#dont get me started on my dad

[bamsara]

being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now

#wish i could tell younger me that i wasnt fucked up i was just autistic #even if youre not nd i still think having things you enjoy around you is important especially for your space #so i make a notable effort to get fandom stuff for my younger siblings now #like my lil sister thinks getting demon slayer stuff is cringe cause anime and what not (havent read it sorry) #but her face still lights up when i get her a pin for her #or a blind bag with a character keychain #and very slowly the self hatred and whatever it feels like that youre not allowed to like anything and that anything you like is bad #starts to diminish #my qpp is obsessed with birds and chickens and has so many trinkets around the house for it #or my friend who loves how pretty stained glass looks that his walls are covered in thrifted stain glass pieces #i know an elderly couple who are obsessed with star trek and they have a room in the house purely for shelves stacked with collectables #my friend's dad is so obsessed with spiderman that he has 3 walls full of figurines and posters and collectables that prob amoutn to tons #like i dont get it but i get it #maybe its because im sick rn but im in my head tonight about human loving things and stories and cocepts to the point of comfort #sara shush #ramble

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

all the rise boys get done dirty on characterization by fandom in different ways i think. (not ALL the time every fanwork etc etc these are just like, trends i tend to notice?) every fandom suffers from losing character nuance.

- leo i’ve talked about plenty on this blog, how some of his canon traits (genuine belief in his skill and cockiness, capacity for joy, his manipulativeness whether for good or ill) seem to get watered down or wiped off the board and supplemented with generic sad boy. his struggles with purpose and identity and not wanting to fail somehow morph into “he hates and completely holds no value for himself”

- donnie’s canon personality gets blurred out and largely replaced with whatever list of Neurodivergent Traits. and i think there’s such a fine line to walk between exploring a character that’s been word of god confirmed as on the spectrum and overwriting what’s canonically there. it’s a hard needle to thread. it also feels like a lot of his canon emotiveness gets left off the table for some reason. bc he does have his moments of flat/deadpan delivery, but a lot of the time he’s honestly very emotive. he has the passion of a theatre kid and the vindictiveness of... also a theatre kid. and the mind of a scientist.

- raph loses so much of his rowdy teen boy energy it’s kind of wild? like interpretations sand off that he’s also impulsive and can be reckless and dumb and LOVES fighting and roughhousing and isn’t the most eloquent person. suddenly there’s this pitch perfect soft boy big bro who would never hurt a fly and always says the exact right supportive thing and singlehandedly raised his 3 brothers (which simultaneously sands off all the nuance of splinter’s issues emotionally connecting with his sons and how that affected all of them). and like i LOVE raph, he’s so full of love and care and anxiety, he clearly has learned to put a lot of work into being aware of his strength and size. but there’s a difference you know?

- mikey is like. where raph gets overparentified by fanon, mikey gets over “family therapist”-ed IMO. the impulsiveness, the goofiness, the powerful emotions including a VERY powerful temper, the flat-out dumb teen boy choices... they get ignored. suddenly there’s this only very sweet and earnest boy who has read a hundred psychology books and runs group family therapy weekly or something. he is crying in his room bc leo and raph are arguing about something. which is so. he IS very sweet and can be very earnest and is full of love! he HAS come in with his opinions and unsolicited advice a couple of times and life coached for the greater good. but there’s a difference between what he does in canon and the role he gets in fanon.

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #idk this is not a very eloquent rundown its very hard to explain exactly my vibe #ig the long story short is i feel like a lot of their most interesting and fun qualities get left in the dust #mikey as family therapist is getting under my skin the most rn i think its just so. #for as much as it seems like his brothers try to shelter him (esp raph with his overprotectiveness)..... i just dont see it #i dont see his brothers and definitely not his dad putting their issues on him like that... #him dragging donnie into that one dr feelings session and dragging draxum into a new moral alignment were different #than 'yeah everyone tells mikey their stuff and he has to do the labor of helping with it' #like it just doesnt vibe for me #i think he is very emotionally OPEN on all levels compared to his family #i think he is more likely to share when HE struggles #i dont think raph or leo is sitting with him at 3am like 'it all started when i was 4 and accidentally broke a plate' or what have you idk #it's all so ymmv i do just scroll past stuff i dont vibe with i dont drop hate on it i just #idk dudes its so hard to see the appeal in some of the choices made

[inkskinned]

this is sort of pathetic, but when you were younger, you were sort of puzzled by the cartoon representations of fathers: how a kid would be outside with a mitt, waiting to play catch.

it's not that your father never played catch with you, but you also didn't like when he did. something about a hard ball coming quickly towards your face doesn't seem exciting. not that you'd ever say you don't trust him. you trust him, right?

it's not like he never tried to teach you anything. or never tried to parent. on rare days, a strange person would walk in your father's skin. bright, happy, magnificent. this version of your father was so cheerful and charismatic that you would do anything to keep him. and this is the version of your father that would laugh and gently coax you try again. this is the version of your father that would break down the small elements of a problem and point them out so you have an easier time with them.

as a kid, those days happened more often. but somewhere around 11, you started being too much of a person, and he was often cross about it. when he'd try to sit you down to learn something, you spent the whole time with your shoulders around your ears, nervous, uncertain. terrified because you didn't immediately understand how to navigate something. worried you will run out of his goodwill and then you will have the Other Father back, and you will have ruined a good day for your entire family. something about you being visibly afraid - it just made him angry. he would accuse you of not wanting to learn and storm away.

on tv, it's not like there's a lot of versions of men-who-are-mostly-fathers. they can be good dads, but usually their stories are not told in the household. so it's normal that your father is there, but he's never around. you know he was in the house, somewhere, it's just not that you guys ever... "hung out". he just seemed to get kind of bored of you, annoyed you weren't made in his perfect image. frustrated with how much energy it took to raise a kid. over time, you kind of adopt a bittersweet band around your throat - he knows nothing about me. he says at least i never abandoned my family.

and it's technically - technically - true. he was there for you. sometimes he even made an effort and made it to the big moments; the graduations and the dance recitals. he grins and tells everyone that he taught you. it almost erases the days in between, where he complains because you need a ride to school. the weeks that go by where he doesn't actually ever speak to you. the times you say i am struggling and he says figure it out on your own. i can't help you.

and that's fine! that's all fine. you can call him if you are having a problem with your car. or if you need a ride to the hospital. he loves playing hero, he just doesn't like the actual work that comes with being a father. and you've kind of made your peace with that; because you had to, because you don't want to live your life like he does; the whole world at a managed distance, a little rotating and controlled orb he can witness and take credit for but never truly love.

as an adult, you are rewatching some dumb cartoon - and again, the child standing in the rain, with a mitt, waiting for their father to come play catch. as an adult, there's this strange creeping dread - this little thing? this little thing, and their dad can't even show up for that? oh god, holyshit, it's not about the mitt, is it. oh god, holyshit, your father spent most of your life leaving you hanging.

#spilled ink #writeblr #:) lol . anybody notice how i write about dads in second person exclusively #me: haha silly cartoon #also me: ): this child is not getting what they need #also btw this is about a father but it might apply to any parent or caregiver #there's a really weird space of like #''this person was technically around me but either ignored me or was actively harmful to me'' #and like u learn this very strange ritual of like... this person is my parent/caregiver on a technicality #that you almost spend all ur time with them like... tiptoeing and acting as THEIR parent so u don't upset them. #like you're 17 and ur mom is suddenly hit by a wave of wanting to talk to you so she's like :) lets make breakfast together :) and ur like #uhhhhhh okay?? bc you feel like this is absolutely going to go wrong and is why u usually make breakfast alone #and she starts being like: THIS is called a TEASPOON ... & u know all this stuff but you also know to just be very quiet #bc if you say like ''mom ive been making this breakfast every day since i was 13'' she would FREAK OUT and be like #DONT ACT LIKE I NEVER DO ANYTHING FOR YOU DONT ACT LIKE I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL . #so u have to smile like ur a preschool teacher and be like. OH COOL! i didn't know A CUP existed! tell me MORE! :)

[thekingofspin]

I'm watching hazbin hotel now after telling myself for weeks that I would not watch that show.

problem is I can't get through a full episode without clicking off because I keep telling myself I won't do it (even though it's good??)

it's like having the internalised homophobia of a guy in the 1950s but I'm already fucking the postman

#its so good though and i need to get over this avoidence and fast because im just ruining my own enjoyment #i loved helluva boss so why should i refuse to watch this?? #and also the songs are so good #loser baby #hells greatest dad #and you didnt know #chefs kiss #AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HUSKERDUST #ITS SO CUTE #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin angel dust #huskerdust #hazbin husker #vivziepop #helluva boss

[vampiriccreature]

I think about Dadgil au’s ALL the time, as sad as it is that Vergil never got to raise Nero it now gives me so many ideas for “what if” situations so here are some of my favs:

- Classic Vergil raising Nero as a baby, total teen dad that is emotionally unstable having to be there for a kid. Vergil abandoning his search for power due to the sense of responsibility he had for raising a kid. Vergil would by no means be an amazing father but I think he’d try.

- Vergil discovers Nero when Neros already a bit grown but not an adult. Like Vergil gets out of hell or whatnot and runs into a 10-15 year old Nero at the orphanage and raises him from then on. Just a lot of Nero teen angst and “You’re not my father,” and “You weren’t there when I was younger so you have to earn my respect,” type shit.

- Vergil raising Nero as a baby but disappearing when he’s older. Similar to the first where he steps up as a a dad and abandons his search for power and the such but when Neros older something happens to Vergil like he gets trapped in hell or demons kill/kidnap him and Neros still a child but of course remembers his father. I think if he knows/thinks Vergil was killed he’d become so deadset on revenge it would destroy any chance he had at teenhood. Meanwhile if it’s just a “Vergil disappears mysteriously” situation then Nero would be so conflicted on if his Dad abandoned him or not. I like this idea a lot since it’s similar to what happened to Vergil with him thinking his mother abandoned him but she didn’t and it wasn’t her fault.

Those are the main versions of Dadgil that cross my mind of course but if you have any other ideas or wanna add onto mine pleaseee do, these guys infect my mind.

#dmc #dmc headcannon #dadgil #vergil #vergil headcannon #dmc vergil #devil may cry #nero #dmc nero #baby nero #dadgil aus are better then any other au idgaf #i wanna see a mess of a teen dad Vergil trying his best despite everything #i didnt mean to have this child but by god I will make sure he’s not a abandoned like i was #also dont even get me started on dadgil with trans nero ohhh my gos

[kheprriverse]

Upcoming Ballad changes 👀?

#loz au #wip #Ballad (Kheprriverse) #they/he #thinking about his design a lot more >> just how some things came to be #as I change FD I also change Ballad since theyre kinda linked (lol) #the white in their hair also changed a bit. more prominent + starts on left side of their usual part #but him in his main casual outfit + the green half-tunic is now just a cloth #switched his belt coz thats been bothering the fuck outta me #also changing his biggoron sword because that fucker cant have a single consistent design #yknow after all the trouble i went through making its oh ref twice #scarred eye is now his left (he’s left handed) + starts where the eye is for uh. lore. #also he doesnt close his eye often anymore. tho i may give him some sorta patch to cover it… not sure yet. probably wont #i’ll get to his armor eventually. that ones gotta take a lot of thinking. #ballad’s kind of the main character so I do wanna get their design how i want #they’re justa dad who wants to get everything done with so they can go back to their wife and son #*dont worry about the weird coloration in one spot. i use an auto action to auto-color my line art before i go in manually* #Kheprriart

[hayaku14]

kuroba toichi you need to stay dead or im going to fucking kill you myself

#you sick son of a bitch #if you truly love your son you wouldnt be alive #it's bad enough that you basically left the mantle for your teenage son to take up but you actually being alive???????? #you just out there living your life while your son is destroying his relationships chasing after something that you started???????? #his very motivation is your death and it's not even real??? the utter fucking betrayal??? #and maybe being kid has kade him a better magician and has helped him find out more about himself #but he shouldve been able to have a choice if he even wanted to be kid at all it shouldnt have been a responsibility pushed upon him #AND IF YOU ARE FUCKING ALIVE AND YOU'RE JUST WATCHING YOUR SON RUNNING AWAY FROM THE POLICE WITH PRIDE INSTEAD OF GUILT YHEN YOU CAN #GO FUCK YOURSELF #Honestly the worst #also that theory that maybe chikage is travelling the world because she KNOWS toichi is alive and she's with her elevates this fuckery into #a whole different level #anyway go read cuethesun's tomorrow and the next day #good fucking food and bad parent chikage and toichi enjoyers will be pleased ;> #lol #dc prattles #as much as i want happy everybody is alive kuroba family #i need touichi and chikage if she knows too to feel the repercussions of their horrible parenting and i need kaito to be able to let himself #feel the hurt and betrayal that he is justified to feel even if he is happy that his dad is alive #but i dont trust gosho to handle that nicely if anything i think hes gonna just handwave it and wont address it properly #anyway my point is i just need more hurt and angry kaito also if shinichi is there im happy #sorry i sneaked in a kaishin i cant stop the brainrot unfortunately theres no cure 🤚😔 #ALSO DONT GET ME STARTED WITH BAD PARENT KUDOS OOOOOHHHH

[sherbetyy]

my reaction to ppl hating on some human designs for the main 3 bc they aren’t conventionally attractive 🖕🖕

#I SEE A BUNCH OF HATE ON SOME PLATFORMS (reddit mostly)IF RED IS PLUS SIZE. LIKE BRO HE HAS A DAD BOD OK ???????? #don’t even get me started on people’s reactions to most newer duck designs. i love the senile old man look so much and it’s so fitting #i love you gray hairs i love you chubbiness i love you facial hair i love you wrinkles love the fact that they aren’t all 20 #and honestly. if you don’t see them that way that is totally ok cuzit’s your thing. just don’t go around telling people theirs aren’t good. #everyone has their own interpretation of them because that’s the whole point of dhmis #while the ones i described are my favorite i still like the others. i love people’s visions and creativity even if i don’t agree. #i love when people see yellow guy as an old guy too but absolutely no hate on people who see him as a child you guys are cool too okay?? #i hate the the whole “STOP IT HES 38!!” and “NO HES 9!!” fight. it’s so dumb. it is supposed. to. be. interpreted HOW U WANT IT DONT MATTER #it’s useless to fight about just be respectful u guys #i love you all ok? #stay awesome. #dhmis #don’t hug me i’m scared #yellow guy #duck dhmis #duck guy #duck #red guy #fav #puppetry #dont hug me im scared #dhmis humanized #dhmis human

[queenofbaws]

i will not stand here and say the quarry's writing is perfect by any means, but man. that moment. in the beginning. when chris absolutely loses his shit and you see every last one of the hacketteers freeze..............shocked, wide-eyed, so taken aback they don't move even to look at each other.............

and then, realizing what just happened, chris scrambles frantically to grab hold of the situation again. he tries to grin at ryan ("tries" being the keyword), he tosses him the keys like nothing's wrong. he tries to go back to being mr. h - he does, he tries so hard - and finally when ryan talks to him, there's what waver in his voice. that absolute lack of understanding in his eyes. ryan's not just surprised, he's not just shocked......for a second there, he is scared, and chris sees that, realizes it, and peels out of there before anyone can say anything else. just.....

JUST............

i think that moment is 100% the moment i realized UH OH I THINK I LOVE CHRIS HACKETT because that's when we see the counselors have been around this guy for two whole months (some of them even longer, possibly), and not once. not once!!!!!!!!!!! had they realized who he really was.

ugh. UGH. i LOVE IT.

#queenie rambles about supermassive #dont even get me started on the flashback with him and travis in the station either #we as the audience like. ONLY see chris at his worst. from the beginning he's grumpy. he's vaguely suspicious. he's screaming into a car. #but the hacketteers SO CLEARLY have not seen him like that. not even once. even when dylan jokes about the sex dungeon... #you know it's tongue in cheek on his part - trying to get a response from ryan #i just. gfdi i know i always end up feeling the most attached to the characters with literally the least screentime of all but i love chris #i really really ReaLLY love the idea of this guy who puts on the happy wholesome corny dad face #only to turn around and be eeeeevery bit as unpleasant as the rest of the family turns out to be #AGAIN! THE SCENE WITH TRAVIS IN THE FUCKING STATION!!! #this is probably just because im replaying tq and getting back into writing #the hacketts #but fuck me. FUCK ME. the thought of mr. h and chris hackett being two very separate characters is just. so. good. #anyway i'm in a totally normal place re: my mental health lately. how about you guys.

[cowboy-robooty]

dude can you please do a face reveal i need to see what you look like. or draw yourself. im so curious im sorry ok bye have a good day

yes i do look like the most sterotypical asian man imaginable. yes i am a biology major. yes i use reddit. yes im an incel. yes my favorite subjects are math and biology. yes i wore polo shirts through all of middle school. yes i am blind without my glasses. yes the lenses are so fucking thick they stick out of the frames. yes i have racist huge front buck-teeth. yes i am abnormally short. yes im a shitty driver. dont ask me about my penis.

#i put two vers bc i have a half failed stache going on #but like people either notice it immediately or dont at all until someone says something then they cant unsee it #im a late bloomer and its been getting thicker recently but not enough to shave yk? #also started developing a hint of a master shifu thang under my lip but a tiny hint nothin special yet #i have eternal asian youth btw okay know that as a highschool senior in my mixed classes some thought i was a middle schooler #bc my highschool was mixed with middleschoolers #when i go to restaurants outside the asian community i get handed the kids menu sometimes #wieners friends saw a photo of me hanging with him 2 months ago and asked why he was hanging with an 11 year old #everytime i tell people my age theyre surprised its hell on fucking earf #dont even get me started on what happened in barnes n noble when i was buying my chinese yaoi (shoutout to those who remember when dat) #ask #also i am 4'11 and that is normal for my family my mom n dad are like 5'1 n 5'2

[verycoolandcreativename]

hello. father posting

if you dont recognize one of the adopted kids - it's because that's my oc x) hoho

#dont be surprised if one day ill just #start rambling about him and all my headcanons THAT MAKE SENSE #i get him like no other mkay #he's so autistic coded it hurts #i am so happy whenever i talk about him god help me #genshin impact #zhongli #zhongli fanart #genshin art #dad zhongli #because i said so #ALSO EVERYONE WHO FOLLOWED ME FOR TADC CONTENT SOON MORE ART I PROMISE </3

[fishtank32]

Lmk doodle page that turned into a dragonfruit doodle page. I love them sm.

#lego monkie kid #dragonfruit shipping #mei lmk #red son #red son lmk #hope u guys know i do a big dramatic sigj before starting all the mandatory tags or whatever #i roll my eyes and sigh like someones dissapointed dad #i think these two r so cute tho. they jusg make each other worse lmao😭 #everything is a competition between them. everything. #idk i started lmk w s3 and seeing them bond over the samadhi fire like chemically altered my brainwaves. #everything abt lmk did that to me tbh #like this show sees my absolute lack of a father figure and is like 'yeah.. yeah i think we're going to exploit that' #every time sweet calls mk kid or buddy or smth i just wanna dieeeeeeeeee aaaaa and pigsy? dont get me fucking started #WHEN HE CALLS MK SON???? GODSDDDDDHDKAH asbhddggfejehsbananshsduf u rh #AND MACAQUE???? OH MY GOD THATS IT THATS IT IM RETIRINGGG #he may have done horrible things i dont rlly care i wish that six eared monkey was my dad #what a fucking sentence. anyways. toddles. bye. goodnight. idfk love you

[natjennie]

anyone else out here a middle child saddled with eldest daughter responsibilities?

#a bumper sticker that says 'middle-child neglect and eldest-child duties' #i want to believe it started when my older sister moved out but. lets be real. it's always been me. #i am genuinely acting care-giver to my chronically ill younger sister while my dad watches basketball on the couch #and my mom doesnt get out of bed. #like. my mom is pretty sick too and works all day and does most of the housekeeping too #so i dont blame her at all. #i mean i guess my dad works all day but. for real king you can't get up off the couch to support your daughter crying and heaving #no that falls to me. yeah yeah I'll get her a drink and make sure she takes her meds. #what's that? yeah I'll rub her back and run a cloth under the sink and bring her something to eat too. #oh? yes fine I wont take a gummy so i wont sleep because she's in a flare up and needs them more than me #to be clear!! I'm not blaming her either like clearly she feels like shit and she feels guilty all the time #i just. some amount of help from anyone else. or at least maybe. idk A DAY I can rest when i feel like shit #but oh- no- she's coughing up bile again. yep I'll come bring a bucket.

[anotherpapercut]

yesterday I drove around a parking lot a little and parked a car twice which may seem like nothing but thats literally the first time I've ever been behind the wheel

#on Saturday my friend taught me to skip rocks and then yesterday he started taching me to drive #we joked that hes like my dad lmao. i dont have a dad so the closest i can get is my one and only cishet guy friend

[todayisafridaynight]

i think it should be illegal for characters to have the same names as other characters in different things, because i had a wild few seconds reading the adachi and dojima making out ask until i realized it wasn't about rgg

need jin and shintaro kazama to meet in the pit to fight for the right to the kazama family name

#snap chats #but real shit LMAOOOOOOO #ryuji/ryuji..... dojima/dojima ..... adachi/adachi.... dont even get me STARTED on makoto jesus christ. common ass name. #i always think of doing goofy persona x rgg posts cause of that tho. cause i get an excuse to crossover my fave stuff vjelarkjgerlk #rgg dojima x adachi could be the most cursed old man yaoi we ever seen. daigo how do you feel bout a cop being your dad

[haunted-xander]

Meeting Meteion was like encountering the second-hand blorbo of a friend after having finally gotten into the media they're really into except the second-hand blorbo is from my dad

#prior to me starting the game my dad would not shut up about meteion he REALLY likes her #thats his depression birb daughter #i know a lot about meteion i am absolutely NOT supposed to at this point lmaooo #but its okay shes cute and sweet #actually playing through ffxiv is really fun when ive been partially exposed to so many things over the course of many years #(courtesy of my dad and partially my big sib) #is really fun bc i had no context for any of it before #so now i get to see things and go #'OOOOH so THATS where its from' #or #'oh wait ive seen this before!!' #its so fun #especially since most of the major spoilers ive been exposed to are very disconnected #it means i usually dont have any idea when/how itll be relevent #srry for rambling btw my brain is all thoughts head full rn #meteion #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #endwalker #xander rambles #screenshot