#but she always answers eventually

[theabigailthorn]

yesterday I was panicking because the next video seemed way too big and impossible to finish on time, and today I've written five pages of the first draft and I've got that "Ooooh it's cooking!" feeling. Gotta trust that the Little Spirit who comes up with all my creative ideas has my back

#the Little Spirit lives in the woods in a tiny door in a tree #in my imagination she looks like a tiny wizened old lady a few inches tall #I knock at the door very gently and if she has some creative thoughts she will answer #sometimes I have to listen very carefully because she whispers faintly #sometimes she doesn't answer the door rightaway and I am afraid #but she always answers eventually #sometimes she answers rightaway with bags and bags of ideas! #i'm on some Hayao Miyazaki shit

[nozomijoestar]

Asuka is a tragic figure, a figure of mystery, a wild card, all because the only thing she wants in life is peace and quiet for herself and to feel in control- yet her secret heritage that may be hidden from her for her own protection and the reality that life is unpredictable and will go on with or without you keep ruining that delusion, that vision of how the world is meant to work to her, and she suffers regardless of what she wants, what she does, and how little she understands anything

She was born into a family preaching peace and balance and order while being a creature of violence, and puts a dozen mental locks and excuses over this truth to justify giving into her impulse for fighting by pretending she's justice when she does it

She keeps trying to build a place of safety but she's using sand and life is a wave that destroys, yet she stubbornly persists rather than give up, not drowned to the point of self centered suicidal loathing like Jin- there's contrast, where Jin is cloaked in death Asuka stubbornly clings to life and humanity as a normal person in a terrifying world

She's not a fucking narrative clone for Jun's own purpose, Asuka's purpose must be determined by Asuka herself

#tekken #Jin is born of two worlds Jun walks between two worlds Asuka is at the crossroads of two worlds #Jin is broken by it Jun traded part of her humanity to reconcile it and now Asuka has to accept it yet persist- she is always persisting #that's her strength that no matter what she's always still herself #'For being so very Y o u' as Lili told her bc she sees it #she's an interesting character BECAUSE she's not Jun and she's not Jin and she's not aligned with them entirely #stop waiting for her to be something she's not #also i think it's GOOD she doesn't know everything or everyone in her family bc that builds mystery and suspense #it gives everything a tension in the background for when the normalcy charade will be broken by the bigger family drama catching up w her #what's happening to the Mishimas should be something no one is dragged into yet the one family member who's the least connected #is going to run out of time at some point and get hit by that trauma anyway and she doesn't even Know it's coming for her eventually #isn't it fucked up. how everything catches up with you in the end #and you won't even understand it until it's too late ie. her involvement in T8 global war now #also a character that wants peace and order but actively pursues violence ensuring she will never truly have those things bc of her nature #AND she's already been traumatized by T5 Feng and T6 Jin that just makes her retreat to seeking comfort in detachment- in the familiar #which only prolongs her avoiding the world outside what she can control- and then Lili won't let her live in ignorance not to punish her #but bc she wants to help her bc the Mishimas have already put their claws in Lili- they won't catch Asuka off guard #what is it with people sanitizing the messiness and humanity characters represent in favor of 'If they just acted logically the way I want #then they'd solve the entire story 1 2 3 and we'll have everything wrapped up easy' THAT'S NOT A STORY THAT'S A MATH EQUATION #FEEL SOMETHING INSTEAD OF ALWAYS NEEDING TO SOUND SMART AND HAVE PERFECT ANSWERS YOU STUPID FUCKS #IN TRYING TO MAKE EVERYTHING HAVE A PERFECT SOLUTION YOU'VE LOST SIGHT OF WHAT'S IN THE TEXT #AND ALSO ASUKA BEING VIOLENT BUT STILL CARING ABOUT PEOPLE AND DOING GOOD DESPITE IT #and AsuLili is about two similar people who've been traumatized finding safety in each other once they put down the trauma responses #this is all in line with T8's tagline of Face Your Fate btw this is literally what was always coming finding you & you face it

[justladders]

Just read the tags on your previous ask

All I have to say is this is tumblr go crazy go stupid if your friend only sees in black and white that's not your problem

-🐈

To be fair, they're actually a pretty reasonable person. In reality, I don't think they'd take it like how I'm worried they might.

We're just in this friend group, all of us in it also happen to like fnaf, but the rest of them don't care for that side of the fandom. And this group hangs out a lot bc we have dnd like 3 times a week and we're pretty good friends and talk about shit all the time. AND IF THEY FOUND OUT I REALLY DONT THINK IT WOULD ACTUALLY BE THAT BAD BC THEYRE ALL ACTUALLY REALLY REASONABLE PEOPLE ITS JUST

AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST TELL THEM OUTRIGHT? DO I WAIT FOR THEM TO RANDOMLY SEE IT SOMEWHERE?

#the problem with posting art online is it always ends up being reposted/taken by other people so i know it could eventually make its- #way to them out of nowhere in some other place and then what are they just gonna awkwardly confront me about it? `~` #answered ask #cat anon ask #justtalks #one of the people in that friend group has kinda implied that she already knows??? i couldnt tell for sure if thats exactly what she- #meant but i cant just ask her if thats what she meant?????

[aerithisms]

i still have so many questions about the ff7 remake story. why did aerith even have knowledge of the future in remake to begin with? from a watsonion perspective, why does she lose that knowledge after the end of remake when sephiroth doesn't? (i'm fully aware the doylist reason is that having a character who knows the future would totally break the plot but i'm still curious if there's more to what they were doing with aerith's remake character or if this is it). what was her motivation to encourage the party to fight the whispers in the original game when she knew the party would defeat sephiroth in the end if events followed fate? was it simply that she wanted the chance to live? because that makes me want to lie down and cry!!!!

#blahs #ff7 #rebirth spoilers #sephiroth's whole “so must you” line to aerith about accepting her fate seems to imply he's saying she was resisting it #and that the aerith we see in cloud's dream reality is the aerith from remake with all her knowledge of the future #and her pushing cloud out of the dream is her accepting her death? #which makes me want to die!!!!! #it also seems implied by sephiroth that remake!aerith went and hid away in the alternate reality as a way to run from her fate?? #idk i might have to go back and watch things again #but if so perhaps that answers my question about why aerith loses her future knowledge #i do dig it a lot bc i have always been a staunch Aerith Wanted To Live Believer #i dislike the interpretation that in og ff7 she knew she would die and it was a noble sacrifice. i think that diminishes the tragedy #so the idea that she actively resisted it when given the chance even if she eventually had to accept the reality of death makes me very !!! #like it breaks my heart but it's in line with my interpretation of her character #anyway. i'm vomiting all this to my tumblr audience of People Who Don't Care About FF7 bc my bestie's asleep so i can't talk to her about i #tumblrinas please play ff7 i promise it's so good it's some of my favourite character writing in a game ever for real

[avisisisis]

Love how we all thought Pavitr would end up getting traumatized or killed from his “Being Spider-Man is so easy!” line but then it turns out that his entire plot is about NOT having any Spider-Man related trauma

#they didn't say anything abt non-spider-man related trauma tho #listen. i love him okay. but i just need my favorite characters to suffer JUST A LITTLE BIT #he just needs a slightly terrible backstory... #i love how his canon event was stopped bc miles helped him #shows how being alone isn't the only answer #i had a dream where he had THE best luck when he was with other spider-men/women #but whenever he was alone he'd fall into a dumpster of bad luck #and the reason why he was so happy all the time is bc of the good luck they gave him #and he was always trying to prove how terrible his luck was but couldn't #it was like when you told your mom you couldn't find something #and she told you to look for it better like 5 times #and eventually she went to get it herself and found it on the first try #it was so funny #i always get the best plots from dreams. it sucks bc i can never write em #but eh #i'll survive #probably #pavitr prabhakar #spider-man #spiderman #atsv #across the spiderverse #spider man india

[journey-to-the-attic]

i just thought of this but what would ik & the rad newspaper club’s pfps be like on devilgram or in the chats? :0

good question!!

ik: honestly you'd be lucky if she even changed it from the default one. perhaps a blurry photo of alatus, or a bad selfie mammon took and set as her pfp as a joke, which ik didn't notice and just left there forever

mephisto: most recently it has been a selfie taken between two mirrors so there's a cool illusion effect, but in past it has generally been EXTREME close-ups on various parts of his face (and not in a cool/aesthetic way)

astaroth: a photo he took of his favourite constellation, and it's been his pfp ever since he made his account

wiz: changes it often - usually either a very nice picture of herself (taken by alecto), or of her latest experimental concoctions and devices. occasionally it will change to an explosion to reflect how said experiments have turned out

alecto: for a while it was a very cool picture wiz took of her right after winning a boxing match. however lately she's begun cycling through various images in this genre:

#answering asks #anon asks #before the boxing picture alecto also used to match pfps with wiz #but she loved that boxing picture so much she just kept it for ages #not least because wiz often reminds her that she is very hot in it #also i feel the need to say that every time wiz posts a picture (whether with herself in it or not) #alecto always comments like a hundred flame emojis #she does this for astaroth and mephisto too but for them the emoji count usually stays below fifty #astaroth never uses his account but occasionally he'll pop up and like a comment making fun of mephisto #i could see him changing his pfp to match with belphie eventually #it'd be one of those cheesy ones where they're each forming half of a heart with their hand or something #both of them insist it wasn't their idea. you get to pick who's lying #wizlecto #belpheroth #newspaper club

[the-lady-amphitrite]

Okay, tell me about As Long As You Love Me. Does it have anything to do with the Backstreet Boys song? Is Loki a Backstreet Boy? I need to know.

send me an ask with a WIP title and i'll talk about it!

okay so, fun fact, i don't know music pretty much At All so i had no idea that Backstreet Boys had a song with this title?? upon listening to it though i do actually know the song. i have not heard it in years though, but i'm screeching from how well it fits the story so it's been added to the playlist for this fic 😂

AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME is actually not (directly) about Loki! it's another fic in Of Fire and Of Ice, but this one serves as a prequel to the whole series. here's the short working summary for the fic because i haven't cared to write down an actual summary for it yet.

Take a journey to discover the truth behind the story of Laufey Borsdóttir’s abduction by Jǫtunheimr, and of a life cut short because of love.

i changed a bunch of stuff in Marvel's norse lore back to fit more closely with its mythology counterparts for this AU. this included changing Loki's parentage back to its mythology version, so Laufey is his mother and Fárbauti is his father.

while i was concepting OFAOI, i just kinda got stuck often on the bit of history right before the story takes place. it always felt important to me when i was doing the first couple of drafts for the series. ruminating and working out the details of it while working on the end of the series (because there's some pre-story history stuff that comes up in the final fic that's important but not really relevant until that point) kinda snowballed into writing this fic.

it's a story about a girl who falls in love. Laufey sees Fárbauti the first time they meet when Fárbauti and his father come to Asgard during Bor's reign, and she just... kind of knows without realising that he'll be important to her.

Laufey looks down into the eyes of the Frost Giant prince, and holds his steady red gaze. Her father and brothers have always called them red as blood, but she finds she doesn’t agree. They are red — a vibrant bright red, yes— but they remind her of the red you see at sunrise. The red that brings with it the promise of a new day. And with every new day there comes new chances. New opportunities. Hope. Laufey realises she likes the prince’s sunrise-red eyes much more than the blood-red she had been expecting.

it's also a story about Laufey choosing her own path, even when the people who love her tell her it's the wrong one. it's a story about betrayal from people she thought would never harm her just because they want to protect a legacy. it's a story about Laufey fighting for what she wants, not what everyone thinks she should.

ultimately though, it's a tragedy. from the get-go of writing this fic, i knew without a shadow of a doubt that Laufey would die in the end. i didn't really have a solid idea of how, or why, or when, but i knew that she would.

I NEARLY FORGOT ALSO BUT i was looking at the planning and reading the tags i wrote for it and. i literally wrote "Soulmates, but without any lore connection to the rest of the lore for this series" and if that's not the funniest but also most genuine way i was writing this fic. they're soulmates, but theyre not the magically bound soulmates of the AU. i'm laughing and i'm crying.

#amphi answers #cleo fox #of fire and of ice #tales lost in time #as long as you love me #this fic always makes me sad LAKSDJF;LKASJDGF #i don't regret starting this fic or the fact i'll post it eventually #but it's super depressing to write all the happy and sweet stuff in it and know she's dying in the end

[araneitela]

Words however didn't need to be driven in any capacity to mark this point. Caelus is someone who lives within choice, where indecision stays one of his great foes. In this case however, there was never any question to be gleaned. For once golden currents fell into her violet depths, he found himself immersed as one of those broad hands reached forth in order to cup her cheek. ..Well, one word found itself fitting. "Kafka." His decision, his resolve, it's exactly what led to his thumb drawing a careful curve along the apple of her cheek, savoring this softness as he'd close the distance between them entirely. Once rendered to a moot point, he'd mesh the warmth of his lips directly against her's. Softness was forsaken for firmness, letting the raw vigor of his emotions both answer and embrace the boundless delight of kissing her. Another arm always remained attentive, carefully wrapping itself around the small of her back in order to keep her pressed flush against him.

Prompt: Unprompted. // @astrxlfinale

This one had never needed to be coaxed. No, he had drawn and wrapped himself within this web that encircled her wholly of an own accord and behest, time, and time again. And an indulgence, would prove that she would never much mind. Not in their past, present, nor their future. "Mm?" It tickled, this human oddity felt under the caress of skin to skin, and were she any other woman, perhaps her lips would tug into a smile before he'd manage to claim, she knew, what he had craved and sought. It was funny, how one's memory worked, how even separation in more than merely space, but time, too; would prove that her skin had always remembered every trace of his fingers from too long a time ago. Perhaps, there were moments such as now, where the question arose for the briefest sliver in time, as to how, but such curiosities could not survive where there was no space for them to claim as much of a whisper of existence.

Fingers of her own rested to his chin when all distance perished between them, all of it lost to the warmth of his lips, and foregone entirely to a silent symphony of shared breaths. There would be no hitch to ever trouble the sigh that came from her then, for that was simply it, she felt only relief. Their meetings had been no more than woefully inconsistent of late, and far too few, but perhaps, that was exactly what made them what they were: beautiful, as all rare things were. Destined, some might claim them to be, they were as fleeting as the stars in a galaxy that held their paths tightly lodged within its grasp, shimmering in an intensity borne of anticipation. Perhaps there, at that, he would feel the tug to her lips beneath his own— anticipation had always run so very deeply within his veins in ways so unparalleled, a reality in which she found certain delight. And so for some time, here, she'd exist within the embrace into which he'd tugged her and she knew he would again, fingers descending to the top hem of his shirt for no other purpose than that of their repose, further made evident from the subtle hook of two fingers to it. And though as she had surrendered, fervently and effortlessly, to his draw of her into him, yielding to a kiss that she, too, had craved in his absence; he would soon find himself caught in the inevitable, that which always hovered much too near, web of those games and teases of hers. Her chin would dip to sever her from him, and his lips would find the replacement of her own soon thereafter: two fingers of her other hand held ever so lightly against him. "You are greedy."

#[ ic. ] like a spider in the center of her web. it has a thousand radiations; and she knows well every quiver of each of them. #[ answered: ic. ] long time no see; astral express crew. i'd like you to make a... destination alteration. #astrxlfinale #[ caelus: astrxlfinale. ] everything that you love: you will eventually lose. but in the end; love will return in a different form. #[ it shouldn't have taken me this long to respond to this; please forgive me. ] #[ i'm also experiencing a bit of a dry/rusty spell still. so please bear with! <3 ] #[ also hi hello; you have a tag. look at you. ] #[ also i'm normal about them as always. 😭 ]

[shadowglens]

i've never really considered fran's relationship with isabela, but they've quickly become very close friends in this playthrough and it's making me 🤔

#oc tag #ch: frances hawke #like at face value they're kinda similar or at least align #and fran's charm pairs really well with bela's #despite the secrets bela is clearly keeping i think fran finds a sort of comfort in her company #because at least bela's predictable? like if you expect someone to cut and run it doesn't hurt as much when it eventually happens? #bela coming back is .... a Different sort of feeling #and in the end even if bela is infuriated with fran's decision to kill anders and side with the templars i think she also understands #a decision born of circumstance and ambition etc etc #it was an impossible choice and even if they clash on their opinion of the circle and mages i think bela at least respects fran #and knows she'll still at least Make the tough decisions #even if bela doesn't like her answer at least fran's not sitting around twiddling her thumbs #and selfishly bela knows that fran will always have her back when it comes to her own dealings (unrelated to the mages) #it also doesn't hurt to be close friends with the viscountess of a leading marcher city state 🤷‍♀️ #years later rumours fly that the viscountess (and fenris) were smuggled from kirkwall by a certain ship captain in the dead of night #following the templars overthrowing frances' rule #but no one ever confirms the suspicions #info dump over i just have a lot of feelings about frances and isabela okay

[misspickman]

cassierose for the ship ask game !!

Ship It

What made you ship it? i liked them in tt03, which you know, is truly a feat considering how terribly that comic treats both of them. but their dynamic (angry homoeroticism) managed to be compelling still

What are your favorite things about the ship? i enjoy girl antagonism from time to time. i know were all sick of the trope that teen girls all hate each others guts but considering cassie has a pretty good relationship with all the other girls on her team(s) its fun to see her just go ugh i hate this one. this one can go. theyre just fun and bitchy and i think they should hatefuck about it. but beside that theres also so much potential there ! i think you know, if anyone writing that comic actually cared about cassie or rose or about their character development, it would have been interesting to see their relationship change over time instead of getting one issue where cassie implicitly calls rose family while protecting her, and then the next one she immediately she calls her a manipulative psychopath for no good reason bc they cant figure out how to make the team interesting without having some wildly antagonistic relationship that doesnt make sense if u think about it for a few seconds. theyre never going to be besties but it would have been nice to see them go from blind hate to an uneasy truce; they dont like each other but they do, unfortunately, care about each other, and lets see where we go from that. + itd be interesting to dig into cassies hypocrisy when it comes to hating rose

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship? i guess its that i would like them to grow past mindlessly despising each other ? this is not me criticizing anyone but i feel like a lot of takes on cassierose ive seen are that they should stay in the hatefucking no mushy business❌❌❌phase which is definitely fair and true to how they are in tt03. but i do have some issues with the way they were written in tt03 (particularly cassie) and would like to see their dynamic progress from that (see rant above)

#i guess the reason im personally more interested in them sort of working through it is bc cassie doesnt have. a good reason for hating rose #i dont think its ooc but a lot of it Is supposed to be bc shes either jealous of her bc of tim (??)or thinks rose sucks bc she killed peopl #which is. she was drugged and manipulated and i think most teen titans in the superhero business should be able to handle #that sort of a not black and white situation #and idk. be more understanding. i know rose isnt super nice but maybe calling her a manipulative bitch constantly isnt the way to go #theres fun antagonism and theres cassie being just needlessly awful to her (that convo she and tim have about rose) #and i do think theyll always be bitchy to each other but i would like to imagine cassie is more considerate than this #and would eventually recognize she was occasionally just being shitty ! it would make for an interesting story ! alas #i think cassierose going from hating each others guts as teens to adult coworkers who dont really hate each other anymore #bc theyve been through so much shit together #but need to keep up the appearances of hating each other bc god forbid they admit to being kind of friends. that would be fun. to me<3 #ask #thank you. so sorry this got so long #youve given me an excuse to rant about cassierose so this is what u get<3 #sorry that the question was what i like about the ship and i just bitched about how it could be better #i guess the answer is im intrigued by the potential. also i love lesbians

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

they're in love your honor

#i hadn't thought of Peri as the domestic type but you know what? after the past few years he's had he probably does settle down a bit #he gets tired of Doing Things yknow? #and baldur's gate's harpers probably werent the only ones targeted by the cult so he would have plenty of rebuilding to do in waterdeep #went from having the Trauma Zoomies to refusing to travel anywhere further than a tenday away in the span of three years #he probably starts wandering again after a bit though #sometimes convincing Gale to come with him sometimes not #he gets Gale to come with him to Eberron one (1) time #in my head (because i can do what i want) the whole 'wizards live a long-ass time sometimes' thing happens to both of them #(peri's. less pleased about this than gale is when they figure out what's going on) #so they've got plenty of time to get into trouble #also idk if the age extension thing is meant to always be a thing wizards do on-purpose but in my mind it's not always #sometimes the weave just Decides and there's not much you can do about it #(mystra is also upset that her ex and her ex-champion who's VERY loud about her being an asshole are sticking around somehow) #(she might be intrinsically tied to the weave but 1. it's a phenomena all on its own and 2. there are other deities of magic in faerun) #(she may be in charge so killing her messes shit up but it doesn't make sense that she's. like. the only conduit? if that makes sense?) #(so her being around makes the weave accessible to mortals but someone would eventually take her place if she died like she did with Mystral #(and the weave is intrinsic to faerun so it will always regenerate when lost. because how are you supposed to create a new god... #(...of arcane magic if the weave is completely destroyed?) #(i'm fully talking out of my ass btw) #(idk what the official wotc answer to this is and i dont care. weave is like a force of nature and cannot be fully controlled b/c I Said So) #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #bg3 tav #peregrine faulkner #gale x tav #bg3 fanart #my art #wizbands

[theygender]

My gf and I have talked about hypothetically opening up our relationship at some point in the future which would make me very happy as a polyamorous person, but I just realized that if that actually happens and I have to go back out on the dating scene I'm gonna have some trouble bc now that I'm more outwardly butch people are gonna expect me to make the first move and I have never made a first move in my entire life

In all of my relationships but two the first move was made by the other person, and I wasn't even the person who made the first move in the other two. In the first one the girl chickened out on her plans to ask me out and then our mutual friend who didn't realize that that had happened outed her by asking me what I said afterwards, and in the second one me and the other person both went to the same friend on the same day to talk about our crushes on each other and then she made us talk about our feelings

I met my current girlfriend on a dating app, and the first time she tried to ask me on a date she wanted to take me to the theater so she asked me if I had seen the new beauty & the beast movie and then instead of realizing that she was asking me on a date I said that I'd already seen it and gave her a negative review of the movie. And then when she asked me on a date again a few weeks later I had to ask to make sure it was a date when I got there 😭

...And that reminds me of another event in high school where a girl I liked took me to the mall and we walked around holding hands the entire time and then afterwards I had to get one of our mutual friends to ask her if it was supposed to be a date bc I was too nervous and also stupid 😭 Another girl that year asked me to skip class with her and told me that if I flashed my pretty smile at the teacher I could probably get away with it and I had to show the text to my friend to ask if she was flirting. I'm gonna die out there on my own 😭

#rambling #the friend i showed the message to was the same one i made ask the other girl if it was a date #and he didnt even answer he just raised his eyebrow and stared at me like 'really?' #god im just. remembering how stupid i was in high school now #there were two other crushes that i had who may have potentially liked me back and i may have even been told that by multiple people #but i was so deep in my self hatred and also stupid that i didnt think it was possible for them or anyone else to like me 😭 #they both were friends of mine and they eventually stopped talking to me completely and i couldnt figure out why #and now i hope its not bc they they thought i was leading them on. bc i wasnt. i was just a massive idiot #you have to explicitly tell me that youre interested in me or want to go on a date or whatever or im not gonna get it #and tbh. that didnt even always work #my first major crush in high school was on a girl who told me directly multiple times that she was into me #but i was even DEEPER in my self hatred at that time #(and also only just figuring out how social interaction worked bc she was helping my autistic ass learn) #so i just. assumed it was a joke. bc no one could have possibly been interested in me and definitely not such an amazing person #i guess at least i have a scrap of self confidence now and im brave enough to ask for clarification now #and if i specifically ask someone on a date at least i would know for sure its a date? #and it could either be lame or cute but i could ask for permission to kiss them. it worked for my gf #i cant interpret signals for shit 😭 #i dont even have a valid reason to be thinking about this right now lol its not like i have permission to date anyone else romantically yet #but ive been watching clone high with my gf and abe keeps misinterpreting joan directly saying that she wants him in increasingly dumb ways #and i just keep cringing bc i realized that that was me ahdjsksl.... #only difference is in my case it was never bc i was ignoring them for someone else. it was ALWAYS bc i was an idiot #literally i would be there pining for them and every attempt they made would go right over my head #you have to be morosexual and very persistent to date me 😭 or tell a mutual friend whos very persistent ig lol #i know we are All useless lesbians but i think i deserve a medal or smth #ill hang it on my corkboard next to the souvenir that one of my crushes who i didnt think liked me back got for me in high school #which was a plastic license plate that said 'babygirl' on it bc that was her nickname for me 😅 #god i really hope people didnt think i was leading them on. imagine someone thinking im a player flirting with a bunch of different girls #without ever making things official. when really if i found out for certain any of them were interested in me i would have died of shock 😭 #and if we WERE in fact flirting i wouldnt have realized it. i was just SO scared and SO stupid 😭😭😭

[miqojak]

🌲 How deeply does your OC feel? Are they typically empathetic or do they have a hard time connecting with others in this way? What are they like when offering support and comfort to someone they care for?

(A sneaky lil answer to something you sent me ages ago, because I went to reset my housing timer, and realized how much I miss Jak...) Jak is... not an empathetic person - which has been difficult to approach, as someone who is OOCly! She just doesn't really resonate with what others are feeling - and in a couple of instances, it's made things awkward! She tried to sympathize with a friend and comfort them some when they thought their partner died, but she just felt like she was getting it wrong the whole time. It's the effort that counts, right? (Showing any sort of care usually involves 'actions' of some kind. Like a cat leaving you a dead bird... she shows she cares by doing something. Not necessarily something entirely logical.) Jak does feel things deeply - and these days, she just doesn't really know what to do with the way she is made to feel, for the most part (mostly she channels it into anger). It's a bit daunting not to understand what feelings are... 'appropriate' or 'normal? How do others feel about this thing/situation? What does she call this emotion, or that one? If you've ever watched Lucifer, then Maze is a great example! She's effectively emotionally on the same level as a child, initially, being a demon who has never really had cause to have many emotions not associated with torture or sex - and has to learn how to interact with others in ways that are socially acceptable - and the people around her have to adapt to her oddities and realize that she won't ever be just like them, even after learning how to process and express her emotions in more constructive ways. Jak... is a lot like that. She rolled her eyes at simple niceties like 'thank you' and 'please', back in 2019. These days she can hold a polite conversation all the way through, if she truly wants to... she understands how to navigate them better, now... mostly. She can camouflage herself well enough, but rarely cares for truly polite conversation. Hard truths will always be what she prefers - she, a lot like Maze, likes to make people squirm.

#thanks for asking! #miqo'te #ffxiv rp #xiv rp #seeker of the sun #I always answer things eventually >_> #she's a bit emotionally stunted #but she puts in the effort to try if she cares about the person #she's not good at empathy - but still doesn't like to see anyone she cares for made to be sad/upset

[rcdiostcrs]

you know what, i don't wanna do formal intro posts (i will…… eventually). meet the new pjo kids. like this & i'll come to your dms for plots. click their name to be redirected to their pinterest board for a vibe check.

ceader oliver simmons.

son of cupid. 26 y/o. retired legionnaire, finished his tenure four years ago. name was misspelled on the birth certificate. homeschooled since birth by a crunchy mom. now a silky bitch. anger issues of a mars kid.

cyrene kelsey kamel.

daughter of khonshu's avatar. 22 y/o. legionnaire in her fifth year of service. college athlete: hockey player at iowa univeristy. died at 6 y/o but was brought back by thanatos & osiris. also has the anger issues of a mars kid.

garnett noëlle alaska.

daughter of skadi. 22 y/o. legionnaire in her second year of service. college athlete: figure skater at iowa univeristy. immune to the cold. super sweet & super lazy. shortens her middle name to masculine spelling.

spencer stetson sanders.

son of athena. 25 y/o. goes by his middle name. montanan cowboy. former chess champion. co-parent to a 6 y/o named savvy w/ his ex-gf. need a conversation starter, mention his daughter.

#*ceader #*cyrene #*noël #*stetson #// #but hayden how is cyrene a demigod?? kane chronicles never mentions egyptian demigods!! #my answer is she's kinda not??? she's the daughter of his avatar that just so happened to inherit some divine moon powers. she's mortal. #don't think about it too much bc it as been YEARS since i read kane chronicles #but hayden x2!! why are an egyptian not-demi & a norse demigod legionnaires?? #my answer: go w/ it. i do have some actual reasoning but [presses finger to your lips] shhhhhh. #ceader 🤝 cyrene: throwing hands for no reason #cyrene & noel are roomies btw. their backstories are tied super closely. #aaron 🤝 stetson: getting the person they love preggo as a teenager #(though who did it work out better for? arguments could be made for either: stetson&penelope may have broken up but they've co-parented the #whole time. their daughter has always known both her parents. meanwhile aaron&milo eventually got married it took quite a while to get ther #aaron didn't even know he had a kid until dalton was double digits so...) #reminder that tho ceader's super sexually charged i don't write full-on smut!! #goodness if you read all these tags...... idk. you get a cookie? i got gluten-free white choc chip ones in the fridge. you can have one. #anyways night night. i'll post a starter call in the morning

[stonersolana]

when you explain that you're looking for compassion and believing in the best in each other in a relationship and that you felt it was inappropriate to bring up how someone else's issues (they are unrelated to the problem) were worse and more valid than yours and that you have no right to be upset because you're the villain for things that they misunderstood you doing or just did themselves and blamed you for. they also accuse you of being codependent with your needs. so you try to repeat yourself on your expectations and boundaries in friendships (i will accept no less than someone at least putting in the effort or having the desire to have a healthy friendship) and that there was so much she did that i never asked for nor wanted but i accepted it because i didn't want to seem ungrateful so whatever codependency she felt we had must have been one sided because i explicitly remembered that i never made her responsible for my mental well-being, i did not actually like that she treated me like a child and i had been complaining about that for years in our friendship especially near the end of it. i was an adult and didn't appreciate being treated like a child. but i went along with it because i was willing to let her get away with it if that's what she felt she needed from our friendship. so i sent her a basic infographic about healthy relationships and how they work and noted that the things i had asked for were just basic healthy relationship things and that i have never at any point in our friendship wanted her to take care of me. i wanted us to be equals. she told me that she wasn't willing to put in that amount of effort for anyone and how her boyfriend is her family and her life and her purpose and how friends just weren't really a priority at all and they certainly never got close to the level of importance as her romantic relationship. like... she literally disagreed with treating people with basic respect because friendship wasn't worth that effort. so i told her i hope she heals that wound in her heart and that she can eventually move on from whatever caused it but that i refused to settle for less than a healthy friendship just because she doesn't know how to love anyone fully or put aside her pride. that i genuinely hope she heals and has a good life but to never contact me again because i don't care to see it. that whatever is going on with her that she's been running away from isn't my problem for her to project onto me. she doesn't get to assume my intentions or thoughts or feelings about anything when she never asked me once. but fine, she has every right to think whatever she wants about me regardless of how true it is because I'm not responsible for her feelings, especially not now and i would genuinely appreciate it if she never spoke to me again.

people in the thick of amanormativity who haven't deconstructed relationships with others who are strict monogamists are so fucking exhausting.

#sunbun speaks #thing 1 #i had been basically asking the same thing over and over for like 2 days because she would talk around the question #and never actually answered it so i just kept asking in different more clarifying ways #and we eventually got to her admitting that she only saw me as a child and that she always felt responsible for my feelings #and that she felt like she always had to fix me because i was helpless #and how that was MY fault because how could i FORCE her to watch me fail or starve or die #like... unless i specifically ask you for help with a problem just assume i don't want help #i wasn't forcing her to watch anything. i withdrew and hid in my room for the most part and never asked for her charity #that she would later use to insult me #i have been saying for YEARS that i do NOT want someone to save me or protect me from shit #how i just want someone to be there to go 'yeah wow that sucked. okay lets brush the dust off and try again later.' #like she literally would just do shit that i never asked for or wanted then got mad at me for 'forcing' her to do it #and i had to act grateful or she would call me difficult #by the end of the conversation i honestly just felt burnt out and pity #i should have found a way to discourage her more or just not accept what she was doing #i thought at least some of the stuff she did came from genuine care for me so it was easier to accept the rest because i figured #that it came from a place of love #but nope #i was just a project she couldn't fix that she scrapped despite me never asking her to fix me #i don't care if this makes sense #my super feminist best friend turned into a self-righteous tradwife with little compassion for others and even less for me #and built up this person in her head of who i was without ever asking me about any of it #so i'm just a ball of emotions rn #also there was the lowkey ableism despite her claiming to be neurodivergent (her only previous claim is that she #'had some autistic traits' and 'none of it ever effected me enough to be a hindrance on her life' #so it kind of felt like she only mentioned it to discredit how much autism and add makes me struggle #then there's just the fact that she 'didn't care' that i needed a cane to walk until it wasn't fun anymore and there wasn't an upside #she feels very much like a conservative wearing the skin of a leftist #like she parrots shit about anti ableism while being ableist and using her own mental illness as a shield against criticism

[youcanthandelthetruth]

My aunts have known their cousins have a secret half-sister for more than a year... finally blackmailed them into telling

#i don't think it was welcome news i just think they deserve to know #and decide if they want to do anything about it themselves #and if they don't want to acknowledge her the sister deserves to be told so she can stop waiting and hoping #because she seems like a perfectly nice person and it's not her fault that she was norn #also these things don't stay a secret it always comes out eventually #and I'd be pissed to find a sibling and then learn that a whole faction of my cousins already knew #anyway i say blackmail but it was more strongarming. i said if they didn't go explain soon i would #ugghhh. #anyway since it was basically my doing to drop the bombshell i hope it was the right choice #i hope the cousins are ok in the long run. they're not happy tonight. #but we all knew their dad had an american girlfriend. it was a sore point but we all knew. i've even seen pictures of them together. #the fact that there was a baby is news but the whole family knows he was cheating #but it was 65 years ago and this lady deserves to have a final answer on if her bio family wants to meet her or not #she's been incredibly tactful and patient