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thebisexualmandalorian · 1 year

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I have so much trauma around religion but they did go off with the aesthetics

#i have so much fuckery to unpack around religion that i don't know where to start #so i just borrow traditional christian iconography #and stuff my feelings down in a box

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an-albino-pinetree · 6 months

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I,,

yeah

@sm-baby

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manga-and-stuff · 5 months

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Thoughts on: Ikoku Nikki

I am currently reading Ikoku Nikki by Tomoko Yamashita and I noticed that like a solid quarter of the scenes in this manga do absolutely nothing to drive the plot forward.

It's not even funny banter or world building or whatever, it's literally just mundane little scenes like this:

You could honestly skip all of these scenes, and the plot would still make just as much sense.

But the thing is, I think doing so would make this manga considerably worse.

The manga is about a 15-year-old girl being taken in by her very introverted aunt, after losing her parents in an accident. And these mundane little scenes do an incredible job of grounding the whole story.

For one thing, it fleshes out the characters, it makes them feel real. You can really believe they all have their own lives with their own thoughts and feelings, their own problems and worries which are largely unrelated to the main plot.

It also makes the story feel very realistic. Like, yeah, sorry your parents just died, but you still need to go to school and worry about stuff like fucking lunchboxes. Yes, you just took in your orphaned teenage niece, but you still need to work... and maybe tidy up your room?

Just like in real life, the rest of the world in this manga doesn't care that the main character's world just got turned upside down. The earth just mercilessly keeps on spinning, and the protagonist has to go on living somehow, with all the mundanity and irrelevancy that comes with everyday life.

#Ikoku Nikki #Tomoko Yamashita #manga and stuff recommends stuff #it's also hands down the best manga I read in a long time #just wanted to make that clear in case it didn't come across in my little analysis #also love how the manga focuses on how you can never truly understand somebody else no matter how hard you try #because they're a different person #but also how you should still try to understand them regardless #and how it's not up to you to decide whether or not your actions hurt another person's feelings #it's up to them and only them #last but not least that's solid advice about using a box cutter

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simgerale · 2 years

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miyah (mee-uh)

(n.) a princess from another world that somehow convinced her father to let her visit earth on summer holiday (but isn’t sure how she’s going to break the news that she enrolled in human university for the fall)

inspired by @lamatisse’s new skins 🌸

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needylittlegirl · 13 days

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theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍#any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

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theminecraftbee · 1 year

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2ND-5 LOG 0004

Another strange thing happened today. I'm not sure if I, uh, imagined it?

So like... I have villagers around now, is the thing, maybe I should start with that. You know how villagers are. I rescued them from the vault, and at first, besides the fact they let me carry them, I thought, uh. Well. Villagers, right? Probably - but they aren't... right. I don't know. I'll uh... get back to you all on that. There's just something...

Anyway, that means I have iron production, and food, and also enchantments, which is good, because I wasn't entirely certain I could get an enchanting table out, uh. Easily. They aren't uncommon, I guess? Like, uh, they're around gilded chests a lot. In fact they're a good way to spot... anyway, the enchantments mean that I have stuff that doesn't break as easily, which is good, because...

So like... uh, after. I didn't meant to attach - you know, last time. I'm feeling better since last time. My island is noisier now. More crowded. You know, what with the village. But - I mean, I didn't - I know I can attach images now, though, so I can... I have a bunch of strange gear. It is far stronger than any armor I have ever worn, and the shield is strange and slows down my enemies. It makes me feel safer in vaults, though.

I'm dying a lot less. That's not the strange - okay. I said I'd explain the strange thing, right?

I saw a cat.

I mean, uh. I guess that's not that weird, right? Especially since I panicked, went to go try to figure out how to get fish in the middle of the void, and by the time I got back, it was gone. But uh... I mean... I don't know, man. I keep on thinking about the cat. I keep on thinking maybe, if a cat showed up, uh, something... something else might? Not just a cat. But even just another cat.

I, uh - I mean, cats don't always, uh... they sense something off about me. I guess, haha, the way I sense something off about... but cats don't always like me, but that doesn't mean -

If I see a cat again I'm naming it Boots, I think. I might not see a cat again. I don't know. It left.

But honestly, between the coconut - uh, that'll make more sense with the picture, I don't - I mean it makes sense to call it a coconut but - you know. Between the coconut and seeing a cat for a moment, I feel more at-ease. More like I know what I'm doing. And it's odd, right? Because I lost the cat. I didn't get to keep it.

I saw it though.

And I mean, uh. Outside of villagers, falling squid, and the box of glow squid I made, most of the things I've seen for a while have been trying to kill me?

Not the cat though.

...you know, there are four types of altars in the vaults. I wonder which one I should thank for the cat, or which one I can ask to try to get me another one. It was cute, you know! I uh... I wouldn't mind...

Well. A question for later, maybe.

[ATTACHED: a picture of 2ND-5, callsign SECONDFIFTH, in front of a vault portal. they are wearing the druid helmet, the spiked chestplate, a coconut shield, iron leggings, and rusty raider boots. they are all enchanted.]

#vh logs #sona stuff #the cat incident is totally real i ENTIRELY FORGOT all my villagers would count as a village and might start spawning cats #and i did 100% accidentally despawn it by panicking and going all the way down to my bottom-of-the-world squid box to fish #however. i will keep an eye out. 2ND-5 /will/ be getting a cat if i have anything to say about it #also i think my vault armor somehow makes them cuter?#i think it's that the chestplate is too big LOL #anyway i've been getting real lucky with the vault gear honestly. i even have an axe that might outclass my sword #i just like swords better and right now the sword has holy damage so it's slightly superior #it's incredible how much safer having a few good skills and ACTUAL VAULT GEAR makes me feel #next stop: trying to scrape together enough beni and knowledge to start getting mods #it feels surprisingly obtainable...#vh talk

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ladychandraofthemoone · 7 months

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Traintober Day 14&15:Young Iron(s)/Maintenance

Have a young Furness Redward doing a Submas Pose, it’s fitting for him with me trying to find era accurate classy punk-fessional fashion jkjk ♥️❤️

Ivo Hugh is mute so during maintenance if he can’t use his whistle, some of the workers and his driver Kara Cupper would use BSL as Ivo would reply via Morse Code blinking to communicate with one another.

#ttte #my art #my art <3 #my art stuff #traintober 2023 #traintober #ivo hugh #ttte ivo hugh #ttte edward #edward the blue engine #redward #my doodles #my sketches #haha imma be late for a lot but hehe it’s worth first time suing watercolors added seagulls in the background cause of Eddie class basis #following more of sos’s Edward where hes a passenger engine so he looks down on industrial engines and processes to unintentionally insult #Skarloey the first time they meet so yay fun he means well buts he’s slightly uptight Snobbish but picks fights and is rebellious #so yeah if anyone knows the shining time station cast y’all better be ready to see more of them soon (hint:msr Stanley’s driver)#Would’ve done Tanya but Kara came up to me first cause she’s the youngest she’ll understand what ivo feels and she’s wears overalls inspire #by her grandpa and very protective of ivo she just finished signing clean out smoke box cause I found out in bsl it’s more simplified to as #ivo is saying ok sorry if the ivo Hugh pic is too dark or blurry have bad lighting haha I’ll probably do a ref of Kara later

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im-smart-i-swear · 1 year

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rip konpopoz i miss you every day

am i the only one who always saw him as the vacuum cleaner from teletubbies? was it intentional??

#felix net i nika #fnin #i made this in 2 minutes #konpopoz has a special place in my heart #like i know hes free now but the one we knew is dead. he died. he could never truly escape no matter how many copies of himself he made #also remember roznakin? hes still there. still alive in some garbage pile #thats fucked up right??#i dont know if i want to go down the 'how ai are treated by humans (ibn specifically) in fnin' right now #maybe im just overthinking #but man IBN is not the same without him #like ai in fnin are portrayed as thinking and feeling while also being distinctly Not Human and i like that! thats a nice balance between #'cold unfeeling machine' and 'literally just a human in a metal box'#they are diffrent than us on a fundemental level but that doesnt mean theyre not #yknow. people in a sense #and kosik knows that #..... but its still kinda an iffy topic for me #the more you think about it the weirder this stuff becomes #okay i need to stop thinking about this

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eirxair · 14 days

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real talk: i geniunely hate being calling called a uterus-haver, bleeder and all. its just so icky idk how to explain it

menstrator isnt as bad tbh but the other ones are just so 🫤🤢😬 if that makes sense

#nothing against anyone who likes those terms but theyre just not for me frfr #bleeder sounds like some sort of torture device tbh ‘the bleeder’ sounds like a bad horror film #and stuff like uterus ans cervix haver just makes me feel like im being like put down into a box based on my body and all #i just get so uncomfy when someone says it idek😭😭😭#AND THE WORD ‘haver’ DOESNT SOUND GRAMMATICALLY CORRECT IN MY HEAD TO MAKE IT WORSE #i say that like ik use grammar properly ☠️

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krash-and-co · 1 year

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okay so I'm probably not gonna be online tomorrow and most of the next day because I want a spoiler free experience but I wanted to say I love you all so much and this has been the most fun fandom experience ever and I'm psyched to see what happens next <3

#my posts have been slowing down anyways lol which I apologize for but like I've been running out of new stuff to say #feel free to drop stuff in my ask box or messages tho #I love talking about l&co I just feel bad for repeating stuff I/others said lol #lockwood and co #lockwood and co Netflix

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the-trans-dragon · 1 year

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What’s the appropriate way for me to respond to customers handing me religious pamphlets/cards? I’m not worried about getting fired btw.

#sorenhoots #I was considering eating the pamphlet but that isn’t fun in practice. only theory #I considered crumpling it up and throwing it in their face but that might count as like. attacking lol.#like I have so much to say. maybe I should just vent at them about how Christianity left me broken and hopeless and [redacting details].#not for their benefit. just to drag them through my incredibly painful emotions. maybe to make them suffer with me. maybe just to vent #without worrying about how my vent will impact them.#the first one took his card back when I said no. the second left his pamphlet and the TONE he used when he told me to read it. THE TONE.#was like a parent telling a toddler to eat their vegetables. ‘we’ll give it a try. it’s good for you. it’s got good stuff in it’#god I wish I had facial recognition so I could refuse to check him out next time.#the first guy has a memorable appearance so I’ll never check him out again.#but that fucking second one. ohhhhh I was so mad. I went on break and went straight to the warehouse #to break down boxes for the bailer. exercise is very regulating for me! I felt much better afterwards #BUT I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING NEXT TIME. either funny. or scathing. or rude as all hell. or anything.#anything that will let me feel like I have some control over the situation. I can’t make them take back their pamphlet… well I could. lol.#Sir do NOT leave your trash here. I am not a trash can. you can throw it away down there #where our trash can is located.#anyways another guy tipped me $2 so that was real nice

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the-starlight-papers · 5 months

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My mom is here to help me move out of my apartment since my internship is over and where’s the “moms are capable of leeching vibe arsenic” post. Because. That’s what’s happening.

#I’m pulling stuff out of the kitchen that was mine vs stuff that came with the apartment #and she keeps going ‘*you* bought those?’#like yeah I bought a crappy $30 set of pans from Walmart? were you expecting me to subsist on just ramen and boxed mac and cheese?#she also asked if I had a better grasp on what I needed to pack for when I have internship round two next summer #and then said I probably would have learned to pack fewer spices #and I was like ?????#because yeah my family gave me some spices to move down here with because we had duplicates #but I bought about half the spices in that cabinet myself??#again? what?#it feels like she’s suprised that I made it through the whole semester by myself because she thinks I don’t know how to take care of myself #and I can’t even argue back with her if she keeps making these comments because I have to drive 8 hrs back home tomorrow with her #(oh also. shes making me drive most of the way back home myself. because I’m driving back to college to move myself in by myself so she #thinks I need to practice and make sure that I can do the drive. come on the whole point of you coming down here to help me move was so I #DIDNT have to do that.)#good news at least is that I’m only home for three weeks

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mymp3 · 1 year

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hi! its a delight to see that you have been enjoying minat + ryoj (and p3 in general), your tags and art just capture the essence of what makes them enjoyable...! anyways. did you know that the p3 mangaka previously made a ryomina doujin? cant send links but if u google "ryomina sogabe" u should be able to find it! have a nice day o/

FUCKING WHAT?

#thank you for the ask anon!#compendiumnotebook #IM RUNNING TO GOOGLE AS WE SPEAK HOLY SHIT I ALMOST THEEW UP IN MY MOUTH #FUCK I WISH YOU WOULDNT OF TOLD ME THIS ANON #IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THE PAST HOUR IM CRYING LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO #WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME ACTUAL HEART ATTACK #i was feeling so down. so blue. but literally how am i supposed to feel any emotion when this pops into my ask box?#like fuckinf what?#wHATTTT #WHATTTTTTTTT #im standing on top of mt everest rn #i don't even wanna read any 18+ stuff like id rather not #i just wanna see if the mangaka has em hold hands or lean on each other #oh im gonna fucking throw up im crying this is too funny #'have a nice day" YOU HAVE CAUSED ME CRAZY AMOUNTS OF BRAIN DISEASE #oh someone just put me down already #HOW DO I POST THIS POST HOW DO I JUST SEND IT OFF #.#also i just wanna take a moment to say sorry if im not responding right away to things (not to u anon but ppl in general)#life has been in various extreme rough patches #its very tough for me rn.#so bare with me #um anyways #uh #ha #i feel like im going a little loopy #thank you for the sweet compliments at the beginning #im glad you lik e my art and tags s #they make me very happy #also it's fun to dissect them in regards to the story and it's themes

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spinoff-antithesis · 1 year

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[@distinguished-turtle-enjoyer ]

i actually have not stopped thinkin bout your bb!edit like,,,, its so good and scratches my brain right

how long have you been doin edits for? do have any tips for someone, who hypothetically, wants to start doin edits too? what programs do you use? how did you do the cool animated bits?

im so sorry for all the qustions 😭😭 i just think youre very talented and inspirational and i hope you have a good day ^_^

hi firstly oh my gosh you're literally so sweet i am gently shaking you i love you so much /p. secondly, i apologize for the long answer! (it's all under the cut. this got away from me. i'm so sorry apparently i have a lot to say.) (also you're so good about the questions i would constantly be asking one of my professors questions during class to the point where she said i didn't have to go "i have a question" every time i approached her)

i've been editing since 2016! around march/april, i think? loved it so much i went into film & video production in college as a major so i could do editing for a living. (i have done more motion graphics for my classmates than i have done edits outside of class assignments, BUT!)

the program i use is after effects - i started learning it when covid first hit the united states because i had nothing better to do with my time (other than music theory but i failed that bc my professor focused more on the history aspects than the actual theory soooo) and my ipad kept giving me the "no more storage" whenever i tried to use videostar lmao. (vs has, apparently, gotten a LOT of good updates, so if you're looking to start editing and have an ios system, i'd look into it! only downside is you have to pay for some of the cool stuff).

also the program i use for masking (i think i explain this later dwdw) is superimpose. i've been using it since 2014 and it's SO nice bc i can use my fingers to erase backgrounds & stuff instead of hoping i can get it to work correctly in ae or photoshop (photoshop my DETESTED i'll use it but i'll complain the entire time).

for people who want to start editing: tutorials on how your program works and how to do specific transitions are gonna be your best friend when you're first figuring things out! i forced a friend to literally walk me through how after effects worked when i was first figuring it out, and when i had swapped to videostar back in 2017/2018(?) i had watched a Lot of tutorials. that and played around a lot and figured things out on my own - which is also always a good way to start!! it's also totally valid to look at other people's edits for inspiration - most editors don't really care, as long as you don't flat-out remake their edit (some people don't like that!). i have a style insp folder on instagram where i save edits that i like so if i need transition ideas or i'm doing a different style, i can look there for inspiration. at the end of the day, as long as you're having fun with it that's all that matters!

also, starting simple is always okay!! my edits for a year were just me slapping gifs & video segments together on a timeline in cute cut pro bc imovie didn't load them lol & it'd crash every time i breathed. ++ it never hurts to ask people for feedback/constructive(!!!) criticism/etc! (also not to sound like everyone else but practice? good. it's so good. if i showed my 14/15y/o self some of the edits i can make now they would've passed out on the spot bc i was still trying to figure out transitions back then. programs can also sometimes make a difference in edits, but usually it's not super noticeable until you start getting to the Complicated Shit.)

a lot of popular programs i've seen are ones like video star (ios only), alight motion (android only), after effects (i recommend 🏴‍☠️ing it tbh, i only use it legally bc i had to use adobe programs for school), capcut, and i think some people still use sony vegas pro & maybe cute cut pro (i've heard it may have actually gotten better since i last used it in 2018)? i have no idea. programs also depend on whatever device you're using to edit on! since i've been using my laptop, i'm able to use after effects (it's computer-only), but when i used my phone/ipad to edit i used ccp & vs.

for the animation - it's a lot of cutting up the image and masking! more complex animations, like the one i had of leo walking down that red 'hallway' have several different layers that have been masked. (i removed the background & filled in the spot where leo originally was in two different apps - superimpose (taking leo out) & photoshop (filling in the bg)) in after effects, the way i've done this was mask out the specific thing i wanted to move (like an eye) and then put that mask on what i've called a "base" (not animated), and then stick a solid behind the base to match the color of the object. (some of my layers are not named appropriately; base 2 is the left arm & the four "SIX_[...]" layers are the mask/bandana tails)

an example of this would be for any of the eye blink animations i did! this (above) is the same shot, with and without the eye - since it's masked out and i have the background solid behind it, it doesn't look too unnatural/have a black outline/mass where his eye should be.

what it looks like without the solid layer behind it ^ (the red lines are from the null layers - ignore that)

this is what my timeline looks like if it's a more simplistic animation - the only five things being animated here are leo & raph's eyes. (there's only this many layers bc it's two characters in one shot & i was also animating their pupils - typically, an eye-blink animation is about 4-6 layers for me (solid, base, mask, & null to animate with, 6 if i'm animating both eyes & 4 if just one))

in after effects, there's this really cool tool called the puppet pin that one of my friends (lovingly) yelled at me for not knowing about - which. yeah fair she wasn't wrong it's SUPER useful in animating, provided you chop up your image first. if you don't it's a mess.

(separated by layer vs i should've really put the mask tails & leo's head on separate layers and didn't bc that was the 2nd to last animation i had to do and i was losing my mind bc i wanted to be done with the edit lmao)

the way people animate depends all on their style (there's two common ways to do blinking animation - having the anchor point at the bottom of the eye, or the middle of it) and the program they use. it's been a while, but i could probably tell you how to do some basic animations on videostar still even though i've been doing them in after effects for about 2-3years now. ALSO the best way to have an animation be noticeable is to over-exaggerate it/make them Big - which, yes, can mean 'breaking bones' and having the limbs be a little wonky at the start. (if you want it to be realistic though go Just to the point where it looks uncomfortable lmao)

uhm. again i am so sorry that this is so long i THINK this is everything? if not: my inbox/dms are always open if you ever want to ask more questions, wanna follow up on something, etc etc!! (also if you ever start editing please send me your edits!!! i'd love to see them <3)

#this got away from me im SO sorry (just put this in google docs out of curiosity. 1255 words. i am so sorry for the essay.)#uhm. ANYWAY YES like i said if you have any other questions feel free to reach out!!! i am always alway willing to help people out #with stuff like this!!! i can talk your ear off though if this wasn't enough proof of that /j #if nothing makes sense it's bc i'm responding to this at like. 5am my time. so. my bad if there's typos i'm so sorry #like i think i saw this ask at 4:40ish am and i'm still making sure i've got everything covered and its like 5:32am LMAO #me when i dont sleep bc i have no routine now #ask box pals #art creds in the screenshots to trubblegumm !! <- tagging to be safe #still in shock at the amount of positive feedback im getting from my bb!leo edit like oh my god you guys are incredible ilysm /p #sorry i discovered in the middle of typing out my tags that you can edit them now after you've hit enter where am i.#also this is offtopic so its down here but i am Not complaining about doing more motion graphics than actual editing.#a bitch has won two awards for their motion graphics at festivals and i've been doing them for a YEAR #(laughs in the first time i ever did a real one i won a student award. idk how. but i DID and i won the pro category this year <3)#it would be nice tho to do more editing for short films tho :( had a professor tell me i was good at it.#i should rly start using my camera and shoot my own stuff and edit it huh. maybe i will eventually i have a few ideas.#anyway. i need to stop rambling abt my experience as a film student and go to bed i apparently need to be up in the morning but idk WHEN

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citrinesparkles · 9 months

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how many sideblogs is too many sideblogs

#citrine speaks #listen. listen #this is my comics blog.#sw gets its own.#live action superhero content has its own #grisha stuff is another #but the thing is. thats insufficient bc i keep finding myself reading New Fics and wanting to rb and scream but they dont fit into those #categories. and i cant break theme what are you on about #but also like. sometimes the fandom the new fic is for is too niche to warrant ANOTHER sideblog.#my intense urge to categorize and sort vs my... what is this #it's not reallllly minimalism this is like #idk it kinda feels like im like. telling myself no bc its a 'waste'#a waste of WHAT bitch???? of what??? omg please.#okay apparently this has been speedrunning a therapy session in the tags thanks for tuning in guys #the mind is such a trip. you mean i gotta write stuff down or say it out loud for me to identify my problems #why exactly can the thinking box not.... think through issues. hm?

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seilon · 11 months

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so the antihistamine i took yesterday was not an antihistamine but, in fact, off-brand paxil from mexico. so. that explains a lot

#sjhgfhgjdhdjhgfhsj #im assuming it interacted with my welbutrin and thats what's made me so fucking Sick #im honestly amused more than anything though hgdjfghdfjh this is so stupid #i had the intuitive sense to Not take my welbutrin today just in case and i think that was a good call #basically my mom couldnt get her meds in time for the cruise she went on and so she had to get some while in mexico after the cruise starte #and she forgot to take them out of the allergy meds box she was keeping them in just to not lose them and whatnot #so. yeah #tbh it probably wouldnt have been an issue cause ive taken SSRIs before (lexapro) and theyve never bothered me like this #but whatever the hell is up with welbutrin. the finnicky little bitch it is. i think did not mix well with paxil. or with paxil And adderal #at the same time #plus some ibuprofen and excedrin in there for good measure. and caffeine from coffee. and. yeah. unintentional bad drug cocktail #anyway im feeling... a little better now i think. at least better than last night when my whole body was shaking and my teeth were clamped #painfully shut because otherwise theyd chatter violently and all the muscles in my neck were strained and my vision was wonky and #my stomach was upside down and i was trying not to throw up through waves of nausea and so on and so on. fun stuff #now im just sorta shaky and a little lightheaded and my stomach is still......meh...... but not nearly as bad as yesterday #kibumblabs

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