#didn't even try to push this one

[rabarbarzcukrem]

Ok so it's like.

The motorcycle scene: Touga is obviously imitating Akio and failing miserably. Represents an attempt at achieving maturity and adulthood through adopting empty symbols of power. Gives the impression of movement and progress, but in reality is going in circles. It gets faster and faster, there's a sense of danger and agitation. Touga is driving and Saionji sits in the sidecar, they're not on the same level and Saionji disapproves. Seems like they're heading towards some destination, but they're going nowhere.

The bike scene: A reference to their shared memories. Represents clinging to the past and trying to return to the time of childhood. The wheels may be turning, but the bike stands in place. It get slower and slower as Touga gets more tired until he finally stops completely. There's a sense of nostalgia and emotional fatigue. Touga is the only one pedaling, but Saionji doesn't comment on it (meaning that perhaps Touga being in control wasn't the problem in the first place. Maybe it was always about wanting to restore their lost connection and equal footing). They're facing opposite directions, but at the same time leaning on each other.

#sorry for posting about toxic lettuce x toxic ketchup it will probably happen again #their relationship is fascinating to me. they are both pathetic loser boys convinced that Masculinity is the key to winning at life #but it only pushes them further and further away from graduating #and because this neverending persuit of being the Perfect Man caused them to distance themselves from everyone #they have no one to turn to except each other. but even that doesn't really work cause at this point neither of them knows the other anymore #and the only things that keep them together are the memories of boyhood. #a time when they didn't have to be this way yet. when a certain degree of vulnerability and kindness was still allowed #and they're trying to make sense of it all #rgu #revolutionary girl utena #touga kiryuu #saionji kyouichi #moje

[fisheito]

this is what i was cookin up while on nu:vacation [avoiding event spoilers] my dream.....my hopes....... EVERYONE PUT ON THE PRINCESS GOWN🗡

#those poofy skirts are very effective at hiding their lack of hips #don't need leg game when you're in a floofy ballroom gown #i mean. it would be nice if yall had leg game. get some quads up in there. maybe even some thick calves . perchance #i need thick muscled olivine revealing his glass slippers from under his skirt #his legs are LORGE and he's wearing his pretty lil stockings and walking in his heels perfectly #he practiced a lot! and now he's an expert 😊 i'm proud of him #meanwhile i want dante to try heels before wobbling and ... well #depending on whether someone witnesses him wobbling his reaction may differ #if there are witnesses he will stubbornly swear to master the high heels. if no one sees.... #maybe he'll just swap out for a functional pair of boots. like quincy. i'm torn about quincy #one half of me wants quincy wearing the ugliest dirtiest most worndown boots under his new spotless dress #the other half is like YOU'RE GOING TO COMMIT. YOU'RE GOING TO PUSH THOSE CALF MUSCLES TO THE LIMIT. STILETTOS ON ! MOUNTAIN MAN #at first i tried making everyone's hair match the original princesses they're cosplaying as (so everyone had much longer hair) #but when i got to blade . it just. didn't seem right #then i started sideeyeing everyone like :/ this aint no genderbending hours... #i want yall as YOURSELVES. unmodified (mostly). just. wearing the dress is all #so i went back and changed yakuoli's hair to be closer to their OG lengths #BUT thEN i sat there staring at quincy kuya and garu #bc. come on. quincy with aurora's flowing golden curly locks. he was made for it. #topper put the wig on him and he can't be bothered to take it off (long hair can act as a nice cushiony pillow 😁) #and kuya without the sassy ponytail?? well... i guess i can let him keep that since he CAN change his appearance at will #and if garu is dressed up as rapunzel... he HAS to have long hair... that's just the Point #OK so yall in the middle can have some long manes specially formulated for this special occasion. #there was already something brewing within me when tjhey announced the silhouettes #seeing yakumo in his 🧍‍♂️ pose and regular pants... #i was feelin preemptively robbed of pretty princess yakumo and the injustice was just casually simmering in my veins day by day #then idololivine's words spurred me into action with a clear vision #and here we are now. #at about the midway point i was yelling at eiden #EIDEN YOU HAVE TOO MANY WIVES. I'M ABOUT TO DOWNSIZE YOUR HAREM. THIS IS RIDUCLOUS I'M TIRED

[fidgetspringer-art]

✧ The Ardal stars ✧

#artists on tumblr #art #illustration #digital art #digital drawing #dnd #dungeons and dragons #homebrew #original art #my art #my ocs #Setting: Heim #I drew these a couple of years ago now i think #but since i'm drawing stuff for this setting again i'm reuploading with updated information cause the last one is outdated #I will say right off the bat however #If you compare my designs to already existing IPs i will block you on sight #the last time i posted these they got compared to a piece of media i really dislike #and that comment alone made me fall out of love with this setting for almost two years #so please. do not. it's rude and unnecessary #These are the artefacts my setting and its story is largely centered around #Tethry is credited with creating them (Even though he didn't) #They were gifted by Tethry to each of the largest cities in the world to serve as power generators supplying arcane power to the whole city #immediately pushing the four sister cities into prosperity and progress. leaving literally everyone else in the dust #which caused some understandable tension between countries that already had a bit of a strained relationship to begin with #There is SO MUCH to these little trinkets and their link to Tethry and how finding them essentially fucked up his whole entire life #You'd think becoming the world's most renowned arcanist would be the best thing that ever happened to an aspiring caster #but to some poor dude just trying to study arcane language. stumbling across the magical equivalent of the demon core #was very much not on his wishlist #especially not dealing with the consequences of trying to make sure no one actually realises how nasty they have the potential to be #which. someone inevitably does

[coquelicoq]

it makes sense that ART password-protected its backup copy of itself using the name it calls murderbot, but it is batshit bananapants that murderbot actually tried said name as a password. and yes there were like five totally rational reasons for murderbot to make that guess, but in another sense murderbot sat there and went hmm i wonder if ART compressed itself into this extremely vulnerable code bundle which it then protected with my name. just my name, just the name it calls me. i wonder if ART made it so that the "local feed address hardcoded into the interfaces laced through my brain" (verbatim page 130, babey!) is the key that would allow me and only me to either resurrect or utterly destroy it. i wonder if ART chose to hide itself in such a way that it could only be found by the invocation of the name by which it calls me. and then instead of going haha no that's batshit bananapants, murderbot tried it. and it was right! the trust, the intimacy, the compatibility...but most of all, the ability to imagine oneself as important to someone! bat! shit! banana! pants!!!

#the fact that ART did this isn't that surprising but the fact that murderbot was like hey. it would make sense if this were the password #and then DIDN'T push that aside as ridiculous because of what it would imply (that ART trusts mb‚ pays attention to mb‚ etc.) #that's what's impressive to me! it's kind of a big deal i think!!!! #and the fact that it's specifically the name that ART calls mb. mb didn't try guessing any of its aliases that ART knows about #or even 'murderbot' #it specifically guessed the one name that *ART* uses for it. the name it goes out of its way to say 'wasn't something humans could say #or even access' #like there are some unspoken things about their friendsh- excuse me‚ mutually administrative assistance that both of them are aware of #and it is clear here that mb knows this. and is willing to take the leap that ART does too #murderbot #the murderbot diaries #names #f #mb identifiers #mb trust #moot admins #my posts #my mb posts #mb ne #in another sense. this is the most obvious guess for a password and mb would have to be an idiot not to try it. but LISTEN #mb has DAMAGE. this isn't like when i would guess my name as my parents' password to things and it would be right. there is HISTORY #okay but also wouldn't it be funny if this were the one example of 2fa where the thing you know and the thing you have #are the same fucking thing lololol

[andy-clutterbuck]

#can you make one of these at build a bear? #Andrew Lincoln #* #andygifs #accidental ode to hands and forearms #'accidental' #form an orderly queue for a chokehold #H A N D S #if i speak...... #i say that like i didn't just try to romanticize a chokehold #and romanticize is pushing it #i love arm #also his arm hair but i'm not gonna be that weird right now #even his adams apple is nice i hate myself #the 3rd gif #IF I SPEAK

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[bitegore]

So seriously: if you have a serious recoil/disgust factor at uncommonly eaten parts of an animal being in any kind of food context (eg: whole fish being served at a table) and you want to work on minimizing that reaction, I really really recommend eating "normal" versions of those unusual foods, like for example deli-sliced tongue. I know I'm talking out of my ass here, but things like liver and haggis (organ meat), tongue (tongue), and probably a whole lot of others I've never had can be pretty easily made into forms that taste real good and don't look much like a weird lump of flesh you can recognize, and being able to get from "that's weird and gross but I want to get it" to "that's weird but it tastes really good and I want to get it" will probably make building up momentum easier when you move on to less "common" pastures.

Good luck, by the way. I believe in you.

#red rambles #i'm doing this with bugs for the record im not like JUST talking out my ass. I have a full on phobia of dead bugs #I can and have eaten live bugs! I've eaten and really enjoyed cricket-flour chips! I'm working my way up to "whole preserved scorpion in #chocolate'' type desserts but I haven't gotten there yet #so I know for a fact that there's a kind of person who has this sort of instinctive repulsion and also really really REALLY wants to get #over it. and also i didn't even realize this was a thing because i grew up with whitefish and tongue and so on #anyway im not sure if people like. KNOW that you can get like... liver *spread* or prepared tongue or brain or w/e #being able to go 'oh that is actually delicious' is a big thing or at least it is for me! it's very motivating! #you're the only one who is going to really 'push' you on these things- god knows my immediate family and friends mostly wants me to #STOP trying to eat bugs LMFAO (this is due to my behaviors but also like my dad told me I was not to keep cricket snacks in the house) #(so it's a bit of both but mostly because i cannot be trusted not to just eat a random ant because they are delicious these days) #but like at least in my experience the second you step out of the 'culturally normative' fold people stop being like 'yay stop being picky! #and start going 'no stop go back to being picky' so it's really really important to find your own motivators and not rely on other people

[ectonurites]

almost 4am can't stop thinking about the meaning of the idiom 'to have blood on [someone's] hands'—to be responsible for a person's death—combined with the fact that Zach is the one we are specifically shown with Daryl's actual blood on his hands (once for real and once in a dream)... Not Josh who had been holding the sword Daryl fell onto, but Zach who took the sword out.

#super dark times #+ part of it that's insane to me is: Josh COULD have easily ALSO gotten (literal) blood on his hands—we see him go to check for a pulse #after Zach did... but we don't see his hands during that—they're left out of the shot! we just see his face. and when we see his hands next #there's no visible blood on them (if any got on he theoretically wiped 'em off ig? similarly Zach's hands when seen AFTER the shot of him #touching Daryl ALSO don't rlly show blood anymore—we see his hands in the leaves tho so it prob went there) BUT SO there was a CHOICE made #to give us a close up shot of ZACH pulling his hand away from the wound with blood on it... but to NOT do the same/smthn similar with Josh. #and yet ZACH is the one who CAN'T ACCEPT THE ROLE HE PLAYED IN ANY OF ITTTTT!!!!!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! #this post brought to you by me rewatching the Zach + Charlie on the phone scene and needing to just. stop and scream at Zach being #like 'Josh‚ or fucking somebody else‚ they went up there and if they found Daryl alive—' LIKE BRO. YOU *KNOW* HE WAS DEAD. #YOU KNOW. YOU KNOOOOW. YOU WERE THERE. YOU KNOW HE WAS ALREADY DEAD. the denial. the trying to find any fucking way that #there could be even a sliver of a possibility that it WASN'T even PARTIALLY his fault.... shifting the blame entirely onto Josh... #[plus like. the 'somebody else' only added in after Charlie was giving him shit for trying to complicate this more—at first he was #straight up saying Josh was the one that fucked with the body]... aghghghsfd he makes me INSANE #also fwiw. i'm forever a 'Josh didn't harm anyone on purpose until AFTER his fight with Zach at Zach's house' truther. that provides #at least SOME sort of motivation to push him over an edge into... the shit that happens. anything before that just fuckin' doesn't make #sense. To Me. ive already written a lot on my thoughts about all of that though [uhhh in the tags of my gifset of the fight at Zach's house #anyways. im also NOT trying to say 'ah so we should Just Blame Zach' because nah nah this whole thing was a fucked up accident. they're all #to blame. plus Josh did horrible shit at the end On His Own there's no way of getting around that—but the messiness of how Zach handled the #initial incident and how that ripples out across the whole movie is simply soooooooo... ghghGHGhghGHGhghghgh. To Me. #in conclusion: im soooooooo normal about the characters in this movie (<- lying)

[awesomechocolatesauce]

I don't think I'm ever going to 100% complete the BG3 achievements. No judgement to anyone, but I really, really don't want to romance the squid.

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldur's gate iii #sorry guys #there's some things I literally can't bring myself to do #one of them is killing those refugees #and the other is fucking a squid #I haven't even beat the game yet #but I didn't trust the Emperor even before the mind flayer reveal #STOP TRYING TO PUSH THOSE TADPOLES ON ME SIR #text post #jessica's personal stuff

[dasistmeinpferd]

Midotaka Day AND Pride Month?? Yes

#out here pushing my bi takao agenda #i feel like this looks weird but I wanted to try using the flags as a color palette #the bi one only has three colors tho and i really didn't know how to do that so i just added another one plus white lol #also with this color palette they suddenly reminded me of wangxian from mdzs which I haven’t even watched in ages #my art #kuroko no basket #kuroko no basuke #midotaka #takamido #midorima shintarou #takao kazunari #knb

[battlevann]

something really funny about 9 year old me and 15 year old me crushing on the same old man robot despite being two entirely different people

#i don't even mean that in a passage of time way we are literally two different people #she jinx and nep/vee got pushed into one person because we didn't need three people trying to be the main person dragging our meatsuit round #and now they're me. so i contiain them but im not them individually #you know? theres a real term for it im just blankin' #also little me had been just. not around for years atp. #not gone just not active #vik.post

[lovelaceisntdead]

I am so teary this evening I think everything is catching up to me I feel. Not good.

#someone bought a book though which was a nice thing that happened #even though it made me sad to say goodbye because it's one of my favourite books I've ever made #i think I've been in such a state of flight lately abd I've been so anxious and now that I'm past that i think the rest of it is #catching up to me again. and my brain does not know how to deal with it. #and so i guess trying to push it all out through my eyes is an option #just feeling bad and i think I'm doing the thing where it goes into a different space in my heas and i can't feel it properly #which i didn't think i was doing anymore but. feel bad so. #i really should reach out to my therapist again but i feel like I'm going to have the same issues and just end up frustrated again #idk. i know this will pass i just have depression and that does mean. sometimes i will feel depressed.

[stardustedknuckles]

The problem with becoming friends with people while all of you are going through some awful trauma is that if you're not careful you won't know how to keep being friends without it. Growth is a good thing, but that can be easy to forget when every step forward you take makes you worry those people won't be in your life anymore and you subconsciously feel like you have to manufacture some kind of ongoing crisis so you guys have something to talk about. Friendships formed in the face of hardship are strong and fierce things, and the relationship fading as your lives improve doesn't mean it wasn't real. It just served its purpose. You all made it out alive, and that was why you found each other in the first place. This is a hard and shitty lesson to learn.

#I miss my core group of friends but my god we were held together by the stress in our lives #We leaned hard on each other and we needed that #But none of us knew how to have a regular friendship with low stakes #And the other three figured it out before I did #So it was just me trying to offer news about my life but it was all... Not even negative just A Lot #And they had moved into stability and didn't need that anymore #And from my point of view if I didn't talk nobody would #Which ended up being true #I got better and offered good things going on in my life and they just.... Stopped #Being friends with them was necessary for that part of my life #Of all of our lives #We all met in college and needed each other the few years after when life was still a mess but without the structure of schoolwork #I'm grateful to have known them #But there's no doubt they saw me as a younger sibling #And the more I began to make my own decisions the more they pushed back #And got upset when I didn't take their advice #I hope they're well #But I think I'm done being hurt that they've moved on #Good for them #Now I have regular friendships too - even deep ones - and they're nothing like that was #I'm no longer doing joint survival mode #mundane adventures

[maraeffect]

there is literally not a worse feeling that exists than the feeling that you just annoy people.

#just doesn't exist. I'm so fucking isolated right now i absolutely hate it. and the people that ARE close to me? #i feel that i annoy them the most and one of them is actively pushing me away #i can't find anyone to be friends with me IRL here in Jersey. it's been almost nine months here #and I don't have a single IRL friend. i try online apps and support groups but nothing clicks #and the people that chat with me on the apps stop answering after 2 messages. #my own best friend of like 8 years won't even fucking talk to me. not bc she hates me or anything #but she is so fucking caught up in her own head that she literally avoids me. so that sucks!! #i know she's suffering bc she is so worried about me but. it's a really big slap in the face that #we've supported each other thru thick and thin the past 8 years. and i dropped everything for her more than once #but in my time of biggest need when I'm the most alone I've ever been in my adult life??? #she cannot show up for me. that fucking sucks. #and I've distanced myself from my only close family bc they've severely mistreated me so. #all i have is my partner. who means the world to me and sacrifices so much to help me!! #but it comes at the cost of CONSTANTLY feeling like a huge fucking annoyance to the only person in my life #who is genuinely able to show that they love and care for me. that's literally awful to feel. #we just had our 5 year anniversary and i needed something really celebratory so badly. #and it didn't happen and our ''anniversary'' was just at home #and our official anniversary of starting dating is on veterans Day. and we won't even be in the same fucking region #so I'll be alone with my shitty family. #i hate it i feel so unappreciated and unwanted and like nothing about me is ever enough. #negative #audio

[cinna-bunnie]

i didn't immediately get a follow-up text saying someone i hung out with had a good time

#😔 my brain is sooooo annoying #i hope there is a Next Time™ though 🥲 i had a rly nice time and.. i don't have reason to Not think they didn't have a good time #👉👈 but ppl can b nice and still ghost u. i just hope that's not the case this time 😭 I've rly been hoping this friendship works out #and if it doesn't tbh I'll be SO upset about it 😭 like if this doesn't work then idk what will man #just give up and be a shut in who does god knows what all day because being a person is too hard #this is like the longest I've talked w anyone from tinder and the most I've actually carried conversation on discord #and we hung out yesterday for the first time and it Seemed good but i haven't heard from them today #and i feel dumb and silly for feeling this way..? being anxious and hopeful has a girl holding her breath all the time 😔 #any step forward feels like my last ykwim? u do something simple and small but always feel like it's Too Much #and like Anything u do is enough to push or scare ppl away 😬 but no one will ever tell u what's wrong!! #so u don't know what u did or what to look out for or idk. it just makes u feel like literally everything and anything is Too Much #and like u shouldn't even try.. but u Should or else you'll be alone frfr. 😮‍💨 idk i feel crazy lol I'm gonna go grab a coffee n draw

[levil0vesyou]

Having a post get popular enough to be independently reblogged by someone you follow but aren't mutuals with is. Wild

#yes it was the sex poll obvs #given the person is a minor i'm very glad they picked answer one lmao #like i do think minors in general are allowed to want and even have sex (with each other obvs) but when it's a minor i personally follow it #would just make me feel pretty weird lmao. like on a personal level ya feel? i mean when u reach an even closer level it becomes not weird #again like my dear friend ness (17yo) who afaik doesn't actually HAVE any sex but occasionally wants to and i support her hot girl summer. #but as stated this person barely knows i exist i just follow his blog (i used they earlier but this was incorrect but tumblr won't let me e #edit the tag 😔) and he's 16yo so seeing him talk about wanting and/or having sex would have been. uncomfortable. like obvs he'd be allowed #to because my personal discomfort is no indication of morality but you get it. like if my big little cousin (she's 15 now by god the years #don't stop coming) were to talk about sex and stuff to me or within earshot i would ummm. throw myself out the window? but like i'd still t #try to be supportive and if push comes to shove then yes i would give her condoms 😔 cuz like if a minor wants sex i will not be able to sto #stop them lmao but i can at least try and make it somewhat safe y'know #actually i remembered i have literally given a 15yo a condom before lmao she's prolly over 20 now but like as the adult dormmate it was alm #almost like a responsibility y'know like what do you want me to DO?? let her get pregnant?? anyway enough tangent lmao #btw all this is also why in the poll i included 'too young' but didn't specify an age cuz that's individual y'know. some people are p late #bloomers (i was one) while others choose to have consensual sex by 14 y'know. not something i like to think about but that doesn't mean it #won't happen ya feel. i mean what am i the american education system? lmao. so some ppl have interpreted being 17 as too young but there's #also folks like this who clearly consider 16 old enough and that's defo ppl's good right. and again i usually don't mind just the fact that #he in particular is someone i already knew made it uncomfy. but anyway yea back on topic it's very interesting in general when your post #gets big enough to independently make it to ur dash thru a non mutual lmao. love the hellsite honestly where else amirite #personal #mine #ok to rb ig #like the actual body of the post anyway. i'd be pretty uncomfy if said person saw my tags on this cuz y'know it's kind vagueing even if it' #not negative but anyway. anyway #*kinda