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raz-b-rose · 3 months

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How can you be a Christian woman if you're a gamer? Isn't that a man's hobby? And why do you engage in intellectual/political topics? That's not women's natural role in society. You should be cleaning and making babies, not having male hobbies lol

Get a load of this guy!

Dude first off in order to be an informed and true Christian I need to be intellectual about my Father's Word. Would you rather I be ignorant about it? No I don't think you'd be happy with that lol.

So therefore my love for learning and engaging in mature conversation overflows into many areas of my life.

Second I am infertile lol so the Lord done declareth I am not to be a mother at this time ☺️✌🏻my house isn't spotless but I do my best to clean thanks for your concern though!

And maybe you need to play more games with women to see how cool it is! Praying for that harmful mindset you have 🙏🏻

#raz is a christian #raz answers #😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂#sexisim #dunno what gaming and christianity have to do with eachother lol #christian #christianity #femine roles #womens role in society #trust me if i was able to not be working id snatch that up quick #but not Gods plan for me right now

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buglaur · 5 months

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for a girl whose never built anything from scratch before i'd call this a triumph

#it's safe to say i won't be building ever again. this was painful.#4 houses and a little pub with 2 apartments upstairs #it is fully unfurnished but that is a task too immense for me to tackle right now #and the sides are very bare.. i'll fix that #so excited to play gahhh #i have until the 16th to finish all of my assignments but after that it'll be sims sims sims #do ye have any recommendations on anti-virus software?#i've been using mcafee but it's the most god awful program know to man #the only annoying pop-up ads i get are from mcafee itself #trying to get me to sign up for shit and buy better plans #would appreciate recommendations thank you 🙏

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triona-tribblescore · 6 months

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You're all magic anime girls in my eyes dw mikey uvu <3

(Yo-Ho-Ho) A Ninjas Life For Me

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jameszmaguire · 8 months

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Not the kids. You can't kill kids.

#goodomendsedit #goodomensedits #goodomenssource #Good Omens #Aziraphale #Crowley #tusermyra #userfra #crowleyanthonys #tusermich #my gifs #fixing the one thing that really truly bothers me about the writing of a companion to owls #because any feelings about the mere existence of the pre-fall scene aside aziraphale invoking the angel crowley once was makes no sense her #because nothing we are shown of pre-fall crowley impacts this scene because pre-fall crowley doesn't (yet) care about the humans #he is devastated for the stars and the universe but not the humans but you know who is? the demon who takes a moment to reassure an angel #that his protection of the first two humans was the right thing the demon whose first reaction upon hearing of god's plan to drown humans #is to go 'not the kids. you can't kill kids.' the faith that aziraphale has in crowley very specifically in this very moment #according to what we've been shown in the show should not be build on the angel he once knew but on the demon that he now knows #and i understand that that line is there to show that aziraphale then understands that pre-fall and post-fall crowley are still the same #but like. if that's your message then write a scene where the continuity is actually between pre-fall and post-fall crowley lol

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8bit-mau5 · 9 months

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Update

Hey guys I didnt mean to disappear the way I did this month, but especially in the more recent weeks. I've been in an UNBEARABLE amount of pain with migraines almost every day for over a week and I may very well have a sinus infection (': Like I WAS diagnosed with chronic sinusitis last year iirc but this is unbearable. My throat hurts, my teeth hurt, my face hurts, I can't breathe out my nose. I feel miserable tbh.

Another reason for absence and being so slow on work is because I came really close to calling the cops on my mother in the middle of a fight not too long ago. I'm certain it would've gotten physical if Popo hadn't walked through the front door when he did. Thankfully things DIDN'T get physical, but I'm still very shaken up about it. I'm in no danger, but I'm getting around to making an official post for my [GoFundMe] that's been successfully published now. That was the last straw I just cannot handle how my cats and I are treated. It's seriously affected my workflow for far too long.

Anyway I could really use some positivity and distraction. I missed this place and I missed you guys, home life has just been.. a lot. And I'm exhausted.

#abuse #abuse tw #animal abuse #animal abuse tw #i think thats everything?#okay to reblog #since it has my GFM link?#i had to call my shitty hardly-present in my life father to calm me down but like. the way he talks to me aint great either #the treatment ive gotten from mom has gotten exponentially worse since my sister moved out just like we all expected tbh #ive NEEDED to move out for ages but now i have like. a plan #i just need to make the money for it now #honestly id be happy to even reach 7k. the deadline is just in a few months so.. i'll be keeping it up for rent and move costs. but id like #to raise a bit to properly PAY popo for driving me up there and back. so $ for gas. food. hotel stays. etc. and paying for a rental truck #8bit beeps #god i wish i just had a friend i could move in with RIGHT NOW just to weather out the storm and work on raising more money #to go to chicago w/my boyfriend

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deiaiko · 1 month

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#20.1 Sulk

Her footsteps echoed through the hallway, stopping in front of one particular room where her god resided in. She knocked on the door to make her presence known, not expecting her god to answer. Not today, at least.

Hwaryun opened the door and saw her god curled up on the sofa. He peeked at her and quickly looked disinterested at her presence. She considered it better than getting herself kicked out before she could talk some sense into him.

She invited herself in and went straight to the pantry. "Grace couldn't come today, so he asked me to look after you. Would you like some tea?"

Her god didn't answer, but he did perk up at the name. She brewed him a cup of tea anyway, adding a little more sugar than she would have liked for herself since her god had a sweet tooth. She set his cup on the coffee table and took a seat on an unoccupied sofa next to him.

Viole sat more upright, still hugging the sofa pillow. He gave her a once over before he went back to staring into the far off distance. "Why can't Hyung come?"

Hwaryun took a sip of her tea before answering, "He said he needs time for himself."

"Is it because of me?" Viole mumbled into the pillow, eyes shadowed by his long bangs.

"No. He's grieving for his late friends."

"Oh." Viole loosened the grip on the pillow, although only momentarily. "Can I see him?"

'I want to be there for him' was what his gaze seemed to say. Her god was such a compassionate person; it was endearing. Still, she had to shake her head. "You won't be of any help to him with your plate full."

"Why? What does that mean?"

"You have a lot on your mind. It's better to sort them out first before helping someone else." Hwaryun traced the edge of her cup, "Do you want me to guess or would you like to tell them yourself? Putting words into your thoughts will help you to untangle it."

Viole blinked. "I don't know. I feel bad."

Hwaryun hummed. "Do you know the cause of it?

"...Rachel." Viole turned his head away. "My chest aches whenever she comes to mind."

"She betrayed your trust, didn't she? It's expected that you feel that way."

"I've been…I just wanted to help her. Yet…" Viole trailed off. "I know I have forgiven her for making me live like this. But…"

When Viole couldn't find any words to continue, she decided to help him fill in the blanks. "You feel sad and angry because it feels like you're wasting your time thinking about how to get her back, only for her to walk away from you."

Viole buried his face on the pillow, staying quiet.

Hwaryun decided to help herself to the cookie jar on the coffee table and pulled out a book from her pocket. Opening the bookmarked page, she began reading where she left off while she waited for her god to gather his thoughts.

Moments later Viole shifted on his seat and mumbled, "Miss Hwaryun, why should I keep going?"

"To climb the tower?" Hwaryun didn't look up, even though her book was quite boring. "Or to be FUG's slayer?"

Viole stiffened at the latter question. Unlike the book, her god was easier and more interesting to read.

Hwaryun took another sip from her half empty cup. "Well, if you refuse to be a slayer, then what would you be?"

Viole didn't reply. It wasn't like they gave him enough time to think about it before.

"Being FUG's slayer isn't that bad, you know? You have backup here, and we will support you with whatever we have. Connections, money, information. I'm sure Jinsung, Grace or Agni had told you how important those are to help you climb the tower."

Viole bit his lip, "I know that. But that's–"

But nothing they could offer would satisfy him, Hwaryun knew. Because her god didn’t care about money or fame. What he wanted was companionship, his cherished friends, and FUG had cruelly taken that away from him. However, "Believe me, it could be a lot worse than what you have now."

"How much worse could it be?" Viole's voice cracked a little. "I just…want to be with my friends, is it too much to ask?"

"Is it?" Hwaryun clapped the book close, eyeing the untouched tea on the table before looking to its owner in his eyes. "Considering everything I've seen in my lifetime, you're quite lucky your friends are still around."

Viole blinked, staring back at her with a look that could kill. She realized she had worded it like a threat.

"Don't take me wrong, I'm just saying that in general. The tower is just a cruel place, and people who climb it know that they must put their lives on the line to get what they seek. People kill and die for a lot of reasons, and we are no exceptions." Hwaryun placed her finger on her eyepatch, "This eye could have been my life, if I didn't dodge in time. Did you get what I mean?"

Viole frowned. "Then what do I do? I don't want to lose anyone anymore."

Hwaryun hummed thoughtfully, "That is impossible. All you can afford is to do your best by getting stronger, so at the very least, you won't see them get killed in front of you."

Fear reflected in Viole's eyes and he gritted his teeth. "How could you say such a thing?!"

"It's not impossible. If Hansung were to take Khun and Rak as a hostage, would you be able to fight back and win before he's able to hurt them, or worse?"

Viole bit his lip.

"Hansung wouldn't do that, don't worry. But I couldn't say the same thing with other rankers and regulars that will come across you."

Viole considered her words for a long time. "...I don't think I would be okay if I lost them."

"I know." It would be just like what happened with Jinsung.

Viole suddenly jumped down on his feet, staring sharply at her. "They are all still alive, right? My friends, I mean."

"Yes, they are. Grace would have told you otherwise if anything were to happen."

"Then, do you happen to know who Hyung's friends that's…?

Hwaryun shook her head, "No. None that we knew of."

"Ah." The sulking brokenhearted boy he was before was no more, and Hwaryun couldn't help but smile at her beloved god. "Do you think I can help him somehow?"

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b4kuch1n · 28 days

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 3 months

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Anyone else have near-perfect executive function at work; but at home, have literally no energy or motivation to do anything except lie in a dark room, with something in or on your ears for several hours?

#It’s got to be the schedule keeping me on task at work #I love microdosing strict routines (not having an actual routine for the day; but having routines for small tasks #which piss me off if I can’t carry them out precisely the way I planned)#For instance: If I’m asked to paperclip a bunch of stuff together with multicolored paperclips of various sizes #I cannot just indiscriminately pick paperclips from the container because that is WRONG and ILLEGAL #The colors must fit the theme of the assignments; and the colors must alternate in a specific order #and the paperclips must all be the same size #If I’m asked to dump out and clean containers of writing utensils I am going to sort them by type and color #whether you like it or not #Black permanent markers have their own container in a different section from the blue permanent markers #Dry-erase markers are not to be mixed with permanent markers because they are easily confused and it is WRONG and ILLEGAL #Do not fuck with the system. It’s the only organizational skill I have and by fucking GOD I’m going to use it in EXCESS #I stuff and fill out envelopes the exact same way every time because if I do it any other way it is WRONG and ILLEGAL #The stamp always goes on last to minimize monetary waste if there is a mistake #Now you’d think my room is squeaky clean and organized because of how particular I am about these small tasks #Right? Right?#NO IT IS NOT. It looks like a bomb went off. Cleaning the room is a big task which cannot be accomplished within two hours #therefore I have discarded it as anything I need a routine for because it would take too long to come up with #and it is very hard for me to do things like that without instructions or a sense of consistency #So I simply don’t #“After five years the dust doesn’t get any worse” correct; but the mold certainly does #I am convinced half my problems with organization as a kid would have been solved if I just had a hamper #“We have a clothes chute; you don’t need a hamper” Maybe you don’t but I DO #I want one now; but I’m going to use it as incentive to get an apartment #because that’s another thing I need to smuggle and I have too much already

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stillcominback · 2 months

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really underestimated how much i missed rick grimes let me tell you

#NON-RP BLOGS DNI PLEASE #//#that episode was so good like asjkdgfg #getting to see andy as rick again really had a girl emotional #OBVS i'm feral for richonne too so i'm very akfjhdsfdsg rn #but like getting to SEE rick and hear what's been going on and just #god it broke my heart but also was cute and made me so excited again !!!!!#i still don't know if there's consistent or any writing here in my future right now BUT #i def plan on writing and getting into things again in discord #and i'll probably be reblogging and/or doing randome non-writing things here when i can lol #IDK I JUST !!! MISS RICK GRIMES HE'S MY BRAND BASICALLY YKNOW #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

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starburstfloat · 5 months

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taehyun and beomgyu???? bruhhh

#this magazine will be the end of me #thank god i finished all my lesson plans today my brain is just brrrrr right now #taehyun #beomgyu #tomorrow x together

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sleep-nurse · 18 days

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ignore the shit perspective. i uh. did a doodle of the hima while waiting for fieldtrip bus

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDD THAT LOOKS SO GOOD??????????? IM ?P????^??^ DEAD?????????

#asks #miu himawari #sleepy nurse #my sona #art for me #HOW DO YOU DRAW SO WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #god people drawing himawari right now while i'm planning to change her a bit #CALM DOWN YALL AHJJKSHGJFHKEGJKEJKGE #anyways i love this so much THANK YOU AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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goldkirk · 4 months

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question: have any of you personally seen a dietician (not looking for experiences with nutritionists, only dieticians), and did you find it helpful or useful, and if you did see a dietician and you ALSO have seen a GI doctor, how did the experience compare for you in terms of helpfulness + how much you felt listened to and helped?

#i'm trying to figure out which doctor appointments I want to bother making and spending money about for potentially no return on investment #and right now i'm trying to figure out if I'd get way more practical help from a dietician or if I need to suck it up and find a #not-elderly not-male not-dismissive GI doctor first and THEN see a dietician #although I cannot afford a bunch of tests #so like???#trying to figure out if a dietician would be more helpful overall with me not HAVING any GI diagnoses or eating disorders #and just really struggling with food in both sensory ways and unpredictable digestion ways that don't correlate with food allergies #god i sometimes wish i had food allergies so i could have some predictability #but yeah. i'm leaning towards dietician but figured i should crowdsource experiences #since I know a lot of you have health issues you've also been trying to manage for years and probably have good advice #if it helps i'm also in a major city now and have a decent-but-not-great health insurance plan so I'm good on those two fronts #to do #health #I know a dietician can't diagnose anything but I'd love help figuring out how to get maximum nutrition even when i can barely eat anything #or when my body decides to start getting sick from or (tw emetophobia) puking up fiber or fatty foods #which thankfully isn't often #now that I do cannabis daily in microdosing I have so much less pain and bloating and nausea #but when it hits it HITS #and the last time I tried going without cannabis for a couple days and then eating a fiber muffin I was sick six times in one morning #and didn't get my normal eating ability back until dinnertime #luckily that's not normal for me #but my issues bounce up and down so much #and I lose weight so fast whenever my appetite goes from 'barely ever there' to 'negatively nonexistent'#and I had like. two months last year where I think i reached my body's natural healthy set weight #and i needed so much food but it felt so good energy wise and temperature wise #and i'd like to STAY THERE FFS #and I feel like a dietician would be helpful for making meal options for good #*good and hard and nuclear alert level eating difficulty times #anyway. crowdsourcing. yay!

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florida3exclamationpoints · 9 months

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And if I said that even though the fat jokes in Endgame were cheap and lazy writing it was actually kinda Real because there will always be people who react to physical manifestations of mental illness in that way. But Thor got through it anyway. And he was still worthy. And I take a little comfort in the fact that none of the OG 6 made fun of him. They were all genuinely worried. Most everyone was genuinely worried. What if I said that? People are always gonna be mean but you can be ok anyway.

#idk if that was the writers intentions which is why its still very 😬😬#i mean. rocket was mean but when is he not ya know #rhodey was mean. idk if it was skrull rhodeys fault?#the writers also wouldn't be planning that back then either tho lol #idk the one that bothers me the most is 'what do you think is coursing through my veins right now' 'cheese whiz'#like that is so unnecessary #idk if it's out of rhodeys character to be that mean about it tbh #but tony and steve and nat and bruce and clint ??? were all so kind and worried #remember when tony was like. ok buddy lets get you some breakfast ill make you some eggs #OH MY GOD????#I'm not defending it i dont think those jokes add anything to the movie #but it is real. and thor was ok anyway. bc he also had kind friends.#endgame #marvel #avengers endgame #the avengers #thor #thor odinson #rocket raccoon #james rhodes #tony stark

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lunarharp · 6 months

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lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten*#i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead #what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that #i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate #truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do.#their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3 #i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever.#gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan #one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ??????????#live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that?#without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ??#without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive?#without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies #without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity?#without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years?#without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn #WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS???????????#at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always #like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE #i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was...#Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about

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thebirdandhersong · 10 months

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whenever I get carried away (with thoughts like "I would make such an EXCELLENT wife you don't even KNOW I would be SO devoted to my husband I would 10/10 get such a good mark in wife which is so normal to strive for and so so possible to achieve I just KNOW it I would do ALL THE THINGS BE ALL THE THINGS ACCOMPLISH ALL THE THINGS WITH FLYING COLOURS and he would LOVE ME and DESPAIR") I'm like. yeahhhhh songbird uhhhhhh that's why that hasn't come to pass. lol

#sometimes i'm like you know what i MIGHT'VE gotten married at 19 and maybe i would've enjoyed it and found it fulfilling! i know many do #on the other hand that clearly was not God's plan for that time and it is good that i'm where i am now!#the love me and despair part. is clearly the problem sl;kjfsljfdl;sdfl;skd along with the Achieving bit #there are things to figure out right now and there are things to grow past and there are things to cherish in THIS time and place!#learning not to compare in this area either :)

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eddis-not-eeddis · 8 days

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#i don't really want to make a whole post about it because it was a very personal and very miserable time for me #but genuinely #the thing that got me wanting to move on again and LIVE after my life plans all fell apart last year #was sitting down and very seriously thinking about the kind of woman i want to be when i'm 70 #i hit that thing that a lot of people in their mid-twenties are hitting right now #where it feels like we've already wasted everything and not only are we failures now but we will always BE failures until we die #but right now i'm still in my twenties #and when i thought about what a good lifespan looked like to me #70-ish seems about right #and what do i want to have when i'm 70 #what skills will be useful and beyond that #what skills will be fun #i had gotten into a mindset of “too late too late”#learning to draw #or sing #or dance #or fix a car #or ride a motorcycle #they all felt like learning NOW would be pointless because *melodramatically* aLL my YoUtH HaS bEEn WaStEddd #but unless God has another plan i'm not going to die in my twenties #i'll likely live many more decades #my life probably isn't even half-way over yet #what do i want to be when i'm 70?#it doesn't matter that i don't know everything yet #i have more than four decades to work on it #that's more than the entirety of the life i've already lived #and yeah #i spent five years at a dead end job that finally drove me almost to a breakdown #but even that wasn't a waste #i saved enough to go to school and i learned a lot while i worked there

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