#chaloveserwin ?!

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last req for today, "you look gorgeous. stunning. jaw-dropping. breathtaking. do you see what i'm trying to get at?" from the love promprs w erwin ? ( maybe w insecure!reader if you want to :3 )

💌 – a/n: thank you for your sweet request love! this will be my first ever erwin x reader attempt so i hope i write him well for you here TT

– (IMPORTANT!; mentions of; physical insecurity and some suggestive content! however nothing explicit ><)

It's happening again.

You swore this feeling would've passed sooner or later – But, it had been well over a week since you had any desire to do anything with yourself. You simply had no energy to move to fix a meal in the dining hall nor could you even brush through the tangled knots in your hair.

What was the point anyway?

It felt awful to even look into a mirror for more than a few seconds before you repulsively turn away in pure disgust – You couldn't understand why you started feeling this way about yourself, yet all you knew was that this had lingered for far too long.

Perhaps, your relationship with the Survey Corps Commander had something to do with it; He was intelligent, tall, handsome and popular amongst many women, civillian and enlisted. Perhaps, it was the way there were so many women out there who have a much better chance at winning his heart than you – Perhaps, you didn't feel good enough.

Why even be with someone like me?

You were spiraling and you knew better than to try and handle it alone, but in this moment, you couldn't help but shroud yourself away from the world. You hadn't left your room since the morning dawned on the horizon and by now, Erwin should've noticed by now – It didn't seem like he was anytime soon. He had his own duties outside of his interpersonal relationships, you figured as much.

Maybe if you just take deep breaths, this will all go away. It will be okay.. It will be fine..

"Hi my love, I'm sorry I couldn't wake you this morning. I thought you were-"

The familiarity of a voice that called your name as easy as it was breathing, his voice that pulled you out from under your linen covers to reveal your disheavled state that you so desperately tried to mask from your now concerned boyfriend.

Upon seeing the fatigue from your dark undereyes and the hollowed way you looked up at him, he was quick to settle at your bedside, embracing you in a blanket of warmth and security. He earnestly held you close to him with a hand detangling through the roughness of your neglected strands.

He didn't know what to say nor did he think he had any place to bombard you with a million questions all at once. Instead, he simply asked,

"Are you okay?"

That was all it took for you to completely melt into him, to give all that you had been holding in for what seemed like forever. Your arms curled around him, tears cascading onto the front of his uniform (Though he didn't seem to mind at all). You buried yourself further into his chest, pressing yourself as close as you could to him, almost as if you weren't close enough. You needed this beyond what words could explain and he understood full well.

"Shh shh, it's okay love. Deep breaths for me, take your time. I'm not going anywhere."

You heeded his word, inhaling and exhaling as he continued to stay by your side without interrupting the process. He patiently waited until your frantic breaths were reduced to a gentle rise and fall of your body against his. He then briefly pulled away, brushing the hairs that stuck to your tear-dampened face. You slightly chuckled to yourself, you probably looked ridiculously unkempt in front of him, but for all that's happened you couldn't find it in you to care anymore.

"Mind telling me what's on your mind? Full honesty, I'm not here to judge," He pressed softly, still continuing to brush out the stubborn knots in your hair.

You thought for a moment now knowing that there's no point in trying to hide anything from him. The appearance of you already gave so much away.

"I.. I don't feel the best about myself. I don't feel like I deserve your love nor do I feel... beautiful. I haven't for a while and I don't know why. I never told anyone because I thought this feeling would go away on its own and I didn't want to burden you with my problems. But, it just got out of hand to where I didn't want to tell you at all. I guess I got caught up in my head too much," You explain hesistantly, wiping the leftover tears that streamed down your face.

A part of Erwin was in disbelief that you had felt that way about yourself when he felt the complete opposite. He thought you were the universe itself, his everything. And he would rip the sun and moon out of the sky just to give you the world. You would be the first and last person he'd say good morning and good night to and the first and last person he'll give his heart to. He loves you more than life itself because you are his life.

And the entirety of Erwin wanted to make sure you knew just how much he truly cherishes you.

His lips passionately meet yours in a need, a desire to convey his love in any way that he can. He hopes that this is more than enough to speak volumes to you, he hopes that he's reaching you in this moment.

You breathing becomes erratic again, but this time, in the way that felt right, that felt safe. You leaned back as he continued to hold you tightly against him, your back meeting the mattress of your bed.

"You look gorgeous," He breathes, kissing up your neck and pausing in between to continuing his affirmations.

"Stunning," Another kiss follows below your ear lobe.

"Jaw-dropping," And another kiss following down to your chest.

"Breathtaking. Do you see what i'm trying to get at?" He concludes, kissing his way back to your face where its now contorted of pure bliss – You've missed this so much.

You could only manage a nod, but no – He wanted to hear you say it yourself.

"I want you to use your words, my love. You're my pretty girl aren't you?"

"Yes.."

"Tell me how beautiful you are hm?" He says, advancing his way back to your navel and looking up at you before continuing.

"I'm.. I'm beautiful, I am," You whisper, tears silently welling up again in the corners of your eyes. Erwin immediately took notice and wiped them away before they could stream down any further.

"Don't you forget it okay? I am yours as you are mine and there's nothing in this world that could change that."

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