#and sam is abel. thats what it comes down to. Augh.

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its so so insane how dean has like. the huge fanbase he does. he is AWFUL!!!! i love him truly but im known for loving awful characters in fandoms im used to characters who act like him being viciously hated!!! and the only explanation i can think of is that hes played by jensen ackles (aka pretty white man). theres the fact that the narrative favours dean a lot when hes not actually right (a la s4) but thats not just it because dean is pretty clear-cut presesnted as getting morally greyer to the point of antihero territory in like s9 (where im at) at least. and Yet. he is unproblematic ally king to all??? supportive brother of the century??? Girl what???? do you know who dean winchester is? he is a controlling possessive clingy manipulative aggressive unstable thirty five year old who cant grow past his own damage and never really will because the narrative is perpetuated by the cycles he keeps perpetuating

#thing is like. the narrative corrupts dean under the guise of heroism and makes him worse and worse while it punishes sam under the guise of #justice and hurts him more and more #its like how their most defining moments of hell trauma respectively is dean torturing others and sam getting tortured #dean is The Good One and sam is The Bad One but the narrative pushes dean so much and makes him so angry he breaks and gets worse #and more 'villainous' (bad word). and the narrative hurts sam so much for the crime of being born the bad son that he just becomes more and #more of a victim. at the start of the show dean is michael and sam is lucifer. thats their destined roles. but by season nine dean is cain #and sam is abel. thats what it comes down to. Augh. #and they need to keep being codependent and resurrecting each other and needing each other forever and ever and getting worse and more #damaged in tandem because thats how the show even exists. meta! #and all this is soo like. because in supernatural the narrative is god. god is the author of their book series. Christ #what a show. its SO good despite not being good at all. #spn #oliver talks #supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #spn meta