#but actually all my friends are coke girlies and I DONT GET IT

[without-it]

ok i lied i love to update u guys. heres updates and general tips and goals for the next fast ❤️

said id wait till thursday but at my core im a little silly guy who loves to lie and tell untruths!! so heres the fasting tea abt wrapping up that last 90 hour fast and starting this one

first off, the refeeding and weight gain update from the two days of eating "normally" : weight update this morning, from my last weigh in on monday, i gained about 1/3 of a pound (i lost just over 10 pounds so really good return) so really happy with that honestly. refeeding is such a huge and often overlooked aspect to fasting, and if its handled wrong it can often negate all ur hard work.

when i refeed i focus on PLAIN low calorie foods. if you end a fast with curry to be perfectly honest ur gonna shit urself to death and have a fucking miserable time lmao. my go to is a PLAIN UNSEASONED steamed veggie dish (usually steamed broc and corn, broc bc low calorie and corn bc i am a corn GIRLIE), and often with miso soup to go with it. unseasoned foods help with the upset tummy after ending a fast, and get ur body used to actually processing glucose again. and miso soup is just a nice low calorie simple food to add some fun into that meal. pls dear god do not eat sweet foods / high salt / high seasoned in general / or heavy meat or sauced dishes as a fast breaking meal. if youve fasted for more than a 4 days im not joking you can literally end up dying from that so just be responsible shawtie damn. (look up refeeding syndrome im not a doctor so im not gonna give u the lowdown)

things to focus on during the fast to help prevent rapid weight gain: drink ur god damn liquids. i dont care if ur getting water in thru diet soda or tea or fizzy water or even coffee. that is water, that is a pro and do not listen to ppl who say that water "doesnt count". when you restrict liquids during a fast you will obvi lose more weight in the short term, but during refeeding if u start drinking normally again (as i really hope u are lmao) you will gain this water weight rapidly. u turned ur body into a desert for a few days, and best believe the second u have more liquid ur body is gonna hang on to that for dear life. its better for u and less stressful in the long run to just keep up ur liquid intake during fasts trust me.

and then this is my go to routine for every fast:

every day i take these suppliments: high strength collagen, iron, zinc, a womens multivit, and the unsung hero of fasting? FIBER TABLETS. bro i can fast for over a week and still not be constipated bc im on my SIGMA FIBER GRINDSET

and then my daily intake: at least a liter of water every day with the "Endura brand low carb sugar free electrolyte drink" (in lemon lime flavor) (i put 2 scoops aka 2 serves per liter of water) the taste is super mid but honestly drinking that every day on my last fast made things such a breeze. literally like no headaches, no cramps, minimal dizziness, and my sleep was mostly uneffected.

then i also have either a can or two of coke zero. yes i know it has 1.1 calories and diet coke would be technically more appropriate for a fast, but i hate diet coke and u will not catch my ass drinking it

and then a cup or two of green tea with a 0 calorie sweetener. no recommendations on the sugar bc honestly i swap between brands depending on whats avail at my grocery store that week lmao.

all this liquid and high variety keeps me kinda full, and provides fun taste enrichment so i dont literally go monkey insane drinking plain water for a week. cool if u can do that but ur literally a psycho and not to be trusted frankly

so current goal is at least lunch time saturday. i have plans to do lunch w my friend but honestly if im not rly hungry then and i wanna keep the fast going im just gonna cancel that lunch or even push it to dinner to just get a few more hours in!

as usual, expect weight updates every morning. the starting situation is: 87kg exactly ( 191.8 pounds) , 20% of my weight loss goal achieved. see yall tmro for the update!

#tw ana diary #4norexi4 #ana trigger #i wanna be weightless #i want to be weightless #i wanna lose weight #tw ana fast #i wish i was weightless #tw ana shit #ed not ed sheeran #i wanna be skinnier #4narex1a

[yuk1cvts]

Food Diary 18 //TW//

Breakfast ------------- Skipped ------------- Lunch ------------- - 1 Strawberry 4 cal. - 10 Blueberries 10 cal. (was forced to eat these last 2 because of the medicine I take) - 1 Rice cake 40 cal. - 1 Slice of bread (No crust) 32 cal. ------------ Dinner ------------ - 1/4 Steak 50 cal. - 1 cup of green beans 31 cal. - 1 tbsp mashed potatoes 13 cal. - 1 smores 77 cal. (Gonna have this later because my moms side of the family is having a campfire, but if I write it now I won’t eat more than 1.) - 2 Coke Zero 0 cal. ------------ Total ------------ - 257 cal. ------------ Cal burned ------------ - 115 cal. ------------ New total ------------ - 142 cal. ------------------------------------- Today was good, I got to walk a good amount because my mom took me to the mall, however I was forced to shop and try on clothes and then barely got anything cuz I looked like shit in all of it. I can’t wait till I’m thin, then I can actually look nice- plus then I can pass better and not everyone will look at me and think “thats a girl”. A lot of it looked bad because it was really feminine, like, normally I don’t mind that with everything, but it just didn’t look right with the rest of how I looked- of course I couldn’t get anything other than womens clothing though or stuff that was ‘girly’ because it was my mom, and when shes there its always “You’re a young lady, dress/act/be/walk/talk/look like one” So I just felt worse. I can’t wait till I get to tell her “I like to dress more masculine, and this isn’t going to be something where its like ‘well too bad you’re a lady so deal with it’, because no, I don’t have to be like that, just because my gender is a girl does not mean I have to dress in this specific way. Nothing is keeping me from dressing this way other than you, nobody else fucking care other than YOU. Why can’t you understand that? If I am uncomfortable I am not doing it.” Why can’t she just understand. It’s always about stereotypical gender roles. SHE EVEN SAID MY FUCKING SHOES LOOK TOO MUCH LIKE BOY SHOES. THEYRE SHOES, MOTHER. THEYRE FUCKING SHOES. THEY DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH GENDER UNLESS YOU’RE PAYING ATTENTION TO THE SIZE OF THE SHOE. IT DOESN’T MATTER HOW IT LOOKS. ITS JUST SOMETHING I’M WEARING, WHY DOES IT MATTER SO MUCH? NOBODY ELSE IS MAKING A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT OTHER THAN Y O U, MOTHER. NOT ME, NOT MY FRIENDS, NOT MY DAD, NOT MY TEACHERS, YOU.

#ed #tw ed stuff #tw ed thoughts #tw calories #food diary #ana #mia #anamia #anorexia #bulimia #anorex1c #bulim1a #notproanajusttags #notprojusttags #proana #thinspo #thinspiration

[sayonarashadow]

omg a ~tag game~ are you excited cuz i am (i wanted to make that cursive but i literally couldnt figure out how to)

big shout out to morecoffeethanhuman love u 😘

How old are you: i am a sweet spicy 16 year old which is weird bc i feel like ive been on tumblr for like 23 years while also being alive for like 5

Surgeries: i dont think i ever had one? more on that below lol

Tattoos: none but i want a lot. describing them all would take forever so i’ll just disclose that the first one i want is prompto’s barcode (spoilers lol) on my wrist bc i am just that dedicated

Ever hit a deer: my mom wont let me learn how to drive (lol) but one time my dad hit a deer while i was in his jeep when i was like 5 and we were stuck on the side of the road for like an hour bc it fucked up something at the front of the car and my brother was crying like the whole time. i love my childhood

Sang karaoke: in my room alone and with my friends in the car, but never actually in public

Ice skating: no but i went roller skating once. i fell on my ass in front of two people and they looked at me like :/ and they didnt even help me up and i never went again

Ridden a motorcycle: no but id love to, if you have a motorcycle hmu ;)

Ridden in an ambulance: nah

Skipped school: i very often skip so i can play a new game that came out, i live up to be the epitome of responsibility that my teachers want me to be (life is strange and the walking dead are the common culprits because they like... come out multiple times. if that makes sense. so im blaming life is strange if i skip the day my ap exam takes place (which i wont do. probably))

Stayed in the hospital: not overnight but i was in one for a few hours when i had some weird throat disease or something idk

Broken bones: i love telling these stories so here we go: when i was in the process of coming out of the womb i actually broke my collarbone!! literally no idea how it happened but it did and it rly set the tone for the rest of my life. and then like a year or two later i was tossing a ball back and forth on the couch with my mom and the ball fell off so my dumbass dove to get it and i hella ate floor and also got stuck in between the wall and the couch and i guess i hit my other collarbone somehow and it broke. that’s the follow up to the “any surgeries?” question bc i dont know if i got surgery to fix it or not but its healed by now in case you were wondering :)

Last phone call: from my mom asking what i want on my subway sandwich

Last text from: it was on snapchat and we didnt save it so i dont remember what it was exactly but it was from my bff and we were talking about eyeliner i think (just girly things)

Watched someone die: only me, internally (just emo things)

Pepsi or Coke: dr pepper B)

Favourite pie: chocolate bc im a bougie bitch

Favourite pizza: i dont really have a go-to favorite, im good with pretty much anything as long as theres no pineapples >:(((

Favourite season: fall because of all the nice pretty colors and how its cold but not too cold u kno

Received a ticket: this may be a surprise but i have not earned my license since the last question about driving. i assume i could go get a ticket if i tried to drive right now though, just to look cool

Favorite color: blue, especially dark blue

Sunrise or sunset: sunset

Favourite Christmas song: father christmas by the kinks its never played on the radio during christmas :(

Cupcakes or cookies: cookies

i dont tag people bc i have anxiety but you can always feel free to do this yourself if you feel like it, live ur life babe 🤠

#alexis chatters #thank u lyris this helped me procrastinate on my homework <3

[whymybrotherandnotme-blog]

August 11, 2017 6:48 -7:20 A.M.

I’m currently at this guy named Johns house with Donovan Torrance. Donovan and i came over here yesterday sometime around 2-3 and have been here since. Dono is currently curled up next to me on the couch in the fetal position sleeping soundly, which is honestly not surprising considering he’s been up for around (today would make three) three days on a coke, meth, xanax binge with John. I, however am just getting started on my binge. I started doing lines of ice with Dono last night probably about 6 and have continued on doing that up until my last line about 20 minutes ago. Or maybe its been longer forill, my conception of time is very twisted whenever I’m on meth. It seems that when on meth time either goes by insanely fast or drags itself through hours when its only been minutes. I really am starting to like Donovan a whole lot though forill. Like the fact that he thinks I’m cute enough picking flowers in the yard to take a picture of my and post it to Snapchat is literally one of the most precious things forill. Like nowadays it takes like years of relationship and trust building or sometimes even just getting knocked up for a guy to lay claim to you. Like men nowadays almost make it out to be some sort of like  royal privilege for them to show any sort of dedication to you or to show the world (social media world) that they might actually be taken or not available. I don’t understand  whats so wrong with being in like a good healthy relationship nowadays man. It seems almost taboo to admit you have a girl or boy friend just for the fact you dont want to lose the attention of the however many cyber admirers you have. Almost like God forbid I be faithful and honest and proud of the one girl and give up the possibility of sex or meaningless relationships with everyone else. Like thats what a fucking relationship is dude, its like yea i know there are 46736264963126463 people in the world but at this current moment in time you are what is most attractive to me, we get along well, and enjoy each others company through ought the majority of my day. Like yea i know i have billions of other options but basically I’m content with you in this moment. You are enough for me right now that I dont care about the other options I want you to be my girl and for me to be your guy and us have a special type of relationship that we dont share with anyone else. we dont kiss other people, or fondle them, we dont entertain the thought or conversation with them about certain things, we dont flirt with other people, we dont have sex with any one else. Like you and i both agree that we are going to keep these types of intimate things between us and that also contributes to our relationship because its a special thing that only we can do together. Like that was a good idea, why do people have to go and change things or make things as idealistic as that seem lame or old fashioned. Like i dont see how having 5-6 meaningless conversations and sexual interactions with 5-6 different people is better than just sharing it with that one special person. Like in a way I do because the more people that like me the more my popularity increases and nobody hates to be liked be everybody, and the fact of variety in personalities and sexual experiences. but at the same time even though i can perceive some of its facets as attractive I can say that I’d give up the variety and the being liked by everyone for someone I love and who loves me. Like they know my faults, flaws, shortcomings, past, and still think I’m great. They’re aware of my strengths and weaknesses and can help me balance them out with their own strengths and weaknesses. Like someone who I can talk to about anything, be in any sort of mood around, not look my best around, completely like give myself to them and them to me and accept and be accepted just as you are. Someone you can literally be you’re most raw self with and they still love you and want to have sex with you anyway. Like I honestly dont think hats much to ask for man. That’s what all the princesses got in the fairytales I was read as a kid, that’s what the girl got in all those dumb girly movies or even tv series that I watched as a teenager. That’s also something along the lines of The American Dream right? You know the whole be a kid, go to school, be a teenager, go to school, graduate, go to college, graduate, get married and have a house and a family with that one person. I’ve never heard or a fairy tale, movie, tv series or any sort of dream start of with talk to 5-6 girls all the same way, lead them all on, take what they’ll all give to you, but don’t take it too seriously because if you pay too much attention to one girl the other 5 might decide they don’t want to have to share one guy when there’s billions of options around them and this one has been wasting their time and basically just using them and taking advantage of what they can get from them. Like if anyrhing that sounds like the beginning to a freaking horror movie dude or some sort or horrible never ending soap opera deal. Anyway rant over basically.