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6ix9inewiturmom · 14 days

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Jealousy, Jealousy- Chris Sturniolo

Summary: You got a little jealous and insecure about chris’ relationship with Tara, the fans don’t know about you so it makes your thoughts a little worse.

Warnings: Arguments, inscure, fluff, use of Y/N, kinda Asshole chris, TW! co comparison

A/N: I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY THIS BABIES?! also a PSA!! no hate to tara i love her sm she’s absolutely amazing and beautiful this is jus a FICTIONAL story!!

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It was an average Tuesday for me sitting in my apartment waiting for chris to come over so we can have our normal once a week movie night at my house. i knew chris had a video to film, i assumed it was for his youtube channel cause normally they film either on monday or tuesday for their wednesday videos. The endless scroll of tiktok was genuinely getting exhausting, considering chris and i had both decided to keep our relationship private until we felt comfortable enough to share with his fans, i always get chris fan edits all over my for you page, which was nice, sometimes i send him the good ones to see his reaction, but as im scrolling through tiktok a video popped up of chris and his newer friend tara, singing ‘Primadonna’ by Marina, now normally i don’t get jealous or insecure because i know he’s mine and im his, he ALWAYS made sure i was okay with anything, but he never told me the video he was doing was with her? she had this newer series on her channel called ‘Stuck in a car with..’ and last weeks was Nick, so i’m assuming this weeks was chris.. but why wouldn’t he tell me? he tells me everything? why was she smiling at chris like that? does she know he has a girlfriend? did he tell her? why was this the song choice? why was he not telling me it was Tara that he was filming with? i trust chris why am i overthinking so much? why am i questioning him? do i have a right to question things? should i test him? should i just ask? what if he gets mad at me for being like this?

A billion thoughts were flooding my once at eased mind with thoughts of Insecurities and Jealousy. she’s a beautiful woman, amazing style, she’s funny, she’s a lot of things i’m not, but does that matter to chris?

i get up off my bed to head to the bathroom to run me a nice warm bath to see if that’ll ease my mind, i step in the bathroom and turn on the light and start the water and stop in the bathroom mirror and stare. i just sit here for a good 4 minutes looking at myself, comparing myself to her, was it her perfect skin? her perfect figure? i let out a frustrated sigh and hop in the tub and my tense body softens at the hot water absorbing into my skin. i lean back in the tub and stare at the ceiling. questioning myself what i’m gonna do.

it’s now about 6pm, i’ve taken a bath, nervous baked, cookies, brownies, and a chocolate cake, baking always seems to calm my nerves down, i’ve watched 7 movies, no word from chris which is weird, but what’d i expect.

Speak of the fucking devil.

Chrissy 🎀

Hey ma, sorry i’ve not responded, we just got done filming and we ran a few errands and im on the way to your house now baby.

this motherfucker, did he just lie to my face? so he’s now believing his lie that he was filming with his brothers?

Y/N

doors open 🙃

maybe i should just play it cool, maybe i should just see how long he cracks? nah i shouldn’t do that thats some toxic shit.

i hear my doorbell ring a couple times, i get off the couch and walk to the door and open it up to find chris standing there in his light blue Fresh Love hoodie smiling at me.

“Hi baby” he smiles at me holding his arms out expecting a hug from me like i normally do but i can’t help but stare into his eyes and my once harsh gaze softens at his smile and i walk closer giving him a hug and he kisses my head.

i pull away from his soft hug and let him in. as he walks in he notices my disarray of a house, dishes everywhere, flour is scattered over my kitchen counter he has a puzzled look on his face.

“what’s with all those dishes and stuff?” he points around at my kitchen.

“oh that?… yeah i uh started watching tiktok waiting for you and i started baking..” my voice trails off.

“okay..” he starts “anyways… what movie do you wanna watch” he walks with me to my couch and sits down with his arm draped over my shoulders.

“i don’t wanna watch a movie” i smile “i just wanna sit and talk to you for a little bit” he smiles softly at me.

“what do you wanna talk about ma” he chuckles smiling at me

“umm how was filming?” i drop my head playing with my rings on my fingers.

“oh yeah it was good, a lot of good laughs, but it’s how we normally are” he laughs nervously.

“so just you and your brothers?” i lift my head up smiling at him. at this point i blacked out, i completely lost control of my voice, i trust him but why wasn’t he telling me the truth?

“yeah, we was filming for wednesdays new video” he looks me deeply in my eyes, straight up lied to me.

my lips kiss my teeth and i nod, “so Tara is your brother?” i spit out.

his eyes widen, and his face goes pale “Y/N, it’s not what it looks like, look i know me and you have been together for a year and a half in private, she knows i have a girlfriend who i love” he places his hand on my knee rubbing circles on it.

i nod “yeah so why didn’t you just tell me you were with tara? then when i asked you completely lied to my face, yeah i saw the fucking tiktok you guys made, and best believe me, the comments on that fucking video? a BUNCH of boat emojis, and ‘oh the way he looks at her’ what the fuck chris?” my voice cracks with anger and sadness

“Y/N i just know how you are..” he looks down playing with his thumbs.

“HOW I AM? chris i have done nothing but trust you, im sorry for expecting the bare minimum by i don’t know my boyfriend to tell me that he’s filming a video with someone? then not lie to me about who he was with?” i yell standing up off the couch.

“Y/N sit down, talk to me ma, i promise it’s not like that” chris starts trying to grab my hand, i jerk my hand back.

“no you’re not gonna ‘ma’ me, at all, you lied chris, u caught you in a lie, if i would have never seen that fucking tiktok, you would have never fucking told me about it chris, what the fuck?” i pace around my living room in anger and in almost tears

“Y/N…baby” he gets off the couch trying to calm me down.

“no chris, get away from me, get out, i don’t wanna see you” i sit on the floor next to my window in fetal position with my head between my knees.

“Y/N pls don’t push me out” he starts “please, i love you” he squats down at eye level with me

“give me one second chris” i stand up and go out the door unlocking my phone and dialing matt’s number.

“Y/N? what’s up?” matt answers

“come get your brother, i can’t look at him” my voice shakes and tears form my eyes.

“what happened Y/N” his voice panicked

“i should let chris tell you, just please matt?” i single tear drops from the left side of my face

“i’m on my way” he sighs.

i end the call walking back inside and chris is sitting on the couch with his face in his hands as if he’s stressed.

“your brother is on his way Christopher” i sigh walking to my room and locking the door, obviously he followed me sitting at my door with his head leaning against the door.

“Y/N please… i just know since our relationship is private how sometimes you can get insecure” he starts; not helping the situation.

“Chris, leave, you’re not helping” i start crying

“fine, you know fuck this, i tried explaining myself, you don’t believe me, ive tried, now im the problem” he sighs dragging his feet and slamming my front door which causes me to jump and start harshly crying. i hear a ping from my phone assuming its chris i turn it around to find Nick frantically texting me.

Nick Bean 🫘

Y/N??

WHAT DID MY BROTHER DO?!

ARE YOU GUYS BROKEN UP?

WHO I NEEDA FIGHT??

i guess news travels fast in the sturniolo household.

Y/N 🎀

no we’re not broken up, he didn’t tell me that he was filming with tara, told me he was filming with you and matt, but i found out from a tiktok.. all of his comments were shipping him, and i know our relationship is private but like nick… i love your brother so much..

i start crying harder then i’ve cried before. i never would have thought chris would make me cry like this, never, he’s always been so communicative with me. why start this now?

Nick Bean 🫘

what the fuck..

why?

but i have to say one thing Y/N, you know he would never leave you, i can say that, i can’t justify his actions but i can say he loves you dearly.

was i overthinking? he lied. was i being dramatic? he lied.

Y/N 🎀

i know nick, but i jus need a couple days to cool down.. that’s all im asking, a couple days to get his ass straight

i put my phone down and power it off so i can sleep without interruptions, or at least try and attempt to sleep.

about an hour later i woke up, tears staining my face, mascara still running down my cheeks, my heart aches. why would chris do something like this.

Two Days Later

the past two days i’ve heard nothing from anyone, nick hasn’t checked on me, matt hasn’t, and i expected chris not to check on me considering he’s playing the victim card.

New Message Requests from Ms.Yummy on instagram!

hm? tara texted me? god she’s probably the last person i expected to hear from.

Mrs.Yummy

Hey girl! so i heard about you and chris! i just want to say he did tell me all about you, he bragged so much about you!! sorry if things got mixed up between me and chris!! nothing is going on between us! i hope you can forgive him! <3

so i’m guessing chris texted her. wow. he can text her but not me? are you kidding me? i clicked on her profile and found myself gazing at her pictures, looking at the way she does her eyeliner, the way she dresses, her smile, her nonexistent acne, her perfect makeup. fuck i’m doing it again, but i’m not answering her.

Movies, sleep, cry, shower. that’s my routine for the last 2 days. i can’t live without him. maybe he’s right. maybe i am insecure. maybe i am jealous.

fuck it.

Y/N

come over at 5. we need to talk.

i texted chris. we needed to fix whatever problems we had. weather it’s me being insecure and jealous or chris lying to me. we needed to fix things.

Chrissy 🎀

i’m coming over now.

fuck. i had no time to get ready, i looked like shit, felt like shit, still had stains on my face from tears. never mind, i didn’t care, i just needed my boyfriend back.

about an hour waiting for him i was in between dozing off and staying awake, i hear keys jingling at my door. damnit he has a spare key. he slowly walks in holding flowers and my favorite gummy candies and chocolate.

“Hey Y/N i’m sorry it took so long, i ubered all around LA, you know how embarrassing that is? matt refused to drive me anywhere today. him and nick are both mad at me since the whole…yk?” he started nervous smiling.

“these are pretty, and thanks for the food” i say walking up to him with a straight face, and grabbing things from his hand and placing them on my kitchen counter.

“so now what?” he placed his hand on the counter.

“i don’t know chris, You told Tara about our relationship problems obviously, she took your side” i rolled my eyes.

“look i know i fucked up Y/N, i should have just told you about filming with Tara, i shouldn’t have lied..” he starts

“you didn’t just lie Chris. you lied to my fucking face even when i questioned you.. THEN you told Tara about us and she fucking texted me all silly and ass kissing me.. how do you think i’ve felt? genuinely curious how do you think i’ve been doing?” i sit on the counter with my arms crossed staring at him looking at the floor.

“well uhm by the looks of things around here, and your stained cheeks, not good…” he continued to look at the ground moving his ring on his finger around in circles around his finger.

“chris you’ve got me looking in the mirror differently thinking i’m flawed, i mean look at Tara? she’s fucking beautiful, she’s skinny, she’s funny, she’s got amazing style, and definitely good taste in men if she’s interested in you..” my voice fades off and i start breathing in and out trying not to cry.

“fuck” he whispers “Y/N you’re all of that and more… no i’m not making this up, you’re absolutely the right woman for me, i should have told you about tara, im just saying i should have never made you feel different about yourself, i shouldn’t have lied, and i shouldn’t have lied to you. i’m sorry Y/N, for everything, im sorry for making you feel any less then perfect, you’re so very perfect to me” he grabs both sides of my face looking at me deep in the eyes. “you” he kisses my forehead “are” he kisses my right cheek “so” he kisses my left cheek “perfect” he finally places a little kiss on my lips making me smile.

“there’s that beautiful smile i’ve missed” he says still cupping my cheeks making a soft pink color appear on my cheeks.

“i’m sorry chris, i may have overreacted but im sorry for causing an emotional distress upon our relationship” i softly smile.

he places his hands down besides my legs on the counter “that doesn’t matter anymore. i promise from here on out, no matter what, no matter who, i will tell you who im filming with, okay?” he holds out his pinkie, i roll my eyes and intertwining my pinkie with his and smiling.

“i just want you Y/N Y/M/N Y/L/N, only you, one day i’m gonna make you take my last name, i can PROMISE you that” he says kissing my lips softly.

“i only want you Christopher Owen Sturniolo” i smile back softly giving him another peck on the cheek “can we take a nap please… i haven’t been sleeping good lately… and i just want you to hold me” i look down and back up at chris with his blue eyes gazing down at me smiling.

“yes but i have to do something before anything okay? but you can’t look” he smirks

“i’m confused but okay..” i smile softly.

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“CHRIS” i drag out the ‘s’ “no way..” i almost had tears in my eyes.

“now the entire world can see that you are mine and i am yours” he smiled kissing my lips softly “now we can take a nap.. come here ma” he opens his arms out for me i lay down on the couch resting my head on his chest and he kisses my head whispering sweet nothings to me, as i fall asleep peacefully for the first time in 2 days with my boyfriend.

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A/N pt 2 I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED THIS!! again no hate to tara, i love tara, she’s an icon to me, this is completely fictional!! I LOVE YOU ALL

XOXO

Gabs 💋

#Spotify #chris sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #matt sturniolo #nick sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #sturniolo fanfic #sturniolo triplets #the sturniolo triplets #sturniolo smut #sturniolo x reader #chris sturniolo x you #matt sturniolo smut #matthew sturniolo #chris sturniolo x reader #sturniolo #tara yummy

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eternalfics · 4 months

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hi! can you do saiki x male reader headcanons who has a crush on saiki? reader’s childhood friend is aiura and they transferred around the same time. can reader have green hair and pink eyes btw? saiki doesn’t find reader annoying and enjoys that reader’s presence doesn’t come with chaos. also can reader have plant/nature psychic powers? lol

(just fluff of this topic please? i hope this isn’t too much lol 😅)

saiki with a male! psychic who has nature powers!

a/n: HAPPY DUCKING NEW YEARR! 😍 I kinda left this in my inbox for a little while.. but as you always know, lindy is always here to help your saiki brainrots 😇

warnings: photo of a spiky plant, yelling

summary: a difficult friendship, but we’re working on it!

so! 😊

aiura would surely be excited to see you again! asking you have you traveled, or did you expect to see her or!- you get me, she’s rlly excited. 😋 (we’re acting like she transferred first)

but you find yourself wondering who is this other guy since you guys transferred at the same time. he doesn’t even bother to give you a glance 😯 and he doesn’t look nervous at all!

well, it’s not your business. maybe he knows someone here?

more underneath:

im guessing that saiki guessed that you were a psychic easily! 😘

but what confused him is, how come you never show your other powers? are you scared or are you just private?

Scenario:

saiki was lying on his bed on a saturday afternoon, until it hit him. he had a test, it was no problem, he could do it without studying. but the problem is, which day is it going to be on? he didn’t want to be caught off guard.

he could text toritsuka, or called nend- ugh.. nevermind. saiki can’t believe how a single interaction is this tough for him..

then it you popped into his mind, it was perfect! if he contacted chiyo, the second he did he would hear her thoughts thinking they’d have a chance. and he’s not even gonna talk about teruhashi.. 😓

he teleported to your room without a sound. he saw that you were sleeping in your bed (weirdo 😨) he walked to you, and spoke in your mind. “y/n-“ “AAGHH” you yelled, and sat up abruptly. stinging nettles appeared out of nowhere.

“oh,” so that was your power.

back to headcanons!

I have a feeling that since he knows when he scares you, that you make spikey plants, that he’ll take advantage of that 😈

“boo,” “AHHGG-“ *insert spikey plant*

especially when someone suspects you have nature powers, he’ll be there to rescue you ❤️

sometimes, saiki will ask for favours (he returns it dw 🥰) maybe roses for his mom, cactus for decoration in his room, or maybe a tulip for a fresh scent in his living room :) maybe even one for you.

let me say, of course at first he thought you were annoying. he’s does that to everyone 🙃. but after some embarrassing and funny moments, saiki just dosent care 😭 (sometimes he wants to stay with you 😍)

saiki wonders about your green hair and pink eyes? he zones out looking at your soft, fine, touchable hair. is it green because of your powers? probably not

saiki knows that you get some girls, how can you be this attractive and not get anyone to like yo- ugh.. he’s started thinking TOO much again.

Overall, you both have crushes on eachover and I think you guys should smooch ❤️

#kusuo saiki x reader #kusuo saiki x y/n #saiki fluff #saiki k x reader #saiki kusuo fluff #saiki kusuo x male!reader #saiki kusuo x reader #kusuo saiki #saiki x reader #saiki kusuo #saiki #saiki x y/n #saiki x you

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1d1195 · 5 months

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can i just say that i’m OBSESSEDDDD with your music taste. like, actually. i remember when you said you were listening to ‘thin air’ by aqualung when you were writing traditional and i love that series so obviously i went and listened to it and when i tell you that literally changed my life????? i listened to that on REPEAT and it was super high on my replay playlist of the year (i use apple music too) and i just saw the tag you did and AHHHHH!!!! YOU’RE JUST LIKE ME LMAOOO!!! BUT there was like one song i didn’t know and im listening to it AND NO SURPRISE!!!! ITS AMAZING!!! I LOVE IT!!!!

anyways all this to say that i love your writing sooo sooo much and i have for well over a year now but i also love the other parts of you that you choose to share on here! please never be shy to share what you’re listening to because i will ALWAYS appreciate it!!🫶🫶🫶🫶

SHUT THE FRONT DOOR. This is one of the nicest compliments I've ever gotten 😭💕 I think I have such obscure/weird taste in music (no shade to you if we are TWINS because I love that!). Like definitely am a pop girly but I'm such a gentle music listener. But I'm so shy about sharing my music ideas! My sister says my music is so sad sounding 🙃 (it kind of is but nonetheless.)

Isn't Thin Air so so sweet!? We have One Tree Hill to thank for finding it during my summer binge.

(Was the song you didn't know My Friend's Toyota? I have it on my list to write a story about it in the near future 😉😊)

Thank God for TikTok! It's where I've been getting all my indie music from 😭 Like Thin Air I also get a lot of my music from TV shows. My Shazam is just like 300 songs of me holding my phone up to the speaker during every episode of Grey's Anatomy. I also get the occasional song from one of the trendy aesthetic restaurants I frequent.

I would LOVE to share some of my playlists with you if you're really interested!!! Based on TV binging/season I group a lot of songs together and all my playlists are like Fall 2023, Summer 2021, etc. I'll post some screenshots sometime!!

"but i also love the other parts of you that you choose to share on here!" OKAY JUST RIP MY HEART OUT MA'AM thank you so much you're so so so sweet, thank you for reading and writing me a message 💕😭💕

xoxo

P.S. If you decide you want to chat again (no pressure at all), I think you should use the 🎶 emoji if you see fit 💕 😊

#🎶

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chansaw · 9 months

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Hello! I've asked you some yj animorphs au questions anonymously before since I was a bit shy about it, but I'm excited to read that when it's published! I was curious about how you write, if you use outlines or try to plan everything ahead of time, or if you write images as they come to you (or both or neither or whatever!). I hope this isn't too forward, just want to say I'm a fan!

HELLO!!!! you don’t have to apologize for anything bc this ask made me SOOOO happy :]

anyways, with regards to your question, i’d have to say it’s a bit of both. like, for the animorphs au specifically i have a broad outline of the plot. i’ve broken down the story into “episodes” - each episode spans 1-3 chapters, and each chapter is further broken down into like 5-6 scenes. i definitely like to go in with a plan: i know how each character’s arc is gonna play out, and i have an ending in mind. if a new idea/image pops into my head spontaneously while im writing, im not afraid to shake things up and deviate from the outline.

with regards to a schedule… i wish i could say i have one. i don’t 😔 my adhd means motivation comes and goes, so some days i sit down with tons of inspiration ready to go and other days i just can’t get anything onto the page. one of my worst fatal flaws as a writer is that i want everything to be perfect, for every word and line to be just the way i want it to, and if i’m not 100% satisfied with it i get convinced it’s not worth sharing. sometimes i get caught in that vicious cycle… or distracted by other ideas… i have so many WIPs rn help.

i hope this makes sense!!! i’m not feeling too well recently and my brain feels jumbled and soupy. earlier today it took me ten minutes to coherently organize my thoughts and express myself verbally 🙃

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skele8rity · 8 months

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🎶✨when you get this, put 5 songs you actually listen to, then publish. Send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨ HEHEHEHEHEH 💖😎

tumblr deleted my response the first time i tried answering this 🙃 i wrote a nice long message about how this was really nice and unexpected but the gist of it was it was really sweet and im grateful, thank you for sending one fjdjf

rain; unprocessed. a really unique sound and incredible writing from the whole band but id be lying if i didnt say the guitar and vocals were very attention grabbing to me! an emotional pick but one im really fond of. also theres gays in the video and thats a win for me, even if its a tragic song and narrative! (cheating but you should also see deadrose. i go crazy for the video every time)

stranger things; periphery. im insane for peripherys sound overall actually but this is imo one of their most fun to listen to, interesting songs. many different parts that still manage to stay cohesive. i think the shifts between the FUCKING METAL and the pretty parts are really good. fun lyrics. i follow the drummer on youtube. misha too. the guitarists are insane??? drift compatible. chef kiss very good

king; tesseract. another one i go insane for, and also really love to pop on the stereo when i hop in the car. im not kidding i turn it up all the way sometimes until i can literally feel my bones rattling JFJSKG its very good. another band absolutely WILD at shifting smoothly between these absolutely gorgeous pieces and FUCKING METAL... and another instance where i really love the drummer lmfaooo he does these really cool polyrhythms i just. BRBRBRBvrbrbrbr. i go crazy for. King. Powertrip Music. enjoy.

dark eternal night; dream theater. ive been listening to them my whole life but i didnt get brain cells to recognize it until like... octavarium? first live concert was the album that this song comes off of and motherfucker i set the bar high for everyone else forever LMFAO dream theater scratches the brain like truly nothing else. mike portnoy might not be in the band anymore but im so glad he was here for this album because the sound is perfect.

euclid; sleep token. i had to add sleep token because i saw that you listen to them at least a little bit. when i heard the ending of euclid i cried. this whole album is good. preceded by take me back to eden? this song hits like a goddamn train, but so does the rest of the album. a lot of variation in it! but thats what prog is about 😭 euclid changed my life and my brain chemistry, forever ascending over the fact it reprises my first BIG favorite song from them at the end. annihilated me. will do it again.

#the idea for this one was 'metal' or 'prog'...#mandiemegatron #skelly speaks #music #return to sender

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twogyuu · 2 years

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Oh my gosh, 9 hours?! I thought my licensing exams were rough at 4– I hope your board exam went well! Sometimes resting before a big test is actually the best because your mind is more refreshed.

Have the BEST time seeing Seventeen! I’m so excited for you!! I went to the Oakland show last weekend and it was AMAZING! Dare I say, even better than Ode to You? (because we were fortunate and had ot13– especially seeing Coups be able to interact with fans and just seem so happy to be there this time— even if he did have a stomachache, his eyes screamed joy and love for fans showing up and filling every level of the massive venue!) Level 1 is always where I get seats for shows because I’m on the shorter side of average height as well so it’s just easier to be able to see that way 😅

My one big recommendation is to not film to much on your phone, you’ll walk out remembering less that way. I try to stick to recording all the ments, but I get too tempted by my favorite songs not to film them and then don’t recall as much of the experience 🙃— but like how could I not record the HHU stages? 🤩 Here’s hoping Mingyu is back for your show because good Lord that man will destroy you in person with his visuals! And Jeonghan is just breathtakingly beautiful… but yeah, your girl had straight tunnel vision for Wonwoo since he was on my side of the stage most of the show 😍😍😍

Ah! Do share your experience when you get back!! (Okay, I’ll stop rambling now… but also I’ll pop in occasionally to remind you that Alcohol Free is waiting lol)

-wisteria-woo

Hello hello!!!!

AGGGHHH IM SO SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY! I'm on my way back home from the Fort Worth show yesterday!!!

Thank you for the well-wishes on my boards! I really hope I pass 😖 Partially because I don't want to have to do them again, partially because it kind of determines my fate for next year too 😭

Onto more fun things!! THANK YOU SOSOSOSO MUCH FOR THE CONCERT TIPS! I tried my best not to record but couldn't resist for some sets (I'm looking at you RWY 😭)! Unfortunately, Mingyu was unable to make it still because he was still in quarantine 😓 That said, it made it a very dangerous place for me because my eyes were WANDERING 😵‍💫 Surprisingly, maknae line out of all members caught my attention most 😳 Seungkwan was all over the place and so full of energy! Maybe it's because he was on my side more frequently lol, but his fan interactions were the cutest!!! He also challenged Chan to a dance battle and might I say, he kicked his way into my heart 😳🥲 Chan was so full of energy and happy to be back! It was so nice to see so much support for him because from what I've gathered his fan base is smaller (?) Vernon also!! WHAT A MAN 😭 He has such good groove when he dances and his stage presence is like ? Idk how to explain it lol, chill, but also not? LOLOL

TL;DR: My whole bias line is a mess and in the works rn 😂 Who knows? My whole layout might change to be a Seungkwan stan in the next few days 😶

In regards to the whole concert!!! Interestingly, I remembered vocal unit's stage best??? Maybe it's because I didn't record it like you said (recorded HHU and PU's lol). Legit, I cried so hard during Our Dawn Is Hotter Than Our Day, it was embarrassing 😅 It's my sad gorl song and this year I particular has been a year of growth and learning, but painful nonetheless. It's also nearing the end of summer here, and I was just so happy and relieved(?) I did something big and expensive for my own happiness (no other deep reason) for once 🥲

ANYWAYYYYSSSSS this is so long! I'm so sorry LOLOLOLOL.

I'll try to get back to writing ASAP! This trip really threw me a curveball with writing and haven't gotten as much done as I needed to 😵‍💫, so the reminders will be appreciated 😂

P.S.!!! The concensus seems to be Wonwoo other than Jeonghan 😂 I'm trying to figure out a muse for an apocalypse fic!!! I've had about 5 dreams now where I run into Cheol at the end of the world - figured it was a sign 🤔😂

#as always #i love hearing from you and hope you're doing well!!!#wisteria woo #🥰🥰🥰#💙💙💙

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artbivch · 2 years

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Some things to shout into the void I guess (since I can’t vent about it to literally anyone IRL without being made fun of or grossing people out):

As someone who had crushes on teachers in middle and high school, GOD college teacher crushes are so much worse. I’m an adult. So is he. He is single. I sometimes wish I was which is NOT the way I should be thinking about my partner. But dang, I met my tc before I met my partner, which is impressive because that was five years ago (met tc six yrs ago).

I exhausted the list of classes he taught real early on, we’d interact in class, but I was a teen then and he’s old enough to be my dad. I knew it would be weird so I didn’t go out of my way to interact with him. I thought that’d kill the crush. It DIDNT. Oh man, this dumb crush has been on the back burner constantly, just popping up in dreams like “hey, remember me?” or I’d run into him on campus and I’d be reminded with a baseball bat to the heart.

I continued with my majors, got started on taking care of myself (mentally, physically, etc.), so honestly I’m the best I’ve ever been in my life right now, and it just so happens one of the senior professors retired anD GUESS WHO TRANSFERRED TO FILL HIS SPOT LOLOLOL IM IN AGONY. I can’t escape interacting with him for my senior year, and this last year I’ve been helping him make the transition because the studio has a lot of equipment that while he knows the basics of he doesn’t have full knowledge of (it makes more sense if I go into detail but I can’t just in case, yknow?). Which means I’ve been helping him and we’re almost peers but also not quite and m a n it makes the whole “you really shouldn’t say anything unless you have any evidence they feel an inkling toward you” sooo difficult. What’s worse is I’m preeetty sure another student is hitting on him and she’s closer in age and has more shared interests 🙃 I’m not doomed per say, but I’m definitely not in the best position. It’s just, so exhausting. We vibe when we interact, but I’ve noticed a certain playfulness that he gives other students but not me and I shouldn’t care, but that desperate side of me is constantly trying to decipher whether it’s him purposely avoiding reciprocating or if he can read my mind and is trying to distance. He sometimes sketches in class and he sketched the girl who flirts with him because she was doing her work directly in front of him when he was in sketching mode, so I’m pretty sure he wasn’t sketching her because of interest but because she happened to be there, but dAMN I’m so much more jealous than I have any right to be.

I’m going on a trip with him and some other students in a month. I’m pretty sure the threat™️ isn’t going. I’m smart enough to not make any irrational moves, buuut my inexperience with the destination means I can play the hapless student card and I sure as hell and gonna to have an excuse to talk to him.

#sorry for the rant #teacher crush #male teacher crush #i have no clue how to tag this

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rinstars · 3 years

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Bruh i know that people see rin as a heartbreaker but i just see him in the fluffiest way? Bfhhdhdjs im gonna rant sorry in advance but like i see rin as that dude that would be extremely loyal and in a way extremely clingy like sending you texts all the time even if its just a stupid meme at 3 am cause it reminded him of you, or he just really wanted to show you cause he knew you would laugh. Dude would just randomly show up your house at like 4am or so to go pick uo snacks or just go for a walk cause nights are usually calm and silent so he could relish in only your voice as you rant about some random topic or sing the song that you both are listening from his shared earphones. I absolutely see him as the boyfriend who would love to just cuddle in the couch as you two watch some random movies, series, YouTube videos and sometimes it would end up with his fingers or cock inside you. He would also absolutely love if you just cradled his face in your hands and whispered how pretty he is and how much you loved your pretty boy 🥺🥺🥺 absolutely the boyfriend that you could just lay in bed with and enjoy each others presence without talking, he would end up snuggling against you and pressing his face against the crook of your neck Hfhbfbdbhshfbbdhs its the little things with rin to me plssssssssss ofc he would also be a menace and play pranks on you or scoff when you would want to try a new nail polish on him (he would end up asking you to paint his nails black once you were done with trying out new colors) also very possessive if a guy is talking to you and eyeing you in a more no no way he'll just pop out and hug your waist from behind while placing his chin on your shoulder and glare at the dude 😩😩😩

Im down bad for Rin 🙃🙃🙃🙃 and im gonna be honest all the omi angst didnt do anything to me but this last chapter with Rin going ham on us.... Bruh im in need of theraphy that shit hurt... But but he did push the girl away since he was in a albeit fake still a relationship with us and he does care about us..... And he seems confused with his feels.... Besides he ends up always going to us like in the party after he pushed the girl off he could have just left but instead he came ask us to leave with him........ Bruh im derailing but im holding unto my hopes that rin will end up with y/n 😭😭 like he realizes after they end up their plan that he truly misses us or something 😬😬😬

Look at me just clowning myself 🤣🤣

i agree i agree hehehe i feel like suna would be a very loving boyfriend—really sweet and caring. but at the same time i can't help but believe suna does have this side to him that causes misunderstandings a lot. maybe it's the lack of communication and the fact that he doesn't really show his emotions well. when he loves, he loves a lot but again, he isn't able to always have the best decisions with things and i feel like that shows with his canon personality too? 😭 he isn't very emotional, tends to laze around sometimes but i think that makes him very very interesting <//3 ALSO DW ABOUT RANTING I LOVE HIM SO MUCH TOO THAT I ALWAYS HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABT HIM 😭😭 overall i just think he is a very confusing man but very lovely nevertheless hehe he just needs someone who would get him.

#U HOLDING ON TO THAT HOPE HUH #HDKSGAKGSOWH #dw we all are #♡.kyriaan #♡.entry #cry for me ; series

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