#anyway gotta do work stuff soon

[sparky-is-spiders]

For BweirdOCtober days 3 & 4 (Old OC and Redesign), Delgarin!

So, waaaaay back in the day (I'm talking elementary & middle school) I had this massive fantasy sci-fi space opera about four different elemental species trying to fight successively bigger universe ending threats (not to be confused with my current fantasy world where multiple species have to try and stop bigger and bigger world-ending threats...). And my beautiful pride and joy was this snarky asshole landshark water elemental named Dagger. He made poisons and also knives and he was a jerk to everyone but also perfect in my eyes and I never wanted him to change ever. He was covered in scars and probably chosen by a god and a super cool hero and I loved him soso much. He was also a huge edgelord in ways that were, in hindsight, not very sensitive re: mental health issues. Anyway, past Sparky eventually moved on from this world and now the few OCs I still remember are mostly funny "baby's first OC" stories I remember fondly (excepting the certain aspects of Dagger's character which I alluded to).

Anyway, I'm still a little bit attached, so I figured I'd give him a touch-up know that I'm older and know better. Gave him a name change too, because why not. This is possibly stretching the limits of what could be considered a "redesign" (especially since his old design was "generic shark with four legs and lots and lots of scars") and also I'm redoing his entire character, but whatever.

Young Sparky thought thresher sharks were really really cool (young Sparky had good taste in animals) so that's what I based Delgarin on. He's also a he/him lesbian now because I say so.

Still cynical and snarky but also sort of a loser disaster. The scar on his face came from... some kinda smithing accident idk. Don’t have anything concrete for him beyond that.

Tried a slightly messier style with the lines. Just did whatever with the background also cause I was on shift and wanted to get the art done and posted before I had to get back to work. Anyway. Uh. Enjoy?

#oc-tober #bweirdoctober #sparkarts #i… don’t have any oc tags beyond my lizard one #too lazy to think of one now tbh #anyway might draw anthro delgarin soon #i wasn’t sure if i wanted to go gray-gold or blue-gray #did blue-gray base with gray-gold on top #i think i quite like it actually #anyway gotta do work stuff soon #signing off now (for now)

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[hobbithoes]

haven’t posted any art in 5ever here’s some unfinished flash designs and sketches 😵‍💫😼

#2nd girlie with orange hair is my new Skyrim char😈💪 #flash was lowkey a waste of time my boss wanted me to practice color but now he wants more detailed stuff but said I can do these too ig???? #anyway… lol I gotta work soon <\333 #myart

[prettyblondguys]

CW/TW: anxiety

I have been. Very anxious before work lately, and I don't really know why. Like, for the first few weeks, yeah I get that, I have vv bad anxiety, makes sense. But then it chilled out a bit as I got used to the place, I'd only have slight, manageable anxiety, the same kind I get going to the store or somewhere.

But the last few weeks have been BAD. impending sense of doom, bad. Having to show up 30 minutes early so I can sit in the break room and do my breathing exercises bc I feel like I'm dying.

Idk why. It's just, back to really bad.

There's not really a point to this I just. Wanted to vent I guess lol.

#Anyway. Gotta go to work soon lmao byeeeeee #And some stuff I used to do as a kid when I was anxious is suddenly back? Like? The hell dude

[cutiecorner]

Woof grrrr

#negative #a little?? #(just to be clear!!!!! this is not about anyone its just feelings im working thru abt a subject. this is in no way meant to judge!!) #not mouse noises but whatever #im >:| tonight. jus thinking #i gotta address something soon and its eating at me unnecessarily #yes i did draw bruce in a diap in my last post i do that sometime #and im trying to deal with the fact! that that's ok to do theres nothing wrong with nappies in regression #buuuut i still get bent out of shape about it #im not sure if im comfy bringing it up here yet #like its truly not big a deal but. you know #it makes some people uncomfortable and theres always the possibility of creeps finding it which would be super upsetting #and i dont want to give people a false read on my feelings toward it. if that makes sense #mostly for commissions #cuz honestly im still very all over the place about my comfort levels with diaps in commissions #its like very hit or miss whether ill do them or not it depends on the vibe #and ofc none of this has to do with anyone else this is NOT a judgement #its just about my personal comfort putting certain stuff out there #anyway. woof #if you're wondering if im gonna address i will im just. buffering

[aurora-boreas-borealis]

Idk what annoys me more, people attacking creators or the fact that fandom barely does anything when it comes to creative content

#Look I don’t like mistagging and all #but sometimes you gotta do it if you want your work to get somewhere #because nothing gets reblogged anymore #I feel like there has been issues with me tagging some of my zelda stuff as lu #but I say it’s loose for a reason #and sometimes I would like the work I spend a good while on to not die as soon as I post it #ugh fandom discourse #why is it we go in circles every single time when it comes to fandom #anyway go and appreciate the creative people in the fandom #reblog their stuff

[guqin-and-flute]

OKAY. I have been doing some really good blocks of writing over the past few weeks--like several sessions with ~2000 words. Unfortunately, a lot of it has been skipping around on different fics (I'm trying to be better about unhealthy sleep habits, so I'm not writing in huge, hyperfixated chunks. Or trying not to 😬).

So, if you would like, feel free to poke, request, remind so it stays on my conscious mind! Do not feel obligated, this is only if you feel the urge, it will get done either way!

#I don't think i ever said on here but my ADHD meds that I was on weren't working and i have yet to start new ones #this is probably obvious 😁 #but I'm trying to get better about pacing and external systems to help get things done #(cute timers for writing/replying sprints #and website timer limits on my phone and browsera #a comfy place to write in my room #AND hopefully a clickity clackity mechanical keyboard soon to encourage happy stimmy feelings) #the work is slow but I'm getting there and that's what matters!! I'm massively compartmentalizing and taking it slow #because the point of burnout is telling you what's not working so I'm trying to learn from it and work better with myself #so sorry to friends i haven't replied to im a while--I'm getting there! #you are important and your correspondence matters to me and i appreciate your patience as i work shit out #and i wish that the stories I'm SO excited to share with everyone weren't so slow to come out but sometimes you gotta do the slow work firs #(i rewrote that last sentence to make it not an apology because I'm trying to be better about feelings of guilt #and obligation that YOU LOVELY PEOPLE never put on me and only stems from myself #cause mentally beating myself up isn't gonna do shit because it never HAS. we're doing something new! as many times as it takes! #ANYWAY #my stuff

[welcometogrouchland]

I will feel so tired that it's like my atoms are coming undone and I'm being made unreal...and then I will have a little chocolate treat and for 15 minutes I am whole and present again. Then the horrors

#ramblings of a lunatic #i remember feeling like this at the peak of my burnout and fatigue before #(also the same burnout and fatigue that took my interests and creativity and ground them into dust) #so I've concluded that i will just try and make it through the next two days as best i can (I GET FANCY RESTAURANT FOOD ON WEDNESDAY) #and then I'll just try to let my mental and physical health recuperate while finding excuses to hang w/ friends #cause that'll stave off thr madness of isolation #i wanna watch my shows and movies too and I'll finally be able to w/o guilt after the last exam :cries: #anyway. if you've noticed an uptick in me just sayin shit recently (in a way that may or may not be cause for concern) #it's bc I'm so close to getting out of the mines that having to wait any longer is driving me clinically insane #i wanna downplay the problem bc it's truly not that big a deal in some ways #but then i remembered that this is a) the longest I've gone w/o seeing my pals in like. nearly a month #and I've been at home doing the same stuff everyday for nearly a month too #and also IT'S THE FINAL EXAM I'M EVER GONNA DO BEFORE COLLEGE. IT'S A BIG DEAL MAN #so actually. yes I'm a bit of a drama queen but my slice of life problems have a place for mediation and bemoaning #but it's fine. bc we're gonna kill it #I'm gonna do sooooooo good on this test (<- manifesting) #it's. a little high pressure bc the last time i did a test for this subject (that I'm generally very good at) i majorly beefed it #but I've learned since then and I'm hoping. praying. also working hard but mostly hoping and praying #anyway. I gotta sleep soon bc i got so little sleep last night bc of the heat that i almost started crying at breakfast #LET'S GO LESBIANS (the lesbians are me. it's just me talking into a hall of mirrors)

[mccleans]

there was a moment during today's arsenal game when i wanted to be like, team, wake up! you're all looking sleepy and lazy and slow! but then randomly remembered your post being like, look, they get enough hate and i don't want to be that to them, and it just made me realize that, yeah, me too. anyway, your kindness is so powerful and i hope you know what a source of light you are in the world 💖

me reading this right now at 4am

#this made me CRY #sometimes i worry i'm coming across condescending or whatever bc i know everyone deals with stuff differently #and approaches situations differently and whatever works for them works for them #but i personally hate that attitude of just dropping them and being mean as soon as they aren't doing the absolute best #it just reminds me of aftv and football twt and i think it should stay there #and it makes me sad to see BUT like i said everyone handles stuff in their own way which is OBVIOUSLY fine i'm not the sheriff of gooners #but idk the thought that the gentle parenting unconditional positive regard love them despite it all attitude is spreading.... #it's enough to make me cry! #i just think it's so much more fun for everyone to approach it like that yk #and obviously i get pissed off w them too but this is just so lovely to see #is any of this making sense ? it is 4:45 in the morning #anyways NONE of this is directed at anyone i'm just trying to pour my brain out in these tags and there's some lumps in it #(just took a closing my eyes break from typing these btw) #but YA i'm so flattered and honoured and emotional and in love with u #feel what you gotta feel always my love but positive choices are always lovely to see!!!!!!!! #now. i shall sleep 🫶 #asks

[loverboybitch]

knit sweater i made drying out after i dyed it in my kitchen sink.//.

#uploads #fashion #fibres #the color is kinda weird but i like it alot that really washed out wine red #gonna fuck around with this more still myb do a little bleaching and some more dying but for now she rests #also shrunk a bunch lowkey after i washed it so hope i can stretch it back out a bit we will see #reflecting several hours later now that its mostly dry and i got to try it on #i think the color looks kinda washed out cause i wrung it out really realyl hard when i was washing it #i feel like that wasnt super smart cause i do wish it was a bit darker but also maybe i just need a darker dye mix #but i really was squeezing that shit to get the water out and i think it probably desaturated the color a bit #lessons for next time #also rewrote and made a edited version of the pattern ive been working with so its more my own #changed a couple things so im gonna try and make another sweater soon i think #gotta figure out what wool i wanna use maybe ill go back to the galler yarns WOW wool but also the mohair was really nice #i have a ton of fine alpaca but ive been using that for my woven project instead and its alot thinner #idk how it would look esp cause im using such big needles #maybe i could size down and try that but id have to really figure out a whole new pattern n knit counts idk maybe #anyway just thinking out loud cause its 5am and i cant sleep but i also cant work on sweater anymore cause its just chilling #n i need bleach n some other stuff #also gonna knit a trim for the bottom and sleeves fuck weaving it thats too hard #but then im gonna have to figure out how to dye it so it matches but uhhh haha idk #good thing its kinda a tester

[batfossil-fr]

I have another skin I've been wanting to get some progress on and then I remembered that I haven’t streamed in one million billion years. if people are interested in a jank little ipad stream (oh god I’ll have to figure out if that’s even possible) maybe I’ll try my hand again at streaming my art. no promises I’m still trying to crawl my way out of Only Making 2 Pieces of Art Per Year so I cannot guarantee when the mood will strike me

#unfortunately it has been a Bad Time. i had all these hopes to start up a non FR blog and was going to!!! but I'm so dead. #I hope I'll be able to do it soon because I really want to! it just requires energy of which I have none right now #I have an insane amount of worldbuilding shoved in my head and it would be fun to share #like I will go insane with worldbuilding if I'm left to my own devices. I was trying to make a new chromosome system the other day. #I once tried to figure out orbital mechanics to make a planet system. I am an evolutionary biologist. I know fuck all about orbital mechanic #s #god help me because I started thinking about weather patterns recently #anyways #really the most part is I just gotta get over the mental hurdle of ahhhhh sharing scary #sharing stuff here has me sweating sometimes LOL #just because Ahhhhhhh People Can Perceive Me and My Art #plus streaming is like Get Perceived Idiot and I think that I need to practice that #anyways welcome to my TED talk. #who cares!!!!!!!!!! @ ME Get This Through Your Head. #also I know I'm the king of ok I will try my best to make this happen! and then not making it happen but I did not forget. #I have ALWAYS wanted to make an art blog since I was like 12 and learned what those are. but 11 years later I'm still too chicken to do it #SO. I'm working on it #I am biting the bullet and forcing myself to start posting shit. eventually. soon #if you want to get the jump on it my tumblr is actually already made I'm just sitting on it and letting it haunt my brain #it's rewormer. just rewormer #because I will be posting about worms. many many worms. I love them. they are my brain rolled out into a worm shape. #MY brainworms. no dewormer allowed <3 #my interest in worms went from 'I love looking at sandworm concepts I should make one sometime' to #'ok I finally made my own sandworm and they are so incredibly self indulgent that I can think of nothing else now.' #speculative biology my beloved at this point I do my little biology thing and then come home and immediately try to apply all of those ideas #anyways holy shit if you read all of this. I give you a sticker #but I just wish I had the energy to do all this. I'm hoping it changes soon because I do really want it! very badly! I just am not there yet #unfortunately things have been Bad and I have not been doing Well and life kinda derailed and then the train fell into a lake. #and I am still sitting in the water being like aww shit my train. but I'm hoping to call Train AAA soon #holy shit I hit the tag limit okay bye for real

[gnc-tits]

my worst quality as a student is that if i think an assignment is not worth my time i just dont do it. like thats not to say if i think its annoying or dumb i dont do it bcoz i still do some of those but if the net gain to my education and me personally isnt substantial i just wont do it! like what is the value here. what does this teach me like actually. like girl shut up

#the pharmacy wont fill my vyvanse PLEASE LORD. I AM DROWNING LORD PLEASE #even the stuff that i want to do and that im GOOD at is like. oh my god the focus is not focusing!!!!!! #300 mg of wellbutrin xl and an absurd amount of notebooks and planners only gets a girl so far…………. #anyways genuinely i wish i were good at school like. its such a privilege to even be able to go to school and yet i am fucken. dying #constantly. like i have gotten so much better and i love the work i do and what i get to learn!! but oh my god like the adhd is suffocating #how did i survive this long without a diagnosis lol #ugh whatever #iits not just that ig i mean there r other factors. i wish i could just be like. an On Campus Student whose only responsibility is to learn #and do their assignments but. idk. i just didnt get that. whixh is not to say my life is like sooooo hard but idk its just #watching friends n my peers get to have the College experience when u gotta like pay bills n stuff is. idk. alienating. and idk how much of #my shittiness as a student is the syndromes and how much is just like my life situation #uggGHHHHH. WHATEVER #if i dont get my medication soon i will explode forever #first crit in my fiction workshop is comin up and i gotta get at least 10 pages done which is like feasible i just need to be medicated lol

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #god i am so fucking tired lately sksbdjjccj #came home from work today and made myself a quick dinner and after eating i immediately passed out for like an hour 💀 #there’s so much i gotta do in terms of cooking/chores but my body is just so worn out #which is why im late answering messages and stuff lately btw sjsbdjdb im not trying to ignore ppl #just. spoons in the negative. i can drop by and post my gay little thoughts every now and then but conversations i have to take slow #but yeah i am in dire need of a vacation skshdjdj ill have to put in a time off request soon… #just gotta decide how much time i wanna take off and when… #im just like god i hope i don’t have another medical emergency of some kind and regret not saving my pto 💀 #but i need REAL time off u know… time to relax instead of recovering/nursing ppl #at my first job i didn’t take a proper vacation for like two years and whew. there were Mental Consequences #now it’s been a year and a half at this job and the Consequences are hot on my tail #it’s just sad bc of covid u know. i can’t go anywhere nor host any friends for a visit #so ill just spend the whole time at home wishing i could be w my friends and family… 😔 #well. anyway. ill figure smth out #for now i just gotta get into a routine w the chores so im not dying sjbsdjhd #and also go talk to my fibro specialist abt adjusting my treatment to accommodate for lifestyle changes… #third floor apartment and walking to work and etc etc #sigh. im just tired man

[batz]

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#actualy i gotta ask how the HELL do u navigate agoraphobia n ptsd. asking in Casual Normal Way so others who like #also deal with it can Maybe giv me advice? im working on it w my therapist but directly hearing frm other folks dealing w it would Help #i dont like posting ths kinda stuff outside priv twitter BUT its also kinda like. does anyone know how to Deal w it #i still go outside if im going with ppl but bc of experiences w my abuser stalking me irl im like. kind of phobic of outside lol #frank.txt #starting to try to go on walks again and im proud of myself fr that and i can easily go around to places within my neighborhood #its just tht as soon as i Leave the neighborhood i Need to go w a buddy bc its Safer. which feels so silly but. oagh #stalking m #abuse m #this isnt RLLY. a vent. ig partial vent? mostlyjust asking other ppl fuckd up frm ptsd for some advice(tm) #bc i miss outside ngl . i miss going to places w/o bein scared of my r/pist just appearing out of nowhere or whatever #it seems like an irrational fear but it has happened before . exhausting ! #anyway ill post funy cartoons again soon sorry just kinda Anxiety atm #drawin lesley next iif i can figure out her coat

[dredshirtroberts]

taking a break from cleaning because i need to 1) pace myself and 2) spread this out over 2 days so that it doesn't get a chance to get too dirty again before i gotta do final tidying and pickup before the chaos ensues, but i've gotten a surprising amount done for like 20 minutes of clean and 10 minutes of Silly Shit.

#the whiteboard to-do list has been a game changer for me in general #like i don't often have a lot of stuff to put on it #but when i do it's really good at keeping me on track/focused #without being too overwhelming to look at #(or while it might be overwhelming as soon as you knock something off if the list looks too cluttered you can just erase it) #(and then bam less shit on your list both physically and mentally) #my productivity hack is 1) erasable to-do list and 2) find a 15-20 minute video to pop on and work to #you don't gotta pay attention to it but finding something you enjoy listening to is a key #i don't wear headphones while working because i don't have wireless ones and i rarely wear pockets indoors because fuck that noise #so i just pop my phone in a central location to where i'm currently working and let her go #if i have to leave the room i can hear it going and i know i gotta go back for it when i'm done #you just work for the length of the video and assess where you're at when you're done #if you did extra stuff that wasn't on your to-do list #write them down and cross them off - or just pretend you've already wiped them off the list because you did them #and since it's not on your list *now* you don't have to worry about it #i used to work almost exclusively to markiplier's prop hunt playlist but i've expanded for shorter bursts #because that's what i put on if i think it's going to take all day (and then i get about 45 minutes in and go alright i finished) #anyway ymmv if you even got this far or were thinking about taking my advice #i'm just telling you what works for me #and of course it's really mostly onlyhelpful if i've already got the spoons for doing shit that day in the first place lmao #speaking of which i did figure out where the extra spoons came from earlier this week #bad news boys: it was the hormone cycle and now i'm bleedin' out me vag again #okay real sorry if you got this far on the tags thank god this is my own post lmao

[thehateinc]

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#I just got ANOTHER parking ticket for the same reason as last time #street cleaning🥲🥲🥲 #which is horribly embarrassing and AWFUL bc it’s $90 and I had to beg my mom to pay last time #and she’s gonna be so mad if she hears abt this one #my block has totally free parking except for every other Tuesday #and I constantly forget #I shouldn’t but I do :( #and I have NO MONEYYYYYYY #actually I have abt the same as always but my mom just took a pretty big pay cut and doesn’t get paid in January so I’m worried for her #it’s okay tho my grandma usually sends me money at the end of the block so I’m trying to chill #I’m more annoyed at myself than anything #hence why I’m sitting in the rain bc I deserve it #I also committed to taking my roommate winetasting and she invited me to everything #and ofc I’m gonna pack my own food and ask to split gas but #that’s another weight on my mind #I’ll be fine I just really have to establish boundaries abt my spending lol with her #she’s always begging me to buy stuff and ragging on me for not working #which now I regret #but anyway I’ll be okay just needed to vent lol #gotta figure out my commissions soon