#even if what happened was authentic ...

[sanguineswanqueen]

One of the things I love about Discworld is how it tackles heavy things without being too... Depressing or graphic. And still maintains an air of hope.

Like in I shall wear midnight, a book with a stated target age of 12 and up, a 13 year old girl gets pregnant out of wedlock and her father beats her so hard she loses the pregnancy and gets knocked unconscious. The father then attempts suicide.

And yet! The book remains suitable for that age group.

#Discworld #Like you know EXACTLY what's happening #Even at age 12 #It manages to be so authentic by being... Unsensationalized i guess? #Tip tap typin #Tiffany Aching #The epitome of 'show dont tell' but in a sense of heres the emotional ramifications not the sense of here's a *REALLY* graphic scene

[pochapal]

"the endgame had never been finished" meaning......kinzo died before he could put this plan of his into motion?

#umineko liveblog #kinzo acted hastily and failed to 'win' over nanjo in the end #meaning that the Something was neither exposed or buried before he died #the 'rushed' part is giving me pause because what could kinzo have rushed? #unless of course he didn't plan on the 1986 family conference being the day he spun the demon's roulette #but then given Everything we need to read all post-prologue kinzo scenes as dubiously authentic #which. actually. this is all leading to a very worrying conclusion specifically about kinzo's role in the epitaph ritual #no tvs in the study........his chess game unfinished.....surely this doesn't actually mean what i think it's implying #because why else would these killings even happen and be involved with the epitaph succession riddle if not for kinzo #like this is obviously his machination but. the metaphors are doing a good job of distancing him #unless this is another way to clue in on the 'dead all along' thing which still hasn't been Actually Confirmed True #ie kinzo had other plans but died before he could amend them so genji is acting out the Kill Everyone part of his will instead #but that leaves the question of what kinzo's unfinished plan is and what the 'rushing' actually means. a lot to consider here........

[silenthillbunni]

🌧️🫧💭

#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me #which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye #🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad #nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone #i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me #ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao #also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀 #like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid #why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way #me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me #i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me #it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave #nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop #whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive #ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like #all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think #i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself #but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T #idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do #anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul #but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao #i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down #they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how #to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year #i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak #es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that #maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this

[wings-dings-and-iggyfings]

The kid playing Janner hasn't read book 4 oh no.

#the wingfeather saga #the wingfeather saga tv show #janner wingfeather #he said his reactions are more authentic in the show if he reads it out of the scripts first so he stopped reading at book 3 #it- it might be a good thing I mean #ANDREW didn't even know what would happen to janner until he was WRITING book 4 so

[savage-rhi]

💙

#I am not gonna let what happened take away my passion and innate desire to help people because I can't ignore that #if I learned to trust humans before I can re-learn and give people a chance again #Just because I've had a bad streak of dealing with people who see me as less than were abusive or otherwise #doesn't mean that everyone is a heartless bastard wanting to set me up to fail or want to personally hurt me #I am not gonna stoop to the level of those who have hurt me #whether they fucking like it or not I'm gonna be a therapist #I'm already a PSS they can't take that from me #I'm gonna be my authentic self I am not going to change my mold for anybody not for these dated policies and archaic fucking beliefs #that are designed to keep people sick and trapped #I can't save everyone I can't click with everybody but damn it I'm gonna fucking try and be present for people that don't have support #even if people hate me for whatever damn reasons they have cause everybody deserves a shot #may everything that has already been done to me be given back to by those that dealt it #I'm gonna wrap up my finals for this week and then open up my kofi shop for business #i still don't know wtf im gonna do to survive but im laying out the stones #thank you to everyone that has and continues to check in on me i love you a lot

[browntrait]

good afternoon guess who already saw something racist after opening this app for less than 5 minutes

#i dont even be looking #all imma say is this #there were SEVERAL resources around simblr #to help w the creation/cultural awareness of indigenous sims #so why is a white ukranian making cc #using the word indian #non tribe specific n clearly w no research #like what????? #i dont wanna always speak on everything #bc that happened last time #n ppl kept telling me to kms :) #but like #ICK. #indigenous ppl deserve cc that represents their community #in an authentic way #not whatever that is #and ofc they turned replies off #typical #k’s words

[wild-at-mind]

(this is about trans stuff)

Probably need to get counselling about the fact that I’m so scared that my hormone balance is my personality.

#the cycle #so like i tend to associate my feelings with the Cycle position (menstral) that i happen to be in #so i feel strong and confiden and vivacious? upswing towards ovulation #sad and delicate? downswing towards menstruation #just being biologically essentialist or whatever some people say #thing is a lot of stuff about the effect of trans related HRT can read a little :/ if you're not feeling it #so the obvious example is gendercritical assholes saying trans women talking about feeling more emotional after starting hrt is misogyny #i actually think being emotional is not a bad thing tbh so they are tipping their own hands there #and also actually a lot of trans women seem to associate this change with positive things #but i'm talking about the way people talk about testosterone #a lot of people talk about the effects like it totally changed their personality tbh even if they don't realise it #it's scary like are our personalities our hormones???? #someone on this ftm group i'm on said they were having difficulty forming romantic connections with people after a couple of years on T #and people were like 'well you're just aromantic it's fine! oh you weren't before HRT? well this is what your true #authentic self is then don't worry about it!' #like to be clear it was unclear from the post whether this guy needed reassurance that being aromantic is normal #or if he was bothered by it and wanted to change it #if first then the responses are fine #but if 2nd then .....wtf are the implications of this? is our sexuality and romantic inclination ALSO our hormones??? #i don't think i'm wrong or crazy to feel weird about the idea of my personality changing and that my hormomes might be effecting it #kind of like how my personality is always shaped by depression and/or medication i'm taking for it #but it's scary like i only just got to know this brain i can't change it i'm FREAKING OUT #i feel like other trans people wouldn't want to talk to me about this because it sounds like i'm saying transphobic talking points. :( #but i really am scared of my personality changing. #if i go on t that is #can anyone talk to me about this on here?

[goat-boy-sounds]

I have a parasocial hatred for the coen brothers and frances mcdormand. learning the development history of nomadland is like the skeleton key to figuring out their entire condescending faux-middle-class-americana filmography

#rambling #they're like wes anderson if someone drained all of the authentic whimsy and love for humanity out of him #and all that was left was a void of smug cheap shots #I'm probably being overly harsh but I watched burn after reading last night and I found it insufferable #no country for old men is philosophically bankrupt #they hate their characters so why should they expect me to care at all about what happens to those characters #like how do you even manage to make an adaptation of macbeth that's devoid of drama #and don't even get me started on nomadland that movie is straight up vile #and stylistically a terrence malick homunculus

[larrylimericks]

2May22

Harry’s House will debut at Irving’s, A TMZ vid’s stunt-confirming, A new trailer dropped, O’s in it a lot— In more ways than one, she’s self-serving.

#larry #harry #harry styles #stunts #holivia #don't worry darling #harry's house #a one night only was announced for harry's house #after yah doors showed performances in L.A. and London ... #it turns out hs3 ONO will be in new york #at ubs arena which is an azoff investment #tmz published a video today of the cinemacon incident #shortly after the new dwd trailer dropped #i don't know how it's a stunt — just that it is a stunt #the video is backgrid but we don't know if they shot it or bought it #even if what happened was authentic ... #at the very least the video was held for release #for max engagement with the new dwd trailer #but her response is just so suspect #why stop mid-sentence during a very important first press appearance for your big movie? #especially if you thought someone was just slipping you a script? #and then she picks right back up with her train of thought? #but i don't put staging the event past her (as in not a real serving) #another thing that's sus is that no one had any way of knowing what was in the envelope #and no media outlet has specified the source for that info #i've got six months to work on compartmentalizing my desire to see h absolutely kill it in this movie #and my loathing of this woman who prioritizes ambition above ethics #and just shrugs it off as 'hollywood rules' #limerick-hs #may 2

[fideidefenswhore]

"She was a ruthless woman who injured many, myself and my sainted mother included. She was quite capable of playing the King false, I promise you. My advice to you, Sister, is to forget you ever had a mother like that." Elizabeth caught the note of obsessive grievance in Mary's voice. She knew instinctively that it would be unwise to provoke her further by arguing with her. "Forgive me, Sister, but I had heard otherwise," she said simply. "Then you heard wrongly. She had me sent to wait upon you when you were a baby, and she told those that had charge of me to beat me for the little bastard I had become. How could you think such a one innocent?" "I am very sorry for your afflictions, Sister," Elizabeth whispered, aware more of the need to be diplomatic than of the desire to defend her mother. "They were not of my making, nor my desire." "How could you think her innocent?" "I heard things," she answered, then grew a touch defiant. "The whole world does not think my mother guilty."

The Lady Elizabeth [Chapter 8: 1544], Alison Weir

#chose this is as the 'equivalent' scene bcus to me that sort of made sense... #this scene did not really feel...earned? #and a lot of theirs didn't; really. #because elizabeth never really got her moment to counter #with: well. i was an infant when all that happened. what; realistically; do you think i could have done? #also for tudors week i never got around to doing the edit for my favorite tudor rivarly/siblings. i would have picked them #and also elizabeth's turnaround on AB in BE ; the turn from shame to tenderness was never properly...explained? #i wonder if there is a deleted scene somewhere. where someone spoke well of her. idk. given the script it seems unlikely #also 'little bastard' is odd specifically lol. that's what chapuys referred to elizabeth as. not anne towards mary (ac/cursed bastard. #it was specifically her maturity that was the threat. so...) #'younger even. when i was sent to serve you' honestly that scene is infuriating lol #im less a pendant on historical accuracy or 'authenticity' when there is #at least an emotional honesty to the scene but knowing the actual timeline makes it... #very clear that it's emotional manipulation in a way the actual text refused to recognise #maybe it would have by s2. idk! #i do love the acting in the scene tho. how elizabeth flinches from her and mary clings to her. gahhh #it's similar to the body language of theirs in the field #except then mary clings to her angrily

[zourried]

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#istg some of you are so dramatic #I understand there are so many different approaches in therapy and that you may not agree with every single one #but we are not in the 1950s #therapy and psychology in general has evolved #as a psychologist going to therapy under a humanistic approach let me tell you there is nothing wrong with what happened today #it is possible to be in a therapist/patient relationship and respecting boundaries and also cohabitating as humans #many times a safe environment #an actual human connection and a true flawed relationship with a professional will help you way more than having a therapist that sees you #as a diagnosis and a patient file #therapy has evolved people! get over it #you make it sound like he’s sleeping with her 🙄 #my therapist is incredible istg! so supportive. my fucking biggest fan. always complimenting me! we laugh a lot #we enjoy are sessions a lot! and is that trust and level of commitment that ensures me I am safe to be me #our* #bc I know she is a real human and our relationship is authentic #and even when we laugh and joke a lot we both are aware of our roles #she’s still guiding me and helping me become my best and truest self #seriously please idk… take a breather

[caruliaa]

yk i think like. im trying desperately not to depress people around me w how close to doomerism i can veer but like. at a certain point its like. the effort and exhaustion that goes into maintaining just being alive in this world is not worth what comes from being alive and like. girlies we may have reached it. el oh el.

#like obvs its different for everyone like. what i really mean is that i have reached it or like. tht was always inevitably the case #for my life. which ik feels really depressing to say nd im sorry tht it makes ppl sad but idk like. its just true at a certain point #absolutely not from a lack of trying from the good things within my life to be clear not at all like. ik have sm great parts to my life #tht like. just mean so so much to me and im so so lucky to have but as upsetting as it is to say and think abt #at a certain point having to choose between being trapped in a situation were you can never authentically exist or like #have any control over your life and exist on your own terms even in v small ways while having to constantly be around people whove #caused you so much pain and trauma and hurt and being is a situation were like. at best your constantly working to afford living and you #are constantly exhausted by this and have no time for being yourself anyway and at worst you just cant afford anything and you die #and that could happen to you at any point idk like. these are my two options and i cant change anything about that fact #no matter how much i want to and that feeling is just. so so crushing and inescapable and just idk i dont know how to deal with it #like. idk iv done everything to try to but its only ever a temporary distraction #bc the problem isnt fucking like. mental or emotional its the facts of my reality and that cant be changed #so ofc im going to be constantly fucking miserable things just. are misearble #and idk. im sorry tht thts something other ppl have to deal with when it comes to like. knowing me bc genuinly its like. #they dont deserve that its sm pain for somoene to deal with and if that someone isnt. somone whos come to term with what #my fate invetiably is like have ik its too much nd im sorry for like. putting that on ppl i just. idk im sorry #idk what up with me suddnely. i mean i do but like. idk why i cant just hold it together like. this has always been the case idk why #im letting it upset me sm suddenly . ig bc i let myself have hope at some point. like an idiot. #idk im sorry. and its nearly 1am so i think im just going to go to sleep.im so sorry for just. all of this. #lucy if your reading tihs im so sorry for not sending and answering asks but i want to say that i love you so so so much. and im sorry #flappy rambles #vent #ask to tag

[lhrry]

x

#to distract myself by another stunt I guess #thinking about ho and how much it seems to also be tied up to compensating my policeman and the larry rumours coming back and stuff #I’ve been thinking for quite a while with what louis has been saying and which lyrics are confirmed and even the George Michael green eye #the cover and stuff that that album is going to be so queer coded #like there are already lyrics which are so…. queer #and it seems that he’s really adamant at not defining the songs’ meaning but one thing that he says played a role was seeing the fans and #the shows and like he knows just how queer audience he has now as well and it really seems rn that that album is going to be that #so I’m wondering whether a part of the constant stunting is to allow louis to have this artistic authenticity and vision fulfilled as well #like I really hope from what he’s said he’s really doing what he wants to do musically and artistically so maybe that’s the price he’s #paying #we all certainly accepted that was happening with Harry for some time #i still don’t understand why’d they use babygate and not Eleanor for that and would prefer for this to be so that babygate can end but #eh #so maybe this may be at least a part of it ?

[gottagobuycheese]

there’s got to be a faster way to play this game but How

#not that I don't absolutely love meandering my way around this world and chatting to all the NPCs #but I want to start octopath traveller ii when I still have time and before there are too many spoilers floating around #and I can't DO that when I'm barely even halfway through the first one #at this rate it's going to be years before I finish... #which is fine but like also. I want to Know What Happens #I could do this by just looking up the stories sure but I want to PLAY IT #but I want to play it faster >:( #<- says the person who learned you can fast-travel between taverns somewhere around hour 60 or so yet has refused to do so #‘~60.5 hours for the main game and maaaaaybe 100-ish for completionists’ BUT WHAT ABOUT PEOPLE WHO ARE BAD AT FIGHTING #WHAT ABOUT PEOPLE WHO NEED TO TRAVEL ON FOOT EVERYWHERE BECAUSE THEY'RE TOO WEAK TO MISS OUT ON ANY EXPERIENCE #WHAT ABOUT PEOPLE WHO FORGET WHERE ALL THE HIDDEN CHESTS AND SIDE QUESTS ARE AND HAVE TO RE-FIND THEM EVERY TIME #all these side quests are haunting me...yes this name sounds familiar no I do not know from when or where #good luck finding your lost lover sir #I'm pretty sure I've met her like 4 times but I can't remember where she is #and because I hit A too fast you will no longer tell me her name :/ #could I simply look up this information? yes. but I want to bumble around authentically as much as possible like with botw #‘IS THERE A FASTER WAY TO DO THIS!!’ I scream while doing everything as slowly and inefficiently as possible #cheese plays octopath traveller #<- unlikely to be used more than once but Who Knows #I'm glad I actually got to play video games today though even if it didn't quite hit the level of enjoyment i was hoping for #two unexpected days of in a row man I never want to go back to work #but I also don't want to exist in my own head forever doing nothing #I don't want to move forward. but I also don't want to stay here #do you see the Dilemma #anyways time to go train h'aanit on the way back to whoever the heck's chapter 3 I was supposed to be getting to #while training for tressa's chapter 3 that I put on the backburner years ago because the boss was too hard #I LIKE to think our posse is strong enough to take it now but I feel like I keep disproportionately training certain people over others #it's so much harder to keep everyone on relatively equal footing in this game than in pokemon :( #Primrose my first ever companion how I miss thee </3 I'm sorry I so rarely need to use your skills for anything

[noxtivagus]

dfhaskdfjsdkf good day 😭

#🌙.vents #i don't remember sleeping this long i think i woke up 12 then 2 then #5. i wld've slept for longer if i didn't force myself to get up n i think the milk tea helped wake me a bit #i'm so.. #the burden of my regrets r so suffocating. there are times i can't see anything else when i'm drowning in them. #if such trivial failures affect me this much then how tf will i survive in this cruel world? #i know i'll always find my way but i wonder the lengths of what i sacrifice. of what i deny and destroy within myself #& of how it'll affect me in the unforeseeable future. of what more loss and pain it'll bring in this world #compared to before i don't often put up a mask anymore. even if it's painful i choose to be authentic. i've improved in that sense #but it's not enough. perhaps i'm simply too harsh on myself; forgetting i am human and that i falter too. i'm not perfect n i shouldn't be. #even with my shortcomings there r ppl that stay. that say thank you. and. yeah. yeah.. that should be proof enough of real reciprocation #but. #i don't know am i really just so afraid of being forgotten? left behind? thinking of it n i used to write of that fear often back then #opening up to 'friends'. being told i was loved. that i would always have my place here #this is pathetic i grew up relying too much on success for my worth. i know i'm so much more but #i placed this on myself. this is the ocean i chose to drown myself in. so when i falter in the only thing i grew up being good that #bcs it hurts yk i used to draw. i painted a lot as a kid but what happened to that passion? #i used to write. a lot. but these past few years.. i don't know what's wrong with me. why it's so hard to do that again #piano. if i continued i would have.. i really had the potential to be. good. i mean i #i've never been a genius i've honestly always hated being called that. i know i've always been naturally smart but. #my hard-work carried me further. and i'm not.. smart enough or good enough to be a genius. never have been. #hollow compliments. before hs it was like everyone really just knew me for my brain. nothing of the way i wrote or my passions. just smarts #so now i'm just a shadow; a ghost of who i used to be. in that aspect at least. but. now w my other strengths they've been faltering too #i'm sorry i should've been better i should do more i know i can. but maybe i. i've always overestimated myself #i think when i was around 6-8 before grade school i can't really remember anymore but there was this competition i think #i would've gotten second if i didn't hesitate. if i didn't fucking hesitate. n i think that always stuck with me #bcs i was really quite the timid shy kid. even though i was older i wld be the one following apollo.. i'm sorry. they deserve more than me #bulbel is making me cry bye wtf

[emcads]

jack/esme and james/esme are really such fundamentally bi ships and their respective queerness is essential but something about james/esme is so much more straight-passing. jack/esme come within 10 feet of each other and they forget that gender is even real.

#their whole courting bit in shipwreck cove is like. wearing gender roles like a costume #they very earnestly give the ''i'm the girl so i'll wear the pink dress'' and ''i'm the boy so i'll have a cool mustache'' a go #and they continue that into mature adulthood later but it's so different. they own those aesthetics in a different way that's separate from #ordained heterosexual roles #and maybe it's a stretch but i dont think it's a coincidence that the reveal of esme's (and jack's) true feelings happens when she's not #in that mode of pretend and is crossdressing. and they are behaving authentically without the observer (christophe) #✘; i have seventy two exams and i have not studied for one ( ooc ) #and then for them to literally fuck in a closet .... . idk ann was ON to something #and the whole bit with tia dalma. ''she wears a woman's body the way you'd wear a dress'' and then esme wearing the costume of a spanish #noblewoman later #even though that's what she was at birth. it's never ''is'' but dressed as.