#dont want to be overbearing

[duodusk]

i think it should be normal to send out little surveys asking people what they thjnk about you . BTW

#txt #rgh dumb post but the thing i want to taok about i couldnt think of a way to phrase it #its so hard to manage like. being incredibly autistic about an interest you can only talk to one person about #because I don't want to be annoying or burn them out of it but its what my brain is latched on to rn #wahh #i was gonna post somehting like. 'sorry for being autistic do you still tjink im hot' but im NOT!!! sorry for being autistic i just #dont want to be overbearing #lol #but whateverrr whateverrrrrr at least i habe this blog to post shit onto #i wish it was easier to just like. ask ppl where theyre at with certain things or how ive been acting and not have it #inherently come with expectations or connotations that im trying to guilt them about it or that its something THEY did to make me feel this #because its literally not its all in my head i just want to know what ppl think of me for . like research #i feel that way with mutuals too i want to invite mutuals to talk to me and send asks but i dont want to be presumptuous #idk what/how often ppl think about me and its not something easy to ask bc of the way itll be interpreted #life is hard FOREVER !!! why is it so hard to communicate #anywayyyyy anywayyyyy #hi

[ourhouseishaunted]

people acting as if laios can Do No Wrong and infantilizing him because he is autistic are annoying as hell. especially because laios belongs to my favorite genre of character: "person who desperately wants friends and deep relationships because they're lonely, and while part of their problems stem from people not wanting to understand them and refusing to meet them where they are, they also genuinely come across in a way where you Completely Understand why others can get turned off from them"

#.txt #dungeon meshi #laios #like. okay. i think its a very autistic experience to Want People In Your Life So Badly but because you act differently and have a hard time #with social cues you dont get that easy friendship and it sucks and youre lonely as hell #<- source: im autistic #but ALSO. i think some people forget that missing social cues genuinely makes you rude. even if you dont mean it #intent goes a long way but sometimes the autistic experience is realizing that Unfortunately You May Have Been A Dick #or that being intense or overbearing or disregarding boundries you dont know are there Drives People Away #like idk i think wanting people to look deeper and see whats worthwhile about you while also realizing youve unintentionally #driven people away #and that you can be misunderstood AND need to improve how you treat people #is an interesting story (growing as a person while also understanding that you were worthwhile the whole time even if others didnt see it) #on TOP of being a. idk more true to life autism expereince at least for me #and characters who have these kinds of arcs are really fascinating to me and i think theres a lot of nuance to them #and idk it sucks when people try to act as if lack of malicious intent suddenly means everyone who doesnt love you unconditionally is wrong #to be clear sometimes its not the Neurodivergentisms that drive ppl away sometimes its smth else #but idk i find more nuanced approaches to characters like this feel much more engaging to me and its lame when it seems like ppl go out #of their way to remove nuance from characters :/

[rouge-the-bat]

i absolutely love kurama and hiei being a bit yandere towards each other while the other is like FUCK thats hot

#a bit creepy and possessive over each other #trying to restrain themselves bc they dont want to be overbearing or make the other uncomfortable #but it doesnt take them long to realize the other gets excited seeing how crazy they get over them 😍😍 #hiei #kurama #kurahi #youko kurama #shuichi minamino #yyh #yu yu hakusho

[fitzrove]

Started watching a "problem with greek myth retellings" video and it began with a blurb montage like "Condemned by the misogynist guys of history, this is the true girlboss feminist story of [A WOMAN]" and like. brb writing one of those about crown prince rudolf. It's ok he's like a misunderstood girlboss to me<3

#NASJASKSDFKDSLFDGJDFJ #joking. since those retellings seem to be often bad #fun fact i do have ideas for like a black teen comedy series with mary as the protagonist where the ending is like a harrowing twist #like you think it won't go that far but it does and the point is that she had historical agency and her own problems and personal journey #but in the end it spiralled catastrophically due to both crown prince rudolf related events and others #unfortunately writing one would draw the ire of both misogynist rudolf conspiracy theorists (how dare you suggest women have agency) AND a #certain type of feminist media critiquer person: (1) how dare you cover a topic like that flippantly 2) how dare you make rudolf anything #but an inhuman monster of a r*pist murderer gr**mer or whatever in the story #like idk man.. other male characters portrayed as romantic interests in mainstream media are toxic r*pists all the time. like omg i hate ho #'the great' handles p*ter and catherine because i was rooting for them to remain toxic and for catherine to kill him or whatever but then #she starts falling in love with him in s2 and everyone in tumblr is like omg hot sexy toxic romance. like cant we have ONE series where #straight romance doesnt inevitably become the overbearing focus?? i had wlw ships for that show.. they never pulled through... #anyway um yeah. the way i would portray rudolf in that is that mary sees him as this romantic hero which is emphasised in the way its shot #but he's constantly acting in kinda offputting and strange ways and is occasionally pretty pathetic and weird ASHDJFJF #^^ that's never been a deterrent to anyone ever. most rudolf biographers want to [redacted] him this has been proven by the way they write. #the only ones that dont are me (well not a real biographer but a rudolf enjoyer nonetheless) and brigitte hamann /hj #(she actually doesnt salivate over his appearance like frederick morton does xD only quotes 2 contemporary women commenting on it)

[rucow]

my humble era is over, i now claim ownership over my faves and i Will be your voryn/phantom/hircine/fíli mutual. all yuor blorbos are belong me now

#/lh ofc #last year i was so dead set on not jumping on the trend of calling myself the ceo of a specific character #bc it felt rly rude and mean??? i want to share my faves not to hoard them and be an unpleasant overbearing presence in a fandom !! #but i think that. when i put so much of myself into a chara...and i flesh them out and develop them so differently from their canon source #then im allowed to be associated with said character without feeling guilty :') #everyone has their own interpretation of characters and mine just happen to be wildly different from both canon and fanon haha #mainly bc im a raging lesbian and i love all my faves being girlified #ill never refer to them as genderbent and i rly dont like that term #bc it would imply that my faves are cis men in canon and that i change them to be cis women #which isnt true! the whole thing is that i Dont see them as being cis men in canon #most of my faves arent human and the gender roles of irl white societies dont apply to them!! #ik im bad with wording but hopefully u get what i mean 😭 #sorry about the word vomit its just how i am as a person fhshds #txt

[computer-boy]

me giving advice: 'honestly just say what you mean! being honest is important in relationships'

me when i have to be honest and say what i mean:

#peests #LONG RANT INCOMING: so im going to a concert and so are two of my other friends and one of them asked me to go with her #and i didn't say no or yes but i honestly don't want to go with her she's nice and i really like her but she's overbearing #i don't mean to be mean but going with her will ruin the night for me it's not her flaw it's just how it is #and i havent asked my other friend yet but i really want to go with her and im pretty sure she'll say yes #possible solution: tell friend 1 i can't go and go anyways with friend 2 #flaw: what if i see her there it would be awkward and i would seem like a fucking dick (which i would be. this is a dick move) #possible solution 2: tell friend 1 i don't want to go with her #flaw: aurguhdj... dont wanna... she's real nice and i don't wanna be mean to her cuz i know she takes rejection hard... #im just gonna hope she doesn't get tickets which seems mean but yk #i wish i just told her i was already going with someone else . head in hands

[junkdyke]

oh my fucking god

this kid...has been repeat messaging me and after the shitshow he caused at our last party, i super dont want to talk to him. He ended up asking me "why are you not replying to my messages" which i just...ignored. Anyway, now I get a message from one of my friends saying that he asked her why i'm not answering??? Baby boy, take a fucking hint oh my god

i dont wanna be a cunt but if you have to go to one of my friends to ask why i'm not responding to your messages, any explanation you get from me is probably not going to be one you want to hear.

#personal #i dont like being mean but fuck #once someone annoys me its very hard for me to not be perma-annoyed by them for good #i dont want to talk bc you are overbearing and clingy and i dont know you well at all!! #i dont want to be bombarded by message after message after tiktok after tiktok #honestly people are lucky when i consistently respond to their messages whatsoever bc i get overwhelmed and dont wanna talk lol

[eraseur-a]

me wanting to be part of everything vs my muse not wating to be part of anything u_u

#i worry that im overbearing and constantly shoving myself into situations that arent meant for me? #like i worry that im taking up too much space #and trying to make everytihng about myself/my muse #if thats the case please let me know so i can do better #i dont want that #ooc

[taconafide2]

i need more friends who are rude cunts about the same things i am so they could bring out my dormant agression

#i have exactly one relatively mean friend and he pissess me off he's a hater for such inconsequential things for me that i honestly couldnt #gaf about #such as finding x y z lecturer annoying not liking x y z person i dont knowwwwwwwwwww . #its easier when friends who i do not know irl complain about this sort of stuff #notwhen ican verify somebody's opinion and think. well the teacher isnt annoying or specifically trying to make YOUR life hellish lol theyr #just doing their job. perhaps they're a bit overbearing. if you have this hard of a time w overbearing people.. how do you even want to be #a psychologist? a therapist?? #maybe i'm mistaken but i really feel like. this is the one field my dormant and passive personality shines in #. . .like sure ill listen. its okay

[taylovelinus]

not to depression-post but i wish i actually fucking mattered to my “friends” lol :)

#it’s always ‘oh you know you’re always invited’ no the fuck i don’t! #if i don’t know where you’re going or when then i’m clearly not actually invited! #i can’t just telepathically know what night you’re going out and just magically know to start getting ready and where to go #people respect and appreciate me. but they dont want me around #and i don’t know WHY #i try to be myself and be likeable and adventurous but never pushy or intrusive or overbearing #it never ever ever fucking works i am just so completely mediocre.

[moenmomentsthemoe-en]

TW // vent art, blood, (referenced) suicide attempts + heavy vent in tags

(lyrics from saint bernard)

#personal art #vent art #ough heavy vent in tags. for the love of god please do not read this if you're not in a good state of mind #or if youre uncomfortable with the trigger warnings #sorry i. know most of you guys don't even know me well and tbf i dont know much close people #im just mgh. yknow. facing others' suicidal attempts and friendships are how i grew up. i dont want my friendships to be like that now but #at this point i don't even know how to have healthy friendships since its all ive known #im too awkward overbearing and negative at this point #i think this comic is the only time ill be able to talk about this #it doesn't feel right venting to people after everything #i miss my friends. i miss being freely close to people #but i don't miss the shit ive been through #theyre all good people but . that was not a good childhood #this is. i shouldnt be traumadumping ahahgd i dont want to make anyones day worse #im. sorry #getting therapy but. i dont . think i can fix this one #maybe i shouldve just been better haha #sorry um. this isnt . a nice read . please take care. genuinely

[saintshigaraki]

i can make deku a little toxic. as a treat 

#i dont think toxic is actually the right word hadipfad #just . overbearing to an unhealthy degree. codependency central #i dont think im using codependency right actually lmao #actually nevermind i just looked it up and yes that exactly #he want u a little. codependent #vicspeaks

[bellshazes]

on my way out of my parents my youngest siblings best friend (they are both ~16) was like hey this is a bit weird but you're gay right. and I was like yeah. and then she asked if I'd ever been dumped before bc she did recently and is going the fuck thru it and I was like 🥺🥺🥺🥺 give me your phone number I will take you out to lunch or call me at 2am whatever you need. bc I correctly guessed immediately she couldn't tell her friends abt it bc they share all their mutual friends and it's like!!!!! sweetheart. oh, baby, it does take time but when you think you can't tell anyone it hurts so bad and I will be that for you. please.

there's this other layer of like - she came out to her (equally catholic as mine) parents at like...? 13? and my mother had to ask me point blank in college if I was gay bc I did not come out. these kids are so so so brave in a way I couldn't be at that age and if there is any way I can be an older queer person for the younger kids. man.

#im just 🥺😭💕 at her i dont want to be overbearing but i gave her a hug. #and frankly ive been historically abysmal abt taking my own advice but thats why im qualified to give it #peter posts

[thepavementsings]

the things i would do to hear ur thoughts about pierre & carlos’ relationship…..

Fascinating. There's a quote (about Red Bull seats ofc no one asks him about anything else) where Pierre says "Carlos is on his own journey" and I felt feral about it. Nothing under the cut is actually about that to be clear though. It's about being gay and repressed :)

There was definitely a time during their red bull racing junior cult™️ days where they have to share rooms and Pierre makes crude jokes about jerking one out in the other bed that make Carlos blush SO hard he has to take a 45 minute run about it to calm down.

At some point during idk a training camp they're all doing one summer or something who cares, Pierre comes out of the shower in nothing but a towel. And Carlos (who at this point hasn't jerked off in the 3 weeks since they got there) makes it halfway to the bathroom with his dick half hard against is thigh in his shorts before Pierre says something stupid like "you know I've heard from people that they have some pretty good channels here" and the comment takes Carlos off guard enough to turn him around, just enough to see the playful smirk on Pierre’s face. Pierre tells him that it's no big deal, that he’s done it before, and then turns the tv loud enough that Carlos is mortified to think whoever is in the room beside them could hear it. Carlos can't look at what Pierre is doing on the other bed, just sits on the edge of his own, palms digging into the meat of his thighs. By the time he hears Pierre come, he’s soft again. Carlos gets in the shower immediately after, the wet spot on his shorts folded away into the discarded pile of clothes in the corner of the room.

Pierre gets up the next morning and slaps him on the shoulder when he smiles passed him in the weight room. Carlos feels HORRIBLE about it for like 3 days, and then he asks Pierre out for dinner.

They go to some diner across from the training facility. Pierre complains about his meeting with Helmut, and laughs at Carlos' story about embarrassing himself at his f1 test, and Carlos tries to feel normal about it. But then when they get back to their room Carlos tries to KISS Pierre. Pierre pushes him back so quickly and Carlos is MORTIFIED. Because he doesn't even know why he did that he just thought - after their date, it's not like there's a doorstep for him to leave Pierre at but he's just trying to - he doesn't know. Now all he can look at is the way Pierre has put as much room between them as he can, and Carlos thinks that he didn't even really want to kiss Pierre in the first place, and is there a hole in the earth that can please swallow him up.

And Pierre tells him that he's not - F1 drivers aren't, people don’t do that stuff in Motorsport, Carlos. That wasn't a - it was just a couple of friends letting off some steam.

And Carlos nods, buries himself into the hot hotel bed sheets, and shows up to his first Grand Prix a few months later with a beautiful girl on his arm just like he was always meant to :)

#then like 4 years later Pierre would catch him holding Lando's face in his hands in the bathroom after a press conference #and Lando would have to let Carlos kneel at his feet in his hotel room for an hour that night. #but Pierre would come find him on the drivers' parade #knock their shoulders together and with a sheepish smile #ask him if he wants to come train at some new boxing gym in milan before monza next week. that lando can come to if he wants #(he doesnt. obviously. but lando tells carlos he thinks he should go. so he does) #They dont talk about him and Lando. But Pierre will smirk at them when he passes by in the paddock now. #which even THAT is to overbearing for carlos. but it's also kind of nice :) #Pierre is still a good 4 months and a drunk crisis call to Carlos from Ibiza to getting there himself but thats another story #blah blah carlos presenting to Pierre as this token of masulinity #him having to reconcile that #carlos and pierre #found this in my drafts? remember hating it never posting it. still kind of do hate it! but the premise is interesting enough #so im getting over myself #and posting it now while the dash is dead. sorry anon from 2 (?) months ago! #carlos #pierre

[flyingspicerack]

mm...

#i think maybe i should take a break from tumblr... #idk... i feel like im becoming a little bit too obsessive #like with everything... with everyones image of me and with everyone and with .... idk im starting to ... #im starting to obsess over every little interaction with everyone i desire to be closer to #and thats... not healthy... ive spend so much time recently worried about if the people i want to be friends with even really like me #and i know they do theyve said as much but ... even with that im still feeling left out and i dont want to feel like that #not that i AM being left out but my brain making me feel as if i am ... and im not sure how to change it other than maybe taking a step bac #im sorry if theres anyone ive made uncomfortable with my interactions #i tend to be very.... forward once someone is nice to me and i dont realize im being too annoying or overbearing so im really sorry if ive #done that to you im really really sorry #so if you dont see me around for a few days this might be why #im still... not sure if ill fully leave but.... #idk if you read this and i HAVENT been overbearing and annoying id really like some reassurance that i havent been ... because somtimes... #its hard to hear all the genuine nice voices over my own mind telling me no one wants me around #sorry if u read this tho.... #spice.txt #spice.vent #i guess its a vent??? tagging in case....

[strwbrymlkshake]

I feel like there's an obsession in me waiting to burst out, but so many horrible things have happened due to that, it's rotting in there. I'm worried.

#mine #yandere #yandere vent #im not even sure if i WANT to be obsessed. its all clouded up in my head nothing makes sense #like my immediate obsessions have migrated from all of them being romance to all of them being plain admiration #which is way way way way WAY better because then no one will think its as creepy. im not a creep. for the love of god #he was such a fucking liar. made me feel safe and then ripped everything out from under me. #OK ANYWAYS thats not the point of this post . i literally cannot tell what my feelings for anyone are anymore. i cant differentiate them #im just waiting for someone to ask me if i Like Him because ive been acting so attached to him but i couldnt give a straight answer. #i dont even know ! yes this vent is caused by a minor inconvenience. ok well its technically bc i wouldnt be able to hang out w him #i dont fucking want to be dependent on him i dont want him to influence my emotions this shit has happened so often it has to be over #still thinking abt the 'you think hes in love with you?? he doesnt even like you' post 💀 #i dont know what my feelings ARE but i know theyre bad ausuaufjfjf i dont wanna be overbearing #im 'less annoying' in the sense i try to barely message him at all. like he doesnt care lol. he probably values me as a friend ig #not sure why im so torn up over this. i doubt we are compatible in the first place but i have the horrible obsession again #i dont feel a particularly strong emotional connection to him ig. like he is nice he is fine but im not insane yandere abt it #more just distressed dere about it –_– i mainly just want him to talk to me and tell me about stuff like thats IT #just respond to my annoying questions. its so sad that im desperate for the bare minimum :/ #genuinely dont know if its a romantic attachment? i feel wrong if i imagine stuff like that. i dont want to be thought of as a freak again #i just want everyone to feel sorry for me!? but no one is gonna wanna hang out with me if im begging for sympathy all the time !!! #i just like his voice and his vocabulary etc a funny guy . but hes my friend so i feel fuckin dirty imagining even mildly romantic things #last time i did that i got called a creep <3 im physically unable to think of that anymore! it feels so disgusting! #im happy because i wont have delusional one sided romances anymore but also upset at the fact i cant imagine situations to make me happy #thats what regular teenagers do. they daydream abt crushes they have. but i cant do that. it feels so horrible #i wanna be like 'omg i love him<3' but i dont know if i do. i really dont know. i cant distinguish love #all my 'crushes' feel like broken watered down messes. they dont make any sense. i want clarity. i want to be healthy for once #i dont know if any of my feelings are real or long lasting ^_^ and if they were they have a 0.0000001 chance of being reciprocated #im not going to lose my mind over this strange feeling again. its happened so many times w so many different people #i ought to be used to it by now! i dont know if i will ever be able to truly be IN LOVE again. im not sure i ever was #💿