#but mine were never scared

[charrchan]

In memory of my pet phasmids, it's been a few years now but I still miss them.

#insects #phasmids #bugs #furry #i also had 3 phillium philipinicum #i had 2 extatosoma tiaratum #the leafies were called frog & danny phasmid & bulbasaur #the sticks were called ginger and spike #they died of old age they had a good life :) #not once did my extatosoma do a threat display #they only curl up like in typical photos when threatened #but mine were never scared #well all of them wiggled when i changed the bramble for them but i never stressed them out #i only had one leg drop too! danny phasmid got spooked by her sisters and i found her one leg down in the morning #it grew back tho :) #man ok enough rambling #my art #my post

[mccallhero]

favourite ouat scenes: 55/?

#captainswanedit #emmaswanedit #killianjonesedit #ouatedit #onceuponatimeedit #emma swan #killian jones #ouat #ouat scenes #mine #gifs #captain swan #once upon a time #david nolan #snow white #robin hood #regina mills #outlaw queen #listen. we were so blessed to get emma in the flower crown and killian in the red vest and that jacket in the same scene #and emma's just. so fucking pretty. i will never get over it #and how emma likes the dark magic initially but then realizes what it means and gets scared and tries to TLK killian #but she likes the dark magic too much to let it go #and then david's just. staring at his daughter and the pirate making out #dark ones era #200

[sergle]

something that I'm excited for is that my surgeon seems to be something of a fucked up Freak, and his incisions / stitching is so clean that the early "after" photos already look healed as hell

#so I'm hoping that'll apply to me too! quick healing #just bc it was never really that fucked up looking to Begin with #my sister's after photos were sort of brutal #she showed me so I wouldn't be scared when/if mine were looking fucked up while healing #but like I don't see any of the bruising and stuff that she experienced. in the photos I got from him #also I'm gonna be DRAINLESS YAYYYYYYYYY #sergle.txt #really some of the best looking results I've seen in my months of sniffing around surgeons galleries and pages

[bylertruther]

mike telling will it's not his fault he doesn't like girls and will destroying castle byers to symbolize the loss of not only childhood innocence and what was but also the loss of his most treasured safe space. mike threw that back in his face—his biggest, most sacred and unspeakable truth; the one that's haunted his entire life and damned him to this—and he specifically ripped their photo down the middle while calling himself stupid and tore everything down because god dammit he WANTED to play dnd with mike forever and never get girlfriends because they were supposed to go crazy TOGETHER and being friends was the best thing they'd EVER done and now castle byers can't be his safe space anymore because it's been tainted. there's too much mike. there's too many reminders of his stupid, stupid dreams. it's no longer a safe harbor—it's just a reminder of his naivety, his childish dream that someone like him could ever get what he wants. and he's clearly still hurt by that because we knew previously that will trusted mike more than any other party member and even his family. he told him first about everything with the upside down and he was there through every part of his possession. will loves mike more than anyone, but after that rain fight he just doesn't trust him with that stuff anymore. "because what if they don't like the truth...?" with that knowing, searching glance. because he WANTS to tell mike. even now, after everything, he still wants to be honest with him. to be himself with him again. he's DYING to and we know that because will doesn't like to lie, least of all to mike, but he's damned if he does and damned if he doesn't so he rips the band-aid off and confesses under his own sister's name. an ugly compromise because he can't keep lying and he can't keep listening to mike think so lowly of himself but he can't be honest either. because he doesn't trust that mike will still like him afterward. if mike said that to him before he knew, what would he say after will confirmed it? like. GODDDDD THE ANGST OF IT ALL.....

#byler #say wht u want but they filmed both 'not my fault you don't like girls YET' ANDDDD 'not my fault you don't like girls' and they went with #the latter. right after s2 aka the mike being fucking batshit devoted to will and his number 1 indomitable defender and protector refusing #to leave his side only to then abandon him and LITERALLY CANONICALLY FORGET THAT HE'S EVEN THERE in s3. #bc he has a girlfriend. and he wants to be Normal. and he doesn't want things to change. bc he's scared of change and changing. #he just wants to be normal. please please please he just wants to be NORMAL and he doesn't know why will doesn't get it. #'did u think we were never going to get girlfriends' 'yeah. i guess i did. i really did.' #aka i thought that we were the same i thought it would be this - us - forever #because it isn't JUST about dnd. #i just #GOD!!!!!!!!!!! THEY'RE SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #mine

[ozlices]

started a new save and experienced the new summer event for the first time............ bro what the FUCK

#mine #SPOILERS SPOILER SPOILERS DO NOT READ TAGS IF U WANNA AVOID SPOILERS #bruh it's been me & the baby playing together in front for the most part #& we were SO SCARED #IT FELT LIKE WE JUST RANDOMLY GOT SENT TO TLOU LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL TJRTKER #i mean it looks v cool and all but it was so scary to just randomly walk into like. bro................................... b r o. #tbh it feels like. an incentive to prioritize upgrading the axe faster #imagine all the wood u can get w the town being overrun by trees....... yum or whatever #sdv #sv #stardew valley #anyway that was terrifying but we made it out ok we used the item spawner to speedrun the cc #probs gonna do that for ginger island too tmr cause we wanna see the new stuff #and also just. HAVE a save file on desktop that IS actually late game #we never get that far bc we always have expanded KJHKTJHJRTKH #im intrigued wtf all these big ass trees mean though. what was he cooking. im scared. im intrigued.

[voxmilia]

Anyway no one asked, but I literally have a scene planned out now for Ivy's character/timeline study wip where she's revived in Ankarna's domain and also shown a vision and basically being judged with a lot less kindness than the BK's but still, I think the revived RG's deserve the chance to have that scene, to see a moment where they perhaps chose vengeance instead of understanding and being asked, their chests gaping and open and vacant, if they stand by that choice

#ivy embra you will always be famous you're mine i can mold you as i see fit #maybe instead of ankarna appearing it's cassandra asking them if they are still convinced this was the right path #(they never were. they were scared and desperate for praise and then they were in over their heads with no anchor) #christina.txt

[anirudhpisharody]

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#alright these tags are super embarrassing but i needed to rant publicly so uh. you can read this but please don't perceive me too much #it is so fucking exhausting having nobody to share my life with #i have literally zero friends at this point bc ever since my grandpa died i've pretty much stopped trying to keep in touch with my hometown #friends and i cut off my 'friend' group that were racist assholes who treated me like a doormat back in october and haven't really made any #close friends at college since. and i just fucking hate that this is the same way i've felt for so many fucking years like you'd think it #would be bearable at this point and i'd be used to being alone and for a while i honestly was but it just hit me tonight how fucking lonely #i am and how tomorrow i have to keep on just doing the shit i have to do in life without anyone to talk to and share it with #other than my mom who's been pissing me off lately so i've been pushing her away too! #it's so tiring to have to go out and do things and have responsibilities everyday and not being able to share that with anyone idk it makes #it feel almost like i'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders which is SO dramatic i know #like today i wanted to talk about the stupid false alarm gas leak thing with my sort of friends in this club i'm in but i didn't get to talk #to anyone at the meeting bc everyone was just talking amongst themselves in their little groups of best friends and it just reminded me that #i don't have that and i've never fucking had that i've only ever pretended i had that #it's like all these years i've been pretending to be a person that has friends and knows how to live life normally but i never have #more than anything i just miss my friends from home bc they're the closest i've ever felt to having friends that are like family but. i #don't know how to talk to them anymore. i didn't tell any of them when my grandpa died and i think they just assumed that i've moved on so #they've probably moved on and i already know that they have their own lives and friends at their schools that are a lot more full than mine #wanna know the worst part about all of this? i just had therapy and basically told her everything's fine #and i won't meet with her again until 3 weeks from now so literally the only person i can talk to about this right now is my mom #which i am absolutely not gonna do bc she's gonna get so scared and worried for me and i can't have that rn #anyways yeah. this isn't even that big of a deal like i haven't had friends for at least the past 6 months it's not like anything's changed #i just feel extra sad about it right now. i need a distraction stat gonna go watch watch some tv goodnight #shut up hanna

[posletsvet]

So—

Being eighteen was great, can't wait to see what being nineteen will show!!

#no but truly #18th was the best year of my life so far #despite the insane levels of stress and torturous academic workload that going through the finals was #i started talking to people after years of proper communication with only my sister #for a brief while I was even brave enough to share my thoughts with the world #it was delightful #i made friends on my own which is something I've never been able to do before #i met you guys #my dearly beloved mutuals!!!! <33 #i made art and started feeling something about it again #i created so much I didn't even think I was capable of something like that #me and my friends created entire worlds in our minds #as well as loads of characters which i love dearly!! #i mean it's not really mine to call my achievement but it feels so incredibly special to be a part of something like that #i reignited genuine interest inside of myself towards life and even picked up a couple of new special interests #i read and watched so many great stories #oh yeah I finished school so good riddance to that part of my life hehe #i enrolled into one of the best universities in the country which still feels insanely unreal #took a gap year #me and my sister travelled on our own and were able to finally meet our internet friends which is the flaking best thing in the world #worked two jobs with an occasional third one to save up a bit #i'll be moving out of my home city this year which scares the shit out of me but is still so so amazing #there were and still are tragedies around me that split my heart in half with fury and despair #and I feel unfairly privileged to be granted so much joy in my own life #so yeah it's been one hell of a year #sorry for getting so insufferably emotional but I love all this so unbelievably much #i love you all folks :')

[steampunk-raven]

spider in room but everyone else is asleep so no one can help me :/ panic time i guess lol

#having scary things in my room is fun because i get to play the game of “which phobia am i MORE scared of: being around lifelong phobia of #mine OR the phobia of leaving my room and risking Being Perceived” #right now it’s the second one :/ which is pretty funny given that every else is fucking ASLEEP so there’s your proof that phobias can be #SUPER irrational lmao #but also my arachnophobia isn’t the worst like I’ll avoid places where spiders were near recently but i can still sometimes watch videos of #them sooo. yay for me lol? this isn’t true for other bugs (yes ik spiders aren’t bugs but my phobias don’t) which sucks for me because the #second most scary one is viewed as beautiful by most people and so many people love them. noooooo thank you. number one most scary aren’t #talked about but idk why they’re super common. and terrifying and OUT TO FUCKING GET ME. WHY DO THEY ALWAYS RUN *AT* ME #bugs love me. if i think about their existence too much i will have a panic attack. this is not a good relationship. #except for silk moths specifically. Ive never seen one irl and are still a little scared but i have a dnd character who loves them so same #ALSO BEES. I love bees. Not scared at all beyond like a normal reasonable “don’t fuck with them” kinda thing. bees are great i love bees #most of the stingy ones I’m ok with individually actually. i dislike the massive loud swarms of them but on their own they’re cute lol #(also to the bug and/or spider lovers i am not a kill bugs kinda person if this is worded weirdly that is because I’m having a fucking pani #attack please be nice)

[alfareria]

From walks in April & May

#little windows #that first cactus is mine!!! he was inside for the longest time but i placed jim outside a couple of years ago and now he blooms every year #these are the most amount of flowers he's ever had they're sooooo pretty #and then on my walk with my coworker we saw geese at the track which we never do so i took pictures it was v picturesque #the mucky pond looking one is just a small creek and there were soooo many tadpoles #n then some really pretty flowers i saw in another walk and that last photo to the left is taken from a walk that leads u to a water tower #and finally a weird lizard my coworker was scared of and did not move except to shift his head a little while i took photos

[4giorno]

googles "will i be arrested if i play the exact same bg3 character for the third time in under 2 months"

#like again i know. i paid 70€ for this game i can play it however the fuck i want #but i still feel kind of. embarrassed?? esp bc im at my parents for christmas and new years and they know ive played this character twice #and like surely i should want to do something different after like 250 hours and yet... 😭😭😭😭😭 #and ive realised that i never found the blood of lathander and my character def would want to get it even if it destroyed an ancient temple #and ive seen even more dialogue that i missed bc somehow i couldve long rested more frequently even tho i made a conscious effort to do tha #the second time around (bc i started playing multiplayer with my parents and already we got long rest stuff i never saw 💀) #also dialogue choices that fit him more but i was still too scared to pick bc i was afraid id get insta killed #or a companion would get so pissed off theyd leave.......... #you could be like oh so you know what happens why would you play it but like why does anyone play sims or something #like sometimes you wanna see your little guys in scenarios 😭 #(OH also i wanted to see if i could give astari0n worms in the beginning since he wanted them so bad #and it was literally one of the things he and my character bonded over as in they were the only bitches who thought they should use them #i just never thought to give any to him even tho he asked bc i always forget i can do stuff with the companions #AND im always afraid ill fuck something up for them gfkfjdhfkgkf) #anyway the point is wow still i have an unreasonable attatchment to this character of mine and i love him sm #and somehow i dont get bored of playing the same character after two full campaigns

[thelostboys87]

looking back at this year is funny because i was on a whole different plane of emotional vulnerability and disassociation from reality for most of it from the #grief and now i look back and im like why was i so upset over six litmag rejections

#like the rabbit knows how to bury itself got ten rejections alone LOL #to be fair to me these were stretched over a year and i was scared I wouldn’t get a pub this year #also combining that with doing litmag stuff and exposing myself to the wider community gave me a lot of impostor syndrome #which like why was I comparing myself to people 10+ years older than me who have been writing way longer too ??? #but like no story of mine got more than 2 rejections and two of them got acceptance on the first sub LOL i think I’ve just been so out of i #and there was no strategy really!!! just luck #I was rly focused on where I submitted too rather than doing big wide scopes to just get published anywhere #which is slower but feels more intentional and better for me #but also I do want to submit a lot more next year which means I will get rejected way more #I never did rejection goals bc those are out of my control but maybe a sub goal? #like i made 9 subs this year lol. 6 rejected 2 accepted 1 withdrawn

[todayisafridaynight]

beat yakuza 7 last night *muffled screaming*

#spoilers #there'll be spoiler talk lmao #snap chats #ok compliment sandwich time #FIRST OFF absolutely loved this game im so pissed ill never be able to experience it for the first time again #i had no rights being scared of playing it i actually love the rpg playstyle sm- sure i love beat em up but it just feels so right for this #the cast was so cute and lovable and i adore them immensely. also why does no one mention eri ever she's so darling #and the VOICE ACTING- i had my game in english btw and on that note ichiban's VA really does make this game #he's just so passionate in every line he delivers and you can just feel the emotion in everything he says #prob helps that kaiji tang played odin/owain fire emblem before for the theatrics LMAO but seriously i loved his performance so much #on FE note though i completely forgot robbie daymond was zhao and the whole time i was like 'he reminds me of hubert or like akechi lmao' #my hunch was great LMAO GG ME but yeah the gameplay was so fun #and i just love all the little character-building aspects- like how if yo get utterly sloshed with your party everyone has a little comment #not to mention the mid-meal conversations those were so cute #ok for the parts i didnt like uh. Very Few Things like i said i loved this game and i have few complaints #its just the ending made me want to eat dry wall rgg PLEASE let siblings be happy in this franchise i swear to god #aoki was a prick but rgg i need you to stop peddling this 'anyone can change and start over' thing if youre just going to kill them #like at least with nishiki ryuji and mine there was a build up to their death- ig you can argue aoki holding the gun to his death was that #BUT ITS JUST THE WAY KUME COMES OUT OF PISS-OFF NOWHERE LIKE if he hadnt walked away and if ichi wasnt so concerned over aoki #bruh Full Rights to beat his ass and then some that made me so pissed. like i already had a feeling aoki was fucked but still #PLEASE just let a yakuza antagonist live beyond their game for five minutes thats it #he can literally be cell neighbors with sawashiro for all i care just let him live #omg wait on that note i totally called arakawa being ichi's bio dad like as soon as fucker asked ichi bout his real parents I Knew #i dont think arakawa knew but girl I Did and i howled #one last complain i have- its very small tbh- is where did mirror-face-tendo come from #i thought mirror face blew up with ishioda but alright. i guess for the sake of The Twist they couldnt reveal he was fine #still because of that he just feels so out of nowhere esp to be helping the gang #but i'm not gonna let a few nicks ruin an otherwise lovely game #i love how the og cast didnt outstay their welcome: they were in the game just enough to be justified and i appreciate that #kiryu coming out of nowhere does feel a little Out Of Nowhere esp now that he's gona be in Y8

[aroacehanzawa]

why are white people so scared of rice

#was microwaving leftover rice when i remembered this person who told me they would eat rice at restaurants etc but #never cooked it at home because they were scared of getting food poisoning from leftover rice ??????? #another person was like yeah i can eat leftover rice but i would never microwave it #??????????? #oh and another friend of mine says she never buys rice because she's scared of little bugs getting into the rice packet ???????????? #you mean the same bugs that like to eat flour ??????????? they're not gonna kill you girl

[avatardoggo]

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#so my best friend died this morning and i’m not handling it well i’ve cried 5 times today and i was balling my eyes out in the shower and im #scared to sleep bc ik i’ll have nightmares. and it doesn’t seem real like she’s not dead she can’t be and i didn’t find out first hand her #sister told one of our friends and she texted me and i thought i was hallucinating bc wtfreak and now i feel like crap bc i kept thinking of #her towards the end of august like should i visit her just to tell her how i feel in person and then just leave? but i was scared and worrie #about her rejecting me to my face and now she’s gone and i feel like i didn’t try hard enough to save our friendship and ya she’s in heaven #but she’s not here and and we like all the same things so when i think about the pjo live action or the new solangelo book or atlab or freak #ing anything it just connects to her bc now she won’t be able to see those things like we were so excited to geek out together and now i can #t bc she’s gone and even if she were here she wouldn’t want to be with me and i have school and i want to do well but i can’t focus but i do #nt want to use her death as an excuse and i hate myself bc part of me was her and her favorite color was pink and it became mine too bc it r #reminded me of her and i stopped being her best friend but she never stopped being mine even when she was ignoring me and i was angry at ber #i still loved her and she was the first irl person i told about my SAD and OCD and now she’s gone and my best friend is dead #and she was one of the few people that Knew me yk? like she just got me and i got her and she ignored me and now she’s dead #so ya i’m not ok so if y’all could pray for me that’d be great <3 #vk overshares in the tags

[shrekshugebadussy]

i’m interested to hear thoughts. i personally don’t think i’m in the wrong, but basically last weekend was easter & for a little backstory, my mom, brother, and i live in the middle of the rest of our family. my aunt, her husband, & kids live about 2hrs west of me, my uncle and my cousin live about 1 hr 30m east of me, and my grandma lives 15min north of me 😭. anyways, we’ve always had our family get togethers at my grandmas, but her place is small, so my uncle and aunt kinda just.. offer our place up. which is fine, that means we don’t have to go anywhere, but to get to the point, my aunts son is 1 & a half years old, and he’s afraid of cats… i have a cat.

now, i’ve had this cat since nov 2021, so she’s not new, and they’ve been over before with her here… she does not go near my baby cousin at all. the closest she’s gotten was literally across the room peeking from behind some chairs. she’s curious, and she’s never been around small human beings before. she’s never once gotten close enough to even touch my baby cousin. my baby cousin is very wary of her tho. when he was here last weekend he would even grab his toys to hold so my cat wouldn’t get to them. it was funny at first ngl, even my aunt was laughing. he also loves dogs, and my aunt has 2 dogs, but no cats. so i can understand that he’s never been around cats before so he’s wary of them, i get it.

but then dinner came.

he apparently “couldn’t eat” his food (i was not paying attention to them fully, as i was helping getting the table set up and stuff, since he was eating other stuff, so maybe he was distracted idk) because she was roaming around. so my aunt asked me if i could put my cat in a room. and i’m ngl i was kinda peeved. i mean this is my house, my cats house. she’s never made a sound nor has she even gotten close to anyone else for that matter let alone my baby cousin.

i did end up locking her in my room just for the time that we all ate. after that i let her back out (her litter is in my bathroom across the house and her food was in the dining room & when i opened my door she was on my bookshelf, which she’s never been on before). my aunt knew at the time that i wasn’t happy, but i moved on. it’s become apparent that she meant for me to lock her up until they left, but she never specified, nor was i going to do that.

after dinner my baby cousin went into the living room and kept playing, i let her out and gave her an early dinner of wet food and she happily stayed out of the living room. she eventually just got on her window perch that’s on the sliding glass doors in my dining room, and my other, older cousin was playing with her anyways.

the rest of the gathering went fine. but yesterday my mom informed me that apparently my aunt texted her and said that they’re not sure that they’re comfortable having gatherings at our house anymore bcuz “there wasn’t much sympathy” for my baby cousin’s fear.

my mom and i are just flabbergasted that she even thought that we didn’t care about his feelings. i only locked her away in the first place because of that & i figured after dinner while he was in the living room she would be elsewhere, ie eating her dinner.

oh and btw she was on her window perch by the dining table when he was eating desert and he was fine 🤷🏻

again i don’t think i’m in the wrong here…

#sorry this is long but i wanted y’all to have the context #btw when my brother and i were younger my brother was scared of dogs and my aunt got a dog that we had be around without any say #but now i cant have my cat around in her own house bcuz her child is kinda scared? #my mom finally answered her today and just said that while we have a cat we won’t be having gatherings here anymore #and that they can just tell us what they expect from us so we can show up regardless of our own feelings basically #no i don’t want him to be scared but how is he ever going to not be scared if he never has exposure to cats #she’s the first cat he’s ever seen #idk #mine