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childishfluff · 3 years

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(im gonna be sending a few seperate asks since theyre seperate thoughts/ideas, sorry for any sort of inbox spam!!) ur pet regressor tommy fic led me into a whole wormhole of many different ideas.. esp abt who else is a pet regressor!!

- wilbur (cat regressor!! also very relaxed, he *will* just sleep on phil or techno's lap for hours on end. mostly nonverbal, but will meow every now nd again. mostly communicates through actions. he can purr. doesn't drop often, but when he does, it's due to extreme stress- meaning he can be pretty sensitive while he's in catspace.)

- tubbo (puppy regressor, but definitely more of a relaxed dog aside from the amnt he communicates, especially through barking, whimpering, and soft "awooo!!"'s. loves snuggles. sometimes, he's scared to come of as annoying, so he's hesitant to slip into pupspace, normally needing someone to help him along and tell him that it's ok for him to be a puppy, nd that he's a very very good boy.)

- karl (kitten regressor!!!! he's either really sleepy or really playful/energetic, and he has no in between on that. he meows.. so much.. all he kno is meow meow!! *very* sensitive while dropped, and as such, he needs a lot of validation and love. will get extremely upset with himself if he notices that anyone is even *slightly* mad/irritated by him.)

- nick (sapnap) (PUPPY REGRESSOR 100000%!!! he's very very loud and extremely playful!!! he can be entertained for *hours* w literally anything, especially toys like chew bones. doesn't really drop too often, but when he does, he drops very very far. something that can trigger his drops is when people compare his traits/actions to those of a dog because he just goes yes!! yes me!!!! dog!!! me!!!! also he loves karl *so* much because karl absolutely spoils him rotten when he's in pupspace.)

- ranboo (kitty regressor!! similar to karl, he can be really sensitive while he's dropped. entirely nonverbal, opting for actions instead. he's a mix of both playful and sleepy. when he sleeps, he curls his entire body up into a circle nd kneads at whatever he's sleeping on until he falls asleep.)

- dream (cat regressor!! sleeps a lot when he's dropped, hes just vv tired. mimics patches, and loves to follow her around/act like she does. even bases his catgear around patches, with tabby-colored cat ears and an outfit based off of similar colors. drops very easily, mostly voluntarily.)

those r the ones i can think of now.. id love to know ypur opinions/interpretations of them!! -🌻

OKAY I’M GONNA GO THROUGH THESE ONE BY ONE, AND SHARE MY THOUGHTS+OTHER POSSIBLE HCS/FIC SCENARIOS, SO LONG POST WARNING Y’ALL

1. Cat Regressor! Wilbur

yes yes yes, I wouldn’t of thought of it myself but the idea is absolutely adorable! I’d totally write that, with like handler/cg!niki in addition to those you listed. And the idea of him using it for stress and therefore being sensitive in catspace? like, that’s amazing.

I could imagine a fic where someone pushes him to regress for fun for once, but he feels like it’s stupid to purposely act like a cat when he doesn’t need it? They don’t pressure him, or anything, but he ends up slipping because he feels safe. and he realizes not only does it help with stress, but it just makes him more happy!

also imagine him slipping around tommy for whatever reason, and just wanting to sleep while Tommy’s trying to do something fun. So he’s dragging around a sleepy kitten and waking him up every two seconds, and it’s really soft and adorable and ends up with Wilbur sleeping somewhat on Tommy so that he can’t get up and he’s like ‘you’re so lucky I love you, dude.’ awww I need to write a fic- no promises but y’know

2.Puppy Regressor!Tubbo

someone actually requested a puppy regressors!tubbo and tommy fic that I’m having trouble writing, like it sounds cute but it’s kinda hard bc I’ve never written puppyspace before. I actually decided to start over but I’ma keep trying on that.

anyways, imagine like, Ranboo or Tommy helping him slip over a discord call! Needing help to regress is something that I understand (I age regress, but I haven’t in a while due to this issue), so I could probably write Tubbo in that position well. Needing to be coaxed and told that it’s okay to be a cute lil puppy, like that’s adorable!

3. Kitten Regressor!Karl

tbh I tried to write kitten!karl but I was half asleep and gave up, I need to get back to that hjsiksja. Like I specialize in writing sensitive regressors w/anxiety over someone being mad at them, so I could definitely pull this off.

and the idea of him being a talkative kitty is sooo cute! Like I can imagine something along the lines of this conversation between him and a handler/cg:

“What do you want?”

“Meowww”

“I don’t know what that means!”

“Meow?” (little head tilt and innocent cute eyes)

“Do you want cuddles?”

*excited meows! and he goes and cuddles up in their lap bc yay, they understood him!*

and imagine kitten!karl playing w/Quackity! very very adorable concept

4. Puppy Regressor! Sapnap

okay okay so I don’t watch sapnap really but this is still adorable! Like the whole ‘me, puppy? yes.’ thing is soooo cute! Imagine George or Dream just forgetting that’s a trigger and making a joke about how one of his mannerisms reminds them of a puppy and suddenly! There’s a puppy to take care of!

and karl spoiling him sounds like something he’d do hjsiksjsa. I can’t really add much on here bc idk much about him/his content past the smp but this is so cute! Maybe I’ll watch a few of his videos and attempt writing him bc I keep getting requests for him

5. Kitten Regressor! Ranboo

yes, I was already thinking about this tbh! Like I’ve written him as a little and it’s kinda similar, he’s sensitive, and he’s less verbal the littler he gets. As a kitten, I can easily picture him just being quiet.

I imagine that he’s really pouty because of this, because he doesn’t know how to communicate otherwise, so this might confuse anyone who may take care of him.

“Why are you pouting? Do you want cuddles? Food? Do you wanna play?”

and he just doesn’t reply bc he’s a kitten and he can’t talk so it’s an endless cycle of guess and check until they reach the right answer, and it’s really funny to watch. I can also imagine that he giggles a lot. Like he’s not verbal or anything, and he doesn’t giggle a lot but sometimes it happens! and if you make him giggle while in kittenspace then you did something right!

it makes everyone happy when he giggles and it’s really soft and cute! I definitely think I’ll write a fic with kitten!ranboo in it, at some point eventually, I think!

6. Cat Regressor! Dream

awwwww- I didn’t even consider the possibility of this but awwww. Imagine Wilbur and Dream in catspace together, just sleeping and cuddling while basically all the other kittens are playing and being hyper. And everyone’s trying to get them to play but they’re sleepy! (ofc they end up playing anyways bc their friends are adorable and convincing but y’know)

and I really like the idea of him mimicking patches! I’ve seen a few pet regresors say that they mimick/copy their pets so it kinda feels realistic and likely! and plus, it’s really cute.

and since his regression is voluntary, I can imagine him like one minute, just chillin w/george and sapnap and going ‘what if- what if I just went *cat mode*’ and he tries to hint to his friends that he wants to slip but they’re not getting it so it’s kinda frustrating for him but funny for the readers to see play out bc George and Sapnap are being completely oblivious to everything. Hjsiksja that’d be funny

Thank you for sending this it, like seriously! It was really fun to go through and talk about these, I might make additional headcannon lists once I’m actually awake tomorrow bc I shouldn’t be up rn but yeah, I just wanted to go through and respond to this! <3

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mimzy-writing-online · 3 years

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Hi! I wanted to run an idea by you if that’s okay, since I’m not sure if it’s chill. This may be kind of silly, but it’s basically a fan work of the cartoon generator Rex, and although I don’t plan on posting it anywhere, I’d rather not end up having any ableist tropes. It’s a futuristic ish world where an explosion caused a bunch of tiny little robots to be spread all over the earth- small enough to alter dna at the molecular level. My idea is that a scientist got photic retinopathy during the initial explosion, and the nano robot things bonded to him. He can somewhat see silhouettes of things by concentration of the robots, since the nanites can ‘sense’ each other. However, he can’t see fine details, has trouble with depth, texture, and I’m not entirely sure about color. Different things have different concentrations- some may not have enough to even be visible at all, and he can’t control how sensitive his sense of the concentrations is- he can’t ‘focus’ on seeing large or small amounts. It’s fixed. Since nanites bond to living things, there wouldn’t be a large concentration on say- a wall, or a desk. Things with a very large concentration of nanites would be so ‘bright’ they’d feel overwhelming. I’d say painful, but moreso in the way sensory overload is? It’s not causing physical pain so much as being Too Much. I also had a thought of an assistive device, based on recognition software. Basically a camera would take footage of what’s in front of him, everything would be crunched into numbers, and it would tell him the closest matches for the objects in the image. Instead of just telling verbally, it would be transmitted directly to him. It’s not that he sees or imagines the image, but has the basic description of what the computer thinks it is. Of course, object recognition isn’t perfect because it’s just an algorithm. The goal would to be to make things easier in the event he wants to know what things look like without having someone tell him. For familiar or more accessible surroundings, there’d be no reason to use it. (Im really thinking this future won’t be perfect, esp since it has some tones of government dystopia, but there will have been progress in the years passed.) I think there’s some similar technology already out there, but since this is in the future I think it would be more streamlined and a stand alone device rather than an add on to a smartphone. I’ve still got more research to do on his specific condition, but I was wondering what you thought abt the general idea.

Okay so there's a lot to cover here, but overall I like your ideas a lot.

-The vision this scientist has is relatively similar to some existing conditions. My tired brain can't name one off the top of my head, but there are people out there who only see light and shadow and movement. I myself am unlikely to distinguish still objects from moving objects when my vision is being particularly bad.

-Honestly would not be surprised if the next few hundred years there emerged some brand new eye diseases or injury types that lead to blindness. Did this explosion cause other characters to develop a disability or for their disability to function a little differently?

-Your ideas about new technologies are also really cool. The camera thing being able to identify objects is pretty close to some technology we already have for the blind. I think Samsung has a feature with its camera/voiceover that tells you what the camera is looking at. I've seen it pop up in Molly Burke's videos. And there is a new cane in development that uses sonar to detect nearby objects and beeps in response to how close you are to something. It can also connect to your phone and give you updates on GPS. There's also an app that uses Google maps and 8d audio w/ headphones to alert you to objects of interest (street corners, shops you're passing by) as you walk around.

Overall I like your ideas.

#blind character #writeblr #writing

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dizavid · 3 years

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I'd like to start a discussion where we share stupid reasons FB has banned people. Due to recent issues w FB over the past few years, I've noticed a MARKED increase in just how much I'm being reported. Last week, I was banned from going live or advertising bc of a post I made over a year previous, as if someone intentionally dug for a way to find any reason to ban me. The post in question? An article about people who hugged a man about to jump off a bridge, holding him in place so he could both not jump and feel ppl care. I'm also very, very verbal in my hatred of Mark Zuckerberg, and I get these bans almost everytime I say anything about Zuck. The comments in question are never the reason I'm banned, but they come very soon after.

So. First off, I'm part of a few groups that are like a humor support for people harassed online by men; the kind who either send nudity and hate when rejected. As a gay man, I often (and am allowed) to post some of the same types I encounter. So to needfully explain the one where I "dedicatedly hate women", was in response to a post where someone said a list of things such kinda of guys say. I was adding to it. In context it fits, and a lot of what I get banned for is NEVER reviewed for context. See the photo where I describe messages I often get from men, who call me names and worse if I reject their advances. It was even put in quotation marks. I don't believe sharing your own past harassment should be an issue; it's welcomed in that group. I literally got a ban for things other people have said to me. Then, there's the woman I got into a debate about Colin Kaepernick over. I was accused of saying something anti-Australian, though it can't be what I said that was worthy of a ban, as my response to the accusation got me banned.

Sadly it's been too long for me to dig in my history, but this one is one of my favorites: I got a ban for a pic of a chubby guy, who had his nipple in his mouth captioned: see bitch I don't need u. The guy was OBVIOUSLY male. It was banned for nudity. So apparently even men cannot post shirtless pics unless they are firm and fit.

On one hand this is all so amusing to me, just seeing the obvious reach to try to ban. On another it worries me. Recall I was banned from advertising for the post about people saving the suicidal mans life. Thankfully, I do not remotely use FB for anything business related. But other people *do*, and it's scary to think FB is wielding people's livelihoods over their heads just bc they don't like Zucky. This, and he specifically, needs to be stopped. Some people, esp people with an online business, are just one missed payment away from default, going overdrawn, or even the final step away from bankruptcy. Given there's absolutely NOTHING wrong w the heartwarming story, I can't convince myself it's anything other than someone from FB actively antagonizing me. That sounds so fucking crazy to me...until that other pic I've yet to discuss. I intentionally went on a Fuckerberg rant Saturday, testing how long it took for a ban hammer to come down. Three days.

With all the legal trouble FB is having, it may well soon come to light FB targets specific people. Not saying they definitely are, saying there's enough reason to need to investigate it. If they are? There's a class action lawsuit from Hell to be had. So screenshot and save any bans or other interactions with FB directly that you feel are less than honest. It might pay off one day. By all means, pass around.

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psychohelmet · 7 years

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5, 6, 8, 9, 10, 22, 33, 40

under the cut cause it’s long af

5: Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.

tbh i can’t rmb a lot of birthdays cause they’re like any other day? just with good food lol. well this used to be a good memory but i don’t wanna associate myself with these people anymore. well basically it was a combined birthday/ xmas celebration with a few friends i had made on a sch trip to the uk. the seniors in this group of friends had arranged to meet the juniors at a said location but they ended up stalling and giving us clues to where they were (which was pretty annoying but cute) and when we reached the said location, there was a nice picnic set up with PIZZA and gifts. we just kinda chilled, played games, flew kites etc. it was nice ahaha. but one person in that group pissed me the heck off so now it’s kind of a tainted memory.

6: Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.

probably last years. it was again … like just a normal day. sad. but what made it bad was that one of the friends that i consider close as heck, didn’t wish me happy birthday till literally mins before my birthday ended. i don’t wanna sound petty but it really made me upset. and … i found out she had a fun eventful date with her boyfriend (newish at the time) and that made me even more upset… yeah … i don’t wanna sound petty but things like these get to me lol

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

having no eye-bags. ahahah honestly i have nothing to be proud of. but having no eye-bags is pretty impressive for someone who has a messed up sleeping schedule. literally all uni/ college/ art sch students will have eye-bags but i don’t. i know it’s not that special ahaha

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

honestly there’s nothing. i’m not happy with my body. that’s it.

10: Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.

tbh idk what would consider the biggest fight? i’ve definitely gotten into pretty bad verbal fights but nothing physical. tbh most of the fights i’ve had were misunderstandings or stemmed from manipulation. i wouldn’t consider them “big” but they were bad alright and i rather not talk about it cause it brings back horrible memories.

22: Talk about your worst fear.

probably the fear of being forgotten and having nobody to lean on/ talk to. this mainly stemmed from never really having stable friendships as a kid and bullying that happened as a teen. whenever i think someone’s a good friend, they seem to find someone better and i’m just left behind. orrrrrr that i feel like there’s literally nobody i can talk to because my problems seem so minuscule compared to others plus some people can’t seem to understand the problems i have and tend to brush it over saying it’s all in my head and that i need to grow up… etc etc but yeah being alone sucks. i might seem like i talk to many people but honestly i don’t. i probably only talk to 1 or 2 people daily but if they don’t text back, then oh well… just nobody then

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

cry, rant about it on twitter (hoping someone will actually talk to me), listen to music, lay in bed and contemplate my existence. basically i do anything to numb out the “sadness” but i tend to talk to myself more and create more fictional scenarios to make myself feel better

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

tbh i read this as “talk about ending your life” and i was like ????? ahaha ok umm the end of a friendship i really treasured??? it was probably one of the closest tumblr friendships i’ve formed. it lasted, i think, for 4 years before it just ended like that. it was with this person who i met in the knb fandom and we instantly clicked because we both liked the same characters and shared the same ship. i rmb us bonding over new years’ talking about dumb imagine scenarios and lowkey role-play ahaha. this person was also probably the first person i gave my number to? we even met up a couple of times. we’ve been thru thick and thin. i rmb being for this person’s suicidal patches and trying my best to support them and helping them to get psychiatric help. but suddenly this person changed and i couldn’t feel comfortable around them anymore. for lack of better phrasing, it felt like person’s life and troubles were sucking the life out of me and conversations were becoming very very short and forced. this friendship was slowly becoming toxic. they moved fandoms so it became even harder for me to connect and talk to them. i didn’t want to stop talking to them because of this and i didn’t want it to seem like just because they were mentally ill and they had a lot of issues, i didn’t want to be friends anymore. once or twice this friend snapped at me for sounding “boring” and “naggy” for caring for them and well, just not showing interests in their new fandoms. they obviously found new friends and they started to act even more ridiculous like one of those people that memes too hard. i knew that this friend had been thru a lot esp when it came to friendships. they honestly were sick and tired of being used and people leaving them. they kinda had this policy “if you put in effort, i’ll put in effort too. if you don’t, then bye i don’t need people like you anymore”. so one day i just didn’t reply to their text because it had came to the point that i had no idea how to reply to a “ahahah ok” kind of text. they didn’t reply to check up on me once. i did think of replying like a “omg i forgot to reply ahaha sorry” but the thing is, i’ve been pulling off that bs for too long and noticed that they never texted first to check up on me so i just gave up. we hadn’t talked for 6 months and i randomly decided to check their twitter account (cause i had muted them because they were constantly spamming my tl) and they broke mutuals. i was, of course, a bit sadded but i went down to scroll and idk maybe find a reason for unfollowing me, and i saw that this “friend” of mine, tweeted saying that wanted to keep their following count at 69 and only wanted to follow back mutuals so whoever that wanted to remain mutuals, to like the tweet. so since i had them on mute, i didn’t see it and they broke off officially from my life. lmao this all sounds pretty pathetic and not worth mentioning but given that this person was a huge chunk of my life and that i’ve been thru their highs and lows, it just kinda sucks. it saddens me even more that even tho i cared so much for this person, this person eventually didn’t give 2 shits about me after finding new friends that they could feed off positivity from. i know that i’m not the best friend, or that i’m not an entirely positive person but the way this friendship ended was so … ok that’s enough of this. i’m leaving out a lot of details but oh well i rambled for too long

#ask meme #thanks seyma!!!#doumekism #ask and you will receive #to whoever that actually reads everything #wow honestly #i don't mind talking about personal stuff

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deqdyke · 7 years

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1, 9, 12, 18, 21, 27, 32, 36, 42, 48,'50, 51, 69, 77, 81, 84 pls❤

*1. Are looks important in a relationship?*I’d be lying if I said no? But also I actively try to decolonize my ideas of beauty and work on stuff like ableism and such. Its rlly helped me figure out what I ACTUALLY find attractive, and it’s not always what’s “traditionally” attractive!

*9. Describe your perfect mate*The way this is phrased squicks me out! 😫But idk! Like I said, it changes. I do tend to fall for passionate and sweet people. Like, the sort of people who really care. I also have a history of dating neurodivergent people! Most of my partners and crushes have been autistic, all have had some form of neurodivergency!

*12. Do you forgive betrayal?*I dunno! I can’t predict my brains behaviors. Sometimes someone does something Small and my brain is like “they’re dead to you” and other times people will seriously hurt me and it won’t change anything.

18. There isn’t one ;p

*21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?*Honestly? No idea. I feel like maybe but I also don’t rlly see anything loveable about myself. :/ People need to be Up Front about their feelings for me bc I’m Dense.

*27. Has anyone ever written a song or a poem for you?*

Yes!!! 3 times. First time, my ex-boyfriend Terry wrote me a poem. I’ve also had a verse in a song about me, and a whole lullaby written for me (by my partner). 💞

*32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?*Binch that’s my life story!! Of course I have!! Every fuckin day!!

*36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?*If we’re close, I’m a lil bit gay for u. If I’m gay for u, we’re probably best friends. They go hand in hand for me? I dunno I have trouble understanding platonic vs. romantic, my brain is just like “it love!!!”.

*42. How long can you just kiss untill your hands start to wander?*Usually I’ll ask verbal consent first! Sometimes I’ll get rlly into it, and (esp if I’m drunk) my hands wander, but the person usually just moves my hand and I apologise and things are A-OK. Ive had a 6-7 hour make out session w/ no hand wandering so! (That was…hard on my mouth lol)

*48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?*It happens a lot!! I either encourage them to pursue it, or I encourage them but ask them not to discuss it w/ me. Sometimes if I’m in the Bad Place I get shitty and distance myself or lash out a wee bit, which is… Not ok, but usually I’m good? I think.

*50. If your first true love ever knocked on your door with an apology and presents, would you accept?*Depends on who you mean! Idk who was my ~first true love~. My kindergarten crush? Probably not. My first partner? Maybe! My abuser? Nope!!!

*51. Is there a PERSON who you would do absolutely everything for?*…yeah? BPD!!! Ive had multiple. But there are a couple who remain consistent!

*69. What turns you off?*Homophobia/transphobia/racism/etc. Also, talking about past sexual partners? Like u can do it, it just makes me feel a bit jealous/squicky. Working on it tho!!

*77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?*I def think they’re navigable to an extent, and I tend to be a bit lenient with it. The age range im willing to date is 18-23/24, but the 18 year old is rlly rare/they have to be like, super self-reliant and in college and stuff? And even then I’d tread carefully.I would also date an older couple, personally! Like if a pair if 28 y/o lesbians approached me as a couple I would def be interested? Idk why it seems Nice.

*81. Who are five people you find attractive?*Uhhh celebs or irl? I don’t wanna tag people I’m friends with bc trust me, they know how cute I think they are, but I’m having trouble thinking of five celebs? The only person who comes to mind rn is Alex Roberts (the tabletop personality) and she’s not even that famous! So idk 😫 I might come back to this once I’m more well rested.

84. *Why did your last relationship fail?*Just because it’s over doesn’t mean it failed. I don’t regret it at all and we knew going in it might not last forever. sounds cheesy but we both helped each other improve and I’m okay w/ it. *Shrugs*

Ty!! 💞💞

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