the lived experience of depression for other ppl #i mean sure but that was not the point of the post #it’s about an inability to read poetry and a newfound insistence on everything including art having a Take i #it’s about a fundamental disconnect with literature and works in general that are not written for you specifically #relatability politics infiltrating literary discourse #like their criticism of the poem is the strangest i’ve ever seen bc it has nothing to do with the poem. people do not know how to read #anymore #they treat everything like it’s a tweet they either need to publicly agree with or publicly mock #but yeah like my point was not Look How Dismissive They Are Of Neurodivergent Experiences #it was Jesus Fucking Christ The Education System Is Failing Us And Critical Literacy Is At An All Time Low #i mean this isn’t supposed to be about depression. it’s about life and living it #and honestly people defending it from the depression/neurodivergenxe angle is just the flip side of the twitter hate — you like it because #you view it as representative of your specific lived experience and would likely not like it if it didn’t #it’s being wrapped up into identity politics #and that was sooooo not the point of the post like i am criticizing the relatability/identity politics mode of reading #it’s made us unable to look at things on their own terms let alone thru a legitimate critical lens! #i mean ofc you can like stuff bc it resonates w you i’m not criticizing That. but saying that that’s what gives a work of art value or #determines whether or not it’s ‘good’ is ridiculous and narcissistic and rooted in the tiktok brain fungus discouraging all nuance ever #sorry sorry i’ll shut up now

[deancaskiss]

highlight of the day today: the cranky pessimistic doctor actually said really nice things about me today. I had been asking him questions all day and giving my thought process behind things and my theorized diagnoses and then he let me do a cat neuter today and let me close up another amputation and he wants me to do a spay later in the week… but the real highlight was when we were in surgery and he was asking me questions to test my knowledge and then i asked him a question about his suturing and he was impressed with my knowledge and he called me “intuitive” and said I was “precise and mechanical” (probably because im a hands-on learner and because i like to run through everything I’m doing and do things systemically and he noticed all of that about me in just 2 days and he thought i had good approach) and he repeatedly said he thought i was going to be a good doctor/surgeon and he’s seen students on rotations that he knew wouldn’t be good at the job but he has no concerns about me and said i had good skills and instincts and he was sure about me 🥹

#oliver talks #vet school adventures #literally me trying not to tear up in the OR because he said such nice things #like i asked him why he was doing certain throws with the suture and he was impressed that i noticed he was only doing 2 throws #and he mentioned it was because the suture was a different material than PDS (the normal go-to where we do 4-5 throws) #and he said he does 2 throws because it has good memory and at the same time I said ‘good tensile strength’ and he looked impressed #then he called me intuitive and said i was precise and mechanical (but in a good way) #like he was impressed with the way i approach things and because im hands-on with learning i work through things in my head as im hands on #like i will be coaching myself through it mentally as im doing ti physically #and its like he’s noticed my thought process and the way i work and he was impressed with my approach #anyway still crying about this because after the internal med doctors said crap things in my last review and said i wasnt ready to be a vet #and then this ‘real world’ doctor who’s cyanical and disillusioned turns around and says he has confidence in me and thinks im a good vet #that means literally a million times more than anything else ever could #like its this huge difference from doctors on campus in a education setting being overly critical and harsh #and then an actual real world practice practioner basically sang my praises today in his own cranky way #yeah thats like the biggest compliment ever #because its like he’s so honest and brutal about things he doesnt sugar coat anything #so the fact he said those nice things to me today. i know that was genuine and real because if he doesn’t like something he makes it known #but ive impressed him. me. i did that. i impressed the doctor today. #dont mind me im gonna cry now #now i gotta watch all the spay videos again before i do surgery in front of him this week so i can impress him (dont wanna disappoint him)

[gcldfanged]

Options: work on new art for promo or... don't

#i worked so hard on the Ever Crisis style art and now I hate the way it looks *SIGHS* eternally my own worst critic #◈ ooc

[bloodyke]

next person to bring up project 2025 to fearmonger support for genocide joe is getting blown up i cannot stand you bitches

#zenith.txt #yall know NOTHING #you only have 1 talking point and its never worked #if you want people to vote you need to give them something to vote FOR not something to vote against or else all arguments are meaningless #second of all who the fuck do you think is currently laying the groundwork for project 2025? its literally biden #all the shit you fear is gonna happen is ALREADY STARTED UNDER HIS PRESIDENCY #third of all you all sound like fucking GHOULS when you say 'yeah genocide is bad but if we dont vote itll inconvenience ME this time' #what the fuck is wrong with you #joe biden will not get a second term that is a fact and it will be his own fault #if you guys ACTUALLY cared about these issues you would be mobilizing in your communities instead of yelling vote blue no matter who #its the fact that weve known about project 2025 for a whole year now but yall are only just now bringing it up bc people #are criticing biden more than ever and it scares you that your precious status quo is being challenged #legitimately fuck all of you trying to weaponize the fears of marginalized communities #the privilege in saying that under repubs things will get worse... #itll get worse FOR YOU. all of the things you worry about finally affecting YOU are literally already fucking happening #to black and brown (particularly black and brown disabled people) for DECADES #and im saying this from a place of privilege being white myself #yes i am a gay disabled puerto rican but i am white first and have been able to for the most part avoid a lot of the shit that has been #KILLING my family and the people in my communities #all of the things youve been saying will happen in project 2025 are things i have already fucking watched happen to the people around me #the only difference between now and this hypothetical project 2025 is now it will effect white people too #and thats the only reason yall even fucking care about it because now YOUR life is going to terrible and YOU cannot ignore it anymore #everything you criticized trump for biden and his team also does. #yall are so fucking pathetic wringing your hands and spouting the lie of electoralism but you refuse to do anything #that could enact meaningful change beacuse the point is you guys dont actually want change #the only thing yall want is to have people stop talking about all of this so you can continue to walk around with your head down #and not be inconvenience in your daily life bc you actually enjoy the status quo #saying you have to vote for the wolf in sheeps clothing over the wolf is not fucking better they are the exact same thing #and its time yall opened your fucking eyes to the world around you #'i domt support genocide but-' THERE IS NO BUT HERE.

[terriblelizbians]

i think it's "interesting" when people pull out the "isr*el has a right to self defense" line right now. i mean in general but specifically right now when it's used to justify killing civilians in response to civilians killed. like huh what makes it "self defense" when one side does it but not for the other. hmmmm. like i'm of the controversial opinion that actually it's bad to kill civilians (and also that "inevitable" "necessary" or even "justified" does not actually mean "good"! these things can overlap with bad!) BUT there sure are lots of people pretending to share that opinion while blatantly ignoring the fact that "killing civilians" is sort of isr*el's whole modus operandi. like not in the broad structural way that also obviously exists. i mean in the explicit policy historically and currently being enacted of targeting civilian/residential buildings in air strikes because hamas could also meet there or whatever. like you made that rule. that's your rule. you're literally the ones doing it.

#all the 'both-sides-ing' i've seen has been like 'of course we must also criticize bibi's government when it isn't good too BUT--' #first of all i know for a fact that you've never criticized isr*el on structural issues ever in your life #second of all. stop acting like bibi is the only issue and not the state itself #THIRD AND MOST RELEVANT: isr*el is literally bombing CIVILIANS. RIGHT NOW. without warning. committing literal war crimes. to be clear. #this is not 'oppression from one side over decades vs violence from the other side right now' #1. the oppression over decades is apartheid and genocide. and 2. RIGHT NOW isr*el is killing civilians. #im censoring isr*el because i don't want this to be searchable btw #also why i'm turning off reblogs #i'm working thru my own thoughts i don't want people to find this #but if y'all have thoughts or criticisms then comment them #i just don't want strangers or z*onists here yknow

[arthur-r]

emily wilson out here translating the iliad and i am once again wishing i knew how to read and translate ancient greek

#listen where there’s a will there’s a way but i just finished my degree audit and looks like i will only be able to manage a classics minor #with latin emphasis (unless i abandon latin for greek which i’m not going to do even though it pains me) #but i really want to make my own iliad someday…. #at this rate i’ll only ever end up making a queer prose adaptation and be criticized for projecting modern notions of sexuality onto a #completely different set of values and social understandings of homosexuality…. #(which. if anything there should be more gay people in the song of achilles. don’t be mean to me i promise i understand ancients) #anyway i might just have to make a book of poetry or a novel adaptation or whatever whatever but what if i want to learn the script #and painstakingly translate every single word through years and years of dedication. while also being a librarian as my main thing #shdhdhdf i’m never gonna be classics scholar enough to professionally translate. and if i were it would be latin. but i can dream…. #anyway i’m no longer failing my french class (have a 70% that should only be going up) but i’m still failing historical linguistics #my latin grade is great i’m acing it but my library science class is a D (which should be fixed in two days though — just needs more data) #so i am giving myself permission to sleep early tonight and go into class well rested for once. i’m not feeling well but that’s a constant #anyways if anyone reads the wilson iliad let me know!! i’m a fake fan of her work and haven’t read her odyssey (something about the iliad…. #there’s a brutality and a raw humanity to it that puts the odyssey at a lower priority to me) but im so freaking excited to read her iliad #i have to prioritize schoolwork but soon. i’ll have to ask my latin teacher about it tomorrow though she’s an iliad enjoyer #anyway good news i think i’ll be able to get a history major with certificates in digital studies and classical studies (the two genders….) #and graduate comfortably in four years with honors in the major. this is ignoring how i’m failing my classes. i promise i won’t be forever #anyways the point is: wilson’s iliad — i will read it as soon as possible and i’m very excited #also i checked out a book from the library called the lexicographers dilemma: the evolution of proper english from shakespeare to south park #but i haven’t had the chance to read it and soon it will be due…. college is evil i’m too busy learning things to learn other things!!!! #anyway if i do honors in the major then i’m excited to eventually earn credit from a capstone thesis which i would do on lexicography #throughout history with an emphasis on classification systems and basically peter mark roget #ok anyway. wandering all over the place but the point is. wilson’s iliad. very exciting. can’t wait to find the time #and eventually i will write an iliad adaptation of my own i will. just not a full translation shdhdf that’s an unrealistic goal #especially when again. my capstone project is going to be about taxonomy of ideas. ancient epics are secondary…. #anyway i hope everybody is doing well!! i am going to bed soon-ish but other than that i am around so lmk if you need anything #me. my post. mine. #college talk #delete later

[terresdebrume]

Thinking of this because of the whole OGL kerfuffle and also because I was exalting the virtues of my Lounge Set (used as pajamas) to a friend earlier:

If you want to keep supporting Critical Role in a way that is less (least?) Likely to get money in WotC's pockets, I highly recommend their apparel based on the virtues of that set alone

I was a little hesitant to get it for a while because 60 bucks is not a price I ever thought I'd pay for a pajama (+shipping) but omg it is so cozy!!! The fabric is clearly good quality, very light but warm as heck, the printing is neat and holds well... You guys I love it so much I'm even doing what it says and not tumble drying it because I love it so much I want to preserve it!

So yeah, on top of getting their campaign setting books, which was always in the plan, I know I'm going to get some of their other apparel in the future *_*

#Matt has a life #Critical Role #I'm more specifically eyeing the Fjord long sleeves garment with the losange cushiony things #and the caleb jacket #but tbh a lot of their character shirts are really gorgeous??? #i for real find the lounge set more worth it than my taryon dice #they're good and look nice but I've seen (and i own) prettier dice elsewhere #but the lounge set? #vastly superior to any shirt i ever bought off redbubble for not that much more money #and WEARABLE AT WORK EVEN IF THEY REQUIRE A SMART DRESS CODE #IM LOVE

[starpros-sunshine]

sometimes I check mdzs twitter and get reminded that there's apparently people who don't realize that ''a victim of circumstance'' is an option in discussing various questions of guilt regarding the characters

#also that is written as a tragedy the whole point is that things could've worked out if people had just acted differently #You can say what you want but the fact remains wei wuxian didn't get himsefl his reputation for nothing #there is a reason people feared the guy #but you can also admit that he's a victim of circumstance and his story got exxagerated and he got demonized by the people #because that's how told stories work #everyone who tells them interprets them a little bit differently #you can say Jiang Cheng did nothing wrong ever but you can also say the guy is a complete asshole #which is right he is an asshole but he wouldn't have grown up to be one had he grown up differently #though personally I do think it's a little critical to say he always wanted the best for wwx when it has been explicitly stated that #he takes anyone he suspects to be the aforementioned with him and tortures them #that was the word used in german at least #you can talk a lot about jiang cheng actually he's very fun to discuss #<- he says. never having discussed about mdzs characters with anyone ever #but it's fun reading other peoples discussions and adding your own thought salt to the mix #have I mentioned that it's my favourite novel series? #I have yet to read tgcf I'm waiting for the books to be translated into german #which i hope happens sometime soon because I am slowly but surely getting impatient

[troubadour-malin]

vent in the tags!

#so i have a few original stories on wattpad #one dates back to 2019 #it's the first piece of writing that I've ever completed and while it obviously has its flaws i'm very fond and proud of it #it gets a lot of reads and someone started reading it and leaving comments this week #and i'm always grateful for readers and comments but like #at first the person seemed to enjoy it #and then they started to complain about the length of the chapters #and fair enough I get that 100 words is pretty much very short for a chapter #this is a short story and I made it to feel like 'fragments' of thoughts and story #and honestly the length of the chapters is one of the things that got me to complete it eventually #but alright. This reader doesn't like that it's so short. I'm not upset about that it's a perfectly valid point to make. #and ok even if i didn't ask for it i guess that counts as constructive criticism so i get where they were coming from #but then they kept on commenting about how it was 'ruining' the story and how 'unpleasant' it was #and that what is bugging me right now because like... i put my work out on the internet for free #and while you have every right not to like it #it's hurtful to read that what you poured your soul into is 'unpleasant' to read..... i get that not everybody is gonna like what i do but #i just can't understand why they didn't just... stop reading instead of pushing and commenting some more about the same thing. #I know i'm upset over a really small thing and ultimately as long as I'm happy with my own work it's all that matters #obviously i'm no professional writer and criticism could help me get better but I find this kind of 'criticism' especially unhelpful #I wrote this back when I was sixteen and it's for free on wattpad so obviously it's not gonna be perfect or even good #I made this for myself first and then decided to share it with other people so why do they act like i'm responsible for 'ruining' the story #HOW COULD I POSSIBLY RUIN A STORY THAT I WROTE MYSELF what the hell #I don't even know what I'm trying to say actually #I'm just upset about this and how rude some people on the internet can get without even realizing #anyways if you read all this i hope you're having an amazing week #so' speaks

[mister13eyond]

its always wild to me when i have a friend like "i have this idea but i don't know if i should make it because i don't know if it's good-" my love i have never in my life stopped to think whether something i make is good, i've only ever been possessed by brain goblins frothing at the mouth and yanking my hand into position while screaming that i do it to shut them up; the second i stop to think whether something is good or whether people will like it i wholly shut down and lose all ability to work on it

good is an incidental byproduct at best and an active limitation at worst; good can only be assigned by other people after the fact and is therefore useless as a method of measuring concepts, ideas or WIPs

fuck good

does it make you want to eat dirt (positive)? are you laying in bed at 4am trying to sleep and going FUCK THAT WOULD BE SO COOL IF- and opening the notes app on your phone? are you obsessed with it? those are the metric for your ideas; fuck good. is it a demon that possesses you!!

#this is not a criticism of my loved ones who want to make things that are Good btw #this is actually more like an encouragement to say 'fuck it i'll do it anyway' because your ideas are worth more than 'good' #i want to see the shit you're absolutely consumed by i don't care if it's Good #i just want to know what you're Obsessed with #that is the mystery quality that makes it good #i love my big things i've finished a whole lot but honestly i didn't make them with any like... review of my own skill or grading metric #i just got obsessed and couldnt Not do the thing and i highly suggest this to everyone #to be fair im not sure this works if you're neurotypical #as i have no idea people who don't hyperfocus function #everything ive ever made in my life has been the result of a hyperfocus fugue #but you know #i'm sure it's a transferrable skill probably

[slippery-minghus]

that feeling when someone compliments you on a thing about your writing that you're actually pretty insecure about 🥹🥹 and they said you did it really well 🥹🥹🥹

#when i was like. 14. someone criticized my writing for being too fast paced and i've been insecure about it ever since #for literally 15 years #and i've worked really hard to make sure my pacing is good but what do i know about my own writing?? yanno? #but i just got an ao3 comment saying that the pacing works really well and ahhhh!!!! #in the most asexual and aromantic and touch averse way i aM KISSING YOU ON THE MOUTH #narrating my life

[goldpilot22]

girls will get angry about rocky flats for the yet againth time

#psii.txt #im having a moment #like I do approximately twice a week #growling and snarling and biting. three mile island was NOT america's chernobyl #yes that was a nuclear reactor meltdown however it was able to be cleaned up and no one was seriously harmed #meanwhile the mothers day 1969 fire at rocky flats #you Don't fight a plutonium fire with water. that can cause a criticality aka Bad News. but the fire was so bad that they had no choice #the firefighters had to use water. and it worked. and if not for them it would have burned through the roof and released enough #enough plutonium dust to make denver look like pripyat #the mother's day fire is the closest the us has ever come to having our own chernobyl #and btw. the firefighters? didn't make it out scot free neither #one of them had his mask knocked off and he inhaled toxic radioactive fumes. it gave him lung cancer #so many rocky flats workers have similar stories and not even from the fire. ill fitting masks. damaged glove box gloves. #plutonium dust. beryllium dust. carbon tetrachloride. #you wanna talk about a nuclear disaster in the states‚ look at rocky flats #look at the workers sick and dying with cancers and lung diseases and organs failing and Still Fighting to get compensation #my great-aunt was a secretary there and she's fighting cancer and they tried to tell her the only thing she was exposed to there was 'ink' #god. I could go OFF about this for probably hours #it's just like the radium girls. history repeating itself