#at this point imma start making my own public series

[thislilfecker]

man. i need to see more yaoi. but specifically ‘i love amy’ type shit that isn’t just fetishized gay men. i want to see cute gay men that isn’t being overly fangirl’d. y’know??

#i wanna see doomed gay yaoi men like me and not some over feminized twink and hulk hogan type shit #i just want to see two dude that just so happen to be in a committed relationship #hhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnghgghrhehjskgl #at this point imma start making my own public series

[reallybadfeeling]

A Very Smutty FanFic Rec List 2021 - 1st Trimester

So, I promised I would do this back in January and here we are, me exposing all of my kinks preferences... OH BOI! Fair warning: most of these fics have warnings that you should pay attention to (like I said, all of the kinks). I tried to put here the most important ones, but be sure to check out the complete list on each fic. Other than that, enjoy the smoking hot smut!

Star Wars Sequels

-caught in the headlights by jeeno2 Rey/Ben Solo - 7.501 words - Rating E - Workplace Sex, D/s undertones

I started January with a weird fixation with Rey and Ben having voyeuristic tendencies. I was actually searching for something different (you’ll get to that later), and I ended up on the “sex in the office” tag. If I had to mention what is good with this one, I would say Ben being slightly dominant and having a fixation with Rey’s tits (which, when does he not?). Also, the build up is just as good as the actual dirty part.

-you look good on your knees by mandosslut Rey/Kylo Ren - 6.476 words - Rating E - D/s undertones, voyeurism, exhibitionism, throne sex

I mentioned this with the previous fic, but originally I was searching for the tag throne sex. I’m a sucker for that kind of voyeuristic/exhibitionism tag. Not a lot of fic with the thrones sex specifically tho. It's just my luck that there were a couple of very good ones. Like, this fic. If you're searching something that isn’t too focused on the build up and just gets to the good bit, this is it.

-Wet and Wild by ladyofreylo Rey/Ben Solo - 5.221 words - Rating E - Sex Worker, Workplace Sex, Daddy Kink

What can I say, you guys? I spiraled into the office sex tag after failing to find thrones sex. The title truly says it all! This fic also leans into the "getting caught doing dirty stuff where you are not supposed to" and it's just *chef kiss*. A healthy dose of good old daddy kink just ties a pretty bow and makes this perfection.

-Lockdown by someonesbeenhere Rey/Ben Solo - 4.980 words - Rating E - Phone Sex, Voyeurism, Mutual Masturbation

Yet again, the title pretty much is a HUGE warning that there’s mentions of the pandemic (and no, I didn't read this when I was sick with the ‘rona; I actually wouldn't read this again after being sick myself, so you have been warned). ANYWAY, I think the build up is what I liked about this fic, and the ending is cute as fuck. Also, the smut in the middle is hot.

Star Wars Prequels

-The Red Right Hand by Himoskywalker Obi-Wan/Anakin - 5.679 words - Rating E - Sith AU, Public Sex, Humiliation, Exhibitionism, (TW: Unhealty Relationships/Possessive behavior)

SO. Remember how I was obsessed with throne sex? And voyeurism/exhibitionism? A month after I thought I was over it, while for something with both Anakin and Obi-Wan as Sith I landed on this. And this proved that throne sex is not something I am into only for Reylo fics! Let me tell you, this was so good that the only thing that might have made it better, was a sequel. Maybe with mentions of how Rex treated Anakin after THAT. (I did NOT start to ship Rex/Anakin because of this fic that doesn’t even mention said ship. NOT AT ALL!)

-Avarice and Innocence Series by LittleLynn Qui-Gon/Obi-Wan - 233.525 words - Rating E - Some gore and graphic violence, D/s, hint of dubious consent, and a bunch of other things

Seriously giving a complete disclaimer on tags with this one is kind of impossible. It’s just too long! (Like Qui-Gon’s dong! Too much? Okay, Imma stop there.) I mentioned those that might be big no-nos to be safe, but everything else is mentioned at the start of each chapter. The fic starts with a couple of chapters setting the mood and the universe, but after those, most of the story is focused on Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan banging anytime and anywhere. So even if it’s a long one, it can absolutely be read in bits and pieces when you are in the mood for some nasty stuff. I mean, it literally took me more than a month to finish the main story, and not because it isn't good. It's just that you can easily pick it back up each time you have that "not in the mood for that much banging" feeling that makes you want to take a pause from it. The plot isn’t complicated, you don't need to remember details, but you still want to know how things get from point A to point B, so it's not boring either. I know it's kind of strange to suggest a long for what is basically a list of PWPs, but I assure you that in this specific case, it makes perfect sense for this fic to be here. And if you are not that much into the idea of reading porn with plot (kinda), I would still suggest reading the one-shots related to the main fic! I have yet to read the last 2, but the ones I read are just as good and I honestly think knowing what happens in the main story is not necessary to enjoy them.

#fanfiction recommendation #fanfic rec list #rec list #star wars #star wars sequels #star wars prequels #obikin #quiobi #reylo #rating e fics #READ THE TAGS YOU GUYS #seriously

[probably-writing-x]

Live Capture.

Arón Piper x Reader

Request by anon: would you be able to do an Aron Piper imagine where his girlfriend is a YouTuber but she’s very shy to show him on her channel as a way of protection even though he’s used to the public & then they go out in public & a fan starts to record them...you can take it on from there :) hope you’re staying safe xx

Gif is not my own

Requests are open 🤍

“On your left, on your left!” You call through your microphone, “Yes, downed him, another team coming up behind us.”

Your friend speaks through your headset and updates you on his own progress as both of you were midway through a game on Warzone. You took a moment to glance at the chat on your livestream to YouTube and smiled at a few of the messages before turning back to focus on the game.

“Alright we’ve got enough for a loadout,” You comment, “Cover me.”

He follows your advice and does exactly that, only moments before you’re shot at from another direction and both of you are killed.

“Shit man,” You groan, “I really wasn’t on it that game.”

“Still top ten though,” Your friend points out, “Alright, Imma head off for the night. I’ll catch you tomorrow.”

You say your goodbyes and turn back to your chat, reading a few of the comments you’d missed, “I think I’m going to turn in for the night too, thank you guys so much for watching this livestream. And I’ll be uploading a video tomorrow at 6pm so keep your eyes peeled for that one. Good night guys!”

You turn off your stream and shut down everything on your PC, the true sign that you’d be turning in for the night. You grab the empty plate from where your dinner had been and the empty drinks from over the course of the hours that you’d been on stream.

“Hey honey, any luck?” Arón asks from the couch, where he lay with his arm tucked under his head, turned to watch the TV screen.

“We got a couple of wins,” You nod, “Nothing great. I didn’t know you’d still be up.”

“And go to bed without you? Would I ever?” He laughs, “C’mhere.”

You yawn and walk over until you’re close enough that he can reach out and pull you down to lay with him, letting you rest on top of his chest, “What are you watching?”

“One of your videos,” He chuckles, “There was nothing on TV and I didn’t want to watch any of that series without you, so I’m watching your channel.”

“Why?” You smile, looking at which video he’d chosen.

“This is from that day we went to the beach and you were teaching me how to surf. I dont know how you managed to keep me out of the whole video!” He exclaims, “Genuinely there’s not even a glimpse of me.”

“Because I spent about four hours rewatching it and re-editing it to make sure. I’m very secretive when I need to be,” You remind him, leaning up to kiss at his jaw, “They all still ask questions.”

He hums in response, “Do you want to go to bed darling?”

Your eyes are already fluttering shut as he asks the question and he somehow has to figure out how to get you from the couch to your bed without disturbing you too much. It was a regular occurrence after you streamed late at night, and he’d grown to be very good at taking care of you after you’d drained yourself after a long day.

You’d been dating for a little under a year now but it felt like you’d loved him for a lifetime. He’d quickly become everything you could ask for in a boyfriend and the two of you somehow became the perfect match for each other. With him as an actor, and you as a YouTuber, both of you lived very unconventional lives at times - but that’s what made it work so well. You’d kept your relationship away from the public for this entire time, not wanting to risk it ending up like the majority of YouTube relationships nowadays. You liked the fact that your relationship still felt like your own, and you didn’t have to fear the audience response to seeing you with a boyfriend. They’d never seen that side of your life, and truth be told, you were fearful of showing them. For now, it felt so much more comfortable to keep Arón separate. Like it still meant you had him all to yourself.

- - - - - -

The next day, after waking up a little too late, you make sure to post your video on time and read through the comments as soon as it reaches your audience. It had been a fitness challenge that you’d had to ask Arón to help you film when you were at the gym. He’d spent half the time zooming into your face far too close or stopping filming because you’d made him laugh and you could hear him on the recording. Somehow, you’d still managed to avoid showing him in the footage and made sure that he couldn’t be heard too much through the microphone.

“What do you fancy for dinner, darling?” Arón asks as he steps into your filming room and sees you sat at your desk in your gaming chair.

“I’m just reading through the response to the video,” You explain as he comes up behind you and wraps his arms around your shoulders, you run your hands along his arms as they encase you.

“Are they all talking about my brilliant filming skills?” He grins, kissing your cheek.

You point out one comment that questions in all capital letters ‘who does she have filming this? Y’all seriously can’t tell me she’s still single!!!!!’

Arón laughs and clicks to read the responses to the comment, pausing on one that is a timestamp from the video. A specific second in the footage that you find yourself skipping to on the video timeline to find exactly what one of your fans was talking about. Quite rightly so, at that exact second, you can just about make out Arón in the reflection of one of the mirrors in the gym. His face isn’t visible but his distinctive curls are obvious enough.

“Shit, do you think they know it’s you?” You ask, sitting more upright in your chair as you look through the rest of the comments about that exact moment.

Some people were suggesting different names, different people that could take the face of that curly hair - but only a few had actually suggested Arón. Someone mentioned the fact that you’d been at the Élite premiere and pointed out that you could’ve been going as his date rather than just a guest at the event - that was, in fact, the truth. Someone else mentioned how Omar followed you on Instagram - the initial way you’d met Arón.

“Oh come on, look, they’re saying loads of names,” He points out, “Theyre all just guessing, my name was bound to be in there at some point.”

“I’m so sorry, I had no idea that they’d be able to see y-“

“Hey,” Arón turns your chair around so you’re facing him, “It’s fine, honestly. I don’t care, okay?”

“Are you sure?” You sigh, smiling as he cups your face in his hands.

“Positive,” He nods, leaning in and kissing you, “I say we just order in for dinner.”

You laugh and let him pull you up to stand, “Good idea.”

- - - - - -

The following day, you and Arón are on your way to your parents place for your father’s birthday. You manage to get up at a semi-acceptable time and keep yourself away from social media to avoid all of the questions about your mystery boyfriend. You step into the taxi and try to keep yourself relaxed.

“Hey! I know you!” The taxi driver speaks up, glancing in the mirror at Arón, “You’re on Netflix. My daughter watches your show all the time!”

“Thanks man, that means a lot,” Arón smiles politely, glancing at you for a second.

The man rambles on a little more about the show and how much he’d learnt about it from his daughter, laughing at how jealous she’d be that he’d met Arón.

“And is this your girlfriend?” The taxi driver asks, glancing at you in the mirror too.

“No, just a friend,” Arón nods, forcing a little smile in your direction, “So, have you been busy today?”

You’re relieved that he steers the topic away from you and tries to keep some level of awkward small talk with the driver as you eventually pull up in town.

“You can just drop us here, buddy, thank you,” Arón comments, getting out of the car and waiting for you.

“That’s a sign! That’s a sign, people know about us,” You state simply as you step out of the car, “I’m certain.”

“(Y/n)!” Arón laughs, “It’s fine! We have no certainty that people know we’re together, and we’ll let it stay that way. Stop worrying honey, you’ll give yourself a heart attack.”

You sigh and try to relax under the influence of his words.

“You’re cute when you get stressed,” He chuckles, reaching for your hand and squeezing it, “Really cute.”

You cock a brow, “You know, maybe I should tell everyone about us - feed you to the lions type of attitude.”

Arón laughs, “They’ll fucking love me!”

He cups your jaw with his free hand and dips his head to press a kiss to your waiting lips. It’s soft and it gives the sincerity to his words that his tone hadn’t done. You were so worried about everyone finding out about you, mainly because you were terrified of it ruining a time in your life where you were happier than you’d ever been. It was silly but you liked the idea of preventing your relationship from being strained by the public view. For now, it felt so much easier to keep this between you. When it had first started, you wanted to keep things private until you knew that this was something real and something you were sure of. But when you’d started to feel that way, it felt even more important to keep that private - knowing that you cared too much about Arón to jeopardise anything.

“Come on, lets go grab some food,” He encourages, locking his hand with yours before swinging an arm over your shoulder so that your interlocked hands rested just over your heart, “What are the odds that the taxi driver was actually a fan? I bet he doesn’t even have a daughter!” Arón jokes and yet again manages to say exactly what you needed to hear to ease your stress.

- - - - - -

A little later, as you’re sat at your parents house with your parents and your siblings, Arón comes walking through from the kitchen with your nephew in his arms.

“There she is!” He grins when he sees you, letting your nephew run over until he jumps into your arms.

“Where have you two been?” You laugh, looking at his disheveled Arón appeared.

“We’ve been on the trampoline,” Arón groans, flopping down beside you, “I think I’m too old for that now.”

“You think?” You smirk, “You’re a mess!”

He grabs your phone from the side and checks his appearance in the black screen. Your nephew giggles and reaches over to grab at his messy curls. Arón smiles and goes to tickle him, only glancing away when he sees your phone ping in his hand.

“Jeez, you’re popular today,” He comments, showing you the endless list of notifications on your phone.

“Probably just the boys asking about playing later, can you open it for me?” You ask, shifting your nephew so he was now stood on your thighs facing you as you make silly faces at him to keep him occupied.

“Oh shit...” Arón mumbles.

“Arón!” You hiss, making wide eyes in the direction of your nephew.

“Sorry, babe, but you need to see this,” You set your nephew down and he runs off to his own mother before you take your phone from Arón.

His reaction now seemed completely justified. In a group chat with a bunch of your friends from YouTube, you’re being bombarded with messages. Some of them are accompanied by photos but the majority are accompanied by laughing emojis. Quite rightly so as the photos show clear shots of you and Arón from earlier. The images had clearly been taken from across the street when you’d first got out of the taxi. One of you laughing at something he’d said, one of you kissing, another of you kissing, and a few of you walking away with his arm around you.

“Who took those?!” You exclaim, “I didn’t even see anybody... or hear anybody...”

“Hey, hey, look,” Arón nudges you, handing you his own phone that showed all of his mentions on Instagram.

You’d already been tagged in a flurry of posts about the situation - 100% of them being purely positive and excited for both of you. People saying how perfect you were for each other. Some pointing out moments from your streams and from YouTube where it was obvious you were talking to someone behind the camera - who they now understood to be Arón.

“They’re all so excited,” You half-laugh, “Look, theres even a fucking video of us!”

You show him a video a fan had taken of you two together that’s accompanied by the caption - ‘I wanted to speak to them but they’re just so fricking cute I didn’t want to disturb them!!!’

You smile at all of the supportive messages from your fans, commenting on how happy they were for you, though some were jealous of you being Arón’s girlfriend.

“Well, looks like that turned out better than we expected,” Arón comments, “Should we say anything?”

You look at him and grin, flicking your Instagram camera on as you pose for the photo. He wraps an arm around your shoulder and rests his head against yours as you both smile at the screen.

You type out a quick caption ‘You got us...’ and post it to your story. Though you lock your phone before you can become too bombarded by replies to the image.

“Shit, does this mean I can play Warzone with you now?!”

“You’re still terrible, maybe when you get a bit better,” You laugh, kissing him quickly.

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[fangren]

2020 sure was a year for me... started it off sick as hell with what i know now was almost certainly covid-19. got over it just in time for The Pandemic to start actually being A Thing in public consciousness, first false confidence in it mostly being in China, and surely it isn’t a big deal and will all blow over, to the first few (confirmed) cases in the US, to the dams breaking and panic washing over us...

to the world beginning to change, to people complaining and complaining and complaining about being stuck working at home and not knowing what to do with their time while meanwhile me, my coworkers, and countless others found their own jobs busier than ever (and others still found themselves on the brink of disaster...)

(what shutdown? what quarantine? it seemed like damn near half the county was shopping in my store, especially early on. no thought, no protection, bring the whole damn family because why the fuck not?)

the masks and directional markers and cleaning and all the other new rules that people largely didn’t ignore (though they do mostly wear masks now, at least...)

nobody that I knew died, fortunately. lotta people that I liked ended up quitting or otherwise leaving the store, tho. which... sucked, in its own way. I hope they’re doing well for themselves right now.

hell of a backdrop to a hell of a year, tho. a lot more horrible shit happened to a lot of people that weren’t me. most of which i can barely remember, because i’m terrible with that stuff.

(always reblog, never donate. that’s... me.)

but, hey! there were some good things too. the new Animal Crossing game released this year, remember that? (gotta spend the evening with the town...) also the Sword and Shield DLC. plus Among Us suddenly became a thing, which was pretty cool. played some good games of it earlier. also been enjoying a Digimon game, and also Civ 6 recently. all in all a pretty good year for video games as far as I’m concerned.

didn’t, uh, didn’t get to write nearly as much as I wanted to. started a weird fic that nobody wanted, then got sidetracked editing and reposting an older series. until, uh, I got kinda tired of that. so.. haven’t done much since then. so many WIPs, so little time and even less energy.... so that’s a bummer.

didn’t really make any progress with my, like, personal life? i guess? still living alone, closeted, with my shitty parents. still no driver’s license, still in a shitty retail job stocking dairy.

still single. still honestly kinda crushing on that one girl I’ve mentioned before with the two small children. still barely been able to talk to her since we’re usually so damn busy and don’t have much chances to interact.

(still have mixed feelings about the prospect of actually dating her. I don’t hate kids, honestly, i just don’t have the patience/energy/attention span to spend extended periods of time with the young ones. give me someone i can play or chat with briefly before we go our separate ways.)

i don’t think i can blame the pandemic for any of that. i know myself too well. i’d have spun my wheels doing nothing all year even without it, because even an uncomfortable rut is still hard as hell to get out of.

i don’t know where i’m going with this. i don’t think i’m going anywhere. just reflecting on things because im lonely.

awkward transitional phrase also the election! that sure was a thing that happened. it’s probably bad, but i can;t help but think the horrible plague that’s killed thousands also had our back by forcing this country to make voting easier, thus allowing That Shitty Old Bastard to narrowly beat The Orange One. even if, uh, the losing man-baby is throwing a temper tantrum about it that may or may not end in a coup.

also a show i never watched and don’t care about ended! that sure was a fun distraction for a little while, right? right?

um...

but anyway the year has to end, and so does this post. I have no New Year’s Resolution, because I don’t feel like setting myself up to fail again. especially at something so meaningless.

anyway, Fuck Off 2020! and just for good measure, Fuck Off 2021 because you’re probably gonna be shit too.

night all. I hope someone reading this enjoyed themselves at some point tonight.

imma go play animal crossing and try to have fun.

#long post #late night bullshit thoughts from fangren #fangren talks #this was more depressing than i honestly wanted so sorry about that

[kachulein]

Got tagged by @ultkyu to answer some questions! Thank you dear, I'm so excited for this~🥺💞

1. If you were an animal, what animal would you be and why?

× I'd be a cat, 100%. Cats are my love and my life, I've always wanted to be one, tbh (not in a furry type of way, but I feel like life would be easier if I was a cat, lmao). I love how cats take no shit and do whatever they want. They're very independent and individual and I'm all here for that.

2. What two anime characters or kpop idols are your type?

× Can I do both anime characters and kpop idols??

× As for anime characters, Jaeha from Akatsuki no Yona and Kirito from Sword Art Online are totally my type!!😍

× And in terms of kpop idols... omg,, how am I supposed to *only* name two?? Hmm, thinking about it, I guess not all of my biases are my "type" per se... but there's two that come to mind right now hhhh. One of them is Kevin Moon from The Boyz, he really ticks off (almost) every bullet point in my list for my "ideal type" and honestly, this list is freaking contradictory and has vvv high standards but Kevin is THAT boi, basically my imaginative ideal boyfriend personified. :') And the second one who I'd say is totally my type is Hwang Hyunjin from Stray Kids. I've always loved drawing him the most of all kpop idols and I still do tbh (but I can't fill my feed on my insta art account with JUST Hyunjin drawings,, you know,,,). His fashion!! I'm so here for it and vibe with it so well. Plus,,,idk,,, I feel like I could connect to him in some ways so ajxjsjdjjs yeah. There's just something about him and Kevin that inspires me so much, I really love these two bois.

3. Are there any writers or artists (art or music) that inspire you? If so, list 5.

× YES. I decided to name a few artists because I realize I've never talked about the artists whose artworks inspire me the most. They're all on Instagram, so I'll be naming their @'s

a.) @/shooky_dough: I'm probably not the only one who knows Nikki, hehe, but her art is SO amazing. She's got this really distinct style which I'd put into the category of semirealism. Her kpop fanart is soooo good and I used her tutorials to learn how to get better at sketching. If you look at the sketches I've been posting for the past few months on my insta art account, you'll notice that they're highly inspires by Nikki's art. She's definitely the artist I'm looking at most in terms of inspiration and improving on my own art.^-^

b.) @/angelganev: His art is sooo pretty. He does semirealism and I've found him by browsing through pinterest to find some art inspiration/references/tutorials. He also does drawing contests in which his followers can draw one of his work he selects in their own style and he gives a shout out to the ones he liked best. It's always interesting!!

c.) @/melmadedooks: This man can draw about ANYTHING, he's so talented. He used to draw lots of his 'dooks' and I've found him through seeing some of his works on pinterest (again, lol). I've actually redrawn two of his 'dooks' and posted them to my art account AND HE LIKED BOTH OF THEM, I WAS SO HAPPY OMG!!! He used to draw his dooks using only one coloured pencil, so I've also started experimenting with that and instead of using a graphite pencil, I used coloured pencils for my sketches and those gave off very different vibes that I really liked!!

d.) @/rezajeez: Probably *the* kpop fanartist I've been following for the longest of times. They are AMAZING!! They mainly do huge photorealistic portraits with INSANE details. It's funny actually, because their work is the complete opposite to shooky_dough's work. While Reza draws photorealism on a big surface (probably A3? maybe more??) and draws very detailed, Nikki focuses more on sketches/more semirealistic and "simplistic" art and it's usually drawn quite small, so seeing these opposites really broadens my horizon, I think^^

e.) Last but nor least, @/rossdraws: In my opinion, he's the modern day Bob Ross! His art is so freaking stunning, have you checked out his digital art landscape series?? The amount of talent this man holds in his pinky finger is more than I've got in my whole body like- OOF a huge inspiration to me!!~

4. If you could play any instrument, which would you play?

× The guitar!! I really want to learn how to play it~

5. If you could choose one anime to live in, which one would you choose and why?

× Either Ouran High School Host Club or Your Lie In April. The first one is just so much fun and I'd love hanging out with the host club members and as for the latter,,, I just really want to be here for Kousei and help him through his anxiety because I know so well how it feels like and I also wish I could sing while he plays the piano, we'd be a great duo✊🏻😔 (I'm sorry, I couldn't choose one)

6. This is a bit of an old DeviantArt fic trend, but if you received an Android of your favourite character from any anime/show/etc., who would it be?

× Hmmm... that's a great question omg there's so many amazing choices I could make😭😭 But I think I'd go with Kirito, I just really really love him ahhhhh

7. Is there anything you would like to do but haven't because your friends/family didn't want to do it with you?

× There's actually a few things I could name... first, I really want to go bungee jumping (preferably from the Macau Tower, as it's the highest bungee jump in the world😍) but my fam and friends think I'm crazy for wanting to do this but I'm actually quite an adventurous person which probably not many people know about me, so I love doing stuff like that.✊🏻😂

× I would also really like to travel with friends... it's not that I dislike travelling with my mom and stepdad but whenever I can't take someone with me, I feel like such a child ??? idk,, never travelling (I wanted to say "without adults" but then I realized I AM an adult) on my own with friends and always tagging along with my parents kind of make me feel like I'm not independent or mature/grown-up for it. But I feel like none of my friends want to travel with me... most of them have a travel buddy already but I just... don't akdjsjs

× and last but not least, getting more specific, I really want to travel to Hawaii and South Korea, but so far, I haven't made it there yet :c

8. What's your favourite flower?

× Cherry Blossoms all the way💞 but all flowers are beautiful and I really like roses, too.

9. What are some of your hobbies?

× My hobbies include singing, drawing, dancing, writing, reading, researching astrology, studying Korean, watching youtube videos/netflix, listening to music and OF COURSE DAYDREAMING✊🏻😔

10. If you were going to be stranded on a deserted island with nothing but the clothes on your back and a bag, what would you put in the bag?

× I'd definitely put food and water in the bag, my phone, earphones, a portable solar charger with a USB cable (so that my phone won't die and I could chill for however long I want while watching kpop mv's and then also use my phone to call for someone to rescue me from this island once I start running low on resources), all the books I still want to read, my art supplies and a few sketch books, some towels that I could use to lay on or use as blankets, a pillow and my teddy bear, and obviously a toothbrush and toothpaste, a hairbrush and a few hair ties and bobby pins (you don't want long sweaty hair stuck to your skin during a hot summer ewww), some soap to wash myself and my clothes, sunscreen and also some insect spray to keep the bugs away!! (it's a big bag, okay)

~

Sorry for writing such an essay omg!!

Here are my 10 questions:

1. What compliment you've received meant the most to you?

2. Would you rather meet your favourite celebrity/group/bias and realize they're not at all how you imagined them to be like (maybe they're not as kind as you thought, for example) or never meeting them in person but it turning out that they're actually the amazing, kind, sweet, generous, etc. person that you thought they were? (I hope that makes sense hhhh I think the ethics of this question are really interesting)

3. What's your current favourite song you always use to get hyped up to or a song currently stuck in your head?

4. If you had to write the book of your life, what genre would it be and what would you choose as a title?

5. Name your top 5 musical artists and your favourite song of each of them?

6. If you were invited to a big humanitarian event and had to give a speech on a topic you'd want to bring about a huge change for the better, what topic would you choose to speak about and voice your opinions/ideas? (Assume public speaking is one of your strongest assets and you'll ace this no matter what)

7. What is something (a skill, personality trait, or something appearance related, it can be whatever) you wish you had and/or you really admire in other people?

8. What's your favourite anime/show/youtuber (you can answer whichever you got an answer for, it can be all three options of course :D)?

9. In kpop, are you more into vocalists, dancers, rappers, maknaes, leaders, or visuals (or maybe a mix of some/all :'))?

10. What's your most beautiful/favourite memory?

oof I hope these questions will be interesting to answer🥺 hmm, Imma tag @littlefallenrebel @jinniesmeow @softpastelmx @yeonki @hanstagrams @marculees @chrryjin and anyone else who'd like to do this~💞💞💞

#tagged #tag #answer questions

[nicostolemybones]

Comet or Asteroid (or both?)

Big dream and dream life:

Tw for discussion of my mental and physical health (feel free to ask me to tag stuff or add to this tw)

Big dream:

Imma be super serious here for a minute.

My big dream, honestly, I don't even know anymore. Since I was 4 I always wanted to go to university and I got into my dream uni- I was the smart kid, top of my year and all, and I got into a very good university for my dream course of psychology- but then a series of personal circumstances got in the way and I took time off. I had to, I was not functioning anymore. Then for the first time since I could remember, I actually felt. Good. A lot of my dark thoughts were gone, my meltdowns became less frequent, my overall mental health went from crisis point to okay. I went from hating myself and suicidal ideation to being okay with myself. I was better able to formulate opinions, engage in fandoms, make friends. So now I genuinely don't know if I want to go back into the education system, which therefore changes my future plans. I don't know what I want for my big dream. Right now I couldn't even handle retail work, so I need a lot of time to re-plan my entire life.

So I think my big dream is more of a goal now- to meet my best friends irl. We're an ocean apart and talk almost daily. So my big dream is meeting my friends.

Dream life:

I want to finally have things sorted out. My mental and physical health under control would be a great start. Being 100% out of the closet. Stable finances would be great please government stop screwing people over here. For my best friend to move close to me. To figure out my future and find a job and a path that makes me happy and isn't beyond what I'm able to handle mentally. I wanna just write, fanfiction and my original works. I wanna feel comfortable in my own skin, my own identity, to transition, and not have to worry about assholes and bigots and potential legal discrimination. I want to find peace. I want to be happy. I want to live and give myself room to breathe. I definitely have a cat. Other pets too. Hopefully a partner and a family of some kind. To have all the firsts, like my first kiss. Just- to live and experience. I want to go bowling when it isn't a school trip, with people who didn't bully me. I want to go out shopping with friends. Have movie nights in with friends. Visit friends. Finally one day manage to leave the house alone without having a meltdown in public and going non-verbal on the phone and not almost passing out every time I'm outside more than an hour or so. Stop picking my skin. I want to find some way to gain weight (I don't have an ed, I experience a lot of nausea that affects how much I can manage to eat, plus even when I do eat a lot of food I never seem to gain weight and that seems to be genetic so I should see a doctor.) I want to cosplay and I want to draw and I want to learn crafts and create. I want to decorate my flat/apartment. Have a friend round for the first time.

Anyway, that got deep.

To sum up: I want to live.

#mental health tw #potential triggering content #discussion of mental health #tw mental health #tw school #school tw #tw education #education tw #tw health #health tw

[a-pretty-nerd]

Red Handed (Patrick Hockstetter x reader smut)

Requests: "If you’re not too tired of pat x reader could you do one where the reader and Patrick are hooking up somewhere and they get caught? Maybe by the gang or the losers? Love your fics they give me life ❤️" ~ Anonymous

"Could you make a one shot about Patrick hocksetter dating a cute innocent reader with lemons :3 lots of lemons 🍋🍋🍋" ~ @weepingprincepeace

I'm combining these, I hope thats cool! ✌❤

A/N: Keep requesting and such! So because I fucking feel like it, Imma go ahead and write that damn Jasper series. Another one, Ruby? YES! As always, your requests and feedback keep me goin'! ✌❤

Warnings: NSFW, sex, rough sex, public sex, etc.

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School dances weren't your scene. Well, really nowhere was your scene. But your mom made you go with your friends. Who all kind of wondered away from you with their boyfriends. They danced while you stood leaning against the snack table watching and waiting for your date to arrive.

Could you really call him a date? It wasn't so much like he asked you or you asked him. It was just a general understanding that at some point your boyfriend and his friends would crash the spring bash.

You awkward sipped at your punch as you swayed back and forth in your incredibly hideously pink dress decorated with gawdy lace and fake flowers. Your mother picked out for you, obviously. You didn't even see him walk in. All of a sudden, out of the corner of your eye you saw a tall shadow figure. You turned to see a lanky boy swaying his arms as he walked towards you. Dressed in ill-fitting office casual. His pants were a little too short, and so was his shirt.

Behind him came three, equally awkward guys. His friends. Wearing old button ups and jeans. Belch wore a clip on bowtie over his short sleaved button up with jeans. Henry only owned one pair of dress pants and an old flannel. Vic was the only one who looked like he somewhat belonged.

"Oh, h-hey!" You stood up straight and watched as Patrick's gaze waved from the crowd to you. He looked you up and down and gave a hardy chuckle.

"What the fuck is this?" He snorted, pulling up your dress skirt. You swatted his hand away.

"My mom picked it out..." you explained with an embarrassed blush. He nodded and stood next to you as you watched the crowd for a moment as he spoke.

"Makes sense. Peggy has shit taste..." he waited a second, "personally, I'd rather see you in...nothing at all." He purred as he leaned in and down to your neck. Your cheeks flushed a bright pink.

"Patrick!" You scolded wtih shrill embarrassment. He giggled into your neck and he kissed the soft flesh. You pushed him a little farther away.

"Aw c'mon sweetie pie," he cooed jokingly, "put out a lil won't ya?" He hooked you by your waist and pulled you to him. It made a chill go down your spine. "Lets get out of here." He rocked you from side to side as music played, almost dancing with you. The way his hands glided across your body, and way he looked at you. Oh god. "I wanna see these nice tits you've been hidin'" His hands slid up and gave two quick gropes.

"Hey!" You swatched again and he just laughed at you. "Patrick, y-you know how I feel about-"

"I'll change that." He told you as his hands went back to your waist and he kissed your neck. He made you melt. "C'mon. No ones in the hallway. We can sneak out to the janitor's closet." He pulled you out towards the door and into the hallway. You couldn't fight him. You wanted him too. His lips kisses your hungrily, sloppily, as you made your way to the closet. He practically threw you into the room with giddy giggles. It shut tight behind you, and you were left alone in the dark.

"Oohhh Patrick." You moaned as he left hickies on your neck. He quickly got your dress unzipped and he let it fall to the floor with a loud 'huff' of fabric. He instantly went for your breasts. Gropping and squeezing. He played with your nipples as he kissed them and sucked. He breathed heavily as he chuckled to himself. He pulled you close to him as his hips curved up so he began grinding against you through his pants. You whimpered as he played with you.

"I knew it. I knew you had a rockin' bod!" He cheered and laughed.

"S-Shut up." You struggled. He pulled away and through the darkness you heard him remove and drop his clothes. Before you knew it, he turned you around and pressed you against the shelves. His long fingers ran over your as and he took a sharp breath.

"And what a great ass too!" He remarked before giving a good slap.

"Ah! Hey! I didn't say you could- ow!" He spanked you again. He did again, and again. It made you wild. You pressed your ass against his cock and he chuckled at you as he ground himself against you again. Enjoying the sweet little sounds you made.

"Oh thats it." He growled and pulled your panties down to your knees. A single fingers dragged from the front to the back before he inserted a finger. "Haha, so wet." He remarked.

"N-No....Patrick." You moaned. He took a moment to finger you first before he pulled his finger and placed it in his mouth. You heard a loud smacking sound.

"Oh hoho, what a taste." He growled before you felt his tongue. He licked, and sucked, and nibbled anywhere he could.

"Ooohh Ah!" You cried. You squirmed for him as he held your ass and moaned into your wet flesh. He stood, and wiped his mouth with a slurp before he adjusted himself. You felt his tip, and you opened your mouth to say something. "Patrick, I- oooohhh FUCK!" You barked as he slid deep inside. You shut your eyes tight and braced yourself. He only took a few good slow thrusts, before he got intense. It felt so good. You moaned his name as he held your hips and started really fucking you.

"Fuck Y/A," he grunted, "you're a wild one, huh?"

"N-No." You whimpered.

"Oh yes you are." He leaned forward as he hips kept slapping against your ass. He stuffed his face in your neck and pulled your hair. "You can't lie to me. Your body's telling me everything I need to know." He snacked a hand down to your clit and played with it.

"Ah!!" You cried in pleasure.

"Like how you're about to cum." You kept your head dead down as he drove you to orgasm, pausing his own movements. Suddenly there was a loud creeking sound and a bright light came. Your heart jumped. You were still cumming and there was nothing you could do.

"FUCK OFF!" Patrick screamed at what appeared to be a young kid who was attending the dance.

"Ahhhh!!! Run Eddie! He's killed her!" A voice cried before the door slammed shut. You road out your high before Patrick just went back to fucking you.

"P-Patrick they...oh god- we-"

"I told you. You're a wild thing." He growled with a smile as he fucked you, harder. He fucked you senseless in that closest for what felt like forever. Making you cum, god knows how many times. Your eyes were rolled in the back of your head and you were focused on your breathing when Patrick started to really struggle. He bucked irrationally and grunted. His nails dug into your skin as he lost himself. "G-Gah..ah..fuck!" He cried as he came. You panted and leaned against the shelves. He leaned against you. His arm out stretched to balance the both of you as his chin rested on your shoulder. "Mmmh my wild little thing." He finally cooed.

Suddenly, the door opened again and you would have panicked had it not been for the intense wokrout prior.

"Patrick!" A voice shouted. He looked up at Henry, who stood in the doorway. "What the fuck man!? We've been lookin' all over for you! Those fuckin' loser kids keep shoutin' about you killin' someone!"

"I'm busy!" Patrick yelled back.

"Get your dick out of your girl and lets go!" The door slammed shut.

"Come on. We'll give you a ride home." He got himself dressed and just barley helped you. You felt dizzy. When you were dressed, he walked you out by your waist. And when no one was looking, he stole a kiss on the cheek.

#the bowers gang smut #the bowers gang x reader #the bowers gang #patrick hockstetter x reader #patrick hockstetter x reader smut #patrick hockstetter smut #patrick hockstetter

[mittensmorgul]

I get the terrible feeling that when (when!) AU!Michael comes through the gate, a large flock of the Angels will welcome him with relief. (“God’s will! A new General! A temporary pause in the Apocalypse! Clean up Castiel’s mess!”)

Yeah, a bunch of people have been grumbling about that being a possibility. I don’t know if anyone’s grumbled in public about it or not, because it is such vague spec, but the theories I’ve seen so far seem pretty plausible.

The angels would appreciate a strong leader, especially if he could convince them (even temporarily) that he was ~their Michael~. blah blah *I was forged into this by my time in the cage* *or the AU where I’m actually from* *what’s the difference really...*

Especially if he’s onboard with the “bring all the angels back” plan.

Or even just the “bring all my loyal soldier angels from the au world into this paradise world so we can repeat all the mistakes of our own past and destroy this world as well” plan.

And like any desperate people, they’ll see a “Strong Leader Type” as their salvation, and either overlook the inconvenient “well he’s got some pretty major flaws” until it becomes glaringly obvious that he doesn’t care one whit about them, but by then it’s too late to do anything about it short of impeaching him, but he’s got too much of a foothold and it all seems hopeless...

wait, sorry. I might be confusing the AU world with Trump’s America... 

Regardless, yeah, it seems possible.

I’m still with Dean. I’d let them all fry. I mean, yeah, for Cas’s sake I’d like to see him achieve some sort of consolation with heaven, and being able to restore some of the angels he killed (or make new ones) could potentially give him that sort of absolution. But there’s still a bunch of angels he killed in the past that would want to seek revenge on him if they were suddenly alive again, you know? Or who’d want to restart the apocalypse again. Raphael, Uriel, Zachariah, and their ilk. All the angels he felt he needed to “punish” as Godstiel had been on board with the End of the World Agenda.

So bringing back a bunch of random angels who supported Cas in the past--at least during some portion of their individual arcs, because pretty much every angel had issues with him, you know? (Hannah, Naomi, Metatron, Balthazar, Anna, Joshua, Rachel, Inias, Gabriel...) It’s kind of a short list (though there are probably others we could add). But would it be enough to earn him a measure of forgiveness? Or would the rest of the angels resent Cas having the power to make those sort of choices about who was brought back or not?

Wow this is totally turning into absolutely baseless wild speculation. :D

But I think bringing over AU!Michael’s super soldier angels wouldn’t really be any better for Heaven, Earth, angelkind, etc.

If any of this wild spec does happen, I think it might lead to a quickening of the angel extinction rather than some sort of new Golden Age of Heaven or whatever the angels think making more of themselves might achieve.

(incredibly unpopular opinion time: but if everything that’s happened in SPN was “fated” to happen, because Chuck designed it all to happen eventually, so that this long series of events beginning with the failed apocalypse and ending with him reuniting with Amara, then maybe most of the angels were fated to become extinct. I mean, one line Cas used in 4.16 was this:

Strange. Strange how a leaky pipe can undo the work of angels when we ourselves are supposed to be the agents of fate.

I mean, one of the main underpinnings of the entire narrative has been the battle between free will and fate. And if angels are the “agents of fate,” maybe their time has passed, you know? Like the elves knowing their time in Middle Earth had come to a close, maybe it’s time for the angels to sleep in the Empty.

Chuck has left the building, and considering how well most of the angels have handled their stewardship of creation, it’s probably not a good idea to leave it in their hands long-term. Not that people are doing much better with the place, but heck. At least we’re trying.

'Cause the angels – they don't care. I think maybe they just don't have the equipment to care. Seems like when they try, it just... breaks them apart.

Yeah, it may have broken Cas apart, but Chuck kept gluing him back together, and each time he seemed to come back with just a little bit more care. And he hasn’t really been an angel for a long time...

Okay wow this got long and weird and really off point... I’m procrastinating on editing, and I just started typing this intending to reply privately, but there’s a heck of a lot in here, and I want to have this for my records. So imma post it, unpopular opinions and all. Wheeeeee.

#spn s13 speculation #see this is why i avoid talking about my 'unpopular opinions' i like having friends :D #castiel winchester #heaven hell purgatory and the empty #you learned it from the goats #ludditeheart

[shadeecare]

Hana Kimura, victim of cyberbulling

Another Celebrity has fallen. Hana Kimura, professional wrestler and star of Netflix’s ‘Terrace House’, a Japanese reality TV series, fell victim to suicide. She left behind messages indicating that cyberbullying is the cause of her death. Recently there has been a deluge of celebrities sharing their struggles about the hurtful comments posted by netizens. Cyberbullying or trolling is an increasing phenomenon where people harass or post hateful messages about another person online. Living a life that is constantly under public eye, where your every movement, action and word is being scrutinised by the public can be daunting even for the most self-assured celebrity. Some celebrities however, have found ways around it   Get therapy

Jesy Nelson, rose to fame with the pop band Little Mix. The online abuse started when Little Mix was competing in The X Factor and winning the title only made it worst for Nelson. She received a barrage of name calling and hurtful comments which caused her to spiral into depression. Recently, Jesy released a personal documentary, revealing the impact of online trolls on her mental health and her journey of rehabilitation. The documentary by BBC titled, ‘Odd One Out’ won the  2020 Visionary Honours award for Nelson. Watch Odd One Out here    Take a  Social Media holiday

Lizzo, famous not only for her singing but for her stand on ‘plus-size’ body positivity has taken a hiatus from Twitter stating that there were just ‘too may trolls’. Lizzo was bombarded with criticism over her comments on Twitter that a Food-delivery person had stolen her food.  The food-delivery person fought back and claimed that she had unsuccessfully tried to contact the celebrity. Lizzo reiterates: "I apologise for putting that girl on blast. I understand I have a large following and that there were so many variables that could’ve put her in danger. Imma really be more responsible with my use of social media and check my petty and my pride at the door". However, the apology failed to undo the damage and the food-delivery person is suing Lizzo for inflicting trauma. But Lizzo says her departure is not forever. She says: "I’ll be back when I feel like it". Many other celebrities have also stayed away from social media including Millie Bobby Brown and Marie Tran.

Fight Back

Taylor Swift, ‘Pop Titan’ and best-selling musician of all times, has battled trolls throughout her singing career. Yet even before she amassed countless awards and accolades, it was her indomitable spirit  that allowed Swift to bounce back every time. Just write a song about the one who slimes you, has been her signature approach to nasty comments. Swift has clearly mastered the art of teasing trolls and Taylurking with their own comments including featuring snakes in her album and Easter Eggs on social media in retaliation. Swift kept low for a year because of the Kardashian/ West conflict but rose from the ashes again. In her recent release ‘You need to calm down’, some believe that Swift was once again addressing her trolls in her song. You need to calm down.

One wonders why people are still taking pot shots at this artist when the list of her philanthropic deeds is as many as her musical awards. Since 2008, Swift has donated millions and spoken up for victims of cancer, flood, online predators, sexual assault, discrimination, and most recently appeared in a concert to raise funds for the WHO Covid19 Solidarity Response Fund. She is also known to do sweet things for her fans. She would personally send flowers and gift to her fans, and have even showed up at a 96 year old’s home to sing for him. With 200 million fans online, Taylor Swift has all the muscle to speak her mind, shame the bullies and retaliate in the way she does.   But I’m not Taylor Swift. So now what? You have trolls crawling out of your computer screen and you are not quite Taylor Swift! Here are some suggestions you can try:

  Be careful who you befriend on social media. People may not be who they appear to be on these platforms. Do not post pictures and information that other people can use against you. Don’t respond to what the trolls say. Often, nasty comments are made to get a response from you and ignoring the bully will defeat their plans to get you down. Responding is also pointless if the bully hinds behind a false persona. Keep a record of the derogatory remarks so that you have evidence of what was said in case you need to raise the case to the authorities. Take a snapshot of the post with the name of the sender, date and social media platform visible. Change your social networking settings and block out the bully. Delete all information that was posted by the bully so that it does not create copycat behavior against you. Get help from forum moderators and report the abuse to the different Social Media site providers. Tell a more mature family member, friend or trusted adult and ask them to stand up for you.   Upstanding Cyberbullying

Often, we wonder why in a busy public space like social media, where everyone is looking at everyone else’s pages and comments but nobody says anything when a vicious comment is posted. Bystanders do not take the initiative to help the victim for many reasons. Some fear retaliation and being bullied themselves Some may not know what to do to address the bullying. Some feel that it is not their business to intervene as they do not know the victim or what the real situation is about. Research has shown that often, the reason for bystander inaction is because everyone is waiting for someone else to make the first move to speak up against the bullying. Once someone starts to call out the bad behavior then other people will likely join in to do what is right. How can you upstand cyberbulling? Here are some suggestion. But remember to focus on the act and the behavior itself, not the person perpetrating it. Your response should focus at calling out bad behavior and supporting the victim rather than shaming the troll. It is totally pointless  fighting bullying with more bullying.

Positive Offensive – Post positive comments about the victim, point out positive qualities or commendable actions by the victim. You can also defend the victim by saying ‘ You and I have lost it/messed up too, and that should be ok’. Delete the negative messages. - Do not forward the negative comments to other people. Gather more people to post nice comments about the victim. Change the topic or use Humour- Sometimes humour can lighten up a serious situation. But be careful that you are not poking fun at someone else as you do so. E.g ‘Whoa, someone is having a bad day to be saying such things’. Object to bullying – You could write: ‘ That’s not a nice thing to say. You wouldn’t want someone to say the same thing to you’ Reach out privately to the victim- Send the victim a private note sharing your displeasure about the bullying, express your concern and show understanding for how they feel. Provide help to raise the bullying to relevant authorities   Unintentional vs Intentional Bullying

Sometimes written comments can be misconstrued, as it is hard to tell the motivation behind a comment when you can’t see the facial reaction or hear the tone of voice. Unintentional bullying can happen when people crack a bad joke not knowing that the recipient is sensitive to the statement. Many people also make remarks in a fly without explaining what they really mean. Some express comments that are really a reflection of their own fears and anxious thoughts. If you have unintentionally said something that hurt someone, Apologise! Forgive yourself! and Be more mindful next time. But if a person persistently causes hurt to someone else, it could be because they have unresolved issues in their own lives. Research has shown that some cyberbullies just don't know how to empathise with others. Some bullies are actually afraid of being bullied themselves as they may have been the target of bullies in the past. And of course there are those bully's who only know aggression as the way to solve problems. We do not want to validate bullying nor encourage behavior that is hurtful to others. But we do want people who resort to bullying as an outlet for their frustrations to get help for themselves. They should speak with professional counsellors, teachers, religious or community leaders about their struggles. Get help here:

  A Different Perspective.

Lashana Lynch is most recently known for her role in the movie Captain Marvel, playing fighter pilot Maria Rambeau and best friend of Carol Danver a.k.a Captain Marvel. However, Lynch’s next big role in the James Bond movie ‘ No Time to Die’, was not well received by Bond fan’s. Many fans reacted negatively when it was revealed that Lynch would play the roll of 007, as they did not think an African American ‘Black’ women should be ascribed the role of 007. Lynch however, was unfazed with the comments and responded: "It doesn't dishearten me," she said. "It makes me feel quite sad for some people because their opinions, are not even from a mean place -- they're actually from a sad place. It's not about me. People are reacting to an idea, which has nothing to do with my life." Lynch went the extra mile and text some of them with a positive message causing a few to have a change of heart. She says their reply was like: "Oh my gosh, thank you so much!" She added: "But it's an interesting test because it reminds them that they definitely wouldn't say that to someone's face." Lynch demonstrates here that when you take a step back and look at negative comments with a clear head, you can be less emotionally affected. By identifying the reason behind the negative reaction of the Bond fans, Lynch recognized that the fans were actually disappointed because of the type casting of the 007 character which failed to meet with their own expectations.

Cyberbullying is a global problem and has claimed many casualties. However, for cyberbullying to stop, we need to recognize that everyone needs to play a part and take proactive steps to change the way we behave, react and communicate on cyber space. If you are a victim of cyberbullying, engaging in self-harm or having suicidal thoughts, please call for help now:

References: Englander, E.K, Muldowney, A.M. (2007). Just Turn the Darn Thing Off: Understanding Cyberbullying.. InMARC Publications.Paper 12. Available at: http://vc.bridgew.edu/marc_pubs/12 Marano, H.E, (1995,2019) Psychology Today. Big Bad Bully- Bullies aim to inflict pain. But eventually, the one most hurt by the bullying is the bully himself. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/articles/199509/big-bad-bully Steffgen, G., Konig, A., Pfetsch, J., & Melzer, A. (2011). Are Cyberbullies Less Empathic? Adolescents’ Cyberbullying Behavior and Empathic Responsiveness. CyberPsychology, Behavior & Social Networking, 14, 643-648. doi: 10.1089/cyber.2010.0445. Shultz, E., Heilman, R., & Hart, K. J. (2014). Cyber-bullying: An exploration of bystander behavior and motivation. Cyberpsychology: Journal of Psychosocial Research on Cyberspace, 8 (4), Article 3. https://doi.org/10.5817/CP2014-4-3 Image of Hana Kimura - Youtube: Word Association with Hana Kimura. Image/Video of Jesy Nelson - Odd One Out, BBC.com Image of Lashana Lynch - Captain Marvel Trailer, Marvel Entertainment. Image of Lizzo - Andy Witchger / CC BY (https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.0) Image of Taylor Swift - YouTube: The Best Outfits At The 2019 American Music Awards | Cosmopolitan UK] Read the full article

[mmakehappy]

2017

1. What did you do in 2017 that you’d never done before? i’ll try to do this chronologically again: so at the beginning of january one of my best friends left to study abroad in rome which was sad and i missed her a lot. i saw rory scovel do stand up. i took an animation class which was fun for the first few weeks until i failed it lmao. actually my classes from jan to march did not go so well tbh but whatever i made it through. my sister came to visit me the weekend before st paddys day which was super fun and then we saw panic which was soooooooo fuckin rad i love them still wow! i went home for spring break and visited a local winery w my dad which was a lot of fun and then a week later uhhh me and @carrot-gallery became gfs!!! and my whole frickin life changed bc i love her so much wow!! but then a week after that i turned 22 and spent my birthday alone! which i tried to pretend didnt make me sad but by the end of the day i was very sad about it and thats when my sweet gf called me to sing happy birthday and i sobbed on my couch and ill never forget that!!! so okay then spring quarter classes started and i was a part of depaul’s visiting artist series which was super cool... i met a lot of new awesome people (both at depaul and the industry ppl that were our guests!) and made some great friends in that class! i was a house manager and camera op which was super fun. i went to a screening of my fave professor’s short film which was also rad. i saw a ghost story at the chicago critics film festival, which was amazing. i saw idiocracy in 35mm and then mike judge did a q&a! the very next day i was house manager for depaul’s student film festival at the music box! i saw chris gethard do a live recording of beautiful/anonymous and then also do some standup, that was awesome. i saw day wave live!!! amazing! i spent an entire dystopian day dealing with megabus. that was hell! i sat at an outdoor amphitheater and even tho i couldnt really see him i got to listen to seu jorge sing david bowie covers and life was magical for a few hours. my sisters came up to visit me and we saw aladdin the musical and had our minds blown, it was soooo fun! i went to the chicago pride parade for the very first time but i went by myself and at one point i was sitting on the curb just crying! not a high point but still memorable. i won a ticket to an advanced screening of the big sick where kumail & emily were there to do a q&a after the movie.... had a fuckin blast OBVIOUSLY and then saw the movie 9 other times in various theatres. i also made it into a commercial FOR the movie i just loved it that much lmao! i moved into a new (and my current) apartment! lorde released melodrama and fucking murdered me in my own home. otherwise i had a pretty uneventful but anxiety filled summer bc of financial aid stuff so that really sucked. i saw good time w taylor and the safdie brothers were there to do a q&a and they were such interesting guys i could listen to them talk for hours honestly. my mom and sisters came up to visit me and we took our mom to her very first cubs game which was sooo so much fun and they won that day too!! it was awesome and we had a great time :) watched the eclipse (or tried to anyway!!) fall quarter classes started and i honestly kicked ass at them, i got on the deans list (i almost typed honor roll lmao i mean its basically the same) i hung out with ari again which was cool!! we went to the aquarium! me and taylor saw beach fossils which was honestly the most buckwild concert ive ever been to i think, it was good shit. i got jobs at AMC (which i have since quit lmao) and starbucks and left my job at the paint place which was bittersweet! me and taylor saw mbmbam live!!! so fun!! and we watched trolls that night and goofed on it so hard!! i went home for thanksgiving and found out my big sister is gonna have a baby this year!! :D i saw mike birbiglia do stand up! which was soooo incredible of course (except i felt bad bc my mom was supposed to come w me but she couldnt go! so i brought taylor lol) UMMMMM MY DAM GIRLFRIEND CAME TO CHICAGO TO VISIT ME AND STAYED FOR A WHOLE DANG WEEK AND IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER SHE MAKES ME SO HAPPY WE HAD SO MUCH FUN AND I MISS HAVING HER RIGHT NEXT TO ME EVERY SINGLE GOSH DANG DAY <3 ;_____; and that was my year!!

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? last year i said id like to read at least one book each month and watch at least 100 movies - i did neither! im keeping the movie resolution though bc cmon 100 movies should be EASY for a film major wtf am i doing!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no but it will happen in 2018! 

4. Did anyone close to you die? not a person but we had to put down my sweet doggo, flash :(

5. What countries did you visit? still none :/

6. What would you like to have in 2018 that you lacked in 2017? More confidence that I actually deserve to be in college and that I can do this shit and I’m awesome <– that was my answer from last year and the year before but yeah. same. also money.

7. What dates from 2017 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? ummm march 25 when me and gf became gfs and also dec 17 when she came to visit :)

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? putting myself out there by doing VAS/Premiere, getting on the deans list for the first time since freshman year and then also getting a new job

9. What was your biggest failure? this summer i didnt do shit besides wallow and cry and it sucked!

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? nope

11. What was the best thing you bought? every movie ticket and the bras i bought for natalie ;-)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? natalie’s because she’s amazing and works so hard!!!! and she can always cheer me up and im so in love w her

13. Whose behavior made you appalled? mine bc i could never just get my shit together and do my homework when i was supposed to :) < thats from last year but lmfao same!

14. Where did most of your money go? RENT, movie/event tix, food, in that order

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? THE BIG SICK, the new season of sv, p much all of the events that i listed in the first question lol

16. What song will always remind you of 2017? umm honestly probably any song from melodrama

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer? I’m a. happier, b. probably thinner? or maybe the same idk, and c. definitely DEFINITELY poorer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? read and write and watch movies and write and read about movies

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Spending money and also being bitter about everything for no reason <– last year and the year before that AGAIN and also same!

20. How did you spend Christmas? working at AMC which i hated every second of :)

21. Did you fall in love in 2016? yes with my amazing girlfriend @carrot-gallery

22. What was your favorite TV program? silicon valley, AMERICAN VANDAL, the good place, great british bake off

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? nah just politicians who like. actively want me to die lol

24. What was the best book you read? bitch,

25. What was your greatest musical discovery? mitski like why the fuck did i sleep on her..... tbh thats about it bc i still listen to the same music i did 10 years ago

26. What did you want and get? I wanted a steadier/better paying job and i have it!

27. What did you want and not get? idk i wanted to be financially stable on my own and i still dont have that

28. What was your favorite film of this year? ugh i hate this question! ok in no order: THE BIG SICK, GOOD TIME, A GHOST STORY, GET OUT, THE FLORIDA PROJECT

29. What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying? uhhh having my sweet girlfriend by my side each and every day 

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2017? sometimes chic, always sweaty

31. What kept you sane? Sydney, my best friend in the entire world. (This was my answer from last year and the year before that and the year before that AND THE YEAR BEFORE THAT but it still holds true) also everyone in the sv discord chat still AND natalie of course of course

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? kumail nanjiani duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, taika waititi, and martin starr always and probably more but i legit cant think of anyone rn lol

33. What political issue stirred you the most? yikes all of it. all of the issues (this was from last year but same lmao)

34. Who did you miss? i miss my dogs and my family and my girlfriend 35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2017. You can set goals for yourself and talk about it all you want but it’s nothing until you actually start working towards it and doing something about it. <– answer from last year and the year before that and the year before that, still true!! imma keep that. also idk just like, there are good days and super bad days and ive survived all of them so its just a reminder to myself that ill be okay.

36. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. These days will all seem better in time Waiting on that hindsight

#2017 #personal #sorry that my answer to the first question is SO LONG but i did a lot this year! #and its fun to recap anyway #also this has been sitting in my drafts for a week lol so here ya go

[where-his-towel-is]

here’s a thought

so I was reading a bunch of YOI metas, discussing the unexplained turnaround in Victor’s decision to go back to skating in episode 12, instead of the retirement his whole plot arc was leading up to,

and i had this weird little idea

what if victor intends to go back to skating...and lose?

bear with bear with

(and this is more of a detailed hc than a meta, but i hope that the imagining comforts you, if you like me are feeling terrified about the writing and plot arc of yoi s2.)  

it’s canon that victuuri don’t make their final career-path decisions together in the final episode; most of that pondering was done while yuuri was skating if i remember right, since the tension between them only broke just before Yuuri started his free skate routine, presumably so that they can put the personal stuff to one side while they attempt to get this whole competition/GPF/medal business sorted. 

clearly we don’t get any insight into victor’s sudden change of heart in going back to skating, as well as coaching yuuri (does he have any concept of workload tho these are the questions) so imma just run with this hc for a bit.

to clarify, i���m not saying that victor would go back to skating for the sole purpose of losing to yuuri, just so he can boost his bf’s confidence on a false foundation. he’s learnt enough about yuuri to get to grips with how his anxiety works, and to understand that a false win would be the same as a loss.

but at the same time, victor wants to help yuuri overcome it, as far as it is in his power to do so. 

and even though yuuri isn’t helped by the more aggressive styles of training that victor (wrongly) attempts to use (ep 7 ep 7 ep 7), what he does thrive on is a challenge, something that forces him out of his comfort zone and helps him prove to himself that he can conquer unknown territory. this is what the eros routine does, this is what getting his own music does, even what spending time alone with victor does.

so victor decides, as his coach, to present him with the most difficult challenge he has yet faced: going up against his idol.

it’s not like victor will go easy on him, no way in hell. he hasn’t retained his titles this long and become a symbol for so many people by slacking off, he knows how to train and how to work. (i would like to think that he would hold off on the competitions for a little while, given how soon nationals (i think?) would be after the end of s1 and the impossibility of being ready for them.) plus he has a competitive streak of course, which we see at the end of ep 12, just a little.

victor’s incredible self-awareness, of his age and his close proximity to retirement from skating, is enough for him to know that if yuuri continues at the rate of progress he has managed to maintain throughout the series, then it would certainly be a fair fight, and that there is a high probability that he will lose even if he gives it his best shot.

(sidenote: its bizarre how the yoi fandom has got used to talking about victor like he’s an old man, like i know it’s just sports talk and everyone ages out of competition etc etc but it cracks me up cuz he’s only 28, but anyway)

he also has faith that yuuri will rise to and learn from this new challenge, and become stronger for it. as mentioned above, victor’s strategy as yuuri’s coach so far has been to get emotionally close to him, at the same time as throwing him in the deep end, which yuuri himself is not averse to. (his raising of the difficulty level in his routine in ep 5 says to me that at least on some level he understands that he works best with obstacles, its just that he has to believe he can conquer them.) 

and what greater challenge could there be for yuuri, than to go up against someone who he puts on a pedestal (yes, still, even after everything imho), someone who he has looked up to all his life and who has inspired him enough to skate beautifully that he even managed to inspire victor in return? its true, this hc would only work if victor was able to prove to yuuri, really convince him, that he is able to go up against victor without his ego being hurt. (yuuri babe victor’s ego has its own penthouse suite its gonna be fine my dear) 

also, even though the whole season build up can be read as victor realising that he needs to retire, he can also be read as someone who regains inspiration in his field through watching someone else find their own. some of y’all’s meta are pretty damn persuasive (so cool honestly), but personally i’m still not fully convinced that victor wants to stop competing at skating. sure he wants to coach, that’s where his real passion is now, but i think that with every progression yuuri makes, there is a part of victor that is curious - he wants to go back and redo his last GPF and really watch yuuri, see him for the rival that he has become and...take him for a test run, if you will. see if he can walk the walk with victor nikiforov on the same ice a second time around.

so what would the outcomes be? well,

victor wins/yuuri loses to him: as i said, i think that this is less likely, given their respective circumstances. and victor knows this too, we see how much he has already thought about how he cannot progress from this point, and while yuuri proves to be a burst of inspiration, i doubt that that would push victor past the revamped cup-holder-now-installed yuuri 2.0 that he’s fleshed out, not to mention the menace that is yurio, who would be twice as motivated competing against both halves of that disgusting couple victuuri.

or, my dreams come true and

yuuri wins/victor comes in tight second, or even third to yurio: everybuddy is happy - victor got the really interesting fiery competition he’s wanted for ages (tbh i think he’d actually quite enjoy getting silver or bronze if it was his two favourite bros on the pedestal with him), as well as a public declaration of his retirement that satisfies his old acquaintances and gets them to stop pestering him, yuuri finally gets the gold he has deserved for so long and gets it into his poor thick head that he is actually worth something, and yurio getting the satisfaction of seeing victor actually lose for one goddammit time, as well as watching yuuri win (which he would secretly be so smug about, being the one who told him to carry on in the first place). oh and victor gets to see yuuri win up close, which he would be so gone about.

of course, for this to work (this humble hc of mine), we would need to see victuuri finally flesh out some of the problems that have underpinned their relationship and that haven’t been addressed yet - they need to see each other as equals in a solid relationship, with the coach-student relationship as a flexible layer that can be removed when necessary, they need to address the fact that yuuri’s probably not as chill with silver as he made out, and they need to confront their conflicting ideas about victor’s career and what he really wants from life (which this hc would force just sayin). so much important communication would be needed, which means more angst and fandom pain, but worth it in the end, i think.

what do you guys think?

#yuri on ice #hc #victuuri #s2 #possible hc #meta #well meta-ish ok #like a bit meta #slightly #victuuri imagine #ok so its an imagine #ssshhhhh

[irishmuseumofmodernart]

I was invited by IMMA to respond to their exhibition, As Above, So Below: Portals, Visions, Spirits & Mystics, and to work with Alice Butler and Daniel Fitzpatrick of AEMI to develop a screening for the IFI in conjunction with IMMA’s Talks and Public Programmes. The resulting programme – Out of Body – features films by Maya Deren, Mairéad McClean, Jordan Baseman, Paul Sharits, and John Smith, alongside a selection of my own work. These films consider the psychic and physical spaces of body and landscape; they explore automatic, subliminal and unconscious states of mind. Multiple viewpoints, strobing, and repetition draw attention to our perceptual senses, and to the very act of looking, and of being observed.  Out of Body took place at the IFI on Tuesday 25 July 2017 and you can listen back to the introduction and discussion here.

I was commissioned to write a text to capture this curatorial process, my thinking behind the selection and my relationship with IMMA.

Medium Stanislava P, 13 June 1913 From Phenomena of Materialisation, A Contribution To The Investigation of Mediumistic Telepastics, Baron von von Schrenck Notzing, 1923

The end is the beginning is

  Three years before the turn of the 21st century, and sparked by a television documentary, I became captivated by the activities of the séance room, ideas about the psychic medium as producer of image (ectoplasmic emanations etc.) and the role of the camera within the séance room as observer and document maker. The collision of the birth of modern spiritualism (1848) and the popularisation of photography fascinates me. It’s now twenty years since I first picked up a video camera and began using the fields of psychical research and the narratives of the paranormal, as my subject matter. My films have investigated materialisation mediums, ectoplasm, trance, hysteria, table tilting, clairvoyance and telepathy.

While I frequently present experimental and artist film to my students, this invitation has afforded the opportunity to screen films within a cinema setting and to work with AEMI and IFI to access work in a range of formats. I knew early on that I wanted to include Maya Deren’s Witch’s Cradle and John Smith’s Om, and these works became a starting point for our conversations.

Psychic Edit, 2008, Susan MacWilliam Courtesy of Susan MacWilliam and CONNERSMITH

We discussed which of my films to include and agreed firstly on Psychic Edit. Out of Body commences with this 14 second looping film as the audience enters the auditorium. The subject of Psychic Edit is the Irish medium Eileen J. Garrett. It features family movie footage and an image of Garrett’s smile. Garrett is said to have possessed a charisma that would warm any room she entered. Psychic Edit sets out to lodge images of this magnetic personality in the viewer’s mind. My friendship with Eileen Garrett’s family has opened many doors for me, and she has become the ‘glue’ that connects much of my work.

Webs, strings and interconnectedness

I first encountered Maya Deren’s films in 1999 when living in New York during my residency at PS1 Center for Contemporary Art. At the time, having seen very little artist film I was working within a limited context of knowledge. In New York I saw Nam June Paik’s retrospective at the Guggenheim, Martha Rosler’s solo show at the New Museum, and film and video programmes, curated by Chrissie Iles at the Whitney, that included Maya Deren, Yvonne Rainer, Gary Hill, and Bruce Nauman. Deren’s interest in consciousness and altered states resonated with me.

Left: Witch’s Cradle, 1943, Maya Deren. Courtesy of LUX, London | Right: The Last Person, 1998, Susan MacWilliam. Courtesy of Susan MacWilliam and CONNERSMITH

Shot in Peggy Guggenheim‘s The Art of This Century gallery, Deren’s Witch’s Cradle features as the central protagonist a woman, Ann Matta Clark, and a male figure, Marcel Duchamp. The landscape they occupy is littered with objects, sculptures and string. The female figure moves through the space as if trying to make sense of, or control the strange forms. Objects move as if by their own accord, by magic or via unseen forces; a string moves up Duchamp’s leg and across the nape of his neck. The words ‘the end is the beginning is’ encircle a pentagram marked on the woman’s forehead. I see strong visual parallels between Deren’s film and my film, The Last Person, which depicts the phenomena of the séance room.

Higher Beings Command, 1968, Sigmar Polke Harvard Art Museums/Busch-Reisinger Museum (C) Estate of Sigmar Polke / Artists Rights Society (ARS), New York / VG Bild-Kunst, Bonn, Germany. http://www.harvardartmuseums.org/collections/object/348394

Higher Beings Command

Sigmar Polke’s Higher Beings Command, a series of 14 lithographs exhibited in As Above, So Below, depicts both Polke and various inanimate objects taking on the form of other things. I find them peculiar and intriguing in a similar way I do the spirit photographs I’ve worked with in my own research. Higher Beings Command, Witch’s Cradle and The Last Person share sculptural and performative connections.

Psychic and psychedelic

Eileen Garrett is often referred to as the world’s most famous psychic medium. She was deeply inquisitive and supported many in the fields of parapsychology, literature and the arts. She was supportive of Maya Deren and her interests in the spiritual and the occult. Deren’s essay, Religion and Magic, is published in Garrett’s Tomorrow magazine (Haiti issue, Autumn 1954). Aldous Huxley was amongst Garrett’s eclectic circle of friends, and with him she experimented with LSD to see if it might enhance her psychic abilities.

Following our initial conversation Alice, Daniel and myself corresponded via email. I proposed a number of works and Daniel suggested Paul Sharits’ Ray Gun Virus. Alice and Daniel worked on the running order, and Alice was instrumental in the logistics of accessing screening copies from LUX, London.

Ray Gun Virus, 1966, Paul Sharits. Courtesy of LUX, London

Ray Gun Virus is a structural flicker film. MOMA, said of it, “…with films like RGV, LSD may become obsolete.” In the 1950s at one of Eileen Garrett’s Parapsychology Foundation conferences, the psychiatrist Humphrey Osmond drew comparison between mediumistic experiences and those of patients under the influence of LSD. In the early 1960s, Brion Gysin, with Ian Sommerville, built the Dreamachine, a rotating cylinder with cut outs and a light bulb inside. Placed on a turntable and spinning at 78rpm it is viewed with the eyes closed. The light flickers at a similar frequency to Alpha brain waves. Gysin was fascinated in consciousness and perception and Eileen Garrett was said to have been of great influence upon him.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Structural_film https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dreamachine

Brion Gysin and William Burroughs with the Dreamachine. Photograph by Charles Gatewood

Faint, 1999, Susan MacWilliam Courtesy of Susan MacWilliam and CONNERSMITH

Out of body

My first connection with IMMA was when I was there as artist in residence in 1998. Shot in the grounds and interiors of IMMA, Faint, explores ideas about trance, mesmerism and hysteria. When Faint was exhibited recently at the Swedenborg Film Festival, London, I had the sensation while watching it, that the girl in the film (myself 19 years earlier) could be my niece, and myself her aunt. This feeling of familiarity yet disconnect gave me a peculiar feeling of being ‘out of body’. Faint shares with Mairéad McClean’s State of Mind remix #4 the image of a female figure in the landscape. State of Mind explores whether experiences carried in our memory can come back to haunt us. A sense of anxiety is conjured through its use of imagery and sound.

State of Mind remix #4, 2005, Mairéad McClean Courtesy of Mairead McClean

Water, mist, smoke and ectoplasm

Landscape is concealed and revealed in Mountain Mist. The steam is echoed by the ectoplasm in The Last Person, by the wisps of smoke in Om, and the billowing smoke in State of Mind. Jordan Baseman’s intensely silent and intensely visual The Black Sea is visceral and bodily; it feels like a breathing organ. Baseman processes his 16mm film in buckets; the images of the sea materialising with the ebb and flow of the chemicals. The material physicality of this low-tech process is worn into the surface of the film. Baseman uses a fixed camera position as does Steve McQueen, whose Running Thunder, is presented at IMMA. In Running Thunder the dead horse no longer breathes, while the grass around it moves gently in the air.

  The Black Sea, Jordan Baseman, 2010/2013, UK|USA, 3 minutes. Courtesy of Jordan Baseman and Matt’s Gallery.

John Smith’s Om brings to mind the saturated photographs of Kenneth Anger at IMMA. Om plays with our sense of perception. It forces us to think about how we read an image, how we consider belief systems, and how we make judgments. Like magic, can we really trust our eyes and ears?

Left: Om, 1986, John Smith. Courtesy of John Smith and LUX, London | Right: Lileth (Marianne Faithful), 1970-71, C-Print Kenneth Anger. © Kenneth Anger Courtesy of the artist and Sprüth Magers

The end is the beginning is

The screening ends with The Last Person. For me this is where it all began. Made in 1998, this was my first film. It features me reconstructing the phenomena of the séance room and acting as the medium Helen Duncan, who in 1944 was the last person imprisoned under the British Witchcraft Act of 1735. In 1998 it screened in First Cut, at the IFI (IFC), and the following year was nominated for the IMMA Glen Dimplex Artists Award. The circle has turned a full revolution as The Last Person returns to the IFI through an invitation from IMMA.

Left: The Last Person, 1998, Susan MacWilliam. Courtesy of Susan MacWilliam | Right: Witch’s Cradle, 1943, Maya Deren. Courtesy of LUX, London

Out of Body – List of Films 

Psychic Edit, Susan MacWilliam, 2008, Ireland, DCP, 14 seconds looped

Learn More on susanmacwilliam.com

Witch’s Cradle Outtakes, Maya Deren, 1943, U.S.A., Digibeta, 10 minutes

Learn more on lux.org.uk

State of Mind remix #4, Mairéad McClean, 2005, Ireland, DVD, 10 minutes

Learn more on maireadmcclean.com

Faint, Susan MacWilliam, 1999, Ireland, DCP, 4 minutes

Learn more on susanmacwilliam.com

The Black Sea, Jordan Baseman, 2010, U.K-U.S.A., Blu-ray, 3 minutes

Learn more on jordanbaseman.co.uk

Mountain Mist, Susan MacWilliam, 2002, Ireland, DCP, 8 minutes

Learn more on susanmacwilliam.com

Ray Gun Virus, Paul Sharits, 1966, U.S.A., 16mm, 14 minutes

Learn more on lux.org.uk

Om, John Smith, 1988, U.K., 16mm, 4 minutes

Learn more on johnsmithfilms.com

The Last Person, Susan MacWilliam, 1998, Ireland, DCP, 11 minutes

Learn more on susanmacwilliam.com

With thanks to the artists and LUX for providing copies of the films.

Further Information

Upcoming IMMA & AEMI, IFI Programme

IMMA is delighted to continue its collaboration with Aemi Projections, when invited artist Vivienne Dick curates a screening programme to coincide with her show at IMMA. This takes place at the IFI on Tuesday 10 October 2017 more details are available here.

About the Artist

Susan MacWilliam’s touring solo survey exhibition Modern Experiments, which features her films, video installations and sculptures will run at Uillin: West Cork Arts Centre, Skibbereen from 9th September – 18th October, and at Butler Gallery, Kilkenny from 28th October – 17th December 2017.

Susan MacWilliam. Born in Belfast and currently based between Belfast and Dublin, where she teaches at the National College of Art and Design, Susan MacWilliam has exhibited nationally and internationally with solo shows in New York, Dublin, London, VictoriaB.C. Northampton and Derby. MacWilliam has worked with prominent parapsychologists and psychical research institutions, including poltergeist investigator William G. Roll, the New York family of Irish born medium Eileen Garrett and the Dermo Optical Perception Laboratory of Madame Yvonne Duplessis, Paris. She has worked extensively with historical archives including those of the Parapsychology Foundation, New York; Hamilton Family fonds (spirit photograph archive), University of Manitoba; Parapsychology Laboratory Records, Duke University; and Rhine Research Center, Durham, NC. Learn more about Susan MacWilliam on her website. 

  OUT OF BODY – SUSAN MACWILLIAM I was invited by IMMA to respond to their exhibition, As Above, So Below: Portals, Visions, Spirits & Mystics…