one of the feelings i hate most is feeling anxious with no clear reason. like, if there is a reason to feel anxious, ok, i can deal with that. but just anxiety for anxiety's sake? ugh, what am i supposed to do with that?
another feeling i hate is the autism "something in my routine is changing and i don't know how to deal with it". the only cure for that is time to get used to the new routine, which sucks when you're feeling the anxious-stressed-Off-SomethingIsWrong mix of Fucking With Autism Routine. i don't want to wait for me to get used to it, i'm feeling Bad and i want to fix it now!
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You own a car??
yeah. see im in a really interesting situation where my parents are upper-middle class but refuse to spend money on their kids as much as possible. no tuition, nothing, once youre out of the house youre on your own. thats why i was eventually kicked out, i had no job or plans to go to school and so i overstayed my welcome and had to scramble to get a job and ive been living paycheck to paycheck ever since
however, when me and my siblings turned 18 we all did get a cheap piece of shit car, i cant afford to fix the loud ass squeak in mine or take it to the car wash but its a huge privilege i even have one to begin with i fully understand that. i live in a little quaint town with shit public transport so id be fucked if i didnt have one tbh i wouldnt be able to work (before i had my license NO ONE would hire me either even when i told them how id get there alternatively. you need a license and car to even survive here which is just great isnt it)
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