#even if they don't write regularly

[theloveinc]

hmm

#ok ive been thinking about it bc it was itching at me and i guess what feels weird is like... #i think everyone wants interaction . big blogs AND small blogs and everyone in between #even if they don't write regularly #so to ignore the kind words of ur anons trying to reassure u ... AND misunderstanding their points? just feels super nazsty to me #people leaving tumblr also means fans leaving tumblr too ??? #quote unquote fans #esp since like. why are u blaming ur followers for this? people SHOULD interact w/ everyone but no one is really at fault for #talking to their fave ppl and not to u #PLUS there are way more polite ways to ask than 'i miss doing this!!! ppl don't want me except for content' #idk. u voluntarily write content? #so u should expect a mix of responses to it vs. like the automatic assumption that u want to be told random stuff so u can respond to it #idkkkkkkkk #just felt like she was saying: #'i want ppl to interact with me bc i like it... and not bc ppl actually want to interact with me' #and maybe i justsay this bc im unfamiliar with one place #but... #ur in the stranger things fandom so it might not work the same as the anime fandom #dunnnnnnooooooooooooooo #i think WE ALL work hard for more personal interaction but it takes time #i was also gonna say........ hmmmm #i cant remember but ill come back and edit this if i do #OH it was something like... also if u cant support other writers too / sustain interaction w/ them................ #what are u really asking for? it's not like the message is making the community better #it's just making ur situation better when ur in a very specific niche #caitie blabs

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

got a worm nibbling my brain. can someone help me find a piece of obscure media?

webcomic/indie comic from the 2010s. basically a sci-fi short story about a young girl (with red hair?) who was being raised by scientists as part of an experiment. she receives a haircut/has her head shaved, in preparation for her annual brain scan/testing. it is revealed that while her body is human, her "brain" is artificial, made of computer implants throughout her skull and spine. at some point her biological mother (also a scientist on the same campus?) encounters her and is repulsed, viewing her as a machine who has murdered her daughter.

it was very poignant and it bruised my heart and i can NOT find it anywhere

#i thought it was made by the creator of 'O Human Star' for some reason but apparently not? #goddammit goddammit goddammit #'i don't have to write down the title of this piece of media i encountered in my formative years bc i'll always remember it' #*cut to ten years later frantic googling* #fun fact 'a.i.' is now a completely useless search term #google in general is useless #and stuff i read 3+ years ago regularly vanishes from the internet #bookmarks are not enough! if you like indie media--download that shit! buy digital/physical copies while you can #save it to the cloud back it up and organize that shit!!! #keep a list of the stuff you read (organized by date/media type and possibly with keywords if you want it to be useful longterm) #(or a spreadsheet even if you're like me and rabidly consume short stories/comics like a pack of amnesiac piranhas on a feeding frenzy) #(that stuff PILES UP over the years ok. if you wanna make sure you'll be able to find it again a decade later--curation is key) #because art WILL touch your soul and then vanish into the void leaving naught but a 404 Error in its wake #i am an old man shaking my fist at the kids on my lawn but the kids on my lawn are me and my longterm digital planning skills circa 2012

[illarian-rambling]

Not writing, but I was cleaning out my camera roll and found the best photo I've ever taken in my life, so here you go

#not writing #photography #I don't even do photography regularly most of my pictures are ass ugly #Makes me really appreciate where I live

[lagosbratzdoll]

I feel like I've said this before but I am not a fan of Rhaegar but the way antis talk about him in this fandom is so frustrating. It makes it so difficult to have a nuanced discussion about the man and his failings.

#half of the reason you people don't like him are things you've made up in your heads #the other half are taken out of context and twisted to vilify him #this is a complaint i make regularly but you can just dislike a character #you don't have to make up reasons. #so much of Rhaegar criticism is just nonsense #and it's so annoying #i'll be having a conversation with someone and they'll bring up something he never did and it's like please let's keep the hate #grounded in the text #it actually burns me that i am writing this cause i don't even like the man #but the antis are so annoying. #it's the same problem i have with ned stark criticism #it devolves into ned abused sansa rubbish more often than not #like where did he do that? #please show it to me #ned is many things but an abusive father is not one of them #need everyone to bffr #it is enough

[gleefulpoppet]

Sonder Chapter 83: Raise a Family Here [~3300 Words]

“Welcome home, boss,” Jake says as he opens the door and hops out, making a sweeping motion for them as they exit.  “Thank you!” “We’ll give you two as long as you want. We’ll wait out here.” “Again, thank you. Won’t be long. Everyone will be here soon,” Kurt replies, intertwining his hand with Blaine’s as they head for the front door. “You do the honors, honey,” Kurt whispers in his ear. 

You can read Chapter 83 [here] or from the beginning on AO3 [here].

#fic: sonder #gleefulpoppet writes #I'm still updating this story regularly even if I don't post about it here on Tumblr! #having the best time with it #lots and lots and lots of interior design and house remodeling ahead ahoy!

[visionkept]

Helping Tomo shave might be one of the most intimate moments your muse can have with them, particularly in the genshin verse if you have in consideration that they use their blade for said task ( something similar to this ). Tomo letting your muse have a deadly weapon so close to their face means that they truly do trust them, this is the kind of opportunity given to those above friendship level 10.

#have been very busy lately with the filming of a project but i wanted to share this lil hc for today #they don't shave regularly cause their facial hair doesnt grown fast so the chances are veeery low yet present #damn if they do feel safe tomo might as well lean against the touch and could even fall asleep #︾╼╼ █ █ ║˚ ▹ HEADCANONS.▕🗲 #ok possibly this week will offer me more time to write... HOPEFULLY I WANT TO SO BAD

[notmoreflippingelves]

Hi! I just read your post about Mateo recently. If I may, can you give me any specific instances in the narrative of the show where Mateo isn’t called out as heavily as they should have? I’m just curious?

During the Shuriki returns arc in particular, Mateo makes some pretty glaring mistakes that I feel like he should've gotten much more flack for (and based on what we see elsewhere in canon, I feel pretty confident that if Gabe, Naomi, Isa, or Esteban at least --and possibly even Elena-- had made these mistakes, they wouldn't have been swept under the rug nearly as quickly as they were for Mateo).

While it's unfair to completely blame Mateo for Carla's manipulating him during the "Rita" arc, I feel like it's reasonable to hold him a *bit* accountable. He did after all blab highly confidential information (on more than one occasion) to try and impress a pretty girl with how clever and important he was. (Something tells me that if any of the others had done likewise, they would've been called out for it. But because it's "beloved" Mateo, we don't even get "wait, you told Rita how to get into your workshop? And you've known her for only a few weeks? What were you thinking, Mateo?") Moreover, he never even apologizes for this or promises to do better/be more careful with such important, sensitive information in the future.

Even more aggravating is his behavior in "The Scepter of Night." Mateo is so eager to play the hero and claim all the glory for himself that he twice (!) disobeys a direct order/abandons the plan and goes looking for the scepter piece on his own. This directly leads to Fiero and Victor finding the scepter piece and (temporarily) stealing it. And it's really only due to luck and very conveniently-timed infighting amongst Shuriki's allies that Elena and co. are able to get the scepter piece back. While Mateo does receive some (brief) criticism, it's nowhere near the level that it should be.

Also noteworthy Elena doesn't really get particularly "mad" at him (especially considering how angry we see her get at other characters even for more minor things) . She's not truly, actually angry at Mateo (and Gabe and Naomi are only a bit angrier); she's just a little frustrated and disappointed at him in the moment. And apart from a (very short) little "do better next time" speech, Mateo doesn't face any real consequences or lingering resentment unlike other characters who do.

When Isa obeys direct orders in "Sister of Invention," she has to face consequences (Elena grounding her). Similarly, Elena holds a grudge against Esteban for days (if not weeks) after he interfered with the Feast of Friendship (a much lower stakes mistake than Mateo's imo). Moreover, it's possible to interpret Esteban's staying behind in Avalor when the others go to see the Norberg Lights as a punishment (either self-inflicted or imposed by Elena) for his actions in the previous episode.

In contrast, Mateo just gets a brief "I expected better from you" speech from Elena and Gabe jokingly assigning him push-ups as punishment (which he immediately takes back when Mateo tries to do them). I'll give Mateo a little bit of credit for actually apologizing this time (which he doesn't always do). But it's still frustrating that everyone is so ready to forgive and forget Mateo's missteps immediately while this same courtesy is seldom shown to others.

I think it's worth directly comparing a few Mateo-centric episodes with a few more similar ones that focus on other characters so that we can see how there does seem to be a noted narrative bias in his favor compared to the others.

Let's start with two "feeling kind of insecure" episodes: "Spellbound" for Mateo vs. "Naomi Knows Best" for Naomi. In the former, Mateo expresses doubt that he's capable of rising to the occasion as royal wizard. No one (except Gabe and he gets over it by the end of the episode) blames him for not having reached his full level of confidence and potential right away and not being able to immediately solve the problem. And Elena in particular (and by extension the narrative) gives him so much validation and support. Whereas in "Naomi Knows Best" (and to a lesser extent "Finders Leapers" and the "Carla-as-Rita" arc as well) the narrative "punishes" Naomi for her feelings of self-doubt. We're told that *if only* Naomi had trusted her gut instincts and stood her ground right away, Elena and co would not fallen right into the trap and that Naomi needs to screw her head back on straight and embrace confidence ASAP to fix her mistake.

When Mateo feels insecure, the narrative gives him every reassurance about how capable and special he is, that he can learn at his own pace, and his insecurity isn't really such a problem after all. When Naomi feels insecure, the narrative encourages her to get over her doubts as quickly as possible because unlike with Mateo, there's "no time" for her to wallow in self-doubt and actually the fact that she even had said doubt in the first place is what "caused" the disaster.

On a slightly different note, Naomi is also called out for taking a little free, fun time for herself in "The Last Laugh" when the group needs her, and yet somehow I have a feeling that Mateo would've been allowed to take a day off if he wanted without any protest. He complains about long hours in "Movin' on Up" and Elena gives him the big royal wizard's chambers for him to relax and unwind in. Naomi asks for one (1) day off to spend with her childhood friend for her birthday , and suddenly it's big drama. (And at the time, Naomi asked for said day off, all Elena needed from her was help doing paperwork. The Team Ash stuff came up unexpectedly.)

Similarly whenever Gabe and Mateo get their little rivalry on ("Spellbound," "Party of a Lifetime," "Captain Mateo" and a few other examples) , the narrative either presents them as equally at fault or Mateo as the only one in the right.

When Gabe brings in Bronzino to train the Royal Guards in magic, it's specifically because Mateo failed to explain how and why he was training the guards in the way he was. If he'd just explained how they were going apply the seemingly basic exercise they were doing to real magic, Gabe likely would've allowed Mateo to continue the training at his own pace.

(Also like. it's super hypocritical imo for Mateo to get annoyed at Gabe feeling impatient/impulsive about their apparent-lack-of progress when Mateo himself is easily the second most impulsive character in the show after Elena.) Mateo feels entitled to keep important information to himself (or blab it to a cute girl he barely knows) even when its no one else's best interest. He's only okay with being "cautious and patient" when he specifically is the one setting the pace. And yet, Gabe is the only one who is called out for his behavior in this episode--even though he might not have acted as he did if only Mateo had trusted him and the guards with an explanation in the first place.

And then there's just a few other "dude not cool" little moments that never really get acknowledged/Mateo never apologizes for. For instance, there a two low-key terrifying Mateo moments in "Captain Mateo" that are not only not acknowledged but are also framed in context as Mateo being just "so funny and quirky". Near the end of "Should be in Charge," Mateo magically gags Gabe so he can't protest anymore about Mateo taking over as leader of the mission. And this is after having already enchanted one of the stationary suits of armor to come to life and fight Gabe. (Gabe admittedly does lightly shove Mateo out of the way during his parts of the song, but that's still a far cry from literally drawing a sword on Mateo as Mateo does via magic to Gabe.)

It's played for laughs (The Grand Council is just smiling happily in the background throughout the scene which is so yikes), so it's easy to overlook what's actually happening. Frankly, it's pretty horrifying that Mateo's natural instinct upon his experience/authority being questioned is to literally attack and then silence. (And attack and silence someone who is supposed to be one of his best friends and closest allies at that!)

Rather than the narrative acknowledging that maybe it's a bad idea to immediately grant power to someone to someone who is so retaliatory against fairly minor criticism, the Grand Council just gives Mateo exactly what he wants and doesn't even offer a "maybe next time, let's not gag or attack our friends, okay?" alongside it. I mean sure Mateo does step down as captain at the end of the episode, but it's very specifically presented as his and Gabe's voluntary choice and not an order from Elena/the Council.

#elena of avalor #eoa salt #it's not mateo that bothers me so much; it's the double standard that nearly every other character is held to while he is not #gabe is the only one who ever seems to call mateo out on his shit regularly #and most of the time; it's framed as petty jealousy and/or gabe being unreasonable #even when gabe is the one talking sense #i feel like i've heard that mateo is one of the writers' faves and dang does it SHOW! #we were owed a dark mateo arc tbh #mateo thinks he's the next alacazar but I don' think it would be all that hard to turn him into the next fiero instead #it writes itself and honestly i would've liked him more that way #instead of just presenting him is as the specialest; cutest; quirkiest magical boy instead #let him go dark for a short time before realizing his mistakes and then have to work hard for everyone's forgiveness #esteban has to sacrifice his life in order to earn forgiveness for an (admittedly huge) mistake he made 40+ years ago #yet it's apparently too much for mateo to get more than the mildest rebuke over a (also big) mistake he made less than an hour ago? #also like whenever esteban or gabe are really proud/cocky or naomi gets single-episode acquired situational narcissism in “my fair naomi” #the narrative absolutely punishes them for it #whereas mateo is free to be as over-confident and braggy and vain as he wants and seldom gets called out on it #because i guess he's genuinely as 'cool and special' as he claims so he deserves the right to brag? #whereas the others' apparently aren't and don't? #anti mateo de alva

[unforth]

(tw attempted suicide)

Thinking so so so so SO much about a modern AU where the "power binding mark" is a tattoo that Xie Lian's horribly abusive ex and former dom Jun Wu forced Xie Lian to get in a prominent location so everyone would be able to see at a glance who Xie Lian belongs to.

It took him a long time to get away.

Now he always wears turtle necks.

He's convinced he'll never find anyone willing to date him when he's got such a tattoo.

And of course, then he meets Hua Cheng...

(Xie Lian is also trans)

(Xie Lian also has wrist scars from trying to kill himself)

Just imagining a scene where they're finally getting close to each other and instead of being able to use his words, Xie Lian just says, "I need you to know, there are three things you have to accept about me, and if any of them aren't okay, you should leave right now" and he takes off his shirt to reveal his top surgery scars, his suicide scars, and his horrid tattoo.

Of course Hua Cheng understands all three (and HE uses HIS words so they both can be sure he's understood correctly) and accepts all three.

(Xie Lian will also be gentle domming HC into oblivion)

#unforth writes #it's also a teacher xie lian student hua cheng au #or well they don't get together while hua cheng is a student #they're actually still not QUITE together even though i've been playing with it for over a week #though they've started making out regularly #tgcf #hualian

[poetsdepartment]

i literally have nothing to do at work right now and won't have anything to do until like 1 PM... should i speedrun writing a fic when i haven't done any fic writing for like years lmaoooo

#i don't even know what i would write tbh #i feel like the only fandom i regularly engage with on tumblr nowadays is swifties and i am NOT writing fic about real ppl #i'd love to write some pynch smut #i could also always go the bridgerton route and write some polin but i feel like i know nothing about them lmao #meanwhile pynch are my blorbos #rae speaks

[alwaysbethewest]

I don’t read a lot fic so I’m simultaneously living in an ignorant lalaland but also wanting more and afraid to venture into wild territory for fear of repeatedly encountering the Joel you mentioned. If even someone like me has noticed it, then it’s truly pervasive. I like to think I do a decent job of separating the character from their dominant trope/au/fanon but it gets hard <insert Oscar Isaac coffee gif>

I'm kind of in the same boat! I'm not reading that much these days (and when my brain is ready to I have a looong to-read list for other characters!) but I like to scroll through the fandom tag and skim the summaries. I'm sure there IS some great, thoughtful, in-character fic out there but I rarely see anything that draws me in. I've actually literally just added a tag filter for his name so I can stop looking in the first place because I find it so dispiriting and confusing 😕

#i hate to even say this stuff out loud because i truly don't want to yuck anyone else's yum or whatever the saying is #it feels shitty to become self-conscious about what you want to write and i don't want to make anyone feel bad #AND i know that my own fics are often not that in-character #i really don't believe that being perfectly in-character is the most important thing #but at the same time i just am so.... #confused by the predominant themes and tropes and how much they do not align with my vision of this character #a deeply sad broken hollowed out tired man #who probably barely finds it in him to regularly fuck his long term partner #(not that she is ever acknowledged either 🙃🙃🙃) #much less someone younger than his dead daughter #like where did that.... come from #sorry if this makes me an asshole!!!! oh well #anonymous #ask #and i am purposely not using full names or tags lol bc i'm just saying my thing to my followers not trying to start a whole conversation 😬

[liminalweirdo]

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#actually looking back through my ao3 my real dissatisfaction with my writing really only started in 2021 #after a couple of years of almost exclusively co-writing #i always attributed the decline in quality to 2018 when i was so burnt out i lost significant ability to perform IADLs #but it was definitely c. late 2021 and early 2022 #when i could sense the decline in my writing skill and enjoyment and so took multiple breaks from co-writing to write solo again #it's weird i co-wrote (and did written roleplays) SO MUCH as a teenager and in my early 20s #and never developed this massive block when i wrote solo back then #maybe it was partially the pandemic #i know my inability to go out in the world has significantly impacted my connection to like... reality and The Real World and Society #i don't talk to people anymore -- everyone's schedules got so messed up that even my friends who i spoke to regularly #when Work Hours were a thing for me all faded a lot #like we're still friends but i don't speak to anyone but my partner regularly #it's so lonely? #anyway i think i made the right choice when i started exclusively writing solo again but i sure miss the excitement and drive of co-writing #idk maybe i just need a boost #mutuals who want to co-write a SDT fic with me hit me up #seriously #disability #liminal scrawlings

[endigolikesarson]

I like franziska von karma a normal amount

#this is a lie #i stole her name #i go by Franizksa/Fran now #along with Endigo ofc #I want to look like her #she is so gender??? #I go feral whenever I see her #she takes up like 90% of my thoughts #I literally wrote a fran centered fanfic #it was orignally franmaya but I was so focused on Fran that the franmaya didn't really show up till the end #words can not describe how much I love her #one time someone said I looked like her and it was the best compliment I have ever received #I have a plush of her I bought for like $30 and waited an entire month to get #I go on etsy regularly and look for franziska stuff even tho I don't have a means to buy any right now #I am going to write an analysis of her character once I finish aai2 #I take any chance i get to talk about her to my friends who know nothing about AA except for what I have told them #Franziska von Karma is life #live laugh love Franziska von Karma #ace attorney #franziska von karma

[andthebubbles]

ho hum. i'm insane!!!

#just wrote 2k words of violent bloody CONSENSUAL smut feat. sub!anthony and NO ONE WILL EVER READ IT i promise you that #near the start it just ... well there's a small intro #and then it awkwardly goes straight into it #and i really don't care #this is never getting posted lol #anyway this is what happens when you make a thirst blog in the afternoon and then make yourself so thirsty that you have to write smut to #to. to FUNCTION. to RETURN TO NORMAL #anyway. we return to your regularly scheduled programming tomorrow feat. a/b fic and lots and lots of angst #and maybe some normal kinky smut. or maybe not #there's some ownership going on here. soon. maybe. #and some more erosion of self-esteem/more of oneself just being given up bc ~he's worthless anyway. except for THIS. this one thing: sex #fic talk #sub!anthony #he's such a good boy!!!! such a good boy #i have to say... in this random pwp fic... it was really nice to write ily's #that's sorely missing from a/b fic. bc they're both afraid of saying it awww #i can't wait to write it there #anthony's thought it a lot of times now but he's very afraid to say it #and benedict... i don't think he even knows yet. he's afraid to engage with even the thought of it lol

[choirose]

I've been playing nekopara catboys paradise all day and I'm honestly about to pass out

They'd better be producing a whole ass game because I CAN'T CONTINUE LIVING MY LIFE WITH ONLY THAT

I'll ramble under the cut because my bestie is sleeping so he can't hear my screams, no spoilers though

Okay, first of all; I thought Fennel would be my favorite since he's my type, but playing the prologue I ended up liking Laurier more than I should lol. When it came to choosing the route I thought "I'll play Laurier's first, the two I liked less and lastly, Fennel :3" after all, I'd start with something I liked and end with the same! It all made sense in my OCD head!~

So I've been waiting all day to get to Fennel's because it was hinted that he would have a similar plot to Laurier aND I'M SO FURIOUS THAT THEY JUST PUSH THAT PLOT AWAY DURING HIS ROUTE, I'VE BEEN WAITING ALL DAY FOR NOTHINGGG TT—TT

Anyways, Laurier is best route best boi best cat ever. Please kitty come sleep in my bed I have candy meow (Fennel is still my second favorite, but I still think they did him dirty ok)

#reanimating this blog #sheesh it's been so long since I've played a different visual novel lol #maybe this year I'll be able to post here regularly... who knows #nekopara catboys paradise #it's 1AM where I live and no one will pay attention to it so I don't even know if my writing is ok #welp #2024

[5amanthus]

More random guys hyperfixation incoming. Brain is very much into weird cosmic non-human deity people being gay right now

#Just casually dipping into the most recent fandoms I've been writing for #Cause of some random fucking guys #Even though I don't go there #Gonna be writing so much smut that transcends reality before I get back to my regularly unscheduled other writing #Just gotta get it outta my system I guess #(Between Spot/Venom which is from stuff I've actually watched I just don't write fanfic for Marvel stuff) #And now my Ultrakill fic plans (just an outline for some weird smut even though I won't play the game myself) #And NOW I guess I'm writing at least TWO smutfics for fucking Prismo/Scarab (I've TLDR'd the show with my bff just for content for them)

[foolofatook001]

“Tell to me, Tam Lin,” she said, “Why came you here to dwell?”

“The Queen of Faeries caught me, when from my horse I fell. And at the end of seven years, she pays a tithe to Hell— I so fair and full of flesh, I fear it be myself.”

("Tam Lin," Fairport Convention version)

Here’s the thing— Martyn knows how this kind of story is supposed to go.

The plucky hero goes into the heart of the enchanted wood, and through a bit of cleverness and the virtue of their pure heart, they rescue the victim from the horrible entangling grasp of whatever evil faerie creature has them. Now, he wouldn’t say he’s got a pure heart, necessarily, but he is certainly clever, and, well— he’s made several forays into the enchanted wood, as it were, and gotten away unscathed each time. 

But what do you do when the victim refuses to leave with you?

He’s tried reason. He’s tried logic. He’s tried gifts. He’s tried impassioned pleas. Ren still keeps going back to the Shadow Lady. He keeps insisting he’s not enchanted and that “his Queen” wouldn’t take away his free will, which is unfortunately exactly what someone enchanted and without free will would say, so he can’t really take Ren’s word for it. 

He’d love to work with Ren, really he would. (He’d love to get into that very solid and defensible tower with a proper moat and everything, too.)

He just doesn’t want to take on a fae as well. 

The Shadow Lady has extended her reach far, and though Martyn knows she’s got limits on her power, the sight of her doing something to Ren to make him harmless to her when he went red— something with enough magic to black out the sun in the middle of the day and nearly knock Martyn to the ground with the pressure— well, he’s pretty sure that speaks for itself. Grian had warned them about her, early on in the game, and though Grian is lost to the red names now, his warning still holds water, at least in Martyn’s mind. 

Maybe the problem is that he’s thinking about this as the wrong kind of story. Maybe this isn’t one where the clever hero spirits away the innocent victim from the faerie queen, leaving her to curse his name from afar. 

Maybe he’ll have to take up dragon-slaying. 

#last life smp #last life fae-u #fool writes #martyn inthelittlewood #like so many of these ren is mr not-appearing-in-this-snippet despite being talked about #I've just been thinking a lot about Martyn in this AU recently #and kind of came to the conclusion that this is sort of the same deal as the PWHAU??? but for last life #like. martyn sees someone who could be an ally but they're “held back” by their Other Ally and a promise that binds them #so they just need to be Saved from their Oppressive Overlord #even if that's not actually what the other person wants #grian & scar and now ren & lizzie #he wants to be the bonny janet to ren's tam lin #tie his headband green and his true liege win from the evil faerie queen #meanwhile ren is out here living out his best medieval knight life #martyn be normal about rendog challenge continuously and regularly failed /lh #also a lot of this is AU-specific because I have ren go red in his boogey kill with skizz #(btw that just happened in the latest fae-u chapter I posted you should totally go read it if you are interested :P) #so lizzie keeps ren on as an ally despite being red because hashtag just faerie things #which shakes things up with martyn because You Don't Do That and also there are other reasons #anyway I think I now have an eventual ending(?) in sight for this au which is exciting #this has been extremely long tag rambles with fool