#by god his letter this year

[rocketbirdie]

deranged picnic

#obsessed with how this game manages to maintain a consistent utterly unhinged vibe for its entire runtime. #this scene is immediately followed by him receiving a letter from his girlfriend saying she's breaking up with him. #he gets the letter from an eldritch abomination in the form of his mentor's face on the body of dead dog as it turns into magic dust. #also his gf broke up with him because he wasn't returning any of her messages while he was being tortured in a dungeon for four years. #which is actually how he finds out it's been four years. he's been under the impression that it's been like. 2 weeks lol #the guy on the left is perfectly alive and monologuing the whole time. #and he happens to be the same guy that made clones of himself and went on a crusade to eat chunks of the protagonist's hair. #sighh..... crisis core my beloved........ #(derogatory) #my art <3 #ffvii #crisis core #oh god i forgot his scar. nobody look. don't look. you don't see shit.

[tavina-writes]

I have been recently thinking about NHS and JGY's relationship, especially as it pertains to how much they understand each other, and I'm pretty sure the conclusion I'm coming to is that JGY doesn't actually understand NHS at all except like, in vague superficiality?

This is not an argument about whether or not JGY cared about NHS (though he seems to have some pretty big blind spots on what is actually good for NHS or what he actually desires, which, again come back to not really understanding what makes NHS tick) because I don't think you can spend well over a decade cleaning up someone else's problems without caring for the person in question. But more like, the events of the Temple and the Discussion Conference prior to the Temple and indeed anything leading up to the Temple at all would not have occurred if JGY actually understood? NHS? at all?

Like, obviously NHS was concealing the truth and acting while he proceeded with his revenge scheme, JGY (who presumably had some amount of time to think about who could possibly want him dead/disgraced/fleeing off to Dongyin) doesn't even begin to suspect that the person who wrote the letter and arranged all of this might be NHS until LXC's already stabbed him.

That's a pretty big fucking blind spot considering the whole thing is being unearthed because of NMJ's murder corpse put together shenanigans. Like he knows to hide Chifeng-zun's head but not to suspect Chifeng-zun's brother???

Like I think this might go beyond "doesn't understand anything about this other person besides on a very superficial level" to "might genuinely have some pretty big MISconceptions about who this person is or what they're like."

#like did he put NHS in the 'harmless' compartment in his brain and then just never examine that thought again at all #or examine it over the years and then discard it #because like my god #he KILLED NHS's brother #and then??? did not suspect that NHS might ever find out or want something from him for this? #even as he is ACTIVELY under threat? #actively digging up his mother so he can flee to Dongyin? #after his wife dies under suspicious circumstances and someone sends him a letter threatening him??? #he goes over his whole list of enemies but doesn't have an idea of who it could be???? #nie huaisang #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #meta #my meta #nie huaisang my beloved

[skyloftian-nutcase]

I'm looking at the Zora May prompts and wanna write stuff, and now my brain's just giggling with ideas LOL like--

Imagine, after Age of Calamity, that Link and Mipha get together. That has its whole set of fun and drama - a Hylian/Zora marriage would mean a lot anyway, but particularly when it's the Zora princess and the Hero of Hyrule. Link and Mipha start to have a family, Zelda is settling into being queen, and they all have their own set of stressors and joys and the three are still besties and it would be just so funny to see y'all. Like... Link takes his oath as a knight seriously, so he still assists Hyrule often, and just this scenario in my head came and--

Zelda, sighing: I hardly slept last night. I was up late researching the latest Zonai discoveries and almost forgot I had a meeting with the Rito delegation this morning. I'm so tired.

Link, hair a mess, on his third cup of coffee after dealing with one of his kids having a meltdown while the other kept everyone up crying all night, dealing with Mipha also trying to do royal duties, having just teleported over here via Sheikah towers: .....That sounds rough.

#give me some domestic hilarity and stress and fluff dang it #Zelda has every right to be exhausted too but this image in my head was too funny not to share #I don't know how parents do it I'm barely alive most days LOL #if I had a husband and kids to worry about too I'd probably have a permanent IV for caffeine injections #all my lovelies who are parents: God bless you XD #age of calamity #oh and then totk happens and Link almost loses his ever loving mind LOL #imagine Link as a dad in totk HAHA #Link dealing with Ganondorf while his four-year-old destroys Dorf emotionally #Ganondorf: Behold a king's revival! #Link's kid: You're not even NEARLY as big as Grandpa and he's a REAL king and your hair's ugly #miphlink #poor Zelda had to become queen after the Calamity since she came of age #she and Link exchange letters on the regular when he isn't doing assignments for her and actually gets a few days to chill in the Domain #Mipha has to often visit to help Zelda with her anxieties #I think they'd be a fun dynamic ok

[calypsolemon]

If i am totally honest I kind of don't like how harsh some of the fandom is at Greg sometimes for being literally homeless and having a magical gem son at the same time. For sure there are places where Greg actually messed up but I feel like in the case of Steven partially growing up in a van and not really having access to medical care and lacking structure because of it is like. Homeless and poor people have kids and its not a moral failing on their part for our society not helping them meet their needs, yknow?

#plus obviously once he could afford housing for his son he clearly did it #I always assumed that he financed the construction of the gem house and paid all the energy bills and stuff #but its always taken up most of his paycheck #and it probably took those like. idk 10+ years after steven's birth to actually save up enough to do it #then he didn't even get to LIVE in it because the gems had beef with him at the time and it was awkward #and i dont like the whole ''he could have gone back to his family'' thing because a) his family was literally abusive #he's not in the wrong for protecting steven from them #and b) his family didn't even open his god damn letters. i think thats enough to assume they would not help and didn't care #hell andy admits as much that he could have taken initiative and visited everyone and that was an UNCLE #clearly nobody in his family cared enough to finacially support Greg unless he like. joined the military or something

[sugarhillpark]

pick a song for each letter of your URL, and then tag that many people

thanks for the tags forever ago @part-time-deranged and @elviehun i do notice <3

s - sugar by brockhampton

u - unfucktheworld by angel olsen

g - going to pasalacqua by green day

a - amity gardens by fountains of wayne

r - rose parade by elliott smith

h - hold the light by lp

i - i wanna be adored by the stone roses

l - love my way by the psychedelic furs

l - lua by bright eyes

p - plasticine by placebo

a - awful by hole

r - rhymes of an hour by mazzy star

k - kids in '99 by death cab for cutie

bold assumption that i'd know 13 of my followers who haven't already done it and actually wanna interact with me to tag and i won't do it but tagging @libraryspectre @beanie-twink @dearings from my recents and @gnome-cleric @pyrchance and @100percent-unimpressed my beloveds in case you wanna(/again).

#tag games #lmao at this #i just scrolled through the giant playlist i use for writing bandom fanfic until i got all the letters and look at this: #2 songs that aren't pre-pandemic #3 songs including those 2 from the last 10 YEARS #might as well have just held up a megaphone announcing i'm old #ray toro-ass 'i don't listen to new music' behaviour #even funnier because the 2 recent songs are not by young or new artists #i swear i am fun and hip kids #like mikey way trying to make bread over here lmao #also this is not my fave lp song but i'm glad she's on the list you won't catch me putting out a songlist without lp #that's my pet forty something lesbian #along with frank iero #god didn't give frank iero lp's singing voice or pussy because he would've been too powerful #frank doing a good job with his own pussy or whatever tho

[clownjacket]

Okay my crack theory for Lucy’s god situation:

What if instead of dying Lucy’s god became an archfey and fucked off, forsaking all of their followers. I could see that as justifiable for a minor god—maybe you don’t want your personality and existence to be dependent on a group of people small enough for a really big hurricane to wipe them out. Maybe you want to try your hand at self actualization, which you can’t really do as a god. Whatever.

But that would still mean Lucy’s grades would be screwed for the year, and the whole group would be switched to pass/fail.

Whatever god they’re trying to bring back seems like they want to stay a god, but would also only have a single living cleric so their nature would be heavily influenced by who that cleric is, and could still be controlled. Bringing back an established dead god with living followers probably reduces the risk of the god immediately dying or completely sucking ass/not being powerful like what happened with YES!(?), and we know the Ratgrinders LOVE minimizing risk. And choosing a dead god that represents something Lucy is actually passionate about preaching and proselytizing would make her work as a cleric much easier for her emotionally than, say, switching to Helio and just going through the motions, and bringing back a god would probably look good on college resumes.

Idk, that’s just an alternative theory to Lucy’s god dying based on what’s been established this season.

#fantasy high #the ratgrinders #ratgrinders #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #this is an idea I came up with while basically writing fanfiction in my head about a possible route Ivy’s story could go #that would make the ragtringers not evil / kind of justified #basically my ‘what if’ plot line is that Ivy’s god forsakes her during the sophomore spring project and that leads to her loosing her power #and the ratgrinders having to choose a pacifistic quest to go on because they no longer have a healer but can’t tell anybody #hence why they didn’t kill anything during their sophomore quest but seemingly still passed with a letter grade #(we know Ivy’s death was only reported after grading was completed—which means they wouldn’t have been switched to pass/fail) #Now Ivy is thinking about what grade to switch to before the end of the year so she doesn’t fail #all while covering up her god forsook her to the school until she has her replacement figured out #but WHOOPS something happens and she dies anyway…but with no afterlife she’s stuck as a ghost. The ratgrinders will all fail if they report #her dead right then-and Ivy doesn’t want that for her friends-so instead the ratgrinders disguise self as her and fake her cleric powers #with their own in class just enough to keep her from failing the year…then after grading closes they report her as dead to Augfort and ask #for his help in reviving her like he did the bad kids. But he tells them that he brought the bad kids back by taking their place in #the afterlife; if Ivy’s stuck as a ghost and not in an afterlife than there’s nothing he can do right now but he’ll look into it oh wait #his DAUGHTER is back and they need to bond nevermind here are some resources during this endless night that you can read up on to try to #find a way to bring your dead friend back on your own have FUN high schoolers I believe in you but it’s Ayda time! #so the ratgrinders did a bunch of research on their own and they found that a god could bring her back to life and the only one willing to #do that would probably be a preestablished dead god they brought back to life (similar to Kristen with Cassandra). This red god is just #the safest bet they found in the books to complete their plan #I won’t call all THAT a theory because it’s based on nothing but that’s my idea for a direction her backstory could go #also pretend whenever I wrote ‘ivy’ in this little end section I actually wrote Lucy #I canNOT believe I made that mistake #Cassandra save me

[bestworstcase]

I think it'll be interesting when RWBYJ tells everyone about the ever after, specifically Oscar/Ozpin. I think that'll be a hell of a slap in the face to those two. Imo it's pretty clear that Oz doesn't like the Brothers (his lie for his curse literally puts them in the WORST light to anyone who hears it), but isn't exactly open about it nor does he think on it much. But hearing that the 'gods' are essentially just people who got kicked out of their home would make him. Well I hesitate to say that he'd flip the fuck out, but I definitely think he wouldn't be happy at ALL. I'm sure he'd be furious while simultaneously having an existential crisis.

Frankly, Oz is just. An interesting character when it comes to his thoughts on the Brothers. He went from more or less listening to Light without question (but immediately started questioning when Salem talked to him- "Unsure of where his loyalties still lay-" he trusts Salems words but is confused about his stance on Light, perhaps afraid of questioning him), to putting them in a bad light repeatedly and more or less giving up on his task (there's far far easier ways to unite the world i.e. war- why would he deliberately make it hard on himself? He's far from stupid. He still foes his best to foster peace because why wouldn't he?). And, now, he's actively fighting his curse, and is doing so the second he got an ounce of hope.

I think why he hasn't really thought of fighting the Gods is bc a) he's still scared of them (and it makes sense, I'd be scared too) and b) he never knew that they, well, were just people. I think he'd need some convincing, but I really think he'd be happy to try his hand at giving Light a piece of his mind lol. Something tells me Oz has millennia of bottled up anger- something will eventually be the straw that broke the camels back, as even the most resilient of people can break.

Though I think the biggest issue would be the idea of teaming up with Salem. He's bitter and terrified of her, and although we don't know exactly what's happened between them since their first fight (beyond Oz spending several lives as an alcoholic, then wandering Remnant being reminded of Salem (not necessarily bc he thought every Grimm attack was her, Grimm just remind him of her)), it's entirely possible Salem has also done... something to hurt him. No one's that bitter or terrified of someone for absolutely no reason, but whatever the reason is, that'll definitely be an obstacle between him being allied with her against the Gods. Plus she also, yknow, tortured him and allowed Hazel to torture him (which Oscar took most of it, but they're in the same body).

I think that interaction would be... interesting. Especially since I really don't think Oz even is 'Ozma' anymore. Ozma is the foundations yes, but the merge changes you fundamentally. He has changed his name every lifetime (if Oz doesn't accidentally answer to the name Oscar I'll eat my left shoe), but how much of him really is Ozma anymore? Ship of theseus and all that. If he, by all accounts, isn't 'Ozma' anymore and Salem isn't aware of this, I think it'd be an interesting revelation for her. There's similarities between Oz and how he used to be, but I feel like 'Ozma' is functionally a deadname for him (Oz trans/DID allegory? /j). Especially since I think Ozma is just- not who he is anymore. He's tried living up to the name, but he can't and he knows it (the words his illusion in v9 says speaks a lot to his mental state and his opinion of himself).

God speaking of his illusion on v9, I think it's incredibly clear that what each illusion says pertains to that character in some way. And it says so so much about Ozpin and how he sees himself. It's ironic how the God of Light, associated with creation, made him, yet he thinks that all he does is destroy. He's scarily good at splitting people apart just accidentally (i.e. v6, Summer basically throwing him under the bus thus STRQ broke apart and blamed him, etc) too. Yet Salem, immortal via Lights curse, made herself through Grimm and is very good at rallying people. Dunno, fun thought there (it's why swap aus are so damn tasty with these two).

Sorry for the long ask, I just wanted to ramble in your inbox for a bit. I have many thoughts about Oz.

not. to be snarky but

To live free or die, it’s all the same The enemy was right, there’s no reclaiming In waves of shame We’re desperate to make amends But through a simple soul we lie complacent  Love brings us dreams But grief makes the heart burst at the seams  As light fills my eyes I’ll picture me beside her And pray that I’ll inspire  I promise I’ll be here until the end I promise I’ll be here until… Our story has been told Til our bodies break down every door Til we find what we’ve been looking for

terrified she’ll never forgive him and terrified of what will happen if she confronts the gods again, yes. but terrified of her?

the enemy was right. we’re desperate to make amends. grief makes the heart burst at the seams. i’ll picture me beside her. ozma isn’t terrified of salem; he is, explicitly, ashamed of himself and desperate to make amends and longing for her.

listen. you don’t have to go salem did dot dot dot something to hurt him. we KNOW exactly what she did; rejected the mandate, fought him, burned him alive. they blew up their home and killed their own kids. is this insufficiently traumatizing to explain him.

similarly i do not have to go ozma did dot dot dot something to salem: we know exactly what he did. we know why she’s furious and bitter and still hurting. it is not ambiguous.

he’s spent the intervening centuries hiding inside a narrative where salem is the Great Evil he must defeat because the guilt he feels for deceiving and manipulating her and the grief for everything he sacrificed is so unbearable that he can’t touch it except through layers and layers of distortion. but it’s bleeding through the cracks everywhere. the infinite man tried to be a hero and is a fool who may not be worthy of forgiveness, ozpin suggests. look far enough ahead from the ending of the girl in the tower, and you’ll find the hero who saved her turned out to be a villain.

he hates salem. (he deserves her hatred.) this is the wrenching internal war he fights with himself day after day and life after life; the only way he can live with himself enough to function is by hating her, but the hatred is a fiction, a lie, to protect him from his fear. the truth is that he neither hates her nor deserves her hatred.

i am being intentional about calling him ozma, by the way. i am also intentional about when i call him ozpin or oz. i do not think ozma is a deadname. i don’t think ozma is an ideal he is trying and failing to live up to. he doesn’t identify himself as ozpin; he says “the professor ozpin you all met was not my first form.” he dons these other identities as a mask—i am the combination of countless men who have spent their lives trying to protect the people of remnant—because he hates himself. ozma is who he’s running away from because he doesn’t think ozma has ever been enough.

that is why. salem distinguishes between ozpin and ozma the way that she does. and why she is able to differentiate between oscar and ozma even when oscar is mimicking ozpin, because ozpin is the latest in a long series of masks that ozma wears.

(ozpin is tippetarius enforcing his own exile, and thus he became the wizard. ozma is the true self imprisoned by the curse. he’s… named ozma for a reason.)

”what if you could be anyone?” <- the blacksmith does not ask ruby this question because ruby needs to stop being herself in order to be happy. she offers ruby a metaphorical representation of ozma’s curse—what if you could be anyone, slip into a like-minded soul and become that person—in order to guide ruby to the realization that only her true self is the right fit. this is what i like to call blunt force foreshadowing.

ozma is trying to be a thousand different heroes and salem has only ever wanted ozma. ozma then is not the same person as ozma now, but ozma is ozma is ozma. the ship of theseus is the ship of theseus, then as now. on those who enter the same rivers, ever different waters flow. read heraclitus.

the thing is. yeah. he’s going to snap like a brittle twig when he learns the truth about the gods… because he already knows salem is right, deep down. the enemy is right. it bleeds through even into the lost fable, which is narrated in his voice. jinn’s telling—his telling—obfuscates and twists away from salem’s interiority, her feelings, her motives except for the moment of her realization about the brothers: perhaps the gods were not as powerful as they seemed; she had lied to them, turned them against each other; they were fallible.

the enemy is right. he knows she’s right.

hearing what the kids learned in the ever after is going to shatter the cognitive dissonance preventing him from acting on that knowledge. it’s going to surface ‘until the end’ but now joined to the hope he has—since the end of v8—that he can make amends for his cowardice and lies.

ozma apologizing to the kids and asking for a second chance to earn their trust was, uh, a practice run for ozma apologizing to salem and asking for a second chance. the fallout of the lost fable (“there was so much you hadn’t told us! how could you think that was okay!” and “i gave my life to you because you gave me a place in this world; i thought i was finally doing some good!”) is a reflection of salem’s distress. the narrative is on her side. because. he lied to manipulate her and grievously betrayed her trust. in exactly the same way he did to the kids.

#like until the end is literally his pining love letter to salem. he wants to be on the same side again so badly #the only thing stopping him is he’s convinced himself it’s impossible because how could she ever forgive him. how could he ever be worthy #meanwhile she’s enraged because she would have given him anything else but what he asked her to do #and he burned it all to the ground and salted the earth rather than give her the one thing she asked in return #which was to not serve the god who tortured her for millions of years! #he was worth everything to her and to him she was worthless. #together in all things even this.

[rosesradio]

i’m of the mindset that luke had suffered through his first year of college prior to the events of the lightning thief and was just using the whole kronos uprising thing as a way to procrastinate on his assignments, but it went a little too far and now he needs to write some apologetic emails to his professors asking for extensions and if there’s any way he can salvage his gpa

#i mean hey imagine botl!luke. in his what? senior year of college #kronos is like hey man. you already had to get recommendation letters from the gods. why don’t you just. let me possess you for a minute #yk I’ll write those papers for you #like all i’m saying is if that’s the reason it’d make sense. depending on his major #pjo #luke castellan

[destructix]

kazuma asougi drives me insane by how much love and rage he keeps in his heart

#he waited with his mother for six years for his father to come back. his father never came home. #his mother passed away from grief shortly after learning of her husband's death through a letter #then kazuma received another letter he was never supposed to read and resolved to see to the heart of the matter #he dedicated his life to it #to finding out the truth #to going to london #he met ryuunosuke naruhodou. #he took his friend's side in court despite the risks because of his unwavering faith in his friend. even if that might mean never #accomplishing his goal in the event of failure. #so much love. so much anger too. #white hot fury that guides his hand but eventually almost consumes him to the point he cannot see his friend and sister standing opposite #of him #and ryuunosuke asks him if that's what kazuma wanted to show him. when he invited him to london. #of course it's not! of course it's not.... #god. bangs my head against the wall #talk tag #tgaa spoilers #dgs spoilers #the great ace attorney

[monards]

i know hoyo is setting up rhine to have good intent and whatever in her trying to 'save' khaneri'ah or whatever; but i REALLY hope they stay with the cruel persona thats been built up for her. because it would be so wonderful to see a character who had good intent in the beginning just get absolutely corrupted; with the inability to ever go back to that prior state purely because of what had happened. also because there is NO way in her turning back after all that shit

#sorry. i dont think theres any good and plausible explanation for rhine to still be a kind or gentle person in general #she can (and SHOULD) have her moments. but it'd make so much more sense (and be much more impactful) for her to be inherently cruel #because look at all the stuff thats happened #i love the indomitable human spirit trope. dont get me wrong. #but rhine has that in the way she WONT stop her research till shes either dead or murdered. she is not gonna be gentle kind and optimistic #she watched all her kids (that she was SHOWN to care for) get very brutally murdered. #had to then go and kill her next creations that she didn't consider perfect (which most certainly fucks a women up. no matter what you say) #made the 'perfect creation' and the way she treated him was obviously a HUGE contrast to how she was before (being gentle and nuturing) #and left him (albeit with what we can guess was good intent) with NO goodbye just #a recommendation letter. a text. and his final mission #she could have good intent #and still care for others #dont get me wrong!!!!!!! #but shes. human??? #humans can be (as much as i hate to say it) a tad selfish when it comes to survival #and being antagonized demonized AND shunned by teyvat and even her own people. having to survive multiple gods wrath #isn't. gonna be good for the human psych #and it isn't gonna be something fixable #look at how furina progressively faltered over a hundered years WHILE being adored #she already started waning in her ethics and morals (as someone immortalized as a human WOULD) #with exposing lyney and all of that when it was VERY clearly the morally wrong thing to do (which her as a human would know) #and being relatively pessimistic and clearly spiralling #(no hate. i love furina with all my heart.) #if thats how FURINA started going #imagine rhine who has nobody (save maybe alice. but i doubt she'd be constant given her spontaneous nature and refusal to sit still) #shit man. even I'D go crazy and be horrible. #its okay and natural to be bitter #and its not as if anybody was there to help #hexenzirkel has a ton of women who survived their own nations falling yes #but not ONE of them (from what we know) has had circumstances any where near rhine's

[vanibear]

skitters around like a beast. Hii ❤️ok im going 2 go ramble in the tags now👍

#are there any cane user jou enjoyers around !! #getting struck by lightning and then almost burned alive by a god all in One tournaments finals is kindof a lot .so I think itd be nice for #him 2 have one ^-^ #ok more artists notes .standard poking fun at kaiba .he hates when his hair is too long (sensory issue) but he hates the hairdressers even #more (worlds most sensitive scalp. And touch issues with strangers. aka now im just talking abt me here) #solution: mokuba cuts his hair. this has taken many Many years of trial and error (see: the green hair era) #and lastly bakura ! he makes me want to gnaw on wood. i actually really liked how this doodle turned out tho I might turn it into a full #piece hmmm #also I thought it was so funny how they censored his move spelling out death by changing it to final .girl that sucks 💀 #go play wordle find a better 5 letter word .not that I can think of a better one off the top of my head tho…… #i mean he is already using a whole ouija board at this point is it even worth trying to censor #BUT YEA anyways. I need to draw more gx and 5ds stuff #honestly. I would not mind at all if ppl sent in requests so I could practice drawing diff characters #no promise ill actually get to them tho T-T sorry .my willpower is very fickle #vani art :] #kat post #jounouchi katsuya #joey wheeler #seto kaiba #bakura #ryou bakura #yami bakura #ygo #yugioh #yugioh fanart

[tristitia]

this is one of those days when I know what I want to do with this life. I'll put a star on it.

#[🥀] tris's personal universe #I'll make Sylvia proud #I'll meet dumbeldore #I'll save this boy under the bed #I'll open this letter with my sister after 12 years #I'll adopt a kid and a dog #I'll teach 100 and 1000s of students #I'll be the greatest speaker #I'll make Martin Luther King Jr. proud #(and I'll become prime minister of this beautiful country where I'll love to be born again and again and in each life) #I'll meet God and tell him it's ugly yet so beautiful on his earth #I'll go to Sikkim... and I'll never return #I swear #I'm going to put a star on this life

[userastarion]

lol remember when i sent that breakup letter to my friend?

i sent it to tell her how hurt i’ve been by some of the ways she’s treated me, how i haven’t felt important to her for a year, how i wanted to push through it bc we have fun together, and how much it hurt that a) i haven’t met the man who’s her forever and b) she got married and i found out via instagram username change when we’ve been good friends for 18 years. i ended it saying i will never ghost you, i love you, i just don’t think there space for me in your life anymore. all the nutrients for my friendship plant went elsewhere and it can’t survive like that anymore.

her response was to remove me from her socials and have her sister do the same. so i guess i now understand where ive fucking stood with her.

#she’s known his guy for max 18 months #when we’ve been friends if not bffs for 18 years #not to mention the way the guy she chose over me follows 45 and j*e r*gan #and is happily a marine (i hate the military) #i was devastated at first bc while my letter was a goodbye in a sense i was hoping it was leaving the door cracked behind me #but she fucking kicked it closed #and probably turned her family against me #i typed the letter so i still have it. anyone who thinks im shitty can read it and decide for themselves. #bc god knows she didn’t let anyone read the evidence of her shit. #can’t believe how fast she said get the fuck out of my life. #btw this is a friend i tried to talk through this stuff with before and things didn’t get fixed #there are other issues with her too but. WOW. #like in theory good riddance but im practice im hurt and sad and angry #b:personal #text post

[lisbonsteresa]

i'm going to be SICK

#I - I- -II--- #it's been at LEAST two years - probably three (or possibly even four?) since that cup broke and she's had the pieces the whole time???? #she had them and she kept them even when she thought there was a chance she'd never see him again oh my god #(how long do you think she kept them as pieces though when do you think she put the cup back together #do you think she kept it with his letters and sometimes she took it out to have near her while she read them #do you think she's used it once or twice when she was missing him even more than usual; to try and feel closer to him) #the 6.20 parallels too though oh my GOD #all his talk about seeing right through her and knowing all her secrets and loving that she's predictable and then she does this #and it's just the SWEETEST possible way she could have surprised him they make me feel ILL #(SOMETHING SOMETHING BROKEN THINGS BEING MADE WHOLE I'M SOBBING NOW) #tm

[oflgtfol]

shaking my fucking cage my grad school app is due friday and the only thing preventing me from submitting it is that everyone i ask for a letter of rec is taking their sweet fucking time

#asked three profs back in the FIRST WEEK OF JANUARY #and only one has submitted #so i asked two of my supervisors from my other job #but apparently they might not be 'permitted' to write letters of rec for employees anymore #WJATEVER THAT MEANS !!!! #so now im boutta go crawling back to my intenrship supervisor from a whole year ago #like hi bestie my internship had nothing to do with what im going to grad school for or what my current job is #but like. im out of options #also sorry i havent talked to you since i graduated. can you wrtie me a whole letter of rec in . checks my calendar. three days #AUGH #AND EVEN THEN I STILL NEED ONE MORE ?!?!?!? #im literaly about to ask my fucking michaels framing manager at this fucking point #these god damn professors im like HI. HELLO. ARE YOU ALIVE? #and its just RADIO SILENCE #like BRO. you told me you would a month ago and now when im like hey. whats going on. you just ghost me?!??!?! #at least tell me hey i actually dont have the time to do it anymore so sorry #like its the fact i have no fucking idea whats going on with these people #and my other job supervisors are totally willing to write these letters for me its just the fucking corporate higher ups #like hi. its not like i need a letter of rec for another job. im applying to an educational program #and one that will actively make me better at this very job #why the fuck would you not permit my supervisors to help me pursue this when it only possibly benefits liteally everyone involved here #brot posts

[grimbeak]

Oughhhhh smthn smthn ab the parallels between both cecil giving carlos a certificate for 10 years in night vale and carlos leaving kevin a letter after 10 years in the desert otherworld and carlos running off both times

#god. do u think kevin was gonna do smthn special for him at some point #am anniversary present in his own way #and carlos just. he left him a letter which kevin thought was for Cecil but then it was for him and #and maybe it was an anniversary thing. maybe it was a getting together thing and #and it wasnt #carlos wtnv #kevin wtnv #cecil wtnv #carlos went home both times but. but only one of the people he was with during each 10 years was happy about it