#but other tjan that ive been feeling better lately

[sharkdays]

i cant sleep

#this is a first in a while honestly #so thats good at least #it might be bc ive been staying up late #playing the new pkmn game recently #which is really fun tbh! #it has its flaws but im enjoying it #but mostly i feel like im nervois for thanksgiving #i have to visit my mom and she is very much not a good person #i dont have a choice tho #and i think im like. preemptively working myself up over it #but other tjan that ive been feeling better lately #yippee!!! #i did a shit ton of cleaning today #was gonna do more but i ran oit of time #i think it just took a few days for my dose increase to work #or kick in. and kick in it did #or the other option is i hyperfixated on it LOL #possesed by the spirit of mr clean #i also got to talk on the phonw w my best friend yesterday #for like three whole hours 💀 #we played the pkmn game togetehr #and i think talking to them again really helped #she has bronchitis:( and is sick :( i want her to feel better soon #i wanna watch anime w her!! #ok im done talking #goodnighy! #shark speaks

[seraphimsinful]

Broken,Dissapointing,

Dont you wish youd just killed me at 13?

#happy fathers day #vent #feeling very bad about my body and sexuality and i know ill be fine but i seriously just like #need to get over this #img #art #vent art #im very uhhh how you say. evil #i cant even be too sad anymore cause this is neat. #idk i need to just be held and told im not fjcming. dirty and disgusting #bc i feel like thay revently #especially since ive just been. real bad or whatever #idk i really really am struggling to feel ok abt myself and i know i shouldnt but FUCK i just feel like im confused #im so dysphoric lately and guilty for no reason other tjan i feel like im not real enough #or good enough #i hahte this i hate feeling this wat #i know its jusy yhe trauma speaking but i keep feeling lije if i died no one would notice #its seflsih IM selfish i just feel so starved and upset for no reason but i cant process anything right #im jusy not good wnoygh for anyone im not #im better off dead probably but. idk #idk i keep lije #ed warning i guess thought i doubt anyones reading this haha #but i keep. not eating right and when i do i feel sick and evil and im justtttttt #idk i feel like im dying from the inside out again for np reason #but im beimg. a burden #idk idk idk #my art