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yeonban · 1 month

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from ash . me &. the bestie ! ✌️ :P ( < - - - guy who irritates the crap out of ash )

* kind of conditional for the spoiling one , bc soaking up tobias’ resources &. funds is hilarious sometimes , but too much &. ash’ll start rejecting it . especially if nothing is asked in return . 🙄

* betrayal is also conditional because ash works on a “ don’t betray me / give me a reason to betray you &. i won’t ” basis . so it depends on tobias really . betrayal from ash’s side would be unlikely almost impossible if tobias was able to achieve ash’s loyalty in the first place , but that’s a matter of if , so ! depends !

Are you Tobias' type?

❛ Hm? ❜ While the amount of checked boxes and the feat of achieving (multiple) bingos fall short of a surprise given the person who's completed them - for had they truly been that different from one another, Tobias would never have taken this longstanding of an interest in Ash -, his eyes immediately dart to what appears to be a small, typically unobtrusive note at the bottom of the card. Without it there, perhaps he would have found it more compelling to contemplate the meaning behind having been willingly handed something of this sort, but as things stand, Tobias' gaze falls on the minuscule comment and after a single, reticent blink, the nonchalance in his expression cracks and the corners of his mouth begin to twitch. ❛ Pfft--- ❜ It isn't long until he caves and laughs, and a finger must soon reach to wipe the tears that threaten to form in his eyes.

It takes a prolonged moment for the laughter to subside (through rather monumental efforts on his part) yet even after it fades, the glint of amusement in Tobias' gaze remains steadfast, unwavering. ❛ You should go ahead and check the 'similar sense of humor ' box too. I'd say the difference isn't quite as big as you think it is. ❜ One last soft chuckle, the previous laughter's final bastion, and the mafioso decides to swiftly gloss over Ash's answers. The majority of the important ones are checked, with the sole exception of being trusted, and dare he say another one has also positively caught him off-guard, but instead of letting it show, a mischievous grin steers the conversation towards the harmless, unchecked ones. Travel and adventure. Does Ash dislike them because of past experiences, a distaste for new experiences, or because he's the one he'd have to be stuck with for the entire experience? ❛ Are you sure you don't want to give some of these others a go, though? If you combine everything you've left unchecked, you might just give Dino a heart attack. ❜

#muse: tobias.#effigist #* tobias. / ic.#PLEAAASEJNKADSJIASDIASDISUADISH TOBIAS BURST OUT LAUGHING THE /SECOND/ HE READ THAT 'LMFAAAAOO'#I couldn't reply til now bc he was TOO busy having a haha and a hehe and a lol and a roflmao 😭😭😭#I find it very interesting that Tobias' view of Ash differs from Ash's own tho. Might be bc of the people they compare him to but #in Tobias' eyes Ash IS kind whereas Ash didn't check that box. I'm assuming Ash compares himself to the general population who's #committed no crime/isn't as jaded etc meanwhile Tobias compares him to their entourage/the underground which Ash is NOT fit for in HIS eyes #case on point he doesn't trust Tobias but he wouldn't betray him unless betrayed first... Tobias at this logic: ??#he's appreciative of it and it's one of the things he really likes abt Ash but also an unkind person would Jump at the chance to betray sb #they don't trust. w this in mind tho I don't think Tobias would ever betray Ash either. specifically bc of This. it's rare to find ppl who #are actually trustworthy & while he doesn't exactly need anything from Ash it's SO much easier to be around him than ppl w ulterior motives #ALSO ABOUT TOBIAS' LAST REMARK for the past few days he's been thinking about getting Ash on a ride in his newest car which.#idk if you've read about it but a flying car has been authorized recently. and to no one's surprise Tobias bought it SO fast #hence the adventure part. 😭 travel would also be hilarious if he didn't tell Dino and found a way to take Ash (&possibly his men) overseas #He's not even going to bother thinking about the judging check box bc somehow now it's become funny. Ash can judge him all he wants

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tardis--dreams · 3 months

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Got my employment contract and it sounds so annoying already

#im selling my body and soul to serve the company #for minimum wage #and there's some really sloppy mistakes in there too #they didn't even get the paragraphs in order #they go 9 10 11 12 11 14 #get it together #and one paragraph just says 'the employee has to undergo an exam upon request' and while this is infuriating enough #someone didn't even proofread that sentence because it doesn't make any sense grammatically #and the beginning and the end of the sentence don't match #you'd either have to adjust the beginning or leave out a word in the end in order to make sense #and that's currently bothering me the most because wtf this is a legal document and you cannot even proofread it #if i make an mistake like this im sure id get some very angry feedback #also decided that i don't want the job badly enough to undergo anything i deem unnecessary #im sure it's nothing dramatic but if they wanna do something i don't want ill accept getting fired lol #also gotta inquire about whether it's okay for me to have another mini job in April and May or if they're against it #('the employee has to dedicate their entire work performance to the company and has to get permission to have any #other paid or unpaid (!) commitments including volunteer work')#(what. should i also ask whether i can function as a 'buddy' for international students since it's a commitment and not technically #free time?? (i understand the not having other paid jobs part but UNPAID stuff? like it's any of their business. killing them honestly)#anyway #i'll shut up now #(my mother has been feeling sick and last year this also ended up in Me throwing up for 3 days straight #and guess what #i can see how tonight is gonna go ♡ i will be complaining ♡ (not me literally wishing for something like this when i had my #little ed relapse recently. im sorry body. i take it back. this sucks so bad i do not actually want it)#vois screams

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solomon-tozer · 9 months

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#it was my birthday yesterday #and it was not very nice lol #hardly anyone remembered and said anything #first time in my life not getting a card from my uncle too #my mother also didn't bother to send or leave me a card which... well okay i guess #she has everyone's birthday in her calendar apart from mine and her own (she detests her birthday)#my dad didn't get me anything either but he did buy some food to bbq and spend a few hours with me so that's okay #then i was just gonna chill on my own at home with the cats but my ex fucked that up ofc #then got mad at me for being upset and crying #so yeah yet to have a birthday where i don't end up in tears :')#i hate this so much i want a do-over #i cherish the things i did get i need to see if i can print one of them so i can gaze lovingly at it #but ugh when a server i've been in for over 10 years doesn't even remember... hurts kinda #i don't feel worth much to anyone at all #rhubarb crumbles #i have not been okay lately (well for a while) lol #i also wish i knew what was going on with my uncle #it's been a good few days and my dad hasn't heard anything back #no one's got in touch with him with news either #but my dad said he sounded really bad and - for the first time ever - scared #i don't like not knowing #anyway gonna curl up bc i'm cold and haven't got anything to eat so it's all fun and games #might watch more terror i was doing an armitage watch #which is just watching all the episodes he's in

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apollo-cackling · 1 year

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not trying to be mean but honestly any sentiment that's like "[non-Traditional form/genre of literature*] raised my bar for queer representation so much I can't ever return to Published Books because it's all bad straight stuff/straight people writing queerness/etc" is kind of distasteful to me now. they're there. there's literally plenty** out there now if you just look.

[edit: I want to clarify that I don't think published books are inherently better than any other forms of literature and that I'm not trying to say people should always aspire to have a media diet of only 100% Published Literature (the assumptions inherent in which create a false dichotomy anyway bc plenty of published queer books I've read are fun romps whose themes are incidental to the main goal of being fun)

I just dislike the sentiment I've seen around that mainstream queer stuff is either just subtext or written Inauthentically because it's just. untrue. and it cedes ground to queerphobic people saying the only ground queer stories can occupy is artless smut/popcorn trash with no meaning (which isn't a bad thing to be in and of itself, but it's hardly like queerness can't be artistic)]

The Darkness Outside Us came out last year. Ophelia After All came out this year. The Honeys came out this year. the second book of Burning Kingdoms came out this year. Zachary Ying came out this year. Delilah Green came out this year. This is Why They Hate Us came out this year. And that's just the few on my 'anticipated of 2022' GR shelf (+ The Darkness Outside Us because goddamn that book was good).

it's completely fine to be dissatisfied with how the publishing industry (/mainstream media but I'm mostly read so) is! I also have many gripes with it! but it just feels distasteful to demean Published Books on the whole as if it (/other mainstream media but again see above) is a monolith and diminish the the very queer queer books by queer - gender and sexuality - authors (Ocean Vuong, Akwaeke Emezi, Victoria Lee, CB Lee, Ashley Herring Blake, Shaun David Hutchinson, need I go on?)

it's mostly a massive pet peeve of mine but it just feels kinda. lazy? obviously if something like this's post date was like 2010 or if it was a situation where access not awareness is the problem etc that's a different situation but like. most of the posts/tweets/etc I've seen of this are recent and most of them have the tone of "it's perfectly safe for me to read/watch queer media I just couldn't find any" which

I really started reading queer books in 2020ish. I googled 'queer fantasy' (because I like fantasy) and found a bunch of different booklists, took a few recs and just started there. I found lgbtqreads. I followed a few queer folks on GR (once you look through a certain type of books' reviews a few common names start popping up) and noted down the books they were reading and now I have a bunch of queer books that I need to get around to.

I just. if you're into books there's plenty of queer books literally right there (and recently enough big publishers have started publishing them that they're appearing in libraries too). it's not a dichotomy. you don't have to read Published Books if you don't want to but it's not all straight there goddammit. and this isn't even bringing up self-published books

#*fanfic，d/nmei (chinese bl) etc #<- to avoid maintagging #**still not a lot on a percentage basis of total books published (aside from self pub) yeah publishing industry bad but still plenty #in general I dislike the idea that any category of media is inherently anything #also the phrase 'd/nmei raised the bar for queer stories for me' is a bit funny to me bc. these are webnovels. most of them 80+ chapters #and like from what I've seen most of them are either 100ish or 300ish chapters #I don't think they've really gotten popular until recently either too so I doubt most folks have fully read more than two lol #imagine if I watched bloom into you and said 'anime changed queer stories for me' lol #the specific post I saw that got me to put this into words was this one post on the d/nmei subreddit about how reading western quote 'BL'#feels off compared to d/nmei bc they felt like badly written wattpad fics and unrealistic wrt queerness which I was side-eyeing pretty hard #eh it bothered me for a few reasons. some of them I think are fair - the ones I made this post for #some of them I'm not sure is fair which is why they're in the tags #specifically that the specific post reminded me of the stereotype of the straight girl completely uninterested in the messiness and #complexities of queerness or exploring queerness at all (unless it's aestheticised suffering) and just wants to see pretty boys together #but I'm not sure how fair that is because I'm not transmasc and I'm not mlm lol #anyway yea lol #my rambles #queer stuff #media #10n

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pettydisco · 10 months

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#putting this in the tags anyway because it feels like we're whispering lol #but like #i truely don't don't give a shit if you don't like a certain character that a part of the fandom likes #just don't go up to those peoples spaces and ruin their fun over it like youre stepping on their barbies #and i dont care about the people that woobify them either #to the same effect of the character haters #just don't go into other people's houses and preach about it #but what does bother me is the people that complain about the woobifaction of the character because they have negative traits #but then turn around and woobify a different character with similar negative traits just as much #but continue to complain about the woobifing of this one character that they don't like just ugh #have a wee bit of self reflection #sorry hypocritical people just annoy me like no other #this isn't about a specific post or person btw #just with all the shit flying around from all sides about jeanhate rn is making my eyes glaze over and groan from absorbing it all #i dont caaaare #i just want to play with my stupid fictional barbies at the internet daycare #i don't want to carw about this aaaahg #but I'll pass over something that really tickles my blood boiling button #anyways my apologies #pettythots

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keeps-ache · 1 year

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i have to make EVERYTHING around here >:|

#just me hi #i WANT a brush that sprinkles arcade-carpet pattern but the only one i found costs MONEY #i don't HAVE that #what i DO have is SPITE however #enough of it to spend 30+ minutes making a brush that'll MAYBE be up to my own tastes #it's either that or i lose my mind trying to draw perfect circles and triangles and squiggles and all kinds of things #but i don't liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiike making brushesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss #idk how brushes work!!! all i know is they look a way when you use them and that's IT #but i AM going to be bothered if i can't get this GOT. DARN. PATTERn #auhghghh #//if it sounds like i'm really peeved i'm Not i'm just Kind of Annoyed lol #i Must be a little dramatic sometimes or i will DIE #//but yeah HHHHHH i DISLIKE brush making #high-five to you people who do #void i know you do. high-five dude #//URGHHHH ok imma go do it now loll #drama minute over we are going to deal with this like reasonable persons .`w .👍

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britneyshakespeare · 1 year

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i have to be honest. i was filling in for a third grade book club this morning and i read up to the first seven chapters of the book (which is where they were) while i was on my half-hour break and i was thinking. man i do not agree with some of the messages in this book lmao.

#third grade angels by jerry spinelli #the cool teacher character tells them they're ALL responsible because two kids ripped up a woman's hat #fighting over who would give it back to her so they could be 'angels'#i get explaining intervene-when-you-see-something-wrong to children #but literally what could a child have done to intervene that wouldnt escalate that situation with their classmates?#tales from diana #there are some interesting messages in the book. i dont love the writing style (I GET IT'S JUVENILE ON PURPOSE it just bothers me lol)#(it's not the age demographic that it's clearly targeted to that bothers me. it's the tone. it tries to be cool in some weird ways)#(cant really explain wo going into page specifics... take my word for it it's weird)#but one of the things about being an adult working w children is telling them to mind their business sometimes. lmao #like if two children are getting into an argument--even if one child is clearly instigating it--you want the ADULTS to handle it or #for the kids themselves to work it out. you don't want to expand the situation outward. bc usually the kids aren't mature enough to handle #it on their own. understandably!#and these quarrels often end up distracting the whole class and you want to prevent THAT just as much as the quarrel itself.#but the whole class in that book scene was either fighting to do this woman a favor or just ignoring it #and ignoring it is frankly what they should've done #just let the woman pick up her own damn hat #idk it's a weird book #unrelated but on recess duty one of my after school kids from last year told me how much she misses me :'''''')#i miss them all too. my after school job was awesome. it didn't have enough hours to justify doing it forever but i loved it #my boss was a pretty good man too #he's retiring at the end of the year + so is one of my coworkers who i talked to today on recess duty #it was also nice to catch up w her. love talking 2 sherry.

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frodolives · 5 months

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👸🏻 girlbossladyjane Follow

It really makes me sick to see people giving money to penny weeklies when Franklin's expedition STILL has not been found 😭 There are good men out there trapped in unimaginable temperatures and literally all that's needed is a little more funding for another rescue mission yet all you guys seem to care about are your vulgar little stories...

🧔🏻‍♂️ queerqueg Follow

the franklin expedition is dead as hell

👸🏻 girlbossladyjane Follow

Disgraceful thing to say but I'd expect nothing more from a M*lville fan

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Sorry for posting so much about Tom Gradgrind/James Harthouse from Hard Times lately. It turns out that I was getting arsenic poisoning from my wallpaper? Anyway I took a seaside stroll and I'm normal now. Check your walls y'all

#whyyy did i assume they were committing unlawful actions together like where did i even get that from lol #hard times isn't even that good by dickens standards tbh

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🎨 asherbrowndurand

Just painted this

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RIP Napoleon... you may have been unable to conquer Alexander's Russia but you sure as hell conquered Alexander's bed

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HERITAGE POST

📝 shakespearesforehead Follow

How does this have less than 100k notes you could literally not avoid this post back in the 20s lol

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🌄 loyalromantic Follow

poets just aren't dying young in mysterious water-related incidents like they used to :/

#as useless and degenerative as i find 'the living poets' and i'm glad we're finally moving on from them #i have to agree with op in this respect

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🎀 thefopdiaries Follow

I finally got a daguerreotype of myself ^_^ Porcelain urn for scaling

📜 bartlebi-thescrivener

i think i hauve consumption

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🐋 whaler4life

They found oil in the ground??? WTF. THIS IS LITERALLY THE WORSTTTT. FUCK MY LIFE FOR REAL THIS TIME

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🌿 naturesnaturalist Follow

I swear this website has 0 reading comprehension skills. Darwin NEVER claimed we "evolved" from apes like if one of you guys actually bothered to open his new book you'll see all his arguments are backed up by evidence. He actually makes a lot of sense

#sure there's nuance like i don't fully agree with all of it #but his general theory of natural selection seems pretty sound imo

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Of course these are the finalists lmao this website is so predictable. Anyway vote Heathcliff if you dont i'm going to assume you're a phrenologist

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It's not problematic to acknowledge the fact that Heathcliff was a brute like he literally killed dogs in case you forgot. #rochestersweep

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I love the implication here that Rochester never did anything cruel either. He literally locked his wife in the attic and lied to Jane about it 😭 like that was a pretty significant thing that happened

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And? God forbid women do anything

#why'd you have to pit two bad bitches against each other #anyway i'm not attracted to men but still went with rochester #bc in terms of living quarters thornfield hall > wuthering heights easily

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Not the Russian tsar dying immediately after hartgrind became canon

#i know dickens hasn't technically confirmed it yet but like. SOMETHING was strongly implied ok #see: my previous post #dickensposting

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

LORD HELP ME. THE BODY LANGUAGE. THE WAY THEY'RE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER. AHHHHHH

#this installment!!! im-- #dickensposting #i can't fucking cope #dickens wants to KILL us he wants us DEAD....

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⭐️ newamerican

Hi guys sorry I haven't been posting lately it's been so difficult getting to California 💀 I'm finally here now though just need to find a pickaxe and soon I'll be digging! :-) wish me luck lol

#gold #gold rush #gold rush grind #california #adventure

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biteapple · 30 days

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I'm working with someone new lately (her partner is out for the week) and she and I used to get along but ACTUALLY working alongside her..... really bothering me. And I think we're really bothering one another honestly

#She's VERY particular but she also won't communicate and we're both prone to freaking out #And when I work w someone who also freaks out I try and be the one who calms us down but..uhh..#It's not working with her .. she's taking the job at hand VERY seriously and also hates help #And she doesn't like starting anything until everything possible can be prepared #Even the stuff that's done AFTER this step is done. That needs prepping too w her #And I ask where I can help and she tells me she's not ready yet.. so.. I just twiddle my thumbs #There's no room for 'I forgot can you watch this while I grab it' she gets frustrated #Sorry.. I'm forgetful and also don't put any mental stock into this job anymore lol...#And if somethings going wrong she NEVER thinks herself or the person she's working with could be at fault #She's like 'well.. *I* like to be confident in the work we do.. it's THEIR fault'#And I'm like... it COULD be us.. either way I want to solve the problem #And she takes this as an attack.. I don't know.. she bothers me now..#She self-confessedly hates most people who work here .. and I like it for all the people. Idk #She cares more about the work than the people she works with. And I can't really get with that

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godmademewithoutarms · 4 months

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I tell myself I don't have abandonment issues but I ignore people when I feel unloved/unwanted by them

#i uh. don't really care how unhealthy this is #'just tell them!' lmao yeah sure because people would love to hear #'hey I feel like u don't love me or want me so I'm just gonna pretend you don't exist until I feel like u like me as much as i like u again'#i don't even think people realize how often I do this either #which doesn't really bother me honestly lol #zero's thoughts

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birdmenmanga · 5 months

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oughhh yesterday's potion was too strong... I get why the servings are so small now. in all the videos it was all about a cup (US customary units) per serving... I'd wager I drank about 3 cups (US customary units). I didn't end up sleeping until 6 AM and it was the cottoniest sleep I've ever gotten in a while. there are still balls of cotton stuck in my head. I had a nightmare about an overwhelming amount of school assignments I had forgotten to upload onto canvas. the math problems were about decimal places (NOT a difficult concept) but I felt so scared and intimidated about it. horrible experience. delicious tea but I think I can't drink it after 12 PM

#just thinking thoughts...#which is not good. I have not woken up that early in a LONG time #I want to drink it though... hmm...#it feels like more caffeine than most teas I drink but less than the few coffees I had #because I didn't really notice it until I noticed I wasn't tired #whereas for coffee I can feel the uncomfortable jitter quite soon after drinking #guy who can't even handle caffeine! ! ! how am I meant to handle literally anything in my life. it's good I don't drink #I wager I couldn't handle that either.#Hmm but it's such a bother making just one cup. I think I need to figure out a good way of storing it so I can make a big batch at once.#I also do not have a good strainer. lol.#hmm...

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chrisbangs · 8 months

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#i'm fine btw lol #i talk a lot abt killing myself for someone who's probably not gonna do it #tried before and it famously didn't work . which is why y'all have to suffer and deal with me now 😻#but it's fine i won't do it #i will just dream abt doing it until i die fr one day #hopefully sooner rather than later #such is my life . life fucking sucks i hate being alive etc etc #nothing tethering me to lifeeeeee and that's fine i've come to understand that nothing remains meaningful to me apparently #i need to put my head in the oven or smth #damn dude i should just kms but it's like . 😮‍💨 you know . hard to think it might not work again etc etc #lol idk #school is starting again and i've never been more suicidal in my life i think like wow #i really do not want to do this ... but it's cool 🫂 who cares #i'll suck it up and get the fuck over myself and deal with #like either i do it or i get kicked out.. i don't really have much of a choice 😮‍💨🤲 so #anyway... i'm fine really... it doesn't matter anyway... even if i wasn't bc there's literally nothing to do abt it so why bother #i'm going to go and try to stomach some food bc i've been throwing up everything i've been eating bc of how stressed i am #and then i'll just . lie down on the floor and patiently wait for tmmr #i'm really tired 👍 like beyond the regular usage of the word tired.. m fucking exhausted...#blah blah blah wah wah wah my life sucks you guys are sick of this so i will shut up but i think i'm not gonna be super active on here #anymore bc of school so 🫡 just figured i would log out but im sad so who i be if i didn't make some depressing text post abt killing myself #before i did. that 👍 jrjrjdkdkdkd lol #dl #neg

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justonefeather · 1 year

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I don't even romanticise cutting anymore like I don't think it will solve anything, it's just the physical craving, makes me think of quitting nic, my chest feels hollow and full of scribbles and my arms feel empty and like i want to tear into them with sharp objects, i want the cold and the thin pain and the red and the release, i want it so badly and other areas don't Feel the same it's not like i can go to my leg or my shoulder, I've tried those, it's not good enough.. Why does this feel like the only thing that works, nothing makes the pain stop and that's all I want even if it's temporary, anything would be anyway, but it makes other people upset and uncomfortable so I can't, but what are they even going to to about my pain!! Nothing!!!! But I have to suffer in silence for other people's comfort always, otherwise they will hurt me for not hiding it

#Ya this needs a readmore #Very specific si mention in this one this is an actual warning in a serious not joking way #Like i want to be told this is somewhat reasonable I'm not a fucking freak for this #But i know this isn't normal either so I. Idk. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. Sometimes it feels like i don't at all #Like I'm just going to be a bother i can't do that make it hard for people to want to be around me because I'm so fucking awful #I try to just be unintrusive and not too much and it wears on me so much but no one cares lol so why should I #Why not let myself break? No one else will care until i do. Until they see. And even then? Probably not really #Because it's always my fault everything is my fault if only I could be better if only I could have never been born at all #Not going to do anything to try to end my life. Just wish I could have never existed in the first place. Would be better for everyone

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princessofmarvel · 8 months

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Business and dates

summary | when grace leaves, it leaves the shelbys with a heartbroken thomas. polly takes this as an opportunity to get him with the girl she's always wanted him with

pairing | thomas shelby x fem!reader

word count | 2.30k

genre | fluff! with just a tad of angst!

requested? | yes! thank you so much for your request! i had so much writing it, and i am kind of proud of this one, lol.

warnings! | mentions of bullying, and the reader not eating from being worried! and, i have not proof read this yet!

author’s note! | Hi! Thank you all for being so patient as I worked on this! Requests are open for drabbles, and headcanons only at the moment for these characters! And as always, I do I have really bad OCD that causes me to write in some random capitalization, and punctuation, But I think that we don't have to worry about that in this fic lol. And let me know if there are any mistakes, but please be kind!

No one knew what had happened that day. All anyone knew was that Grace was suddenly gone, and that she had left the Shelby family with a heartbroken Thomas. And the person left to pick up the pieces was his lifelong best friend, who has been in love with Thomas since the day they met back when they were just small kids.

Thomas was having a decent day, school had just let out and he was walking back home (alone because his older brother Aurther thought that it would be funny to run off before Thomas got out of class) when he saw a young girl getting picked on.

“Stop it! This is my favorite skirt!” Thomas heard her yell to the kids that had her on the ground, kicking dirt onto her clothes while laughing and taunting her. Thomas knew that these kids were practically afraid of him, so he knew he could get them to leave the girl alone. He also knew that his mother would scold him if she found out that he didn’t do anything to help her.

“Oi! Leave her alone, or I'll put a curse on you!” Thomas called out as he made his way up to the group, and pulled a razor blade out of his pocket. The kids practically scattered the moment they heard Thomas’ voice. Leaving just him, and the girl with dirt on her clothes.

“Thank you” He heard the girl say in a quiet voice as he put his hand out to help her back up.

“What caused that?” He asked, curious as to what the girl could have done to anger the other kids so much.

“I-I told them that I wouldn’t do their homework.” She said back to him, as she tried to get the dirt off of her skirt. Thomas told himself that he should have known it was something like that. There wasn’t anything serious that this girl could have done to upset them so much.

“Come on, I’ll walk you home, you live on Watery lane, right?” He said as he started walking, with the girl running a bit to catch up with him. He knew her name, he recognized her from school. She lived right across from him, but they never said anything to each other. She had been over to play with Ada sometimes, but they never spoke.

Neither one of them said anything as they walked, it wasn’t until they got to her home that Thomas spoke up.

“They shouldn’t bother you again, no one should.” He said as he stood outside her doorstep, seeming almost sorry since he knew his reputation, and how kids would stay away from him in fear of getting cursed.

“It’s alright, I don’t really have any friends anyways.” The small girl said, while rocking back and forth on her heels.

“Why don’t you come play at my house? I know my family won’t mind.” He said to her with a small smile. Truth be told, Thomas didn’t really have many friends either, and he saw an opportunity to make one.

Ever since then, the two were inseparable. They did everything together, they were even each other's first kiss. Her family was weary at first, but soon saw how protective the Shelby boys (and the rest of the Shelby family) were over her, and grew to like them. The two were like this up until Thomas was called to war

“Tommy, this has to be a mistake.” The girl cried into Thomas’ shoulder as he held her. “All three of you at the same time? What kind of cruel joke is this”

“The universe has a funny way of doing things.” He mumbled into her hair, his hand resting on the back of her head. “I’ll come back, sweetheart.”

“You don’t know that, Tommy” The girl said as she pulled her head out of his shoulder, and looked up at him, eyes red and puffy.

“You really think I'm leaving you yet? You think I'm going to leave you before you get married? Please, your future husband doesn’t get off that easily.” He said with a small laugh while trying to lighten the mood as he held her face with his hand. “Nothings taking me from you, not yet.”

“You better come back, Shelby.” She said as she looked up at him with glossy eyes. “Or, I’ll bring you back just to kill you myself.”

Thomas laughed and kissed her head, as the air in the room changed. He didn’t know why, but he leaned down and kissed her lips softly, all he knew was that he couldn’t leave without giving her a kiss, even just a light one. “You’ve got nothing to worry about” He said as he pulled away.

She believed him, she tried not to worry. She didn’t worry until his letters stopped coming. After a month of not hearing from him she worried so much she got sick. She wrote him everyday, sent him a letter at least once a week, if not twice. No word of his death ever came.

The day Thomas arrived home, she was sitting at the kitchen table with Polly. His heart broke when he saw her, she was paler, and her face was skinny, all signs to her not eating properly. Neither one of them said a word to each other for a week. It wasn’t until (Y/n) decided that she had enough, and stormed into his room.

“What the hell is wrong with you?!” she shouted, growing red in the face.

“What are you talking about?” He asked, not meeting her eyes, already knowing what she was talking about,

“You! You come back, and are completely different! You’re cold, and mean to everyone, which maybe you were that way to some people before, but never to me! Never to your family!” As she yelled at him, she started to sway as if she was about to faint. Before she could hit the floor, Thomas grabbed her and set her down on the bed beside him.

“You need to eat something.” He mumbled, not looking at her which infuriated her more.

“I thought you were dead.” This caught his attention as he heard her start to cry. He finally turned to her. “You stopped writing.”

“I didn’t know how to write to you, you would ask me how I was, and I couldn’t find it in myself to tell you about how I had just watched a man die. I thought it better to not write.” He said, pulling her into his chest. “Why are you not eating?”

“You worried me, anything I ate just came back up.” She mumbled into his chest.

“I told you not to worry.” He said with a small laugh coming from his chest, the first in a long time.

“Tough shit, Shelby.” She mumbled back, while pulling her head out of his chest.

They sat in silence for a few minutes, just staring at the other, until Thomas finally spoke up. “I’m trying to get back to normal.” He mumbled, barely loud enough for her to hear, she wouldn’t have if they hadn’t been so close.

“I know, it will just take some time.” She said while she caressed his cheek. “And, I’ll be here to help you heal.”

After that day, nothing ever really went back to how it was before the war. But it was like that for everyone. Thomas had gone back to normal as much as he could. He had his moments, but everyone did. And, (Y/n) didn’t lie, she was there every step of the way, even in the bad times she never left.

The two never fought again until the day Grace left. She had tried telling Thomas before that something was up with her, but he just wouldn’t listen. The only other person that seemed to notice it was Polly.

“He’ll never go for it.” John pipped into the conversation. Polly was currently trying to figure out a way to cheer Thomas up, and the idea she had was to put Thomas with (Y/n). She already considered the girl a daughter, and she always wanted her with Thomas. To her, it was the perfect plan.

“That's why we don’t tell him! All we tell him is that he has a business meeting at the new restaurant, he’ll show up, expecting some business man to be there, but instead (Y/n) will come in wearing the most beautiful thing I can find, that he’ll just have to stay.” Polly explained to the boys and Ada.

“Alright, but how are you going to get (Y/n) there, dressed up, without suspecting anything?” Ada chimed in.

“We’ll tell her a boy stopped by and asked to take her out.” Polly said, as if it was obvious.

“Please, she’s not going to just agree to go out with someone, especially if she doesn’t even know who it is.” Arthur muttered.

"Actually she might.” John announced to everyone. “Just to make Thomas jealous, she mentioned it back when Grace was around.”

The Shelby’s set everything into motion that night. Polly told Thomas he had a meeting, then she told (Y/n) about the secret man that wanted to take her out.

So Thomas sat in his suit, waiting for this man to show, when he saw (Y/n) walk through the door, dressed like a vision in her red, drop waist, beaded dress, with an old pearl necklace to match. She looked around the room, until her eyes landed on Thomas.

“What are you doing here?” She asked him, as she walked up to his table.

“Business meeting, what are you doing here?” He asked, suddenly growing jealous at the thought of her being here for another man.

“A date, and what business meeting? I know your schedule, there wasn’t one planned, did you make one?” She asked, wondering who on earth Thomas could be meeting for business at this hour.

“No, Polly told me I had one, who’s the date?” He asked, his jealousy rising.

“Not sure, Polly told me-” A look of realization crossed both their faces “Polly” The two said in unison.

She decided to sit down, now laughing to herself. “You’re the date.”

“You’re the business.” Thomas responded, a small smile growing to his face.

The two sat there for a minute, before Thomas spoke up. “You do look stunning.”

“Polly picked it.” She said, with a small laugh.

“I bet she did.” Thomas said with a laugh, and a sigh. “She’s wanted us together for ages.” He mumbled.

“And what do you want?” The girl asked. Thomas had always had a feeling that (Y/n) liked him, he was just never sure how much, until he looked up and met her eyes that were filled with nothing but love and want.

“You in my life.” He said, keeping his eyes on her. “I thought a relationship between us would mess everything up. I couldn’t risk losing you.”

“Thomas.” The girl said, grabbing his hand across the table. “You could never lose me, even if we did have a relationship and it failed, I would still love you. But, I don’t want you to feel like you have to do this.”

“I have distracted myself from you for as long as I can remember. I wouldn’t let myself fall for you.” Thomas said, standing up from the table, (Y/n) following.

“It’s okay to fall, Thomas, who knows, maybe it won’t hurt.” She said, as she placed a hand to his face. Without thinking, Thomas leaned in and kissed her with everything in him, causing her to hit the table, his hands on the side of her face being the only thing to keep them from falling. The pair kissed until they needed air. When they pulled away, he rested his forehead on hers.

“Let’s give this a try.” He whispered, looking into her eyes.

The girl smiled and gave Thomas a quick peck, before they left the restaurant, her holding his arm. The walk back to the Shelby home was mostly quiet, until she spoke up. “Thank god for Polly.”

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the liminal space.

Pairing: OPLA!Roronoa Zoro x Reader Word Count: 1,575 words Warnings: Swearing, mentions of alcohol use [A/N: written with the cooper!reader from mise en rose in mind. i don't know where in the timeline this occurs, though. lol.]

cingulomania (noun): a strong desire to hold a person in your arms

Living in close quarters can really change how you see a person.

Roronoa Zoro, for instance, had always struck you as rather aloof, having traveled alone for some time before you joined him, and unused to physical affection. He never gave any indication that he was one to enjoy it, and he never sought it out from anyone. That certainly wasn’t odd. You respected his tendency towards personal space, subsequently believing that it extended to his sleeping habits as well.

So when you wake up, hardly able to breathe underneath the hulking mass of a snoring swordsman, you are more surprised than anything.

“Zoro,” you wheeze, patting his back with the hand that isn’t crushed between his chest and yours. Nothing happens, so you swat harder. “Zoro. You’re crushing me.”

His arms squeeze around you as he stirs, inhaling sharply next to your ear. You stop moving as he lifts his head and opens his eyes just wide enough to register you beneath him.

He pauses.

Good morning, sunshine is what you want to say in a cheeky tone. You want to prove that you’re unaffected by the warmth of his body pressing yours into the mattress, the sensation of his breath across your cheekbone and the way his gaze transitions from something bleary into something sharp.

The greeting refuses to leave your mouth. All you can do is blink.

The next thing you know, Zoro’s rolling off of you and out of bed with nary an apology, mumbling something about going to the bathroom.

You hum distantly in response and stare up at the ceiling as he shuffles to the door. Once he closes it behind him, you reach up and fold your hands over your eyes, cheeks hot.

Great.

—

It all started because you and Zoro could only afford a single bed at the inn.

(You use the term “afford” loosely here. The truth of the matter is that you grossly underestimated how much a room would cost, and the owner of the one place willing to lend you a room for half the usual rate demanded physical labor to make up for the rest. Given that Zoro would be spending most of his time hunting down a bounty, the majority of the unpaid labor fell on your shoulders.)

(But you digress.)

The room is small and bare, which is fine, because you and Zoro don’t have much between the two of you anyway. The only problem is that there is only one bed. Zoro had expressed no qualms about sharing so long as you didn’t disturb his sleep, and you had readily agreed, not wanting either of you to sleep on the floor.

After the first morning, you’re not sure if that was a lapse of judgement on your part or not.

Zoro doesn’t mention it at all before he leaves for the day, and you don’t, either. However, when he comes back in the middle of the night and you’re already in bed, squinting and shielding yourself from the bright hallway light as he takes his slippers off and walks in, he sits on the carpet just a few feet away from your side.

“What are you doing?” you ask as he proceeds to lay down.

“Sleeping.”

He closes his eyes and folds his arms behind his head. You frown.

“Why aren’t you sleeping up here?” No answer. You lift your head from your pillow, indignant. “Hey, don’t ignore me! I know you’re still awake.”

“I’ve had a long day,” he grumbles, “so I’d like some quiet so I can sleep. Thanks.”

You huff.

The thought that Zoro might actually be just as embarrassed flits briefly through your mind, but you extinguish it just as quickly. He’s never seemed like the kind of guy to be self-conscious about those kinds of things. A more likely reason is that he’s decided that he wants his own separate space after all and can’t be bothered to kick you off the bed.

So, you kick yourself off instead.

“What are you doing?” The phrase now comes from Zoro as you throw the covers off and grab your pillow, kneeling on the ground beside him. His eyes open and his brow furrows.

“Take the bed. I feel guilty.”

“I don’t want the bed.”

“Everybody wants the bed.” You lie down on the carpet and cross your arms over your chest, stubborn. “I’ve already slept in it. Now it’s your turn.”

“You’re an idiot,” Zoro says.

Neither of you budge.

The next morning, you decide that the first morning was in fact not a fluke, as you awake with your face smushed against his chest and the smell of steel in your nose once again. He’s not on top of you, at least, but the way he clutches you while you’re lying on your side, one ankle hooked over yours, is somehow ten times more mortifying. You wake him up in the midst of untangling yourself and pretend like nothing happened.

Who’s the idiot now? (The answer is both of you. Both of you are idiots.)

—

The third night, you and Zoro flop onto the hard mattress with twin groans, heads spinning and feeling overall miserable.

“That was the shittiest booze I’ve ever had,” Zoro slurs next to you, face down in his pillow.

“But you got a lead, right?” you mumble.

“Yeah …”

You had been there in the bar when he’d gotten that lead, but you can’t remember what it was for the life of you. Another inn? Another bar? Ugh, you’re never drinking there again.

“I’m cold.”

There are blankets on the bed. Unfortunately, getting underneath them would require a lot of moving, and you are physically incapable of exerting yourself that much right now.

You shiver and turn onto your side to curl up. You’ll fall asleep at some point, anyway.

Zoro murmurs your name.

“Hm,” you groan, eyes screwed shut.

He doesn’t say anything in reply. But you hear the mattress squeak, the bedsheets rustle as he shifts closer, and your breath catches when the small distance between you closes. He does not wrap his arms around you, no, but your knees touch, and the heat from his skin melds into yours. You hear his breathing slow to a crawl.

Through your drunken haze breaks through a sudden need to draw him into you, to tuck your face into his neck and keep it there forever. You want – you want. But you’re exhausted, and your head aches, so you find yourself slipping into a deep slumber instead.

He’s already gone when you wake up.

—

A suspiciously lumpy gunnysack in the corner of the room catches your eye once you enter, hand over your mouth to stifle a yawn.

“What’s in the bag?”

“Eight million beri,” Zoro says from his seat on the bed. Cleaning supplies for his swords are strewn around him, and he sheathes the Wado Ichimonji as you close the door. “I ran into another bounty on the way back.”

“Eight mill –” You clear your throat. “Wow. That was pretty lucky.” Eight million beri. Sometimes you wonder if you’ll ever get used to how much bounty hunters can make. (God, that would’ve been more than enough to pay for the room.) “We’re heading out to a marine base tomorrow morning, then?”

“That’s the plan.”

He puts away his supplies, setting them and his swords against the wall near his pillow before standing up to pull down the sheets on his side. You turn off the bedside lamp and do the same, crawling in with a sigh.

The two of you simply lie side-by-side until you decide to break the silence with your big mouth again.

“Am I a burden to you?” you ask.

“No.” The plainness of Zoro’s tone is a small comfort, you suppose. “Why are you asking?”

“Well …” You already regret bringing this topic up as you trail off, biting your bottom lip. “I feel like I haven’t really done much. I mean, I help with navigating and searching crowds and stuff, and I’ve been getting better at fighting, but I can’t help you, you know?” You fiddle with your fingers. “You don’t actually need me.”

There’s a gap between you and Zoro that you’ll likely never be able to close. You had always known that, and so had Zoro; in fact, he had told you at the start that going with him was a bad idea, given your inexperience in bounty hunting and traveling in general. And although you’d like to think that your ability to read a map and fix things convinced him of your usefulness, there are times when you think Zoro regrets bringing you along. Like now.

Zoro grunts, turning to lay on his back. His shoulder nearly lands on your hands, and you draw them to yourself as you wait for his answer.

It is brief and straightforward.

“I’m not forcing you to go with me,” he says. “And if you were a burden, I would’ve told you a long time ago.”

“Oh.”

It is brief and straightforward, and yet, there’s a strange lump in your throat. You swallow it and nod, even though he cannot see you do so.

Nothing more is said. However, as the night goes on, you reach out, and you find him, and Zoro finds you, and the space between your arms fills up with warmth and an unspoken promise. And you sleep very well.

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