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Nevertheless, Episode 9

More Thoughts/Analysis

“So it’s true, when all is said and done, grief is the price we pay for love.”

- E.A. Bucchianeri

Jae Eon’s Self Sabotage

Chekov’s Gun is the dramatic principle that details within a story will contribute to the overall narrative. You might have heard of this before in its simplest form: if there is a gun shown in Act 1, it absolutely must go off in Act 2 or 3. In episode 9 of Nevertheless, we have this scene right at the beginning:

Yes, that scene. Park Jae Eon sees Yang Do Hyeok standing off to the side as he waits outside Na Bi’s apartment to retrieve his stuff. Na Bi doesn’t know Do Hyeok is nearby. Jae Eon makes the calculation in his head and manipulates his way inside Na Bi’s apartment, knowing exactly what it looks like to Do Hyeok. It’s petty revenge for seeing Na Bi and Do Hyeok together on campus from earlier.

This is the gun. And it backfires on Jae Eon big time. Throughout the entire episode, his acts of sincerity towards Na Bi seem genuine and heartfelt, yet his action in that one scene undermines anything he attempts. It doesn’t work; to his mounting frustration, Na Bi and Do Hyeok continue to talk and meet as if nothing happened.

(We know that’s not the case as seen from Do Hyeok’s alone time but I’ll talk about that later in this post.)

It’s a ticking time bomb and it goes off at last in the rain scene. Nothing is working for him. He is desperate not to lose Na Bi. And he goes off in a drunken rage on Na Bi after she returns home on that fateful rainy night.

And he loses her. The gun goes off. Everything sincere he did turns rotten in Na Bi’s eyes after he reveals his actions. Actions have consequences, always rippling forward and affecting change in moments not yet experienced. He ruined his chances because of his petty cruelty towards Do Hyeok in the beginning. His sincerity only extended towards Na Bi and it was only to get her attention once more.

Jae Eon lost. Not so much to Do Hyeok, as he lost to Na Bi, who cares about him deeply. He underestimated her feelings towards Do Hyeok, assuming, like so many other viewers, that he was an an irritating distraction that refused to go away.

He can’t fathom why Do Hyeok still seems to like Na Bi after seeing them enter her apartment together. Is he really that incredible a person? What makes him so special?

Well, let’s talk about it.

Do Hyeok’s Crisis Playbook

We see from Do Hyeok’s time alone after his initial visit to Seoul that he is taking it pretty hard; I can’t really blame him, considering what he saw that night. His struggle is open, honest, and raw; like Na Bi, it affects him to the point that he can’t focus on his work (anyone seem to notice that Jae Eon’s work never seems to be affected by his feelings?).

It’s jealousy and insecurity eating away at him. Just like Jae Eon. He’s also desperate not to lose Na Bi but doesn’t want to do anything untoward or overboard because he’s afraid of ruining their friendship. Once again, his consideration is for Na Bi and how she feels, but he cannot ignore what he saw and how he feels about it.

So, what is our favorite Potato Boy to do? Park Jae Eon already made his move by staging that whole scene of him and Na Bi going into her apartment together. How does Do Hyeok fight back? What’s his playbook in this time of crisis?

He doesn’t fight back. And that’s how he stays in the game. Do Hyeok is not a player like Jae Eon; there isn’t a manipulative or deceptive bone in his body. Do Hyeok does what he always does and doubles down on his sincerity, on the strength of his feelings, and his faith in Na Bi.

Do Hyeok doesn’t play the game Jae Eon tries to involve him in. He always lays it all out on the table with Na Bi so there is no room for misunderstandings. That’s one of the reasons why their relationship works so well; they talk more. Not just about feelings or romance but about school or their day to day life. What they’re building now is something that can last a lifetime.

So he talks to her about it. And admits his jealousy. She wasn’t even aware that he had seen them and yet it sounds like he’s the one who is apologizing (even though he never let his hurt feelings show in his conversations with Na Bi, DO HYEOK YOU ARE TOO GOOD). He lays himself bare to her once more. We don’t see Na Bi’s response other than her shocked and guilty expression, which is annoying because it would definitely be interesting to see how she reciprocated his frankness.

(Underrated super cute scene between them in this episode; when they meet up at night and bring drinks for each other. It’s even the exact same drink. I was grinning like a maniac.)

But Na Bi is familiar with Jae Eon’s game. And when she finds out how badly Do Hyeok was hurt by Jae Eon’s actions (and how he involved her in it) Na Bi finally is snapped to her senses and severs the thread still binding her and Jae Eon together.

Na Bi’s choice isn’t shown as a redemptive or heroic moment. It never was supposed to be. Although I’m sure a lot of us were cheering in that moment, her moments of unrestrained grief alone afterwards are the sobering reality that love, as always, comes with a price.

Nabi’s Choice (The Review)

This is a follow up to my earlier post before episode 9 came out. So, now we see what Na Bi decides and, maybe, how it will all play out in the next episode (barring any last minute twists).

First, let’s address the still ongoing criticism I see regarding Na Bi and Do Hyeok’s relationship: lack of passion, no romantic vibes, blah blah blah. I wrote at length in a previous post why that isn’t true - at least on Do Hyeok’s part (one of the reasons why we don’t get internal monologue from Do Hyeok is because what else is he thinking about other than Na Bi?).

Na Bi, on the other hand, is still ambivalent about her feelings towards Do Hyeok. Episode 9 provided more clarity for her stance towards Jae Eon - he’s the dog shit she stepped on and was promptly wiped away in the grass - but Do Hyeok is still a mystery. Yes, she’s friendly, she cares, and genuinely enjoys being with him but the spice, the passion is missing. And that is kinda important for a romantic relationship.

Well. Look no more. Na Bi has spice for Do a Hyeok and it shows not once, but twice this episode. Where’s the passion? Jae Eon fucked around and found out. Very kind of him. Turns out Na Bi, like all of us who like Do Hyeok, will not tolerate any Do Hyeok slander and I am 100 PERCENT here for it.

There’s a scene shortly before the climatic rain fight where Na Bi is having another meeting with her assistants: the junior (does he have a name? Jin-su?) and Jae Eon. The junior talks to Na Bi about her and Park Jae Eon: the usual tired gossip of whether or not they’re dating. Na Bi waves it away like dandelion fluff.

And then the junior mentions Do Hyeok. “What about the noodle shop guy? Ever since the camp meeting, people have been saying there’s a higher chance you’re dating him.”

And Na Bi just . . . we’ve never seen this from her before, even when she broke up with Jae Eon in episode 5. Her whole demeanor turns ice cold and her voice is wicked sharp as she proceeds to shut down that avenue of questioning. The junior physically leans back from the force of her anger and wonders aloud why she’s so upset (you’re talking about her love life as gossip, idiot, why do you think she’s so upset). Jae Eon walks in and doesn’t see the foreshadowing; he just hears Do Hyeok and it feeds his jealousy.

There it is, everybody. Evidence of Na Bi’s feelings for Do Hyeok and what he means to her. Her protectiveness over him and her refusal to let him be involved in the drama surrounding herself and Jae Eon. Her desire to be the better around him; not because he asks (and he would never) but because his feelings for her make her think she might be worthy of such a love.

And then there’s the rain scene. Na Bi and Jae Eon, vulnerable in the rain. Na Bi admits to her faults in the relationship, how she brought this upon herself. No, she hasn’t been nice or good this whole time; in fact, she’s been kind of terrible. But Jae Eon revealing what he did and how it was to hurt Do Hyeok wakes her up and convinces that the time has come to end this “game”. It got Do Hyeok hurt because of her inability to end it with Jae Eon and good people don’t let that happen to people they care about.

So Na Bi ends it with Jae Eon and chooses herself. At last. And to do so, she has to cut out this malignant tumor of a relationship and, God, does it hurt so much to end it, but she gets it done and takes the first step to being a better person for herself.

The cinematography in this drama is top tier and we see her situation presented so viscerally. She’s alone, in the light, but it’s not a warm, redemptive light; it has a sickly, yellow tint and is surrounded by darkness.

But she’s still there. She still made it.

One Last Observation, I Promise

Last thing I noticed from this episode that I want to talk about: the professor’s critique of Na Bi. She specifically mentions that a good artist can inspire others and Na Bi, whether she realizes it or not, actually does do that.

Na Bi helps Do Hyeok with his videos, giving advice that helps boost their popularity and making them better.

Jae Eon is inspired to make the butterfly bracelet for Na Bi and gifts it to her.

The difference between the two? Do Hyeok actually thanks Na Bi for her help and points out that it was her influence that made his videos better.

Jae Eon obviously means his gesture to be romantic and sincere but he again fails to talk about why he’s doing it. The implication is there but Na Bi needs more than some vague nonsense.

Communication is at the heart of this episode and how, without it, relationships stagnate and fail. Bit Na + Gyu Hyun and Soljiwan couple - their relationships only progress because the couples voice their concerns and fears to one another. And instead of being rejected or being hurt, it allows their partners to reassure them and move forward with their relationship.

Why do Na Bi and Jae Eon fail? They. Don’t. Talk. Na Bi is stuck inside her head and Jae Eon relies on vague gestures and sexual chemistry to express himself.

Why do Na Bi and Do Hyeok succeed? Because they talk. About everything. Their dialogue is clear and honest and sincere without any hidden meanings or motives. And you see why Na Bi is rapidly moving more and more towards Do Hyeok and not Jae Eon.

(The preview does raise some questions about how it will all end but I don’t think the show is going to pull a bait and switch and have Na Bi end up with Jae Eon. I also don’t think it’s likely they’ll have an open ending, either. I’ll talk about that in another post.)

My next post will be what I envision to be the best version of a Na Bi and Do Hyeok endgame and what I mean by that since Na Bi shouldn’t be dating anyone right now. So, look forward to that.

Until next time, everybody. Thanks for reading this long ass post. Hope you enjoyed it.

#jtbc nevertheless #nevertheless #kdrama #han so hee #chae jong hyeop #song kang #yu na bi #yang do hyeok #park jae eon

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THE FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION LIVE BROADCAST 23rd APRIL (NOTES/TRANSLATION)

Appearance:

 Kaoru (DIR EN GREY direngrey.co.jp/)

 Joe Yokomizo (Writer / DJ)

 Tasai Reporter (Tokyo Sports)

 God ?

Fuankun

Notes before Reading: This is the special livestream of The Freedom of Expression from last 23rd April.  They are going to talk about several topics for an hour ( Corona virus situation, Dir en grey activities...etc) Please be aware that the sound goes on and off at some parts because of their connections or some related problems. Sometimes they are all talking at the same time or can’t hear each other properly so sometimes their talk is a bit confusing or random. Thanks to @dkv7st  for uploading the video. Please don’t forget to subscribe to their channel and watch their videos to support the program. Feel free to correct me if you spot any mistake or any confusing parts. It’s going to be a long ride.... ---- Kaoru:  This is Kaoru from Dir en grey, the live broadcast of The Freedom of Expression has begun! I’m with Joe-san and Tasai-san, do you hear me? Tasai: Glad we could make it! It seems that Joe didn’t realize they are already live as he seems to be messing with his headphones. Tasai: Joe, we already started…. Kaoru: The program already started! Joe: Oh! It started…. God: God is here too! (cut) Joe: Today we are doing a live broadcast….from here (his device) I see all your comments at the chat...because of that, if you have any questions or comments for Kaoru, please write them and I will pick some and tell Kaoru….Today we are doing a live stream of The Freedom of Expression….Kaoru,  you already did a live stream with everyone last 28th March….you all did a live without audience… Kaoru: That’s it. Joe: Since then, 2-3 week have already passed but, if you want to report something new, please do it first… Kaoru: Anything new to tell? Nothing….(Sound gets a little off for a while) Joe: In other words, you are a guy that does not change much his routine… Kaoru: That’s it, as always, I have a list of things to do, but yesterday, as today we have this livestream…I kind of rushed over some things… Joe: I see…by the way, are the new songs ready? Kaoru: Of course! Joe: Ohhh! You said it! That means that the new album can be finished earlier…. Kaoru: I don’t know that yet…(sounds get off for some seconds) Kaoru: Today, originally, was the final live of the tour…. Joe: I see, I see….(sounds get off) Tasai: Kaoru…how was doing that live broadcast? (28th March) Kaoru: I think it was a good experience, doing a concert and broadcasting it… also for the band….I think it become part of our history…(the sounds goes off at the end of the sentence)… Tasai: I watched it too, and somehow... Joe: *cutting Tasai* I watched it too…. Tasai: All the comments were about how cool it was… God: It was really cool! Kaoru: Eh? God also watched it.. God: I did! I was really moved… Kaoru: You were moved? Do you know our songs? God: I know them… Tasai and Kaoru start talking at the same time, but both are trying to ask God which songs he likes. God: Eh? Kaoru: For example, what songs do you like? God: Which ones I like the most? Eh…it depends of the time… They all laugh, and God says something more about it. Tasai: At the time we were at Interfm87, it was the release of ‘Utafumi’, and we aired it there…. it’s a great memory of that time for me… Kaoru: It was at the time of the release, right? Joe: That’s true… God: I like that one… Joe: Which one? God: Eh well…what I was going to say? Kaoru: What were you going to say? (laughs) Joe: God, somehow, everyone is unsure about you…. they are saying that you seem to not know much about Dir en grey… God:*nervously* I enjoy them and…really, they are the best! They are cool…The World of Mercy is good but Vinushka is so good… Kaoru: You really know them well… God: I do know them well! Joe: You really know them well, God… God keeps trying to proof he is a Dir en grey fan while the other three are laughing hard. Joe: God, do you do things like buying their CDs and listen to them? God: That’s it. Joe: God, can you sing something for us? God sings something and Kaoru burst into laughs. Joe: Thank you so much! That was God! God keeps singing, Joe thanks him again for singing for them but points out his voice is a bit off.  -Joe talks again about the live without audience they did last March, how about performing without audience must feel different after having performed in front of lots of people before, like it makes you thankful for being able to perform like that previously. Kaoru agrees, and says that even if they did it with their 100% there was that feeling (of it being different) as there weren’t any audience but he adds that even if they were performing without no one in front of them, they did it knowing that a lot of people was watching them. Then, he says that it felt like being isolated which makes Tasai and Joe laugh. -Kaoru tells Joe his image(video) looks blurry and Joe says it seems his Wi-Fi isn’t working properly but he says it’s not his fault and he can see everyone well. He repeats again that if you have any questions or comments for Kaoru, please write them at the comments and he will pick and read some to Kaoru. -Kaoru asks Joe about how he is doing now and so. Joe says he is fine but when it comes to his job, he doesn’t have now interviews to do or so. He says he is spending a lot of time at home. Tasai says it’s the same for him, he mostly at home all day, he is only using the phone. In that sense, Joe says it feels kind of lonely. He used to meet a lot of artist and he would take energy from them, even if it is also his job. He thinks that now a lot of people is working remotely from home, so they don’t need to take the train which is a good thing, but on the other side, but humans are social animals and now we are not meeting other people, there are also things that doesn’t let us be happy. Joe: Honestly, I’m going to confess that it became a time for watching porn… Tasai: You don’t change, Joe… Joe: Don’t say that, Tasai… Kaoru: Do you watch a lot of it? Joe: Well…about watching it a lot…. it’s not corona but computers can potentially get another type of virus from it…. They all laugh. Tasai: I weighed myself before this live broadcast…. I got two kilos due to Corona…. Kaoru: That happens when you stay at home… Joe: What about your weigh, Kaoru? Kaoru: It didn’t change… Joe: It didn’t change? But as you can’t do concerts, you don’t drink alcohol there…is it ok? Kaoru: Even when we have concerts… (that doesn’t happen) Joe: I see….as usual…. Now, when it comes to news, there are only news related to Corona virus, the theme of this program is The Freedom of expression so…a lot of news like that are striking us… When Joe is about to read the news he chose, God cuts in. It seems that we couldn’t hear his voice and it’s because he messed up, it’s God’s fault. They take a few seconds to check it’s now ok, and the sounds gets again a bit off until it seems it’s ok and now, we can hear again God’s voice. When the sound is clear again, Kaoru is talking about eating wakame ramen, a new one which doesn’t have noodles. Tasai: Wakame ramen without noodles? Kaoru: As it doesn’t have noodles, it has a lot of wakame….(*he posted about this the next day on his blog*) Joe: But then that’s not ramen! Kaoru: Let’s go and buy it, eat it and share our thoughts on a program…. They talk about doing it or eating it while they drink. Joe says God is reading the comments, then he ask if it is ok that shares some news he wants to, after everyone saying it’s ok to share, he says this news is about something really important right now so that’s why he chose it for this livestream. To sum this up, a lot of shops are closed due to the Corona virus, in order to avoid its spreading but this is causing a problem when it comes to pay the rent. So, the government is trying to figure out how to solve this problem.  The Liberal Democratic Party (LDP) which is in charge, has proposed a plan to offer financial aid (rent support) to medium and small companies or owners of these shops or business to pay the rent and to pay their employees. It seems that the opposition party proposes instead a postponement of the rent payments. Joe: God, you are quiet…. God: Because it doesn’t affect me….as they are talking about the rent of companies and shops… Joe: That’s true, it has nothing to do with home’s rent…But this…. how is it going to be? For example, in the case of renting a live house or so…how is this, Kaoru?... Kaoru: How is going to be? (laughs) Joe reads the comments. Some people are saying “rent is so high!” and so. God: If you do some monetary offering to God, it’s ok! Joe: An offertory, right? Joe reads again the comments, some people are worried or affected by this rent problem. Tasai: It’s something serious… They talk about what about home’s rent. Joe: I hope they do it with home’s rent too… Joe asks the viewers to write about how this is affecting them. He says writing it it’s going to be like an “stress out” exercise, and he is going to pick some answers and read them.  Joe reads some comments about people working in shops or owning one. Some say that now people is not coming to buy as before. Tasai: That’s true, at the supermarket there are only grandmas and grandads…. Someone asks if they are now doing “take-out”. Joe says that for lunch he has a pattern, he eats at a shop and buys a bento for dinner. Tasai: I’m doing it at home…nikuman and such things… Kaoru: Are you doing nikuman? Tasai: To release my stress…. it’s  really fun… Joe: Do you use them to decorate dishes? God cuts in and proposes Tasai to sell his nikuman. Tasai says if he should do the nikuman and manju and God would sell them. God is like “let’s sell them” “let’s sell them” Tasai: Who is going to buy that? Joe says that Kaoru should do nikumans too. God: Let’s do them together! But Kaoru says he is not into it. Tasai asks Kaoru if he cooks, and Kaoru says that barely, that he only cooks fried veggies or ramen. God says he should do nikuman. Joe tells Tasai to post his nikuman recipe at Tokyo sports. Tasai: You want to read that? Tasai starts saying the ingredients of the nikuman. Kaoru says he doesn’t have to do it now and Joe agrees. Joe: There are comments saying that they want to eat nikumans made by Kaoru… God: “Please do a cooking livestream” …. they are writing that… Kaoru: At the comments? Joe asks the viewers to write what they want to see Kaoru doing at a livestream, besides cooking. Joe: Mostly making songs…. do you watch films at home? Kaoru: I do. Joe: But basically…. making songs… Kaoru: That’s it…. I also play FF…. Joe: What’s that? Tasai: Final fantasy… Kaoru: At night, before sleeping, I play a bit… Tasai mentions the Final Fantasy VII Remake, released last March… Joe: Oh, I’m going to tell Kaoru this one….” please make a live stream working out” Kaoru laughs. Joe: Let’s do it… Kaoru: Working out…. I have done it…. Joe: “a live stream about guitar chords” … But Kaoru seems to not be into it. Joe: Oh, there is another… a play list with the BGM from the venues… Kaoru says that he publishes them in his blog, so please go there to check. Joe: There is a question about if you play animal crossing? Tasai: I do! Kaoru: I never played it… (he says something about not playing games so much for 3 years ago?) Joe reads a comment saying that they should do a live stream playing some card games. He says they could do that, but he doubts it would be interesting to watch. Tasai: I want to do it while we drink…. Joe: Ah! Someone says to do a talk with Dir en grey members with Shinya as MC..... Kaoru: The MC…. can’t say anything…. They all burst into laughs… Joe:  If the MC can’t say anything…. the talk doesn’t move forward…there is another saying they want to see you drawing…there are a lot of comments… There is a comment that wants them to play Othello with Shinya. After saying that there are many suggestions, God cuts in jokingly, Joe says that there are a lot of comments with suggestions, like a video of Kaoru doing his make up like he does for lives, or an introduction of his closet… Kaoru: I can’t show you my closet… Joe: Now you are at home as usual, and your daily life hasn’t change but, do you buy stuff online? Kaoru: I buy things that I need, yes…. Joe says that as he is spending a lot of time at home, he is really tempted to buy things online. He says there is also the temptation of porn. One of the comments ask Joe what kind of porn he watches. Joe: Thank you for that question! (laughs) Do you want to know? If you know it, what are you going to do?.... Tasai: It’s not night yet… Joe: It’s not that late…. but as I’m at the radio at late night, maybe  I can tell there…. because now it’s still afternoon, I don’t feel like I should say it… Joe: So, today would have been the last day of the tour… Kaoru: That’s it…as for now, the tour is postponed to may…. but…we still don’t know when will be able to play… Joe: It can’t be helped due to the circumstances… Joe says that if the circumstances changes, maybe they can make it, but Kaoru says it doesn’t depend only on them saying “let’s do it” but also if people would feel safe enough to come. God mentions asks what they are going to do with the 100.000 yen (930$/854€ aprox) that the Japanese Government is going to give to Japan residents. Tasai: 100.000 yen… Joe: 100.000 yen…. Kaoru, what would you do with them? Kaoru: I would spend them on things for daily life, right? Joe says that he would be thankful for those 100.000 yen, but he thinks that if the government just give that as support, it’s going to be hard. Kaoru says the problem is not only “now” but also what will happen in the future. Joe asks God what he would do with that money or he doesn’t need it. God says he would spend it in some food (?).  Joe says that he wants to eat something delicious to release stress, but shops are closed. Tasai replies they should cook nikuman together. Joe laughs and says he is craving for something sweet as he likes sweet stuff. Kaoru: Joe, do you cook? Joe: I don’t…. I used to cook a bit when I lived in USA…. things like curry, but now I mostly do “men’s cooking” …. things like sunamon (Japanese sour salad)….I can’t do elaborate dishes… Joe says he doesn’t even have frying pans at home, Kaoru says he has. Tasai asks him what he eats at home, and Joe replies that, as he said before, he eats out and when he must eat at home it’s more cups like yakisoba cups. After talking a more about foods they make at home, Tasai wants to show Joe a picture to see if he can figure out what’s in. Joe asks him to wait a bit as he has the comments in his screen and can’t see the picture properly, so he is going to open youtube by himself in another device. Joe: Eh?! What’s that? Tasai: What is this? Kaoru, can you guess what is it? Joe doesn’t know what it is, but he says it doesn’t look good. Tasai: You are right! Joe: Is it a hamburger? Tasai explains he was trying to do a jumbo gyoza. Kaoru says it doesn’t look like that at all. Joe jokes saying that it’s not necessary that he shares the recipe. aoru says that there is a person related to the company (label) who got the Corona virus. He asks if it is ok that he invites him to the conversation, after the other’s approval, he adds him.

Fuankun: Hello, hello…I’m Fuankun…. Tasai: Nice to meet you… God: I saw you on tv! *Fuankun opened a youtube channel about him dealing with the Corona virus. He seems to be the president of some visual kei company related to Sunkrad. He seems to work with Arlequin (visual kei band)

After some seconds of introduction and asking how he is doing, Tasai wants to know if having Corona virus is painful or if it was hard for him. Fuankun says it wasn’t painful, but he mentions he lost his sense of smelling so much, that he couldn’t even smell natto even if it is was close to his nose. God starts telling some unrelated story about natto, that ends with Joe telling him to go back to the topic.

-Kaoru asks Fuankun what was the highest temperature he had and Fuankun says he reached  39.6ºC, at that point he thought he was really bad and went to the hospital and got positive for Corona virus. Then, he spent two weeks at the hospital and then he was moved to a hotel where he spent 5 days until he tested negative last 19th April. -Joe asks him how his appetite was, and he says as he wasn’t feeling well, his appetite was low. He explains that he was hospitalized quickly. Kaoru: You could be hospitalized right? Now I think they are not doing that… Fuankun says that now they are cases people who are infected can’t be hospitalized. Tasai asks him about what treatment was he given, and he says he tool medicine for infectious diseases, medicine for congestion and another one for the fever, just that. God asks if he had many injections and Fuankun says he got injected twice. God: Did it hurt? Fuankun: It hurt a little... The other three laugh and Joe says usually injections hurt. God says he is scared of injections. Joe says someone is asking at the comments if he can say the name of the medicine he was given, and Fuankun says it was “Levofloxacin”. Joe asks him if it is a medicine for Corona but Fuankun says it’s for infectious diseases in general. Joe says that maybe it’s a bit too much to ask him this, but he wants to know if Fuankun knows how he got infected. Fuankun answers he was just doing his regular daily life so he doesn’t know. Tasai: How did you fell when you were told you had Corona? Fuankun: “I can’t believe this is happening to me” ….I never thought that I would be infected by Corona… God says that people who got Corona and are cured now are invincible and that’s something amazing. So now that Fuankun is healthy again he has to work a lot (as he is invincible now). Later, Joe says if it is ok to ask something, he wants to know if he is suffering any discrimination related to Coronavirus. Fuankun says as he is still living  under quarantine he can’t tell. God: I don’t want to meet Fuankun…. Fuankun: Me? God: Yes, is that discrimination? Joe: That’s discrimination, God! God: Oh, then I’m sorry, I’m sorry! Joe: You should be the most compassionate one but, God seems to be very narrow-minded… this question is also of a sudden, but you still have to go back to your daily life right? Fuankun: Yes, right now it’s not my usual daily routine at all…. Joe says that he doesn’t know until when things are going to be like this, as Kaoru already said, but they are going to keep taking precautions. Kaoru: You have been ready helpful, thanks for taking part of this, Fuankun. They all thank him for joining them. God: I actually have a big heart!!! Everyone let’s take care of Fuankun! Joe: But he has to be alone now, I don’t think that’s possible… God: But we already became friends… Joe: Rather than that, why you don’t do your best for his complete recovery? Kaoru: That’s true, Can’t God do that? God: I’m going to make some masks…. tiny ones… Tasai: Did you receive them? (Japanese Goverment said they were going to send 2 masks per home) God: I didn’t receive them yet… Joe: I wonder if the people who is watching this have already received them… Many people say in the comments that they haven’t received them yet. Someone in the Shibuya district says that they have received them, Joe says he is also in Shibuya district, but he hasn’t received any masks.Joe wants to read some interesting article about masks from USA if they have time. *The news is about Mindy Vincent, an enterprising Utah resident, who has designed a apenis-covered face mask to keep people away and prevent the spread of Corona virus. Vincent first posted about her “#projectpenismask” initiative Thursday in a viral Facebook post with over 400,000 shares and 170,000 reactions. The masks were sold out within an hour* Joe: Very USA-ish news… God: I want that…. if I saw it, I would buy it…it’s a mask for men…. Joe says he saw the picture of the masks and the penises printed in the mask are very small. That’s why you only see them if you are close to the person, so if you can see them clearly, it means you are not keeping the social distance. They are wondering about the price of these masks. Joe. What about you, Kaoru? What kind of mask would you make for yourself? What kind of print? Kaoru: One with that part of my face printed….so it doesn’t look like I’m wearing a mask…. Joe reads in the comments that people is saying they would buy those mask of Dir en grey. Someone says they would want a mask with one of his drawings. Other person says they want a mask with the picture of the jumbo failed gyoza of Tasai on it. God: There are people watching from Italy too… Joe: From Italy? Thank you… Kaoru: Well, we have been already in for an hour….I think it’s about time…. Joe: It’s about time to say goodbye…. Kaoru:  We are right now living under theses circumstances…I think it’s good we are able to make this program…these are difficult times for creating content…. we almost look stupid…but we want to make it interesting…we want to raise our voice… God: I want to do it while we drink! Joe: I agree! I agree! They say they should make gyozas but Kaoru thinks that it’s going to be hard being just 3 people. Tasai says he is going to teach them and Joe teases him saying that he doesn’t think he can be a “teacher” of doing gyozas. God: Someone is saying hello from Poland….but at this times wouldn’t it be sayonara? God says he is already feeling lonely. Joe says they should do another live stream soon. God asks if everyone is doing good.Kaoru says that today’s livestream was a bit of a sudden as they were told yesterday, but it’s ok. Next time they will try to announce it before. He alsos says that tomorrow (24th April) a new The Freedom of Expression program will be up. God: Everyone, please take care of Corona! Everyone: Yes, please take care! Kaoru: Thank you for watching this live stream!.....please subscribe to the channel…. Joe: Please take care!

#dir en grey #kaoru #the freedom of expression #translation

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Big Hero 7: The Series

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Big Hero 7 S2

Something Fluffy

*At the local landfill Noodle Burger Boy is with Trina looking for parts to upgrade since the appearances and attacks of people transforming to monsters began. Especially with the news of Orso Knox and his 'death' in the hands of Big Hero 7.*

N.B.B:*Picks up a hardware* Will I like this? Nah. *Picks up a shiny wheel* Ooh`! Golly sis! What about this?

Trina: We want to upgrade, not lame-grade.

N.B.B: Its shiny.

*As N.B.B stores it in his head.*

Trina: Its like trying to have a conversation with a blender.

* And when she gets searching, Trina picks up a wind turbine.*

Trina: Hello there! This might work.

Hiro: Trina, figured I find you in the trash.

*And above the bots are Hiro and Baymax in their super suits, having heard that the word that Trina and NBB would be lurking somewhere.*

Baymax: Many items here are recyclable.

Trina: That's what I'm doing Hugs. Self improvement.

NBB: Sis says we are keeping up with the 'biologicals'.

Trina: Got to! Every loser in town is going monster these days.

Hiro: Don't I know it.

NBB: Time to scrap!

*Trina throws a metal pole to Baymax to which he catches it with his hands.*

Baymax: Scrap?

Hiro; I think he's making a joke.

Baymax: Oh! Trash is also referred to as scrap. Synanons.

NBB:Hee hee. Hee hee.

*Before Hiro could warn Baymax NBB knocks Baymax to the trash with his laser eyes.*

Trina: And that's our cue to leave. Lets go bro.

NBB: That sounds swell sis!

Hiro: Baymax! Rocket Fist!

*Baymax launches his rocket fist to the robotic duo where it knocks them out.*

trina: Always gotta have the last word don't you?

NBB: I feel real shiny!

*Trina picks NBB up before the super duo could.*

Baymax: We are due at the symposium in eleven minutes. You are covered in garbage

Hiro: Right... *Strains to pull himself out with moderate success.* Let me just *Then he falls deeper inside.*

Baymax: Perhaps it would be advisable to-

*That's when Baymax falls to the trash himself, though not as deep.*

Baymax: Oh no.

*The symposium is about a duo interview with Alistair Krei and Liv Amara themselves with Bluff Dunder. The main guests being students from SFIT.*

Dunder: Any more questions for our tech pioneers Alistair Krei and Liv Amara?

Student: Uh... this is a question for Liv?

Krei:*Mumbles under breath* Great... another one.

Student: A big fan, probably biggest, how is Sycorax doing since the Monster attack destroyed most of your work?

*Krei's eyes turn to Liv as he waits for her response to that question. If he hadn't been informed about what truly happened at the incident and what Orso Knox had said, he would have smirked at her discomfort... but all he felt is disgust. The only satisfaction he has is now Liv's reputation is under scrutiny since that day. While it had lessened, there were still questions about it.*

Liv: It has been a long road to repair the damage. But thankfully we have recovered half of our research and are on the verge of finding new ones! My workers had been recovering well and are now back in action.

Hiro: *Mumbling in distaste* Yeah, back to creating monsters that nearly killed us and bribing my girlfriend to work for you again.

Cora: Hiro, be quiet...*Sniffs before her face slightly cringes* Whats that smell?

Baymax: We fell into garbage.

Gogo: Finally someone is asking a real question about Liv Amara.

Cora: Yeah.. the same question over and over...

Hiro: Challenge accepted.

Cora: Wait! *Pulls out a bottle of perfume* If you're gonna ask Amara, at least make yourself smell decent.

*After spraying him in perfume Hiro walks down to ask next.*

Dunder: Aww, looks like we have a question from that little boy.

*Some of the students chuckle but Cora was not amused, crossing her arms and frowning at their laughter.*

Hiro: Miss Amara, you guys never talk about what you guys actually do?

Liv: Sycorax invests in the future. Were you even listening Hiro?

Hiro:No, I heard that, I mean whats the product that you make?

Liv: Oh *Chuckles* who really wants to hear about the minutia reprogramming serum and its effects on recovanent DNA? But fantastic question! Who's next?

*Hiro tries to ask another question but soon Cora joins in, her eyes filled with judgement.*

Dunder: Oh! Looks like our next guest is the girl who survived the rampage! How are you little girl?

Cora: Dandy Mr. Dunder *To Liv* Miss Amara, I have to agree with Hiro on this one. When I was your intern for that day all I've been instructed is to search for unique genetic coding of the cuttlefish and how they expand their bodies and squirt ink... but you never clarified any ideas for a product that you make based on those findings... or had you even planned to make said product at all?

Liv: Well, lets just say that its a WIP at the moment, and I must say that I loved the effort you showed. I was glad to have you as my intern that day. I wish you the best, Who's next?-

Cora: But there's also the fact that Orso Knox was still in his monster form at the time. Two months ago you claimed that you are two to three weeks from a breakthrough... but when I was... kidnapped... he was still a monster. Have you been busy with other projects to even assist Mr. Knox?

Liv: You see-

Cora: Or was it that you were keeping him in a cell like an animal? Also... Hiro and I stumbled across this patch *pulls out a the patch they found* it was on Nedd Lud, and the only other patch I've seen is at Sycorax-

*Hiro comes back down and grabs the microphone as he hears the tone of Cora's voice grow hostile as Liv Amara's eyes start to be impatient and annoyed.*

Hiro: Ummm hey! Its getting late and I promised your dad I would take you home before curfew-

Cora: I have one more question Miss Amara...

Liv: *Eyes with small suspicion* And what would it be Cora?

Cora: Mr. Knox first went to Frederickson manor... then Krei Tech... then the award ceremony…. of all the times Orso Knox came through his appointments to meet the people he was supposed to see... why did he only attack you?

*Mr. Dunder looks at Liv Amara with slightly raised eyes as Krei looks between Liv and Cora, his hands gripping each other as he waited for something to happen.*

Hiro: And he's here! Come on Cora! Lets go!

*He quickly drags Cora upstairs and to the exit joined by Wasabi, Gogo and Baymax. Dunder looks at Liv Amara, who has been quiet since Cora phrased the question.*

Dunder: I believe that's all the time we have for now. Join us next time!

* Once outside the symposium, Gogo gives Cora a smack upside the head*

Cora: Ow!

Gogo: What were you thinking Cora?

Cora: What?

Wasabi: Loosing your cool like that? Do you want Liv Amara to know that you're suspicious of her?

Hiro: If she figures out you know what happened to Orso Knox she'll hurt you or worse! Use that brain of yours!

Cora:... *Sighs sadly* You're right guys... it was foolish of me...… I should've thought of things more carefully than just springing up and doing it like that...

Hiro: Come on Cora, lets just go home. I really meant it that I promised your dad that I bring you home before curfew.

Cora: Yeah... wanna stay over for dinner you guys? My treat..

*Later on at Sycorax Liv Amara is studying the liquids while she hums a birthday song as she places them all onto a tray.*

Liv: And perfect... as usual.

*She throws the lever which combines all the liquids into a container.*

Liv: Isn't it beautiful?

*The machine completes to 100 percent as it finishes creating Liv Amara's new creature.*

Chris: What is it?

Liv: Meet our new insurance policy.

*The door opens up to reveal the creature inside.*

Chris: It... is.. so.. adorable!

*The creature is a little tadpole like creature with lotus blossom shaped ears on its head.*

Miyaoi: Miyaoi.

Chris: I heard about what that little girl said to you... you still want her in this team?

Liv: You and I both know we're only adding her to Sycorax because of her book. I'll get her to trust me again, and once I get close enough to learn all its juicy secrets her grandmother and mother wrote... you and I would have to make Cora have a little... accident at work.

*She pulls up the holograms of the photo, then of the book, and finally of Cora herself. The last image sparking out before it dies down in shocks and sparks.*

*The next day, Hiro is at the table working up his assignments while Cora is bring back glasses of water. However, when she was about to get close, Karmi shows up out of nowhere frightening Cora and making her spill the glasses. Hiro hears the yelp and looks up to see Karmi in front of Cora.*

Cora: Um… can I help you?...

Karmi: Why were you attacking Liv with your baseless accusations?

Cora: Baseless? Karmi, you were there. At the ceremony and the Sycorax attack, you saw it happen.

Karmi: That monster only attacked because it was already going crazy before Liv Amara came to help as did I! I helped Big Hero 7! Also, it was your fault for going near him in the first place!

Cora: That was my fault and I admit it! But what were you doing in the meantime he was there? While he was still trapped in that cell like an animal? Nothing!

Karmi: That's probably because he's already too far gone! Ugh, I still can't believe that even now Liv Amara is sending you get well presents after the attack and you still act like she's evil you ungrateful little-!

*Hiro gets up to quiet the storm.*

Hiro: Um Karmi, maybe you should-

Karmi: *to Hiro* This doesn't involve you!

Hiro: Actually it does. You're harassing my girlfriend over a job she quit and over questions! Would you just leave us alone already?! A lot of crazy things are happening lately and the last thing we want is to deal with you!

Karmi:... I'm watching you two...

*She stomps her way out, leaving those two alone as Cora lets out a sigh of relief.*

Cora: Thanks Hiro... I've would've lost my cool there...

Hiro: Karmi can throw what ever spiteful thing she could at me, but there's no way I'm just letting her take out her attitude to you.

Cora:... but she did have a point... this is only things we saw... Meet up the gang.

*The gang later appear to discuss about what to do with Liv Amara and the discoveries they learned.*

Wasabi: OK, I checked in with Commander Carter and he said that while our suspicions and what we found is good info about Liv Amara, we can't storm in and bring her to jail.

Fred: Its not like with Steamer since he has openly admitted to being evil. Liv Amara has public opinion and investors by her side.

Honey Lemon: That's right, she's too high profiled. Big Hero 7 can't do anything to her if we don't have actual proof.

Hiro: Then all we need to do is find evidence about Liv Amara's acts and we should be able to stop her!

Gogo: How? The only proof we have is Orso Knox and one, he's already far into the ocean, and two; the only one who could understand him is Cora.

Cora: And we can't risk his life, who knows what she would do if she finds out he's alive? What can we do?

Hiro: Now all we can do is stop the monsters attacks and look for any evidence to stop her.

*That's when Cora's phone rings up with a news report.*

Dunder: Breaking news! San Fransokyo is being invaded-

Hiro; *Groans* seriously? this soon?

Cora: time to suit up.

Fred: Ooh~! Ultra Armor up!

*Soon they all suit up with the armor Hiro made at the Sycorax attack, now adding Cora's suit. Now she could squirt harmless ink out of her finger tips to blind the criminal and added the ability to swim swifter than a dolphin. They all arrive at the center of town ready for battle... only to find it completely normal.*

Fred: Ummm….where's the invasion?

*Honey Lemon pulls up her phone to check out what the invasion truly is about.*

Dunder: I repeat! San Fransokyo is being invaded by these guys.

*Soon footage of the creatures Liv Amara created is shown, happily playing with children and being as adorable as puppies.*

Dunder: Miyaoi, adorable.

Honey Lemon: Oh they're so cute I can't even stand it!

*Hiro turns to Cora to show that she's struggling to keep a straight face as she sees the Miyaoi.*

Baymax: I do not understand. What makes this creature cute?

Honey Lemon: Its like how puppies are cute! Or stickers! Or you!

Baymax: I was designed to appear friendly and non threating. Is that cute?

Cora: And huggable. Like Tadashi said when you and Hiro first met.

Fred: Totally agree. I gotta be honest, ultra armor you is pretty threatening. But marshmallow you, premo-cute!

*Honey Lemon continues to squeal in happiness over the adorableness while Cora shakes to control herself from loosing herself to the adorableness to which Hiro is the first to break the ice.*

Hiro: Just because they look cute doesn't mean they're not dangerous!

Gogo: Negative world view, I like where you're going with this.

Cora: *shakes herself off* You're right Hiro! For all we know, this could be a gremlin situation!

Wasabi: Gremlin?

Fred: Oh yeah! Like that movie! They appear super cute until you feed them after midnight! Then they're super freaky and destroy the entire town!

Baymax: I suggest gathering more data.

Hiro: Yeah, Baymax is right. We need a miyaoi.

Honey Lemon: Yay!

*The next day, the gang gather round to capture a Miyoi. Hiro, Wasabi, Cora and Baymax,pair off to capture the Miyoi throughout the park, the city, through Mole's hideout, and making the classic box trap. As of while Gogo, Honey Lemon, and Fred are at the alleys looking for a Miyoi.*

Gogo: Anything?

Fred: Nope, and remember, nothing gets by me.

*A Miyoi got passed by Fred. Luckily Gogo hears the sound of another Miyoi close by.*

Gogo: What was that?

*Gogo peeks around the corner to see the fluffy tail of the Miyoi in a box. Gogo makes gestures to silently signal Fred and her girlfriend Honey Lemon about the Miyoi. Except she failed to realize that neither of them have any idea about hand signals about a plan.*

Gogo: OK, just follow my lead!

*Gogo and Honey Lemon step over and hide while Fred does the same, only to trip over himself and land into garbage bags. But hope is not lost as Gogo spots a box moving through.*

Gogo: Gotcha!

*The Miyoi purrs as the three aww...which surprised Fred and Honey Lemon because she actually cooed at the little cutie.*

Gogo: What? I feel things... sometimes.

*The four others go to the lab to meet up with the other three as they check the news. It seems all of San Fransokyo is all wrapped around the Miyoi.*

Hiro: I gotta admit, if this was a plan by Liv Amara to throw people off her scent she's done a good job.

Cora: Definitely Babe.

Baymax: It is because they are cute like Honey Lemon said.

Wasabi: I agree, about the Liv Amara plan I mean. To me they look like a bed of hot bacteria. I'm not falling for the whole cute act.

Hiro: No, we are not!... huh?

*The four turn around to see that the three had found the Miyoi and are playing with it with a laser pointer.*

Hiro: Seriously guys?

Gogo: Hey, Baymax said we needed data. There's our data. and its so cute.

Hiro: That doesn't explain the toys or the treats or the laser pointer behind Fred's back?

Fred: Oh that's cause we're keeping him. Forever.

Minimax: Friend Fred. I have kept a list of things your mother has banned from the house: all animals with fur, all animals with feathers, all animals with scales, certain tree nuts.

Fred: Oh... right. Thanks Minimax.

Minimax: You're minimaximum welcome!

Fred: We're still keeping him forever... just not in my house.

Honey Lemon: Ooh! Gogo and I can keep him at our place...maybe?

Gogo:*Cooing at the Miyoi* Who's my fuzzy wuzzy? *Normal voice to Honey Lemon* Yeah, sure whatever.

Honey Lemon: Even Gogo can't say no to these adorable eyes.

Cora: Oh no... Gogo fell for the cute... the apocalypse is coming.

Baymax: Are large eyes the indicators of cuteness?

Fred: Haha yeah they are! Right up to being extra round and fuzzy! *To Miyoi in cutesy voice* With your widdle face and our eeny weeny titsy little feet!

Baymax: I see footsize is also a factor.

Minimax: Indeed, I am adorable.

Baymax: I have noted this in my database.

Hiro: Guys! Can we please just focus! We don't know anything about this little guy!

Cora: You're forgetting that it could be trap!

*But they were too wrapped up about the Miyoi to listen to them anymore. Cora sighs before Hiro places a hand on her shoulder. Soon they and Baymax walk towards Grandville's office. Only to see Grandville... cooing at her very own Miyoi… which stunned them to silence... And then they lock the door to leave them in peace.*

Hiro; Its official...

Cora: Everyone's gone for the cuteness... Is there anyone else that could help us with this thing?

Baymax: What about Karmi?

Hiro: Baymax, you saw us earlier. Karmi already hates our guts, and since the Orso Knox incident she's been a complete bitch to us!

Cora: Asking for her help is the equivalent of a raindrop falling to the sea.

Baymax: And what does that mean?

Cora: It means nothing can help us!

Baymax: I do not understand why you two do not like the Miyoi. Do you not want to scratch their chins?

Hiro: Liv is messing with us big time! Look!

*Hiro pulls out his phone to show text pictures of Cass holding a Miyoi, with a sad Mochi ignored in the background.*

Cora: Poor Mochi... even Aunt Cass can't stop falling for them...

Hiro: Something big is going to happen, I just know it!

*Just then Baymax's belly lights up with Wasabi's face on it.*

Wasabi: We have a problem!

*Hiro, Cora, and Baymax run as fast as they could back to the lab where the see the chibi sized Miyoi is now... bigger than they were... and its sitting on Fred's lap*

Fred: It- Grew!

Hiro: I hate to say I told you so.

*Gogo finally pulls the Bigyoi off Fred which then lands on Gogo.*

Gogo: Then don't.

Hiro: But I did ah-!

*The Bigyoi launches itself at Hiro to which Cora immediately tries to push it off.*

Hiro: Fred? What did you feed it?

Fred: I gave him a bunch of tofu nuggets.

Cora: So it is a gremlin scenario.

Gogo: Tofu nuggets?

Fred: Heathcliff always said its good for growing boys and I guess he was right because his boy is grown!

Hiro: If this Miyoi got big, then what about the others?

Honey Lemon: Maybe its just ours?

Baymax: It is not.

*Baymax pulls out the news channel to show Dunder and footage of the suddenly enlarged Miyoi across town.*

Dunder: Breaking news! It looks like our darling Miyoi are all grown up and destroying the city...but come on. Adorbs.

Cora: We better call Grandmama. She would know about this.

*Soon enough Kaguya is at the lab with the other students.*

Kaguya: Alright now, you want me to study over what is making these pests grow?

Cora: Yes! Thank you!

Kaguya: I would need some equipment though.

Hiro: *Sighs* I know a place...

*Karmi is at the bio lab when she hears the door open. she turns around to see Cora and Hiro with Baymax.*

Karmi: What do you two want?

Cora: Could we borrow your equipment please?

Karmi: And why should I help you and Hiro, fish breath?

Kaguya: *stepping out behind Baymax* Because I require some equipment for study and your behavior is not helping.

Karmi: *Remembers the deadly glare at the lunch area when they first met and strains a nervous smile* Oh! Hehe... you didn't mention its for your grandmother! Of course you can borrow it! Just don't break it please?

*Kaguya walks forward and looks at the biotech student.*

Kaguya: I require Privacy young lady.

Karmi: Oh... OK...

*Karmi slowly walks out the door before she flat out runs out when she sees a large Miyoi heading her way. After Honey Lemon and Cora place the Miyoi at the top of the table Hiro goes over to Kaguya who is soon at work at figuring out what the Miyoi actually are. After snipping a bit of their fur Kaguya looks under the microscope and notes down some interesting features.*

Kaguya; It seems that this creature's fur is composed of fungi. They are more closely related to plants then animal. Baymax would you scan for any features?

Baymax: Scanning. Looking for hybrid characteristics.

*Baymax scans the creature and finds results.*

Baymax: The Mayoi are photosynthetic.

Kaguya: Exactly, they survive off sunlight but they can process any other food it consumes which means...

Honey Lemon: The excessive growing!

Kaguya: Nanochemical isolations... that's how plants communicate... fungi itself have their own network that they use to communicate to each other to signal where any fertile soil is available..

Cora: Grandmama… If the Mayoi are fungi that communicate and search to expand their spores... does that mean?-

*The group turn their heads to see the Miyoi grow larger in size. *

Hiro: Can you reverse this Kaguya!?

Kaguya: Give me time!

Cora: We don't have it Grandmama! Lets go!

*They all run out the room as the Miyoi soon fill up the room, breaking every equipment inside.*

Cora:... Karmi's gonna kill us...

Kaguya: You deal with the mayoi now! And gather up sea water if you can!

Honey Lemon: Sea water? What for?

Kaguya: A large gallon of sea water would kill the fungi and stop spreading its spores!

Honey Lemon: *Shocked at what she's hearing* We have to what?!

*Somewhere in the city a mother is playing with her baby when she sees a large shadow of the Miyoi. She quickly runs off with her baby as the other members of Big Hero 7, already in their ultra suits, trying to stop the Miyoi.*

Wasabi: Remember when they were small? I miss that!

*Fred crawls his way out of the Miyoi's mouth as they struggle to fight the monsters off. As of while Hiro, Cora, Honey Lemon, and Baymax suit up and fly towards the rest of the gang.*

Honey Lemon: I don't know about this, do we really have to kill them?

Cora: Honey Lemon, they're the gremlins at this point!

Hiro: But where are we gonna get a large sum of salt water in such a short time?!

Cora: I say we corral these guys gently and send them to the bay. If these guys are plants I could find a song that they would follow! Research shows that plants respond positively to music!

Hiro: Sounds great! *Via com link* OK guys, we just left the campus and we're gonna need you all to gather the Miyoi to the center of town!

Fred: We got it Hiro!

*And soon one by one, they all lead the miyoi to the center of town with their laser blades, using themselves as fetching sticks, and frisbees. The four arrive at the top

Hiro: Good job guys, we just need to keep them happy and relaxed-

*That is when all the towns' lights change their vibrant colors to an ominous green.*

Cora: Whats going on?...

*Soon all the Miyoi are in a deep trance that they could not be bothered with the others. That is when on the big screen, Mr. Sparkles appears back.*

Mr. Sparkles: Hello San Fransokyo!

Mr. Sparkles: Are you all enjoying my adorable little gifts? Except they're not so little anymore are they?!

Fred: No!

*Gogo pulls Fred out of the Miyoi's mouth. Hiro wraps his arm around Cora as the teen couple look at the crazy manchild with suspicion.*

Mr. Sparkles: That's right San Fransokyo! I've been cooking up all sorts of monster surprises! It was me!

Wasabi: The Miyoi aren't moving!*Straining as he pushes the miyoi hard*

Mr. Sparkles: Enjoyed Momakase? Love the Hybagon? Disturbed by High Voltage's new fishy appearance? And who could forget Orso Knox?!

Hiro: *Not believing it for a second* Sparkles is behind the monsters?

Mr. Sparkles: All me kid! *Notices Cora* You look a little familiar though-

*Cora punches away the camera drone in retort.*

Mr. Sparkles: Ooh~ Feisty!

*soon Mr. Sparkles appears in person.*

Mr. Sparkles: Watch me work!

*And soon his eyes glow an ominous green as fungi grows from his head as his skin turns green. He walks off the building to fall which causes everyone to gasp.*

Hiro: Baymax?!

*Baymax flies forward to catch Sparkles but a miyoi catches him first.*

Mr. Sparkles: The main attraction starts now! Can you guess what it is? Its me! Destroying the city with my fat fur babies!

*And soon all the Miyoi's height increased from being slightly adorable to being terrifying.*

Gogo: How is he doing this?

Wasabi: Its like he's controlling them?!

Hiro: Vibrations! Sparkles is communicating with the miyoi!

Cora: And by using nanochemical osolation!

Fred: Could you explain it in comic book terms please?

Honey Lemon:Its psedo-telepathy.

Fred: Mind control? That's number eight of my top ten list of super powers!

Wasabi: And number one on our lists of problems! How do we stop it?

Cora: Salt water!

Gogo: where are we gonna get salt water?!

Honey Lemon: And I can't produce enough to stop them!

*Gogo tries to knock out Mr. Sparkles but a miyoi hands blocks her path.*

Mr. Sparkles: Did I mention I can see whatever the miyoi see? I have eyes at the back of my head! not literally since its an idiom! Never stop learning! Say bye bye to Big Hero 7 folks!

*The gang scatter around to avoid the miyoi until one of them knocks out Hiro and Cora off Baymax.*

Big Hero 7: Alpha! Aqua Girl!

Baymax: Oh no!

*Baymax zooms to rescue them before they could hit the ground. But when Baymax grabs them to shield them from the impact they are at the mercy of the miyoi. Before it could strike it down, a blast of salt water hits the Miyoi which causes it to quickly disintegrate, leaving the three to feel only tiny drops of water.*

Sparkles: Plot twist! Who's this?

Liv: Liv Amara! And I am here to save this city.

*This catches the other hero's attention when she said that.*

Fred: What?

Liv: I saw the trouble on tv so I created a synthesized orb that contains the salt water to destroy them.

*She reaches her hand out to the two teens, to which Cora takes first... with a rather tight grip.*

Liv: Oof!... tight grip you got there.

*Cora picks up Hiro with the same mistrusting eyes as his girlfriend's.*

Sparkles: Sorry I asked, crush her!

*The Miyoi charge but Liv Amara quickly shoots out the compressed salt water to destroy the Miyoi. A car comes out with Christ driving, the trunk opening to reveal the same machines for Big Hero 7.*

Liv:Now come on!

*And so the entire team set out to destroy these beasts one by one, all that remains of them were pieces of fungi draining down the sewage. Soon there was only one left, and its carrying Mr. Sparkles in the back. With that Fred jumps up high and squirts the salt water to the last miyoi.*

Mr. Sparkles: This is not how I saw things going!

*Baymax catches the man before he gently sets him down. Cora climbs down to see Mr. Sparkles with a rather terrifying death glare.*

Mr. Sparkles: What?

*Cora punches him square in the jaw.*

Sparkles: What was that for?

Cora: Reasons.

Sparkles: Ugh... stupid brat...Oh well!

*He soon jumps up and bounces out of here.*

Sparkles: I'll come up next time for more super monster mashups!

*And so the team is left staring at the water running through the floor while Liv Amara gets all the praise. And with that the city is saved.*

Dunder: In conclusion we are very lucky to have Liv Amara in our fair city.

*The gang are at the dining hall the next day discussing about last night's events.*

Honey Lemon: Since Mr. Sparkles took credit for the monsters, that would make Liv a Hero.

Gogo: She's more insidious then we thought. Krei was right about her all along.

Baymax: Hiro, Cora. I created an image to present something cute for you two to cheer up. Perhaps it will soothe you both.

*The image he created... was not cute at all. Cora clings to Hiro tightly in slight fear.*

Cora: Hiro I'm scared!

Hiro; Uh.. thanks Baymax! That's... very special...

Baymax: Yes, he is a good boy.

Wasabi: So we can all agree that Liv Amara partnered up with Sparkles to make all of this happen!

Fred: Liv showing up to be the surprise hero is a typical villain fake out. Ugh... at least *Coughs out Obakes name to muffle* was more original.

Gogo: Exposing her actions is gonna be tougher than we thought.

Cora: We know that Liv Amara created those monsters to attack the city...

Hiro: But the question is, what is her end game?

*At Sycorax labs, Liv is at her private lab where she opens up a secret passage to reveal at the end of the hall a pod containing someone inside.*

Liv: I won't let you down... After I get all of San Fransokyo bowing at my feet and Nozako's fortune, all of our dreams will come true.

A.N: And that's Something Fluffy? How do you enjoy this twist of events? See ya next time!

#big hero 7 #big hero 6 fanfic #Hiro Hamada #Cora Mizichio #hiro hamada x oc #Baymax #Wasabi #Fred Frederickson IV #Honey lemon #GoGo #HoneyGogo #liv amara #Chris BH6 #Mr. Sparkles #trina aken #noodle burger boy #Miyoi #Kaguya Sakurai #Karbitch

[sailor-cresselia]

13: Watching the sub this time! Ghost is fed up, and CURSE YOU DECADE

Woz: My lord has screwed up, so now I have to start all over. (sarcasm) Great. (end sarcasm)

See, tsukuyomi does have some combat skills, if her catching that chair so easily is any clue. She’s just not allowed to show them Because Toei.

“ENOUGH! You’ll break something.” I love you, Tsukuyomi. You’re the best. Please don’t die.

“there’s no good reason to be stealing from anyone. Well, unless it’s a girls heart, then it’s romantic.” SIR STOP IT. I HAVE SEEN THIS IN RAW FORM AND I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU’RE GETTING AT. STOP IT.

sir you keep removing any chances for me to trust you ever. i think we’re at negative two. cut it out.

Wait, hang on… what was Sougo even doing at the bike-track underpass?

I really like that Narita just. Lassos Sougo. That’s the best way to catch a noodle-limbed rider, clearly. That way, you don’t let him get at his belt! … of course, we’ve seen that Sougo can get his belt activated by other people, but he still needs to put it on first, so…

I was wrong before. It’s less of a hit-list and more of a “pull a Masamune Dan and upload everyone before the bad things happen” list.

The guy in the car was driving in the dark and the rain. The kid at the underpass was on a bike… and I thought something was up, but forgot to mention it last time. Once they showed what happened to Another Ghost, I though he might be going after safety violations, which was helped by the guys at the factory being absolutely terrible at their jobs. But I forgot to say anything… drat.

So, I can’t tell what Woz’s goal is for getting the Time Jackers involved with Decade. He’s playing them in one way, Decade’s probably doing the same, and they’re all playing both of them… (This, too, is Toei’s fault.)

THEY’VE BEEN TRACKING ANOTHER GHOST FOR THREE YEARS. help them.

Takeru: Geiz. You just killed a man. You must pay.

Uhr: Sorry, wrong, he’s already a goner.

So Uhr is talking to Mika and Geiz. Well, presumably including Geiz, since Uhr knows full well that the other time travelers are at least resistant to the time freezing. But I don’t think Uhr knew TAKERU was listening.

*sobbing* oh nooo Another Ghost did The Thing to ‘release’ the souls he collected.

oh. So that’s what Uhr was saying to get him to go after Zi-O. He told Another Ghost about the whole evil overlord thing, and since Another Ghost’s whole thing is punishing people who hurt others… whoops.

(“Whoops” is the most applicable phrase ever for anything related to Ghost, I swear.)

And yeah, the Suika Sprite is still adorable.

Hey, come to think of it, this is the first time we’ve seen anyone go straight from one Armor set into another, isn’t it? The Ghost armor gets summoned as the Gaim armor removes itself. And that is basically by re-winding its own sequence. Zi-O reverts to his base form, and on goes the Ghost armor.

And thankfully the Ghost armor does not include the Parka Ghosts for Zi-O like it did for Geiz. THANK YOU.

See, is that a “oh, so he’s the guy who gave me the thing!” reaction on Takeru’s face, or a “who’s this imposter?” reaction? Or a “Oh, so this is the guy they warned us about!” reaction.

(I just really really want to keep my fake amnesia theory going, guys. Thanks, ‘OOO & Genm.’ Thanks.)

Decade: So, you’re my successor? Let’s see what you’ve got, kiddo.

Wait… wait. Have. Have we seen Sougo get knocked out of his transformation before? We’ve only seen two really bad beatings before this… First was Sougo vs Geiz in ‘OOO & Genm,’ then Agito!Decade vs Geiz earlier in this episode, and now Hibiki!Decade vs Sougo.

Takeru: Oh, good, I didn’t knock you too far away. I’m really sorry about this. I know, it sucks, but at least I’m going to be honest with you about your odds.

Unlike a certain sketchy old guy who apparently has a habit of taking recently deceased 18 year olds and giving them 99 days.

(sorry to folks in the zi-o tag, I finally got around to watching 100 Eyecons the other day and I’m even more annoyed with Edith now than I had been from his actions in just the season on it’s own.)

Preview!Makoto: Takeru, why aren’t you transforming?!

Preview!Takeru: Because these are the guys who’ve been screwing everything up with everyone else, and I was trying to keep them from finding me out, which you have just ruined.

13.5: Oh dear lord

I live for the interludes. I just live for these.

I’m so sorry Takeru. She had to bring up Officer Tomari. He’s incredibly relevant. I know you have some hero worship going on there. But he’s busy being a different detective right now.

And here’s some stuff.

Ryoma Takeuchi, formerly playing Shinnosuke Tomari, is soon to be the Japanese voice for the Human lead in the Detective Pikachu movie.

The most recent Pokémon games gave a dedicated voice for Eevee, who is now played by Aoi Yuki.

Aoi Yuki, while more known for playing Madoka Kaname (internationally, at least) was also the actress for Yurusen.

Who is a cat. Similar to Eevee. (Really, Yurusen being a cat explained so much in hindsight.)

And finally, a one Hiroshi Fujioka played the lead villain in the 9th Pokémon movie… and a certain Kamen Rider.

(also also, I was looking into the fact that Ryoma is the third Rider to have a part with Pokémon. Apparently Shu Watanabe (Eiji) did a series of shorts for the release of the Gen VI games. And, along with Ryoma, is in the right age bracket to have grown up playing Pokémon. Shu was born in 91, and Ryoma in ‘93. Just the right time frame. Starting with Gen II, maybe, but just the right ages nonetheless)

(this part is, admittedly, completely irrelevant to the topic of Zi-O, but really. You brought this on yourself, 13.5. You brought this on yourself.)

#kamen rider zi o #kamen rider ghost #sailorcressy says #sailorcressy looks way too much into things #i actually kinda want to see detective pikachu now #and somehow get a hold of the japanese dub once everythings on disc #just because

[cksmart-world]

The completely unnecessary news analysis

by Christopher Smart

March 24, 2020

UK TO GIVE WORKERS 80% OF INCOME

& FOX EXECS TO STAFF: IT’S REAL YOU IDIOTS

Congress is working out details of a proposal to put cash in the hands of Americans, which will help hundreds of thousands of service workers who find themselves furloughed as a result of the pandemic. It could be $1,200 to $2,000 for each taxpayer. That's better than a  jab with a sharp stick, but really, how far can 1200 bucks take anyone these days. Meanwhile, Republicans are angling to give the lions share of the   $2 trillion stimulus to corporations. Sound familiar. According to Goldman Sachs, the fallout from the pandemic could prove to be the biggest economic hit on record — forecasting a staggering 24 percent quarterly drop in GDP, more than double the biggest plunge ever recorded. But listen to this: In contrast, the United Kingdom will subsidize to 80 percent the wages up to $2,900 per month of any worker facing unemployment because of the coronavirus pandemic. U.S. leaders just can't find it within themselves to make such investment in average Americans, largely out of the conservative philosophy that government shouldn't be doing that sort of thing — except for the big boys. The U.S. is the only industrialized country without guaranteed comprehensive healthcare and sick leave for every worker — that, say the bigwigs, would be socialism.

SURVIVAL KIT FOR THE BIG ONE

When the brown stuff hits the blades many people rush around like chickens because they have not prepared their survival kits — those necessities that will keep them alive until the coast clears or help arrives. So, the staff  here at Smart Bomb, as a community service, has put together a list that will guide you as you prepare for armageddon:

1- 100 rolls of toilet paper.

2- 48 cans of beans

3- 60 cans of tuna

4- 200 bottles of spring water

5- 100 packages of ramen noodles

6- 10 pounds of coffee

7- 30 cases of beer

8- 30 fifths of vodka

9- 30 grams of California bud

10- 30 boxes of Xanax

You may want to personalize this list to fit your particular needs, but Wilson and the band warn not to scrimp on items 7-10. As Wilson says, “When the going gets tough, the tough get drinking.”

FOX EXECS TO STAFF: IT'S REAL YOU IDIOTS

Well, this is embarrassing: Executives at Fox News For Real Americans had to put out a memo to their staff asserting that the coronavirus is real. It appears to be a first: The Fox brass didn't seem to care when its pundits, Lou Dobbs, Sean Hannity, Laura Ingram,  Jeanine Pirro, Tucker Carlson and the gang led their viewers astray on everything from Russian involvement in our elections to children in cages on the southern border. The Fox gasbags have contended the coronavirus is a hoax perpetrated by Democrats to impeach Trump. But in a memo obtained by The Daily Beast, Fox CEO Suzanne Scott and president Jay Wallace warned employees about the real risks of COVID-19... and emphasized Fox’s duty to keep viewers informed with accurate information on the deadly virus. Wait a second, did they say it was the duty of Fox to give viewers accurate information? Well, shucks, since folks are in quarantine and dying, you'd think that was a no-brainer. But remember Fox's slogan: You CAN fool some of the people most of the time. Suddenly, Hannity, et al, are saying the virus is very serious and the Democrats should stop minimizing it. And then, there was this: Lou Dobbs asked his audience to rate Trump's leadership on his handling of the virus as A- VERY GOOD, B- GREAT, or C- SUPERB. Kim Jung Un would love it.

DON'T WORRY AMERICA

Here are some words from our president to calm folks worried about the pandemic:

1- There are only 15 cases and they soon will be gone.

2- Warm weather will come and it will magically disappear.

3- It's a very dangerous virus but we have it totally under control.

4- Anybody that needs a test can get a test.

5- The doctors are all surprised that I know more about this than they do.

6- We're very much ahead of everything

7- We have thousands or hundreds of thousands of people that get better, just by, you know, sitting around and even going to work...

8- Now they have it, they have studied it, they know very much, in fact, we’re very close to a vaccine.

9- The U.S. is the most prepared country in the world.

10- It's China's fault. It's those goddamn Chinese and Obama. It's not my fault. I take absolutely no responsibility.

Post script — If you have a garden, you're in luck. You can plant, trim, weed and dig to heart's content and not worry about becoming infected and dying — or passing the coronavirus on to friends and loved ones, so they won't die. This also is a great time for activities, like solo mountain climbing, spelunking, rowing across the Atlantic, searching for the source of Amazon River or signing up for one of those six-month gigs under the ice in Antarctica. You can hole yourself up and write the great American novel or find out how Emily Dickinson lived by staying in your bedroom and writing poems that no one will ever read. For fun, you can pull the blinds down and pretend your in the federal Super Max Prison in Florence, Colo. — the Alcatraz of the Rockies — with Oklahoma City bomber Terry Nichols, drug kingpin El Chapo, terrorist Ramzi Yousef, Unabomber Ted Kaczynski and Boston Marathon bomber Dzhokhar Tsarnaev and other notorious criminals who are in solitary lockdown 23 hours a day. And no ordering out for pizza. See, when you look at it that way, self-quarantine isn't all that bad. And look, you can still ride a bike, roller skate or go to the park and feed the ducks. Can ducks get coronavirus? You can take your camera downtown and photograph the empty streets for a slide show next year when you can show off you pictures and say, “Look everybody, empty streets. Remember that?”

Well Wilson, why don't you and the guys take us out with a Kenny Rogers song, in tribute to your old pal who died last week — but not of coronavirus. Maybe he did know when to fold 'em.

I woke up this mornin' with the sundown shinin' in I found my mind in a brown paper bag within I tripped on a cloud and fell-a eight miles high I tore my mind on a jagged sky I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in...

[seventeen-scenarios-blog]

[DRABBLE REQUEST] Jealousy!Jeonghan (Feat. Jihoon)

Prompt: Jeonghan gets jealous when you meet up with your long time best friend Requested by: Hina Word count: 2,091 Genre: Fluff with slight angst Warnings: None!

A/N: Hey all! So sorry for being on hiatus the past god knows how many months, all the other admins and I are really busy with work and the time we have dedicated to write is really limited. Nevertheless, i hope ya’ll like this Jeonghan drabble, thanks also to admin Jihooned and Wooed as well for providing some ideas :) Cheers!

- Scooped ✌️

Pulling down the hems of your shirt to your waist, and turning around once more to look at yourself in the mirror - you were perfectly ready for a date with your boyfriend, Jeonghan.

“Unknown Number” your phone screen read.

“Hello?”

Silence.

“Hello…” No reply.

Just as you were about to hang up, thinking of the call as a prank, the other side of the line, a male with a shy, timid voice, finally spoke up.

“Do you remember me?”

Nostalgia kicked in as you remember where that voice came from. He had many firsts with you - not in a romantic way, but he was your bestest friend ever. The both of you would hang out literally all the time. Straight after school everyday without fail, the both of you would get hamburgers and fries, then you’d spend the afternoon playing sports or just hanging out at each other’s homes. Only positive memories, you recall, until that fateful day when he left for America, to pursue his studies and his dream for becoming a music producer.

“Jihoon..?”

“Hey! Long time no see!”

“ITS REALLY YOU!!! JIHOON AH WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN? ARE YOU BACK IN KOREA…” you were so, so, so happy that you ended up bombarding him with countless questions, and immediately after you found out he was back in Korea, you invited him over so that the two of you could catch up.

Feeling satisfied after the phone call, you immediately left your home to the grocery store with the intention of cooking a welcome home meal for jihoon, and that’s when you remembered about your date with Jeonghan.

As you were about to call Jeonghan to cancel your date, your phone lit up to reveal a text from him.

Jeonghan: “Hey babe, I’m outside. Open up. 

Y/N: “Babe, I’m so sorry, I kind of forgot about our date. Can you meet me at the mart nearby my house? I promise i’ll explain everything. I’m so sorryyyyy :( :*“

A few minutes later, you felt an arm around your shoulder. You turned around and immediately put your shopping basket down, giving the tall, slim stature behind you a big, tight hug.

“Hey babe, what’s this all this about?” Jeonghan chuckled, as he looked over to see your almost-full shopping basket.

“Jeonghan, there’s someone I want you to meet today!” you smiled, pulling away from the hug.

“Who is it? Do I know him or her?” Jeonghan said, walking past you to help you carry your shopping basket.

You looped your arms with his, explaining about Jihoon. You talked about how he was the one who you had so much fun with as teenagers, playing badminton everyday with each other, cafe hopping together, and even how he lent a shoulder to you during difficult times.

Jeonghan just smiled, looking at how happy you were. He definitely didn’t feel 100% good about it, about you being close to another guy other than himself. Afterall, he knows that you never had any guy whom you considered close to, since you were with him all the time after the both of you got together.

As he helped you unpack your just bought groceries, you started to prepare your speciality and also Jihoon’s favourite - Mushroom Cream Spaghetti. Well, hopefully it still is, since you’ve not seen him for almost 2 years.

Chopping up the onions in a flash, Jeonghan stared at you in awe as he observed you cooking.

“So, this is the behind-the-scenes of your famous cream spaghetti,” Jeonghan said, as you placed the uncooked noodles into the boiling pot over the stove.

“Yep, I hope you’re not sick of it yet!” you chuckled, turning back over to see Jeonghan leaving his seat, walking towards you. You stared at him - he was the perfect height. His fringe fell perfectly over his forehead, and he looked so huggable wearing the casual tracksuit he had on.

You didn’t realise that he was already by your side, arms circling around your waist, resting his head on your shoulder.

“I know I’m not sick of you,” Jeonghan whispered into your ear, placing a kiss on your temple. You smiled, enjoying the skinship that Jeonghan is giving. Turning off the stove and placing the just-cooked spaghetti noodles in a bowl next to you, you turned around, facing him.

His lips were already, dangerously close to yours.

You looked up to meet his eyes, having feeling his breaths becoming slightly faster, and leaned in for a passiona-

DING DONG

You pulled away at the doorbell, just before the both of your lips touched, to see only Jeonghan’s slightly irritated gaze. You chuckle at his reaction, but tiptoed to give him a peck before pulling away from his hug to get the door. Meanwhile, Jeonghan dragged his feet and slumped back into his seat.

Opening the door, you were excited to see your old friend. “Jihoon ah! Long time no see!” you said, giving him a big hug at the same time.

“(Y/N)! You’ve grown!” said Jihoon with a wide grin on his small face.

“And you… haven’t gotten any taller!” you chuckled, teasing to break the ice, “Come on in!”

You walked Jihoon to the kitchen and introduced the two boys to each other. Afterall, they were two of the most important people in your life, so you hoped that they’ll get along.

“Babe, this is Jihoon! My best friend from school, and Jihoon, this is my boyfriend, Jeonghan,” you smiled, however only sensing a negative vibe from Jeonghan.

“Hi! I’m Jihoon, nice to meet you!” Jihoon said, as he reaches out his hand to shake with Jeonghan’s.

“Yeah, hi,” Jeonghan said cooly, ignoring the handshake, not minding about anything else other than his fingernails. You see Jihoon fold back his fingers, feeling intimidated.

“Haha, em, well, Jihoon, please take a seat! The food’s almost ready,” you said to break the tension that was forming.

You cooked the spaghetti quickly, minding the awkward silence behind you. Occasionally you tried to make small talk for the both of them, mentioning similar hobbies since the both of them loved to sing, however it was always cut off by Jeonghan’s one word replies and slightly rude answers.

“Jihoon went to the states to learn more about producing music,” you said, placing a plate of spaghetti in front of each of them. “Isn’t that cool, Jeonghan?”

“Well if it was that cool, why did he have to come back?” Jeonghan snickered, picking up his fork to dig in.

“Well, what about you, Jihoon? How was your learning experience?” you asked, not minding Jeonghan’s attitude.

“Oh, I had such a good time, I’ve met and learned from so many amazing people there,” Jihoon explained.

He told you and Jeonghan his adventures, how he met so many producers that taught him many things, giving him tips on how to produce quality music, and all the amazing takeaways he had from the 2 years.

You were so engrossed into his stories that you didn’t realise that you stained the corners of your mouth with cream, and upon seeing this, Jihoon picked up the piece of tissue and held it up, reaching forward to wipe it for you.

“You’re still messy as ever,” Jihoon chuckled as he wiped off the creamy sauce on your mouth.

Jeonghan suddenly stood up, gave you and Jihoon a stare, and marched out while saying, “Have fun, lovebirds, I’m going upstairs.”

Jihoon stared at the door that Jeonghan just exited, and then looked over to you,”I think I may have done something wrong… I’m so sorry…”

“No, it’s fine, i’m sure he’s just not in a good mood today, it’s not you, i promise!” you said, trying to keep the mood up, “I’m sure he’s just tired from work, you know how work can be..”

“No,” Jihoon cut you off, “It’s alright, we can always meet another time, go talk to him,” Jihoon said with the kindest smile ever, as he stood up to leave.

“Sorry about that… and yes, let’s definitely meet up again soon, maybe next week? Ddeobokki?” you asked Jihoon, “the one that we always had.”

“It’s a deal,” Jihoon said, as you sent him off.

You went up to your room’s door, taking a deep breath. You knew the reason why Jeonghan has been acting like this the whole day, but you didn’t know that it would take such a big toll on him.

Jeonghan was jealous.

It was the first time; you’ve never seen him jealous before, and that’s when you realised, there was probably no chance for him to get jealous anyway, since the only guy whom you were close with was him.

You realised that you’ve most probably crossed the line with him when you allowed for such intimate interaction with Jihoon, and the latter probably didn’t realise it too as his amiable gestures, despite the long time he had spent away from you, came as practically second nature to him. It was not Jihoon’s fault at all, and you felt guilty for not telling Jeonghan about his existence earlier.

You twisted the doorknob, and carefully opened it, revealing Jeonghan. He was sitting at the corner of your bed, leaning against the headboard. His eyes were closed and his earpiece was plugged in. The sunlight from the window, shining on his face, gave it away that he had a few tears roll down his cheeks.

You got flustered, really flustered. This is the first time, Jeonghan has ever shown that he’s upset, and it shocked you, since he had always been the kind, and patient, amazing boyfriend that you’ve never had in the past.

You too were also really confused with your feelings.

You were angry - he mocked you, and he was really, really rude to your long time best friend. Over jealousy? That was really childish. But at the same time, you were also scared - so many what if’s were appearing in your head. What if he was only this way because he’s tired? What if you misunderstood him? What if he decides to leave you?

Countless thoughts were running through your head as you approached the lean figure, and before you knew it, tears ran down your cheeks. You had a taste of the salty tear when it reached the corner of your mouth, and at the same time you sat down in front of Jeonghan, cupping his cheeks, attempting to wipe away the teary residue on his face.

Jeonghan’s eyes shot open at your touch, and immediately, he took your hand away from his face and he gave you a big, warm, hug. You were surprised, of course, you didn’t expect this reaction from Jeonghan, you thought he’d be upset and hurt, you thought he wouldn’t want to talk to you.

Overwhelmed by the surge of emotions from his touch, you began to sob. Really badly. You hugged him harder, tightening your arms around his waist and burying your swollen face into his neck. You felt comforted when he tightened his grip around your waist as well.

“I love you,” Jeonghan said, voice evident that he too, was a mess, “and I don’t want that to change.”

You sniffed your nose as you pulled away from him, looking into his eyes as you started speaking,”I was so afraid that you didn’t want me anymore.”

“Pabo, I was afraid that you were going to hate me for being such an ass,” Jeonghan mumbled, smiling slightly as he looked into your eyes.

“You’re the pabo!” you chuckled, finally smiling and cleaning up the tears from your face.

You felt much better, all the both of you needed was some assurance, and some comforting.

“I’m sorry babe, i’m sorry for my childishness, will you forgive me?” Jeonghan said, twirling a bunch of hair on your head.

“No, I’m the one who’s sorry, sorry for not taking your feelings in consideration,” you sighed, looking into his teary eyes.

Sometimes in a relationship, jealousy is bound to happen one way or another. The feeling is indeed unpleasant, and it may happen unknowingly to the both of you. It always will seem as though you’re losing trust in your partner.

In this case, Jeonghan getting jealous this time round was in a way a good thing, the both of you found out how much you meant to each other, but more importantly, the fact that Jeonghan loves you as much as you love him, overwrites all the obstacles that the both of you have to face.

#Seventeen #seventeen scenarios #seventeen fanfic #seventeen drabbles #jeonghan #yoonjeonghan #jeonghan scenario #jeonghan fanfic #jeonghan drabble #jeonghan fluff #scoups #joshua #jun #hoshi #wonwoo #woozi #dk #the8 #seungkwan #vernon #dino #diamond life scenarios #seventeen scenarios blog

[trashrightsactivist]

recent private chat highlights, megasilverfist and ‘Ruby’ (trashrightsactivist)

(Note: This is for peoples' OOC reading pleasure, and cannot actually be seen by your character unless you are hacking tumblr to view peoples' private messages.)

Convo 1

megasilverfist

Hey, you might be making a post on this anyway, but any ideas on how I can keep people from lynching the local reds?

Preferably without making them even more angry with Voa, or totally trashing my career.  Though given the life or death nature I'm willing to stick my neck out a little, and we're probably going to war anyway.

trashrightsactivist

I don't even know. I'm still like idek about this whole thing. I hope you have enough food you are psychologically able to eat.

gotta wonder if this wasn't somehow a scheme to get us all killed

megasilverfist

I'm good, Nadles is probably regretting the unlimited noodles clause in my contract.

I don't see how that adds but then again

its not paranoia when the world really is out to get you.

trashrightsactivist

yeah i know it wasn't really it just feels that way

gotta go out of the district and to work soon, dreading it

honstly the best thing i can think of might be to remind people it's a voa blue not their reds at fault, he's a country away and has bodyguards so they're less likely to be able to hurt him

and the war is probably inevitable already

megasilverfist

sigh yeah

trashrightsactivist

anyway I'm going to work.

megasilverfist

cool, try not to die

trashrightsactivist

that's the plan ;)

megasilverfist

and remember if multiple people are coming at you don't let them surround you.

I'd meant to hook you up with some videos on basic street defense but its a bit late now.

trashrightsactivist

thanks. I guess if anything goes down at work... idk, I will try to get behind a corpse and hope they're too squeamish to touch it, idk

we've swapped shifts around so as much as we can people who are pregnant or have kids are staying home

anyway can't risk being late. hopefully ttyl

Convo 2

megasilverfist

You probably already figured this out, but maybe don't trust the food people are throwing out.

https://purpleparenting.tumblr.com/post/163275109612/people-are-reluctant-to-leave-out-their-food-for

trashrightsactivist

[no response]

megasilverfist

[after signficant waiting]

I'm just going to assume you're busy.  Right?

Yeah, thats it.  I should probably go train anyway.

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megasilverfist

Glad you aren't dead. Let me know if I can help.

Also, like this probably is to much to ask, and might seem a bit creepy, but can you walk me through what happened?  I have a really strong interest in how street fights with untrained combatants play out.

trashrightsactivist

gonna go through what happened on blog but that won't have like. physical details of fight bit. i will go through those with you after post if you want but like. my memory of what occurred might not be 100%. concussion.

 megasilverfist

Yeah, that happens, I'd give you some tips but you've (hopefully?) got some actual medical attention.

 trashrightsactivist

yes. that I really don't remember, getting from fight to hospital.

nurse knows who brought me here but not how so I'mma try to track him down and ask

 megasilverfist

right

Red hospital or normal one?

 trashrightsactivist

red. we can't be patients in the other kind

but honestly being surrounded by only other reds rn is reassuring

 megasilverfist

Thought so, but was hoping otherwise because there are some very new drugs for brain injury that I don't think yours have access to.

Try to get some Alkysine if you can.

 trashrightsactivist

I'll ask. I know like, blunt force trauma is something this particular doc deals with a lot, so probly knows what he's doing

 megasilverfist

Not doubting his skill just access to supplies that are a bit limited among cleans.

 trashrightsactivist

fair. he said my brains not beat up too bad. no bleeding, minimal swelling.

 megasilverfist

That is very good.

 trashrightsactivist

few cracked ribs. coulda been a lot worse

 megasilverfist

Yeah, will you be able to get someone to cover you work for you?

 trashrightsactivist

yeah if they have to they'll share with the pathology techs at the hospital

(clean hospital. the guys who normally do 'why did you die of sick' exams will do 'why did you die of murder' exams)

but idek if they'll want me back at work, thats where the argument started

 megasilverfist

Oh shit.  Can you get another job?

 trashrightsactivist

yeah there is always just pick up to fall back on and can probably learn how to do the medical rather than crime version of the thing i do

 megasilverfist

Well thats good.

 trashrightsactivist

but yeah like.. i will report what i see not what my boss wants to be there

 megasilverfist

Is that (physically) safe?

 trashrightsactivist

well no, as we found out.

 megasilverfist

Oh sorry I thought you meant in your exit interview or whatever it is that you do when you leave an employer.

I'm not clear how that works.

I do stuff for money so I've got a job, but the way competitions work means I'm not technically an employee of anyone.

 trashrightsactivist

so I'm employed by a company, not the police, they just have a contract with the company. so shouldn't have to do exit interview? but. if they have a grudge they can find me.

maybe when it's less crisis-y there won't be a grudge

they would never usually ask that sort of thing, they're good cops usually

 megasilverfist

I think I see.

 trashrightsactivist

but you want me to put on the report those injuries are not from a police-issue beating stick when they are... I reckon whichever cop it was must have just panicked, the guy did look a bit red in the right light

 megasilverfist

Oh yeah, cleansticks are nasty.  I really respect you for doing that.

 trashrightsactivist

but it was stupid of me. I don't file the actual report, I just tell the guy who does what I see, he can cheerfully shred anything I say that he doesn't like

it was a futile gesture

 megasilverfist

Oh maybe a little less respect, but you tried.

 trashrightsactivist

i mean normally he wouldn't, you know

idk

everybody is not themselves now

 megasilverfist

Right.  Its relatively sane in my little bubble, because my gym is getting free nadles and I had enough money to help out my cousins (helps the grama buys instant stuff in bulk anyway).  So we've just been heads down focusing on the fights.  But everytime I get on this site its fucked.

 trashrightsactivist

yeah I don't feel like I have the energy for any of it any more

its all just words

 megasilverfist

I keep trying to help, but there just isn't much I can do.  I'm not a big celebrity yet, and I'm now broke again even though I was planning on streching out my prize money so I can't donate.  I'm tempted to go and try to punch anyone causing problems, but still have some common sense.

 trashrightsactivist

yeah I don't have any suggestions any more

shitty as it was all i want is for things to go back to normal

 megasilverfist

Wow, things really are bad if you think normal would be ok.

 trashrightsactivist

yeah well

talk to me when it doesn't hurt to breathe, maybe I'll get my sass back

 megasilverfist

Right.  I'll let you heal then.  Here's some of my fanfic if you need something to read http://archiveofourown.org/works/2809283/chapters/6304610 ((not by me ooc))

 trashrightsactivist

thanks dude

 megasilverfist

np

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trashrightsactivist

[ruby will send you as good an account of how the fight went down as she can. It was her and a dude who works for the same company, but mostly at the hospital (who also helped her with this account of the fight), and they were jumped returning to their body transport vehicle. Two cops with extendable sticks. The other red was mostly able to keep out of it since they weren't really going for him, he was trying to get into his work bag for the closest thing he had to a weapon (a scalpel) but by the time he got it out it was over. The cops clearly didn't intend to kill her, just send a message - but at the same time, they can't have been overly concerned with *not* killing her, because they easily could have just by a blow landing a bit differently in a way they couldn't precisely control.

Ruby's only notable action was to try to crawl under the hearse in the hopes that they wouldn't be able to get to her, but since they were willing to lay hands on her they just dragged her out.]

 megasilverfist

Thanks, that was helpful for me, hopefully you won't be attacked again especially by the police but he are some possibly helpful thoughts. The hearse move was a good idea, even if it didn't work.  Playing dead might have been a good idea.  Also using your hands to protect your head while exposing tempting but less fatal targets as sacrifices.  Getting caned in the butt or similar hurts but you know enough anatomy to know you'd prefer it to your current state.  Lastly, its probably best for your coworker that he was forced to stay out of it, but if he had gotten involved using the bag as a shield and /or to entangle the cleansticks (thats the actual name I didn't come up with it) would probably have been a good strategy.  I'm not a cleanstick specialist, but knives are a bad match against them even when pre drawn, but they are *relatively* easy to screw up with tangle weapons and makeshift shields since they don't have a cutting edge or the weight of traditional staffs.

Almost forgot, I was assuming that the bag was heavy enough to hurt when swung but light enough that you can swing it pretty fast like 5-15 pounds.

 trashrightsactivist

Thanks for the advice

I'd be concerned that any sort of fighting back might only make them angrier? Like they were risking a kill but probably not going for one, if we'd fought back..

 megasilverfist

Yeah, thats what I meant by it being best that your coworker stayed out of it.          I included my advice based on the best way to deal with actually fighting but really, like ok if I had been swapped with your coworker by magic AND been able to draw the scapble to dual wield AND you're not in Biyan then I probably could have won the fight.  But thats some rather big ifs and doesn't get into what would happen afterwards.

 trashrightsactivist

yeah I mean ultimately him staying out of it probably saved my life cause it meant he could drive me to the hospital

but I don't doubt it woulda gone differently with a martial arts expert instead of a nerdy autopsy tech

why would being in Biyan make a difference, do cops have different weapons there or something?

 megasilverfist

Yeah, still effectively 2 v 1 with inferior weapons is not a great place.

 trashrightsactivist

yeah I'm in no hurry to leave the district again in the current climate

 megasilverfist

Biyan is just behind us here in Tapa when it comes to overall cleanstick fighting, and thats going by the performance of athletes and police department champions (as in representatives) in tournaments.  I didn't realize this until recently, but my research suggests that they spend a lot more time training their normal non-specialist cops in it than almost anyone else.

 trashrightsactivist

huh. Wonder if they anticipate more fights, or if they're trying to reduce the amount they resort to guns?

 megasilverfist

Well I don't know much about them, but going off what I do know and the  scenarios in this manual I found http://wiktenauer.com/wiki/Paradoxes_of_Defence_(George_Silver) I think they just really hate reds.

 trashrightsactivist

oh, the depressing reason

your fanfic was good btw

 megasilverfist

Yup:( Like obviously part of why cleansticks are used instead of other staffs is that they can be used on you guys, but their supposed to be general purpose weapons. And thats not what I'm seeing here as a highly trained martial artist with color vision.

Thanks.

So I mean obviously you can tell how many of those figures have red hair, but as a highly trained martial artist TM I can tell you the convention is normally to depict every combatant as a grey.

 trashrightsactivist

well that would make sense given cultural norms and all

wonder what you lot would make of the bareknuckle one-on-ones that go down here sometimes

 megasilverfist

I would be super super curious, and would love it if there was a way to get video without the obvious problems with that.

But like what rules (if any) are there.

And (how) do people train?

And what techniques do they use?

 trashrightsactivist

they serve a vaguely similar purpose to duels in being part of the internal dispute resolution system? Similar to what I read about Erithani duels there's a lot of like, chances to back down and apologise worked into the system and their function seems to be more preventative

 megasilverfist

That seems sensible, greys kinda do that, but less that we probably should.

 trashrightsactivist

rules are simple, fists and a bit of grappling though grandads love to debate whether that was allowed int heir day, no kicking or gouging or whatever, and it's over when someone falls down or gives up

kids *practice* in the sense of, they scrap for fun, idk to what extent it constitutes training

it's not very formal and really the point is to be willing to fight to prove your point rather than neccessarily being good?

so it probably looks exceedingly sloppy to someone like you

 megasilverfist

Probably, but there really is something to be said for raw courage.

No gouging and no kicks is a really good idea from a safety perspective, but having more grappling and less punching would probably be a smart move from that perspective.

Not that I expect ya'll to change your culture based on my advice.

 trashrightsactivist

yeah I mean it's mostly a way to contain disputes among like 3.5-6 year olds so there's a socially accepted endpoint and no risk of harming the community fabric or attracting attention from outside the district

 megasilverfist

And they are you from a showing your serious veiwpoint.

 trashrightsactivist

yeah I don't think they'd accept alterations based on safety, cause it's about having the balls, as you said

but given that I have that Red Island separatist fantasy it does make me wonder how the justice system would turn out

'you may either fight the defendant, or have the judge explain this entire mess to your grandmother, how do you plead?'

 megasilverfist

Lololol

My grama would say the mess is fine but why wouldn't you fight em?

 trashrightsactivist

maybe you like your face :P

 megasilverfist

Well I am dashingly handsome.

 trashrightsactivist

I saw your promo pics online, can't disagree there

 megasilverfist

Thanks, though the photographer did a lot.

Legally we can't photoshop them too much, but lighting, picking the best one ect can do a ton, and we can shop a little.

 trashrightsactivist

if I were the type to do selfies, I would not be doing selfies for a good few weeks

 megasilverfist

Yeah, I get that, though we're encouraged to to the occasional beat up shot as long as its framed properly.

 trashrightsactivist

oh of course. but gotta be like, sexy injured not 'mishandled reject tomato' injured

 megasilverfist

Yup, a mix of that and sometimes having to look bad to make the other guy look good for the good of the sport.

 trashrightsactivist

you aren't suggesting any of it is staged are you?

 megasilverfist

Just the photo shoots yes. The matches very no.  In my main promotion that is.  I keep meaning to right a post about this, but there are promotions that are explicitly registered as stunt based entertainment which are fixed to varying degrees.

One of them even has a "red" as one of the "heels".

 trashrightsactivist

what.

liiink

actual *actors* tryna play reds is always tragihilarious, I can't imagine what that would be like

is his special move whacking you over the head with a garbage can

IS HIS CATCHPHRASE 'TIME TO TAKE OUT THE TRASH'

 megasilverfist

Actually he's an undertaker, and makes horrible horrible death puns.

And fights with a piece of "sewage pipe" granted to him by his district elder.

But the overall thing is as corny as you're picturing it.

And frankly I like your idea better.

Not that I really approve, of making him the heel, but I guess you have to take what you can get.

 trashrightsactivist

oh sure, well he was never gonna be anything else

 megasilverfist

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6CD7TUIS7c

 trashrightsactivist

that shit is hilarious

 megasilverfist

Ok, I should go soon, but three things first.

 trashrightsactivist

ok

 megasilverfist

first if you need to get a hold of me outside tumblr in a fairly secure way use ((contact info)) unless you have a better suggestion you seem to know security.

The next two are two good thing to come from this mess.  Well good from your prospective I guess.

 trashrightsactivist

thanks. I don't think I have anything better rn but I'll check and let you know, otherwise that looks good.

 megasilverfist

First, I am sick of this shit.  I still believe in pollution, and I can't do much now, but stars like actual national champs get one controversial position.  I was going to go after the fitness scams that basically everyone but blues fall for but...

yeah.

And lastly oh wait you already rebloged it so much for my climax, but still

[link to 3cool5u’s Allocator Savo fanfic]

 trashrightsactivist

:)

the second one though. What are you planning?

 megasilverfist

I'll need to think of some details after I win, but ways to improve red lives without denying pollution exists.

 trashrightsactivist

I'm grateful that you want to do something. I'll look round see if I got some suggestions for specific points. Most importantly, though - if it made sense to keep a lid on things for now before it probably still does

for now

#amenta rp #private chat logs

[inagetawaycarxo]

1-150 all of them. Every single one 😁

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

honestly can't remember, it was a girl though so... (we were friends arent anymore) 2. Are you outgoing or shy?

I pretend I'm outgoing but really I'm a shy bitch unless I get comfortable with you then I suppose I’m outgoing. 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

my bed, cause I’m tired! kidding. 4. Are you easy to get along with?

depends but I'd like to say so unless you're a bitch to me then I will be a bitch back. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I don’t get drunk anymore, lol I’m a lightweight, once I have one drink I’m tipsy. But if I do decide to get drunk then prob whoever I got drunk with, unless they get drunk, then my mum can take care of me. 6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Varies, as long as they have a kind heart and are funny. Also a sucker for accents and blue eyes & green, as well as brown. 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

nope. 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Do celebs count or nah? if so then Chris Evans, Sebastian Stan + Tom Holland { not that anyone cares but we are the same age}. 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

If it's with my mum then yeah, or family, anyone else it doesn't make me uncomfortable. 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

my mum. 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

iPhone charging cables {lol}  12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Easier- 5sos

Last Hurrah-Bebe Rexha

R U Mine- Arctic Monkeys

Suckerz- Blackbear

Break up with girlfriend, I’m bored- Ariana Grande

Ain’t My Fault-Zara Larsson 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

definitely. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

yep. 15. What good thing happened this summer?

nothing really. 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

maybe, maybe not. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

yep. 18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

nope, I honestly had cringy taste in crushes in primary school and high school. 19. Do you like bubble baths?

Yass..... 20. Do you like your neighbors?

nope, he a douchebag, and all the bad names in the book. 21. What are you bad habits?

going to bed late, rolling my eyes to much. 22. Where would you like to travel?

YES! 23. Do you have trust issues?

yes. 24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

I have no clue... 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

stomach and thighs. 26. What do you do when you wake up?

whine about how tired I am and how I should go to bed earlier. 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

in-between. 28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my mom. 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

yep, and honestly I don't care it's their loss. 30. Do you ever want to get married?

it’s not really on my to-do list, but maybe. 31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

yep. 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Chris Evans and Sebastian Stan without a doubt.  33. Spell your name with your chin.

c lazire   (lol I did pretty well, except for the space and z ) 34. Do you play sports? What sports?

nope 35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

nope. 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

yes. 37. What do you say during awkward silences?

I laugh nervously. 38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

*sighs* as long as they have blue or green or blue eyes, some sort of accent, are nice, funny, loyal, dreamy. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

book shops, clothes shops and those body shops (the ones you get body lotion and that from) and home decor shops, DVD shops. 40. What do you want to do after high school?

I’m 22, I’ve finished high school a long time ago. 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

depends, on what they have done. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

sad. 43. Do you smile at strangers?

sometimes. 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

can I say both, I’m going to say both. 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

my dog literally jumps on my and barks at me. 46. What are you paranoid about?

a lot of things, someone kidnapping me, being stalked, weird creatures killing me, dying. 47. Have you ever been high?

Nah... 48. Have you ever been drunk?

yeah, plenty of times. 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

not really. 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

black and grey. 51. Ever wished you were someone else?

all the time. 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

 I wish I had long legs tbh. 53. Favourite makeup brand?

nude. 54. Favourite store?

ally 55. Favourite blog?

on here or somewhere else,?  56. Favourite colour?

purple, blue, grey, pink, green. 57. Favourite food? 

pasta. 58. Last thing you ate?

raspberries. 59. First thing you ate this morning?

nothing, I don't eat in the morning. 60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Nah. 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nearly, but they found out it wasn't my fault, yet one teacher was a total bitch to me afterwards. 62. Been arrested? For what?

nope, I’m a good girl. 63. Ever been in love? 

yes, and it hurts. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

 it was on my thirteenth bday party and it was three guys, two of them were great the other one was sloppy and ew. 65. Are you hungry right now?

not really. 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

yep. 67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter. 68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr. 69. Are you watching tv right now?

Nah. 70. Names of your bestfriends? 

do dogs count, if so then Max. 71. Craving something? What?

pancakes. 72. What colour are your towels?

pink, blue, neutral colours. 72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

four. 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

no. 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

four I think. 75. Favourite animal?

tigers. 76. What colour is your underwear?

grey, pink, and aqua. 77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

both. 78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

cookies & cream or strawberry. 79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

pink.

80. What colour pants?

pink, with stars. 81. Favourite tv show?

The Simpsons. 82. Favourite movie?

Captain America: The Winter Soldier. 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Mean Girls. 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean Girls. 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Regina George. 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Dory. 87. First person you talked to today?

My brother. 88. Last person you talked to today?

My brother. 89. Name a person you hate?

my neighbour. 90. Name a person you love?

everyone, except for people I dont like. 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Oh definitely. 92. In a fight with someone?

mostly just words. 93. How many sweatpants do you have?

 six 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

eight, I think. 95. Last movie you watched?

Avengers: Endgame. 96. Favourite actress?

Emilia Clarke 97. Favourite actor?

Chris Evans. 98. Do you tan a lot?

no, last time i tanned, i got badly sunburnt. 99. Have any pets?

Two dogs. 100. How are you feeling?

tired, sad, horny, unappreciated and annoyed. 101. Do you type fast?

yeah. 102. Do you regret anything from your past?

oh, so many things. 103. Can you spell well?

sometimes. 104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

yeah but no. 105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

nope. 106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

yep. 107. Have you ever been on a horse?

yes. 108. What should you be doing?

sleeping its 3AM SOMETHING 109. Is something irritating you right now?

yeah... 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

yes. 111. Do you have trust issues?

yes. 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

my mom. 113. What was your childhood nickname?

clairebear or mousey. 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

no. 115. Do you play the Wii?

mostly the ps4 now. 116. Are you listening to music right now?

yas, some angsty songs, might do some song fics. 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

never had it. 118. Do you like Chinese food?

yeah. 119. Favourite book?

Looking for Alaska - John Green 120. Are you afraid of the dark?

sometimes. 121. Are you mean?

 I try not to be. 122. Is cheating ever okay?

nope. 123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

no. 124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

I’m a bit iffy on that, thats purely falling for looks, i mean sure they look hot but what if their personail;ty is shit, then their hottness just zeros down. 125. Do you believe in true love?

yeah. 126. Are you currently bored?

nah. 127. What makes you happy?

lots of things. puppies, kittens, animals, dragons, writing, reading, family and friends, you guys. 128. Would you change your name?

no. 129. What your zodiac sign?

Libra. 130. Do you like subway?

sometimes. 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

just stare in shock for a long while, while trying to process it. 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

my mum. 133. Favourite lyrics right now?

Is it easier to stay? Is it easier to go? I don't wanna know, oh But I know that I'm never, ever gonna change And you know you don't want it any other way 134. Can you count to one million?

no. 135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

I’m sick, I can't come. 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

sometimes opened sometimes closed. 137. How tall are you?

5′5 138. Curly or Straight hair?

both. 139. Brunette or Blonde?

both. OMBRE. 140. Summer or Winter?

Summer, cause winter is cuddling season and I don't have a boo. 141. Night or Day?

both. 142. Favourite month?

October. 143. Are you a vegetarian?

used to be, might go back to being one. 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

both. 145. Tea or Coffee?

neither. 146. Was today a good day?

not really. 147. Mars or Snickers?

both. 148. What’s your favourite quote?

it’s a bad day, not a bad life. 149. Do you believe in ghosts?

yes. 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  

this? they were hers! she’d gathered them, hoarded them, maybe someday planned to pass them on to me.

#anon #asks #answered

[emberlynnrayne]

BPD- My struggle with mental health

[I wrote this for facebook, but felt it was important to have here, too. Opening up like this was incredibly difficult.]

I promised a few days ago to write about my struggles with mental health, so here goes.

My biggest struggles are with a combination of Anxiety, Depression, and something called BPD. While real education about anxiety and depression is sorely lacking generally, it’s still far more understood and accepted than BPD, and I’ve written about them before. So let me tell you about BPD. First and foremost, despite much confusion, it does not mean bipolar disorder. It means Borderline Personality Disorder, and despite how it sounds, it has nothing to do with having multiple personalities. BPD can stem from many things, but in my case, it boils down to the environment in which I was raised. With the combination of my own mother and father suffering from their own untreated mental illnesses, the sexual abuse I suffered, and a myriad of other environmental detriments, I basically did not learn to function in an emotionally healthy way. BPD is different for everyone. That means that you may know someone with BPD who acts completely differently, it means that it needs to be treated differently per individual, and it means that the lasting effects work us in different ways.

I’m going to tell you what BPD means for me.

First and foremost, I feel strongly. I feel in extremes. It’s black or white. Good or bad. Higher highs and lower lows. I feel too much, or nothing at all, and I don’t know how to manage it. I’m getting better, but you have to realize that I don’t know any different. This is just the way it is and always has been for me. Learning that it doesn’t have to be has been slow, and trying to put it into practice has been slower. I can feel utterly overwhelmed by my thoughts and feelings, too full to think or express, or even understand. And I can feel empty. Just, utterly empty. Like a black hole. There’s no bottom. There’s no filling it up, or turning it around. I just have to function around the hole. There’s not always a cause for either. I don’t even know it’s happening when it starts. I just suddenly realized that it is. It is. It also makes me an extremely empathetic person. It also applies to people. I am slow to trust, but when I do, oh my god I love you so much, you’re so amazing and I put you on this beautiful ornate pedestal without ever realizing it. I am loyal to a fault. And it goes the other way, too. If I don’t like you, I really don’t like you. I don’t want to be near you, I don’t want to look at you or talk to you. If you’re in the good with me, it is incredibly hard to break out. If you manage to do something or build up enough things to fall out of the good with me, it’s worse than having been in the bad in the first place. It is incredibly difficult to do, so you would have hurt me or someone I love in a deep and horrible way. You become less than a person to me, you become less than scum. You become nothing but something to laugh at and hate simultaneously. You will never come back to my good side.

It sounds exhausting, doesn’t it? Try living it. On a list of signs and symptoms, this would be ‘unstable relationships’ and 'mood swings’.

I’ve gotten better in this aspect. Of course I still struggle with the extremes, but Im much better about holding people up on unmaintainable pedestals. I recognize that the faults in my loved ones are not secrets to be ignored and hushed, but things to love and understand with them. When you manage to fall from my good side, it is not impossible to come back. It will take time, work, and a level of honesty that is difficult for most people. The honesty is imperative though, because I am incredibly sensitive to lies, and there is no room in my life for liars. So, it is possible, but I still need you to really want it, and be willing to work for it, because remember, whatever you did had to be extreme to go from my good side to bad.

That brings me to the next point, though. Trust. I mentioned that I’m slow to trust. That is an understatement. It is incredibly difficult for me to manage my trust in people. I know that having no trust in anyone is incredibly unhealthy and isolating, so (in my naturally extreme way) I tend to trust the people on my good side almost implicitly. Lies are the easiest way to fall out. White lies, I understand. I can accept now with understanding that the world basically requires them. Unnecessary, repeatedly, or maliciously lying to me, however, is a deal breaker. Generally, though, I don’t trust people. I don’t trust strangers to any extent. No matter your gender, race, or how much space is between us, it doesn’t matter how well I know you or how much I love you. There is a deep, however slight, level of mistrust. I suspect they intend me harm. It’s irrational, but there is only one person I trust without a shadow of a doubt. The ones you love the most hurt you the worst, after all. So who can you trust? It’s such a big part of my BPD, that it actually has sub-topics. Because of the incredibly unhealthy environment I was raised in, I developed an acute sense for people’s character, integrity, and trustworthiness. It is not a brag, it is not a fun game, it is not something I usually want to 'test’ or discuss. It is an unfortunately necessary skill I had to develop to protect myself. That being said, it is always happening. I know if I’m being lied to. If I like you, I will quickly analyze it, and probably choose to ignore it, but I rarely forget it.

Once again, it goes both ways. I consider myself an incredibly honest person. Unless I am in a professional environment, I don’t typically hide what I think or how I feel. It’s difficult to do if I want to. ( I’ve actually had more than one conversation about my eyes and eyebrows away my thoughts.) I joke about 'word vomit’ on the regular because I struggle to filter my thoughts and words. (Communication in general is a topic we’ll get to soon.) I am an open book, for the first few layers, and if you care enough to ask, if I’m comfortable enough with you, Im usually open to talk down to my core. If you’re on my good side, if I love you, I truly give you my whole self. My heart is yours and I genuinely love you. I can’t not.

Personal communication. Holy shit, guys, if you gave me a month’s notice to prepare and asked me to verbally express this to you, I could not. Verbal expression is incredibly difficult for me. I can’t think when I hear my own voice, and I process incoming information best by reading or watching, too. This one is another unique to the cause of my BPD. I could give you exact details why my brain works better this way now, but that’s another story. I can’t think when I’m talking, which makes filtering, controlling, and generally communicating incredibly difficult. I get overwhelmed by the sound of my own voice. When I hear it my brain screams at me to stop talking, to the point that sometimes I’m not even sure what I’m saying anymore. It is an overgrown scar from the fight or flight response, in which my voice fled, because fighting with my voice was a wet noodle against a brick wall. My voice meant nothing, and to exercise it usually brought trouble and pain. I can write, though. I was a caged bird with so much to express. It found an out through writing- my vocabulary the muscles I could flex freely, my escape was reading, my breath was writing. The only freedom I always had was writing. I can write. I can’t speak.

But it’s currently 3:40 in the morning and while I love to write, writing about myself and translating my massive struggle into something I feel accurately expresses it, is difficult and exhausting. For now, I may need to dial back the explanations and keep it simple. If I can, I’ll expand upon the parts I feel I should later.

I have intense abandonment issues, and practically no self esteem. I truly struggle with the belief that people don’t actually like me, they’re just being nice and tolerating me. One day, they’ll all get bored of me, or grow to hate me, or I’ll do something wrong, or we’ll just grow apart and I will 100% lose everything I have and everyone I love. I haven’t been able to tackle that yet. Its almost a fact in my mind. The sky is blue, and everyone in my life will leave me. Grass is green and I am a worthless pile of human waste. The sun is a star and I hate myself and I’m terrible at everything I will ever try to do or be. Forgive me, I know that’s the part people usually jump to argue with first, but please don’t. It’s not based in logic. I appreciate the sentiment, but it almost makes things worse. My brain says 'look at how they pity you, pathetic thing’. It’s ugly, but it’s my reality.

The second ugliest thing that people seem to struggle with is self harm and suicidal thoughts. It’s not always cutting or burning, or jumping or hanging. For some people it’s over eating. For others it’s substance abuse. For some it’s spending, for others it’s sex. Self harm, for me, it is either vivid thoughts of being roughly, uncomfortably bound with rope or wire. In a completely not-sexual way. Being able to tighten it or struggle against it and feel the pain. I don’t know why, but that’s what it is these days. The suicidal thoughts for me are much more passive. “What if that car swerved and hit me.” “What if I got really sick and there was no cure.” “What if a vein popped in my brain and I bled out.” Not actively trying, or even hoping. Just recurring thoughts of the end of my life. (Let me reassure you, right now, because suicide is no joke and it is not something I take lightly. I have no intention of trying to end my life. I have no intention of letting anything else do it for me. If I can avoid it, I’m not going anywhere anytime soon. I promise.) It’s just one of those things. Like a song getting stuck in your head. It just happens.

I am sensitive. I notice the slightest change in the tone of your voice. I notice the twitch of your brow. I see the wringing of your hands. These tiny changes can be absolutely nothing, and part of me will know that, but the other part of myself is already obsessing about what I’ve said and what mistake I’ve made and how much I’ve upset this person or how far I’ve just managed to push them away.

I take it to heart when you make a joke at my expense. Even if you’re kidding, and I know you are, even if its super funny and I’m laughing my butt off, even if I know that it’s absolutely untrue, a sliver of it goes straight to my soft heart. It will sting regardless, and I will stress and worry that it might be true.

I am socially inept. I second guess EVERYTHING I do socially and if I make a slip that you’ll forget in seconds, I will still be mentally beating myself up for it the unforeseeable future. (As I write this, one slip I made 4 or 5 months ago comes to mind, and it still makes my stomach drop and anxiety raise.)

I am incredibly hard on myself, with a massive guilt complex, and have absolutely no idea how to to cope with or express it. If I accidentally stepped on your toe, I am immediately burying myself in insults and scolding and hating myself. I am imagining the rough ropes binding me, and wishing I could just disappear. I’m already so far gone in my mind that in reality I am clumsily trying to apologize and the worse it is, the worse I feel, the less I know how to express my regret properly. No one wants you to cry with guilt over stepping on their toe. So I can seem stilted and callous. I know sometimes it seems like I’m not sorry, but I just don’t know how to express it in a socially acceptable, healthy way. I genuinely blame myself completely for things I had absolutely no control over, and I’m always apologizing. Sometimes I’m apologizing just for existing, taking up space and your time with my foolish self. But that’s not socially acceptable to say. To I apologize again with a laugh or joke, so it’s easier for everyone to move on.

I, personally, struggle with the need for validation and reassurance in a very big and real way. I can’t really express why and how, but it’s so, so important to me.

Trying to juggle this issue and trying to remember and practice functioning like a healthy person absolutely contributes to my anxiety and depression. It is exhausting and isolating, and even as I write this, I’m not sure if I’m actually learning to function in a healthier way, or of I’m learning how to pretend better. I am happy and life is generally good, but these are deep set scars that are going to take a long, long time and a lot of effort to work through.

So there you are. An incredibly intimate and honest look at my struggle with mental health. My cards are on the table and Im nearly out of words.

I know that being around me requires a level of patience that not everyone has. I know that loving me can be complicated and challenging. But I feel your support. It is immeasurably appreciated. It is held with serene awe and gratitude. To know that people actually choose to spend their time sharing any level of existing space with me, always surprises me and brings me strength.

Thank you for reading.

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all numbers on the 'send me numbers' meme

Oh jeeze annon! 

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

My gf! 

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Mmm, it depends on the person? Once i get to know someone, im out going, but if its a new person, im rlly shy tbh,,,

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

My gf,,, evry day,,,

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Idk? I hope I am,,, but a lot of people don’t like me,, so idk?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I’m like,,, 2,,, but if I were drunk,,, i hope so???

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Gals :9

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

I hope so!!!! I’m not planning on breaking up with my gf any time soon!!

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

thts a bit hetero but,,, the mcelroy bros bc im listening to taz rn :/

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

From a sceintific perspective nope, but like,, from a uhm,,, more,, not,, scientific perspective,,, ive never rlly talked about it but,, im assuming so???

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Mmmm idk?? I dont talk /deeply/ to a lot of people but it might be my gf?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

‘Np!!!’

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Boombayah - Blackpink

The 7th Sense - Nct U

Candy Store - Heathers

Russian Roulette - Red Velvet

Bomb - Ravi

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

yes yes yes ye s y es p leas e

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

def. luck, but not miracles?? idk is tht weird?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I got accepted to the school im goin to now!! so thts cool!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

anon imma confess somethin rlly quick,, 

i havent had my first kiss,,,

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Yea for sure! I mean, if space is infinitely big, wouldnt it be weird if we were the only ones out there?? 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

i can not talk to the green villan chick from kim possible so nope lamo

19. Do you like bubble baths?

yea!! its rlly fun and relaxing

20. Do you like your neighbors?

the only neighbors i know are the ones who are crack heads and who had someone die in their home somehow?? so imma go with no

21. What are you bad habits?

Biting my lips, mumbling, self-isolation, ect ect

22. Where would you like to travel?

i wouldnt probs?? other time periods are more aesthetic, but more misogynistic and homophobic  so,,,

23. Do you have trust issues?

I dont think so?? probs not tbh,,

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

s l e e p

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

my shoulders,, theyre rlly broad for a gal so a lot of clothes dont fit me right,,

26. What do you do when you wake up?

suffer

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

nope?? i mean, im v v v v v pale so i probs should be a bit darker for health reasons, but ive never rlly had issues with is before??

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my gf and besties

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

i only have one and nope

30. Do you ever want to get married?

it depends on what my partner wants? i dont specifically want to and i dont specifically dont want to so itll be up 2 who ever im dating at the time 

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

barely. it has a hard time staying up some times

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

bdkhj what the fuck im not answering that im 2 years o l d

33. Spell your name with your chin.

fgZg,klf      

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

yep! basketball and soccer!

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV. I barely watch it anyways

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

mm yea 

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

i usually try to think of a story??

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

my current gf tbh

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

amazon lmao

40. What do you want to do after high school?

idk yet?? rn im thinking an english teacher in china :0

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

depends on what they did

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

nothin rlly?? Im just usually lost in thought??

43. Do you smile at strangers?

i try to!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

s p a c e 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

the thought of seein my gf at school ;)

46. What are you paranoid about?

my report card,,,

47. Have you ever been high?

yea but it WASNT MY FAULT. I WAS GIVEN A WEED BROWNIE WITH OUT MY CONSENT OKAY??

48. Have you ever been drunk?

na

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

no??

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

i think it was my gf’s brown hoodie?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

uhm,,, na? sometime i wish we were in a dif financial situation, but thts about it?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

my shoulder width??

53. Favourite makeup brand?

i dont,,, wear make up,,,,

54. Favourite store?

amazon :9

55. Favourite blog?

@genociderfukawa , @eggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggs , @succmekomaeda

56. Favourite colour?

all of the pastels!

57. Favourite food?

penne chicken Alfredo 

58. Last thing you ate?

some chicken 

59. First thing you ate this morning?

a fudgeround

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Yea! Iv’e won multiple sports contests, and a few art and writing competitions

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nope!

62. Been arrested? For what?

na man. i have a clean record

63. Ever been in love?

I am rn! 

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

i,,, havent had it yet,,,,,,

65. Are you hungry right now?

nope! i just ate dinner!

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

i rlly dont have any tumblr friends?? 

67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter obvi

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

twitter!

69. Are you watching tv right now?

nope! im listening to taz

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Emily, Jessy, Mikaia, Zoya, and Patrick!

71. Craving something? What?

,,,,cheesecake,,,,,,

72. What colour are your towels?

green and blue i think

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

7. exactly.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

do pillow pets count?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

5 or 6?

75. Favourite animal?

owls and bunnies!!

76. What colour is your underwear?

rn?,,,,,,,,, neon pink ://p

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

triple chocolate chunk and tht kinda bull shit!

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

navy blue

80. What colour pants?

also navy blue! 

81. Favourite tv show?

i dont rlly watch american tv but,, channel zero is rlly good!!

82. Favourite movie?

Moana!!!!

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

mean girls 1

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

ive never seen 21 jump street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

idk?? the main bitch

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

dory!

87. First person you talked to today?

my gf!

88. Last person you talked to today?

my dad i think??

89. Name a person you hate?

mm a few kids in my grade and the current potus and staff

90. Name a person you love?

my gf!! i luv her lots

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

na. im p chill rn

92. In a fight with someone?

not tht i know of?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

2 or 3 pairs

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

3 of 4?? idek

95. Last movie you watched?

a shitty movie for my history class 

96. Favourite actress?

i dont have one?

97. Favourite actor?

Lin Manuel Miranda!

98. Do you tan a lot?

nope. i just fukin,, burn like a hellfire

99. Have any pets?

3 cats and a dog!

100. How are you feeling?

pretty cool i guess?

101. Do you type fast?

depends? mostly ya!

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

oh fuck yes

103. Can you spell well?

no!! my spelling is shit tbh

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

no particuarly?

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

yep!

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

i might have?? im,, not sure honetly,,

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

yea! i used to ride rlly well!

108. What should you be doing?

listen here anon i actually did my fukin work 4 once

109. Is something irritating you right now?

just my headache?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

oh yea

111. Do you have trust issues?

this is a repeat? i answered it earlier lmao

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Im not sure?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

tay

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yea!

115. Do you play the Wii?

mm i have a wii u and switch, but no wii anymore :’(

116. Are you listening to music right now?

nope! im listening to taz!

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

hell yea!

118. Do you like Chinese food?

fuck yes!!!!

119. Favourite book?

the legend series by Marie Lu

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

4 sure

121. Are you mean?

god i hope not

122. Is cheating ever okay?

no! all partners should consent and agree on all boundaries in a relationship!! the members of that relationship need to respect that!!

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

hell na

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

mmhmm!

125. Do you believe in true love?

im in it rn baby

126. Are you currently bored?

yea,,,

127. What makes you happy?

music i like, my gf, spending tie with friends, and not stressing out about things!

128. Would you change your name?

nope! i like my name

129. What your zodiac sign?

pisces!

130. Do you like subway?

yasss!

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

he knos im fukin gay as shit 

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

i answered this earlier too

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

‘ringdingdong ringdingdong ding, rigiding rigi ding ding ding ....... fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic elastic elastic elastic elastic’

134. Can you count to one million?

i could but im not dooin that shit

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

‘im straight’

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed

137. How tall are you?

5′3 3/4″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

like what i have?? its super curly!

139. Brunette or Blonde?

im a brunette!

140. Summer or Winter?

mmm winter!

141. Night or Day?

night, cause i can sleep with out regrets

142. Favourite month?

February!

143. Are you a vegetarian?

na 

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

dark!

145. Tea or Coffee?

mm neither :p

146. Was today a good day?

i would say so yea

147. Mars or Snickers?

m ars??

148. What’s your favourite quote?

‘dibidibidis my name is minho’

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

yea!

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

‘Burr: Theres nothing rich folks love more’

(its hamilton the revolution)

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well this was fun lmao