No, but it does give you back some control, Kaz. Which honestly is an understandable feeling to want to have. But thinking about it, what’s gotta be worse than being both grounded-and in excruciating pain with much less function than he had previously?
Loss of control.
Even if I go with my headcanon of the capture being an organized thing between himself and Ocelot-that doesn’t mitigate it being traumatic or bad.
(Which obviously, is just a headcanon/theory: nothing I say in any of these posts is 100% proven canonically, this is just my own thoughts after all from context we receive within the game).
Anyway.
Taking aside the other factors (artificial limbs aren’t a guarantee that it makes things better, or easier. Extra weight, difficulties etc) thinking of the kind of personality Kaz has; that of a high-strung man eager to find his place and exert power over others (and if not power, then something akin to it, or mingled with other elements) a core element in that is control.
Being the one in charge. Someone who has enough of a position of authority to exert his will unto others. Whether that word comes from himself or Snake, he’s at the helm somehow.
After Kaz is rescued, he’s open about exactly how he’s feeling-
And honestly, a single look at himself, or even just how much pain he has got to be in on a day-to-day basis would tell him that he really doesn’t need to focus on that in order to remember. Frankly, I think he’d have a much harder time forgetting. After all, it’s been 9 years since the attack, and he’s still fueled so strongly by hate and revenge that it’s on his mind 24/7. Nothing else occurs to him, ever.
Angry enough that even after weeks in captivity, he’s fuming and chomping at the bit to get going again.
Sir the only thing you should be right now is unconscious.
But there is really only so much vulnerability a single person can take. Let alone someone like him.
Kicks help away.
If he’s in pain, it’s more than just a reminder. It serves as the one thing he has left to master. To be in charge of. Pain meds wouldn’t take all of it away. But it would ease it. Bionics wouldn’t take all of it away, but it might (or might not) help him. If he says ‘no’ to all of this, then he’s the one with the final say. Logically, it doesn’t make the most sense. After all, you can’t think or function properly in pain the way you could out of it.
Believe me I know.
I rely on aids myself, from time to time. I was a daily cane user for most of university.
A wheelchair for another trip.
And there’s absolutely an argument to be made, that if he did take assistance. Help. That if he did get himself in less pain then he’d actually be exerting more control in the situation because now he’s the one that’s got a handle on it. He’s the one that took it back and brought it back to himself. Into a place where it no longer dominates him, but he dominates it.
But the longer he’s in pain, the angrier he can stay. Not to mention it provides an excuse for the anger. Now he’s not just in control of himself (so he thinks anyway, I’d argue the point with him myself if he was a living thing I could speak too) but kept mad and spitting. Mad enough to kill Skull Face, mad enough to keep going and going. Fueling his fire with self grown coals.
Because without that pain, that anger. Also comes loss.
Grief is one of the central themes to MGSV (a whole other post to be honest). Grief and anger often times go hand and hand. Kaz isn’t a good person with good morals at the end of the day. A man who was so eternally displaced with his position in the world from the day of his birth, and really until his death that his solution was things like nation states and war economies. But you don’t have to be a good person, or a saint, to have been wronged in some fashion.
He's never been shy about admitting exactly what kind of person he is (in this regard, anyway)
And is there not, end of day, a large element of control rooted in things like this?
These are the sorts of ideologies Kaz holds: in his own words.
Like this:
Or this.
His lead, and Kaz's. (Since it's Kaz talking here that is not what is outright stated, but it's clear enough what Kaz might want, within these situations).
(One could also argue this is just morally corrupt people taking care of other morally corrupt people but that’d be a derailment. Another post would have to delve into that as well).
When he lost everything-his home, his limbs, he lost key elements of his control that he worked so brutally to build. Whatever scrap of it he can cling to and maintain, he will.
Obviously, Kaz is in a different place (and undoubtedly frame of mind by the 90’s) but in the 80’s, he’s holding strong to pain, grief, anger, and loss. Because if he lets go of the things that keep him fueled and furious, then all that’s left is all-encompassing grief.
And that must feel a whole lot harder to deal with to him (I’d think anyway) than being raging and fuming.
edit: TUMBLR ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. WHY THE FUCK DO YOU SCRAMBLE SHIT WHEN I USE A READ MORE YOURE A FUCKING CUNT GOOD LORD
edit2: it added the edit but not the fucking read more. im tired
i had the brush set too small at first & didnt realize until i was already too far along- full body diamond authority is ok w the shaded fit & wings but the headshot is just. eh. kinda dislike it. im fucking obsessed with the other headshot tho
giyuu's a lapis along w tsutako, normal lapis terraforming job but some shit went down, tsutako got shattered, giyuu was left to fend for herself until she ran into a lost kunzite fresh out the ground (she had a slight imperfection, showed up as a spot along her cheek (corner of mouth to center base of ear) that looks like raw kunzite/ yk when a helmet or somethn gets shaved down sliding against a road? that)
they tough it out in the wilds for a while, they got attacked and accidentally fused to defend themselves, kept fusing when they were in trouble after that- yadda yadda meet makomo (also a gem) & sakonji and learn how to be their own person, getting their own names (giyuu got Giyuu, the kunzite got Sabito) and meeting a group of other rogue gems & making human friends
sabito got particularly interested in the concept of human masculinity & highly respected the closest man she knew, sakonji- transed his gender & chose to dedicate himself to protecting those he cares about. giyuu is very close to him and also changed pronouns & vibes bc sabito loved it so much, though he doesnt really care about human perceptions of gender (hes a pretty rock made of light, the fuck does he need a gender for? (sabito doesnt see it that way, he never got indoctrinated/had a formal gem education or whatever, so hes just vibin))
something something giyuu found a way to precisely control water, and what is ice if not Structured Water. sabito never got whatever his job as a kunzite was, but he has a similar ability as Pearl where hes able to summon a blade from his gem (rectangular cut, back of his left hand). when theyre fused they become Hawk's Eye (also know as blue tiger's eye), able to both control water(& subsequently ice) and form blades along his arms and feet; the blades on his feet allow him to ice skate, the blades on his arms are attached at two points on the forearm and is curved over the hand- the blade's allowed to spin around the arm, tip of the blade is at the point of rotation so itll be in the same spot above the hand no matter what side of the arm its on
my diamond dogs oc brazen wolfdog!! he's kaz's assistant, and he loves to cause problems for him, but he gets away with it because he's good at his job :)
ok I LOVE the diamond dogs they’re so cute & supportive they are just boy best friends & they talk about love drama together & act silly & bark like dogs. they’re so stupid I adore them
The Brothers Bloom is really such a masterpiece of storytelling because they fake you out with the twist three goddamn times before actually giving it to you and it's just the best case of having your chain yanked around ever
✘ — angel‚ he calls me. does he know that i am falling? ( ship / siimians. )
✘ — you and me have always been so simple minded. ( ship / goldenvision. )
✘ — well my trust in you is a dog with a broken leg. ( ship / stxnekxng. )
✘ — i would have stayed up with you all night had i known how to save a life. ( ship / megapolismayor. )
✘ — you saw through me all this time. i’d forgotten people are kind. ( ship / energeticsand. )
✘ — when the morning comes we’ll burn it down and then build the world again. ( ship / fatedefyd. | spiderqueen. )
✘ — you were in the darkness too‚ so i stayed in the darkness with you. ( ship / fatedefyd. | chang’e. )
✘ — what i just said was only hypothetical‚ i won’t be trouble for you. ( ship / fatedefyd. | tang. )
✘ — i don’t need the sun and moon to tell me what to do as long as i have you. ( ship / abitangy. )
✘ — you were out of my league. all the things i believed‚ you were just the right kind. ( ship / bxnnymooncxkes. )
✘ — you’re beautiful‚ but i must explain; my mind’s not in a good place. ( ship / lunarspeared. )
✘ — you’ve got me feelin’ diamond rich‚ nothing on this planet compares to it. ( ship / rcwrittcn. | gladstone. )
✘ — maybe you’re the same as me. they say the truth will set you free. ( ship / ragefeathers. )
✘ — well i’m not paralyzed but i seem to be struck by you. ( ship / takeachanceontoday | noctis. )
"I give the beast her coffee milk, because I have a feeling that she knows I've done something wrong, and I need to get back in her good favor lest Mawsitsit ceases to be more than he normally ceases to be." Gem Steven replied.
again i was expecting something worse, and outta context it really would be, but given that he apologized immediately, it seems like he only just realized how it sounded – i don’t think he’s being jealous or possessive but just wants to confirm that it was for jamie in order to a) blame jamie for something and b) lord it over jamie after that speech about deleting everything – since he obviously didnt
This poor pup, at the age of 44, was nearly decapitated sometime in those four plus decades.
His person didn't remember if it was a fight with another dog or something else, but she found him stored like this among her mother's things, and wanted to see about making him feel better. In addition to the neck wound, he was missing a spot on the back, needed some eye touchup... and we were planning a spa for him.
Here he is in his bubble bath:
I don't know about you, but I can see his Scooby grin (which is actually missing) forming under the bubbles in that photo. I think it's one of my favorite spa pics. Anyway, here's his heart being made and installed.
Next his internal wire supports were straightened and reinstalled, and his neck injury was treated. That's when I figured out he once had a collar, because a stub of it was clinging to the inside of his neck. So I spoke with his person and we planned a new collar. These were the felt options, based on illustrations of Scooby from that era (the stub of collar was so faded, it was hard to tell the original color).
The plan was just to do a collar, maybe with a blank diamond hanging from it as I couldn't exactly replicate a machine embroidered tag (or the images of Scooby's tags online). But it was the weekend, and we let Scooby rest and while he was resting and I was busy doing other things, I had an idea of how to make his tag! So I made a tag with the collar, attached it, and sent photos. I told his person if she didn't like it, it was easy to go back to a plain gold diamond:
But she loved it! So we kept the SD tag and next was his new felt spot on his back to replace the missing one, and a new smile. Based on the stitches on his fur, it was hard to tell what his original smile looked like, so I sent a sketch with some example options:
His person chose the center one, but said thick yarn maybe? I knew it couldn't have been thick yarn originally. There would have been larger holes. But based on all his felt parts, thought maybe it was felt, so that's what we agreed to do. Soon, Scooby was smiling again and ready to fly home:
His person wrote "he looks brand new, wow I cannot thank you enough! Thank you so much!! He looks amazing!"
and when he got home, she added:
"He is home!!! He smells like my mom, I know you bathed him and cleaned him I don’t know how he does but that is the only thing I have now that smells like her. Thank you so so much!!!"
(that's the heart of original stuffing holding the scent. :-))
mafia!eddie spoiling you in every possible way for christmas.
mafia!eddie who doesn’t like the advent calendars bc they’re boring, so he makes you one instead.
the first day is a diamond tennis bracelet. the next a perfume. they start small- well, small in terms of his gifts.
by the sixth day, you’re a little overwhelmed with how overboard he went. a vintage fur coat that you know had to have a pricey price tag on it.
“you really didn’t have to do this, ed.”
“of course i did. look how pretty you look in it, baby.”
when he gives you a car on the twenty fourth, you’re certain nothing can top it. what could he possibly do to go bigger than a car?
then he’s holding a bundle in his arm, a squirming puppy with a bow on his collar. your friend had gotten a puppy, and when you came home from seeing it, eddie knew exactly what to get you for christmas.
he even got the puppy a stocking. filled it with toys and treats to go with the other dogs, which made you nearly sob.
“this is the best one.” you hugged the puppy to you.
“this one? saved the best for last, baby.”
idk what this is i’m tired and emo and thinking about my one true love