#and... i'm sort of very on board with it?

[fairuzfan]

Something I can't figure out about IU from a lot of conflicting information, is whether or not the school as a whole, like faculty and student body, supports Palestine. I don't understand, is it mainly an administrative problem, or is it something common with faculty/students and basically an issue to the core of the school? You've mentioned having friends who go to IU, would you be able to ask them for their opinions on this? Totally understand if not, I'd just like to hear from someone who's been there for more than a superficial tour. IU was one of the universities I've been looking at for school in the future, but if they're going to support a genocide I obviously don't want to give them thousands of tuition dollars.

This is a more complicated question than you'd think because there are multiple IU campuses across the state and each one kind of has a different vibe from what my friends tell me. I'm talking mostly about IU Bloomington, which is the main campus, but there are like 5 different campuses across Indiana.

It depends on what you're studying tbh, like I heard the business school has a huge racism problem from both students and faculty. From what I understand these days, the leadership is overwhelmingly zionist so like the president and the board of trustees and stuff. The president actually took back her initial statement on "the conflict in the middle east" (not naming any specifics) to focus solely on "Jewish Students" (in other words, emphasizing that Israel represents all jews) and didnt mention palestinians at all. Like she went out of her way to be zionist and IU Hillel all pressured her to do this, as mentioned in the article. There are a bunch of students who are Israeli zionists. Actually, the article talks about how IU students went to the kibbutz near Gaza for a tour a couple semesters ago, which to me is absolutely disgusting that a university would fund a trip to the area around a concentration camp.

Also on the IU woman's basketball team there's an Israeli student who apparently cheered on the carnage of Gaza on her social media and I don't think there's been much reprimanding of her.

At the same time, I've heard it's mostly a leadership issue. The student council I believe released some sort of statement about Gaza that was Pro-Palestine and I've seen some professors publish things in newspapers calling the entire thing ridiculous and racist. So it depends.

I will say that if you're basing your educational career off of which universities support Palestine or not, you will have a very hard time finding a school. So you'll have to do some cost-benefit analysis of what you're able to handle.

[lavendermoonlitskies]

Fanfic Friday: fic recs!

Hiii everyone, happy Friday! I forgot that I made a post like this ages ago for fanfic Friday, but I’ve read a bunch since then so here are some recommendations of Good Omens fics I’ve enjoyed recently:

“Heaven isn't built to house a love like you and I” by ItsScottiesStark

Rating: T

Length: 37,291 (8 chapters)

Summary: They did it. They stopped Armageddon. They survived.

This was it, the first time they were actually free to finally figure out what their side entailed.

Aziraphale is a being of love. Always has been. And now, all the love he has for Crowley is free to flow from the edge of his fingertips to the demon's, in a gesture that could only mean one thing; I'm with you. I'm here.

As much as his hands itch to reach out for the love of his existence, his words seem to fail him, time and time again. He knows Crowley deserves more than gentle hand holding and forehead kisses in the dark. He aches to scream his love from the top of his lungs, for the whole world to hear. And the demon knows it.

And he waits. Because he'll wait forever for Aziraphale. Because he knows they are meant to be one.

This one is great at immediately grabbing your attention. It starts on the bus during that scene towards the end of season 1 where Aziraphale holds Crowley’s hand, which very smoothly leads in to this theme of physical contact and how although they’re both unfamiliar with it, it’s secretly something they both long for from the other. Without spoiling too much, they sort of subtly lean into this desire for physical affection in a way that’s incredibly sweet yet almost tragic with how hesitant they are at the start of it. You can tell that they want so desperately to let the other know how much they care, but they still don’t know if the other is on the same page (so “he waits. Because he’ll wait forever for Aziraphale.”). This writer is really great at conveying how much they really love each other, highly recommend!

“Twin Suns” by IneffableDoll

Rating: T

Length: 7,291 words (3 chapters)

Summary: “I thought you were gone,” Crowley mumbled, and it was almost cliché, it was almost the kind of sentimental rubbish he would’ve moaned at had he heard it from someone else. But they were the rawest words he could manage. He’d thought Aziraphale was gone. That was all, and it said everything.

***

Directly following their celebratory meal at the Ritz, Aziraphale and Crowley clash with the feelings that struggle to settle after everything they’ve been through. And, in so doing, learn to rely on and communicate with each other in new ways.

Similar in concept to the previous one I mentioned, this fic takes place after the events of season 1. They get into some real honest conversations (something I love reading in fics because the characters in canon are not at that point yet and I am HUNGRY for some emotional honesty from them), and something I really love about this one is how patient they are with each other. In chapter one Crowley says that he’s not ready for this conversation, and Aziraphale respects that. Without spoiling too much more, they’re both super careful with the other’s boundaries as they kind of start to think and talk more about the love they have for each other that they’ve never really gotten the chance to explore until now. I absolutely love how they take things nice and slow, attentive to how the other is feeling about all of this. This kind of love is a new concept for the both of them, but they wouldn’t want it with anyone else, and so they try. And I think that’s beautiful.

“Icebergs and Angels” by The_Bentley

Rating: T/M (two versions)

Length: 23,498/24,929 words (8 chapters each)

Summary: It's 1912 and Aziraphale, not wanting to be lonely during his mission aboard Titanic, invites Crowley along for a cruise. But he boards the ship before knowing exactly what his mission is. When he learns Heaven wants to teach humanity a lesson for the claim even God couldn't sink it, it could damage his relationship with Crowley, who has his own views on Heaven's need to punish innocents. Can he repair things with Crowley and can they work together to save as many lives as possible?

The concept of this one is so cool, and very much something I could see actually happening in the show as another historical flashback/mini-sode. Aziraphale is given a mission from Heaven that entails many humans losing their lives, he’s obviously not on-board with that, and Crowley is there to help him save as many human lives as possible because, as much as he’d hate to admit it, he really is a nice demon who very much disapproves of Heaven’s disregard for human life. Throughout this one you get to see how the two of them interact with the humans, all while Aziraphale is battling this inner conflict of wanting to just go along with Heaven’s orders without questioning it while simultaneously knowing that it’s wrong. The narration is great, beautifully written and I really felt like the writer understands these characters on a very deep level. There are two different versions of this one, both of which are fantastic. I personally felt that the more platonic/aroace approach to Aziraphale and Crowley’s relationship in the context of this particular story was more fitting, but if you’d like something a little spicier I thought that the Mature rated one was just as good! (I’m linking the non-spicy version here, but the link to the spicy one is in the summary!)

#good omens #good omens fic rec #good omens fanfic #good omens fic #good omens fanfic rec #fanfic #fanfic friday #fic recs #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #good omens fandom

[kulvefaggoth]

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#been thinking a lot lately about if i want a new name #and what that name would be #gui is just a nickname for my birth name so it's meant as a temporary thing #and y'know i've been thinking about a lot of names #but yesterday the name Pallas came to me #and... i'm sort of very on board with it? #like it's not a full Woman Name like say Cereza or Cassandra #it's vaguely feminine in sound but could be a neutral name for all intents and purposes #plus i've never met anyone with Pallas as a given name not even online #it's fairly unique and that has appeal to my i'm not like other girls side #we'll see #ugh wish i could start transition already #but... money.... #also idk how to talk about this with my dad rn #he's not reactionary or anything but it's always scary #wish i didn't have to depend on him for that #doesn't feel very big girl of me to not even pay for my own transition

[ratwithhands]

I had an idea a while ago of Emmet getting white hairs from stress after Ingo disappears, so here's the sketches that came out of that. Little man so tired he looks like he got bleached. Also long hair just because :)

anyways have a good day and see you later ^^

#submas #subway master ingo #ingo pokemon #subway master emmet #emmet pokemon #fanart #pokemon fanart #sketch #drawing #digital art #this was actually going to be a progression comic (sort of) #you'd see him when he's battling and making his conspiracy board and on the phone #and it'd show him losing the strength to fight #and the board getting more expansive and detailed #and him calling different people to look for help/comfort #but that would take WAY TOO LONG so I just went with this #still very pleased with how this came out though #fun fact every sketch has it's own little note/context on it but I'm just gonna leave them up to interpretation :) #anyways see ya! #hope none of you guys get grey hairs from overworking

[s1ithers]

wish i knew the forgotten realms lore better...how am i meant to make my little ocs in this state of ignorance

#i'm so interested in how people relate to the gods in this world which is sort of hard to glean from the wiki #thinking abt those notes in the ilmater temple - 'even bhaal has things to teach us 😔🙏' otoh but the absolute cult is 'heresy' #like who decides that? what does heresy /mean/ in this polytheistic setup where each god's cult seems to p much do their own thing #& it seems like even among the good-aligned gods ppl tend to pick one to hitch their wagon to in a pretty committed way #what does polytheism mean to the average joe in this world #i need to know #i need to make a little guy about it #wrapped up shadowheart's quest and....idk man! #just going off the lore as presented in bg3 so far it's set up distrust for deities pretty much across the board #like babe is your new cult better? bc they've got angel imagery? i guess so #the whole problem of evil thing - the dead three shar et al being so extant & active in the world makes the (apparently?) more distant #benevolence of good gods pretty limp by comparison #so much of what draws lay people to them seems to be protection from the very real material threat posed by the evil ones? #& at least SH is in a better place to choose than say. the goblins #vast swathes of people just born under a bad sign in this world #i heard somewhere that if you don't get a god to claim your soul for their afterlife it just kind of withers away in limbo for eternity? #kinda fucked up #some protection racket shit dude #being a mortal in FR like you're just a little guy in a precarious cosmological situation aren't u #to be clear none of this is a criticism i think it's very fun & chewy #rife with cosmic horror potential #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #edit: i mean it's a little bit of a criticism in that i don't think the game sells SH's conversion super well #if the intention is just to be like. yay white-hat god good ^_^ #but i don't hate the worldbuilding implications if we take the iffiness as read

[boxwinebaddie]

alright, angels; as much as i like talking about The Boys, i am getting a little bit burnt out. :/ so, while i recuperate from ravesey, if you would like to ask me a question about any of the Side Characters you're interested in, i'd love nothing more!!! <333 literally any of them. adults, adolescents, animals, etc. you can ask me about ones that haven't been written in yet and i can tell you where i might cobble them in. again, though, all of this is subject to change while i world build, but i am excited about a lot of ideas and concepts i've figured out thus far!

also, please know that i love you all very much. <333

thank you for being kind to me yesterday. c':

-uncle nina

#nina speaks #i love my sons more than life itself #and i know that's what most of you want to read about #but i need a little nuance #i also really like the side characters #i'm actually really proud of a lot of the side characters i built and the lore i do have centered around them #i will say give me a second on craig i'm trying to rm-ify him #but anyone else go ahead i will try and write nicely and slowly too that bebe ask felt sort of rushed by me i didn't like it #but literally go ahead and hang out on the boards if you want! #but also totally feel free to send nothing! #or more questions about any of my boys #love you all very much #MWAH MWAH MWAAAAAAH #okay last thing again pls note there are some gaps #but they are gaps that will keep you interested #and i'll keep you updated on as i/we learn more #idk i think its cute that you guys are with me #as i write and plan a fanfic/make a world <3 ilysm #i gotta add e on there #sometimes i think abt boards for the adults but idk #might be too cluttered and messy

[itwoodbeprefect]

flashbacks to dialogue that happened less than a minute ago are annoying and a little insulting for obvious reasons, unless it's in bad buddy episode 5 [2/4] and pat is having entirely serious sepia toned flashbacks to fifty seconds ago while almost shoving a set of drumsticks he hasn't even paid for yet up his nose. then it's brilliant and world changing

#don't mind me i'm just chewing glass today #when the architecture band starts playing at freshy day and ink says to pat hey isn't that the song you two played that christmas? #it's like yeah... but that's a maddeningly casual way to refer to an event that in the context of the series wide metaphor #is really more like their parents caught them making out in a closet. and then pran got sent to boarding school over it #and NOW pran is up there on stage playing that same song again. looking right at pat when he announces it. but plaYING IT with WAI #and not intentionally. not in a mean sort of way. because pran doesn't know #he doesn't KNOW that pat's been shoving drumsticks up his nose while being struck cold by Love Signs #because how could he. all he knows is that very recently pat was sighing in relief that pran isn't his rival for ink. because pat likes ink #pran does NOT know that in the (very short. more than fifty seconds but still very short) meantime #pat has tried to figure out if ink might like him back. pat has in the process accidentally figured out that HE might like pran #AND pat has tried to confess his feelings to ink only for her to go. very kindly. are you sure you like me that way? i don't think you do #(because he's the wrONG SIBLING. she likes the OTHER SIBLING. which is hilarious but a different thing to go insane over) #and it's like. pran doesn't know!!! pran is just having a day like any other. pran has Known forever #he doesn't KNOW that when they're standing there surrounded by guitars (it's essentially a gay bar. don't even get me started) #(because that's a joke but it's also not. not really. it is but it's not. you know) #!! that when they're standing there surrounded by guitars. pat is suddenly going OH. in sepia toned flashbacks to fifty seconds ago #when they were ALSO standing there surrounded by guitars btw. which is the point. nothing has changed but maybe everything has #it's the same thing it was fifty seconds ago but maybe it's not. maybe pat suddenly hears the music that's been playing forever #and maybe this is way too many fucking tags. i don't even think this is the glass i was chewing originally #* #bad buddy #bad buddy the series

[cator99]

The Owl House anon, I just sent my ask because you sound like someone who watched Steven Universe, back in the day. I thought you might be watching TOH then

another one of those "damn the hate mail game on this website is insane" moments

#no never seen it and i joined tumblr in 2021 #the closest it got to being relevant to me was during the years i ran my hs gsa #i loved my theythem friends but they had a tendency to act like every major plot development in SU was the next stonewall while i was #giving speeches at the legislature about anti-GSA bills and attending roundtable discussions with conservative MLAs #that's kind of why the whole Cartoon Activism and concerns about Cartoon Representation leaves a bad taste in my mouth #And yknow back then i was aware of this sort of goofy bullshit... and it felt contained to the internet or ppl who spent all day online and #certainly didnt volunteer w pride orgs or join the consulting boards for these things- everyone who did this stuff alongside myself #were very smart level-headed responsible people who paid attention to the real-world policy and could name all the local politicians #at one point there was a really drastic shift and. i'm tired of talking about this i'm gonna go eat lunch

[emile-hides]

I'm working on drawing out most of my Mario Elementals designs, but my current art skills leave a lot to be desired.

So in the mean time here's some aesthetic boards I wiped together to convey the vibes I'm going for.

#Mario #Metal Mario #Gooigi #Do I tag these as Moodboards? #I don't think so they don't count as those #Probably... #Someone give me a website were I can look at images sorted by color and theme that'd be so cool thanks #Anyway #I want to include Pink Gold Peach from Mario Kart 8 #But I'd SO MUCH rather make Peach out of Rose Quartz #Because it's more fitting of her character with healing and purity themes #But gold ALSO WORKS sense it's a Soft Rare metal and Peach is very soft #I really love the concept of Rock Toads they're tougher than they look and are just all over the place #And GEODE TOADS for the actually important named Toads #I was ALSO back and forth on Copper or Bronze for Daisy #And then I realized Bronze is like 90% Copper.. So I called her Bronze but gave her more Copper themes #Sense Bronze is stronger and used in sculpting #I'm still Eh on Gooigi's board I like it mostly just kinda wish I had more general actual Goo pngs dfgfdkg #Doesn't matter they're all very neat #I hope I got my point across because who knows when I'll have the drawings done #Mario and Luigi Elementals

[mattodore]

i hit 3k pins on the oc boards last night without even noticing 🥺

#river dipping #what’s funny is i just deleted like forty pins from theo’s board that didn’t represent him anymore and i STILL have 3k 😭 #theo’s board is years old and i cleaned it out a few times before but i finally was like okay no. #some of these pins just don’t make sense for him at all you need to delete them even if you’re attached to them atp. #i need to do the same with some of matthias and dionte's early pins too but i've been putting it off #anyway <333333333333333!!!!!!!!!! i'm going to read for an hour or two and then it's back in cas to start on theo's mom #i finished his dad last night i just didn't post abt it #theo's parents are gonna look much younger than matthias's but they're probably close in age. theo's are maaaybe a little younger... #ALSO...... i realized when i was making theo's dad that like. theo and matthias aren't close in age like matthias and imani. #like there's a 2-4 year age gap there... so like. for the edit i'm just gonna make them both fifteen anyway and say Oh Well! #like just pretend there's no age difference #me being like 'i don't wanna give exact ages at the current spot in the story' is fine until i wanna do something like this kdfjgnk #theo's in his early twenties and matthias is in his mid-twenties #theo's like..... somewhere between 22-24 and matthias is somewhere from 25-26... no more than 27 that's for sure #theo's still in university is the thing... like i've always been like theo's 24-ish but realized like hang on... he should be younger #he's very studious and his course load is STACKED so if anything he should be out of university by 22... which is where i've hit a snag #i was thinking oh maybe he could've taken a gap year but like. his parents wouldn't have allowed that at all. #and then i was like okay... maybe he went to rehab for a year so he's behind...? #but again........ his parents wouldn't have allowed him to disgrace the family name publically like that by admitting he has problems #so like... i'm just sort of covering my mouth and mumbling whenever i talk about ages lmao #i just don't want theo to be really young and i don't wanna budge on matthias's age either #idk idk i'll think of something. maybe it can relate to the breakdown he's meant to have... #...anyway. out of the oc soup and into this book <3

[yuribrd]

For someone who supposedly likes board games, Yuri does surprisingly little destroying his friends and rivals at all of their favorite games smh

#ooc #the problems with wanting to write this sort of content are: #1. i myself don't know how to expertly play any board games so idk if i could realistically write yuri defeating anyone #2. i don't actually know what all board games they've got in-world??? chess i assume? anything else? cheCKERS? #what other board games are there?? #i'm struggling to think of any other from the real-world let alone in a fictional world uh... #mahjong? #i'm drawing blanks here #anyway i do feel like yuri would be very good at chess #tbd

[katierosefun]

not to pull an anakin skywalker or whatever but does anyone else . . . refrain themselves from doing certain things or talking to certain people because they had a terrible nightmare about them or 

#caroline talks #okay. like. listen. i KNOW this is insane. #i KNOW this is insane behavior and more than anything this probably just means #that i need to actually like . . . sleep more #but here's the thing i went to bed at 7 pm last night and then woke up 2 hours later feeling terrified for my life #it was like. the worst nightmare. #the WORST and it feels like a very scary warning #you think i'm insane for this i know i sound insane insane #but listen to me: LISTEN TO ME sometimes weird ass dreams i have work as warnings and other scary sorts #i once dreamed that a friend of mine completely backstabbed me #and then in the next year my friend DID #and then i had another dream once that my dad was terrified of something #and then in the next month my dad lost his job #sometimes it's not all bad #like this one time i dreamed that my friends and i were rowing on the river and it was fall and i commented that it was nice #and a whole YEAR later it turns out we're all going to professional school in the same state #where this river is #and then when i was in high school i dreamed my grandpa boarded a bus with me #keep in mind: i only have a handful of photos of my grandpa #and he passed when i was like 2 years old #and he was wearing a suit i'd never seen before and a tie i'd never seen before #and then i told my parents and my dad quietly asked what he was wearing #so i told him and my dad BLANCHED because he was like 'no but how did you know that' #turns out! my grandpa DID have a suit like that except i shouldn't have known because THERE ARE NO PHOTOS ! ! ! #'caroline you're delusional' i KNOW i am #i'm sure that for a million dreams i had maybe only 2 or 3 of them probably are relevant in this wa #but it's still . . . .. . . i dunno ! ! ! delusional ! ! ! i understand i am delusional ! ! ! #gotta delete this later pls don't think i'm too insane i'll probably be over this in like . a week.

[a-room-of-my-own]

Heated debate within the spirit groupchat about how you can influence your own destiny. The baseline is you have free will BUT you also have a destiny, your destiny is a set of stages you will reach during your life, moving freely between each stages.

The debate is about can we have an influence on the stages? Version 1 (higher spirits) > not really, leave that to us, we'll send you sign to guide you, Version 2 (friendly pagan spirits) > will is the strongest force of all and everything conscious of its own existence is a god in its own right and can absolutely influence his own destiny.

At this point I'm like ok but knowing that all destinies intersect that sounds a bit dangerous in terms of possible butterfly effects?

Version 1 (higher spirits) > yes that's why you shouldn't try or only about inconsequential things like attracting luck.

Version 2 (friendly pagan spirits) >

#this was a wild meditation but the discussion was interesting #i'm still very disappointingly Christian for a part of the board #heated debate that we will tackle some other time #the real ghostbuster #sort of #reminds me of this time when i had a problem with someone and higher spirits were like #let it go things have to happen right now #and friendly pagan spirit was like #i have a very efficient curse that i can walk you through #of course i let it go because it's a Christian household #but we're all in good terms

[unexpectederawhilesubmitting]

WARNING: DOCTOR WHO SPOILERS EXPLAINING REGENERATION SHENANIGANS

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okay so I was kind of not on board with the concept of bi-regeneration, mainly because of how it seemed like all of the Sad and the Trauma that the Doctor had undergone got kind of handwaved away? i'm all for ncuti's Doctor being sort of a fresh start/jumping on point for new viewers, but i didn't get how that could work if like, literally 40 minutes ago he was David Tennant being a sad wet puppy dog of a man

however, after rewatching it, i've realized what i think happened there, and it goes all the way back to something introduced with the 4th doctor's regeneration that was never explained: the Watcher

^this spooky guy

so, for those that don't know (or haven't seen every episode of a show that is over half a century old), the Fourth Doctor regenerates at the end of a story called Logopolis (he falls off a satellite dish, but that's not important right now). all throughout the episode, this weird figure, The Watcher, stands off in the distance, and even intervenes slightly by saving the Fourth Doctor's companion. there's not much given in the way of an explanation until the Fourth Doctor regenerates, saying "it's the end. but the moment has been prepared for..."

the watcher walks up, and gets absorbed in a super rad 1980's digital effect (never change doctor who), while his companion just gives us the not-super-helpful-for-lore statement "He was the Doctor all the time!"

then, in a crossfade, the Doctor goes from Four to weird-powder-man to Five

canonically, the Watcher is explained as a future version of the doctor that comes about in sort of a weird overlapping thing with the doctor's timeline, it's very wibbly-wobbly timey-wimey.

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SO what does this have to do with biregeneration and satisfying character arcs/moving on from trauma?

Well, remember, Fifteen said this, about Time Lords doing rehab out of order:

so, here's the thing: Fifteen is the Doctor AFTER Fourteen (duh, I know?) But to be clear...Fourteen lives out an entire lifetime with Donna and family, gets to a ripe old age, and then, when his lifetime of healing is over, he gets yeeted back through his own timestream just to zoot himself out of David Tennant's chest.

Remember, his first words to Fourteen (after popping out of his chest) are "So good to see you! So good!", not the RTD classic "what?". He greets himself like he's almost expecting this, he then says "does anyone want to tell me what the hell is going on here?" which only makes sense if he's coming from a different point in his own timestream (remember, when two doctors interact, memory gets really weird, 10 and the War Doctor don't remember the events of Day of the Doctor until they live through them as 11).

SO TO BE CLEAR: Ncuti Gatwa is playing the Doctor AFTER he has spent years healing from his traumas. His Doctor is fine because Fourteen takes the time to rest and work on himself.

tl;dr: I didn't like biregeneration at first because I thought it looked like this:

In actuality, it looks more like this:

#doctor who #fourteenth doctor #fifteenth doctor #the giggle #dw #dw spoilers #dw 60th #tenthree #the doctor

[themainannoyance]

Nature Is Healing <3 (adding events to my Google Calendar again)

#I need to get diagnosed with SOMETHING man wtf #gene talks #My initial theory was that because I had caffeine past 12pm #and I've been trying very hard to not do that bcus I think that as Ive gotten older I have become hit with this massive unprecedented wave #of Being Impacted by Caffeine and I thought it was impacting my sleep #and I certainly think that having coffee after noon is definitely not a good idea for me anymor #but also I have been very awake for too long bcus I am so nervous about starting a new job on Friday #and also having to tell my Dad that I'm spending the night up north bcus I know itll make him sad #but it also hit me very hard that even though I want to live with Liam living Northstate instead of Centralstate means that I have to #start my hour long commute at 630am every Tuesday and Thursday #and uhhh I dont want to do that lmao #so I got freaked out and started looking for apartments and then somehow found a very perfect one so HOPEFULLY we can move in soon #I still have to go to school up north so its a small victory but at least i dont have to start my commute at 630 am if i have a place to #crash in the central state #anyway then I kept looking at information on the apartment and got very excited about my find #and then I started thinking about all the other things I need to do so now Im typing out this post and thinking about Trello #gonna probably reuse it now that i understand how kanban boards work lmao #so I have sort of been up all night with a weird combination of anxiety and maybe borderline mania but thats neither here nor there #Anyway time to make an appointment for the DMV to get a new freaking license with my new freaking legal name on it yiipppeeeee!!!

[dragon-in-the-tardis]

had the emotional equivalent of getting smacked over the head with a cartoon frying pan o7

#therapy is cool bc you can apply things you learn across the board to help you randomly come to Good realizations o7 #i have been on an upswing the last day or two which is nice but now i'm feeling way better. i sorted out a lot of the anxiety i was having #with communication/talking to people and i feel way better and a lot more regular now #that was by no means my biggest or only issue BUT it was a very small and persistent and draining one and to be feeling better about it?? #hell yeah lol. the tldr is that i was forcing myself into lonliness and isolation because i was trying to set boundaries for other people #but i can't decide on behalf of someone else if they think i'm annoying or weird or frustrating or bad they have to decide that themselves #they have to set the boundary and i can't respond to perceived subtext or assumptions. they have to tell me and make it clear #and trying to decide on their behalf that i should stop talking or reaching out is only going to hurt us both #because it's not fair to assume others are harbouring cruel thoughts about me! that makes them out to be a villain! #and there's no evil in reaching out to start/continue conversations. at the end of the day the people who want to talk to me will and #spending time on people who are present and happy to talk to me is always better for mental health than just never reaching out to anyone #something something genuine human connection/interaction comes from a willingness to be brave and vulnerable and shameless. the worst that #will happen is someone tells me what they really think of me LOL #so anyways!! i have [checks notes] A Lot of people i will send messages to this weekend hehe and i hope it goes good!! #SILENCE BOY - let's get this bread - the time will pass anyways - le soleil levant se couche mais je prierai pour un matin clair #and now a word from your dragon