#but i think the most present theme

[hellvive]

another supernatural brain rot fueled post incoming! after a lot of these supernatural music videos on youtube. as much as i am against the last seaosn for various reasons, but realizing something along the way. that it took dean fiteen years from the moment we are introduced to him on the show. to find a semblance of hope in his life. to realize that after all of his setbacks, losses, pain, and anger. that he can be happy. that their is something in the form of a ' decent and happy life ' he can have at the end of season fifteen. that he isn't the cold killer that chuck said he was, one point rowena too, and even crowley. that he doesn't want to be what people think he is. what he has been. because he's thrown everything at the supernatural forces of this world for love, for family, and then what he fought hard for more then a decade is swiftly ripped from him as the writers killed him off. it's why i don't care for it. though that same realization that he learns finally at the end of the series is important to my interpatation. season fifteen doesn't exist in a few ways until i find a way to retcon it. the journey of self realization dean goes on however sticks. he is loved and can love and he can have what he thought for so damn long was unobtainable to him.

#maybe i'm missing the mark for dean sometimes #but i think the most present theme #is no one at any point #has ever hated dean more then himself #that when he thinks he gets to a point #where he's content #they are secure #and ahead of whatever threat of the year #just for a setback to happen #and then he retreats and relapses back #i strive hard to try to break the mold and make dean my own #but conform heavily to the themes i know i can easily write for dean #such as the father issues #and more #dean is kind of a comfort character #as an older sibling #i wanted to be like dean in his devotion #his love #for his family

[difeisheng]

duel meta

i think a good aspect of the conflict present in the donghai fight is the fact that li xiangyi and di feisheng are each seeing the other as representing incompatible things, and this isn't something that began with the duel but it was part of what doomed them by the end of it.

it has to do with how both of them view their places in the jianghu, in general. li xiangyi by this point has become the symbol of sigumen. he embodies everything it stands for, and by extension of sigumen's prestige, he embodies what those in the jianghu striving for righteousness should look like. he's the legend of both this generation and the next, and when he snaps at shan gudao, li xiangyi literally considers himself the beating heart of sigumen. without him, it can't exist. he has become one with every person he represents while still apart from them, embedded in this fame across the jianghu and all its eyes on him. it's a burden, but while he's placed on the pedestal, li xiangyi still attempts to do good by all who put him on it. so here he stands, trying to shoulder it all.

di feisheng, on the other hand, has always seen his position on an individual level. he's associated with jinyuanmeng and he built it, yes, but that power is not something he's thrown himself into as its leader. he wouldn't say that jinyuanmeng wouldn't exist if he was gone; once di feisheng is reinstated as mengzhu in the present day, the first thing he does is to hand it over to jiao liqiao. his actions throughout the story after that are largely separate from those of jinyuanmeng, and he makes little effort to involve his subordinates except for a few specific people. to di feisheng, his achievements and strength ultimately rest on himself as a swordsman, and his skill compared to other distinguished people at the top of the jianghu. we see that on the night he frees jiao liqiao. he's not here to take over forces or resources, he's just here for one man and the rank he holds.

(i would argue that the power di feisheng did accumulate through jinyuanmeng is for two reasons. one, so that he had enough people behind him to apparently rival li xiangyi, and two, to keep him safe from the di mansion. but that's a different topic.)

so when the war between sigumen and jinyuanmeng breaks out, its final act on the donghai ship is a standoff between two people: one who views himself as representing a collective, and another who considers himself in that moment a swordsman on his own. and this greatly influences how both of them treat that fight.

to li xiangyi, this is a duel contextualized by leadership. because he will take the responsibility for sigumen and his side of the fight, he's focusing all that grief over shan gudao, all that anger and blame on di feisheng alone, as the opposing head of the forces he's been clashing with. since the name of li xiangyi cannot be separated from sigumen (and by now i don't think li xiangyi could define himself as person from image even if he tried), now he attaches di feisheng to jinyuanmeng in his attempt to force him to take accountability. in li xiangyi's eyes, they're really not people in this duel. they're the faces of hundreds more warriors, and every move they make has the lives of those people hanging onto them.

to di feisheng, the fact that they stand alone on that ship means they are alone, cut loose from everyone and everything else in an isolated space. this is a fight in its purest form now. just two men and their blades, relying on their own physical/spiritual strength and nothing else. it's what di feisheng has been waiting for, this chance to challenge li xiangyi where both of them stand on truly equal ground. there is no sigumen or jinyuanmeng dragging them down. they've cut through all the noise of the jianghu that he doesn't care for, and they're just di feisheng and li xiangyi, two highly skilled people who get to see who's stronger in an environment no one else can influence.

(it's worth noting, i think, that di feisheng chose the location of the duel by situating himself and therefore li xiangyi who would find him out at sea, even though the majority of their forces were fighting on land. his men on the ship complained about how horrid a decision it was to be at sea in that weather (it's the first dialogue of the show), but this ensured that any outside/not predetermined interference during their head-to-head would be much more difficult.)

these views or motivations are so terribly at odds with each other. li xiangyi is fighting out of desperate rage and the need for retribution, weighed down more than ever by all the people who look up to him and depend on him to seek justice. di feisheng is fighting for fairly-won status and glory, and in his eyes, for the first time they have been granted the freedom to go against one another where nothing else needs to matter.

it shows in the moves both of them choose to make. namely, that di feisheng fights with more restraint, while li xiangyi fights quite viciously. i'm going to focus a bit more on di feisheng's role here, because i think this contrast on his part is interesting and works to subvert his initial reputation/image, something significant to his character throughout the show (or at least more than it is for li xiangyi).

i would argue that di feisheng is on the defensive for the majority of this fight, as his side has been this entire war. in the duel choreography he's blocking, dodging, or backing up a significant amount more than li xiangyi, who keeps pressing, launching new offenses wherever possible to search for an answer and revenge. there's a clear give and take between them as the fight progresses. and thanks to how this dynamic plays out, and with the background of these characters' motivations, there are three key pauses in the duel that stand out to me. they're all points where di feisheng could have moved on or killed li xiangyi, even as he was the one being attacked, but chose not to.

the first is when li xiangyi is pressed up against the ship wall, di feisheng's sword against li xiangyi's cheek, enough to cut but not enough to lethally wound. they're locked in this position for a good few seconds before either of them react. di feisheng could press forward and cleave his skull, since li xiangyi can't parry him. i couldn't get a good screenshot, but shaoshi is buried in di feisheng's shoulder here. for that di feisheng could also back up and away, given his injury. but he does neither. instead he freezes in place, doing nothing until li xiangyi draws his blade out of di feisheng, and makes the next move.

the second is when there's a lull in the action on the roof of the ship cabin. we get di feisheng's line “一个剑客不该有弱点” ("a swordsman shouldn't have weaknesses") and li xiangyi pausing as the bicha poison begins to take effect. this is another very long break where di feisheng could've taken advantage of li xiangyi being distracted, but he stands still. we learn later that he didn't even know li xiangyi had been poisoned then, so this isn't him dramatically pausing to revel in li xiangyi's pain. his opponent wasn't immersed in the fight, so di feisheng waited until he was. he only moves forward to meet him when li xiangyi chooses to.

these breaks turn the duel into a dance, almost, where di feisheng is letting li xiangyi lead and only moving with him (when they're both in the physical state to). he's fighting with too much respect and leniency to be out for blood the way li xiangyi is, with everyone else on that ship already dead. they're fighting the duel through vastly different lenses and neither of them have realized it yet.

that point of realization is this last pause, di feisheng's blade stabbed into li xiangyi while he stands over him in the rain. the fact that di feisheng isn't actively trying to kill is apparent in two different details here. the first is that di feisheng's blade missed li xiangyi's heart, even though his accuracy as a swordsman is incredible. the second is that, once again, he waits until li xiangyi can move again before attempting to do anything further— except this time he yells that he's won.

this is the moment it genuinely struck for me that their perspectives on this duel are so different. di feisheng dealt li xiangyi a wound that is serious in the moment, but for someone of li xiangyi's strength, he'll be fine in the end. it only takes him out in the short term, and within that time, what di feisheng is waiting for after calling his victory is for li xiangyi to concede the duel. to say it's over, and give over his name as the top swordsman. that's what di feisheng was after.

to him, when it came to li xiangyi, defeating the man and killing him were two different things.

but this isn't where it all stops, because li xiangyi didn't know this (how could he?) and he's fighting for more than ensuring his name remains above anyone else's. di feisheng is fighting cold, but li xiangyi still has so much anger, so much left to do. so much at stake and on his shoulders and 'defeat' and 'giving up' are luxuries he doesn't have.

when the blade in him and the poison taking greater hold pushes li xiangyi into needing a last stand, he refuses to hold anything back. he's an opportunist now, and di feisheng has given him an opening. so out comes wenjing in a surprise attack, there goes di feisheng impaled against the mast, and it all goes to hell. di feisheng can't fight honourably because li xiangyi is coming for his life, and for the first time after a pause like this, he's the one who attacks first.

their last skirmish is because now there's nowhere else for either of them to go. all other motivations have been shattered. either one of them must break, or they must fall together. and the latter is exactly what they do.

perhaps, in a thousand other worlds, the duel went differently. but in this one, li xiangyi fought because he thought they both represented everyone, and di feisheng fought because he believed they represented nothing more than themselves, and neither man could understand that the other didn't share their perspective. signalled though it was throughout the fight, and evenly matched though they were, they were fighting two separate battles on that ship. it wasn't anything they could help, only the result of contrasting lives in the jianghu and what it had shaped them both into. and so there was nothing that could come of that duel except for both of them to lose.

#not the direct theme of all this but i maintain that di feisheng is the most 侠义 character in present-day mlc #and this is where you see the foundations of it #anyways THANK YOU if you actually read all this #i've had these thoughts stewing in my head for days and it all came out tonight #but it doesn't end there. i came up with two other meta ideas in the process of writing this one #here to stay for the long run #also sidenote but i had xiao shunyao's intro rap verse to rock star by MIC on loop in my brain the entire time i was writing this #so i think you should all be proud of me that i got this done #mysterious lotus casebook #feihua #di feisheng #li xiangyi #mlc meta #ashton originals #li lianhua

[chuluoyi]

Chu did u ever receive hate. I'm curious sorry

ahahah of course i have nonnie 💁🏻‍♀️ i think every writer in jjk fandom must’ve already gotten at least one hate for just writing… i made an announcement post about being respectful once after receiving the ask and they never popped up again🤷🏻‍♀️

#i never brought it up but i really do think there’s a certain toxicity in jjk fandom #i never understand why tho i just think of them as trolls💁🏻‍♀️ #like it’s so weird… i’ve received hate anon asks that bashed another (kind) anon asks i’ve answered #and there’s one who hated my theme that they piled word ‘fuck’ 5x in a single sentence🤡 #and there are those also who feel like they don’t get presented with how i write — which is the most banal🤧 #if they don’t like it then don’t read—every writer has their creativity freedom and no one can restrict us #🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ #but thankfully there are more of you nice anons here <3 thank youu✨ #—chu’s mailbox 📬

[rosicheeks]

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#I’m getting hit with a massive wave of nostalgia now #I remember staying up ALL NIGHT working on changing my theme #I used to play in the html and add things #I looooved adding falling snow during the winter #I remember when having a music player at the top or somewhere on your blog was super popular #but ended up being incredibly annoying #cause half of the people put it on autoplay so when you entered someone’s blog you would get blown away by music #I remember having a whole different page for an about me #I wonder if I still have that up on mine #broooo I haven’t looked at my blog page on a laptop or anything in fucking AGES #I’m embarrassed to think what it might look like but whatever #most of us are using mobile anyway #or at least in my mind we are hahaha #so when I first started a blog I think I was in middle school??? like 12 or 13 hahahaha good times #my first url was SO CRINGE and I’m not going to say it cause I’m 😬😬😬😬😬 when I think about it #and then I slowly got more of a following and started doing smoke videos #I miss that community too :( #making smoke videos and tagging a bunch of stoner mutuals to ‘pass the bong/joint’ #and then they would make a video and tag me #awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhhhh #I haven’t logged into that tumblr in AGES omg #but then I decided to post content and I didn’t want to post it on my original blog in case it got flagged or anything #so I made this blog #and here we are 🥰 #but man I have SO many memories from my last blog #i made a friend in Belgium and we sent presents back and forth #I think only once but maybe twice #I still have the bracelet she sent me #can’t believe I’ve been on tumblr for most of my life lmao #but I’ve met SO many amazing people that I would have never have met

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt my dst swap au again it's so messed up that I can't just talk about hypothetical character kits 24/7 and actually have to make a plot that some characters are more or less relevant in because all I wanna do is talk about Wilba and Wortox kits cause they're silly goofy goobers

#rat rambles #starve posting #they are swapped with eachother btw #wilba's kit is much Much more krampus themed than wortox (which is a low bar since he had no krampus stuff but still dhdndgd) #basically her whole kit is built around her being klaus's daughter #she is completely immune to the negative effects of a hight naughty meter and gets a free present each winter as her passives #and she has her own crafting station which is her lil tinkerers table where she can craft some festive themed items and deer stuff #she can have up to two gem infused deer followers at a time and other deer dont run from her #I do think itd be kind of fun to give her an enraged form too to mirror her werepig form in canon but idk it might be a bit much #also when she does fight klaus the amount of krampus summoned mid fight increases based on her highest amount of naughty points that year #the main reason this matters is that due to her being spoiled by her dad she cant rly do krampus farming by herself #but this is somewhat balanced by the fact that once she gets one she can tinker with it at her crafting station and unlock a recipe #so this both acts as her dad punishing her for fighting him and as a way to make it a smidge easier to get that initial krampus sack #as for wortox hes kind of two characters built into one #but both are simpler since hes now a og ds dlc character (although tbf current in game wortox is even simpler but thats due to change) #theres normal piggy wortox who has fun criminal gimics and during the aporkalypse he gets sorta possesed ~oooo~ #outside of the aporkalypse hes attacked on sight by guards but passively has the theiving hat effect and it can further stack with the hat #he also can craft a lock picker to break into shops at night and a thieves sack which is like a krampus sack but held in the hand slot #he also wont be stolen from by other theives and can in fact trade with them for thieves stash maps #during the aporkalypse most enemies will become passive towards him and if he kills the he becomes the total ruller of all pigs #he can extort shops for whatever resources he wants and can kill or steal from whoever #but he has a pretty constant heavy negative sanity drain and lower max stats in general #also the chaos herald is still a potential issue although it wont immediately agro onto wortox #oh but if the aporkalyse is ended then his kingly status is revoked as the being that is seen as the ruler is no longer possesing wortox #I just thought that it was odd that no one in the hamlet dlc was given any aporkalypse related gimmics considering its so easy to ignore #I think itd be fun to have a character that incentivices engaging with it more even if its a risk to do so

[musical-chick-13]

Oh not me avoiding a wildly popular piece of media that I’d probably actually like out of sheer spite.

#maybe this is my True Toxic Trait but I just get really annoyed when all I hear is 'this thing is PERFECT it's EVERYTHING it's the only #TRULY high-quality media to EVER exist it is OBJECTIVELY better than literally EVERYTHING else it's the MOST IMPORTANT thing of ALL TIME' #like...again. not that you have to issue a disclaimer for media discussion of every single one of it's flaws before you earn the right to #talk about it. but if people keep holding something up as The Best Ever No Exceptions with literally no other commentary I just kind of... #get irritated to the point where I don't want to engage with the thing #I think in this case it's really...Objectively This Is The Best. I think that's what bothers me. because there IS no objective measurement #of art. it doesn't exist!! and that's okay!!!! just be honest!!!!!!! #'but mc13 what about your relationship to cxgf' well if you go back through my episode reviews you will see that I very much #acknowledged that some things could be done better and that it is not a perfect show because perfect media ALSO doesn't exist #and I've never said that it's the ONLY '''right''' way to present the themes it explores. there are a million different ways to do that #and it is the Greatest of All Time in MY OPINION. that's not going to be true of everyone!! and you can think something is the Best™ #WITHOUT PUTTING DOWN OTHER PIECES OF MEDIA /ESPECIALLY/ ONES THAT ARE NOT EVEN IN THE SAME GENRE OR HAVE THE SAME FUNCTION?????? #I'm also so tired of people saying 'it's good because it's gay™' like that tells me NOTHING #and like. the ideas/themes/concepts presented in this thing (from what I can tell) ARE present in other types of media and y'all REFUSE to #engage in those other things??? like you write them off and disparage them and basically unconditionally hate the things in them but #THIS time it's okay THIS is the exception and there is just NO awareness or critical thought there at all. it's the hypocrisy for me #In the Vents

[normaltothemax]

"Don't hate on the hat. Where's your holiday spirit?"

#✦ ic: clint barton #✦ verse: tbd (clint barton) #✦ open starter: clint barton #✦ open starter #less than 4 hours until christmas! #also i 100% believe that clint spent his afternoon at various childrens' hospitals giving out presents #as he does most years #fight me #i have santa hat clint icons you think im NOT gonna use them for christmas themed starters?

[radiotorn]

i need to draw o/ff characters again and post hcs abt them to my blog. oogoog

#i dont particularly like the popular hc that en/och eats his els/en. it feels weird to me for multiple reasons #KEEP IN MIND THIS IS ALL PERSONAL THINKINGS OK ok here i go #ik i said id post em on the blog but im abt to go to sleep so imma say it here #but like. mahybe im just crazy or looking too deep into things. but i dont see any reason for en/och = eats his els/en besides the fact #that hes fat. and like thats it from what i can rememebr. #like id ont. remember him saying any dialogue that would insinuate it?? #OK hold on clarifying = eats them alive/eats their bodies and NOT just eating burnt ashes/sugar #OR it could also be something that like was thought of bc of the horror element of the game + #the zone is a zone that is like Heeyyyy everyone eats everyone here :) so obvs it could just be like a horror hc to go with the theme #or environment of the zone #so like obvs im not gonna like. be upset over ppl liking the hc like to most people it seems just canon to them #but i do not like it....not one bit. he WOULD gaslight and manipulate his workers. absoltuely. but he would NOT eat them alive. #i feel like en/och is too much of like...he has high standards for his foods (chef it up. he can make the fanciest of meals and the nicest #of cakes). so i feel like he'd be like. insulted like ummmmmm no lol that is NOT very presentable. and gross. put their ashes in it and #dress it up and maybe ill eats it then :] yk???? #IDK. maybe im just thinking waayyyy too much into this. but i kinda dont care i love this game and i love en/och. #i dont need to fix him hes perfect as he is (manipulative and a cannibal but not like that way. ok?) #cant you let her win for once ????? #ok ok im done for now but for this game? my dear friends. i am ALWAYS open to talking about my thoughts #ow.file

[arcaneyouth]

started making a power point presentation about my ocs, made 2 slides, and then just stopped. i <3 creativity

#vent post #negative #mainly for the tags. heres your warning i got sad #to be fair. MOST of the problem is i want to make a power point presentation studying the themes of the story and every characters arc #which is a lot of fucking things! and i don't know how to organize it at all. and it of course has to touch on spoilers #but the other problem is overwhelming thoughts of 'nobody wants to see this' 😔 #which is so frustrating cause i have so much proof its not true #people tell me they love my stories and characters all the time. i'm so lucky for that #oh wait lol figured it out. i don't want to make a power point presentation actually #it just feels like the only way i'll ever be able to get across all the thoughts i have without being a bother #but i have a difficult time actually working with power points so it's not actually that fun to make #so i'm not even doing this for my sake i'm doing it for everyone else again god damn it #huh. i don't even really want to ramble about The Themes and the character arcs #i think i just want someone else to do it. to prove that i'm not the only one that sees it or something #to engage with my story and show me They Get It #it feels unreasonable to want but i do want someone to point at the themes and point at specific panels and give me their ideas on it #so we can bounce back and forth discussing the meaning and how the story functions which is my favorite thing ever #but i can't ask people to do that. that takes a lot of effort especially Right Now when everything is awful all the time #and i accept that cause jesus christ everything is awful all the time #but boy can i yearn #hyperfixating on my ocs is very cool. i do love it. i love caring so unbearably much about some guys i made #it does get lonely sometimes tho

[belovedfarseer]

i have literally so many thoughts about that finale but suffice to say that hero of ages > final empire >>>>>>>>> well of ascension (and hero of ages might be one of sandersons best books, period)

#like its Thight between hoa and final empire but i think hoa is better #because the questionable politics that plague mistborn as a whole arent as prevalent in hoa #dont get me wrong - these issues still are present (particularly in spooks plotline) but this is the book about saving the world #sanderson was wise to drop most of the political stuff and just have an epic finale for the trilogy and it fucks #genuinely #instead he focuses on the things from final empire that really stand out to me like the themes of faith and trust and hope and all that #he picked exactly the right characters as pov #sazed's arc is amazing marsh's role is amazing spook's arc is showstopping #breeze goes back to a minor role which is perfect cuz i hate him #elend is more than good this time #like i still have my gripes with his character but hes good in this book AND the vin and elends relationship shines it worked so well #mistborn spoilers #also the prose is better the horror atmosphere is really well executed #lots of really good imagery #incredible action #the vin vs the inquisitors fight really stood out i think it was one of sandersons best fights hell perhaps his BEST fight #much to think about honestly

[sea-changed]

I’m increasingly interested in Parade not only as a piece of historical fiction but also as a piece of historiography in its own right--I was lucky enough to attend a show that included a talkback afterward with Jason Robert Brown, Alfred Uhry, Ben Platt, and Micaela Diamond, and something I can’t stop thinking about is JRB mentioning that the definitive historical work on the Frank case wasn’t published until 2001, several years after Parade’s first Broadway run, and even longer after Brown and Uhry began writing it. JRB talked about reading the book and thinking, “well, that would’ve been nice to know!” (his words) about parts of it.

He also talked about how Ben and Micaela and people of their generation know about the Leo Frank case specifically because of the musical--that popular memory has not preserved it outside this one particular telling of it. (This is of course a simplistic reading of it, and not many people know about Parade either quite frankly, but nonetheless.)

And then, of course, there is the information that the show itself tells us at both beginning and end: that Frank was pardoned in the 1980s without a referendum on his guilt one way or the other, and that the case was reopened in 2019 and the investigation is still ongoing. In many ways Parade is not historical fiction in a traditional sense, because it is not commenting on and interpreting a historical event, but rather litigating a still literally active case, and the production doesn’t shy away from this or the politics of the work (the projection of the historical marker before the show even starts, the ending information on the ongoing case, Senator Warnock’s recording at the beginning, even the ongoing and I thought quite clunky projections of the real historical figures throughout the show). And this was of course brought home especially chillingly by the neo-Nazi protests at the first preview, as well.

Parade is not historically accurate, and I believe was not even accurate to what Brown and Uhry knew when writing it (though I need to do further research about this). But also, this particular brand of historical fiction throws into doubt the very concept of “historical accuracy,” I think--no telling of the Frank story can be historically accurate by traditional standards I think (though of course it can still be more or less accurate based upon the information we have available). I also learned at the talkback that Uhry’s great-uncle was the manager of the factory where Frank was a supervisor--so certainly he isn’t coming to the material from a more traditional, secondary source-based historical fiction perspective.

I’ve drifted somewhat from my point, and at the end of the day I’m slightly unsure as to what my point really is, but--despite that Parade cannot be classed as a piece of historical scholarship, which it certainly is not, I do wonder if it can be classed either as historical fiction per se, and I’m trying to grapple with how it might be situated within the historiography of the Frank case given its own situation and the uniquely unsettled historiography of the Frank case to begin with.

#which of course ties directly into the themes of the show itself (past as present.) but this post was too long already #parade #parade musical #parade broadway #i had most of this written in my drafts already but i cannot stop thinking about it and this seemed as good a time to post it as any

[bibiana112]

Finished Danganronpa Lapse and tbh nobody gets it like I do because every review I've seen wasn't made by someone who's played zero escape Why did Echo do that? ZTD shifting strats that's why! Lyle's canonically a zero escape nerd who brings up the morphogenetic field as a quick joke and is introduced arguing about the funyarinpa, do I think all these references get in the way and that it's a bit underwhelming when this comes unexplained out of nowhere? Absolutely! But it's so clearly an element the creator was inspired by and wanted to include and play with rather than a lazy last minute deal to fix 'plot holes'

#honestly I enjoyed this game a lot and only let myself play because it ties into current hyperfixation but #it #wasn't fun to do the whole shifting thing again felt like it was way too caught up on both it's influences and trying to be it's own thing #at be very same time somehow #I liked it when it for ehat it was though #I found the characters charming to no end but sadly unexplored for the most part #loved Lyle loved Sei and Missy and so many others I want to draw them all so bad (is stranded away from drawing tablet and otherwise busy) #the bad endings inclusion feels weird #when the shifting started I thought for a second that we'd get two different trials depending on our choice which didn't turn out to be it #which I feel would have been a more fun exploration of concept than what we got #it's a free game and it's imoressive for what we got presentation wise I was in love with it begining to end I think the issues are more #at like a conceptual level #decisions that were made that could have used some more passes or even more people's input? not sure but it felt like a personal oc project #which is nice to see but just probably what's not matching expectations since the polish it lacks is in such a story structure kind of way #like the pacing and the order in which new concepts and themes are presented is a bit dissonant #and people's expectations of it being a fangan only exacerbate that slight issue #it was shorter than I expected and while I do think the pacing would have benefited from more time I get how it'd be a big undertaking #I'm overall happy and will go back to get the ending I missed but it mostly feels like there's untapped potential there #which is a great sign that whatever next project the person tackles will be pretty good #and also that I may or may not blorbo out to fill in the gaps #only time will tell though lol #danganronpa lapse

[llycaons]

sorry one more. jc fans will watch jc encourage wwx as he kills himself and then turn around and act like jc is wwxs victim

#cannot put into words how mich I loathe the trope of 'how dare you leave me' in this context #I def think its in character I just think its super shitty and unfair and antithetical to all of wwxs themes and arc #estrangement is painful but its such a slap in the face to act like wwxs life AND death are about jc #hes his own person! he has made his own choices and forged his own path #at least in his death id hope ppl would give him the respect of not acting like jc had it worse #of acting like jc was wwxs victim that day #or that he suffered the Most whatever that means and it justifies his actions #ik this sounds fully strawman but I swear to god ive seen shit like this #like content of jc blaming wwx for HIS OWN DEATH and presenting it as wholesome and brotherly is the number one surefire way to lose me #it can be real for the character but at least acknowledge how shitty and selfish it is esp in this context #cql txp

[cassioppenny]

arven's story is about living in the present. no longer dragged down by the past or worrying for the future. by creating connections to the protag along with nemona and penny he was able to move on from his lonely childhood and not be afraid of an even lonelier future. something his parents couldn't do

#arven is my skrunkly forever and i love him #i think nemona and penny also follow the theme of learning to live in the present too but arven is the most obvious with the theme #might make additional posts about them but yeah

[musical-chick-13]

Genuinely I absolutely, thoroughly hate the way people have gotten in regard to "You can write fic about dark subjects, but don't ever go into detail about those subjects" (if they even concede that people are "allowed" to write about anything unpleasant at all).

Because I just read an excellent one that was...very fucked-up! Actually!!! But it was also a nuanced and gripping examination of abuse--switching between the POV of the abuser (who lies to themselves about the reality of their actions, making their POV sections all the more uncomfortable for it), their victim (who lies to themselves in a different way, by refusing both to acknowledge their own victimhood or to consider the ways they later come to continue that cycle) and, eventually, an outside party (who is the only one aware of the true reality, and tries (and fails) to help, through the comparatively powerless ways that are available to them).

And this thing was not reserved in any way regarding its depiction of all of this. It didn't cut away cleanly after a vague uncomfortable comment for the reader to fill in every single blank for themselves. There were even times where the victim themselves was under the impression that they were genuinely enjoying what happened, because they convinced themselves that they had control over a situation they never had control over!!! And I know that...certain people. Would absolutely accuse this fic of "romanticizing abuse" because of these things. Which I think is an INCREDIBLY unfair assessment of it, especially since most of the time the discussion of "romanticizing [x]" is less a discussion and more, "I don't care what the author intended, this story simply shouldn't exist because this is incontrovertible proof they are a horrible person in reality, also they should die."

#do NOT ask me what the fic was if this post finds the type of people I'm complaining about they would 100% go and harass this person #I'm also thinking about that One Scene in shiki (b/c I'm thinking about shiki a lot in general during many days) in the hospital with the #experimentation. and THAT one is horrifying and grisly too but I wouldn't take it out? the most brutal act we see is by a human. #the most realistic horror is perpetrated by the guy who thinks he's In The Right that MEANS something. it's INTEGRAL to the story's themes! #and like. yeah sometimes these things CAN come across as fetishistic (or at the very least...WILDLY ineffective) or gratuitous #but that's not automatically the case? #like I really do think there's a middle ground here between 'ALL depictions of EVERYTHING are EQUALLY effective and we do not EVER need to #consider how various topics are typically presented in art (especially when it's meant for a mainstream public audience)' and #'SOME things should NEVER be talked about or if you HAVE to they can ONLY be done THIS specific way or else you should KILL YOURSELF' #like I think we can gauge a story's effectiveness and cultural context and optics on a given issue with. you know. actual nuance. #tw: abuse #tw: suicide baiting #tw: death threats #tw: abuse mention #I'm trying to cover all the tags that people might have blacklisted

[sickly-victorian-boy]

What is your Hogwarts house?

I’d rather not align myself with media created by people who are currently causing immense harm to people similar to me and many of those I care about. Sorry.

#HP was my childhood fixation and just thinking about it stings #I know it’s irrational but neurodivergent child me latched onto that world like a barnacle #and as a result most of my happy childhood memories are now tainted with the knowledge of how horrible things truly are #I am fully in favor of appreciating works while still being critical of them and their creators #HOWEVER when the works and creator are presently causing harm and not long-deceased it’s an entirely different situation #at least my primary ‘house’ color was my favorite color anyway so redecorating my formerly themed room wasn’t too difficult #I could just remove overt references to make my space less horrible to be in #anon - my apologies for rambling and for not answering you #the topic is just quite unpleasant for me and my brain won’t let me go unless I muse over things #I’d rather enjoy both wizards and academics in entirely different ways thank you #also I apologize for any typos it’s nearly a quarter to four am