#can you tell he's my bias

[abloomingperiod]

you | kim namjoon

the streets of seoul never seemed so cool and grey. or maybe they did, but you didn't pay attention because your eyes were always glued to the tanned, radiant man that used to keep them busy.

used to. 3 weeks ago, you would've never thought of that. he wasn't that stupid, no. he wouldn't just pretend he was never there, every few days at times. he couldn't. right?

if only you could've faced it without 1 bottle of wine every three days and tears streaming down your face now and then - daily.

yes. yes, he could. and he did.

now that you realize, maybe, these streets were never radiant. maybe, it was just a sudden, fast ray of light that promised to warm whatever corner it could, even if just casually, but couldn't keep the promise.

as you enter your apartment complex and make your way to your doorway, you feel a thump in your heart that seems louder than the one your feet did to stop you in your tracks.

he is unbelievable.

there he was, standing in his glory, black sweatshirt with the cap on. he knew, by now, how much you liked this comfy look on him, which only made your blood boil even more.

"hey." was all that left his mouth, his gaze scanning you like he was remembering every inch of you his hands used to travel through.

and god, did he miss that.

"hi," you responded, keeping the same frozen posture. it's not like you wanted to move. or could. you felt as if you moved, your body would get out of the shock and simply crumble "what are you doing here?"

"can't i see you now?" that smug, shameless face of his, that used to make your stomach flutter like a high schooler, now making you wish you could tear it down with your own hands.

"are you fucking serious?" you said, your voice already raising a note. please, be cool, you beg yourself.

he seemed taken aback, and at the same time, not surprised. namjoon knew there wasn't chance for him to play dumb. there never was, at least with you.

he looked down, broad shoulders and smug expression falling, hands on his pocket, like a deer caught in the lights.

"i'm sorry"

"oh, you're sorry! thank you, that solves everything out" you retorted, "what the fuck do you need?"

"i wanna talk to you", he responds, looking up, scanning from your toes to your eyes and you swear you had to hold you breath for a second before his eyes met yours.

you scoff, "and you needed to disappear for 3 weeks to figure that out?" you kept staring at his eyes, burning holes in them. "3 weeks, namjoon."

"i know-"

"your friends wouldn't tell me where you were!" at this point, you're basically screaming, but you knew - or at least expected after 3 months seeing him - he wasn't the type to invalidate your emotions. especially in this particular fuck up of his. "why the fuck did you need to come here? just find another fuck and get lost again! you clearly have no problem with that just please, don't fucking pretend to befriend them for that."

"that's absolutely not what happened" he defends himself, his voice now raising a little. "i needed space..."

"fuck you" you hiss at him, your eyes red, fighting the urge to not let the tears you so thought had dried on their won roll down your cheeks, "i never did anything for this to be necessary. when exactly did i beg for you to stay for the weekend, huh? when did i repeated over and over for you that i loved-" your voice cracks at that word, and you catch his eyebrows fall a little, "spending time with you? or.. jesus, when did i let everything and went running to your house because you were sick? that wasn't me, was it"

he looks up, eyes wide and about to explain himself as he tries to approach you, but you take a step back. "don't you dare"

he sighs, but it doesn't seem like an angry sound. no, he seems troubled. defeated, even.

"i understand" he returns his eyes to the ground and bites his lower lip. "people were murmuring about it back at the agency... i know it sounds stupid, but i didn't want the risk of you waking up one day and a bunch of pictures being splattered all over the news"

you laugh bitterly at his explanation, not because you couldn't believe the scenario. that really could happen someday. but you were aware of that from day one, and he knew that. why the fuck did his friends couldn't say anything but "he's okay"?

you wipe your face, trying to calm yourself and keep the last drops of dignity you had within you, "you know... i didn't expect any sort of commitment from you. we both made that very clear from the start, and i kept my word. you changed that, when you decided to act like a fucking-" you don't let the word boyfriend come out. no, you were too proud to admit you were seeing him like that - even though, he caused it himself. "if you would be that much scared, why did you even start it all? do you really don't give one singular shit about anyone but yoursel-"

"i couldn't keep my hands off of you" he says, eyes still on the ground, and for the first time in this encounter, you said nothing back, not even a sound. "i couldn't stop thinking about you, even before all this. i also didn't wanna fuck up our friendship. then, when you called me for that glass of wine, and i got here and saw you in that robe...... i thought it would be a good idea, you know, friends that fuck now and then... i didn't wanna lose your friendship, but shit, y/n" he then looks up at your eyes and lips, his gaze repeating the path over and over again, "you," he seems as if he's trying to find the right words, but all he can continue with is, "you."

"so you did all this shit because you liked what you saw. what a fucking friend you are." now, no tears leave your eyes. just fire, pure hurt and anger. "do you do that a lot? sleep with your friends, make them fall for you every fucking hook up and then fuck off-"

"i can't be friends with you" he responds, and your instinct is to simply laugh nonchalantly at that, attempting to hide the hurt his confirmation brought.

"well, no shit now. i kinda figured that out by myself. are you that dense to not understand that you didn't have to come all the way-"

and then, his tone comes back to the normal, that serene and low one you're familiar with after waking up next to him a dozen times, "i'm in love with you."

if you thought your heart had dropped all the way down the street, you were wrong. now, it was no longer there. it was lost, leaving a hole in your chest.

"don't say that" you your eyes drowning again, your whole body feeling small and exposed at his words.

"i'm in love with you" he repeats, slowly walking closer to you, his arms already lifting to make their way to the crook of your elbows like he used to do to grab your attention.

"stop it" you say, noticing the space between you being closed second by second, but not moving an inch.

"i'm in love with you, y/n" he says one more time, and you feel his warm hands touching your arms, carefully caressing them like you were about to break at any point.

"you're a fucking coward for going this far" you still couldn't believe his words. "is it really that worth it? leaving me like a fucking one night stand and not your fucking friend, before anything? you already got what you wanted, multiple times. go your own way, please" your voice cried the last word, barely emitting any sound, and at that moment he understood it. you thought he was playing with you to get into your pants again, the thought making him feel offended by a second before reminiscing about his last actions.

"i'm not living until you listen to me" he says in a strong remark, a polar opposite of his hands in your arms like his life depended on it.

you keep staring at him, eyes sad and yet full of fury, the sight alone breaking his heart over and over whilst making him panic, and he takes your silence as a green light to talk.

"i'm not here to excuse myself out of what i did, and i know no matter what i say, i hurt you, my friend and..."- he seems to think for a second, staring at your arms and sadly contorting the corner of his mouth, and your heart couldn't be beating more rapidly now. "i'm sorry, and i'll always be for this, and if you don't want to be near me again, i understand, but please, please, don't think i'm saying anything but the truth for you. i can't spend any other day thinking about how and what to say to you, and believe me, i tried. but even when i tried to fucking stay away from you, you- god" he closed the distance between you bodies in a seemingly desperate motion, his eyes now red, "you were all over the place. your shampoo, your perfume, your clothes," he said as his hands traveled up your shoulders, then collarbones, coming back to your arms and repeating the path until it turned into a repeated caress. his voice cracking a bit "baby..." and at that, you start sobbing again.

your mind is a whirlwind. your stomach turns in and out of itself, and just now, as his head is hanging low from his neck, you notice a bouquet of roses hanging on your doorknob behind him.

the night was coming up. after all this time, you still can't process how time flies when you're with him.

you both stand there for what you're sure feels like more than a whole minute, and you feel his hands dropping, much like his head.

"i'm sorry" he murmurs, sniffling and reaching for the bouquet but before he can reach it, your hand grab his and you pull him for the most desperate, urgent kiss you ever had. even more than the ones before three glasses of wine, or the silly bickering you used to have with each other. like you feared he would slip away, like a dream when the morning comes.

his arms embraces your torso like you were something he never wanted to let go off his warmth, as if you were his to be. your hands go through his hair, cheeks, around his neck and anywhere else it could go, your body finally getting the specific embrace you oh so missed.

you part lips for a second, tears less prominent and definitely happier and your eyes stare at each other's mouth, already missing the softness, intensity and passion only your lips together could create.

you smile like two silly lovers, the two silly lovers you were finally showing out to be.

"please, don't leave again" you say, eyes finding his as your hands caress his puffy cheeks. "please".

"i swear," his hands now being the ones catching you cheeks "swear on my own life," he drops a kiss on your lips, "to do whatever i can to reinforce that every fucking day" his thumbs caressing you lovingly, like you were the only thing existing in the world "if you let me."

you smile at him, your breaths mixing together just like it used to, but in a much more intimate way than any hook-up you guys have ever had, "of course i do."

he kisses you in a much more slow, deep pace now. the soft taste of his that you were so immersed in entering your mouth and making your heart flutter over and over again. you both try, but can't stop smiling throughout your kiss, but that wasn't a problem. not for you.

"i love you" you confess to him, and seeing his satisfied sigh, your lips leave seconds-lasting pecks on his lips, as you keep repeating "i love you"s like a pray.

and like that, even with the night fully surrounding the city, every ounce of warmth seemed to have come back to you.

#kim namjoon #i'm legit writing this listening to dear john as if i couldn't suffer enough just by typing #kim namjoon drabble #namjoon kim #rm #rm imagine #kim namjoon imagine #bts namjoon #kim namjoon angst #can you tell he's my bias

[pangyham]

couldnt help myself and drew xq's skin. butchered it a lot.. my bad.. not a big fan of drawing frills hahaha

#xingqiu #chongyun #you can tell i spent more time sketching chongyun's headshot than xingqiu's #the bias still bleeds out sorry... i love chongyun #i was gonna add another panel where chongyun loses composure and goes oh God he looks really Nice.. #but i was too lazy hahaha #one of these days i wanna draw a lil comic where chongyun's the one calling xingqiu dearest. oh how the turns tabled #ALSO UH i colored him by memory and i looked at the original pic... lmao #it's 12am and i need to get up at 6 for a presentation i didnt work on #my art

[pileofpawns]

Mudd my beloved

#Can you tell he’s my favorite #Yes I have a bias for druids bc they’re my favorite class to play #But still #plum shitposts #tales from the stinky dragon #stinkydragonpod #mudd #mudd bramblecrack #d&d #meme

[bonefall]

I personally like Thunder's prosthetic. Explained it to my friend (who does use a mobility device, a cane and wheelchair, and listens to me rant and infodump about BB) and they agreed, it's important to know that not every person needs what someone wants to give them. It's another example of "bad ableist person does a thing that hurts a disabled person because they are bad and ableist".

Clear Sky got Jagged Peak killed and would have killed Sunlit Frost! He would absolutely force his disabled son to be "normal" and present it like a privilege. "I wouldn't do this for anyone else, it's special, why don't you want to be helped?"

Thunder Storm should toss it in Clear Sky's face. (I would say toss it into the river but we do not pollute waterways in this house)

Thank you for telling me this, and tell your friend I'm thanking them too! If they have anything else to add please forward what they have to say

Since BB!DOTC tackles some of the heaviest topics in the entire series because its canon equivalent is so dark, I think very carefully about what I do here and how I show it. I take feedback on its sensitive aspects very seriously. If I'm understanding the criticism properly, it's that I should avoid stigmatizing prosthetics by making sure Thunder Storm's not the only one with it-- which he's not! And I'll add even more.

I don't want to avoid something only because it's uncomfortable if the topic is important, and my portrayal is respectful. Ableism IS uncomfortable! There are some situations where a prosthetic is not wanted! I think the rejection of this particular one is both a good opportunity to show a type of ableism and ALSO is very fitting for the characters.

In BB!Clear Sky's mind, the villain, he's fixing an old mistake. He can't admit that he got Jagged Peak killed or take REAL accountability for it (though he will, occasionally, apologize insincerely), but deep in his bones, he knows what he did was cruel. He'll never tell anyone this because he doesn't really cognate it himself, but Thunder Storm NEEDS to take his gift.

If Thunder doesn't take it, it blows a hole in his newest story. You see, throwing Jagged Peak out was All That Could Have Been Done back then. It was a Tragedy and he simply Made A Hard Choice. He regrets it very much, But You Have To Understand.

But now? Now? Well, behold. Look at what he's accomplished since the tragic death of his little brother. His cats are well-fed, cared for, and stable enough to make such incredible advancements. If only Jagged Peak had been able to hold on longer, if only he could be here now, I could fix him.

Just like I can (MAKE YOU JUST LIKE ME) fix you.

"Everything I've ever done is for Jagged Peak. For Fluttering Wing. For you." Thunder Sky is SPECIAL, but if he rejects any gift, tries to turn down the "privileges" offered to him, in an instant that becomes ungratefulness and arrogance. He both forces him to be special, and then leverages it against him if it's rejected. "Spoiled brat, doesn't appreciate what I've worked so hard to give him."

It all goes back to him and his own guilt. He can NEVER be wrong. He can't accept his family doesn't have to be "normal" or reflect his own ability. He won't see himself as a bully, let alone a murderer. It was never about his son's comfort or finding out what Thunder Storm wants or needs, it was about his own ego.

...All that said I'm still taking feedback if there's anything else I should keep in mind, or if anyone has a counter point, especially if you also have experience here.

(In the interest of having a link trail for posterity, here's the critique/call for feedback this is in response to)

#ALSO also I will take suggestions on other characters who should have prosthetics #Sunlit makes sense and it will make a really nice character moment later for him to have one built #There's also an amputee in RiverClan few people talk about called Stonestream #I can give him one and bump him up into a bigger character. In BB he is the sibling of Willowshine #BB!DOTC #better bones au #Also just as a side note... I love writing BB!Skystar. My ire for the character comes from his redemption arc so I feel like I get to-- #--write the character I WANTED to see #Same with Bramble in other BB arcs #cw ableism #tw ableism #ableism #They're fascinating in that they always have to see themselves as the victim or the hero #They believe every lie they tell. #If you ever catch them in a contradiction they will still try to find some way to turn it on you and YOUR lack of understanding. #Interestingly both of them are ableist. Sky's is just more obvious because he's LOUDLY bigoted. #But BB!Bramble is *notably* less close to Jay for a very sad and very subtle reason. #Jay just doesn't serve his ego like the others do until much later in his life. #unfortunately most bigotry is like that. #the type you have a hard time calling out because it's a deniable bias. the constant gaslighting of being part of a marginalized group #Maybe I need to address the criticism by adding a character with a prosthetic to THIS arc even earlier #Problem is that like... Thunder's small merc group is already full of disabled characters and their THING is forming in response to ableism #OH maybe I'll put someone in the Forest Cat group which is lead by Slash? #I need to finish that last book and then gather up all the cats for sorting into allegiances

[qteachoice]

Effortless Lee Donghun

#a.c.e #lee donghun #donghun #casey speaks #listen if you ask me if I have a bias in a.c.e I will tell you no i'm an ot5 person through and through #but deep deep down I can admit that maybe dh is my bias just a little bit #i can't help it he's so pretty #and i love how much emotion he sings with

[akkivee]

Intensely Spicy Curry Training: Hypmic Curry Drama Track TL

Kuukou: Y’all sure took your sweet time getting here! I’ve already got everything prepared!

Jyushi: But didn’t you tell us to meet you at the temple?

Hitoya: If we’re making curry, why the hell are we way out in the mountains to do it?

Kuukou: Because I just had a great idea. Check this out!

Jyushi: Ooooh, look at all this meat! So, we’re going to be using all of this in our curry?

Hitoya: Beef and chicken, huh? I guess it would make sense not cook these while inside your temple.

Kuukou: You’re half right, and half wrong.

Jyushi: What do you mean?

Kuukou: I don’t plan to make just any ol’ curry. Now it’s time for the both of y’all to mince the hell out of this meat!!

Hitoya: I didn’t know whether to expect if a corrupt little monk such as yourself knew how to cook, but I’m surprised. Instead of using something pre-made, if we pound and mince the meat ourselves, we’d get a far more superior product. Is that what you were thinking?

Jyushi: Oh, I see! That’s amazing, Kuukou-san!

Hitoya: So, where���d you put the food processor?

Kuukou: Ah?? The hell are you on? You’re grinding this meat with your bare hands.

Jyushi: …Eh?

Kuukou: Jyushi, you’re on beef! Hitoya, you’re taking the chicken! Punch it with everything you’ve got and make minced meat out of it!! This is a new training session I thought up!

Hitoya: What the hell is this fool saying??

Jyushi: B-But there’s so much meat!! Grinding it by hand is impossible!!

Kuukou: I don’t want to hear any complaints!! You don’t know that unless you try!

Jyushi & Hitoya: *reluctantly pounds the meat by hand*

Jyushi: *tearfully* …My body’s going to become minced meat before the actual beef!

Hitoya: Damn it, I can’t believe I let my guard down like this…! I shouldn’t have expected we’d simply make curry…!

Kuukou: You can’t expect to get anywhere with a weak spirit behind weak fists like that!! Lemme show you how it’s done!

Kuukou: *starts punching*

Hitoya: You bastard, those are vegetables!!

Jyushi: E-Even I could mince a tomato by hand!

Kuukou: It doesn’t matter either way!! Whether it’s vegetables or meat, all that matters is the heart you’re putting behind it!!

Jyushi: T-That doesn’t make any sense…!!

Kuukou: “Enlightenment can be attained through one thousand fists!” Don’t just keep yapping and put some energy into your hips and legs too!

Hitoya: Tch, I don’t see any way out of this… Then, I might as well get it over with…!! UWOOOOOOOOOAAAARRRRGHHHH!!!!!!!! *maximum effort punching*

Jyushi: H-Hitoya-san??

Kuukou: Hyahaha! There’s the effort I wanna see!

Jyushi: Guh… Because My God has unshackled the chains binding his true power, I, too, must unlock mine to continue alongside him…! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!! *maximum effort punching*

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Jyushi: I-I can’t move another inch…

Hitoya: Ugh… I can’t even take the cap off my water bottle…

Kuukou: *sighs* It’s pretty pathetic to be that exhausted just from cooking.

Hitoya: You…!!!

Jyushi: But, I think it would be really nice if our training efforts could be felt by those eating our curry…!

Hitoya: …Well, I don’t think I’d say it like that, but I agree with the sentiment.

*the trees rustle and the birds chirp and there is peace*

Kuukou: The fuck are y’all talking about? There’s no point to this if the people who eating aren’t going through training too.

Jyushi: Eh?

Kuukou: Training can only be felt when you grow from the trials you’ve experienced yourself. Hopping off from other people’s efforts won’t mean shit.

Jyushi: B-but I mean, we’ll still be serving the curry to others once it’s finished cooking, right?

Kuukou: Yup. Which is why I’ve got…!

Hitoya: UWAH!! MY EYES!! IT’S IN MY EYES!!

Jyushi: That powder…!!

Hitoya: It’s red chili pepper!! Jyushi, run!! Move upwind so it doesn’t blow and stick to your mucous membrane!!

Jyushi: Eeek!!! *runs away sobbing*

Kuukou: HYAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Hitoya: Kuukou, you bastard, what are you doing? Are you trying to ruin everything we worked on??

Kuukou: I’m not ruining a damn thing! This curry will be spicy so I can provide a remote kind of training!

Hitoya: Stop fucking around!! There’s gotta be a limit!!

Jyushi: *runs back over* I think there’s more chili pepper powder than ingredients now…!!

Kuukou: Then it’s just right! Now try it.

Jyushi: NO!! I will not be eating!! I absolutely refuse!! Don’t even try me!!

Kuukou: Hey stupid, watch it, that’s dangerous!! Stop fighting me and just—Ahh??

Jyushi: T-The inside of the pot is pitch black……!!

Hitoya: Obviously. Chili peppers burn easily. Haah… Let’s just remake the curry.

Jyushi: But doesn’t that mean we’ll have to mince more meat??

Kuukou: Whatever, I was thinking our “Intensely Spicy Curry Training” was made too halfheartedly anyway!! Time to give it all I got and win this championship!!

#kuko harai #jyushi aimono #hitoya amaguni #bad ass temple #hypmic #hypnosis mic #til that you can make a meat paste at the very least by using a mortar and pestle LOL #the curry pissed me tf off lmao it was so spicy but underneath all that spice was a ridiculously flavourful curry #it's spicy enough that i can tell it's comfortably spicy for people used to eating spice tho!! #habenero is the worst experience with spice i ever had and it wasn't that bad lol but i got the sense it could have been #so i assume jyushi and hitoya talked kuukou down lmao or we didn't want a repeat burnt product lol #i decided to tone down how i usually write bat to try and not show my very obvious bias lol hopefully it worked #i remember slug mentioning sometimes a tl will come off vague in order to not get in the way of future developments #and i actually felt that tling this lmao like when hitoya was telling kuukou there's a limit for everything #i had to choose whether to make this about kuukou and training or kuukou and the chili peppers #the statement itself was a vague warning so my own interpretations of bat were getting in the way probably lol #statements without a clear subject usually default to the person speaking so kuukou saying give it everything and win the championship #is me assuming he's talking about himself and again i'm a little worried my own interpretations of bat are getting in the way #since kuukou's self reliance is blatant but also not if you're casually looking at bat SO IDK LOL I THINK TLING IS HARD #curry tl

[starlooove]

Racist white ppl who don’t realize they’re racist getting mad about gojo is so funny

#y’all do the same shit #making them hot cheeto girl edits using AAVE USHER!! #helloooooo call in house etc. #but also I’ve been saying this for awhile #where ppl don’t want complicated characters or interesting arcs bc then they have to think about themselves #I’m not just yapping y’all u can look back #this is the second time feeling so vindicated #bc when it happened with Sokka and everyone was confused I literally said this is a product of this mindset #like grand scheme the reason they removed that from Sokka is that y’all can’t stomach ur faves having biases even when they improve #look at how y’all are reacting to gojo #I may tell a joke but I will never tell a WHAT #well no I lie a lot sorry #anyways point is y’all running to say gojo isn’t racist even tho the point of the scene is him unlearning that bias #and then turning around and saying you want complex characters #like it’s so telling when the only flaws u give ur characters is insecurity and maybe assholeish tendencies that don’t actually mean a lot #like y’all want these ppl to be you till they’re actually you #ugh #anyways y’all are so lucky I resisted adding my hate for another character for this #you ALRDY know who #just know he’s in here too #oh obvious obligatory duh ppl didn’t write sokka or gojo bc of eachother I’m talking about behavioral trends across media consumption dont #piss me off like with the way y’all act I wouldn’t be surprised #I’m not saying they’re related Like linearly or whatever I’m saying this shit isn’t coming out of nowhere it’s YOU!

[classicsmosh]

NOT to ascribe feelings to Anthony that he doesn't have but his expression when shayne talked about how much he's come to know ian in the last six years was certainly interesting 👀

#[fixing my tin hat straps] #no no no worries i fully understand we can pick anything we want out of any expression if we look hard enough lol #confirmation bias and all that #BUT STILL- [SHOT] #☀️🔍 #smosh #amanda lehan canto #anthony padilla #shayne topp #(anyways. can you tell i watched it for the fourth time today.) #ACTUALLY WAIT IM NOT DONE WITH THESE TAGS IM GONNA MAKE MORE PRESUMPTIONS #do you think anthony's a little self conscious abt the dearth of ian knowledge that he has? #like theres a 6 year gap in his ''knows ian'' resume that hes been trying to fill in with videos and twitter posts #so hes like ''watching from the outside [...]'' and AHHHHHHH #im sorry im gonna shake apart im feral over these 2 #shooting sunshine

[diseaseriddencube]

i need to reread wof to finally figure out who my absolute favorite character is

#rave ramblees #like particularly from the first arc #I Hate All Of You #except Clay #he's a perfect boi who can do no wrong #but he's not my favoriteee #i always think i like Glory but she kinda sucks actually...she's just a pretty girl #sunny annoys me but she's so based #starflight is the one you'd THINK i'd like but honestly. eh #his character is so absurdly hard to pin down #like he's kind of introduced as an arrogant nerd emoji guy #and then he's more of an anxious wimp #and then he's just like a kind hearted nervous smart guy???? #tsunami is just like. that sort of boisterous angry character i don't love #she's violent but she's not even sexy about it 😔 you should enjoy being covered in blood more smh #when it comes to the SECOND ARC THOUGH #it's the opposite problem. i can't choose a favorite because i love them all #except winter who is me fr but i just hate him #everyone shits on moon but i love her she's my everything #KINKAJOU DESERVED HER OWN BOOK #turtle is perfect. PERIL MY BELOVED. qibli is a silly guy #third arc...ehjyutjhfghjskdjf i guess i like cricket #i kinda dislike blue but his book is the best one so it gives me bias to think i like him when i don't #luna and snowfall though? i can't tell if it was because their books sucked but iiiiii don't like em #and sorry to the sundew stans but she's like tsunami to me

[lucifer-kane]

Raven is soooooo. Literal looney toon ass slapstick violence weird guy. He also just is so tragic. Soooo so tragic.

#tragic character enjoyers would LOVE Uncle Raven Shaperaverse #i want to kiss him i want him to be able to rest and be happy again post david but that's just. so hard anymore #can change the scene in his favor to the slapstick from the original dark #sorry im thinking about his bit in the posthuman war and if i think about it too long i lose my mind #we say it all the time but imagine you could tell your past self he should have loved himself before he dies so you can live #all the posties are tragic but my bias is he's the most tragic tbh #especially because he just has so much potential as who he is #god the 'finale' to the posties story in july will kill me and im not even going to it

[thekendallkathryn]

Just an ode to dino's lethal stage expressions

#dino #so I finally picked a bias guys #seventeen fanart #seventeen #lee chan #I'm actually a dancer and he always inspires me to practice facials as much as the real choreo #it really can be half the performance #in case you still couldn't tell i was biased toward the entire performance team #don't worry after THAT comeback i'll definitely get to minghao soon #my art #kpop #oil paint #actually photoshop #but the oil paint vibe #dancers

[deus-ex-mona]

little brothers and their will to #slay, man </3

#while yes yes this post technically does apply to the simp bros i wanna cry about my own bro in the tags so you have been warned~? #so to start off my monthly existential crisis rant i just wanna say that… i’m so so soo envious of my bro. like to a really unhealthy extent #he’s tall enough to reach the top shelves. i can barely touch them if i jump. he has so many friends and even a gf. i have 0 irl friends. #he is able to sit in one spot and focus on his studies. i can’t even sit down for a full half hour to *eat* without getting up to take a nap #he’s learning how to drive. i can’t. he was admitted into university. i wasn’t. he’s able to find what he likes and stick to it. i can’t. #like mannn. he thrived in the course he chose in tertiary education while i lost my passion for it in the middle of my first year. #he’s good at picking up everything he tries (puzzle cubes; bball; you name it he’s good at it) while i’m just. bad at everything i try lol #he’s very good at his studies (aside from languages) and sports. i’m not good at anything at all. #he gets told that he has a great sense of humour. i’m just. boring and annoying. lolllll #he’s super sociable and he has good relations with pretty much every single family member (sans me). i’m not in contsct with most of the fam #heck he was pretty much the favourite from the moment he was born. his baby pics still get brought up from time to time bc of how cute he is #(granted it’s bc he looks like a bby m*ch*l*n man (like the tire company mascot) and he’s super cute in them but still) #and he’s also a guy and content with being a guy which is just… not fair y’knowwww~~~ asian family boy biases and all (cries) #our father pretty much cast me aside once my bro was old enough to hang with him. and even before then the bias was as clear as day. >:((((( #i make the dude mad? i get screamed at and whaccced. bro gets the dude mad? he gets a lesson on how to throw punches instead!!! like wow!!!! #he’s the only one who got to escape any direct physical harm from the guy and yet!!!! he was the 1st one to be singled out for trauma focus #idk if it’s bc of his age back then or whattttt but i can’t believe i had to friggin’ ask my therapist back then for a trauma assessment :( #2015 was a different time… my bro managed to succeed in school while i was rejected from the drama club for being too depressed :(((( #but i’m sure my bro has his own share of struggles… and i’m glad that he has a few groups of friends to chill with. really. #but i just can’t help feeling extremely envious of him. i could never tell him any of this though we hardly talk at home lol #and he pretends not to know me when i approach him in public lmfaoooo. i don’t blame him though; i’d do the same if i were to approach me #so yeah. if you read this i’m sorry for being cringefail and bad at everything~~ am i still allowed to pollute your dash~? <3 #and also. idk if i’ll be able to continue sischange over this week bc i’ll be handling 2 workstations by meself :( and idk how tired i’ll be #but we’ll see ok~? sorry for having zero time management skills am i still qualified to be a legit adult~? #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂

[mmmmuffins]

‘wheatish’ ‘dusky’ STOP just say brown it won’t hurt u. it won’t i promise

#from my wonderful light skinned mother who still has a deeply ingrained bias towards #fair skin and just can’t accept that her daughter is dark #and also can’t ever equate dark to beautiful #anyway dark skin is so beautiful all skin tones are beautiful i grew up to realise that hope that anyone struggling with it can see their #beauty too ❤️ #horrifying how so much of the country is dark skinned and yet even there finding a foundation shade is so difficult #have to give the western makeup brands points for inclusivity seen more from them than i ever did from my own #also the way they just refuse to say brown. it’s so annoying. just SAY it it’s not a bad word please i beg of you #glad i didn’t grow up there or my relatives would have made me hate myself and my skin forever #all of them are so light skinned 😀 it’s just me and my dad 👍 #rmb when my grandma would scrub my skin w exfoliant every time we visited the country to try and scrub off my dark skin 😀 like the colour #was dirty 💀 #or the way my family thinks it’s a compliment to new parents when they tell them ‘your child reflects so much light 😍😍 hes so fair’ #or when they say oh u were so fair as a baby… you became darker 😬 #grew up in a country where the majority race has very fair skin and yet they never made me feel like my own race has 😐 #over sharing on tumblr yet again who cld i tell this to #took me so long. but dark skin is so beautiful and my heart goes out to everyone who is made to think otherwise #like. even as someone whose parents immigrated to another country #i keep hearing the nonsense from aunts and grandparents and paretsn and COUSINS 💀 #cant imagine how bad it would have been otherwise

[youaremysunshine-court]

Me before a stream: streaming is a job. You can absolutely form parasocial relationships with streamers. They don't know you exist. Don't fall into this trap.

My monkey brain during a stream: hngh streamer friend shaped

Me after a stream: JAY WHAT THE FUCK

#having a bit of a thing #over the actual boundaries of parasocial relationships #is it weird that i want to buy an s23 bc i saw an ad with jhope on it DESPITE NOT BEING ARMY #its definitley weird when you start bullying people online over someone who doesnt know you exist #its vaguely weird to assume that you know everything about someone based on the persona they present to the public #probably kind of weird to want to try their favourite food just bc its their favourite food #crisising over here #like where are the boundaries between normal human behaviour and 'oh i have formed an unhealthy attachment to this man' #like its pretty normal to see some dude moaning over his food and be like huh i want to try that #but forcing yourself to enjoy a meal just bc someone else likes it is kinda weird but not as weird as stalking #i dont fucking know #where does it turn from oh this stream is background noise to oh i sent a hate anon to someone who criticised my bias #i dont know i really dont know *insert nie huaisang gif* #speaking of nhs when does it go from oh these two idols are cute together to these two idols have been married for 10 years and are hiding #it from us #when does a fan go from i enjoy their work to obsessed stalker outside their hotel roo. #and does it help what jackson wang does #where he makes himself like... touchable and approachable and less like a god than other idols??? #or does that make the parasocialism worse somehow #can you tell ive been reading too much hannigram lately

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

Okay Ollie - he is rotting incarnate because in my personal HC he's a drowned Victorian child that has been revived through eldritch bullshit. All the parts that are bandaged are rotting, along with a few parts of his ribcage. He subsequently freaks Moke out because he has no pulse and Moke is very concerned. Also he's a touchstarved fuck -🌟

OOOH. 👁️👁️

YESS UNDEAD VICTORIAN CHILD ELDRITCH ABOMINATION SLAYYYYY!!!! SLAY 😩💅✨

save my boy though i cant imagine the drowning was pleasant (what am i saying bruh DYING IN GENERAL IS? NOT PLEASANT?).

i hope he doesn't completely rot?? that would b bad 😭😭 at least he's somewhat staying together for now... shhh moke dw abt it its fine 🙄 acting like youve never seen an undead person before smh

AW TOUCHSTARVED poor boy. but also thanks again b/c as you know my brain immediately thinks of the dumbest shit:

#ask #YESSS. YESSSSSSS. 'i dont have a fave vocaloid' *is lying* #I LIKE A LOT OF THEM BUT YOU CAN TELL MY OLIVER BIAS IS EXTREMELY STRONG HDSKJGHKH SORRY #who revived him... 🤔 also wait if he drowned HIM STILL LIKING THE WATER IN THE CASE OF THE LIMINAL SPACE STUFF IS?? KINDA SAD/CREEPY? IDK #moke/oli friendship FUCK YESSSSSSS. littol victorian boy and gamer. #i love this i love this #also SORRY ABT THE JOKE IN THE DOODLE AKDSHKJG BUT. I CANT IMAGINE THE ROTTING SMELLS GOOD... #ollie the star anon

[itaehynz]

“Soobin fight me”

Yes because you’re so utterly adorable Soob >:<

soobin is so cute i love him idc

#he’s my bias can you tell 😇 #i wanna bite his cheeks idk #luna ☆ #💖 — mooties