i think my transness will always relate from where i come from. i live in a small town in a third world country that speaks spanish.
my deadname comes from latin, and it meant "she who holds fire", my parents had chosen it for me, a popular girl name in that time as many girls around my age were named that. when i started discovering myself, on the road to a neighbor town, i chose Félix. i always have liked birds and fire and the Phoenix, the bird who rised from its ashes, translated as Fénix in spanish. at first I would've named myself Fénix, to be honest, but decided on Félix. coincidentally, Félix comes from latin, meaning "he who is fortunate and happy".
It's not Felix, like the cat, it's Félix, closer to Fénix, like the bird who is unkillable because it will always come back from its remains, the empowering bird who is made of burning fire and passion, death and birth from fire. Fire translates to fuego in spanish, both start with the same letter as Fénix and how you pronounce Phoenix, and the same letter i chose to my name.
It's how Fénix is a non conventional name, it's not gendered at all, to me. Félix is a boy name (not saying it is, it's what the name is understood to be by the masses), but to me it's the same of a non gendered bird, so im still comfortable on it, because i dont fit the binary.
I made the connections later in life, time before i chose to call myself and come out as Félix. That small accent mark makes the difference, and its pronunciation too. My name is in spanish, comes from the latin, not phee-leeks, but feh-leeks.
It matters to me, a lot. It's me, my name, what I chose, what i had in me, the fire to be true to myself, to be born again from what i destroyed.
She burnt to ashes so he could have been born.
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I think it’s truly iconic how I ended up getting into Ace Attorney.
For context, the name that I go by is Phoenix. When i was doing research for names that scream enby, i kept getting drawn to “Phoenix”, as well as other variations of it (Feenix, Phoebus, etc.).
I ended up doing further searches. My last name starts with “W”, and I was curious to see if anyone else had my name.
I typed in “Phoenix W” and my boy Wright popped up as a suggestion. “Who tf is that spiky haired doofus?” I found myself asking.
It sat in my head for not even a week before I finally fully looked into it. Flash forward nearly a year later, and here I am. A Phoenix W enthralled with Phoenix Wright and his gang of blorbos.
We call that fate or something i guess
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would Alastor have sex with a girl on her period? I feel like he’d like it cuz the blood but I wanted to ask the expert ❤️❤️
EXPERT?! Look what you did!
Hazel imagines….
Alastor would see your fidgeting, the way you crossed your legs and squirmed in your seat while listening to people talk around you.
He’d catch you in the hall, twirling his microphone staff, “Why the pout?”
You’d frown, “It’s personal, Alastor.”
“Ah so it’s related to your menstruation.” He said it too casually, you stopped so quickly he nearly fell forward when he stopped too. Alastor read your face, “Smell, dear. I’ve got quite an impressive nose.”
Mortified, “Everyone can smell me?”
He shrugged leaning against his staff, “Who knows? I didn’t care to ask.”
Your eyes looked to the left and down, “That almost makes it worse.”
��As much as I love guessing games,” his eyeroll said he did not in fact love guessing games, “care to clue me in to what we’re talking about?”
“It’s per-,” you couldn’t finish.
“A broken record is no fun, darling.” He closed the distance between you, “I can smell many things. So why not be forthright with it, hmm?” His head cocked to the side, a flash of his threatening radio dial eyes beaming down at you.
“My partner wont touch me, but I’m when I’m on my period I get so -,”
“Aroused.”
His blunt reply with that high toned accent was a punch to your gut, “Yeah. I already feel like shit and they wont even let me in bed with them.” Your chin quivered, emotions sensitive.
Alastor lifted your downcast face with the rounded back of his microphone, tutting, “Has the hotel run out of towels?”
You shook your head, confused.
“No more hot water?”
Another shake.
“Well I don’t see the problem then.” His face leaned down, back curving to lower to your much shorter height, “I’ve never shied away from getting a little bloody.”
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I think if he was down to fuck for whatever reasons he had, the embarrassment reader had of their period would just enhance his enjoyment. If they weren’t embarrassed, he’d still not be offended by the sight and smell of blood, quite nostalgic if nothing else. 👀
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