Call me Bee or Guq (or whatever!) •• She/they ••
Mainly MDZS/CQL & MXTX and random C/Kdramas
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NOT SPOILER FREE
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Feel free to poke me if I don't reply, it's the ADHD
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Inclusionist •• Trans Positive
Free use screenshots side blog is cql-screenshots
anyway the actual point of fandom is to inspire each other. reading each other's fics and admiring each other's art and saying wow i love this and i feel something and i want to invoke this in other people, i want to write a sentence that feels like a meteor shower, i want to paint a kiss with such tenderness it makes you ache, i want to create something that someone else somewhere will see it and think oh, i need to do that too, right now. i am embracing being a corny cunt on main to say inspiring each other is one of the things humanity is best at and one of the things fandom is built for and i think that's beautiful
taking your own advice is so hard. it’s “make bad art” this and “kill your perfectionism” that until i sit down with an idea i like. the i have to execute it perfectly Or Else
I have been asked for something new from MDZS! I admit it took me some time because many of the prompts I got had some sweetness in them (like, please make them hug or kiss or stare lovingly) and I had no idea why it couldn't sit right with me. Well, for me MDZS is more about being selfish and blind to those who care about you, pointless waiting and grieving, and being VERY lucky. I seriously couldn't paint fluff having all of this in mind, but I hope you won't mind (I still tried my best! xD)
It's so cute how the novel fandom has all the "How can LXC recognize NMJ's abs?" jokes and the drama fandom has all the "How does LXC know JGY's body has no curse marks?" jokes
[id: two gifs of jiang cheng from ‘the untamed’ with the quote: ‘i want to know what it means to survive something / does it just mean i get to keep my body?’ the first is from after he has lost his golden core, he is speaking with a blank expression, and the gif is edited to enhance the orange/yellow colours. the second is after he meets wei wuxian again in qinghe, expression faltering as he attempts to look stoic, and the gif is edited to enhance the blues.
Nie Huaisang is such a character. He can faint on command. The character guide in the novel describes him as a dandy and lists his weapons as saber (ostensibly) and crying (actually). He stalked a canary for several days and then sneaked it into class. He collects porn and shares it with his friends. He's in a sword wizard society and his clan in particular is known for their blades but he never once has a fight scene. His characteristic accessory is a paper fan. He failed summer camp twice. He formed a Golden Core nearly a decade later than everyone else his age. When his brother was killed he set in motion a several years long revenge scheme that involved both careful planning and insane improv. He built a reputation on not knowing anything. He threw himself on his brother's killer weeping and saying "if you don't help me I'm killing myself in front or you." Truly who is doing it like him