#but thats were my girlfriend is

[chalkeater]

Kay tagal ko nang nag-iisa And’yan ka lang pala 🌤️

(For @girlnextdeer the love of my life)

#deltarune #suselle #susie deltarune #deltarune susie #noelle holiday #noelle #fictive #fictives #susart #ben&ben #araw-araw #araw-araw by ben&ben #I ALMOST FORGOT OUR SHIP NAME THATS HOW LONG ITS BEEN. god remember when I suggested Nosie... lmao #I LOVE YOU #the best way I could think of translating the caption is ''For as long as I have been all alone‚ you were just right there‚ all along'' #i love my girlfriend.. i gifted her a lesbian bat plushie in her favorite color and she kept squishing it to her face....... #UM BTW... IM NOT COPYING THE POST I REBLOGGED #I DREW THIS WAY BEFORE THAT BAHAHA #well. way before i saw that post

[lover-of-mine]

One thing I will never understand is why some of y'all get so mad about Buck and Eddie being roughly the same age. I don't understand how people can learn that Eddie only enlisted when Shannon got pregnant and not just assume he was 18/19 when that happened. In what world a 23 yo would panic enlisted because his girlfriend got pregnant? I don't get it.

#eddie acting older doesn't necessarily make him older #and also #if eddie had 5 years of real world experience by the time Shannon got pregnant #enlisting would not be the reaction #because he would've had 5 years to be an adult #having an accidental baby at 23 is young but like thats the not of the world #not like getting your girlfriend pregnant right after senior promo when you dont want to go to college is #that was literally my only argument for never assuming he was older #and finding out hes around the same age as Buck was great #made perfect sense #why is that such a problem? #this is a rhetorical question #i dont really wanna know #no need to tell me #im just venting because i just saw someone say EDDIE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FORTY RIGHT NOW #FORTY #FUCKING FORTY #like what the fuck are they on #and they were like straight saying the show retconed and they said eddie was born in 84 #and im like?????????? you tripping????????? #i will take the 5 year gap BUT SAYING MY MAN WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FORTY???????????????? #crazy #911 #thoughts thoughts thoughts

[spacedlexi]

so theres these 2 zombie apocalypse daughters and im a disappointed parent who plays favorites

#twdg replay got me feeling Feelings....then i remember i have Another zombie daughter i neglect these days >.> #this is not me pitting 2 bad bitches against each other im just thinking abt ellie and her poor life choices lol #clem got Everything ellie threw away : ) fool #ellie im so sorry its not your fault #sometimes i remember how important ellie and tlou were to me before ...... #anyway :) *thunder stops clouds part sun shining birds chirping* #clem is happy at her forever home with her found family and baby boy and co leader girlfriend :) peace and love on planet earth :) #clem does Not get the appreciation she deserves and i stand by that. clementine you will Always be famous. the original. the blueprint. #CLEM I LOVE U BBY GIRL i will give u ur flowers forever #all wlw who stopped playing twdg before s4 go play s4 right now i am no longer asking #the amount of people who havent played s4...wat r u doin....its the final season...pains me #anyway back to my brain hell :) guess i'll just sit here by myself #thats ok :) my house now #it speaks #twdg #tlou

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I'll be honest, I think it's boring when people get upset with others for not believing in the exact manga canon of naruto. Just watching the anime is fine, who cares? The Canon of naruto is so fucked up and flawed morally and functionally that think you should be able to warp it however you want with non-canonical bullshit. Or don't. Again, who cares? Whatever makes it more interesting for you imo

#if i wanna make konoha more evil. ill make konoha more evil. was sasuke imprisoned post war? sure. thats more fun for me #was kakashi 4 years younger than obito and rin? yes. its more fun for me #was iruka 16 at the time when he became narutos sensei? yes. its more fun for me #i cant think of the ones people complain abt most uhhh. anyone being nice to naruto as a kid retrospectively? rejected by me #they were all dicks to him. itachi having a girlfriend or something? rejected by me but like sure whatever i dont care #like ur experience of naruto doesnt effect my experience of naruto. ya kno #? so i dont get y ppl get so annoyed with ppl for not following the specific canon #its all silly bullshit. so like whatever. ya kno? and i mean its fine if you want to only rely on the manga canon as well #its also interesting to only look at the canon in all its flaws but like dont look down on others for not following the same path? #naruto ramblings #idk this is just what comes to mind when i see post complaining abt ppl not following canon #who care. i will do whatever i like lol

[astro-inthestars]

WAIT I FORGOT TO TELL YOU GUYS?!?!? WAIT WAIT

GUYS!

I GOT MY FIRST KISS YESTERDAY!!!!!

ME AND LAUREL KISSSSSSSED FDGSHFKDSHKGFHDSJD HWHHEHEHWHHEEHHHEEHEHEEEEEE

#rennikorambles #flowers blooming in the stars #but that was just one kiss so its old news #BUT THE THING IS LIKE WAAAAY BEFORE WE STARTED DATING LIKE THE WWEEK BEFORE #WHEN I JUST CONFESSED #she said she wasn't allowed lip kisses as per her bros' rules #and i was like ''THATS OK! I respect that!'' cant stop a guy from yearning though so.... #i ended up drawing it a lot ... she wanted to see it once and when she did fdsghfdkskhHFSG #''....one kiss wouldnt hurt right-'' GFASGFHAJH love how easily she folds #BUT LIKE AFTER HER BROS MET ME THEY LET ME OFF THE HOOK!!!! #yknow. when they met me . while i was cowering like a cat. my loserboy swag caught them yes i DID IT #anyways i didnt know that yet so yesterday i was SURE that that would be the only kiss i get.... #BUT NOPE I FOUND OUT THAT HER BROS WERE OK WITH IT AND NOW I AINT GETTIN ENOUGH <3333 #hey guys holy shit i cant get over the fact i HAVE a girlfriend wtf. are you sure im not dreaming

[lttleghost]

I am so sorry that I am so bitter about this but still DEAR LORD

#this is a jab at the fandom and not a depiction of myself btw just to clarify i beleive the top text #breaking bad #jesse pinkman #brba #jesse brba #this is my girlfriend don't touch him #im tired #theres more to my issue w/ transmasc Jesse than just the popularity #but they wouldnt be as relevant if say the trans hcs that actually fit Jesse were equally or more popular than it #like thats all that needs to change thats it #anyway nonbinary transfem Jesse supremacy #(tho any hc where he REALIZES hes trans during the stories events works well)

[mxwhore]

mutuals. i am getting caught in my own bitterness again...

#ill vent because this is basically my bedroom #my younger older brother is caught up in that phase of romantic love when nothing else matter but girlfriend #thats fine i guess it happens #the thing is he forgot about my birthday and i was sad. then he remembered that he forgot and called and said #heyyy lemme make it up to you. lets go grab dinner this weekend (last weekend) #he forgot he even said me and went wine tasting with his gf. so now im double sad AND pissed because #i said no to my friends who actually wanted to see me because i was under the assumption that we were going out #so i sent him a passive aggressive message like heyy dinner was great thx for that xd and he was like what dinner?? #long story short he realized he fucked up again and invited me to dinner for realsies this time #but like. he isnt really inviting me? he and my niece were going to a kiddy place he promised he would take her and said i could tag along #i told him i realize now he just invited that to save face and to forget about it #but now im even sadder cuz i love my niece and she is always happy to see me... i just feel like im stupid or something #theyre going tomorrow and im debating on whether i should swallow my pride and go for her #i probably wont #im still not over it #anyway whatever i got work to do

[quaranmine]

One more ask, lol.

Something just occurred to me that really drives home just how unsolvable this whole thing was.  Grian found Mumbo on pure accident, which just drives home the fact that Grian is not in control.  This is something you made clear through the narrative and in the authors notes. 

It had to be an accident.  Because I'm think back to when Grian and Scar were analyzing the initial search.  They both saw fault with the fact that they focused the search on Cloud Lake without even considering Pinnacles, and the fact that Mumbo was given a permit for a Cloud Lake, a closed trail, in the first place.

But Mumbo was SO FAR off trail in such a tricky, hidden spot that, EVEN IF the initial search would have led them to Pinnacles, EVEN IF they would have found the bag and the bike, EVEN IF Mumbo had been given a permit for Pinnacles instead of Cloud Lake from the very start... it might not have mattered.  It might have already been too late.  They STILL might not have been able to find him alive, or even at all, before the area was evacuated for the fire.

Just... there really was no rhyme or reason.  No hidden cause.  No fault.  Just...

There's this Irish folk song I'm low-key obsessed with in which the countryside is described as "where nature is seen both majestic and savage." 

Mumbo died due to the majestic, savage nature of... well.  Nature. 

And there's nothing anyone could have done.  

(I hope it's clear that I'm using the word "savage" as an adjective describing a fierce, violent force of nature and not... other contexts 😬)

Yes, exactly! Actually putting this under a cut it got long lol

Not going to lie I did Worry a few times throughout writing this about having a plot that was so heavily dependent on accidents. Like, is it undermining character agency to have significant things just happen? Do my characters drive the plot or is it just happening to them? The other hikers finding Mumbo's bike in chapter 3/4 was an accident. Most of the events of chapter 11 were an accident.

But genuinely from a real-life perspective...that's how things just happen. This story is kind of a non-mystery mystery. It's a mystery in the sense that we don't know where Mumbo is or what happened. But it's not a mystery in the sense that is some conspiracy to be unraveled, a killer to be arrested, etc. I talked about this in another ask a few weeks ago about how I mystery write, but this fic had a lot of unique barriers to it. Firstly, from a purely practical plot perspective, Grian has like nothing to work with. He has no access to any SAR tools. He doesn't have access to documents (at first lmao) or any other type of hard copy research. He cannot go out and interview people or do anything else a mystery protagonist would typically do to find "clues" because he's alone in a fire lookout. That's it. That's the setting. There is a guy who is alone in the wilderness who wants to find someone.....out of hundreds of square miles of nothing. With no real tools except his own two feet, a map, and a new friend who can only give voiceover help.

So.....there's already a hard limit on what he can reasonably do without the narrative helping him out a little. And I think I did my best harnessing everything he could do on his own. Now, Grian also THINKS he can solve it all himself. He sees no issue with this set-up. As the author though I'm forced to consider HOW he plans to do all this though lol. So again from a reasonable perspective, he ain't working with much. He himself would not have considered Pinnacles if the bike didn't get found. He might have pieced together that Mumbo took a different trail, but he would've had no way to figure out which one. Meanwhile, I just focused on building the plot of his personal journey. I also just focused on the parallels between how Mumbo got to the place he was and how Grian ended up there too.

Also speaking of the initial search at Cloud Lake, I want to highlight a case I listened to on the Out Alive podcast from Backpacker Magazine. It's the episode "Finding Life on the Edge of Death" about Andrew Devers who was missing for 9 days on the Pratt River Trail in Oregon in 2021 (and survived.) First of all, excellent episode. Also, I did not listen to this until after I had worked out the plot, but it really strengthened my conviction in the storyline I had laid out. And I did end up referencing something from this episode in chapter 10. Specificaly, Andrew went hiking alone on a trail that recently had a landslide. Because the environment was so drastically changed, when he turned around to hike back he couldn't find his way at all. And I was like, yeah. That's why Mumbo's search continued to stay in the same area even though the trail was closed. Because this happens. They thought he lost the original trail in the landslide, just like this guy did. They thought that the trail being closed actually increased his chances of being lost there because it increased his chances of losing his way. They just didn't realize he actually turned around and went somewhere else. No conspiracy. Just a misguided assumption on the situation.

Also it really is horrifying how difficult it is to find people in the wilderness. So many people who go missing are found months or even years later on accident. I'm also reminded of the tragic case of Geraldine Largay, who died after going missing on the Appalachian trail. She survived 26 days. Search teams got within a 100 yards of her location, but they didn't find her body until two years later. She was only two miles off-trail, and only 30 mins walk from a road. She got turned around after simply stepping off trail to use the restroom. It hurts my heart so much. More recently last November, in my own beloved Big Bend National Park, Christy Perry went missing on the Lost Mine Trail for 8 days and was later found alive. She was so lost but only 1/4 a mile off-trail. I've been on that trail many times. I've....um.....been off-trail on that trial many times....Anyway, I was keeping an eye on updates constantly hoping she'd be found because it looked so bad for her, but she was fortuantely okay.

Anyway I guess my point is that people really do get hopelessly lost all the time while being close to trails, and being close to trail doesn't mean someone will be found quickly or at all. And in Mumbo's case...he wasn't anywhere where people thought he might be. Grian's mission was a needle in a haystack. If I were truly being realistic, he wouldn't have found him at all, but that's where I'm using narrative power.

So yeah. Accidents. Sometimes you're just not in control. Sometimes bad things happen. Nature majestic and savage indeed....

#quara asks #hc_firewatch au_ #also warning @ that podcast mentioned theres a particularly heartbreaking moment with his girlfriend talking about how #she had to tell his mom he was missing and his mom's reaction #which is another similarity that episode has with my au. also that the SAR sat the gf down and told her they were suspending the search #i was like MAN thats sad. but that's a happy ending episode because he was okay (all out alive podcasts are like that...hence 'out alive') #also dont worry i knew what you meant with savage

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

i do think the jealousy in school reunion is really interesting i think thats a really fun part of the doctor companion dynamic to explore, what makes me roll my eyes is the we're both in love with him "the missus and the ex" thing

but like the jealousy thing on its own? just the flipside of the making people feel special thing that we explored a bit with 12. the doctor does single people out, does make them feel special, their attention is like a fucking spotlight who would be immune to that warmth

but the other side of that then is like, was it their attention that made me special? was it their companionship that made me special? thinking of donna going travelling "it's all bus trips and guidebooks and dont drink the water and two weeks later youre back home" like sure thats comparing what the trips are like but like, that also describes sort of like, who you get to be on those trips right? a tourist vs a hero

thinking of yaz in combat magicks being like "yaz liked wearing her uniform because it marked her out as someone who belonged anywhere. ready to help, and with the right to intervene. the doctor just breezed in and made the whole universe her business, like she was born to it, and yaz longed for that confidence." thats sort of what being the doctor's plus one gives you, right? access to everywhere, without consequences, except maybe your own death but the doctor makes you feel invincible too so you dont worry about that

so sure there would be jealousy but i think making it into an ex-girlfriend kinda jealousy flattens it? "in amongst 7 billion theres someone like you" and then you get to save planets. you become a part of the doctor's hero complex. you get to see beautiful amazing things but you also get to prove yourself a hero every day. thinking of rose "the doctor showed me a better way of living your life. you dont just give up. you have the guts to do whats right when everyone else just runs away" you get to feel powerful. you get a lot of agency where in your daily life you probably dont have a lot. thats what the doctor gives to those handful of the seven billion. so what if they take it away?

thinking of clara asking "why me?" and sarah jane "did i do something wrong?" why did i get this opportunity. and why was it taken away. was it anything i did? and if it wasnt, then doesnt that undermine all that agency you made me feel like i had? can i do this on my own too? and of course lots of companions prove they can, they dont need the doctor to be who they are but idk. i think it would still be kinda insecure-making when youre still with the doctor. when youre still in the middle of it like rose in school reunion. when you dont know yet what After will look like

and this is something the fam doesnt have to deal with i think. because they came to the doctor. they werent picked, they werent offered, they asked. they dont have to wonder 'why did you pick me'. which im kinda relieved about especially thinking about yaz? imagine having to wonder 'was i a friend of convenience' on top of everything else. oof.

and another thing is that of course for the doctor the rejection hurts just as much. when a companion says no thank you, your way of life doesnt seem that fun to me (anymore)

anyway so uh tldr i guess the jealousy thing is interesting but making it a romantic jealousy is not whats interesting about it

#sorry to make you read 600 words and then have no conclusion #started typing and hoped i'd find a point somewhere but i didnt #i think i just laid out all my most unflattering sides without really making a point in this #so #rip #i think actually what ex-companion jealousy would be more like than romantic jealousy is sorta like #old doctor actors jealousy #i mean all old doctors ive ever heard talk about it have been VERY generous and gracious but #theres also i think david tennant said once about filming regeneration that like #one moment youre the most important person in the room. or FEEL like that anyway #and the next EVERYONES attention is on the next guy and people are just like okay thanks bye #i mean im sure people are not that cold waving off an old doctor but like #i can imagine. one moment youre The Guy. the next youre... not #one moment youre The Doctor's Companion. the next it's this new girl??? hello?? #thats MY spot thank you very much #at least when youve been the doctor to all us dw fans youre forever the doctor #that doesnt go away #but if you were a companion and then you go back home. nobody even fucking knows #youre just. normal. nothing special. nobody knows of the things youve seen and done #yeah i'd be jealous. but not of the doctor's previous 50 girlfriends #just of the next 50 fgkfhjdghjfkdgh #solution is to take them down with me of course #none of clara's 'youre not dying with me die with the next one' nonono youre dying with me sweetheart #like i said. my most unflattering sides fhgkhgjh

[starphobe]

a couple weeks back i had a very funny thought that made no sense under further scrutiny and so i decided not to post it but i think i'll just put it here for the sake of saving it somewhere

brennan has already established that the lines between gods and other massively magical/influential beings (archfey, archdevils, big beasts, yadda yadda) are kind of blurred? like... creatures can shift between these states if they fulfill the conditions to do so

we know ayda went SUPER FAR back in time. we're talking "leaving fossils" and "creating secret orders of knights" amounts of far back. she didnt WANT to go there either, she's actually mad as hell (malding) at her dad for making her go

we also know aguefort can grow in size big time (see: him tossing the sun literally being shown in the opening) and since ayda's also a very accomplished wizard i wouldn't put learning how to do that past her

and what is ankarna a god of again? Giants. Fire. Rage. (Conviction. Justice. Conquest. i did not definitively know these two when i formulated my thoughts several episodes ago but. i mean...)

basically: briefly considered ankarna being the remnants of ayda that somehow got stuck in the past and grew resentful of her dad for fucking her over a billion times/the unfairness of her existence -> her status as a legendary beast (half phoenix) would probably allow her to transition into something godhood-esque as she gathers a following -> this would tie into fig creating a powerful agreement with an entity/deity for warlock or paladin purposes, she and ayda stabilizing each other -> immediately remembered that ankarna has a sister (ravina) so unless there was some roundabout "ayda went through a phoenix revival and was reborn/adopted into ravinas family as a new god bc she started being worshipped by giants" i think this (very short lived) theory is off the table

however. tracker did have a moment of. bringing winter to falinel -> strengthening faith in galakaia... i wonder if ayda might at some point have brought summer to the mountains of chaos if nothing else. i feel like brennan isnt going to be able to resist making Parallels and References. idk

#this is such a funny post for me to make bc we know so much more about ankarna now than we did a month ago when i was considering this #and im an ayda liker but im not an ayda.. fan??? like. i was bummed that we wouldnt get to see her sure #but im not one of the people who were devastated when she left #so this isnt me trying to shoehorn my favorite npc into main character status or whatever. truly just my deranged brain at work. sorry #d20 #fhjy #not gonna tag this with anything else . im embarrassed. its so dumb #anyway. single funniest part of this? #past reincarnation of kristens situationship and future reincarnation of figs girlfriend got married #thats all. bye everyone

[asfdhgsdkjhgb]

hi tumblr dot com im freaking out rn i forgot how fun it is to have a stupid silly little crush

#like relationships are fun but dear god i am NOT doing that shit again my attachment issues cannot handle it #not to mention how fucked up ive been the past month bc of getting broken up with #but like! just the crush part is always so fun bc you just get to be like #silly with it #yknow #just me rambling again #just got back from the sleep away camp i do every summer and i had a little camp crush this year #and like we were besties the whole week with one of our other friends the three of us were inseperable #and like. i think hes cute and obviously everyone got everyones contact info and im just #idk like i know it wont like progress or anything he has a girlfriend and im pretty sure hes straight? he did call me pretty boy tho #but either way like i said its the having a crush thats the fun part

[oatbugs]

i don't understanddddd

#i feel so unloved unwanted etc etc etc but it makes no sense #my gf is lovely to me et cetera so i dont get it #maybe its bc im on my period but idk lol. feels like . rly lonely somehow #like she doesnt like me as much as she did before but thats so dumb bc i think that i may feel that way #bc shes not acting the way she used to before we were dating officially. like when we were friends but also kind of not etc and she was #trying to get me to change my mind or whatever. #but its like. yh shes not gonna act that way bc shes secure in the relationship and also were like. girlfriends now. so its GOOD. #but at the same time i feel unwanted. idkkkk #i think im a lot more expressive too . esp recently #w like. compliments and stuff etc etc like ik im above average expressive so i cant expect the same level in return but she shows it in #other ways but i just feel like she doesnt like me as much but its ILLOGICAL UGHHHHHHHHHHHH

[t4transsexual]

apparently theres other people who identify as straight and lesbian at the same time and just dont use/know of the term heterosapphic, and use terms like straightbian. nice

#im in a lesbian server and was the only person in there who considered themselves straight as well #for context im genderfluid and experience my attraction differently depending on the gender #but i brought up that there were no roles for it and someone said #'oh i thought i added some! i can add some when i get home' #and i said i use terms like heterosapphic (which my girlfriend made up) #and het-dyke/hetles #and someone brought up straightbian and i checked tumblr #like oh! thats where yall are hiding! #trans #t4t #straightbian #heterosapphic #hetles #het dyke #bigender lesbian #genderfluid lesbian

[britneyshakespeare]

i have to be honest. when ppl bring up how old jason earles was when he played jackson in hannah montana. i do agree it's a little weird but it's strange when ppl adopt the language of it being, like, somehow creepy. he played a high schooler in his late 20s-early 30s. it's not like ppl don't do that on the cw.

#i remember when i found out how old jason earles is. it mustve been 2010 #bc thats when i made facebook #he was also really young-looking in the early seasons?? not like he ACTUALLY looks like a teen #also no it's not CREEPY like it would be for someone to pretend to be a teen at that age irl #to my knowledge most of the actresses cast to be his love interest (at least from the top of my head? im not doing a survey) #were not like... teen starlets like miley and emily osment's age #well hmmm i guess there is that episode where he was into his friend cooper's little sister in s1 #i dont know how old that actress was. that was a weird episode regardless #but before his serious girlfriend arc (sienna 🖤) he never had a long-term serious love interest anyway #they were always one-off dates who got sick of his bullshit by the end of the episode like drake parker #text post #me the number one defender of hannah montana (2006-2011) created by michael poryes #that show WAS everything to me #it wasn't necessarily high art but it did have a big influence on me and my interests and dreams and blah blah #i dont think i would be the same person if it werent for hannah montana and later on miley cyrus #miley. one of my favs forever. love her always xoxox

[delusional-mishaps]

drew the sillies at work 🫶🫶

#my boyfriends.. #my coworker was watching me draw them and was like 'girl im so done. why ate you so good 😕' and walked away LMFAOOO #im just obsessed with these silly men and draw them a lot #thats why im 'good' #obsession does that to a mf.. 😔✊ #epic #cross #epic sans #cross sans #my lovers 🫶🫶 my fictional stupid girlfriends.. #i had a dream last night that i was roasting them for playing genshin knowing full well i also play genshin #i was like 'you probably play genshin 🙄 who do you main? loser.' #and they were both like 'you MUST play... if youre asking for character names.' #felt like a clown fr #jesters art #my art

[caffeinatedopossum]

I feel like a lot of you really don't know how inaccessible transitioning still is

#from a trans man who cant wear a binder without hurting myself #i still do it anyway because im desperate but thats the thing. im desperate. a lot of trans people are still desperate #my girlfriend will probably never be able to go on estrogen the way it is now because it would likely break her bones #theres just a shitton of stuff like this i have a whole list of things #as trans people it feels like were constantly being told to shut up and be grateful for what we got #and you know what? no. we deserve to ask for more. we deserve to want better. to want to not be desperate #honestly my life is gonna change the day i get top surgery #oh yeah thats another thing #ill never be able to pay for top surgery. someone else will have to pay for it for me because im disabled #disabled people are essentially prohibited from raising or having any more than 2000 dollars at any time