#anyways dana got counted in this too bc while i love her

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anyway for funsies, i did fill out the assessing your parent's emotional immaturity questionnaire for jack & janet (& dana!) because again, i don't feel they were. quite as bad as they're oft accused of. (also. i'm on the side that at least they were probably more emotionally mature than bruce lmao lmao)

(as always this is subjective and based on my intepretation of them)

-My parent often overreacted to relatively minor things

so to start, we have no proof of this for janet (& she doesn't get mad at Tim showing up randomly at a dig site in batman #134. she does get pissy with jack during rite of passage but that's also probably reactionary to jack being jack & being dismissive of her which he shows more than once in the interaction we do see, so no it is. jack is. arguably a yes here bc he does have a tendency to do nothing or take the nuclear option. dana's a pretty solid no)

-My parent didn't express much empathy or emotional awareness

we're going to go no for janet & dana (they both show empathy & emotional concern/awareness for how tim might be feeling in the interactions we see). jack is. hm. *arguably* a no. i think there's a definite argument for yes for him, but jack is generally shown as *aware* and concerned when his son is going through something & often worried about his son. the problem is he never learns from his moment fo clarity, not that they don't exist imo.

-when it came to emotional closeness & feelings, my parents seemed uncomfortable and didn't go there

definite no for janet & dana. very strong leaning towards "no" for jack. whenever there's a conflict they do end up skirting around the real issue between them (tim is robin), but every conflict is often followed up by an affirmation that jack loves his son & is proud of him (see: after tim runs away, the christmas dinner they have during the NML event, jack's dying words) so he might not say it often, but i don't get the impression he's super *uncomfortable* going there, it's just that he only sees the need to go there when there's a Good Reason.

-my parent was often irritated by individual differences or different points of view

gonna go with a hard no for all three of them. janet seems only supportive of tim's interests. dana too. jack is. well. for some reason people seem to picture him as a fire and brimstone evangelical conservative when the fact of the matter is that he's a financial conservative who just doesn't care enough about social issues over his financial concerns (lower taxes). he'll gladly donate to save the rainforest fundraisers because that seems like a good thing. he doesn't particularly care that tim is into computers and he's not? he's vaguely supportive of that & it doesn't seem to bother him tim is a nerd (don't @ me about him misunderstanding tim and taking him to sports games. i assure you. tim ALSO likes sports quite a bit). honestly if tim came home and declared himself a liberal, jack doesn't seem the type to get upset about it (because he would just chalk it up to tim being young--it would probably amuse him more than anything--"i was dumb in my youth too, son haha" sort of deal.). he has friendlyish banter with his wife about how boys are vs. girls are (they have different opinions on that) & takes her poking at his sexism in stride at the circus.

-when i was growing up, my parent used me as a confidant but wasn't a confident for me

hard no all three. we never see janet do this & tim feels comfortable confiding everything in her in batman 134. dana definitely doesn't. jack also doesn't use tim as a confidant *and* we see him explicitly be a confidant for tim least once (when tim is dealing with the gun at school, he decides it is a tim drake problem and goes to his dad for help *because* it is a tim drake problem. robin can't confide in jack, but tim can bring up school issues with his dad and expect he'll be listened to)

-my parent often said & did things without thinking about other people's feelings

debatable one. jack is arguably yes, as he has a tendency to think and make decisions without really considering tim's view. dana no. janet. ehhhh. we don't really have enough evidence to say either way. i lean towards no, because we see her have more concern about tim possibly feeling nervous at the circus && the very empathetic consideration of the drakes to dick in choosing to send him the final photo of his parents so they probably did think about other people with careful consideration & tim says they're the ones who taught him to care about people. however, janet was also complicit in sending tim to boarding school without thinking of whether he was happy (though jack implies janet wouldn't want him to be far apart from tim) & they didn't necessarily notice tim's ruminating on the death they witnessed (altough remember: they *also* have their own personal trauma surrounding this) so. they did do some things without considering their son first.

-i didn't get much attention or sympathy from my parent, except maybe when i was sick

ooooh hard controversial here & could go either way for all three of them! so, obviously the jack & janet going away for long periods of time definitely leans to yes for them as them not being there means tim didn't have their attention. however! hugely complicated by the fact that the times they were home they genuinely wanted to spend time with their son--taking him with them to the opera & art galleries & monstery truck shows, calling to talk to him whenever they arrived back and he was still in school, & they care about his grades and general wellbeing & think of him while they're gone. & jack often is shown care about tim outside of the big events whenever he's home. dana is also arguably yes--she does some nice things like remember tim's birthday & teach him how to make soup when asked but the far larger part of her character is that she's jack's girlfriend/wife & is very clearly *not* tim's mom--she & him both draw the line of she's his stepmom, not his parent--and so she also doesn't pay enough attention to tim & also doesn't think it's her job to intervene in parenting tim affairs to actually notice anything that's going on with him. as much as she likes tim, she is also perfectly happy to go on trips with jack & leave tim behind for holidays, & get engaged without talking to tim first, start secretly dating jack without talking to tim first, ignore jack's treatment of his son so she doean't really notice how hurt tim gets by him.

-my parent was inconsistent--sometimes wise, sometimes unreasonable

okay. hard yes for jack. 100% him in a nutshell. no for dana. we truly don't have enough evidence either way for janet, but leaning towards no as she's never shown to be unreasonable with tim.

-if i became upset, my parent either said something superficial and unhelpful or got angry and sarcastic

debatable yes for jack on the angry part, but i'm personally leaning towards no, actually. like jack gets angry with tim's perceived disprespect (ie/ the TV incident). but when tim gets mad at him, really mad at him, or is genuinely upset about something jack does at least attempt to be understanding and comforting. like, he was super afraid tim would be upset about dana & didn't try to diminish his feelings at all about that or expect he'd be okay with it or get mad if he wasn't (i mean. tim was fine with it. but.). surprisingly, a fairly solid yea from dana here because while i like her she's queen of the superficial and generally unhelpful kindness that doesn't usually actually fix things, just tries to smooth ruffled feathers. the easy way out. janet, we can guess a fairly solid no given she thinks about tim being upset first & getting him out of that upsetting scene asap above all else at the circus.

-conversations generally centered around my parent's interests

fairly solid no all around. we know that janet listened attentively to tim's story in batman 134. jack does sometimes prefer to talk about his intetest but he also does try to understand and talk to tim about computers & school so, you can't say that in general he only talks about what he cares about. he just sometimes talks about what he likes. like all people do. did you know that just as parents should listen to their kids about their interests, kids should do the same for their parents. it's the basic two way street of relationships. and a no for dana. she likes when tim talks to her about anything.

-even polite disagreement could make my parents very defensive

no for janet & dana. we have nothing to indicate that was the case with either of them. debatably yes for jack, he does tend to go on the defensive when tim is accusing him of bad parenting but he also almost always realizes he's in the wrong and ends up agreeing with tim (he just. never learns and grow. but he does have the capability of recognizing he's wrong sometimes and trying to make amends). also there's nothing that imo indicates he would upset at a polite disagreement (since his and tim's disagreements tend to get very heated on both sides). like if tim were like "i don't want to go here for dinner, i'd rather go here" he doesn't seem like he'd get all "oh, so my dinner choices aren't good enough i guess", he'd probably be normal about it. he's shown disagreeing with dana (& janet at the circus) & he's fairly normal about those times.

-it was deflating to tell my parents about my successes because it didn't seem to matter

super hard no, all three. they're all extremely proud of tim when he chooses to do the right thing. jack brags about tim to randos at bars. they're clearly the type to be very exuberant & effusive over tim doing well at something (i hate to even bring n52 jack & janet in here but they were very proud of his gymnastics achievements there.). think of how happy jack was when tim lied and said he joined footballm tim's successes matter to them.

-facts and logic were no match for my parent's opinions

leaning towards no, all three. dana and janet we don't know for sure, but there's nothing to indicate this was the case with either. jack. jack does have strong opinions but tim was also able to very easily convince him to move back to gotham during NML after tim ran away. dana is able to change his mind quite easily by talking to him. he's definitely my way or the highway but not near as unchangeable as people like to imagine.

-my parent wasn't self reflective and rarely looked at his or her own role in a problem

once again, no all three. janet and dana we have no proof of this (actually when janet was kidnapped she did seem to reflect on everything, so). jack. hm. this is definitely a more debatable no, but the problem with jack is that he's not allowed to grow in the narrative so he can keep conflicting with tim. but whenever they have a conflict he's constantly questioning his own role in it (tim runs away, finding out tim is robin). however war games + identity crisis show that he was finally able to mature enough to accept he was part of the problem so even if he did have some immaturity around this, this was on it's way to getting better. then he died. so we never got the chance to see if it would stick.

-my parent tended to be a black & white thinker, and unreceptive to new ideas

definitely a no for janet, per batman 134. also a no for dana, she tends to be a little more flexible. and even a no for jack? homeboy was rooting for the side of child heroes during sins of youth. he probably likes status quo as much as the next person, so i don't think he's near as inflexible as one would think.

so idk. like, do they all demonstrate some emotional immaturity? yea. a bit. jack's the highest for sure. he's definitely got at least a couple of these, maybe even as high as 5 or 6, depending on how shitty you interpret jack to be. also consider we only ever really see him after he's been through several highly traumatic events (which does not excuse by any means, but can help explain). dana & janet both demonstrate a couple each, but aren't necessarily huge offenders on the emotional immaturity checklist.

which. i guess with doing this it's like. i don't think their parenting needs to be pathologized or anything truly. they were just. not great parents at time. & i'm not diminishing the harm of the neglect on tim, i like talking about that too. but sometimes it seems that people want to diagnose them with like "oh, they didn't really want tim/kids after all, they hated responsibility, they were too immature, they didn't see him as a person, they couldn't handle parenting, they had these issues that meant they sucked, etc"

when realistically. they just probably made some tough choices trying to consider what would be better for their son (stability and good education of boarding school vs. traipsing all over the world with them while they fought constantly), which did end up giving him some trauma *despite* what was probably their best intentions. they can be doing their best & still cause hurt. they were probably very unprepared for the *entire family* to witness an incredibly traumatic event & the long-term issues that would cause for all of them. nobody wants their marriage to start failing & that adds another issue to try to manage within the family. parenting wasn't a skill they naturally excelled at. it doesn't need to be some huge thing. they're just humans. and they make mistakes. they don't act in ideal ways.

#i mean i'm sorry i genuinely don't get the pervasive idea that they didn't want kids when they're both #shown to be extremely happy he exists. #did they struggle with parenting tim yes. but that doesn't mean they didn't want him. #anyways dana got counted in this too bc while i love her #she's not the perfect unproblematic best parent ever tim had #she also got to suck a bit in her own unique ways #and hell. half the times she doesn't count for these is because she definitely saw tim as jack's son not her own. #did she like him? immensely. was she his mom? no they mutually agreed on that #she was his step mom who came into his life when he was a teen & happy with that. #and happy to defer to jack as tim's parent

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Love Shack (Trixya) - mallstars

AN: Hey guys, I’m back with a new chapter! If you like what I’m writing, please come over and talk to me over here. I’d love to hear from you! <3 This is chapter seven, and it’s sad af, yay! :’) i also publish on ao3 if you wanna read the whole thing again bc I know it’s been a while. I’m also mallstars on ao3.

Chapter 8

In which Trixie is a good girlfriend

The next morning Trixie wakes up to her phone buzzing. Somehow, even with all the chaos in her mind after last night’s events, she was able to fall asleep. She can’t have slept for more than two hours, however. She wants to ignore her phone and go back to sleep until her alarm goes off, but the phone keeps on buzzing. She takes it out from under her pillow and forces her eyes open. There’s another message coming in. It’s Katya. Why is she always sending ten messages when she could just send one? It’s uncalled for. Trixie groans and closes her eyes again, a picture of Katya and Raja at the bar flashing before her inner eye. She decides to go back to sleep after all; but now her mind is awake, and racing, and it’s only a matter of minutes before she gives in and opens Katya’s texts.

Katya

Babe

Are you up?

I wanna talk

To you

I’m looking at the sunrise and it reminds me of you

You remember when we looked at the sunrise together? So beautiful

Please be here

Trixie sits up in her bed fast, her head spinning slightly. She tries to wrap her head around the messages, but doesn’t quite succeed. Katya is out there, thinking about her, wanting – no, needing – to talk to her. Katya called her Babe.Her heart is pounding in her chest. Before Trixie can think of a possible reply, three dots appear, showing that Katya is typing another message.

Katya

You’re not here

Of course not. I miss you.

I went to one of Adore’s gigs last night and met someone

They had the best tattoos. Raja. I think you would like them, they’re tall like you

I sucked their dick in the bathroom

It was so so good

I kinda want to do it again

Every new message has Trixie more confused. And more upset. She can already feel the tears well up in her eyes again, tears she didn’t cry last night after all, because she successfully managed to feel first too angry, and then too tired to cry. Why on earth would Katya tell her all this? Was she so drunk she forgot Trixie met Raja last night, Trixie saw everything? No, Katya doesn’t drink, Trixie remembers. There’s another text coming in.

Katya

I kinda want you to tell me not to.

Flooded with unwelcome emotions as she is, is takes Trixie another full minute to connect the dots. And, sure enough, her suspicion is confirmed right away.

Katya

Fuck Trixie

I’m so sorry

I’m used to Violet being the last person I texted and I didn’t check and clicked the wrong window

I’m so tired I’m so sorry

Sorry you had to read that. But I guess it’s better she didn’t get those, haha

What a mess

This is all it takes for Trixie to start full on ugly-crying. Thankfully, Kim wakes up from her sobbing and makes her way over to Trixie’s bed, bringing her blanket and wrapping Trixie in. She doesn’t ask any questions, just rubs Trixie’s back and sits with her until the tears stop coming and her breathing quiets down.

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It is an awful day at Smiles for Miles. What kind of a stupid name for a day care is that anyway? Did Latrice come up with that shit? She would.

Earlier, Kim tried to convince her she didn’t need to go into work today, that it was okay to call in sick every once in a while, but the thought of spending all day in bed crying about Katya didn’t appeal to her. Also, Shangela has been absent from the day care the last couple of days, for reasons Trixie doesn’t know. This week it’s just her, Latrice, Betty, and a woman called Dela, who has a job at a different day care and only comes in when Latrice absolutely needs her to. So Trixie shows up.

Her main task today is to get the kids to draw self-portraits. It’s indicative of a child’s developmental stage to investigate how they perceive themselves, Latrice tells her, and gathers the first group of kids around at the drawing table.

Trixie is glad that she got the instruction to not interact with the kids too much as to not influence the outcome of their drawings. She doesn’t feel like interacting. The table they are sitting on is kid-size, as is her chair, so she’s only ever able to sit in a crouched sideways position, with her legs not fitting under the table. Her thighs look particularly huge today in a pair of creme coloured jeans. She wishes she could get her thighs under the table and out of her sight. Why does she have to sit at a kid’s table? Shouldn’t the kids have to sit at an adult’s table?

Several of the kids are sick, there’s sneezing and coughing on every side of the table. So many runny noses. Trixie watches in disgust as a drip of snot creeps out of Josie’s nose, runs down her mouth and her chin, and lands on her portrait, reuniting with its friends and colleagues on the thin paper.

There’s a fight over the pens again. There are eight kids at the table, and a box with at least a hundred colourful pens, but of course they all want the same three pens. Of course.

Kameko spills his juice over not only his own picture, but also Maisie’s. Trixie specifically told him to get his juice off the table not five minutes ago. Maisie hits Kameko with a ruler. Good for her. Trixie pretends not to see and has to stop herself from giving Maisie a thumbs up.

Opposite her, Liam is drawing what looks like a nightmare wearing Liam’s striped sweater. The head is formed like a bean, there’s hair spreading from the ears, and the body is shorter than the head. Trixie snorts.

The first group of kids finishes their portraits, and then the second, and then Betty comes over to relieve her. Good. Trixie doesn’t think she could stand watching another kid not knowing their arms don’t come out of their head. Betty brings over her office chair so she doesn’t have to sit like Trixie is sitting right now. Why doesn’t Trixie have one of those chairs? She should just take Betty’s. Betty isn’t tall, she isn’t big, she can sit on the damn kids’ chair.

Betty smiles at her, coffee in hand.

“Oh, Dana, look at you, you’re doing a wonderful job,” she says to one of the kids who had not only gotten her skin colour completely wrong but also forgot to draw feet. Then Betty turns to Trixie. “You look so good today” she gives her unwanted opinion. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you without all that makeup you always put on. You’re so pretty, you really don’t need it, don’t you think? It looks so nice today.” Trixie bites her lip, fighting a sudden urge to take Maisie’s example and hit Betty with a ruler. She isn’t wearing any makeup today because she’d been crying right until she had to leave and also just didn’t feel like making an effort at all today. Betty, being the natural flower she is, is wearing a generous amount of angry red eyeshadow and one of those glittering stones on her front teeth. Trixie just nods in acknowledgement and gets up without a word, leaving Betty with the group.

Trixie spends the rest of her shift mentally insulting Betty, having decided mean thoughts about Betty are still better than mean thoughts about the kids. When she finally gets home, she is in quite the mood.

“I’m not wearing too much makeup! I mean, I obviously am, but it’s on purpose, it’s supposed to be like this!” she announces loudly, slamming shut the door to her and Kim’s room and throwing her bag into a corner. It hits Kim’s ironing board, which collapses.

“Of course not,” Kim says earnestly, giving the ironing board only a short glance. “Your makeup is perfect.” She puts away the course work she has been working on, obviously getting that Trixie needs her attention right now. “So, uh. Did Katya insult your makeup last night? Is that why you were crying?”

Trixie almost laughs at that. Almost. Nobody had a right to come for her makeup but especially not Katya. And even more especially not Betty.

When Trixie doesn’t reply, Kim goes on: “Listen, I know you like her, but I think you might be giving her a little too much power here. And also, Katya says dumb stuff all the time, it’s not like she means it.”

“She didn’t. She didn’t say anything dumb. Or she did, maybe, but not about me.”

“Okay. Do you want to tell me what happened last night?”

“Yes.”

But she doesn’t start talking.

“Do you need cake before you do?”

“Yes. You have some?”

And she does. Trixie can always count on Kim to fill their place with delicious – and unhealthy – food.  

Trixie is on her second piece of pecan pie when she starts telling Kim about the events from last night and this morning.

“I don’t know what the worst part is,” she says, after finishing the story, “the fact that she has a girlfriend, the fact that I’m not even an option next to her girlfriend, the fact that I had to see all of it, or the fact that Katya clearly has a type and I’m not it.” As soon as she finishes that sentence, Trixie knows what the worst part really is: having to witness first-hand the way Katya talks to Violet, having to witness Katya’s obvious pain and longing and feeling bad for her when she feels bad enough for herself already.

Kim chews her cake thoughtfully, pity clearly visible in her eyes.

Trixie feels her agitation slowly give way to sadness, and tries to cling on to the agitation, preferring it by a long shot. “Violet fully doesn’t deserve Katya. God, why can’t Katya just dump this bitch and move on? What’s so fucking special about Violet, hmm?”

Kim sighs. “Trixie, I don’t want to, err, say anything wrong, but. I think you need to get over this.”

Trixie didn’t expect this. She thought friends were supposed to indulge each other about their crushes. Isn’t that why you had friends? She feels her mood shift suddenly, scoffs, and crosses her arms in front of her chest. “Excuse me?” she asks, her voice sounding indignant, “But I don’t think I need to get over this.”

She half expects Kim to apologize and ask her to talk more about her feelings, but she doesn’t. Instead Kim raises her eyebrows, a challenging expression on her face.

Trixie goes on. “Katya is not happy!”

“And you would change that?”

“Yes!” Trixie says, feeling more than a little uncertain about this. She raises her voice slightly to make up for that unwelcome feeling. “I am a great girlfriend.” She purses her lips.

“And what do you base that on? Your amazing track record?”

Trixie’s mouth falls open at that. This bitch. “It is not my fault I haven’t had the opportunity to be an amazing girlfriend yet!”

“Whose fault is it then?” Kim asks, her lisp heavy on that question. Why didn’t Kim’s parents ever think to send her to speech therapy? Then Trixie wouldn’t have to listen to that lisp all day.

“It’s fucking…I don’t know! That’s a stupid question. I am a good girlfriend because I say so!” She crosses her arms and stares Kim down. She’s being a brat right now, she knows this, but it’s not like she can stop herself.

Kim watches her, her eyebrows still raised slightly, and takes a long pause before her next comment. “You do know, Trixie, that even if Katya and Violet were to break up you wouldn’t be able to just sweep in and carry her into the sunset? I need to know that you know that, right? Katya is a person, a pretty complicated person, and I doubt you know her as well as you think you do.”

Trixie feels all energy leave her body and uncrosses her arms slowly. She wants to sit down again, but doesn’t feel like sharing the table with Kim, and remains on her feet, feeling drained. Kim, however, is apparently not done shutting her down yet. “Also, you don’t know Katya and Violet together. They really found each other. And yes, they are struggling right now, but I think they’ll pull through. And you need to start dealing with that. You hanging around Katya metaphorically holding her hand and more or less patiently waiting for her relationship to fall apart so that you can make a move is not cute, Trixie. It’s not cute.”

Where the fuck is all of this coming from? Trixie wants to ask Kim that question, but her stomach feels tight with anger and for the second time today she feels tears welling up in her eyes. She quickly considers her options. One, ask Kim what the fuck is wrong with her. Two, let the tears flow and hope Kim will go back to being nice to her. Three, considering Kim’s words.

She goes with four, storming out, slamming the door on the way. A dramatic exit.

___

It’s raining, of course, because this is the type of day Trixie is having. At least she was smart enough to pick up her coat before she got out of their apartment. She starts walking, not knowing where to go. She never made friends with anybody from her classes, doesn’t socialize with them past some small talk and god-awful group projects, and this comes around to bite her in the ass now. She can’t go to Katya’s, she can’t go home, she can’t go to their milkshake bar and she’s not pathetic enough to show up at work after her shift is over. It’s not like she wants to see anybody there anyway. This is how she ends up sitting on a bench, in the rain, cursing the way the rain messes with her hair, cursing Katya, cursing Violet, Raja, Kim, and Betty, cursing herself. She waits until she knows Kim is asleep and returns home, her hair wet and all kinds of messed up, and her feet soaked and freezing.

When she wakes up the next morning, she checks Kim’s bed first thing and sees with relief that Kim has left for classes already. It’s early and Trixie knows Kim will end up standing in front of a classroom for at least half an hour. Only to avoid Trixie. The second thing Trixie does is check her phone. There’s a text from Katya. Trixie groans. Waking up every morning to texts from Katya had once been a beautiful fantasy, but has turned out to be a nightmare.

Katya

Are you mad at me?

Trixie never replied to Katya yesterday, but she will now.

Trixie

You mean me or Violet?

Katya

You.

Come on, don’t tell me you never sent a text to the wrong person

It happens

Let’s go out for milkshakes and talk a little? I need someone to talk to today

The words ‘wrong person’ hits Trixie right in the heart and edge her on.

Trixie

Call Violet.

Katya

So you are mad at me

May I ask why

I really don’t get why

Trixie stops replying. She doesn’t see this conversation go anywhere, not in her current mood. She’s vaguely aware that she’s not in the right here. For a moment she is able to look at things from Katya’s perspective. Katya needs somebody to talk to, reaches out to a friend, is rejected, knows her friend is mad at her but doesn’t know why. That certainly isn’t fair, Trixie knows this. She also knows, however, that she feels okay with not being fair right now. She feels bad, she feels fucking terrible, and even if things aren’t Katya’s fault they certainly surround Katya, and Trixie just needs a moment away from her. Also, she reminds herself when she still feels a little guilty, it’s not like Katya doesn’t have anybody else to reach out to. She has a whole house of people who love her. She has a fucking girlfriend even.

__

Trixie spends the next of couple of days trying to push everything surrounding Katya – and Kim – out of her mind. Kim spends an excessive amount of time away, probably at The Love Shack. The little time they spend in their room together is filled with icy silence. Katya leaves her alone with the exception of one text she gets the morning after their fight:

Katya

I’m in nyc for a while

If you want to talk, you can always call me

The fact that Katya is, very clearly, the bigger person here is not helping Trixie’s mood. She tries not to think too much about what Katya is up to in New York (she knows who she is with, of course she knows), and throws herself into her studies. She has a midterm coming up that focuses mainly on children’s brain activities while learning and taking in information. It’s abstract, difficult, barely relevant, and Trixie hates it, but when she hands in her test a week later she knows she aced it. Apparently, replacing a social life with studying does that. But shit, Trixie decides, she’s not going to let her bitterness ruin this success for her. She should treat herself. She deserves it.

Trixie has some money saved, partly because of her old job at the hotel, and partly because working three days a week is enough for her rent – and also, and she tries not to acknowledge that thought, she barely spends anything on groceries and mooches off Kim quite a lot.

Trixie doesn’t need a lot of time to figure how she wants to spend her money to make herself feel good: after some googling and a bus ride to a shop that was recommended to her, she treats herself to a beautiful white western guitar, and it’s the first good day she has had all week.

#trixya #trixie mattel #katya zamolodchikova #kim chi #college au #fluff #smut #angst #pining #mallstars #rpdr fanfiction #love shack

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oh i just realised i still haven’t done that tag meme i got @’d in!! let me do that now

tagged by @galette-krone​ !! i’m putting this under a readmore bc it’s kind of long

IN GENERAL REAL NAME:  Gabrielle! it tends to shock people sometimes bc a lot of them expect Brianna NICKNAMES: Bri, safety + lonc (both based off this username), Briseph, some people who’ve known me for a really long while still call me Gabby, SEXUALITY: bi! very bi, with a preference for girls (when will i get a cute gf just wondering) PRONOUNS: she/her ARE YOU A MORNING PERSON?: god no WHEN SWIMMING, DO YOU PREFER TO DO IT IN THE OCEAN, OR IN A LAKE?: i.... the pool? the ocean out of the two ig but i think i’d just prefer a swimming pool

ON TUMBLR: ANYONE YOU WOULD LIKE TO MEET IN REAL LIFE?: MMM let’s see. all of my friends who i love and cherish but a few in particular i’d say would be Avery, Kay (and that will hopefully happen this summer), Remy, ANYONE YOU HAVE MET IN REAL LIFE?: yes!! i’ve met my friends Dana and Mari rnari and that was a great time, and two of my friends from In Person i see on here so. do they count? w/e i’m counting Veronica and Karisa anyway WHEN DID YOU FIRST JOIN? HOW OLD IS YOUR CURRENT ACCOUNT?: iirc i first joined around 2011 or 2012? i made a new account in 2013 to talk to a friend, and then i accidentally deleted that last summer like a dumbass so i made this one in august ANY PEEVES?: people who tag things really obnoxiously. i don’t track tags just to see you mention them once in a post that doesn’t really have anything to do with them, or in posts about how much you hate them UNPOPULAR OPINION: as someone who frequents both i gotta say i think tumblr is better than twitter at this moment. they both suck though, i just prefer being able to archive content meticulously.

FEELINGS: DO YOU EASILY GET JEALOUS?: unfortunately, DO YOU EASILY GET ANGRY?: yyyeah. i’ve got a short fuse. i blame growing up with my sister because we pissed each other off really easily ARE YOU EASY TO CHEER UP?: mmm. kind of? it depends on how i’m feeling specifically and Why ARE YOU GOOD AT HIDING YOUR EMOTIONS: also depends!! i’m good at hiding things online but i’m told i have a really shitty poker face, so. WHAT’S THE VERY BEST WAY TO CHEER YOU UP?: talk to me ig! engage me in fire emblem discussion. i never shut up about fire emblem when i get going. show me pictures of flowers and pet cats.

RELATIONSHIPS: ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN A RELATIONSHIP?: god. i wish. i want a cute person to date. DO YOU CURRENTLY HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE?: ,,,,,yes IF YES, MIGHT THAT SOMEONE BE READING THIS?: i doubt it? DO YOU KISS ON THE FIRST DATE?: i have never been on a date DO YOU PREFER GOING OUT, OR STAYING HOME, WHEN IT COMES TO DATES?: i’ve still never been on a date but it depends on Mood^tm uh, preferably going out?

THINGS: FAVORITE DRINK: pepsi cola. no cherry or diet or anything just plain ass pepsi cola FAVORITE FOOD: pepperoni pizza, NY style! but god i love buffalo wings a lot too MOST CALMING PLACE?: holed up in a corner at the bookstore is where i’m most calm on the Rare Occasion we go to barnes & noble... otherwise, i like to chill in my grandpa’s room MOST STRESSFUL PLACE?: college MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?: my phone! and my computer + flash drive, i have a lot of content. oh, and my n3ds xl

TAGGING... let’s see. i’ll tag @flawedreverie, @diccourse, @verwjill, & @seikastukage !! none of y’all have to do it i’m just tagging for if you wanna

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