#being half asleep and fucked up on cortisol is not!! a good state!! for learning!! or anything!!!

[shortkidenergy]

Me: you know there’s a lot on my plate right now but I’m actually doing pretty ok :)

My stomach: *producing so much pain*

My neck, shoulders and jaw: *holding so much tension*

My skin: *breaking out*

My sleeping: *absolutely fucked*

Me: yeah idk it’s just not really getting to me :)

#my brain words #the joke is that it absolutely is #and I’m completely aware of that but also like #it’s kind of in a box :) #and that box can stay closed :) #at least until I’m done with this round of stuff then we can have feelings again it’s fine lol #sadkidenergy #block that tag if you don’t want to see my complaining lol!! #something that’s making me sad tho is I’m working on a group project p much all through this quarter #and we do these little daily checkin prompt things #and the first question is ‘how are you?’ and I swear #everyone answers tired or stressed like 90% of the time #and it’s so fucked up!!! #like wtf is school doing to us that it’s just bludgeoning everyone’s health??? #and we’re just #chill with it!! #like we joke about it because it’s exactly what you expect and like #that’s so fucked up #being half asleep and fucked up on cortisol is not!! a good state!! for learning!! or anything!!! #just like. legitimately wondering how much of my lifespan I’m shaving off by living like this....you know?