#didnt think it would blow up

[nessieartss]

Another sibling au featuring megumi (they finally met and sukuna already made yuuji cringed)

Also happy new year!

Part 1 | Part 3

#jjk sibling au #student sukuna au #sukuna #ryomen sukuna #yuuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #sukufushi #please just ignore the food #I can’t draw them lmao #and yes yuuji is wearing I’m kenough shirt on the 3rd image #thank you so much for all the loves and comments on the first part! #didnt think it would blow up #this au is really fun #my art

[noecoded]

hey asmo fans

#do people even still enjoy him... #i pickup my dusty discarded blogand blow it off. im so sorry i abandoned youu #ive been thinkingabt him again lately and the pm controversies gave me an excuse to drawhim somuch for a couple days... #i keep thinkingabt how cute hed be if hisstyle was likee a little more 2000s party girl that shows up to everythign even if u didnt invite #her at all...ok . im going to disappear again maybee ive been having somany thoughts abt asmo but i think none of them would be #original or well received by normal people who arent ill about asmo because lately ive been like sillymaxing so everything i thinkabout him #is unfit for general human consumption. #asmodeus obey me #asmo #mine #oc #a&t

[treasureplcnet]

As a LaiKabuMisu enjoyer, I never thought I'd need to see desperate Mithrun->Kabru before in my life, thank you so much for the food in these dark times.

desperate mithrun just makes me GIGGLE like the meme i made takes it a bit far for comedy's sake but it's like. this guy who only recently began to live for something else other than revenge and it's thanks to kabru and suddenly kabru dissapears his from life because he has a "job" . we've already seen mithrun go sulky when kabru doesn't side with him despite having valid reasons not to LOL (sfx: hmph)

i truly can see the momentary disconnect (i doubt this lasts very long or at least doesn't manifest obviously. mithrun is a quiet and ultimately rational guy) where he's like "... i thought kabru was gonna stay with me though?" and not even necessarily in a romantic light (for starters anyway). just in the way that mithrun just counted on kabru's companionship, but when adult schedules and establishing a kingdom collide, i think kabru would also equally have a hard time giving up what he works very hard for (protecting humans/short-lived races and being able to help govern so that this is possible). i can absolutely see kabru accidentally neglecting his relationships for too long, and not realising until his party intervenes, or mithrun 'hmph's at him again and he's like '..what did i do.'

sorry for the essay . tldr: i would like to picture mithrun sulking :)

#dunmeshi #its important to me that mithrun didnt immediately react with revenge either or like. idk. 'punishment' in some way #bc kabru kind of you know blows the canaries' mission up by letting laios' party go #but he just ties kabru up and pretends to ignore him . HMPH! #its not as severe a reaction as i thought it would be is all ..sorry mithrun for thinking this of you #i do also like the idea of kabru believing nobody knows the insane way he was into laios either LOLLL. LIKE HE STALKED HIM FOR A BIT #unfortunately if you spend a day around kabru and laios you can see the effects of a one sided situationship and its very clear #not to mithrun tho. that part is important. i like to think marcille is talking about it casually w chilchuck #and nothing actually changes on mithrun's face but his world shifts completely #also. one sided situationship with quotation marks im like brewing insane yaoi right now #the dynamics are going a bit crazy in my mind but i contain multitudes. i juggle. tho i do lean towards kabumisu over labru.. #dungeon meshi #kabru #mithrun #answered

[simcardiac-arrested]

hello people of rain world today i am courious about: what do u guys think about the concept of romance in the ancient societies ? Do you think they treated it as a sinful urge or were they normal about it ? were they monogamous or polycule fans? did they have the concept of marriage? do you think they had something else going on entirely ????? do share because i would love to hear it. hashtag rain world hashtag ancients

#crammerposting #if there’s anything else about your interpretation you’d like to say go wild :) #personally i tried to think about it and my brain exploded. Like would the ancients even have a concept of Partnering Together ? would they #even experience romantic attraction ???? is romantic attraction a social construct ?????? #they considered intimacy a sin didnt they ? (karma 2) and companionship ? (karma 3) #so like. auehghh. Blows up #fine imma tag it like this too #rain world

[tytoalbatross]

posted this on tiktok over a week ago and completely forgot i had a tumblr

#i have lovebug art too but i think i'll edit it a bit before posting it as a pic here #i honestly didnt think it would blow up bc i spent like 5 min on it 😭 compared to THIS video which took me over an hour #i love algorithms !!!!!! #tsp #the stanley parable #tyto draws #tsp narrator #tsp stanley #tsp bucket

[pedropascallme]

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C5SD3RBr2it/?igsh=NmViYTZiaGZmaGUy in case you still haven't seen :D

Thank you!! I hadn’t seen the full thing this is wonderful <3 posting this so everybody else who might’ve missed it can see!

(Also leaving my personal opinions in the tags just to clarify where I stand because I’m so tired of everybody being weird about Damien specifically throughout this whole thing)

#hehe send me asks #smosh #damien haas #shourtney #smoshblr #I think that everybody blowing up at him is so…I mean #first of all unfair to him and to Shayne and Courtney who are clearly some of his closest friends #but also just. generally speaking super infantilizing and not necessarily aware that like #this is a grown man who not only has more to think about than his friends getting married #which he likely knew about way WAY before any of us did #obviously #but also he’s autistic and thus processes cues and reactions differently #and everybody is like WHA WHY DIDNT HE POST WHY ISNT HE BEING SUPPORTIVE #as if Damien isn’t generally pretty private about a lot of his personal life especially when it involves other people in the public eye #but especially since this is like #his best friend getting married to his other very close friend I feel like it would be obvious that this is something he would celebrate #privately and among the friends involved #anyway that’s my two sense please let him rest he’s like one of the busiest people in the cast and clearly loves his friends so much #**cents oops it’s late #and I don’t blame him for wanting to make this something special that he celebrates with them away from the #incredibly judgy #public eye

[machinatings]

I love Eight saying “I’ve never thought of my self as suicidal” in The Last as if the entire reason the divergent universe arc was a thing in the first place wasn’t because he tried to kill himself. Twice

#like obv there’s Zagreus Part 3 Track 17 but also #in scherzo it’s revealed he was pretty sure travelling to an alternate universe would kill him instantly so likeee #HELL three times if you count him blowing up the anti time stuff in the tardis so that he would be the only casualty #and THEN he kills himself 5 minutes after saying this??? #ik the options were either kill yourself or the planet is destroyed and you die anyway but. I feel like a lot of people would still #find it a bit harder yk #*clip of the doctor saying I KILLED MYSELF FOR YOU DIDNT I* this u? #suicide mention #eighth doctor #big finish lb #I just think there are problems with him. that he seems to be completely oblivious to #ti talks #doctor who #suicide tw

[prisonpodcast]

Funny how I make this tweet defending the dsmp’s honour and people in my qrts are somehow managing to make it about their petty hatred of Dream despite him not being mentioned ONCE in my post. I just don’t get it at all, my post was defending the dsmp’s success bc some weirdos were having the audacity to call it a failure/flop like why are you telling me about how you think Dream contributed nothing and it was all the hardwork of other ccs and he was a bad owner like I don’t gaf make your own post what does that have to do with anything I said 😭

#I did not think that tweet would get more than 5 likes #it is currently at 6.3k #I am suffering to consequences I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD BLOW UP OK #like stop putting mean comments about Dream in my replies it’s so annoying I literally suffer from dream rsd pls be considerate #but he actually lives in their brains RENT FREEEE #also not to be that guy but I wish my art got that many likes on twt like I don’t even make discourse posts on there #this was the only time #I had to defend my baby (the dsmp and also techno bc dissing the dsmp feels disrespectful to his contributions) #negativity #.___.

[azurechicken]

It always gets me how Justice did not change at all, like, he is not corrupted at all. It makes everything more tragic than it already is. The only thing that changed was his perception, which of course, naturally came due to the change of hosts. I'm mostly taking Awakening Justice into account and how he acts because that is where we can carefully observe him by himself, without Anders' influence on the matter. And his influence is everything on the point I am trying to make.

When we first meet Justice, he is fulfilling his nature of bringing justice to the people he thinks that need it. He is very outspoken about it, and is already ready to take action with or without Warden's help. For a supposedly peaceful spirit that Anders claims to have ruined with his anger, Justice is acting pretty angry here himself (This is not the only time either). This is one of the first things I want to point out that did not change much about the spirit. Justice was always fierce about his cause. However, what stands out to me in these scenes is when the witch calls him out on his idea of justice.

Justice, is that what you are calling it? What of their punishment, burning my house to the ground and with me in it?

Well, in this case, the witch is a demon and mocking Justice for funsies. But what she says actually gives a bit more insight about what kind of a spirit Justice is. The actions do not speak louder than intent to him, as long as it is within the lines he set for himself. In a way, he was always okay with a few… casualties in the name of justice. Even though it is as simple as burning down a house this time. Isn't violence for violence vengeance after all?

While we are on the topic of vengeance, let's not forget the way he is eager on avenging Kristoff, vowing to kill every darkspawn for his cause (I mean the way he literally calls it avenging is enough debate for some people but I want to continue). So how come wanting to take revenge on the offenders that wronged not only his host but many other people, is any different? How did this route did not take him to the road of vengeance but attacking the templars, who are also offenders that wronged his host and other people, is corrupting him?

The answer is of course, that it is not, it did not. There is no difference between those two for Justice, there is no difference between vengeance and justice. Punishing the ones who deserve it is all there is. There is no gray area for spirits the way there is in the mortal world, and we see this clearly in the way he judges Velanna and Nathaniel for their crimes. Despite what I said about him seeing intent before action, now he cannot see beyond their wrongs. This simply shows that if the intent is as clear as violence for violence, he understands. But he does not understand the gray area of Velanna mistaking the innocents as guilty, or Nathaniel taking back what used to be already his.

 

There might be none for Justice, but there is a difference between darkspawn and templars for mortals. For one, darkspawn are generally mindless, and has no moral compass for us to judge. Whereas templars are just people with different ideals about life, to put it kindly at least. (Which is worse, being a mindless cruel monster, or having the mind and morals to choose to be something else but going for being one anyway? Lol another discussion for another time). Templars are the gray area that Justice lacks the understanding of. When he vows to kill every templar like he did with the darkspawn, he does not suddenly turn into a demon, he is simply punishing the ones that were doing wrong, as he does.

From here we can say that spirits' judgments and mortal's don't exactly match up. Though, there is one idea that seems to match better than others, and that is corruption. As far as we learn from Justice, spirits do not know about corruption any better than we do. Spirit do bad, spirit go bad, right? So, when Justice starts to feel things that are associated with demons, such as envy, he starts to fear corruption. He says he does not want to learn how a demon feels, but he also states that he does see the wishful thinking of a demon wanting to cross the Veil for this world. He is conflicted at best about the whole thing. Still, he does not consider himself corrupted regardless. I think that the reason behind that is simply the fact that generally, the Warden can ease his worries when Justice confides in them. And that is another thing that says a bit about him. He seems to accept the lack of understanding he has in the world, and chooses to listen to someone who does. Though, not just a random anybody, someone he deemed just.

So, let's see. A fade spirit with identity issues and an anxious spirit healer walks into a bar…

When they merged and Justice accepted Anders' cause for himself, and when they went all crazy on the Templars, Anders was scared. He feared the worst immediately because he is taught the worst about possession. He knew that Justice was angry because of him and his ideals about mages. So he blamed himself, called it a corruption he caused. And as I mentioned, Justice is accepting of the fact that he has a lack of understanding of some things. Plus, he was already scared of corruption. So, when Anders, who is an educated mage about possessions and corruption claims that he is slowly corrupting the spirit, they held onto it.

Everyone in their life from this point on, do nothing but egg them on about it, on top of it all. They might not corrupt each other, but everyone else does by pushing them the idea that they are now an abomination. Anders starts to fear the nonexistent corruption more, and Justice is confusing the inability to just wipe all the bad out with sloth. We are talking about a being who comes from the Fade, which can be bent at will and a place of immediate action. This works well in Awakening because we are already fighting darkspawn nonstop, and we are in the middle of a war. But in Kirkwall? Everything requires planning and suspended ideals. Templars bring injustice everywhere they go, yet there is not much they can do. After many years of being held back, it is no wonder Justice is surfacing more and more, itching to fulfill his purpose. Because he was always outspoken, angry at the injustice in the world and eager to bring justice. He did not change, but Anders' morals and his' just did not align the way they thought it would. They forgot that in Justice, there was always a part that was vengeance.

At the end, Justice was one of the most stable parts of Anders' story. He couldn't count his vow in Awakening complete without reaching the root of the problem, which was the broodmother. And he could not do so in Kirkwall without getting rid of the Chantry. Because chantry is the root of the Templars, and being a bystander while you can help solve everything easily is unjust all the same.

Anders and Justice had the same cause, different morality and they were just confused because they didn't know any better.

#going through awakening again made me so annoyinnnng i cant stop thinking about justice #listen i have so much more to say #justice didnt become a corrupted spirit when he went on a vengeance run on the darkspawn #and he didnt become a demon when he went on another vengeance run on templars #but once people were included they became confused #and this kinda goes to show that spirits' morality is all about their awareness of a wrong-doing imo #spirits' idea of doing something “bad” could mean something totally different like they need to be held a different judgment on the matter #demons could be just confused beings with too much feelings they couldn't understand so they became them #if they embody their name as much as spirits do there is nothing they can do about it #they cannot simply be bad because the emotion is not the bad part about such things they are the natural part #the bad part of negative emotions are the fact that they cause actions that we mortals would count as bad #at one point what of the nightmare demon eating away the fears we would be glad to be rid of is so bad? #and justice going as far as a boom for his virtue isnt something we could judge him bad for its just his nature #y'know? does that make sense? #they were right to blow shit up tho lol #im sleep deprived #i wrote this for myself but u can also have it lol #justice #anders #justice positive #anders positive #dragon age #dragon age awakening #me own

[angelsdean]

i think dean is someone who really panics when he the people he cares about aren’t in his line of sight / presence. like watching people leave (not even in the dramatic sense, like. just leaving the house / where he can see them) freaks him out. he’s gotten used to masking it really well at this point so like. no one knows but it manifests in little controlling actions and anger which obvs is annoying to other people like dean NEEDS to know where sam is going when, when he expects to be back, he NEEDS cas to check in when he’s gone for longer than a few hours and it’s yes, deeply rooted in his abandonment issues but also. extremely rooted in his fear as a child that whenever john walked out the door might be the last....like he literally was a little kid waiting anxiously and scared shitless for his dad to come back from hunts, knowing that it was very very possible he might never come back. like kid dean has bobby and pastor jim’s numbers memorized and knows that if john’s not back / doesn’t check in after three weeks (long, long after the grocery money has run out) he’s supposed to call them. anyways. yeah...so dean seeing someone walk out the door. instantly flooded with anxiety and freeze response 

#which is partly why. 'i didn't stop you i just let you go' bc like. he was frozen he was angry he was panicking !! #thinking like. oh god he's leaving oh god what if i never see him again he's leaving for good he's not gonna call he's not gonna check in !! #but yeah so like. in general tho he's really really a control freak abt knowing where ppl are #when people don't check in he gets. SO mad and most of them don't get it bc of course dean WILL NOT explain it #he doesn't even really fully understand it himself bc obvs he's never sat down and analyzed the inner workings of his mind lol #but yeah like sam especially gets so annoyed and thinks its like. a controlling older brother thing #cas doesn't get it for a long long time bc he doesn't think anyone would ever worry abt him :( #but once they get together he always always checks in! #the one time he forgets bc he got caught up chit chatting with one of the vendors at the farmers market....is catastrophic #like dean's worried out of his mind blowing up cas's phone (which died bc he was taking so many videos of jack at the petting zoo) #dean would've come to the market but he wanted to work on restoring the barn #anyways so like. yeah he's freaking out jumping to the worst case scenarios thinks something terrible's happened to cas and jack #when they finally walk thru the door at like 6pm dean starts sobbing and wraps his arms around his family like. why why didnt u call? #he's both sad relieved and a lil pissed like. obvs logically he understand once cas explains but he's still like. #channeling some of that fear into anger bc it's a hardwired habit he's still struggling to break #so there's a bit of grumping and cold shoulders while he's making dinner but then once they all sit down together he's like. i love you #got carried away w these tags whooops #dean studies #vic.txt

[squipdop]

sorry im a god gale truther btw i DO think he should get to usurp mystra and ascend to godhood and i do think that should be an absolutely awful thing to happen to him but also literally everyone else. sorry

#bg3 #not main tagging this further bc its. mad man 1:30am rambles #but listen. mh. #ok so. heres the thing. #while i do think. their relationship was absolutely fucked. and yeah we can argue for grooming and or abuse. #i also dont QUITE enjoy how ppl make gale like. the poor poor totally blameless victim. like. mh #how to phrase this so it DOESNT sound victim blame-y. but like. #from how i interpret the things he told & what the game shows. #my mans REALLY struggles with No's and rejection. and i wouldn't just put that as a Mystra Aftermath Thing #he WAS forbidden from trying to ascend/was told by her she wouldnt make him an equal. and his response basically was. #'but let me prove i am worthy of this' #which yeah. plays into the fucked up self worth. ill get back to that. #plus the uh. touch the orb scene? he just. grabs your hand and pulls it towards him because he WANTS to show you this. Now. #any rejection within the relationship? I Should Blow Myself Up #he got that gifted kid energy of everything always came easily to him and yet it wasnt ever enough and the relationship w a literal goddess. #certainly didnt help that. #so hes constantly reaching for more. and thats a fault of his because he will do that even if told not to because #at the same time he thinks of himself as smart enough to actually Get to that More. #and yknow w the orb? he literally. got So Badly Burned. is it deterring him? nnnnnnot really. #and i think. godhood would. idk i think he could do it. and i think it still wouldn't be enough. #and having an all powerful deity who ALSO a) still never is satisfied with his amount of power and control and b) thinks he know better than #anyone and could do better than anyone #sounds like its gonna fucking suck #anyways im rotating this all in my brain + ofc the delicious bloodweave combo of ascended astarion + new god gale bc thats just. ough #the mess. of this combo.

[dj-wayback]

"heres the drawing hope you think it's" cool- Dual of mind

[BROADCAST_ERROR — CONNECTION_TERMINATED]

#he got a bit too flustered. he didnt think anyone would want to draw him #ANYWAY THATS MY LIVE REACTION TOO CUZ IM LOSING MY MIND!!!! #i literally had to stop drawing the ask i was working on just to go insane over this one bc ohhh my godfhg oh ymggod #HE LOOKS SO GOOD… BURSTS INTO TEARS!!! #i love the art style and the rock on hand gesture. i am Losing my Mind #im literally exploding rn #thank you so much dude #your iterator oc looks super cool too i love the idea!!!! #anyway. blows the whole EARTH up #is for me tag #no way back is here

[resizura]

“if agent ashley isnt in re9 im boycotting” im going to scream

#resizura rants #im gonna blow u up with my mind #no one who played the original re4 thought ashley needed to be an agent #and no one would think the same for the remake if they didnt have so many #GODDAMN LINES ABOUT ASHLEY BECOMING AN AGENT

[bearstuck]

theres a hypothetical instance of asylumstuck being written well and not incredibly offensive and yet every single time i see some old asylumstuck posts i am blown away by how they manage to get literally every depiction of mental illness incorrect. its like they googled the symptoms and then deliberately wrote against the reality of those illnesses. its like they googled awful stereotypes about mentally ill (mostly psychotic or suicidal people) and made it their personal project to include as many as they could

#i am not opposed to the idea of writing characters from anything in a psychiatric hospital #however #like from the bat they use the very sensational name 'asylum' which is okay i guess since its one word and well known enough #but to go on and be like #yeah terezi and john *know the truth* about them being in an au and believe theyre supposed to be gods in a video game #oh calliope has some weird fucked up writing combination of psychosis and DID #where she simultaneously thinks caliborn is a hallucination ('imaginary friend') and an alter that 'takes over when shes mad' #or like #gamzee is a murderer and a schizophrenic and a cannibal #or sollux has schizophrenia and bipolar disorder and its obvious op didnt google if you can have both at once bc theyd immediately see #that that would usually just be diagnosed as schizoaffective disorder #like im not saying you cant write this setting and write it well. but its so fucking obvious its coming from a sixpenceee sort of place #where psychosis and DID and ocd and personality disorders are creepy aesthetic horror movie things #like hey you guys know not every psychiatric patient is psychotic right. and psychotic people are normal right #ffs have some tact its really not hard to google the actual symptoms and testimony from people with these conditions #sorry this got really ranty it just blows me away how ive seen people posting about asylumstuck in this decade #sorry if i spelled asylum wrong in this post and didnt catch it ive got the dyslexia

[bo0zey]

Did I miss "back from the war" recreation or is that not happening

OK so i've been meaning to address this for a while because it’s actually something i've been genuinely annoyed/sad/upset about; my original plan to recreate the post was to go to riot fest & have someone take pics of me during MCR live in person (caption wouldve been something like ‘when will mcr--omg they;re Back from the Warfdskns’ lol idk). i ended up 2nd row from the barrier & i was like OMG bc i didn’t expect to get so close & i was like ‘WOW these r gonna b such GR8 PICTURES!!i;m so lucky!!this is gENIUS!’ & so my plan was literally going according to/even better than planned right?? i mean the fact that i was ~a few feet away from the stage n was ~1.5hrs away from seeing mcr LIVE??? my plan was going along SUSPICIOUSLY well..everything was falling into place TOO perfectly...it was almost to good to be true right??? IT WAS. everything went to shit & my plan fell thru during the last band before MCR when my body suddenly fell victim to the effects of being crowd crushed for >7 hours straight; i experienced syncope & was pulled over the barrier & out of the pit by security.

sooooo, you didn’t ‘miss’ anything; the post was supposed to be recreated at the concert, but the universe pulled an uno-reverse on me when it remembered i’m on the universal ‘Do Not Ever Allow to Be Truly Happy’ list lol. i meant to post an update abt my failed plan afterwards, but tbh the actual event in itself made me wanna fr kms, and i felt even guiltier/worse for being unable to fulfill my promise to u all bc i fr planned on recreating it at the concert. 'ok but u were still at the concert after u got pulled out’ ok physically yes but mentally N-Ooo. due to the hypoxia (lack of blood blow/oxygen to the brain) i’d obtained secondary to being crowd crushed PLUS the psychological trauma of being removed against my living breathing dying will from the pit (btw the psychological trauma has nothing to do with being crowd-crushed but im not gonna get into that turmoil rn lol), i was stuck in an altered mental state for the remainder of the concert. i was dissociated for mcr’s entire set until i woke up the next morning & it took ~3-4 days for my body to fully recover from the physical trauma of being crowd crushed.

i still plan on recreating the post eventually, but tbh it’s not rlly my top priority atm bc 1) i still can’t come to terms w/ the fact i lost my 1 n only chance to experience MCR live & 2) imo seeing MCR live was the perfect opportunity to recreate the post & that clearly didn’t work out for me sooo now i have no idea how else i can top that idea :( .

#i have an idea but i’m not sure if it’ll work...imma need mcr 2 pull thru n meet me halfway on this 1 lol #anywyas i h8 talking abt riot fest i feel like every1 h8s me whining abt it too lol #i was so angry and upset with the world and myself. i really tried so hard to stay conscious; #ppl were asking if i was ok & i kept nodding yes because i didn’t want to be pulled out of the pit bc #then i’d lose my spot + my ONLY chance to see MCR live & so up close. #next thing i know i’m being pulled over the barrier by security and WHOOSH into dissociationville i go. #they were too much for my brain to handle so i’d just fall back even more into that weird dissociated state #i honestly would have preferred to not have even attended the concert. like HONESTLY 100% deadass i wish i didnt even go. #like imagine urself in my shoes lol i went from being 2nd row from the stage to like 70000 rows away. #yall dont understand how awful it is to have such a golden opportuntiy to be 1 hr n a few feet away from the band who saved u #to having it all ripped away from u in literally a matter of seconds #if i’d just stayed home my 12y/o little wouldn’t have had to experience the psychological trauma of having everything to having nothing. #my 15/16 year old teen wouldnt have had to re-live the experience of realizing there’s nothing left #in this world to comfort/protect/save her OR her childself #22 year old me realizing i failed them and all the other parts of me. i cant be happy i cant have shit in this world #i couldnt have my mom but at least i had mcr right??? nope lol that got ripped out of my fingertips too #i cant even begin to describe the emotional damage/psychological blow the situation had on me bc like #i cant even put it into words and i know nobody will truly understand/believe me when i say how heartbreaking & detrimental this #situation was for my already fucked up psyche. or they’ll think im exaggerating but its like u dont get it #ive lost so many things and people i spent my entire childhood/adolescence maladaptive daydreaming. #at age 12 mcr became my escapism for ~4yrs straight bc they were the only thing that made me happy #while all the other ppl in the real world in my day to day life were making me wanna kms everyday #like ik it sounds extreme/dramatic but ??? i mean i dont even fully understand my reaction tbh. #i think its just mcr used to be my happy place n then i get to see them live and its just an absolute nightmare #and the fact that i was dissociated from their concert when they used to be the only thing to keep me grounded to this earth??? #truly i wish i didnt even go like i cant even listen to their music anymore without wanting to crawl out of my skin #when the only thing that made u feel alive made u feel deader than ever inside....yeahhhhh not fun!! #its a heartsinking feeling i hate it so much i wish i had a doever #mcr #when will mcr return from the war

[gilliontidestriderchampionoftheu]

ok wait last thing tonight. new gill design also means NEW EDYN DESIGN!!! YEAHHHH!!!

#my post #my art #I LOVE YOU EDYN TIDESTRIDER #ALSO WHILE I WAS TRYING TO FIND A REF FOR HER I FOUND OUT SHES CANONICALLY 28?? #I DIDNT KNOW SHE HAD A CANON AGE!!! #cracks knuckles #so edyn is 28 and gillion is 23 #edyn said finn left the undersea before she was a teenager so she was at most 12 meaning gill was at most 7 #which makes finns flashback so much funnier. why was that 7 year old taking college courses #anywyas their age gap is the same between me n my little sister. tgats fucking insane i think i would blow up the entire planet if i wasedy #shes so strong so powerfuli cant wait to see what the fuck shes doing