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That Manipulative Minecraft Girl

This is a story I've told to multiple people as an example to why my trust issues are so insane and why I have no wish to make any friends.

So, when I was around 13, I was one of those kids who had a minecraft Instagram, and this basically means I would take screenshots on minecraft and edit them before posting them on Instagram. I met tons and tons of people on this account, one being... let's call him werewolf, who was my online boyfriend for around a year. Anyways, I also met a girl named... let's name her Click (you'll see why soon).

So, Click and I met on Minecraft and got talking on dms, she was extremely fun to talk to at first. She was super nice, and funny and supportive, and I eventually started to get pretty heavy feelings for her. Half the time I knew her she had some weird boyfriend who never showed his face and acted like an anime character but that doesn't matter.

A few months into our friendship after she broke it off with her boyfriend, I asked her out and she said yes. We dated for only about a week until she broke it off, and this continued for about 4 or 5 months of her agreeing to date me, being all cute for a week or 2 and then telling me she thinks it isnt working.

Later, after not talking for around a month, Click came back with a new best friend, let's call her photo.

Photo was really starting to change Click. Click was more rude and acted very different. She was always talking about Photo, and I dont mind when friends have other friends! It makes me so much happier when my friends are happy, but click wasn't just talking about photo, she was comparing me, telling me how much better photo is and how I never compared as a friend.

This really started to hurt after a while because I felt inadequate and weird compared to Photo. I tried to befriend photo and hoped that it would make things easier but Photo and Click just fucked with me and made me believe everything was fine before breaking me down a week or so later.

Eventually Photo and Click got into a fight and Click came running back to me, and my naive ass accepted her back and tried to make everything better again. Click seemed extremely upset over Photo and her falling out so I tried my best to help her out, but she kept denying my help and saying the most awful things to me, but I ignored what she was saying and still tried to help.

It took no more than 2 weeks time and Click and Photo were friends again, and that's when the worst part of the encounter happened.

TRIGGER WARNING: THEMES OF SUICIDE AND DEPRESSION

So, even when Click became friends with photo again, she still was always acting depressed, saying how she cant take it anymore, and later blaming me.

She told me how I'm the reason she's depressed and she was so happy before I came into her life.

One night... She started talking extremely dark. She started saying she'll end it all and I was absolutely mortified that I was driving her to kill herself despite doing nothing to hurt her.

I begged and begged for her to stop this and please tell me shes joking and then...

She sent me a pitch black video

With the sound of a guns safety clicking off (hence her name)

And then went offline for 3 days

I was so lost in those 3 days. I cried the entire night and avoided my family because of the thought that I was the reason someone took their own life. I sat and questioned taking my own life because I could not bear to live with the idea that I had caused one of my best friends to kill herself. I spoke with Photo and she also blamed me for Clicks suicide and I've never been so horrified, I spent those 3 days shaken and horrified, eating almost nothing and crying every night.

Then she came back online. Told me everything was a joke and tried to laugh it off.

So many emotions

Fear, relief, anger, sadness, happiness.

I was so lost for words. On one hand I was so incredibly happy that she didnt kill herself and I wasnt the cause of it, but also, I was so fucking livid!

She faked her own suicide as a joke for attention and decided it would be best to pretend it was my fault and absolutely traumatize me.

Like I said in my intro I'm already suicidal and depressed and have been for years, so thinking you caused somebody to feel this way is just horrific.

I left that day. After a few angrily worded messages I left and deleted Instagram for over a year, sometimes coming back on to make sure she was okay and alive.

As far as I know shes fine and alive, but I could never forgive her. What she did has terrified me to this day, I had nightmares about it for months, and she is one of ths many things that comes to mind when I am in my worst mental states.

That is a big reason why I have absolutely incredible trust issues, I very VERY rarely tell anybody anything personal unless it is my friends Zain or Ulani or my family, whom I trust more than anyone.

I was terrified of the sound of the gun safety clicking off for around a year, not to the point where I would scream and cry but I would shake and turn off whatever I am watching and have a few hours where all I thought about was her and what she did and how horrified I was.

I know not everybody is like this... but it is very hard for me to initiate in new friendships because her, and 2 other people come to mind and it terrifies me to think that I'll go through that same thing again.

So, that's the story of the most manipulative minecraft girl in the world, I hope you enjoyed and never have to go through an experience like I did :,)

-Corn Bits :)

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