#but she knows i have an ED

[lovelysakuray]

yo why the fuck would you offer your home to me as an escape from a) my home life b) my brain but every time i ask you when i actually need to and not just to hang out it’s always no.

WHY EVEN OFFER THEN?

#no bc this particular ‘friend’ actually just makes me so upset #she was going through rough times last week and i kept checking in on her throughout that week #and she never responded to my text #but she did call my friend and i to scheme against her ex #WHILE AIRING ME #i just dont get the need to be so fucking cruel #it isn’t the first time where she OFFERS to do something for me #and i rarely take her up on her offers #but when i do there’s always something #oh and while she was airing me #she was frequently posting on her close friend story #and talking about how she needs to stop having #sweet treats everyday #because shes looking like someone #who has sweet treats everyday #she is unbelievably slim and she does not look #like someone who has a sweet treat everyday #but she knows i have an ED #and she triggered me #peaches chats shit

[caesarinsalata]

I was looking for something to draw and found a body swap au...

#fma #fullmetal alchemist #body swap au #fma au #edward elric #winry rockbell #edwin #my art #freckles #fmab #au #now winry knows how it feels to wear automail #abd maybe even suffer through eds chronic pain as well 🤣 #further doodles of this could be ed being happy he can look down at someone #but also weirded out that hes looking at himself #or maybe ed not wanting to change or ahower because he doesnt wanna see winrys body lol #and winry having to figure out howto work on an automail arm either on her or with just one arm on a desk 🤣 #i was going to leave “winrys” side hair wings as they were #but i wanted to make it very obvious that ed did her hair different than how she does her own #im sure eds weirded out by not having longer bangs than his eyebrows 🤣 #i waa going to put in something about winry complaining about his cowlick and not being able to flip his bangs from side to side #because whenever shed try #theyd just flip back to a middle part

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

One of my favorite things that happened during my last mage Hawke playthrough was during the final battle against Meredith. Everything's going well. We're kicking her ass, she's got just this much health left, we're so close... but then everyone gets stunned dizzy.

Hawke is stumbling around all confused, seeing stars. The rest of his companions are stunned. I'm annoyed because I just want to end this fight. Don't know how or who did it, probably Meredith, but the situation's dire.

Meredith's standing by herself at the center of the Gallows, shouting nonsense and smugly believing the Maker's going to come down and make her his new bride after she murdered a bunch of innocent people.

Truly, this is the part of the story where Varric says they all thought hope was lost, that in the end, Meredith would pull a fast one on us and claim victory...

Until the REAL hero of dragon age 2 comes storming at her. I don't know why Carver was the only one to not be affected, but he literally jumped out of no where and just started bashing Meredith with his sword while everyone else was too dizzy to do anything until she was dead and the cutscene played.

"Hawke defeated Meredith-" LIES, VARRIC. I know the truth! I was there! Hawke didn't do shit! Carver Hawke was the main character all along! He got shit done and Varric gave Hawke all the credit!

I bring this up because last night I finished my warrior Hawke run and when we got to the fight with Meredith, I kind of hoped the same thing would happen where Bethany dashed in all heroic and got the killing blow on Meredith.

She did not.

She got squished by a statue.

But it's fine, Bethany Hawke was the true main character in my heart.

#da2 #dragon age 2 #carver hawke #bethany hawke #da2 hawke #varric tethras #da2 meredith #listen i have so much love for the hawke twins they are the main characters in my heart like yes fine hawke you're there too #but THE TWINS aaaaaaaauughghghghhhhhh #seriously though i'll never forget being annoyed that ed was bumbling around and then watching carver be the only one unaffected #and he's the only one beating meredith and tbh i was cheering him on yes baby brother get her show her how you do it back in fereldan #honestly doesn't it figure though? carver would be the one to deliver the final blow and then be completely overshadowed #because varric has such a hard on for hawke BUT I KNOW THE TRUTH #and it's the same with bethany like this entire run i was so invested in her and i wanted her to set meredith on fire #though this time the fight was actually super easy because i was way more prepared and at a higher level so hawke never got stunned? #i dunno but i wasn't keeping track of bethany during the battle and somehow she did die once... but it's fine she got better #siiiiiigh.... do you know how much i want a playthrough with just the twins? so badly like listen hawke you're neat #but maybe this time you could let the ogre eat you instead? just this once? i love both of my hawkes but the twins?? #hawke twins hawke twins haWKE TWINS HAWKE TWINS #i guess i have to settle for au crafting and fanfic...

[nashvillethotchicken]

Thinking about Lestat seeing Louis’s eating patterns as a waste of his gift/himself while Armand gives Louis food that he literally can not enjoy or digest just so he has something on his stomach

#if i had to give each of louis relationship a theme loustat would be shame and loumand would be enabling #which are both really bad ways of “helping” a partner with an ed #lestats shame and anger tactics only make louis more resentful and less likely to eat #while armand having the little drinks and exotic animals and the human food dont actually deal with louis problem head on- #cus at the end of the day louis is still not eating enough #and i think they really exemplifies both of their trauma and abandonment issues #both of them came up chronically food insecure #lestat was put into the role of provider at a very early age and stayed in that role until he died/was turned #so for him rejecting what lestat gives is like rejecting lestat cus he doesnt have anything else to make him “useful” #and lestats reaction to rejection is anger and control so he tries to shame and control louis into eating more/human #while armand has been abandoned by literally everyone he loves up till this point so for him its like #ok i can make people dtay if i give them what they want and what louis wants is to not feel bad about eating and so armand does that #but it still doesnt get to the root of the issue which is louis having poor coping mechanisms for his grief and other emotions #like either way you slice it. louis is not meeting his nutritional needs. he eats drinks from one guy eats a fox or some other small animal #when he should be having like two dudes at least #and then he has human food which according to anne rice makes vampires vomit up their whole stomach content so... #louis imma send you to my therapist shes great #interview with the vampire #iwtv #louis de pointe du lac #amc iwtv #lestat de lioncourt #ldpdl #iwtv 2022 #armand iwtv #armand #loumand #loustat #like armand gives louis food he cant eat just so he knows theres something in louis stomach even for a short while

[chrysopoeias]

my based and controversial opinion on Ed's relationship with Roy and Riza

I do not like parental Royed. To me, it feels OOC and forced half the time. Like them being overly close and devoted to each other's well being. (The other half of the time it's just borderline romance, but by those who feel bad about the age gap so they make Roy the dad instead of the daddy lol). I think their canon dynamic is fun but in no way do they have a near-familial bond, honestly. These two people barely tolerate each other in the same room. It's Ed's growth as a person, and mainly by speaking to Riza, that Ed gains some sort of respect for Roy. But he still thinks Mustang is an asshole. Sure Roy is on Ed's side in wanting him to succeed, but Roy also would not be caught dead hanging out with that kid after work. I know found family is very popular and everyone loves it, but I just don't think it always fits. Mustang is just Ed's shitty boss during his temporary military career.

I also don't really like Hawkeye being made a mother figure for Ed. He already has Pinako and Izumi fit that role for him. While Ed respects her and goes to her for venting and advice, I don't think he sees her like that. Besides Ed thinks Riza is hot, it would be more likely that he has hormone fueled fantasies about totally being able to seduce her (lmao dream on), than about her being his mother figure. She's just not gonna parent him, she treats him with respect and like a coworker (although with his age and inexperience in mind), compared to some others who do treat him like a stupid child.

#verwijder later #back on my bullshit #i know lots of people do love the found family parental roy trope and to them i say have fun and ignore me! #i have arakawa on my side tho cus she has never drawn ed and mustang hanging out ever lmao

[saturnaous]

finding a distinct lack of weed related things in fma. I got my posts back so in the spirit of 420 I’m offering this doodle from the other day ‼️ go smoke some weed

#fullmetal alchemist #fma #fmab #fma brotherhood #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #alphonse elric #edward elric #elric brothers #lou is an artist #anyways. I think uhhhhh. Mustang smokes weed but cannot do anything for himself. he doesn't have a dealer and can't roll for the life of hi #he has to get hawkeye to get him everything. she also rolls for him #and edward and al. al can roll both joints and blunts and ed can barely roll a joint #he rolls the worst little blunts and gets alphonse to pack bowls for him #he can get weed tho. he's friendly enough with most people to know how to get to a weed person from basically anywhere. al cannot. #ALSO I had this really really REALLY stupid idea of like. hohenheim fucking growing weed based on my own dad. in his study or whatever #I thought it was SOOO funny and they try sneaking in bc they're not allowed and BAM. face full of marijuana. funny as fuck to me #uhhhh. idk. I think I'm funny. #also PSA if you don't know already!!! blunts and joints are different bc of the papers they use. blunts have cigar wraps #and joints use cigarette paper !! they also have different techniques ig. I haven't wrapped a blunt but they're supposed to be more #brute forced and joints use more finesse says my brother the in-house stoner. well the main one at least

[saintbleeding]

i think jon jarchivist should get to have some ability on piano as a treat

#not a Ton (i sorta hc him having eds and i Know from Experience that means piano is tricky) #but i just imagine someone like him would be able to play some chords and flesh out accompaniments by ear #like he knows enough piano to accompany his own singing when he’s a little tipsy and there’s one nearby #maybe his grandmother had one that was more intended as ornamental #a weathered brown upright perhaps #and when she was out and he was old enough to be left alone he began figuring things out #maybe in the books she’d get him there were sometimes music theory books and he learned enough about keys and bass and chord inversions #that he picked up a little bit of skill #and kept practicing #bc us adhd havers can form habits when we’re not Meant to >:3 #and now something something i have an image of him drunkenly at the piano #singing ‘the baffled king composin hallelujah’ #then he tries to get thru the chorus and maybe it’s s3 maybe it’s s4 maybe he starts crying #who knows! jon playing piano mediocrely! ur welcome!

[babisawyer]

Jackie realizing she’s gonna have to take care of shauna and jeff’s ghost baby

#🐇 #yellowjackets #truly it’s so interesting to me how much better this season is than the first that literally never happens for me #the current timeline is finally getting interesting. Jeff is still the best part #love how fast misty took to being a cult that is so her™️ #Jackie liking poppies is interesting to me both in the Jackie is gay camp and also you know the whole thing with wizard oz and her death #the ending was so fucking depressing I need a nap now #like I’m so happy they didn’t eat the baby that would have been so incredibly cheap but glad to finally have answers #like do we think shauna was dreaming or had she temporarily crossed over because like where was Jackie and the French dude #I’d say it would make sense that Lottie could be there somehow #idk it reminded me a lot of Jackie’s death of course so I have many questions #I will say the cop story line is pretty stupid like no fucking way is any of this legal and also let’s kill that creep cop shauna #I will help you girl I will drive the get away car #I was also like wondering awhile ago if Lottie’a camp is near where the plane crash was #and my best friend and I were like no there’s no way and then they tell us it’s in New York so like possibly close to the boarder? #I tried looking up cherry hill but I couldn’t find anything idk it’s probably totally unlikely and they just also happen to be in the woods #I didn’t get a preview for next week is there a preview? idk #my complaint this week is where is Jackie lmfao where is her ghost why wasn’t she in sex ed give me something I’m not ready to move on!!!!

[just-another-obsessed-fangirl]

theories as to where Grace got the cigarette she was smoking after fucking Max's ghost:

she has actually secretly been an active smoker for a long time and always carries a pack with her

she bought a pack of cigarettes when she was on the run from the cops because she was stressed, and figuring that she had already disappointed the Lord by touching herself and lying to the police and dismembering a body, decided that she might as well relieve that stress by taking up smoking

Max died with a pack of cigs and a lighter on him and they stayed with him when he turned ghost and Grace pocketed them from his clothes after they had sex

she just found them in the school or on the ground somewhere after the Lords in Black meeting, and perhaps her mind made the association between sex and cigarettes and that's how she came up with the idea of giving up her chastity to end Max's reign of terror

Grace had immediately thought of giving up her virginity as the sacrifice after the Lords in Black meeting, and the entire time Steph and Pete are running away and tearfully coming to terms with Steph having to kill Pete to stop Max, Grace is running around the school or off to a drug store for cigarettes because she felt having a smoke after was that necessary

#grace chasity #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #seriously where did she get that cigarette ive been wondering abt it a lot #her being a secret smoker doesnt seem very in character to me #but weirdly i feel like it makes the most logical sense? #itd easily explain why she has cigarettes on her and she seemed pretty comfortable with smoking #she wasnt like coughing or anything. like she couldve done it before at least once. #2nd most plausible to me was maybe that it was actually max's?? but idk doesn't seem that much more plausible than some of the other ones #her looking for cigs could explain where she was when the steph/pete stuff was happening but not necessarily explain the other way around #though maybe she did think it was necessary. grace almost definitely didn't have accurate sex ed and was sheltered #maybe thru like the media that she could watch she just believed smoking after was the expected thing #or some church sex ed lesson she had that combined abstinence only and no smoking messages #idk. it's 4 am. i dont know what im doing. #my posts

[shittywriterbrain]

#she liked it though #theres something about watching a show you love and have rewatched many times and have read and posted about so much #with someone whos watching it for the first time #this is something minor but in ep 10 when ed says theyll have a talent show i was like LOOK AT FANG HE MAKES A HILARIOUS FACE #(which he does please go watch it if you dont know what i mean i lost my shit like five times friday at 1 am rewatching those 5 seconds) #while she was still like oh theyre having a talent show how nice! #which was probably my reaction the first time as well #i didnt have to deal with her watching the ending for the first time because last year i already told her everything about this show #so she knew how it ended. idk how i wouldve dealt with that otherwise #our flag means death #ofmd

[thelaurenshippen]

we need more names for men in stories. as a tumblr user in certain fandoms the steve/stede, ed/eddie, buck/bucky of it all is really getting to be too much, you're always one typo away from being in a completely different universe

#have I made this post before? #perhaps #I am just copy pasting a tweet of mine from 9 months ago lol #bc cherokee and I were talking about this today in recording DD #and I brought this up and she waas like HOW is there not a tumblr post about this!! #and I was like I made one! #except then I remembered that I deffinitely tweeted it in the time when I used to tweet #so here it is #we need to talk about this #we need more names for men!!!!!! #unfortunately I love the name buck/bucky/buckley so I probably will name a character that at some point #but steve and eddie I think I can stay away from #I think...? #have I named a character either of those names? #they're solid names #but they belong to those guys you know? #we have reached capacity!!!!!!! #steve/eddie AND stede/ed AND eddie/buck AND steve/bucky #what are we DOING #lauren feels things

[brittie-frog]

In case it was dubious to anyone whether Em was talking as an admin or the character being ace on Wednesday she's confirmed it's the character (as well(?)) With BBH today and is on QSMP updates. Both convos weren't in brackets and started with her referring to the person as their family title (mamae and uncle bad) and she 'baked' the cake in game. We know they're role-playing children but there are no canonical ages and we don't know how long the three were on egg island so it's not weird that she knows she's ace, she's not a baby.

#i dont know whether its just my british education #but she could be like 8 and would understand how she knows #but im 19 and have a warped perception of childhood so dont see much of a difference between 10 and 6 #you can tell i have no younger siblings or interacted with a child in ages #(did sex ed at 10 and realised i was ace at 12 when i found out i didnt have to be straight and could have figured out earlier if i knew) #qsmp empanada #qsmp #i love my ace autistic egg

[tyranitarkisser]

Nurse Mituna?! Do you trust her....

#homestuck #mituna captor #transfem mituna #ok imagine an earth C AU and all the dancestors are there and everything is great and mituna is transgender and a nurse but of course #still a gamer and a skater and shes doing her best #she skates home after work every day #actually she would probably work the night shift i think she would thrive in that sort of environment #everyone is like youre fucking insane and shes like 1 KN40W #H3H3H3H3H3 #i wonder if hospitals on earth C would be like. separated by trolls/humans? #that might be a lot for the doctors and nurses to memorize if theyre looking at caring for two entirely different species. #like maybe you can pick your specialty like a human who is a troll surgeon or a troll who is a human NP #God thats so amusing to me. actually #Maybe some hospitals are co-ed in more sparsely populated areas to save funds but in cities you can afford to have different facilities #anyway mituna loves the craziness shes being pulled in all directions and getting hit and yelled at but shes dealt with cronus for an etern #ty so its nothing new to her #bossy highbloods.. she knows not to take their vitriol personally. they are trolls just like everyone else #luckily she enjoys being needed and constantly on her feet #and when things slow down she likes to entertain her patients!

[mwagneto]

the fact that almost every character in ofmd is specifically a gay man is seriously so fucking special like usually a show will have 1 character from a minority group and then that character has to be every single thing - a person the straight/homophobic audience can accept and even like, someone that deals with their issues the way they "should" be dealt with, someone who's not too much of anything but simultaneously everything because every expected trait has to be displayed at some point or another.... versus this show with its massive cast of characters who are all able to embody specific (and extremely varying) ways to be a gay man where all of their journeys and personalities and approaches to their sexualities are so unique to them but so true to people that exist in real life........ i wish i could express this better coz it's such an incredible thing to see it genuinely makes my chest hurt with how much it means to me

#I'm literally forever thinking about that interview lauren faust gave abt how cartoons will #usually only have 1 girl and then that 1 girl has to be every single thing #like she has to be smart and kind and athletic and loud and pretty and cool and funny and every other trait ever #so when she got to make MLP she finally got a chance to have an all girl main cast and that #gave her the chance to make them really feel like unique people because they finally #had the space to just exist as girls without having to be The Girl. so they could have like. specific personalities #LIKE IT'S LITERALLY THAT BUT W GAY MEN IT MAKES ME SO ILL...... IM GATHERING ALL OF THEM IN MY ARMSSS #i really really wish i could explain this better #like omg when izzy is telling lucius how to deal w his issues they're both gay. when ed is reminiscing w fang they're both gay. #literally clawing at the walls they all mean so much to meeeeeeeee #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd meta #i guess ???????? #also YES i know there's characters that arent gay men but that's kinda part of my point too #like even in media where there's more than 1 token lgbt person they're always #different identities coz the writer needs 2 different things to explore #instead of exploring how 2 people with the same identity might differ in a thousand little ways #and they also always lose that sense of belonging together that's so essential here #like ohhhmy gof oh mygod they're literally all gay in some way. massive found family of gay ppl.... #it's just that i think this show is mostly abt exploring themes of masculinity and mlm so most of the cast being gay men makes cents

[unopenablebox]

unfortunately those Cutting and Deep h3ather havril3sky ask polly "here's why you're lonely/here's the empathy failure holding you back" excerpts everyone loves to post

are just permanently recontextualized for me by her series of op-eds about how everyone in her family is an incomprehensible one-dimensional pod beast with completely unlovable preferences for things like "starbucks drinks" and "conversations about their lives", which she tolerates, with enormous difficulty, only through a sense of duty and a bunch of rationalizations about how actually it makes her sexier and cooler that she's willing to endure it

#like. i don't actually know enough about the typical content of one of her Actually You're Failing To Do This Empathetic Basic Mental Action #And That's Why You Have No Friends In Your Thirties and/or Are Constantly Beating Yourself Up For Things columns #because i'm a little generically allergic to that kind of thing #but the excerpts seemed pretty reasonable? sensible people i respect like them? the written content was always the kind of thing that seems #like something a reasonable person might form as a generalized observation based on their social experiences? #but uh. she DOES have an op ed about how listening to her husband tell her about the walk he went on is an experience she only gets through #by imagining that tolerating it makes her beautiful and feminine by contrast to his grizzled broken-down Man Nature #so i. feel like that should have some ramifications for her likely ability to do social modeling and give actually good advice #box opener

[shitouttabuck]

my mother is like i don’t care if you have a healthy relationship with food and your body i will still do my darnedest best to try and give you an eating disorder by commenting on your food intake when you do eat but also commenting on your food intake when you DONT eat because oops you are so anxious to eat in front of your parents now you simply lose your appetite when you have to have a meal with them

#ed cw #this is. ridiculous i don’t know what her problem is #actually i do it’s that she is and always has been this petite woman and i have always been big and unlike her in every way physically #and the trans thing has only made it worse w her #i feel insane sometimes like i Need to move out so badly #n #to be clear: i have a very healthy relationship with food and even my body since top surgery. it’s just that she keeps commenting on both #in a negative way. and man even the healthiest mindset and knowing she is wrong objectively doesn’t mean it doesn’t feel like shit