#but i have these stupid essays to finish

[slonechnik]

oh but what do you see in harry why do you like him so much whats so good about him he stinks hes an addict hes done fucked up shit hes not even cute how can you find anything attractive in him how do you find anything good like AAAAAAAA

ITS ABOUT CHOICE! THERES SO MANY BAD OPTIONS TO CHOSE FROM BUT THERE IS STILL AN OPPORTUNITY TO DO SOMETHING INCREDIBLY KIND AS HARRY

YOU CAN BE AN ULTRALIBERAL YOU CAN BE A MORALIST A FASCIST EVEN BUT YOU CAN ALSO CONSCIOUSLY CHOSE NOT TO PURSUE ANY OF THESE ROUTES

ITS ABOUT HAVING CAPACITY TO DO GOOD IN A WORLD THAT ACTIVELY DISCOURAGES YOU FROM IT IN A SYSTEM THAT EVEN PUNISHES YOU FOR IT

ITS ABOUT CAPACITY FOR CHANGE ITS ABOUT THE BEAUTY OF HUMAN RESILIENCE

and honestly so what if hes an addict! im surrounded by addicts! theres an alcoholic living next door theres acoholics at a family function theres a bunch sitting at a bench near the church or at the park theres an addict i love theres an addict i just met or some that i just heard of and some are kind some are not some are trying to get help some arent some stopped using and some havent and they all deserve at least the basic modicum of respect and kindness and aid harry might be fictional but all his troubles and ailments are not theyre real things that happen to real people! and i do empathize with that! sometimes i even relate! and it does make me love him as a character very much!

and frankly i dont care if hes conventionally attractive im tired of conventionally attractive im tired of seeing the same cardboard cutout of a pretty face and perfect abs okay! i find the receding hairline delightful! i love a belly! thick arms are wonderful! i dont care that his ass is flaccid thats where all our asses head towards and theres beauty in it! and in the flamboyant mismatched clothing and weird hairstyles and questionable facial hair! and idc abt the bloating or the redness i have a red face too! perpetually! i think its cute! and its also a testament to the resilience of human body and it is inherently beautiful to me!

and he stinks bc hes on a bender and forgot everything and doesnt even know what money is give him time honestly you can work up to a good hygiene and a good routine

okay im done goodbye

#disco elysium #harry dubois #harrier du bois #riemblings #ive seen one post too many ill probably feel stupid about this tomorrow but for now im going to sleep or finish writing my stupid essay #i hate having adhd but thats besides the point okay #i love harry a lot idcidcidcisc #message me with your harry critique when you manage to not make it abt his disabilities or his looks or his addiction #hes far from perfect hes done horrible things! and yet everyone is focused on him having shit hygiene and a drug and alcohol problem #okay im fine now!! im fine! im okay!!

[eerrratt]

Hey!! Look!! It's Joe!!!

#I missed my old art style uffhfhffjdi #sorry for the bad anatomy I just wanted to finish this as soon as possible #i have a lot of stuff to do (I hate you stupid essay) #fnaf #fnaf fandom #fnaf security breach #fnaf sb #solar lunacy #joe my beloved #why y/n looks... so... cool?!! lol

[figofswords]

anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself. #well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!! #stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!! #but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh

[silvr-skreen]

I CAN FINALLY KILL MYSELF /ref

This took a whole weekend, and is the USC version of every single secretary and facility manager (+ the Task Manager as the Boardbot facility manager)

They're at a party of something idfk man I'm tired.

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #corporate clash #jennifer jackson #judy judkins #jason jinkins #jewel joules #janet jennings #mint supervisor #factory foreman #head attorney #club president #YEAH. I AM TAGGING THEM I SPENT 4 DAYS STRAIGHT ON THIS. YOU WILL SEE IT. #sorry i am very tired #Yes Janet & the Foreman are married they're in terrible love together (USC lore stuff) #NO. I have not finished the cog boss lore dump. I AM WRITING STUPID ESSAYS FOR MY STUPID BACHELORS DEGREE #also Nyx/Head Attorney not drinking is intentional they're on meds which interact poorly w/ alcoholic drinks #ft. Kaddie and Jason's intense rivalry.

[bedcorpse]

but yeah to piggyback off that post y'all have to understand that if you're not usamerican or got lucky in regards to english teachers, even writers like myself got so sick of being handed boring, surface-level interactions with media and being discouraged from anything else that ofc we hated having to explain why the curtains are blue. because it wasn't a discussion of "okay is this meant to set a tone? tell us something about the character, like is blue their favorite color? or is it meant to symbolize something deeper? what are the different ways we could interpret this?" it was "the curtains are blue because the main character is sad. we don't have time for anything else bc public schools are wildly underfunded and overcrowded depending on the district and i make like 40k a year so any differing opinions will be shrugged off at best and punished at worst."

#emma shut up #how about you apply some of your own nuance for literature to like. actual human beings. #like i LIKED english i write essays for fun in my adult life and put them on yewchewb. and i went thru a 'THE CURTAINS ARE JUST BLUE' phase #because it felt pretentious to me because we weren't engaging with the text on a level that mattered #also most assigned reading for classes suck sorry. like shakespeare and to kill a mockingbird are outliers #i had to read shit like the fountainhead which was so long and stupid we didn't even finish it #also i can't imagine being autistic or having a learning disability that made reading for comprehension difficult #and being forced to do that shit. like whata fuck i can barely remember what i read and now you want me to explain color palettes?

[momobani]

i gotta ask, why on earth is it today of all days my neighbours decide to be loud assholes? it's usually quiet af but no, they have to have a rave when midterms are due next week??? (our building is mostly students so like they should be affected too)

honestly perish.

#i'm trying to finish an essay for tomorrow just leave me alone 😭😭😭 #i'm so done today #i stayed off tumblr for ages but i came to complain on my stupid lil blog 😔 #i did have a good day tho saw the piwon fanmeet and got my xdz tix but like i almost finished my essay #i need quiet ffs

[kellystar321]

.

#vent #periodical life updates #OUGHGKJHR IM SO FUCKIGN TIRED!!! i did my two final projects and one of them was late but god fucjgign whatever and i look at my stupid #canvas calendar and apparently while i was doing that i missed two other assignments and discussion boards and im SO TFIGIFJNNG TIRED #I CANT WORK ANYMORE I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE IM SO TIRED. THEY'RE JUST THERE AND THE DEADLINES WERE WRONG AND ITS SO MUCH. #AND IT NEVER FCKING STOPS AND /GODDAMNIT I JUST REALIZED I MISSED DAILY ECA/ FCKGIGJNG SHT OF COURSE I DID GOD #I NEVER HAVE TIME ANYMORE I NEVER GET TO DO WHAT I WANT AND IM SO ANGRY. WHY WAS I FORCED TO DO FOUR CLASSES. I CANT DO FOUR CLASSES. #theres too much goddamn work and i cant do it!! i have two more essays! i have two discussion boards for environmental and another for a #different class and more assignments on top of that AND WHEN CAN EVERYONE SHUT UP AND STOP I DONT CARE ANYMORE I WANT TO BE DONE #AND THIS ISNT EVEN DONE!! BECAUSE I HAVE TO DO MORE FCKING CLASSES IF EVERYONE WANTS ME TO BE A COMPUTER FCKING SCIENCE MAJOR SO BADLY #AND MY SHT WONT TRANSFER AND WHAT DOES IT FCKING MATTER ANYMORE. IM EXHAUSTED AND ITS ALWAYS MORE WORK AND WHO FCKING CARES ANYMORE #IM SO FCIGJGN ANGRY I HATE COLLEGE I HATE THIS WHOLE SYSTEM AND IM SO TIRED ALL THE TIME AND I NEVER GET TO REST!! YOU THINK YOU'RE FINALLY #FINISHED AND THERES ALWAYS FCKIGNG MORE WHEN IS IT GOING TO BE OVER WHEN AM I DONE WHEN AM I /DONE!!!!/ #i hate everything everything is bad and i cant even say the truth to anyone ever. no one fucking gets it. no one fucking talk to me anymore

[bloomingsalma]

bro I literally forgot to write a conclusion for my essay??? 😃😃

#okay listen for CONTEXTTTT #I had my entire essay written out except for the conclusion #but I was like “lemme just format all this in mla and list all the citations and write out the ones I don't have citations for” #“and do the title and glossary and all and THEN do my conclusion” #since all the formatting and such is pretty exact and needs to be precise #whereas the conclusion eh I can rush through a bit more when I'm close to the deadline #oh also this is all happening half an hour before the deadline 😃 #so I finish the formatting but it is like 11:55 and I am so stressed and the formatting took sm time #that I both forgot about the conclusion and didn't have enough time for it anyways #so I finish immediately submitted it #and yup that baby was submitted raw no proofreading 😃 #and I only realizing twenty minutes later I didn't actually write the stupid conclusion GAHHHHH #salmaspeaks

[ragnars-tooth]

Medieval/fantasy au be upon ye: the gang reconvenes and discusses their next steps

Oh god, so this one requires me to get into what the hell this au is about and uhhhh I don’t… know?? Yet???

I’ve got some broad sweeps down but the details are for the most part hazy rn

(That got long fast whoopsie!!)

SO:

- The Pennykettles are the royal family, Lucy is the heir. David is not strictly related to Liz or Lucy, but he was raised in proximity to the crown and later made the equivalent to a prince in title (basically, he’s not really royalty, he can’t take the crown, and he doesn’t do anything important, but he is the court’s funny little guy and you will apologise to him rn for hurting his feelings!! He acts as a figurehead in the Pennykettles’ place for some festivals, and is generally well liked by the public despite being dumb as rocks.)

- More on David: he was raised by the monks of Avalon (pushing my Arthur & Bernard agenda on this fine evening), one of which Liz eventually married (take a wild guess).

- The royal line carries down the women, Arthur is basically arm candy. He and Liz are very queer-platonic to me. Their role is to act as ‘ambassadors’ between dragons and humankind. It’s mostly symbolic at this point, as dragons are very respected and mostly left to their own devices. Their perches are treated as holy places where offerings are left, and they don’t bother themselves with humans as long as things continue to roll smoothly.

- (To be clear, Arthur is not Lucy’s father. I may well go with canon’s egg shit because it works maddeningly well here. It is also important to me that you know Arthur is still blind. I will hold this man in my disabled arms mwah you are safe here)

- THE PENNYKETTLE DRAGONS? They’re still here baybey, but REAL ALL OF THE TIME. They’re a small species of living dragons – I haven’t worked out the exact origin story here yet, whether Liz still breathed life into them from something non-living, or if they’re just juveniles that will eventually become as big as Gawaine. We shall see, I suppose. I imagine that they act like very needy cats that attach themselves to their human and follow them about. God I wish I had a little dragon guy.

- The royal library is run by Henry Bacon (HE LIVES. FUCK YOU.) and his apprentice, Zanna Martindale. David also used to apprentice here before being adopted by the crown. It took Zanna a while to get over the boy she used to throw books at and make daisy chains for becoming effectively a prince. They are in love <3 (no Alexa yet, sorry (unless…. Hm, I will get back to you on this…) bc I see David and Zanna being Firestar ages, and Lucy being older than usual at around 16/17)

- Zanna has a vaguely middle-class upbringing (as far as the concept exists), with a doctor/dentist father and an older sister.  (Ngl. Forgot zanna had a real dentist dad and just made henry her father originally. And now to fix it I’m considering marrying them. It would be funny literally only to me. But it Would be funny. Local doctor and librarian have a weird unacknowledged little gay thing going on. Good for them <3)

- I don’t know how but Melanie Cartwright is in there somewhere and she and Lucy are dating. I am right. You will understand the kettlewright agenda by the time im through with you.  

- Lucy is in her teenage angst era but at least this time it’s just sort of silly instead of a result of horrific trauma. She’s just smothered by loving parents and thinks she could totally make it as an independent adult with no survival skills. She is wrong!

- (Lucy voice: God I hate my parents, they keep saying they love me every twelve seconds 🙄 I just want to do normal things like commit property damage and travel cross-country with nothing but a bag of cheese and scare old man Bacon. Instead all I can do is count my stacks of money and play fetch with my fire-breathing cat. This fucking blows!! They never let me do anything fun :/)

- Tam is a wannabe poet who becomes a knight. On his first day after a big promotion he promptly loses the crown’s only princess and decides that the best course of action is to fake his death and live in the forest. I can’t say I blame him.

- During Tam’s self-imposed exile he comes across is stalked by Bella (the catgirl). He finds her very annoying and is not at all her father now. He also hates cats and would never ever pet one and let it fall asleep in his lap. He is a man of principles and sticks to his finely tuned moral compass. By lying. And running away.

- Regarding Lucy’s disappearance – it was her way of getting away for a bit for fun only child shenanigans, but ultimately ends in her (crown princess, very recognisable, her face is on like. Everything.) getting kidnapped for real.

- Unbeknownst to Tam, David had also disappeared during official business, and Zanna is nowhere to be found. The crown is left in a precarious place, and it soon appears to be under real threat.

- Spoilers: Voss is about, and there is a lot he’s willing to take.

- On lighter notes: Gwilanna and the Chamberlain boys are absolutely still in this because I am so fucking predictable. Tootega come here I can treat you so much better mwah mwah. Well… maybe Gwilanna isn’t a lighter note. But she is there! This will have no consequences on anyone or anything, I’m sure! :3

PLEASE DEAR GOD ASK ME QUESTIONS IF YOU HAVE THEM. I swing violently between wanting to give every single plot detail rn and wanting to go write the actual fic so things can be revealed ✨mysteriously✨

#the last dragon chronicles #tldc #david rain #zanna martindale #lucy pennykettle #tam farrell #bella tldc #i swear her surname came up but i cant find it rn rip #ragnar art #fantasy au #ig?? idk i need a tag for this stuff so i dont flood the main tag all the time #<-- also like generally im gonna try to keep sketches out of the main tag i think #unless its sm i spent a long time on (like this) im gonna keep it quiet bc im just hyperaware theres not a lot of us and i want it to be #easy to ignore my self indulgent stuff lol #i mean.... ALL my tldc stuff is self indulgent but you get what i mean #had to draft this post in my word docs and now i have a 4k essay on tam and how stupid david's 'move' to uni was #(it is not in a postable state) #realising that if i want analysis of the books in this fandom i gotta write them myself /j #if the formatting breaks after i had to readd the images like six times ill eat my shoe #if ur wondering why im suddenly active too its bc i have less than a week to finish an essay i have nothing written for <3 #so um... slay! #ok i gotta just shut up and post at some point dont i #matt posts: 40 colour variants that are barely different and tags that are 9 miles long

[legallypumpkinn]

“…lest we literally die.” has gotta be one of my favorite things I’ve written for this essay.

#it’s an essay on Carl Sagan’s ‘The Demon Haunted World’ which is due like the day school starts #and I would’ve finished it at the start of the summer I think except for the fact that the audio book is like actually 14 hrs long #so instead I’m doing it just b4 school starts 🎉 #my txt #I like this quote bc it completely changes the tone of the essay for only two words #to emphasize the impact they should have #bc Carl Sagan is smart but this book completely grazes past the ‘wgy’ of so many things #like ‘haha humans r so stupid for sticking to conspiracy theories which have been proven false’ #but like we can’t FULLY blame them #because humans intrinsically require familiarity and are a hard species to break of this fact #bc we seek patterns and what we know has been provably safe is what we will stick to until we are literally forced to stop #I’m so tired man

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

did not mean to sleep until 4pm. well ok.

#can’t even read call that much today because i have two essays to write #unless i put one off until 5 tomorrow but then it’s due midnight so that sucks #also update on the group project thing. she is being so incredibly annoying rn #like. how to politely say bitch i have better things to do than look at pictures while texting you for 2 hours at 7pm. #we’re essentially making a moodboard. like. be serious we don’t have to do that 4 days in advance as if it’s going to be sooo hard #like. i know i’m supposed to be taking this seriously we’re making a short film i can’t just blow it off #but she is acting like this is the most important thing i should be doing on a sunday at 7pm. #it’s due THURSDAY. we’re making a collection of PICTURES. i could do this in 3 hours wednesday night by myself if i needed to #god she’s pissing me off. is it mean to just ghost her until tomorrow #like i told you i had a lot of other stuff to do. i told you we have a lot of time to finish. i told you it was fine and we don’t need to #stress out about this stupid thing so much. and you are acting like i was asking you a question. no girl i was Telling you i’m not doing it #UGHHHHH

[publicuniversalenemy]

well well well. isnt THIS a rare treat >:)

#i thought i had Permanently burned out all my media analysis braincells on my stupid fucking LDR essay #(that i still need to fucking finish. that shit is. literally already like 5 pages and im not even halfway done jfc) #but i am having THOUHGTS about eat your young #rejoice!!!! the braincells have RESPAWNED!!!!! #also i Will be off my hozier shit soon just gimme a week or so #whatever the fuck

[ca-3]

@ person who asked me my likes and dislikes of P5... I hope you know you got a storm coming...

#everyone shut up. im about to write a stupid rambling media essay again #it will probably take me a while cause i do have A LOT of thoughts but id say they are overall positive??? #but who knows how many tangents ill go on lmaooo #text #ca3 says #i know someone asked me before but i hadnt finished the game yet at the time soooo yeah #some thoughts have changed

[welcometogrouchland]

Absolutely fascinating to be in the middle intersection of knowing that Thing is really popular, and that because Thing is popular there's a fair bit of vocal backlash to thing (because people are very mad Thing is popular when they don't like it) and you find yourself running through the unpleasant takes (not bad, just not what you're here for) from people who don't like Thing like snow white running through the scary fucked up forest until you finally find the fucking cottage where people who like Thing talk about Thing. Then you pass out in the cottage and when you wake up a bunch of small and opinionated creatures still carrying their burdens from the content mine arguing about Thing and also now your presence in relation to Thing bc you were clearly fleeing from the bad takes forest. This metaphor isn't what I wanted it to be but you get the idea

#ramblings of a lunatic #it's 20 to 1 in the am rn I am waiting for this stupid fucking DVD to encode #I've been doing this for 11 hours and 15 minutes according to the tracker and I'm. actually so close to the brink of eternal damnation #because of the fucking disk #anyway i. am not your dad and cannot tell you how to live your life but I do think that it's probably a tad impolite- #-to tag your dislike of Thing with nothing except the Thing tag. like no ''Thing critical'' no ''anti Thing'' #or anything else that's easy to censor and block #just putting it in the tag for people who like Thing #alright. that's a choice but alright #I'm very tired. #either someone needs to rock me to sleep like a baby or theh shoot me out back like a dog #hi sorry i took a break from making this to check on DVD and IT DIDN'T WORK!!!! I FUCKING ENCODED IT WRONG AND FOR WHAT #TO WAIT FOR ELEVEN HOURS NOT KNOWING I FUCKED UO #IT'S ONE AM #GOD FUCKING DAMMIT #fuck it. man. I'm finishing my big essay tomorrow anyway. I'm gonna fuckin. do that. and then I'm gonna burn these dvds #i only have about. 3 days to do em all (and i still need to get some. sweats) #but yknow what fuck it what else am I doing. who cares!!! #i was gonna type something mean here but i have to hope that my fuckups and failures will not be for nothing #god. anyway #night yall. happy last day of December

[leatherbookmark]

mother is watching the last episode of miss the dragon and mannnnn zanzan is Acting, he’s shaking, he’s making Panicked Eyes, he’s doing it all! even with the uhhh moderately complex material he was given! but ycly is like 😐 you killed the love of my life whom i protected for three lifetimes. it hurt a lot. i will now. give this pain back to you a fuckton of times. while zanzan goes from gfjhgkjshfkj emperor please save me i don’t want to die!! to just plain out AAAAAAAAAAAAAA (tortured screaming) like there’s Emotion! meanwhile our no 1 romantic interest: 😐

#idk if its just those dramas or if dramas nowadays really are like. 'softer' #but like. why are we voldemorting the antagonists now? why not kill them with a big sword. why not have them and the protagonist bite each #others dicks off (more or less literally) make it BLOODY make it VICIOUS make it look like a PROPER final fight! nooooo one dude is going #to be all GRRRRR GRRRRR and the other will make a hand gesture and explode him with his mind. boring and stupid #is the fake blood more expensive? they're not spitting blood as nicely as they did in like. cql #let them take a nice glug of that and go all out on their lower face and chest! what the fuck is a tasteful streak down their chin #it is NOTHING i tell you NOTHING #shrimp thoughts #i know i said the exact same thing back when i was watching mtd in real time And when i was finishing mirror or rather the last clip #kk so kindly posted (just remembered his 3k characters essay and im LAUGHING he really said we could have had it all! and peaced out) #anyway. give me blood and adult men biting each other please & thanxx

[girlscience]

i am having a quarter life crisis about being painfully average and idk what to do about it.

#i own less than other people but i am definitely not minimalist #i am nerdier than a lot of people in my life but less so than super nerdy people #i like anime but not THAT much #i like horror but not THAT much #i draw but not super often or very well #i read but not so much that i finish hundreds of books a year #i dress like a midwest jcpenney hot topic and goodwill had a baby #i don't have some cool style #i want to exercise but can't ever seem to put effort into it #i am not fat i am not skinny i am not beautiful i am not ugly #i am not extremely intelligent i am not extremely stupid #i have low empathy but not so low as to be very noticeable to other people #i like rock and punk and alt music but i am not part of a music subculture #i like stories but i don't write interesting media analysis essays #i am just very very.... walmart midwest american. #there is nothing super distressing about me but also nothing super exciting either #i like things but not SOOOO much. i dislike things but not SOOOO much #i wish i had one thing about me that was super awful or super exciting #i am plain. like vinyl tile flooring. off white walls. blue t-shirts. saltine crackers.