#bc i'll need money lmao

[pheonix-inside]

I'm already thinking about Halloween bc I wanna go full cosplayer this year with the FNAF movie coming out and I need to plan in advance bc it'll require arts and crafts 😭

Plus I have parties to go to, drama club and maybe (hopefully) choir, and I'm the kind of person who doesn't wanna repeat a costume if I can help it, so that brings up the issue of one whole other costume (maybe two!!!). My main idea is Barbie. And if it turns out to be two parties one of those shitty kids Freddy Fazbear costumes for the memes.

Last year I wore a shitty kids Minecraft Creeper costume with fishnets and high heels and it was fucking hilarious. I love doing that shit.

It's August and I'm thinking about Halloween lmao

#i went on an online window shopping kick (aka where i look at stuff on amazon i'll probably never buy and add them to lists) #and remembered my halloween ideas #now i have everything i'll need written down #with most of it found online and what isn't either being household items or stuff i'd rather get at a store #like tinfoil or airdry clay #god why do i do this to myself #bc im a show off and must look cool or funny #sigh #at least i'll look cool or funny #someone remind me to share these ideas with my parents tomorrow so i can hear their thoughts and negotiate an allowance #bc i'll need money lmao #also so i can get help from adults with slightly less scattered brains then me with figuring out what to do and when

[sergle]

Rapidfire Commissions have been secured!! the post is deleted now, thank you everyone!

#sergle.txt #I did Not wanna mention it in the actual comm post bc it's not relevant at all #but this is excellent bc our washer broke LMAO it needs. a new. motor?. and belt(?) anyways. parts cost money #I really appreciate the ppl who messaged me about commissions!! thank you. #I'll be trying to swing these really fast so my Regular Speed Commissions don't get caught in the mud

[shirogane-oushirou]

[little vent -- tldr definitely not gonna have the planned art ready for the renniversary lol.]

me: "oh hell yeah i'll have a dog-sitting "job" for the next few days, so i'll have plenty of time to work on the art leading up to friday :) "

the dogs: untrained, poorly behaved, require constant attention (not their fault but it's the reality of the situation)

so uh. i might have some simple chibi art for friday if i have enough energy between putting the dogs to bed and going to sleep hghghghgh ;;;;; i'll finish the more detailed pics as i have the time and energy :')

#(edit: just to be clear -- the 'job' is in quotes only bc in my case i'm not being paid as much as a proper job LOL LMAO. :') ) #the last post abt this was more 'i'm giving myself an out if i can't do it'. now it's 'i can't do it' ksjdnksjn #i'm still gonna try to do some other things that don't require as much undivided attention as art does though...? #blah blah blah ren wouldn't want me to stress etc etc etc. still disappointing. #he came to me RIGHT when i needed him... but also... why did it have to be 6 days after my other closest main's anniv JKASN #i'm debating making the wedding the same day as the r!ren anniversary just so it's one less date to worry about LMAO ;;;;; #anyway. just venting about the fact that so much is happening Right Now and not Literally Any Other Time. #at least i'll have a little extra pocket money for a comm or two once i finish redoing his ref sheet...!! #and the reality is... i've made SO MUCH art of him over the past year. i won't be struggling to find posts to rb on the day ksjdn #i should probably get started gathering that art for the yumeship sheet though jsdnk time to dive through my tags. #📌 [ my posts. ] #💭 [ my thoughts. ] #vent -

[emiliosandozsequence]

i need to be seeing my therapist three times a week if i'm going to be perfectly honest, but i don't have the energy or the money to see her every week let alone multiple times in one week

#i hardly have the energy to see her as often as i do #the only reason i manage it is bc i see her over zoom #emilio.txt #also like....if we're being absolutely real #i need to be in a treatment center for people with severe trauma #but lmao that costs way more money than i'll ever be able to afford unless i get rich somehow

[funkytoesart]

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#Not to be dramatic lmao and it's probably just burnout but i am SO tempted to quit making BTCT altogether :/ #I've been working on it for like... idk 2.5+ years now? and i'm just... t i r ed #also it's not like i'm even monetizing it atm. I'm literally just making it in my spare time (for free) and #I don't suspect it would do well if i Tried to monetize it again #and it's far Far too time consuming to continue if i choose to not monetize it #which is why lately i've been feeling like it would be better if I just.. quit making it entirely. #which would suck bc i love the story and the characters but at the same time i feel like it's just not worth continuing? #idk maybe i just have a case of burnout and imposter syndrome lol but #it feels pointless to continue? #I want an art career. And I need to earn more money. #but... i've kinda lost hope that it could be by/through making webcomics #or at least this webcomic #funky's personal tag #i say all this as if i'm not Just About to wrap up the first season production lol #i have like 1-2 more episodes left of season 1 to finsih #maybe i'll just finish making season one and Then call it quits #although season 1 ends on a cliff hanger so that would probably be pretty mean of me LOL

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Gonna have to bust out the comm sheet soon bc work is not scheduling me and. frankly. I simply do not want to be there as of late

#management change has been BRUTAL but we're working on it #anyways. need to get the business email set up bc i lowkey don't really wanna keep putting my full legal name out there lmao #i just. hope i can feel good enough to carry this out. all the time off and i feel so eh bc of work stuff #i wish it didn't bother me so much!! i don't WANT it to bother me this much!! i want to make art and make art for ppl bc i love to make art #maybe i'll go for a walk and feel like the light is coming back into my life. #also the extra money would really help me pay down my credit card debt so i'll be including that in the sheet lmao #it'll be a pretty simple sheet. flat rate. feeling lazy about it but i wanna be a little more serious about it this time #bc i uh. would really like to not be in debt if i can help it lmao. i'm making it work but it could also work better #anyways. keep your eyes open for that! #shai speaks

[ghostlynimbus]

I gotta find some way to stop being so disabled and get a job before I get this Gods & Goddesses AU written bc i want to commission /so much/ art for it so i gotta figure out a way to afford all that

#ghost.txt #lmao #definitely not bc i need money in general #just for the fic art commissions #/joking #/light hearted #fic: godsverse au #maybe if i can get it written before posting it #which is currently the goal #I'll start a patreon or something to try to afford art to go with it #but thats a long ways off still #there is so much worldbuilding/planning going into this

[yo9urt]

mutuals i may be on the verge of becoming a gamer...

#not really LOL not like a serious one at least but umm this could be huge #mine #ok i realize i havent made a personal post in a while so let me explain... #for a while now ive been wanting to get a proper pc so i can play games and also do other stuff (<- macbook air owner) #but i was like ill just wait til i move out cause money and moving etc etc and then i was like well maybe ill get one for black friday #and then i was like no i don't have space and i need to be frugal and it'll be easier to move out if i don't have a pc to worry about #but i still want to play games...COUGH bg3. i really wanna play bg3...and minecraft and stardew valley and the yakuza games also #possibly other games too but anyway i was beginning to lose hope and then i saw someone on some thread somewhere mention the steam deck #and i was like oh yeah waht is that thing (i had never considered it before bc i thought it was more of a serious gamer thing but i also #didnt really know what it was at all anyway back on topic) so i goog'd it and it's like exactly what i need? #it's in my budget + small and portable + can run all the games on my list #(it doesn't run bg3 WELL...you have to be a bit careful with the settings and the framerate is a little messy #but i'm willing to accept that honestly it doesn't bother me i just want to play the game i'll lower my standards) #and with winter break coming up i'm like umm. i need something to do.... #plus they just came out with the oled version and after doing research #even though i want to be frugal i honestly think the 512gb oled seems like the right choice #so. i might order it tomorrow LMAO

[lakemichigans]

this has been the best winter for my plants ever. knock on wood, but i haven't lost a single one ;-; and i've been seeing new growth like crazy!! it feels like every day i wake up and see a new leaf emerging somewhere. that's WILD for a midwest winter lmao but i think i'm at the point where i know my plants well enough that even when i'm not being hyper-vigilant they can still thrive, which is soooo nice because i've been focusing more on other hobbies lately. i love that my plants have become more of an ambient feeling of joy rather than a chore (a chore that i enjoy of course, but it can sometimes be overwhelming). i feel like a sim with a +3 beautiful environment moodlet 🥺

#i need to take some glamour shots of my faves #my song of jamaica has EXPLODED with growth out of nowhere #she's so perky and fun #my monstera peru has finally given me a new leaf #i think i FINALLY killed the spider mites on my aluminum plant bc she's thriving now #my alocasias are putting out new leaves etc etc its all such good news #the only problem i'm having is with my monstera which i might just give to someone #i would never throw away a living plant but i'll be honest. she does not spark joy #so if someone else would appreciate her more than i do then i feel like it's my responsibility to make that happen #i might have to make a facebook just to use marketplace lmao #i wouldn't even charge money i just want someone to take her off my hands

[agentark]

I've decided that Reese and my MC have this "the only one allowed to bother you is ME" vibe

#sry this is kind of long but this was the exact moment I folded for him AND I WAS ON BECKETT'S ROUTE #like girl get it together you only picked reese to come along bc beckett is squeamish #this was the scene that made me go 'oh ok we're doing R's route next' #like I said - rich kid who wields their name/money easier than breathing and then also uses it to defend you?????????? when is it my turn #fernweh saga #reese verner #r verner #if snippets #I want to try taking other characters into the coroner's office but each time I'm like......what if I bring R again #I pinky swear I'll bring B or S next run #fernweh saga spoilers #R at the cabin: i'm invested in this case for personal gains #R literally every other moment: if you even l o o k at mc sideways I will intervene #my mc secretly loves it bc she *can* defend herself but it's nice to see someone expressly have her back #the brainrot I'm having is astronomical #she needs him and he wants her to need him - childhood rivals to inseparable (insufferable) lovers #they're gonna be so annoying when they get together lmao

[heartbeetz]

God. If I wasn't dealing with shit rn I'd think about offering commissions bc my buddy and I finally found a place to rent and we need the funds. But unfortunately that's probably not an option.

#need money for it sooo bad. it's like $4200 upfront and then $1850 + utilities per month #which means it's roughly 1k per person per month #we can scrape together the upfront rn but it'll fuck us both over real bad for a while #bc we don't have jobs in the area and probably aren't gonna find any right away (been looking) #but if we don't do it NOW (aka the landlady wants us to give her money and paperwork on Jan 1st lmao) then we're fucked #not gonna find anything better for cheaper #it's shit but I'll take a shitty place rn as a start. I just need SOMETHING #the location is decent at least #roz posts

[bellincurl]

I appreciate those posts about how getting out of abusive places is hard but ultimately really freeing, and opening yourself up for like genuine kind connection, like that is true, my life is indescribably happier and safer now. But also holy shit. I want so much more, I’m exhausted. I’d give anything to have a place to run back to or some kind of older figure to tell me I’m doing good and I can rely on them if I need it yknow? I’m scratching at reparenting and trying to be kind to myself but it’s hard when I really am all I’ve got out here.

#Like self care and rest and loving yourself is all good. it's what you need to do right but #there's just no space for it. things haven't ever settled down enough for doing proper inwards work. #like i'm ugly so i'm ugly. if parents or a partner not being a concept in my life then that is what it is. if im doomed. then that's that #it's easier to just take it than dream of anything a little bigger or warmer right now. #i'm gonna keep wriggling till it's over and i'll probably have a good time bc i;m a little stupid and a lot more stubborn #but i'm so aware that it's not how i want to live. it's frustrating but i know this is my best. i know i'm doing as much as i can in this. #i need a job so i can stop stressing about money and crawl back out of my trauma delusions #like it's acutally so violently unproductive to spend hours picking at my appearance bc im not a hot skinny twink and #i need to be hot and fashionable to Make up for being the bearer of the curse or whatever like stop. i'm actually sooooo sick of you dog (me #being hot woudln't have made my parents treat me better get over ittttttttttttttt #anyway #lmao <3

[ajarofpickledtears]

tfw u hardly ever get sick, but now, for the second week of your new job, you catch a cold

#cylas speaks #or something #either from dad's gf #or from work because apparently everyone is sick lmao #but hey apparently manager actually came to work with pneumonia (!!!) so I'll just get some hand sanitizer and probably wear a mask if the #coughing gets worse #don't have enough employees to take a day off #plus i need to hours bc money #*the

[orcelito]

I rly do hate real life events that are enough to make Me cry haha

#speculation nation #negative/ #animal illness ment/ #for a better post about The Situation. it's serious enough he needs hospitalized. #plus blood transfusions. and it's Expensive. #my sister's covering my ass rn & is the only reason im able to start his treatment at all #but it's still fucking Expensive to the level where i just cant leave it up to her alone to pay #so essentially she's lending me money. bc im going to pay her back for at least Some of this. i cant just not. #ive cried 4 times already tho and that sure is a fuckin feat for me. wolfwood my cat is after Ur record lmfao #i wasnt going to take tally with me for this day trip but i cant stand to be separated from her rn #she'd be fine alone for a day but id still hate for her to have to be. and also. i need her nearby. #i dont know if im going to the concert tomorrow. i guess it will depend on how treatment is going. #this is for one of my favorite artists but if treatment is going badly im just gonna fucking hate every second of it #so. yeah. i dont know. #and this is reacting so fucking badly with my memories of sammy's death. #i nearly fucking gave them the name 'sammy' when i went up to ask about cassy's condition while we were waiting #and im just terrified that i'll have to say goodbye to yet another cat. even more terrified that he'll die during treatment #and the last time i saw him i wouldnt have been able to say goodbye properly. i should have hugged him for so much longer #and. Fuck lmao ok heres 5 times sorry wolfwood but my cat's giving U a run for ur money #sorry for posting about this so much im just. this fucking sucks in general. #at least i'll have tally with me. she's not a cuddler but she'll let me hug her at least some. #animal death ment/ #i fucking hate crying lmao. ugh.

[revvywevvy]

i took her out of her box just long enough to take this picture then stuffed her back in because I'm terrified of ruining her pristine model-work ;; she's so purrdy,,

#cell mumbles #♡ pyrrha alexandra #pyrrha alexandra #cw depressive thoughts #<- only in the notes just a little #//like- i'd love to have her out buuuut depression and figures don't combine well. #//i literally have like 10 figures of ruby from lo.ve l.ive that i bought when i was a minor right #//they're all on my nightstand. coated in dust. i'm too demotivated to clean them and sell them and i don't want pyrrha to suffer the #//same fate LOL #//i might have to ask my mom to help me clean them bc deadass i just feel so dejected and empty inside when i look at those figures #//they need to be clean they deserve better and my brain WANTS them to be clean but the other part of my brains just like #//'eugh whats the point why bother' and i just- HRGHRHGRHGRHGRHGRHDSGHSDGHDSHGS #//i swear though one day i'll rehome those ruby figures little missy deserves better. then i can spend the money on pyrrha more LMAO #//anyways. ok so ik queens blade pyrrha is kinda. hm. but at the same time this anime-fied version is still just as cute #//i will say though going through the qb cards of pyrrha for my folder was a fucking nightmare #//had to crop out so many panty shots and other stuff it was wild #//qb is fuckin nutty bro lmaoooo #//also no i didnt get her for chrimmy i got her a while ago

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Okay okay so. Thinking.

I've mapped out how I want to pay off my credit cards, which means I'll only be getting new stuff pretty sporadically, which means I need to appreciate the zero cost things in my life, like:

- the 2.5 foot tall stack of unread books I have

- the violin I might finally actually pick up again

- the 500+ drawing prompts I've been hoarding

- the list of anime I still need to watch

- the 3000+ songs in my watch later playlist

- the stickers I've been neglecting to cut

- yarn??? I have a lot of yarn

- all the pink fabric leftover from moth cosplay

- the candles and incense I also already have

In short, time to actually use the stuff that I have 😭

#though. i do want one more candle. they're putting minty smells in the winter ones and it smells cold #i need a cold smelling candle that is warm and on fire i just need that very strange contrast #but yeah!! will spend a little testing out acrylic charms but for the most part #we're gonna hang out at home for a while and express gratitude or whatever lmao #okay but i think it will actually be nice to start getting through all those books skjfkdkd #and to watch the bigger name anime to actually see them lmao; saw a lot at the con i recognized but hadn't actually watched #and also my music!! all my music bc i am clinically insane about music; miku playlist advancement... #this isn't even touching on the games i have now ksjfkf if either of you are reading this 👀 i still wanna get yall something #and I'm planning the exact day i wanna do it 😤 #but yeah I'm thinking it over and am like. oh boy time for self improvement skjdkfkf #also finances will get easier bc im not ubering all over and I'm not seeing docs for my stomach now that the ulcer has been resolved #i made back half of what i spent getting the car in only 4 months and that feels good to see #it's still gonna be some hard work but we're gonna make it; I'm also highballing one of the cards #the hotel put a damages hold on my card and my math factors that in; they said that money would go back to me in 5 or so #business days so that'll be a little less to be concerned with; I'll still try to pay what numbers i found though #do it faster and do it better and idk what the fuck I'll do with the cards bc. 30% apr........... #idk i could get groceries with them and then pay them off? take that credit score you'll just eat that shit up won't you.. #surprisingly my credit score hasn't taken any super ugly hits from this and i aim to keep it that way lmao #anyways. that's a lot of words to say that i want to actually use my stuff lmao #shai speaks