#and then i'll be able to actually put it in words

[olderthannetfic]

I havent found the answers to this online, likely due to my own fault of not being able to word it in a SEO friendly way, so I'll just ask here. When it comes to relationship tags, if the relationship is a group with a canon name, is it okay to just tag the name as a relationship, rather than combining all names of all individual members? For example - Marauders 4way fic, can I just tag it as "Marauders"? Fic about all of the avengers together, can I just tag it as "The Avengers"? etc

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You can tag with anything you want! AO3 is designed to let you make up any tags that make sense to you. You should never feel bad about creating new tags on AO3.

I assume what you're actually asking, however, is if tagging that way will result in the tag being wrangled in a way that's helpful to you. And the answer is... maybe?

If you tag something like "Marauders 4-way", I suspect it will get made a synonym of the filterable tag with all the names written out. Unambiguous nicknames for fandoms, like LotRiPS, get synned to the appropriate fandom tag all the time.

But I'd expect a tag that's just 'Marauders' to get used a lot of different ways. Somebody might mean it as platonic, somebody else not. Somebody might accidentally put that there when they meant to put it in the fandom field or something. If other people are already using the tag ambiguously or if the tag wranglers think it's likely to be ambiguous, they might not wrangle it at all. That would make your work not show up when people filter for the filterable ship tag.

'The Avengers' is even worse because they're not going to know which ship tag to syn that too. Lots of characters have been Avengers! And there are even other fandoms with this name (though I doubt people would tag a ship that way).

I don't think wranglers typically make ship tags of this type canonicals/common (i.e. filterable). Fandom-specific jargon tends to get made a canonical when it's a freeform/additional tag (and only if it's used by 3 different users). The rules for main ship tags are to spell out the names so that it's less ambiguous for fans who maybe aren't in the same part of fandom socially.

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Anyway, you're allowed to do whatever you want. Personally, I would just make sure the tag is unambiguous.

Unless you don't care about showing up in filters, in which case, really do whatever you want!

[spacedustmantis]

to be fair, gillion does this so commonly, i think it would almost be more fitting for a subversion of those expectations— self sacrifice and a big gesture can’t fix everything, he can’t just throw his own well-being in the way of every problem… what a better time to learn that than now :)

yeah, duh! but..... my boy :(

#no in all honesty i absolutely get you #once i calm down and my head isn't spinning (so tomorrow probably) #i might write something about this as i tend to do #and then i'll be able to actually put it in words #but yeah this is like one of the things he needs to learn #and the bigger the damage to himself the more likely he'll accept that he can't keep doing this #so #from a narrative standpoint this would be great #but also i'm in so much pain #jrwi spoilers #riptide spoilers #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider

[mae-i-scribble]

massive orv spoilers incoming

anyways it fucks me up rereading the scene where kdj and co meet the oldest dream for the first time. just. the raw emotionality of kdj looking at himself, that traumatized teenager and seeing the abuse that litters his body, the way he’s far too small for a child his age (probably malnutrition), and just silently walking up to the boy, to himself, and pulling out a sword to cut him down. The first thing he says to his younger self is that he’s a monster, that they’re both monsters. Not only that, kdj is desperate to kill the oldest dream, he literally doesn’t even hesitate to try and stab the blade into his own neck. The company literally has to hold him down to make sure he doesn’t kill himself.

And then secretive plotter comes out and kdj becomes resigned. He thinks that above all, sp is the one person who has earned the right to kill the ancient dream above all. Except sp doesn’t. He looks at kdj and sees just how hurt this child is, how the entire world turned his back on him, and ways of survival was the one thing he could cling to to inspire him to keep going. The 999th round companions see it to, they see that their tragedy was not done for someone’s sick amusement, but the unintended side effect of one child’s dream, fueled by a desperation that fuels the universe to keep watching them, pushing them to fight on and on. The most omniscient and powerless existence, crying for help all alone. They see that and the understand, they forgive.

But kdj cannot fathom that forgiveness. His mind so utterly rejects it that he assumes sp and everyone are just being swayed by the will of the story- because how could anyone who when through what they did forgive the cause of it all? He weighs his trauma against sp’s, the tragedy that lasted for a “mere” 10 or so years, the tragedy of one lifetime against sp’s thousands, and to him, his sin far outweighs any other factors. He starts getting desperate again, desperate for someone to see that no, he has to die to absolve himself of his so called crime.

Only the people he feels he has wrong have long forgiven him. The tragedy is that kdj hates himself far too much to even comprehend why or how. He sees the light return to ancient dream’s eyes, carried by the characters who saved him for so long and are saving him now, the smile on sp’s face that shines in liberation, and he cannot understand.

#orv #orv spoilers #omniscient reader #omniscient reader spoilers #kim dokja #secretive plotter #most ancient dream #oldest dream #this scene literally made me cry like 3 times #i was in actual shambles reading it for the first time #EVEN WITH SPOILERS #I KNEW HE WAS OD AND IT STILL FUCKED ME UP #i'll never be able to put it into words how much this scene hurts me #hell i cant even put a name to the emotions i get while reading it #but i just #wanted to try to express a fraction of my thoughts

[katsigian]

💕 self-love time! talk about which ones of YOUR creations (edits, artworks, fanfics) you like the most then send to other creators to do the same 💕

Aw, thank you so much! 🥹 I appreciate the prompt <3

I think my all time favourite creation is Valen. He's the greatest thing I've ever made. The time and effort that I've put into him, just countless hours building him, writing his story and lore and events in his life. Building his personality and traumas and how they relate to each other. His details and quirks and the symbolism behind him. Valen's story is 60 pages long and it just keeps growing because he's so incredibly special to me.

The effort that went into his tattoos and complexion; drawing the designs, placing them, shading them all in so they're realistic, painting his freckles and face skin texture. I have 40+ hours into that alone and regardless of what happens, I always feel a bit of pride when I look at the completed project (Pic 1 and Pic 2 below).

He's my baby, my labour of love.

Pic 3 is there because I love it and I'm proud of it. All of my VP are monuments to the things I love most.

Another creation I'm proud of is his and my other daywalker's lore. I've built an entire world on the base that is Cyberpunk 2077 to fit my daywalkers and wolves into. I've spent a lot of time worldbuilding and hammering out their individual lore. How my daywalkers work, how my wolves work, what their strengths and weaknesses are as a species. I have pages of it written down and maybe one day I'll share it.

And of course, I need to mention how proud I am of the things I've built with others, with my partner @rindemption and my best friend @noirapocalypto. My OCs and theirs are intertwined in ways that mean the world to me. I love these connections deeply and I'm proud of the stories and lore and people that I've built with them. There are a lot of days where the only thing that can make me smile is thinking of them.

These are pictures of Rin's Nathan and Sayne's Salem I've taken as acts of love. I'm very proud of them, too, because they're for people that mean so much to me.

And those are my creations I'm the proudest of. Thank you again for letting me share.

#i think i might actually cry #i wish i could put it into words just how genuinely happy these things listed here make me #i don't think i'll ever be able to #cp2077 #cyberpunk 2077 #male v #⠀- ̗̀ ⸨ 𝔳𝔞𝔩𝔢𝔫 𝔨𝔦𝔫𝔩𝔞𝔴 ⸩⁺☀︎⭒๋

[da-birb-writes-sometimes]

Summer Won't Last Forever; 100 Follower Event (Closed)

Technically past the OG 100, but oh well; better a little late than never! And thank you for the support, and I'm happy that people are enjoying the silly little stories I write. Now; onto the event!

Fandom

Just TWST at the moment. You can request the main cast, side characters, and staff!

Duration

I will be holding this event for 10 requests for followers. Once this is filled, I will be closing the event. This is so I don't overwork myself. The only exception will be for mutuals. Mutuals get special treatment, yes.

Once they are filled I will close the ask box until I'm done writing them, which. The ask box will then return after the event.

For mutuals, hit me up in messages if I close the ask box before you can get in ^v^

Rules

1 request per person; the only exception I may make is for mutuals (depending on engagement).

1 character per request; but do include two backups in case I already received an ask for X character with X prompt (also in case there are a lot of requests for one character). You may also include a backup prompt in case it has already been used.

Please include if you would like it to be platonic or romantic in nature.

No NSFW.

If you are on Anon, do feel free to leave an emoji (see here for taken emojis)

As a reminder, I typically only write gender-neutral reader (they/them/their's/you). I make exceptions for trans reader though (just include gender identity and pronouns please).

Ortho and Grim are strictly platonic.

Anything romantic will be aged up; imagine the cast to be in an actual college.

~ Now onto the Event ~

Hot days fall into cool nights. Carnivals arrive in town. Long days spent at the beach or community pool. Fond memories made with friends. But, summer won't last forever.

Prompts

Stargazing

Let's beat the heat

Beach day

Farmer's market

Road trip

Carnival fun

Campfire antics

By the babbling brook

Long-distance relationship

Caught in the rain

Also, feel free to leave up to 3 emojis in brackets if you want to add anything extra. The majority of these should be fluff, but feel free to indicate if you would like something other than fluff in your ask!

Example; May I request *character* with *prompt* and (🌻🌻🌻). Could it please be platonic and fluffy?

These will be in the form of drabbles; which may range between 300 and 900 words depending on if the muse of writing inspiration strikes me or if I get carried away. Knowing me, I may get carried away for some ^v^;

Once this event is done I'll be heading back to writing for the Soul Match AU; which will be none other than the resident wet cat, Idia Shroud *ominous chortling*

Tags (aka my mutuals that I have on my main ^v^)

@eynnwwyjth, @krenenbaker, @azulashengrottospiano, @silvers-numberonefan, @twistwonderlanddevotee, @ithseem, @inkybloom-luv, @leonistic

As a reminder, do not put my work — or others for that matter — into AI as it steals. Link to Masterlist

All works will be under the tags #dove does events & #100 follower event.

#100 follower event #dove does events #twst #twisted wonderland #twst x reader #twst x gn reader #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland x gn reader #mutuals can and will always get special treatment #tw flickering #<- for the gif #depending on how this event goes can and will effect future events #if engagement is good; great then i'll continue doing them; if not; i'll still do them just not as many #also 10 is a good number since i have noticed that engagement has been super low with a lot of blogs; we don't bite people ^v^ #i did 10 for the match-ups and i was able to balance them quite well plus good writing #don't be like dove and write 31308 words [just the soulmatch au] in 34 days; 69.6 pages #<- ayeeeeee nice #gotta read over some inspo material first for idia though; back to the greek mythology hyperfixation i go #writing; powered by hyperfixation~ #also i put the rules before the actual event info as that makes the most sense to my brain #edit; 42000 words since June 13 or 14 someone take my laptop away

[schumiatspa]

I have a shit ton of stuff to do, especially before Christmas, but for some reason I kinda started writing that 5+1 Sincaraz fic I was rambling about some days ago

#it's unlikely that i'm gonna ever finish it but at least i'm writing something!! #i'm gonna have to put that on hold until next monday because i have an exam #but after that i'll try to write more #let's see if something will actually come out of this (unlike other wips i have lmao) #but i wanna try i'm a little tired of having ideas (even if not great ones maybe lol) and not being able to put them into actual words #v.rambles

[princekirijo]

EEEEEE YOU GOT IT SO RIGHT WITH ASUKA GRAHHHH

she'd be so anxious around riku at first like him popping up would be a wholeass jumpscare for her 😭😭😭😭the poor baby...like she knows he means well but people are Very Scary to be around

but but but!!!! she is also a girlie very desperate for friendship!!! so i think she'd warm up to 'em <3 ALSO THE THING ABOUT HER READING PEOPLE GRAHHHHH she probably would pick up on riku's insecurity😔and that certainly would help ease her anxiety (and ofc sympathize!!!)

the really funny thing is that she's only close to good at reading people because of lucky guesses😭😭all her knowledge on how people work was attained from the fiction she reads so all she really does is see these patterns or similarities to what she's read about and mentally notes them--writing this out has gotten me to realize that technically asuka's mentally kinassigning everyone she knows nyx help us all

Ah I'm glad to hear dude :'] I did my best to capture everyone's guys correctly so I'm glad I got Asuka right 😼

And yeah LMAO Riku does mean well but he has the swag, energy and flirtatious attitude of a DMC Protagonist 💀 (Although I will clarify that Riku would never flirt with someone if it made them uncomfortable). He is just full of energy though so yeah Asuka is def looking at him like 0-0

But I do think they'd be good friends too!! Riku would learn to like reign himself in around Asuka because he'd feel bad if he made her too nervous. And yeah they'd probably bond over their insecurities as well and they both had a shit time with their respective palace rulers. Also I remembered in the fic too Asuka was like willing to take on Akechi and I wonder if that means she would be able to banter with Riku once she's more comfortable around him (if that makes sense?)

ASUKA KIN ASSIGNING PEOPLE IS SO FUNNY THOUGH 😭 I love the idea of her like assigning everyone a "character" in her head that's really funny of her tbh

#asks #misty-wisp #oc tag #im really glad u enjoyed my rambles about the potential riku asuka dynamic dude :] #its a fun friendship ive had in the back of my head lol #i'll be able to flesh out more once ive gotten riku down if that makes sense #to me he's a mixture of a dm€ protagonist s!mba from lk and my own personality lol #<- really sorry about the censoring i just dont want this in the tags #i actually think it would be really funny if asuka kin assigning riku went like: #riku and asuka are watching lk and at the end of it asuka just goes ohhhh you're basically s!mba but way more depressed and self conscious #<- sorry this is a lil silly 💀 would be interested in seeing who she'd kin assign him as fr #one of these days i will layout riku's personality its just he's such a complex guy in my head its hard for me to put it into words #<- that may just be my dumbass though #i swear proper references are coming... one day

[caffeinatedopossum]

I've always really wanted to make music (almost all of the 250 notes on my phone are lyrics I've been compiling for months and there were hundreds more on my other phones that are lost forever now) but I've been so scared and idk why. I should just do it because I think I'll regret not doing it but there's so many things I'm scared of.

I feel overwhelmed when people talk about making music and it sounds so hard and like their process is so intense and requires so much knowledge and equipment and and *insert x thing they need here* and I'm over here, recording a bit of audio on my phone and trying my best with pre-made instrument loopers on a free app. Idk, it's like somehow people convinced it can't be easy or I'm doing it wrong and I honestly still don't know if they were right or not

#im also so scared about people not liking my music #but also scared of people liking it too #its like i dont want people i know to hear it i think because their opinions matter too much to me maybe #im scared people i know will like it and actually really listen and realize im talking about myself and see me differently or smthn #its not that theyll see me differently... its that theyll see me at all #thats a terrifying thought #but sometimes i also wonder if some stranger on the internet will listen to a song- maybe just once or twice #but for a small moment theyll be there with me in a way #getting lost in what the song feels like and appreciating it #maybe it will be the shitty song someone shows their friends when they pass the aux #maybe as an artist I'll be some small treasure to a few people. something that they feel they can keep forever even tho it isnt me #idk i like those thoughts i think. i dont want to be famous or anything i just kind of want it to be recorded #i want to be able to be seen even i dont ever decide i want that #i want to make something that i love now and in 5 years listen back on and go 'wow this sucked ass lmao. good for him' #i want to know something and i dont know what it is but i feel like if i keep digging and writing and exposing myself #and thinking and trying and making things... maybe I'll be able to give form to some new concept #maybe ill put it into words- what i really want to say but dont know how to. maybe ill make something out of these abstractions and chaos #and most of all... maybe I'll actually enjoy it too

[mrs-luigi-vargas]

3 chapters out of 4 done!!! This fic has gotten so long lmaooo how did I think this would be done before the movie

#this is an approximate word count of all 3 chapters so far #but chapter 3 is about 4.7k! #i should (hopefully) be able to finish the second draft of chapter 4 by the end of the month #then it'll just be editing! #the outline for ch4 is about 3.1k #itll probs balloon by a couple hundred words or so when i actually sit down to write it #soon i'll be able to put this fic away... #mlv.txt #bowuigi egg fic project

[cosmojjong]

i find myself to be incredibly satisfied when i get compliments about my korean

#it just genuinely fascinates me how i'm perceived by others about it #i cannot remember if i ever said it before but it makes me especially happy because this is a language i chose to learn for myself #i was not told by my parents or whatever figure around like i was all my life #i picked it up for myself for my own pleasure of learning and not because of actual studies #i still get frustrated that i wish i was better everyday but a friend asked me to lend her my old notebooks and i was going through them #and i realized a few things - just how much work i put into learning it over the past five years and how much i've improved #past me was at a certain level and now i'm much better so it helps to look back at how you were doing #it puts into perspective how beautiful and slow the process is #and just today i made friends with two exchange students here and they said that by the way i talked through text they thought i was korean #one of them said 'she speaks better than me LOL' and i just laughed #i doubt i would be better than native speakers but the reactions i get anytime i used a specific word are so cute #'how do you know this word???????' dnjsdhfjdf i just learned it #i think studying languages has really made it able for me to store these things because idk how else to explain it #i hear a word and i'll just remember it forever #which is also funny since i reckon my memory is bad to begin with

[noxtivagus]

woah i. wrote a lot.

#to me friend ^^ yk the. that one. i ended up writing several paragraphs . I'M RLLY GLAD W MYSELF WAHHH 😭😭 #there's sm i don't know yet though but i managed to. say at least a lot of what i've been meaning to say for a long time #i think i managed it maturely !!!! i reached out i'm so happy. #i want the best for my friend. n. yeah there's so much communication lacking but for now i think she needs space for herself #hopefully. sometime when all four of us r free we can. be direct w each other? yeah. #i'm. actually. mostly proud of how i'm handling this. hdfkajsdkfl wish i cld do so much more but.. #yeah. this isn't enough. but i've taken a step at least. know i cld still do better but. #there's. rlly a lot i want to say. but. i think when we're all not quite as busy i'll try to yk. set a time where we can all talk #irl hopefully. hdjafsldf i rlly hope my words reached out to her tho :c #wish i cld still do more but i have my limits too n though i rlly try my best to be kind bcs i really mean it unconditionally #i have my boundaries. #i can't emphasize enough just how important it is to be able to do things for your own self so you can apply it to the rest of the world. #so.. i'll. say it outright here. i can't handle this on my own. all four of us have to put effort in it. #so. this seems a bit clearer at least. thankfully. aghhh i wrote a lot but i want to comfort her more directly too #i want to do. so much for each person in life i think i need to set more boundaries for myself or i'll get overwhelmed #n then it's not like every friendship has to have everything yk? but. #hdjaflsdfs no bcs for this. specifically rn. i care a lot for her she's one of my best friends after all n. for nearly 7 years #i know at least one of the things i rlly need in those sort of close friendships is. yk we can open up to each other n be honest #being honest at least. when it comes to venting i know i can just do that more on social media or. online friends #like when i say online friends btw 😭 i basically consider them irl friends n i value them very very much but #for the sake of. yk. we don't know each other irl irl so just difference in label. not the value n meaning it has for me. #so. yeah w ^^ we don't rlly share similar beliefs n views which is honestly pretty draining for me #so at the very least. hopefully sometime this/next month we can at least be direct abt that? to communicate so we can understand #i can understand ppl well enough like. uh. i'm good at piecing things tgther but there's so much gaps without direct communication #i can't guess all the time. but yk one thing abt myself that i'm. at least happy w is that. yk. i. can open up when needed #okay like it's hard when i have to do it directly to another person for my own sake but in this context w my friend. yes i can. 👍 #that said though oh dear other than this. friend stuff rn there's also more i'm worried abt bcs. school. assignments. yeah #which i'll be able to do but i'm still a bit. stressed. n then for prom 10 per table but we're only 9 n we're all stags 😭😭 #wanted at least to have my ^^ friend w me bcs. despite these stuff yk we're still friends :c but she's going w a partner yeah #n then there's more personal stuff too.. there's. a lot. too much to write. but i'll manage.

[daydreaming-in-daisies]

Thank god I'm retaking my cell bio class online because there's no way I'm wasting energy, time, and gas on commuting to that hellish campus twice a week

#Words #Personal #I'm still annoyed that I have to redo this shit #But at least this time around I actually know the material and I can go at my own pace #Idgaf though this time I'm graduating like this is the last time I'm ever doing a biology class #Idk what the hell I'm gonna do afterwards #Hopefully I'm able to get a job so I can resume business shit again #Because I've had to put that on hold for months now #School has gotten in the way of so much it's time to leave #Even though it would've been nice to graduate this semester #And tbh I should've considering how ridiculously close I was to passing #If I pass this time I'll graduate during spring when it's warm out #And I won't have some dusty ass winter graduation #Seasonal depression still hit this year #Not as hard but it was still there #Anyway it's midnight and I need to sleep before I find myself going to bed at 3 AM again lol goodnight

[eggmeralda]

reading about expressive language disorder and maybe it's an explanation as to why I've never formed a full sentence in my whole life :')

#^above is literally a full sentence but that's not the point #it's still a mess of a sentence i guess #can't form a sentence without saying i guess and stuff it's like yeah but anyway all that sort of thing and like you know etc. #and i always don't know the names of objects so i just call everything a guy or a lad with some vague hand gesture #and i have never been able to easily write an essay in my whole life #and i can never hold a conversation #and i always thought it was just bc of no internal monologue but I've heard of other people who also don't have one and they can still talk #maybe this explains why i barely spoke from age 16-18 and even now i'm known for being relatively quiet #bc if i say something it'll be an incoherent ramble #not a single thought in my head <3 #this is a revelation though omg #i guess in the past few years I've become more confident with talking but it's bc I've just given up trying to make sense so now i just #idk but i just won't say the names of things I'll just point at them or i'll mix tenses up and stuff #also atm i'm basically just putting all the thoughts in these tags as they're appearing for a split second in my head so this is incoherent #but yeah anyway idk if i actually have expressive language disorder itself #but i definitely have Something #i'm thinking of other messed up language stuff like how for the past almost decade i've mixed up words and pronunciations from #other languages like the ones i learnt at school #which i cannot speak but i now know random words #so sometimes i'll just get the urge to pronounce something as it would be in spanish or whatever #and also after a while i'll just get bored of the sensation of saying a certain word so i'll change it. spice it up a bit #especially if it's a word i say a lot #so like names of characters i hyperfixate on get absolutely butchered on purpose #*looking at entry swig rokey unn bytirr 27 teed dav aoodry and bianpolay rn* #anyway this is an absolute ramble and completely going with the theme of this post i do not what i'm supposed to be saying #so i'll end it there #but anyway i love a midnight revelation <3 #ramble

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Same anon as before, I’m happy that you’re accepting yourself! That’s great news. I had a very similar situation where I was very embarrassed about what character my brain chose to project onto, but after working with my therapist and years of reflection I’ve realized it had to be that character because they were the only one I could see myself in, we were both abused in certain ways that made it like looking in a mirror, and being Him meant that I was able to protect myself because he could (character is someone “dangerous” in their world). So I really think it comes down to a reflection of trauma, and there’s nothing to be ashamed about. We coped with what our brains found the most comfort in.

If I can ask, what does your therapist think about it? Only wondering because with my therapist, they are aware we have fictives of this character as well as the system as a whole projects through him but I’m still trying to figure out if it’s part fictives and other part alters with psychotic attachments or if there’s something else at play as well like past lives (the old fictionkin community used to be big into that but I know it’s not so much anymore so I’m a little embarrassed but I am still a spiritual person) alr that’s all, looking forward to your response!

First of all, I'm glad to hear back from you anon!!

My therapist and I figured roughly the same thing happened with me! When I say I use this character as a therapy tool, I don't think it's appreciated enough that it's bc my therapist familiarized himself with the source - my therapist watched (and enjoyed) 148 episodes of anime for my sessions and I cannot stress that enough lmao; we're pretty sure that what happened was that I saw a lot of my emotional trauma play out again in front of me in his character arc, mostly in the way he perceives himself but also with how he struggles with his emotions and general interactions with the world (with my own difficulty with such coming from the climate of the family that abused me). He did serve as a mirror, not just of my own trauma, but also of what I wish I could have done, which was to lash out and genuinely own my anger and frustration and do something. Of course there's a lot more to it, but with just covering the surface, looks like we've had pretty similar experiences!

As for my therapist's thoughts on this, we actually haven't put any clinical labels on it. I personally like labels, they make me feel sure and certain about things in my life, which is why I tried to nail this down with the OSDD/DDNOS (complete with question mark) in my bio, but truth be told I'm not entirely sure I meet the full criteria for either of them, in spite of the genuine experiences I've had with what definitely feels like multiplicity of some sort. Interestingly enough, while I myself am not very spiritual, my therapist did make a mention that this is an experience that I could try looking at through a spiritual lens, especially since it's been coming up a lot more as I'm trying to rework some deeply held thought patterns. There's been a pretty positive outlook on it overall and he encouraged me to interact with it - the episodes tend to come with some specific thoughts and feelings, so we're treating them (and by extension, this character) as a sort of conduit for them, sort of like a messenger bringing attention to them. This is all some pretty specific info for my stuff though lmao, I just wanted to cover the ground as thoroughly as I could 💖

#part of me genuinely does wanna reach out to the fictionkin community just for the value of having potential community experience #but also. maybe I'll just watch them for a bit and think about it lmao #my experiences with my dissociation is like. it feels like there's someone else with me you know? im alone but i can feel someone else #and I'm holding their feelings and thoughts in those moments #if i believed in ghosts hardcore this would 100% make me think im possessed but fortunately i recognize where #all this is coming from as far as functionality and the name attached; funnnily enough i remember a video my roommate #put on and it was talking about psychosis scenes in movies + gauging them for accuracy #and the guy starts talking about DID and I'm like okay i definitely dont meet the criteria for that but I'm half paying attention #and he mentions that one of the things that people have reported is feeling like they're possessed and i just sat there FLOORED by this #bc that was exactly how I'd described the feelings in therapy; 1:1 word for word 😳 again i know for sure i dont have DID #but the same guidelines that make up the definitions and criteria are kinda also running along my dissociative episodes as well #ive already said so much in the tags but i did have a session where i just sat there and was like. i want to love every part of myself #and that includes the episodes; i know they're a protective measure and i dont wanna feel like I'm fighting them anymore #that was months ago; this is by far the most vocal ive been about it #it took almost a year for me to settle into it and be able to talk about it even in therapy but I'm so glad i can do it now #and I'm so glad to be hearing from people who understand how this feels 💖💖💖 thank you so much again!!! #im realizing that i actually have a lot of thoughts on this now that im actually understanding it a lot better #the asks are just giving me some chances to infodump a little hehe 💕 #you're welcome in my inbox any time!! thanks again!! 💖💖💖 #asks

[amberfossils]

btw I'm trying to make a proper pretty pinned for my personal (this one) but I just tried it the goth palette and I'm about to disintegrate I spent so fucking long on this and it just doesn't work there. I............. want to lovingly hold someone's hand and squeeze it very very hard until something is dislocated. lovingly

#i cant call my boyfriend im nonverbal and i feel Bad calling bark but then not being able to actually talk #i cant work on this and call him because I'll have to type or use emotes #emotes are so nice when nonverb. putting words together is just not working out for me rn

[blakeagainsttthemachine]

☕️uh how do you feel about religion i guess im bad at this

Religion is like water, in a way. In small portions it can be managed, enjoyable even. Like a warm shower engulfing your aching bones, or a cold glass on an extremely hot day. Sometimes it's more like getting your sock wet, unpleasant and inconvenient, but no big deal.

But the more you have, the more it surrounds you, there's no turning back. Large waves that hit your skin like hot iron bricks, your flesh melting to the metal as it drags you underneath and sucks you away. The further away from shore you get the more hopeless you become, and the more it embraces your hot sticky body.

You'll drown sooner than later, it's merciless, and it's quiet. No one will see you when your head goes down.

#Sorry. I got carried away. #It's hard to put my relationship with it in actual words at this point. Metaphors are the closest I'll be able to come to. #ask to tag // #gore // #religion // #religious trauma //